You know lately it has become harder and harder to just care about everything anymore. I mean What do you do when you realize theres no point?
I say this only because in the last few months so much has happened to make me care less about the world. My son has been moved to Washigton because his mother is Evil and likes to use our son against me to get her way, when I put my foot down and said I had enough she packed up the kids and runs away taking from me the best part of my life. She stalks me through here and various other methods and not just me but the people I care about. I can't have a relationship because I'm so worried that she will destroy it.
I'm back in college but it has even lost the excitement of making my future better.
I lost the only job I've had in 2 years because if I didn't quit some employees and a supervisor would have killed me for sticking up for myself.
I'm still in love with a woman who I now realize will never love me like that again because I'm a fucking idiot, and all I want to do is convince her not to go back home in about a year.
My family uses me and when I need their help it's like I'm diseased and they want nothing to do with me.
I'm trying so hard to find the good in people and in the things I do but when it's like this it's too hard and I get so lost.
But then what can I do? it just feels so hopeless.