So I'm finally healthy. I spent a few weeks being crazy, not thinking about my family or my kids. I did what I wanted and did not care what others thought. I hurt a few people, I took things and people for granted. I was not myself, or maybe I was. So here I am about 15 days away from living with my parents. Actually happy about it. I've packed I've traveled, I've found people who get me. Who expect me to be me, and are ok with me being a consistant parent. My kids are my life, and I'm finally seeing how me being a nice, hands on mommy is working in my favor. I love my life finally at 27! It is important to give myself weekly checks to make sure I am doing the right things. I need to find a new job one that pays better, I need to go back to college, I need to save up as much money as I can. I need to be a good daughter, sister, and above all else a wonderful mother. Yes eventually I will be in a relationship, hopefully he will understand my kids come first. I enjoy the time I'm spending with Erin, and Brad. Brad helps me see what a wonderful person I can actually be, and Erin listens to everything and anything I need to talk about. Oh yeah and she watched a filthy movie with me so I would not have to do it alone! I don't think I"ve ever been like this before, and I'm ok with that. I'm not going to rush anything anymore, I'm just going to take it all in stride and slowly. So I'm at peace with Rachel or if I'm at work Raquel.
