What Do You Have When I Am Gone
All I have to give is all my heart essence and soul depth within a raging passion flame for you.
Whatcha you see is not always whatcha you get.
I will never be crazy women chasing after you
Or
Picture snapping paparazzi trying too catch a nasty picture of you.
All I have to give you is completeness when you need someone to be there for you not the person everyone in the world wants to be with.
He said, she said shit will never mislead my heart and soul from you.
It ain’t real love unless you put all your heart and soul into it.
People say big girls don’t cry,
But
Baby, I am willing to cry forever for you and over you.
Some say walk away.
Some say for me to stop wasting my time on you.
Time after time, you are never stopping long enough to just see me here only wanting and needing your friendship.
You are the one that shake my world upside down, but I will never become like all the others chasing after you.
I will not come after your love, if you don’t reach out to me.
I will never beg for you to come get my love because I am strong woman that can walk upon life long journey as your friend only.
Too many women in your life or around you are in contest to win your heart and soul, but too many of them are just false yesterday trembling winds on a lost news weather report.
My heart flutters each time I hear you have been hurt.
My soul wings stretch out,
But
No way do I run to you.
I wait for you to reach out to me.
All I have to give you is everything real from my heart and soul.
Never will I be screaming from the edge of cliff why you don’t love me looking out the deep blue sea beneath me wishing to fall forever out of life.
You may be a God to all those chasing after you,
But
Darling.
To me you are such more and just simply you.
I can see what you or those crazy women chasing women don’t see.
The real desire within you that is raging to be free.
The real passion lurking within you that you have yet to share with someone.
The hopes and dreams you wish to dare, but you have yet to dare them.
Can’t you see?
All I have to give you is simply everything you need to be just you and nothing more.
Within your words,
Within your sultry eyes,
I see the unwritten pages of destiny.
Don’t you know because of you?
I linger here in the shadow hoping and praying one day.
You will reach out to me.
I will here there for you yesterday, today and always tomorrow, even if you don’t need me.
Letting go of you is like never dancing again.
I pray to God than you came along in my life.
You were the answer to my pray sent by him.
Angel sent to make me dare all my hidden dreams.
All I have to give is everything and so much more if you ever turn to me.
If you gotta be somebody,
Just be yourself, the man I love in secret, until the day you reach out to me.
All I have to give to you is now written upon the walls of sweet endless echoes that you don’t see, hear or read.
Never will I ask to come over.
Never will I linger for just one touch from you upon my flesh.
Never will ask you pretty please love me instead of her.
Even thought that lurks deep within my heart, I will never say them out to you.
Never will miss or long for your lips kissing me good-morning.
Never will refuse to dare life because you turn away forever from me.
These words I know fall upon paper will never be seen or read by you.
I will be strong and firm.
I will not fall to my knees in tears.
No more wishing to belong to you.
All I have to give to you is now hidden away.
Whatcha you see….
Is no longer me, but women out to use you.
Whatcha you think and know….
Is no longer the truth coming lying lip of false women?
Whatcha you want and need now from me….
It may be too late to get now from me, so now you will be the one losing sleep and pacing floors endless.
What do you have when I am gone?
Nothing but falseness surrounding you, because everything I have to offer you, you let slip by you.
©2009 Firestar
