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Poison Chalice
Here's a good one. Earlier today a teacher was subjected to an attempt on her life. Her drink was spiked with hair dye during a lesson, as well as another student spitting in it. Luckily one of the less criminal kids told her before she drank that. That's the kind of school I work at....

Morning
good morning lover it's time to wake up look what the new day brought a promise of rain a roar of thunder a flash of lightning a trembling that shakes us like an earthquake as we hold each other tight as love flows like magma we rock there together in the dawn's smoldering light hours pass, time stands still you whisper moan into my ear mmmmmmmmmm I love you I smile and stroke your face and gaze in to your eyes such a wonderful day for a storm

Wake Me
Wake me from this dark dreaming Bring be a smile for my lips Give me a sign to start scheming how I'd hold you by the hips I see your blue eyes gleaming shining at me across the room I read in them a secret meaning telling me you want me too Around one question we dance I think we need to answer soon Is it time for some sweet romance? shall we dance to a sweeter tune?

Hearts Of Fire
She smiles and looks deep into my eyes, I see her need come pouring out to me She nuzzles close, and whispers in my ear, softly whispering words that I want to hear sweet lover there is something I must say something I need to take my breath away For I have a confession that I must make, of a million ways to make my body quake of smoldering hungers down deep inside A desire for something that we can share made flesh to fulfill all of our secret needs make us burn with empassionened deeds

Some Insight Since I Get Asked So Often As To Why Im Not On In The Evenings'wknds
Ok im gonna make this quick as to why 1. 3yrs ago this fathers day..dad had his bike wreck that left him with a Traumatic Brain Injury...so he is pretty much like having a group of 6yr olds...thus, why i moved essentially into the house next door to them to help mom out as i am the only sibling in the area.... 2. had to put Grandma into a home last year due to her severe stroke..i had bought her a home 3 doors down from me...so i have 2 mortgages to pay and all the fixings that come with home ownership..and also go to see her everyday 3. im having kid number 4...soooooooooooooooo my plate is full with being a daddy and the woman always works afternoons..sooooooooooooo well thats pretty much why

A Message From Your Bartender
From your Bartender Someone once pointed out to me the fact that there seems to be a micro-economy in the service industry. Restaurant workers take their tip money out to bars and clubs at night and give it to the bartenders, who promptly return it to the waiters and waitresses the next day at lunch. The cycle is almost self-sufficient and is mutually beneficial. Knowing the pain of waiting on customers, each group tips the other well and never raises a fuss. These people do not need to be educated. The rest of you do. Many of us have stood in a noisy, crowded bar and asked, "What's a guy got to do to get a drink around here?" Well, you're about to find out. Here are some Do's and Don'ts that will keep the relationship between the bartender and bar patron running smoothly. DON'TS Fail to have your money ready We're waiting on you. Everyone else is waiting on us. Therefore, by the Transitive Property of Equality, everyone is waiting on you. Rule 1: Have your shit together. Not onl

Lets Dance.
Lets Dance.created @ 2008-09-17 17:02:24 Let's Do a danceA Dance to deathDeath of romanceRomance and loveLove of anotherAnother never to holdTo hold never moreNevermore to danceThe dance of romanceIt's time to dance againTo find the right partnerFor the tango of loveWe start with a step n a twirlPain travels up you legAs a few feet are stepped onIt's nothing personalthat's just the way it goesAround an around we goTired of going through partnersBut sooner or latter I'll find the oneAn the dance will endWith a passionate kiss.

Nothing.
Nothingcreated @ 2007-05-23 14:24:35 Taste my lipsTaste my bloodBoth of crimsonFeel my heartFeel my breathsign of lifeTaking a chance, I'm opening upDon't play games,And treat me like a whoreJust hold me, and be my friendsListen to to your heartListen to my wordsAre they the sameArms locked around each otherCuddle close to each otherDoes this feel rightI'll do whatever I need too to make you happyJust tell me hot to please youDon't hurt me, so I don't hurt youFriends,lovers, or what ever it don't matterJust let this moment last for alwaysNo cares for you take them awayFor we are nothingNothing is how it should beI to you and you to meNOTHING and nothing moreJust NOTHINGnothing

Strength
First off...I am not sure why I am writing about this, but I just had the overwhelming urge to get this off my chest. I was at Wal-mart this morning and I bought a few things. (A 10-lb kettle ball and some resistance bands.) As I was leaving and on my way to work, I was thinking about strength. The conclusion I have come up with is that strength isn't just about muscles and training your body to withstand tougher physical pressure. True strength comes from within. Anyone can lift weights and look stronger, but few can withstand the pressure of life itsef. For example: The mother whose child is in the ICU fighting cancer, trying to hold it together so her baby doesn't give up... The parent who just lost his wife and 2 daughters in a car crash involving a drunk driver... The wife whose husband just walked out on her and her 3 children because he fell in lust with his secretary... The young girl who finally had sex with her boyfriend because he promised they would be together for

Update
I won't be on again until about 4:30 this evening. But I went to the doctor and I have a sinus infection. I'm on moxatag and nasonex. I can't work tomorrow and I'll be staying at my Mom's tonight. Talk to you all later.

Tell Me.
Tell me.created @ 2008-05-11 15:27:36 Tell Me.Tell me now what you feelTell me never againTi's a lie or Ti's a lineHeart's torn in tow by that phrasenever to know the it's truthwords no just sound'sWord's have powerWord's have truth's and Lie'sSound's have no meaningSounds are beautiful and chaoticSounds are Lie's of truth'sTell me now or neverTell me once ore foreverAre these word's or sound'sAre they real words or sound's writtenWritten sounds are false sound'sOnly the thought, the memory make them realSo are they word's or soundsSo do they hold Truth or Lie'sTell me nowtell me never againWhat those word's you said?I love you and in love with youAre they Words or soundsTell me; NowTell me; Never again.

Useless Information I Discover While The Rest Of You Are Sleeping.
RANDOM USELESS TRIVIA The eight most popular foods to cause food allergies are: milk, eggs, wheat, peanuts, soy, tree nuts, fish, and shellfish. The early occurrence of a foetus yawning is at eleven weeks after conception. The average ear grows 0.01 inches in length every year. The gastric flu can cause projectile vomiting. The Dutch are known to be the tallest people in Europe. Studies have shown that the scent of rosemary can help in better mental performance and make individuals feel more alert. Some brands of toothpaste contain glycerine or glycerol, which is also an ingredient in antifreeze. Soaking beans for twelve hours in water before they are cooked can reduce flatulence they cause. Scientists say that babies that are breastfed are more likely to be slimmer as adults than those that are not breastfed. Scientists have determined that having guilty feelings may actually damage your immune system. Research has indicated that approximately eleven minutes are

My Decision Was Made By
My decision not to have this surgery was based on two law enforcement officers desire to follow me. Could of made a right, went straight, or even the left with me and into Wawa or the Shoprite. Did yo have fun? I hope so because my blood is on your hands alone along with the one that created my circumstances and all those the lied and manipulated. Most are MD's or DO's. I was going to over look everything, but yesterday morning left a bad taste in my mouth. Like the good ol' days in Deptford Twp. It is time for me to move on. Glory to God Norio

