I know i may only be a simple man from way back off in the woods somewhere, but i can not help how or the way it is i feel. My heart feels as if it is being ripped apart and there's nothing i can do to stop the pain and agony.
Many times i feel like i never was meant to be happy in my life, because all i seem to do is bring pain and misery to those i care for and about. Guess is my life plan that was laid out long ago by some higher power than mine.
Wishing i only knew the way, to have you understand just how deeply i truly am in love ith you. Knowing now that it is not i who makes you all joyful and alive, but only sad and depressed all the time in this here life.
Guess maybe i should go so that everyone can have a better life with me gone, than what they have now while i'm around. All i am good for it seems is to just be a burden to all. This is why i say, may GOD have mercy on this soul of mine.
Each day that passes me by, has me thinking about how come i am such a failure at everything in life.Never being able to make people proud of me, but only having them wish me gone from society, as an outcast or danger to them.
I know here soon, i shall no longer have these things or others to worry about any more. For i realize that my best place of residence or living, is in a place thats far away from anyone and everything that is living!!!!!!
P.J.Page 11/12/08 10:47pm
