so there was a time in my life where I expected things to just happen for me, I expected the guy I was with to start treating me well. Never realizing that the person is who they are from the beginnnig. NO one can change a person, nor should they try to. I've had points of devastation, quickly replaced by bliss. I was Devastated when I found out the truth to most of these so called men. These men would take my health for granted so that they could enjoy the company of other woman, not ever thinking that maybe they were hurting me. So I'm healthier mentally than I have ever been. Going through a divorce can help you find yourself. I've found I'm not willing to settle, I'm not willing to put up with bullshit, nor am I going to try to find a guy I can "change". I want to find a guy who is everything to me, makes me laugh, holds me when i cry, makes me feel alive inside. Takes me for who I am and does not ask me to be different just for his friends or family. In turn expects his friends and family to just accept me for me. Not wanting to change me, enjoys my vulgar mouth, loves that I put my kids first. Finds it attractive that at 27 i'm going back to college to get a degree. I'm determined to succeed in this life come hell or high water, I will be what I want to be. I will not expect the grand life, I don't need huge diamond rings, pimped out houses, just the little things that let me know that you care. The text message mid work shift to just say "Baby I'm thinking about you, and can't wait until you get home!" I want a reason to not go out after work that you are my reason for wanting to come home after a hard shift. That i know I'll walk in to you open arms to wipe away any stress that occured while i was working. I want simplicity, is that so much to ask for?