Shaun-sizzle 2 P-nizzle.....and Antrock In A Meezle....
Savv-Rock- My crew shines true - supernatural , like the third eye on a blind dude. Let me remind you - B-K-P-S is a life-style; fuck a rhyme, fool. I'll blow the hand off the sign you throw up, if it ain't mine: schooled. Like a mine field and if it mine - screwed. Kinda' rude, hella nice - tried and true, immaculate, like Jesus Christ to a ripe bruise.. Each1Teach1 of Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: fuck is up with the lack of nice crews? need to take heed and some advice too, if you aint coming hard as fuck you aint spitten to the right dude, better hope you catch yer boy in a nice mood, cause i crumble flakes into the water like fish food, B is to the K like its P into the S, synonymous with ridonkulous when we rockin this...youd need the 3rd eye of an eagle or a hawkeye with a twist, to even catch a spy report before you conquer this...Teach1 sponsors this, and any and all broadcasts, download it to yer eye phone, subcribing to my podcast... SAVV Br

The Problem Is....
The problem is we're all out for self, in a world thats consumed by greed and wealth..Its a dog eat dog and we're cannibals for capitol, and the will to survive in the animal is natural... SAVV Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: Amen, this is true - just like the World will try to to treat you like a cage and rattle you. But, I'm a rattle snake - not to be fucked with, unless you like to battle, dude... venomous and flammable and I grind for my kind, like the teeth on a cannibal. Drow and Savv, set to war on the empire's ways like the generals of Hannibal. We gives not a fuck, cause it ain't about wishes and luck - it's about the fact that I can't fuckin' stand you, can't stand your ways and wouldn't lend you hand if you were drowin', fool and I'm clownin', too. But, for real though... real cats strive for heart, respect and love of the art and trump theses ass holes that grind for a li'l dough. Tryna' front like you got the capital for a yacht, but it's your

Changing Things Up Around Here
So, because of the drama with my ex and people in general... I'm not going to post NSFWs anymore... I swear, it is as though its a magnet for haters anyhow. I am however, going to start posting more "personal" pictures, as you will see with the uploads from today. I'm going through my friend's list again to do a little Spring Cleaning... and FYI... I dont care if you buy me something before or after you request me... you will NOT be added without at least giving a reason OR a salute unless I actually know you in real life and I know why you don't have a salute... so no more empty requests or non-saluted profiles....

A Special World
A special world for you and meA special bond one cannot seeIt wraps us up in its cocoonAnd holds us fiercely in its womb.Its fingers spread like fine spun goldGently nestling us to the foldLike silken thread it holds us fastBonds like this are meant to last.And though at times a thread may breakA new one forms in its wakeTo bind us closer and keep us strongIn a special world, where we belong

Ok Part 2 Fukers
ok ok ok i know i was venting lil on the last one but ohh hell small town drama hit again and i was 5 hrs away in a other fuking town im like goddamn u got to be fuking jokeing .... But Noooo fukers what to fuk up my weekend when im chillin at a car show with my friend and g/f drinking and having a good time FUCK what next ....then to top off my week i got fuck up fuck up my hand broke my noise and i just got FUCK UP just leave at that sooooo ill add more going to the fuking doc today see ya soon Part 3 soon fukers

Just Like Alway This Is A Blooming Rant
Just one of those days huh... been getting a fair few of these days recently, one thing after another and just begs the question is just annoying the fuck out of me. I deleted a good chunk of people from my family and friend’s people that only want YOU to rate them and not the other way around... I mean how fucking hard is it to return a rate IF rates are what your after? Wake the fuck up... I know a good lot of you are not here for point’s lol YOU lot stay on my family and friends because you’re actually my friends... but the rest of you... stop bitching that you’re not getting rates... I don’t give a flying fuck really and if I have to see that shit all day I’m just going to delete your fucking ass real quick! Been getting angry more and more lately... don’t know why for sure... there are many reasons but none point to the bigger picture, like point whores though sometimes fun to talk to recently they get more and more selfish... they ask for

Oh La La Chocolate...
The genus name of chocolate, Theobroma derives from the Greek theos, “god,” and “broma,” “food,” thus meaning “food of the gods.” The common name chocolate derives from an Aztec name for this plant, chocolatl. Cocoa was the “love tonic” of Montezuma II, who is reputed to have drunk some fifty cups daily before visiting his harem of six hundred women.In 1502 the returning crew of Columbus brought cacao beans back to Europe, and in 1550 nuns came up with the idea of adding sugar and vanilla, leading to what we now regard as chocolate. During the 1800s, physicians recommended chocolate to boost libido, and to this day it is well known for its ability to inspire passion.Cacao is considered aphrodisiac, antioxidant, cardiotonic, diuretic, emollient, laxative, nervous system stimulant, and nutritive. Cacao increases levels of serotonin and endorphins in the body. It gives a short-term boost in energy and, when consumed in its whole,

I Consume
When I close my sleepy eyesAnd I rest my dreary headI desire you lying next to meAnd dream you in my bed A single wave of ecstasy rolls through my spineAnd expels down to my toesI shiver and feel you breath on my breastsYour lips are soft and oh so cold And as you drink me with your eyesMy mind is devouring youYour lips upon my navelThen you soothe me through and through It’s like a wind of surging passionConsuming and controlling meLike the devil we play a game of heartsBut I know you play for keeps .: poem written by Lolita Valentine :.

Cisco Ccna / Ccnp Certification Exam
CCNA is the second level certification in the Cisco career certification process; this course includes the basic aspect of Local Area Network (LAN) such as installation, configuration, operation, and troubleshooting of mid-size route and switched networks, also including implementation and authentication of connections to remote sites in a Wide Area Network (WAN). CCIE Certification Training acknowledges networking professionals’ ability in planning, implementation, verification and troubleshooting of LAN and WAN. CCNP certified professionals also work closely with experts on highly developed networking security, voice, wireless and video solutions. Both CCNA and CCNP certifications are generally offered to networking professionals having at least 1 year of practical experience in networking. In order to cope with the dynamic changing taking place in IT industry and Cisco, one has to understand what new courses or subjects are being added to the current Cisco certifications. F

Love
there have been many woman in my life. i have had enof of wondering from bed to bed. i want to sedle down with this girl that i am with now for once. i cant seem to get enof of her. i am livin with her right now with her sister. i never want to leave this girl. i want to have a family and grow old with. i want her in my arms al the time. her eyes are like deep pools of cristel cear water that has never been touched by mans hand. she walks like an angel so graseful and... i dont know how to put it in to words.. i am going to think some more than i will post a nother blog later rtl

Worlds Of God
There is a special relationship between the soul and the body, which together form a human being. This relationship lasts only the span of a mortal life. When this ceases, each one returns to its origin, the body to the world of dust and the soul to the spiritual worlds of God. Having emanated from the spiritual realms, created in the image and likeness of God, and capable of acquiring divine qualities and heavenly attributes, the soul after its separation from the body, progresses for all of eternity and will experience existences in the coming worlds of God after this one. One should evolve and feed the soul with prayer and supplication so that it will be on a higher level in the next of many worlds of God to come in the future of ones soul.

