you say you care yet get pissed cuz im trying to confide in the one person i trust. each time i feel as if its safe to really talk to him again i get hell for it. hes the one who has kept me from depression, the one who has kept me from just sayin the hell with it and givin up again. it has nothing to do with you or against you but it seems like you always think it does. you never believe a word i say when i say that i just need my friendship with him. yeah so we said we wouldnt talk as much and yeah lately we have been but thats cuz he knows i need someone who can make me smile, and i know that he will do all he can to help make me feel better. i have tried all i can to keep from getting depressed again as it never ends good and the one way i have found that works is confiding in him, talking to him when it seems as if every thing is just going to fall apart on me. im sorry if that seems like we are talking too much , sorry if you cant let your paranioa go but thats the way it is. sometimes it makes me wonder if you really care the way you say you do.
