im lost. im lost between life. im lost between my mind. im lost in myself. im lost in this world. the way i think of things. the way i think of people. the way i feel for me. the way i feel for others. there is nothing good left in my heart i believe. i try and try and try but never do nothing but seem to upset people or push them away. LOVE. Thats a interesting subject in my life. when i tell someone i love them. im never trusted. when i tell them i love them im sought to be just another guy saying it to get what i want.im always taken for granted no matter how nice i am or how good i am. nothing seems to be anyway that i want it. the way i feel for others doesnt seem to matter. the way i care period is never wanted. im always doing one of two things. im either to nice and good or not good enough. im never right for you. im never right for her. im never right for anyone. im never right for everyone. im lost and never found by the right things it seems. im never found by one who is close or keeps me close to there heart. im never found by me. im never found by you. GOD. WELL THATS A JOKE. he finds only the worse to put me through. im his jester as much as i dont want to be. well ill end this pathetic blog. basically the fact of the matter is. im just not worth it. have fun you all. im yet to find what and why im here. so....