En Barcelona Va Llegando La Primavera
Hola de nuevo a todos, com ya sabéis soy un gran aficionado al bingo pero estoy candado de este invierno tan largo y me apetece salir a caminar por las montañas y el campo. La primavera está comenzando a llegar a Barcelona. la verdad es que ya tenía muchas ganas aunque le está costando y hoy hace un día bastante nublado. hace poco nevó en una tarde lo que oohabía nevado en todo el invierno. Muy buenos días a todos y os deseo un muy buen día. Regards from Barcelona

Once Upon A Wicked Dream
I wake up in a room. It is very dark, yet I can hear the crackle of fire on either side of me. A fireplace or sconces on the wall, perhaps. I must be blindfolded, that is why it is so dark. I shake my head. Try to dislodge the blindfold. It is too firmly tied, allowing no light in at all. I have just my ears and nose for senses. My arms are tied behind my back. Encased in some sort of glove so that I cannot feel my fingers touching each other. My elbows are bent so that my palms are cupping the opposing elbow, forcing my shoulders into a straight posture, and my breasts to protrude out in front of my body. I am resting on my bottom in some sort of hard chair. My legs are tied as well... bent at the knee with a rope around my thigh and calf to keep them tightly bound. The rope on either side of my knee is then pulled outward and anchored so that my thighs are spread very wide apart. I am tilted back at an angle so that most of my weight is being supported by my ass, althoug

One For Her ;)
"My Heart"I gave my heartto a snow white doveand said to itseek out my loveMy hearts desirethe one for mefly about the earthand over the seasTime went byseasons came and wentand impatiently I waitedwith my heart near rentThen one fine spring daythat lovely birdflew back to meand this is what I heardI found her, I didfar across the wavesthe most beautiful girland your heart she did saveI spoke of beginningsand things to comeand that wonderful birdtold me all of her loveI met my true heartmy only desirethat fabulous girlthe fuel for my fireAnd to her I gavemy undying soulfor her to haveand she to holdNow all is welland everythings fineand for her I will alwayshold onto these linesMy sweetest, my loveI will always be thinefor ever and alwaysuntil the end of timeI love you, I love you, with all my heartmy soul, my being, and all that I haveand for you I would do anything at allfor just a kiss, and your love as a salve I love you baby

The Superficial American Life
For some reason as of late I'm extremely bothered by the superficialness of our nation in general. It seems to be we have become more obsessed with self worship our facebook pages flaunt photo shopped images of ourselves and our friends. it is no longer good enough to just be healthy we now have to be unrealistically thin, ridiculously tan, and if you are a woman extremely stacked on top or if you're a man well packaged at the bottom. It is no longer valuable to be judged on the content of your character rather it is more important to focus on the outward hollow shell. The images in the mirror hold more importance to our younger generation encouraged by reality tv and various other forms of influence. I don't think there is much I can do to change how the way things are but I can only make sure that I do not myself become what I despise the most a superficial lie.

Who I Am And Where I'm At, Part One
I'm Brett, for starters and I've been called by many names in my life. I was Cowboyfor 4 ish years, and for 4 ish years I was also known as Kitt. Back in my early days of hitch-hiking the countryside (which I did for 13 years) especially in Alice Springs, I was known as Waco, though they all pronounced it Wacko, lol. At the very start of my hitch-hiking days I was called Kidd Bowie, because of my particular fondness for the Bowie knife and the Legend behind the original. It was only after becoming a father that I took to the name Brett, after 30 years of living was I happy to be acknowledged as what my birth certificate recorded. I look at it now and realise it was because my father had named me Brett, and if there is anyone on this planet that I despise or loathe more, then i have yet to discover it. It was this hate, a hate that ate at me for so many years it turned me into a bitter, sullen, angry, rebellious young man, that was my chip on my shoulder, my cross to bear and I think ov

You Know Your From Louisiana When...
You Know You're from Louisiana When...- Your sunglasses fog up when you step outside, even in December.- You reinforce you attic to store Mardi Gras beads.- You don't look twice when you see pink flamingos in yards of nice subdivisions during Mardi Gras.- You save newspapers, not for recycling but for tablecloths at crawfish boils.- Your ancestors are buried ABOVE the ground.- You drink Community Coffee, have tried Starbucks, but don't see what all the fuss is about.- You take a bite of Five-Alarm Chili and reach for the Tobasco.- Every once in a while, you have waterfront property.- You sit down to eat boiled crawfish and your host says, "Don't eat the dead ones," and you know what they mean.- You don't learn until high school that Mardi Gras is not a National Holiday.- You push little old ladies out of the way to catch Mardi Gras beads.- Little old ladies PUSH YOU out of the way to catch Mardi Gras beads.- You believe that PURPLE, GREEN, and GOLD look good together.- Your last name i

All Roads Lead To Four
Yesterday I posted as a status on Facebook how the number four (4) is the only number with the same amount of letters as its English name. In addition, any number you choose will eventually lead you back to four; for example, six (6) has three letters, then three (3) has five letters, and (5) has four letters, with four … About an hour later I got a reply from a friend I grew up with who’s now a kindergarten teacher; she said her class heard that the same day (yesterday)! Just one of many tidbits I’ve gleaned from Derrick Niederman’s 2009 book “Number Freak” (ISBN 9780399534591), and I expect I’ll be sharing more. There are certain facts about every number in the book from one to two hundred, such as whether it’s prime or composite (only divisible by 1 and itself or not) as well as its frequency in popular culture, history, and mathematical usefulness. More than you would think; I used a fact about the number six (6) being a per

Something I Wrotei Read And Understand It As If It Were Truly You. I Wonder If You Read It, Do You Feel... I Read Between The Lines And Come Off Harsh
I read and understand it as if it were truly you. I wonder if you read it, do you feel... I read between the lines and come off harsh, though it’s the only way I know for my pain to flow. For inside love, the pain does grow. My heart can never truly settle. My heart does still hear you, see you. It’s the pain as in the book. It takes your life away. Should the truth be held inside for all your life? Do we all not have our faults? Would you not agree that there is more strength and pride in love compared to anything? When love fails in your heart, you find a point to concentrate, and that is all you have. Always a haunted open space filled with the longing of being filled once more. We call this lonely. This space can never be entirely filled. If truly someone is dead in your mind, does that mean they die also in your heart? I suppose they do not, but that means you cannot move. You settle instead. Settling comes with honest loneliness. Never to fulfill. We ha

Auction Auction Auction
So heres the deal im holding an auction im looking for atleast 10 people to enter. when i get enough people the auction will start hoping for march 29th to april 5th. private message me a pic you would like for people to see ( plz make it sfw) there is no enter fee (tips to the auctioneer is appericated) what you are offering for the auction payment of highest bider will take place no later than the fallowing friday after bidding ends or forfeiting to next highest bidder have any questions private message me

Contest In Desert Hideaway
wet t shirt and boxer contest in desert hideaway must b a member of dh and no face shots for more details hit me up on dreameerr@yahoo.com(please leave comments here must have ur pictures sent to me by April 4 11:59pm estcontest starts @ 12:00am monday April 5 morning to sunday nite at 11:59pm est April 11th will b prize announced later its the most rates contest

Baudelaire To His Love By: Joseph T. Shipley
BAUDELAIRE TO HIS LOVEby: Joseph T. ShipleyUXURIOUS languid tiger-lily, swayingUnconcerned, my lips are burned with the kissYou waft me, my head turned, and I swoon with bliss.Out of the anguish of your arms I'm prayingThat life shall end with this. You are my memory of Egyptian sunsWhen I adored the phallic pyramidsAnd found you couched beside the Sphinx, that bidsBeware. Frantic and vain my dream that onceLove seeped through drowsy lids. Where no gods be, man makes his god, and youAre god or devil fashioned for my woe;From you my pangs and parlous pleasures flow;Would I had strength to be blasphemous, untrue,Would I could bid you go! But all a hemisphere whirls in the tressYou shake at me; imprisoned there I dwell.Its secret dreads I do not dare to tell;It is my paradise--ah! who will blessMe with the gift of hell! And you have loved before--if the flaming passionThat roars through you to what it shall consume,Be love--and I would wring an awful doomOn those who held you first, and I

Number 16 For Tiger
According to her husband, Devon James is the #1 internet searched girl. Why is she you ask? It’s because she’s Tiger Woods alleged sex partner #16. The husband, Kevin James, is a porn star who said he, Devon and Tiger did the 3 some thing. Wouldn’t it be something if there was a Tiger porn audition video? http://entertainment.blogs.foxnews.com/2010/03/24/devon-james-husband-wife-slept-with-tiger-woods/?test=faces BlastFM auditions 24/7 for your listening pleasure. Stop by for some listening fun. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Ex Girlfreinds
Like to know why ex girlfreinds think they still have some type of controll over you?They are the ones that call it off and say they dont love you anymore lets just be freinds.Then they get all pissy just because you look up a old freind and say hi.this really gets to me.

