..i have a twin sister who is the yen 2 my yang. She has a beautiful soul but her mind is sick; her spirit is crippled & is, there4, fundamentally bad. I love her but do not like her. I, too, am mentally ill. DON'T BE SCARED! I function well most days & have the know w/ all 2 stay the hell away from the world when im not. Its the nature of the beast; it runs deep n my mother's family & affects mostly the women. I am not lost because i know that a sick head is chemistry. My soul is wise & my heart is happy so there is a perpetual belief that theres a cold beer & a hug on the other side of my hell. It makes the crawl thru much easier 2 toler8. Does that make sense? I hav an xtremely low self esteem but am selfless by nature so it doesn't diminish the quality of my life. I'v never had an enemy. Every1 i have evr known has loved me & does love me still. I fall in love easily but without pain and it is forever. I am happy when sum1 i love falls n love w/ anothr. love isnt a possession.
..i am terrible with math. i cannot remember fone numbers or d8s. At a recent gov't mule concert, I blew warren haynes a kiss which he caught in mid air and put n the pocket of his blue jeans. i wanted 2 remember the d8; lookd @ ticket stub date and remember it still; am proud of myself. sharing this because i'm rarely proud of me. i h8 nothing and no1. i cannot stand 2 be told 2 shut up. u can tell me 2 shut the fuk up or shut the hell up.. this i don't mind. just so long as an xpletive is thrown nbetwn the 2, it's ok. lol. i'm allergic 2 mayonnaise. my favorite food is tomatoes (dirty and warm from the sun) and fried okra. willie nelson is the first man i ever loved.
.. i have a list of 5 people with whom i'd like 2 meet b4 i die. Warren Haynes is 1; followed by Willie Nelson, Stephen Asma (who wrote a book that gave me peace), Ajahn Brahm (a buddhist monk w/ a sexy london accent), and my 5th is open and ever changing. It's my failsafe. i make the 5th sum1 w/ whom i may actually meet. i'm out of thoughts. please ask me anything and i will answer u. i have no imaginary line 4 which u may not cross. i am open and honest by default. i will tell u anything u want. i'v just exhaustd my loose reverie of self reflection. i'm ordinary..so much so that i find it difficult 2 produce riveting subject matter. ~lmfao.