I have done my best to let things be and just stay friends. But it still seems as if thats not enough because every time i turn to him for a friend to talk to i get the third degree. He understands me and can make things seem better even though they really arent but for a few minutes he makes it feel like they are. You say you dont care we are friends but each time we talk you get jealous even though its simply bout things that are going on in my life. I have told you multiple times its just easier for me to talk to guys and he really understands me thats why i can talk to him bout everything and not you. its nothing against you. just the way i am. im dealin with so much right now that i need a friend who understands me, who i can randomly blow up at and know they wont take it personally, or just simply someone to listen who wont judge me. im sorry but that doesnt describe a single female i know. but it does describe him. thats why i always talk to him when im down. but it seems like all that does is cause more problems. I have tried letting things go the way they go but anymore it doesnt seem like that is possible because something bad always comes of it. im sorry that you and him still have a lot of problems but i have nothing to do with that as much as you may think i do. you tell me you guys are having issues yet at the same time tell me that you love me and want things to work between us...well how the hell is that supposed to happen cuz last i checked when you are having emotional issues it affects every thing and everyone you are close to. hell thats why i have just backed off...i know im a fuckin emotional train wreck and didnt want that to hurt us but it still obviously is even though i have backed off a lil. im sorry that me confiding in him has hurt you but i have nobody else i trust the way i do him. do what you have to do from here on out cuz im sick of always gettin shot down when i try confiding in someone when i try makin it so im not bottleing everything up. trying obviously isnt working so im done. when you think things are good enough for us to maybe try workin things out you know where i am. but right now i cant handle the random blow ups and the make me feel like shit comments....i have enough to deal with i dont need that too