The Day Has Finally Come
OMG! It's finally here .. my long awaited, much deserved vacation! Heading out tomorrow immediately after I get off work at 11:30am! Dropping the kids off at my moms in Huntsville and then driving to Nashville to stay the night and get on a plane for the FIRST time friday morning. The husband and I are taking a short trip to Chicago! He's from that area and it was a cheap getaway. The best part about the entire trip is that on saturday I'm meeting a long-time friend from Fu! She's a special, awesome friend! Most of you know her. There is another bouncer friend I also hope to meet if time permits and our schedules fit. I will post lots of pics when I get back. I shall return on Monday, but I probably won't have time to be back online until Tuesday, maybe. Miss me, love me and all that blabbity blah! I'm SO happy! By the way, I had to dote on my hubby, he has planned all of this FOR me. His anniversary gift to me. Which happens to be today. We've been married 4 years. He left me a car

Innovation Of The Uggs
UGG a legendary brand, first see her in person will be heavy but the shape of this Qichou not understood, but is such a rage in Europe and Asia boots, earth, and is now blowing all over the world That gust of wind burst of pop mainstream is the star in Europe and the United States who brought the. The boots are the rise in Australia during the First World War, the name was originally called the ugly boot came in. Later, Australians nickname it is a straight fur ugg boots round one, until 1994 by an American registered trademark of uggs. So, ugg brand of the United States. And manufacturers gradually come into China from Australia. Then Australians learned of ugg old registered by the United States after the gas halo, and also started their own production of this ugg boot. However, it does trade mark is not UGG. But JUMBO UGG and UGG another high-end brands CGM we can also go to this site point of view their latest styles. Wool textile used an important raw material, which has good elas

Lo Hecho Está Hecho
En la suite 16 Lo que empieza no termina Del mini bar al eden Y en muy mala companía Era ese sabor en tu piel A azufre revuelto con miel Asi que me llene de coraje y me fui a caminar por el lado salvaje Pense "no me mires asi" Ya se lo que quieres de mi Que no hay que ser vidente aquí Para un mal como tu no hay cuerpo que aguante Coro: Lo hecho está hecho Volvi a tropezar Con la misma piedra que hubo siempre Se siente tan bien todo lo que hace mal Y contigo nunca es suficiente Como fue Que paso Esa noche Impaciente Fueron a llamar La de recepción Cuando se quejaban de la 17 No puede ser nada normal Acabar eligiendo tan mal En materia de hombres soy toda una experta siempre en repetir mis errores No hay ceguera peor Que no querer mirar Cuando te guardabas el anillo dentro del bolsillo y dejarlo pasar Coro: Lo hecho está hecho Volvi a tropezar Con la misma piedra que hubo siempre Se siente tan bien todo lo que hace mal Y contigo nunca es suficiente Nunca me senti tan fuera de lugar Nunca

Guzman Rodriguez Sr.
Guzman Rodriguez Sr. Guzman Rodriguez, Sr. LEBANON Guzman Rodriguez, Sr., 74, of 818 Mifflin St., passed away Monday, March 22, 2010, at Hyman S. Caplan Pavillion, Lebanon. He was the husband of Maria Carrero Rodriguez. Guzman was born in Rincon, Puerto Rico, on December 16, 1935. He was the son of the late Angel Rodriguez and Eugena Crespo. He was a retired steel worker for Lebanon Steel Foundry. He was a veteran of the U.S. Army. He was a member of St. Benedict the Abbott Church and was an extraordinary minister of the church. He was a family oriented man who loved his grandchildren and spending time with his family. In addition to his wife, he is survived by four children, Guzman Rodriguez of Lebanon, Angel Luis Rodriguez of Lebanon, Alfredo Rodriguez of Lebanon, and Lourdes Rodriguez-Jaquez of Ridgewood, N.Y.; five grandchildren, Guzman E. Rodriguez, Victor M. Jaquez, Aiden G. Rodriguez, Lourdes M. Jaquez, and Ava M. Rodriguez; one sister, Luisa Vargas of Lebanon; and three

Thought For The Day ....
March 24, 2010 ~ Wednesday Minding my own business, as I usually do on FUBAR because I'm shy & stuff, I get this mental case in my shout box .... ems1160: question for yaTo ems1160: yepems1160: you are in a bathroom stall smoking a cigarette suddely a penis comes through the hole and the voice on the other side says "surprise me" what would do?To ems1160: put my fuckin cigarette out on his dickems1160: ouch! any warning firstTo ems1160: and tell him ... SURPIRSE MOTHER FUCKERems1160: ouch! youd really put the cigarette out on his unsuspecting penis?To ems1160: now get your ass outta my fuckin shout box with that bullshitTo ems1160: if he's stupid enuff to stick it thru the hole ... hell yeaThought for the day????Don't put your fuckin dick thru a hole ... Especially if I'm the crazy bitch smoking a cigarette on the other side

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Whistle
I had an appointment this morning and actually kept it. Seems some of the politicians are getting threat and so forth and yet there are two squad cars behind me. I am viewd more as a threat while there are people that are actually are a threat. Easy to detect them when their tagging as it is if they were actually headed to some place. Is it that easy? My surgery I am reconsidering due to the position that is given me upom my death. I know what happens and I also know how not to complete it. At that point I am free and can behave as I choose. Nothing is there to stop me from doing anything and all I have to do is allow the natural process of life to take place. Such archic concepts as vedetta is in my realm to exercise. Ask the Roman Catholic church about the Exorcist and hes inability to interfere. God wins what ever is my choice. A choice I never had because I don't dwell in a dream land but the concrete reality called life and death. In life and death there are no choices to make on

[[naughty Application]]
NAUGHTY APPLICATIONYour Name:Your age:Favorite position:1. Do you think I'm cute?.2. Would you have sex with me?3. Lights on or off?4. Would you have to be drunk?5. Would you take a shower with me?6. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?7. Would you leave after or stay the night?8. Do you like cuddling afterwards?9. Condom or skin?10. Have sex on the first date?11. Would you kiss me during sex?12. Do you think I would be good in bed?13. Would you use me as a booty call?14. Can I use you as a booty call?15. Can we take pictures of the act?16. How long would we have sex?17. Would you tell your friends about me?18.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

My Blog
some ppl can say very mean things or smash ppl for what ever reason is that they have no clue what ppl are like or they just seem too have nothing better too do then says very rude things too others which is not very nice too anyone or just how they like too say hurtful things me i would never say things too ppl or rudeness iam just being myself thats all you have too do dont let anyone tell you different

Tattooes
The stupidest thing I have ever done in my life was get ink. My big dumb jerk husband was cheating on me a LOT and all his ho's had tramp stamps that were butterflies or flowers or some other cheesy looking thing . So I decided to get his attention by getting something more "provocative".I got, on my back, "spank me", on my right upper arm I have handcuffs, and on my left upper arm I have cherries. Now I'm divorced,I hate my tattooes, and I was told there was some kinda cream that would make em fade.Please tell me you know what that cream is and where I can buy it.

