so i been thru alot these days a lil hell and i am trying to be me again and its hard sometimes .. really hard
i dont know i i just feel scard when iam along these days ... its like i feel a lil lost in everthing
i know i can do things but i dont always let my self i glad the world is always wiling to bed for me
i staring out he window of my pent house really wondering how i neded up here its my dads so what i am here he wasnmt ther when i was a younger at all never helped my mom
its kinda like being in a differnt world realy i goneform a lil beach town to this cit y and i never really good how it fetl to stare out he window and just watch the whole world walking driving screaming by i see the ppl across the way having sexs that or killing each otherer o see so few of them with tehre lights on lol
i kinda wonder who sees me ...
not that that matters i just relized in being here theres so much more that i neverfelt like there was and that i could do more then i do
i am in school i havnt been in school full tiem since i was 16 now i go to film school and i with all these insane rich kids and older ppl who done it all and r now doing ewhat they love
its nice to do what u loe i wana do this forever
