blah blah me's blog: "Poems ( i always write what i am feeling and thinking)"

The tears are falling like falling rain
the screams are loud like the clash of thunder
the thoughts are filling inside my head
i just want out to feel no pain any longer

looking out the window staring into space
thinking of you and seeing your face
hearing the sound of your voice in my head
and feeling the pain inside and emptiness again

I look into the sky, and ask for his help
asking for peace the way i once felt
getting no answers only sadness remains
wondering what I have done to stay in pain

"am i being punished"? I have asked,
still no answers then i think of the past
the things that was good once upon a time
then i look into the future and see no light

thoughts of wonder about happiness enters my head
wondering what it's like, my heads such a mess
friends reach out and try to help
i shut the door and sit by myself

all i want is for you to want me
as much as i do you
i never asked much of you
other than to love me true
i get a part of you, that is not enough
i need all of you, and not just when you want....

so I will sit and cry these tears
drowning in sorrow and deep fears
wanting things that i cannot have
wandering thoughts filling my head
one day ill be gone
and away from here
and then maybe then i will have no fears...