Yall Think Country Music Is About Stupid Stuff
so yall think country music is bout my woman left me and my dog died and my truck aint workin etc! are yall plain stupid! ive been listin to country music for 19 years i was born and raised in montana and so far i aint heard a song that say my women left me and my dog died and my truck aint workin yes i agree there are some songs that talk bout my women left me and done run off and took everythin ive been workin for but for the most part country music is bout life and the joys and tears one would go through im sick and tired of everybody who says rednecks they aint nothin but inbred peices of shit! ur wrong as hell if you meet a redneck and you have no shirt hell give you the shirt off his back and give you a few dollars to spend. i keep getting off topic yall sorry bout that:( but country music is bout stuff your going to face along lifes highway! in conclusion please dont talk shit on country music! we country folk are the nicest people around the music is our life and lifestyle you

What Is Love?
what is love? do you know what it is? can you explain it? is love that feeling we call the butterflys? hell if thats the case im in love with boxing everytime i step into that ring the butterflys start goin haywire or maybe its the feeling of excitement and fear of not knowing weather im the better fighter but i dont think thats love either! every guy who says hes in love if asked honstly would he sleep with another girl when hes around his old lady says no he wouldnt when hes round the boys he say f**k yeah i would! why is this? in my mind im thinkin dude your a dishonest man this is why women go to bein lesbians because guys are two faced a**hole and that goes for me as well. thats why i dont believe in love because i know me and im a guy! so if a man/women says he/she loves you is it true or is it just your mind tellin you you love that person but in actuallity your not! so in conclusion what is this thing called love? can anyone explain it?

Clarification
I dont know how long it's been since I've wrote a deeper, or more personal blog. I've found myself many of times writing one, and just typing things out was enough for me and I didnt publish those entries. However, today and this blog is different. This is something I want people to know and understand and grasp. I still get a lot of questions about Matt and I and I realize I haven't opened up a lot about it, but in my defense it's really nobody's business. Matt and I didn't work out. It fell apart underneath both of our feet, for reasons neither of us saw coming. That I know. I have no ill will for him and can say without hesitation I know he feels the same. Life hit him hard, and it wasn't right for him or I. I love him. I will always love him. I dont believe you can love somebody that deeply or have somebody be that big apart of your life that they don't touch you and take a piece of your heart when they're no longer there whatever the reason may be. There's a quote I fully, and

If You But Knew
If You But Knew Author Unknown If you but knew How all my days seem filled with dreams of you,How sometimes in the silent nightYour eyes thrill through me with their tender light,How oft I hear your voice when others speak,How you 'mid other forms I seek -Oh, love more real than though such dreams were trueIf you but knew. Could you but guessHow you alone make all my happiness,How I am more than willing for your sakeTo stand alone, give all and nothing take,Nor chafe to think you bound while I am free,Quite free, till death, to love you silently,Could you but guess. Could you but learnHow when you doubt my truth I sadly yearnTo tell you all, to stand for one brief spaceUnfettered, soul to soul, as face to face,To crown you king, my king, till life shall end,My lover and likewise my truest friend,Would you love me, dearest, as fondly in return,Could you but learn?

Angel
angel from above ur now on earth u came in my life to bad ur someones wife i think of u all the time to come this may be a crime but if it is i will do the time for ur my angel i dream of u have my heart in ur hand all i ask is that u dont break it for i am always willing to be ur man

Letter To Boss, (long!) I Think I Need A New Job ;)
For those interested in the trouble I'm having at work. Here is a letter I sent to my boss, I had to change the names to put it here, it arrives at work tomorrow (Thursday 3/25/10) Grievance Procedure(In accordance with legal advice)It is with deep regret that I have been put in such a position to have to write this letter of grievance, my complaints are:Abusive language & threatening behaviour;I have complained to all three directors regarding the MD’s abusive language towards me for the last four years, but the abuse continued.During the whole of 2009, there were only two occasions I had contact with MD when he didn’t rant, rave, scream, shout & swear at me, not to me as was his excuse when Mrs MD told him he cannot be abusive towards staff.The manager at the time I was employed, Mr Nice Bloke also told MD that he is abusive & it must stop.After a direct complaint to MD regarding his threatening behaviour, the thumping of the desk & door etc had subsided.On Saturday

My Life Sux
y is that when i think you found the perfect man that he turns around on the day of our 4 mth dumps me for a girl that was just a friend 3 yrs ago? i just cant understand why i just cant be fuckin happy.. i try so hard and i still get dumped and shit... my heart is constantly gettin broken!! im just tired of broken promises and empty words...i swear that i have a tattoo on my forehead that says i want to have my heart broken...please break my heart! can someone please tell me what im doing wrong?

What People Forget.
When you're in a relationship there's a lot less "yours" and a whole lot of "ours". People often forget this.Other key things people in a relationship forget are: 1. Communication.: If you can't comminicate your feelings or just talk with your parnter you might as well be living under a rock cause your partner is gonna feel like you don't care about them or just don't want nothing to do with them. 2. If you and your significant other live together you got to check in with them if you are doing something or going somewhere cause you never know what they might have planned for the both of you. 3. If you have a chores around the house such as cleaning the house it's not the other person's job to pick up after you, if you're grown and able to take care of yourself you can pick up after yourself. The other person is not your servent. It's not their job to pick up after you or clean your messes.4. You got to treat your partner as you would your family.: Don't take them for granted they ha

Great?
Yesterday was great. I got off work early and my friend, that I haven't seen in about 4 months came down and spent the day/night with me. Me and her went to the bowling alley and she watched me bowl and met John. Then me, her, and John went and got something to eat. After that me and my friend just relaxed around my house, well my Mom's house. We were up until about 4:30am. We woke up around 10 and went out at about noon. I now have a really bad sinus headache. I can't stop coughing, and my throat is sore. It sucks. I also think I have a fever. Yay!!!? Anyway, how is your day?

Wut Women Really Mean,,,
10. I do really like you.(You remind me of Freddy from "Nightmare on Elm Street", but I havea soft charitable spot for sad losers like you.) 9. There's a slight difference in our ages.(My grand-dad is also interested in chess. Do you want his 'phonenumber?) 8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way.(You are the ugliest f**ker I've ever laid eyes on.) 7. My life is too complicated right now. (I'm seeing three guys right now, double booked two of them fortonight, and in fact actually fancy your best friend, even though heignores me.) 6. I have a boyfriend/I'm still sort of involved with someone.(I prefer the X-files and a half gallon of Haagen Dazs.) 5. I don't date men where I work.(I wouldn't go out with you if you were in the same 'solar system',much less the same building.) 4. It's not you, it's me.(It's you.) 3. I'm concentrating on my career right now.(Even something as boring and unfulfilling as this lousy, underpaidjob is better than the thought of sleeping with you.) 2.

I'll Owe Ya One
I'll owe ya one if you help me find a car. I know some of you are highly skilled at that sort of thing. And to make it sporting here are the requirements: It must be in good condition. Under $3000 And have decent gas mileage. It also must be in the Tampa/St. Petersburg/Clearwater area. If I end up buying the car you sent me, I'll totally owe ya one. And you get the satisfaction of doing a good deed. I hear that gives you like +5 charisma points.

