Fear is the worst four letter word.
It is not any other one.
Fear can take hold of you,
Make you turn to things you never would have.
My fears have taken me to places
I never wanted to go.
I married one man fear made me do it
Fear of being alone for eternity
My fears made me drop out of college
become a secretary, get pregnant
I got married, and fear was always there.
I had my first son and fear just stood there.
It mocked me for 26 years.
It was always there to watch me crumble.
It held my hand and changed my mind
When I would get strong.
For 26 years I lived in its shadow.
It guided me down wrong paths
Made me so affraid of success that,
I settled for failure, over and over again.
And then one day I woke up.
I told fear to go play in traffic
That I was not going to be affraid anymore
I was going to become who I've always known I could be.
So here I am a few months without fear.
I am strong at times, I am still affraid at points.
I am terrified of falling in love again
I am terrified of failing at being a decent parent.
But fear won't be here guiding me.
Leading my life, to its own accord.
I will be taking to my life with a vengence.
I will be fearless.