About Me And Now
Sept. 14th 1968: I was born into the hub of the evolution of Peace Love and Flower Power. Bra burning was at front stage and acid rock was a big hit. Country had meaning and there was a fight for human rights.At a month old I was abandon by my real mother at Long Beach Memorial hospital.At 3 months old was placed in foster care to then be openly adopted by that couple.By the time I was 2 years old I had undergone 4 major eye surgeries to restore muscle function so I could see.I went thru alot of therapy and am very lucky today to see what I can. Wearing glassed does not bother me causethe miracle of the sight I do have is a gift to me. I thank God every day for it.By the time I was 4 years old I got spinal meningitis and pneumonia that caused me to go thru flash death. I had to learn to walk and eat and speak all over again. I was greatly teased because I slurred my words.It got to the point of me being beaten up at school.By the time I was 7 all that had cleared up then I was stung

Why Is It So Hard To Find A Goddamn Job???
i live in jacksonville flordia and this shit is just ridiculous! i mean damn ive been looknig for a job for like 8 months and still havnt found one! maybe i should just go back to fucking school. but apperently that wouldnt really help either exceot that i would get money while i go..... so what happens when i cant get a damn job after that. back to where i motherfucking started. how the hell is a person suppose to live and take care of themselves in this damn supposed "deppression". its like if you dont know somebody then your never gonna get anywhere. and right now all my friends dont have jobs either. so wtf am i suppose to do?? ok well if anybody knows of anything other then taking my fucking clothes off for money then please let me kno. im really needing it.

Not Knowing It Would Appear
Just reading my often angry Blogs here and not knowing, it would appear that this guy is crazy. The appearance maybe that, but you never knew me. All sorts of people and agencies at both state and federal levels are involved regarding me and my former wife. Does any of this ever end for me. Yes, upon my death it all comes to an end. I have been dead since January 14, 2009 and yet I am here to key this and do my daily things At the moment death is not a fear for me as it has not. My greatest fear is that I may make decision now or soon with far reaching consequences. The future is not given to me but at times I do see a little of it. Often it is not clear to me what I did look at but looking backward it makes all the sense. Also, I took it the right way. Often I am angry and sad. At other times I at peace with myself and the Universe. People not fully understanding where I have been and am at right now will never get their judgement right. It will always be off. Blessed are those who k

The Facts Of Health Care Reform From Politifact.com
1. The plan is not a government takeover of health care like in Canada or Britain. The government will not take over hospitals or other privately run health care businesses. Doctors will not become government employees, like in Britain. And the U.S. government intends to help people buy insurance from private insurance companies, not pay all the bills like the single-payer system in Canada. The key parts of the current U.S. system -- employer-provided insurance, Medicare for the elderly, Medicaid for the poor -- would stay in place. The government would create health insurance exchanges for people who have to buy insurance on their own, so they could more easily compare plans and prices.2. Insurance companies will be regulated more heavily. They will be told the minimum services they must cover, including preventive care. They will have to pay out a certain percentage of premiums for patient care. By 2014, when the exchanges open, insurers won't be able to deny customers

An Open Letter To Conservatives
I wish I wrote this but give credit where credit is due... Written by Russell KingMarch 22, 2010, 3:16PMDear Conservative Americans,The years have not been kind to you. I grew up in a profoundly Republican home, so I can remember when you wore a very different face than the one we see now. You've lost me and you've lost most of America. Because I believe having responsible choices is important to democracy, I'd like to give you some advice and an invitation.First, the invitation: Come back to us.Now the advice. You're going to have to come up with a platform that isn't built on a foundation of cowardice: fear of people with colors, religions, cultures and sex lives that differ from your own; fear of reform in banking, health care, energy; fantasy fears of America being transformed into an Islamic nation, into social/commun/fasc-ism, into a disarmed populace put in internment camps; and more. But you have work to do even before you take on that task.Your party -- the GOP -- and

Thank You For Being You
When I have know where else to turn,Because life seems to much for me to bare,I turn to you because you're always there.When life brings to you nothing,But heart aching pain,And your eyes feel with tears,I'll always be there.For everyone needs you in there time of need,You proceed to give them what they need,That's a true friends deed.The more you seem to give,The more they seem to take,Leaving your heart with a empty space.I'll be there to give you my warm embrace with a huge,And know matter how great your problem we will face it together.Thank you for being you,A true friend.

New Rainmaker 2010
waiting , sighing, days i spend crying, hoping , dreaming , maybe i am dying, who knows where tomorrow may be, but will you be there to still hold me ......... I keep dreaming that you will be there I wonder if in reality , it will come true I need to know that you be here To hold me I am fighting I am crying Trying to get a grip on reality I am Fighting I am crying need to get pass all my dreams when you were here holding me all my fears were gone now I am alone pain pouring in my sanity is falling rain there nothing left of me waiting , sighing, days i spend crying, hoping , dreaming , maybe i am dying, who knows where tomorrow may be, but will you be there to still hold me ......... I keep dreaming that you will be there I wonder if in reality , it will come true I need to know that you be here To hold me I am fighting I am crying Trying to get a grip on reality I am Fighting I am crying need to get pass all my dreams Wond

Thinkining Of You
I sit here quietly and watch the sun setThinking of someone that I've never metI wonder does he think of me tooNeedless to say I am thinking of youWanting to hold you, to see your faceTo take you away to a better placeYou feel so right, too good to be trueI just can't stop thinking of youMy friends say that I might regretLosing my heart to a guy I've not metI say there is nothing I can doI cannot help thinking of youI believe you were made special for meBut wonder if that could possibly beI'm tired of being so alone and blueBut I always smile when thinking of you

Xmas
Twas the night before Christmas.He lived all alone,In a one bedroom house made ofPlaster and Stone. I had come down the Chimney,With presents to give.And to see just who In this homedid live. I looked all aboutA strange sight I did see.No tinsel, No presents,Not even a tree.No stocking by the mantle,Just boots filled with sand. On the wall hung picturesOf far distant lands.With medals and badges,Awards of all kinds,A sober thoughtCame through my mind.For this house was different,It was dark and dreary,I found the home of a soldier, Once I could see clearly.The soldier lay sleeping,Silent, alone,Curled up on the floorIn this one bedroom home. The face was so gentle,The room in such disorder,Not how I pictured Was this the heroOf whom I'd just read?Curled up on a Poncho,The floor for a bed?I realized the familiesThat I saw this night,Owed their lives to these soldiersWho were willing to fight. Soon round the world,The children would play,And grownup's would celebrateA bright Chris

Have You Ever?
Have you ever felt,the cold and lifeless hand of an infant,gazed into their unblinking eyes,and observed the face of death,when masked in bittersweet innocence?Have you ever touched your dreams,and felt the simplistic joy,of feeling them become reality,only to abandon them,for reasons you cannot explain?Have you ever watched your family,who once shared the greatest of loves,suffer an unforgettable and unforgivable tragedy,that will slowly, painfully, and inevitably,tear them all apart?Do you know, firsthand,the evil that resides deep within the heart of every man,every woman, and every child?Have you seen its face as it randomly seeks,a soul to torment and destroy?Do you know the darker side of life,the one that awakens you,in the still of the night,crying to the unknowable God's,‘Save me from myself. '?Does your heart constantly question,whether humanity is obtainable,in a world corrupted with suffering,and where war,is the favoured solution for peace?If you really want to know

Loneliness
It is cold todayIndeed the rain is falling and I am alone.Thoughts of life and love,meaningless to anyone but myself.I am alone.They watch me, their eyes not knowing,knowing nothing of what they see.I am but another creature, alone.They scurry on the surface, unaware,unaware of the life belowwhen you are alone.Loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow,but a time of solace, of deepnessnever to be shared, never to be understood.They can never reach the place where I amAnd I know I will never reach the place where they are.I know I don't want to reach that place.True happiness is here, unmisted.Unmisted by smiles or laughter,unmisted by the joys of company.To find true happiness,to know if one is truly happy,he must be happy alone.

A Different
A Different Christmas PoemThe embers glowed softly, and in their dim light,I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight.My wife was asleep, her head on my chest,My daughter beside me, angelic in rest.Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white,Transforming the yard to a winter delight.The sparkling lights in the tree I believe,Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve.My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep,Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep.In perfect contentment, or so it would seem,So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream.The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near,But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear.Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then thesure sound of footsteps outside in the snow.My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear,And I crept to the door just to see who was near.Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night,A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight.A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old,Perhaps a Marine, huddled here

A Soldier's Christmas Story
A Soldier's Christmas Story A soldier nervously finders his weapon and stares into the darkness watching for any sign of the enemy. He is alone this night because yesterday his best friend, who usually shared this position with him, was killed. He misses him, he was a brave man who left a wife and two small children behind. The soldier hopes that he will survive this war and someday be able to tell the little ones how bravely their father had died defending freedom. He doesn't know exactly what time it is but his instincts tell him that it is approaching midnight on this Christmas Eve. Soon it will be Christmas morning at home and his own family will be getting up to have breakfast and open presents. His breakfast will consist of some cold sparse rations and a sip of water from his canteen. There will be no hot cider or coffee for him and no turkey dinner later in the day. He hopes his family enjoys the Christmas celebration and understands why he can't be with them. There are people i

Cricket, The Low-cost, Pay-as-you-go Wireless
At a time when major wireless carriers are beginning to require expensive data plans for many of their users, low-cost mobile companies keep making their prepaid calling plans broader and cheaper. Cricket, the low-cost, pay-as-you-go wireless carrier operated by Leap Wireless (LEAP), said Tuesday that it would begin offering the nation's first $30-per-month unlimited nationwide talk and text plan. Coverage will be available in 125 U.S. cities across all 50 states. That's $10 a month cheaper than any other prepaid nationwide unlimited plan available in the United States. Low-cost rival MetroPCS (PCS) offers a $40-a-month plan and competitor TracFone Wireless' Straight Talk has a $45-per-month plan. As for the major carriers, Sprint's (S, Fortune 500) Boost Mobile has a comparable prepaid plan for $50 a month, and T-Mobile and AT&T (T, Fortune 500) both offer similar prepaid plans for $60 a month. Verizon (VZ, Fortune 500) does not offer a comparable prepaid unlimited talk and text pl

The Basics...
I have been in for about 3 1/2 years now been a long journey thus far. I have had some fun while being in also some hard times, and some crazy adventures. Now that I see a light starting to sparkle at the end of the tunnel I am starting to almost look back. I have been a 0621 radio operator in an arty BN, yes we have the bigger guns, but I have also worked outside my job probably more. I will write on here from time to time just to tell alittle more as I work on my medical evaluation board to be getting out and start the next chapter of my life. My arthritis sucks today...

"the Last Written Words"
GIVE THEM AN INCH, THEY WILL TAKE A MILE EVERYONE WORKING FOR A LIFE THEY KNOW IS NOT WORTH WHILE LIVING LIFE DAY TO DAY STRIVING AND STRIVING FOR A LIFE THEY DONT WANT WITH NOTHING TO SAY HOPES AND DREAMS BURIED WITHIN PONDERING WHEN MY LIFE WILL BEGIN EMOTIONS IMPLODING DRIVING ME INSANE

"the Future"
I WISH I COULD SAY THOSE WORDS TO YOU A SACRED BOND BETWEEN US TWO I WISH AND PRAY FOR US TO BE TOGETHER FOREVER FOR ETERNITY CAUSE MY LONELY HEART NEEDS HEALED I'M SENDING OUT A YELLOW, YOU SHOULD YIELD MY HEART, MIND, AND SOUL ARE FREE BUT MY BODY IS TRAPPED IN A WORLD OF DARKNESS IN WHICH I CANNOT SEE I WANA FULFIL THE DREAMS OF THE ONES I LOVE

"the Silent Shout"
BEAUTIFUL EYES GAZE UPON ME, GIVING ME INSPIRATION FOR LIVING TO THE MORROW. HAVING A HARD TIME KEEPING MY EYES ON THE FINISH LINE, WHEN I LOOK AWAY I BRING NOTHING BUT SORROW. THE EYES ARE THE GATEWAY TO THE SOUL, FULL OF WISHES, HOPES, AND DREAMS. DON'T REALLY WANT A WIFE, BUT MERELY A WOMAN, TO KEEP ME ON TRACK TO ACCOMPLISH MY GOALS IN LIFE....... MONEY IN MY POCKET,GONE...... GOALS SET, PROLONGED....... I DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT EVERY TIME I TRY I END UP IN THE DITCH BESIDE THE ROAD TO MY GOAL. EVEN IF I HAVE TO BLEED, I'LL BE DAMNED IF I DON'T SUCCEED! I L

Just Something I Wrote About Poker
I'M GONNA GIVE U A LITTLE AND TAKE ALOT THIS ONES YOURS BUT THE NEXT ONES NOT I'M GONNA TAKE A SHOT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, PULLIN ON YOUR STRINGS AND MAKIN YA DANCE 1 STREET, 2 STREETS, 3 STREETS,

"the Curse" Lyrics I Have Been Tryin To Work On
I AM CURSED, I UTTER THOSE WORDS OF GREAT FEELING AND THE WORST COMES IN HERDS FOR I'M IN LOVE WITH A WOMAN, AND I CAN'T TELL HER THOSE THREE LITTLE WORDS WHEN I LOVE YOU IS SPOKIN FROM MY LIPS TRUE TO THE HEART IT IS NOT LONG AFTER, MY TRUE LOVE WILL DEPART I WISH I HAD THE MONEY AND THE MEENS TO SAVE THAT BEAUTIFUL WOMAN OF MY DREAMS I'M IN LOVE WITH HER BODY I'M IN LOVE WITH HER EYES I'M IN LOVE WITH HER HELLOS AND EVEN HER GOODBYES

"the Invinsible"
Yesterday is today and tomorrow will never be I can watch that which I can not see The sound of the unspokin words of fear I can listen to that which I cannot hear Heartbreak and pain with no chance to heal I can sense that which I cannot feel I can even smell that which has no smell My soul is on fire burning hotter than hell If you understand, there is nothing more I need to tell

Funny Status Messages I've Used...
A mate of mine recently admitted to being addicted to brake fluid.When I quizzed him on it he reckoned he could stop any time..... Just been to the Doctor's to find out why I have some grass & a tree growing out of my head.Turns out I have a beauty spot... I was walking home last night when some imbecile threw cheese at me.I thought to myself, that's not very mature...! I went to the airport, walked up to the desk and started flapping my arms like a bird and making clucking noises.The woman behind the counter said to me, "No sir, this is 'Check-in'"...!! I came home one day to find my missus dressed up in a French Maid's outfit.I was really disappointed...the house was still in right mess..! I got a new job answering the phone in a clinic that treats people that suffer from jaundice.When people ring up I say, "yellow?"...!! I just rang Pizza Hut and ordered a Thin 'n Crusty Supreme for delivery.When I opened the door they'd sent me Diana Ross...!

Elusive Closure
I don't know why this has to be the way things are! In the past several months, I have watched as people who I thought I was close to and were close to me just walk away without saying a word. No goodbyes, no reasons, no explanations...they either delete and ignore me or they end up blocking me. What the hell is this all about? It leaves me so confused...what did I do that something like this becomes necessary? Was it something really that bad that it couldn't be talked out? Why not say goodbye? Why not put some closure on the situation and on any feelings that we had, good or bad? Seriously, am I asking for too much here? I guess in some way, I am! And I know it is something I have to accept even though I don't like it and would prefer things were different. To those who have walked away and not said a word, please know that as much as that hurts me, I still wish you all the best in life, and I am sorry you are gone! I give you my blessings and my best wis

I Am Not Super Woman
Here I am just shaking from being over whelmed and pissed off at my family's lack of respect and concern for me. I suffer from depression major, and when I am over loaded with things that have to be done and get no help, I tend to break down and cry my ever lovin heart out. Yes I am on med's but can't always afford them. Yesterday, my oldest son needed to see the dentist, we also needed to get the emissions test done on the car, plus my youngest wanted to check out cell phones. Sooooooooooo, we all got into the car and headed for town. We arrive to get the car's emission test done again for the second time and boom the exaust system is still leaking. Frustrated we go and do the other things we need to do, My youngest and I go to check out the phones and hes denied only because he doen't have a drivers liecence. He has a touch of autism and it affected him major. I suggested, pay as you go phone, and had to drive that home like 4 times...we went and purchased a cell phone and

Apuestas Deportivas Un Mundo Lleno De Dinero
Si te gusta el dinero y no sabes como generar beneficios uno de los recursos son las apuestas deportivas, pero siempre con referencias de los grandes, donde poder extraer información esencial para apostar seguro.

Chic Stole My Pics
This chic stole my pics Her direct link is http://fubar.com/user/3836846 Pics she stole from me She has since taken them down but I still want every one to know shes a pic theif and likes to act like they are her! there was 4 total pics there on her profile can you belive this clown had the nerve to steal my pics! I cant flipping belive it! she has how shes so hot hot hot in her status yet its not her in the pics and wow her salute looks fake! she has to be fake because why else would she need to steal my pics!

Bar Etiquette...
Ok, First let me start off by saying that if youre going in to a bar, please realize its a place of business, and not your front porch, or basement, or garage... or wherever the hell you hang out with friends and drink. And since youre in a place of business, act like it. Youre also supposed to be an adult, again... act like it. Dont get pissed at the server because YOU are too fucking stupid to know what you are asking for. Just to clear a few things up... Blue label is a SCOTCH, not a vodka same goes for black label. Blue, is a brand of wine... again, not a vodka. Dont ask for blue top, cuz guess what? 90% of bottles HAVE blue tops Dont ask for "Bumpy gin" because in a loud crowded bar, we hear "Bombay gin" which is a better gin, and will cost you more. Seagrams is a BRAND NAME, not a drink itself. The provide vodka, tequila, rum, whiskey, canadian whiskey, gin, and Brandies, so asking a bartender for a shot of seagrams is like going to a Blockbuster and asking for a horro

The Woman ...so Devine...:)
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Behind Blue Eyes By The Who
"Behind Blue Eyes" No one knows what it's like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes No one knows what it's like To be hated To be fated To telling only lies But my dreams They aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free No one knows what it's like To feel these feelings Like I do And I blame you No one bites back as hard On their anger None of my pain and woe Can show through But my dreams They aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free When my fist clenches, crack it open Before I use it and lose my cool When I smile, tell me some bad news Before I laugh and act like a fool If I swallow anything evil Put your finger down my throat If I shiver, please give me a blanket Keep me warm, let me wear your coat No one knows what it's like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes

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I Could Not Have Said It Better... God Bless Our Veterans And Soldiers!!!
WW II Battleship sailor tells Obama to shape up or ship out ! This venerable and much honored WW II vet is well known in Hawaiifor his seventy-plus years of service to patriotic organizations and causes all over the country. A humble man without a political bone in his body, he has never spoken out before about a government official, until now. He dictated this letter to a friend, signed it and mailed it to the president. Dear President Obama, My name is Harold Estes, approaching 95 on December 13 of this year. People meeting me for the first time don't believe my age because I remain wrinkle free and pretty much mentally alert. I enlisted in the U.S. Navy in 1934 and served proudly before, during and after WW II retiring as a Master Chief Bos'n Mate. Now I live in a "rest home" located on the western end of Pearl Harbor , allowing me to keep alive the memories of 23 years of service to my country. One of the benefits of my age, perhaps the only one, is to speak my

Seven
A tisket, A tasket The Scarecrow's out his casket Turn off the lights and lock the door Prayin' that he passes A vision of the dead and the inbred A backwoods motherfucker born inside a toolshead Momma never loved me never gave me no attention Daddy was a rapist 30 years up state Fulton County Prison And I was raised by my own will Surviving off of scraps of bones, bear traps, and road kill Spending my days and my nights all alone And my mind is gone is something wong with my dome Should have put me in a tomb I didnt ask for this life When they cut me out the womb with a dull pocket knife Now I walk with a sight and a murderous ability Cornfed motherfucker feared with hostility Cracked out and I'm gone off that moonshine 100 dated proof wine made from a muskadine Out in these cornfields Learning all these wicked skills Swingin, slicing, chopping, dicing Country boy born to kill A demon spawn The child of a bastard son Seven born of seven and the Seventh child fathered one A soul bla

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“Strength is irrelevant. Resistance is futile. We wish to improve ourselves. We will add your biological and technological distinctiveness to our own. Your culture will adapt to service ours.”“Impossible! My culture is based on freedom and self-determination!”“Freedom is irrelevant. Self-determination is irrelevant. You must comply.”“We would rather die.”“Death is irrelevant.” When I get really doubtful about the way the world is going and the two paths I see for it don’t in my mind contradict my faith, I will probably turn to “The Best of Both Worlds”. NOT the “Hannah Montana” theme song that my kids love (they won’t dance to that, but they will dance to the closing song from “Mulan” as they did and invited us to do with them Saturday night), but the first “Star Trek: The Next Generation” two-part cliffhanger from 1990. The whole summer it was hard

The Right Stuff.
If you are going to do it,Do it quickly,Do not stretch me out,on the rack of promise.Such a simple act,plunge it to the hilt,Find the place,that is my finish.But I will not die,There is too much of me,I will always linger,and remind you of your miss.

Jail Time
So got a call this morning at 1am and then another at almost 2 - me being asleep I didn't answer but it seems my ex decided to get shitfaced and shoot off his gun at the apartment he is living at. His landlord was calling me because he told them to make sure I was notified - yea like I want a call about that at 1am. Anyway I finally got over there and managed to get the dog and most of his crap out - landlord kicked him out and judging from the charges he won't be back for a long while. I'm pissed because instead of a nice normal working day I had to spend it getting his shit - which is technially my old stuff I gave to him just to get him to leave - and adding a dog into the house on top of dealing with his mom. Just for kicks I went through his phone - why because I pay for it - and found messages to and from chicks about how they were the love of his life and he was going to sober up etc - at least 4 via text. Do I feel guilty for looking no. Do I feel guilty for sending a mas

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Blog From Me To You
Been a strange week as usual, me and Ashley attended the Woman of Influence ball at the Hilton Glasgow. Ashley loved it- she normally hates these things and says stuff like "Mum, this is like that film Cocoon all these old people are waiting to scoop my youthful soul out" but this event was actually lovely and we are both at The Scottish Variety Awards this coming Friday as I am presenting an award there. Am still off the fags, don't want to talk about it too much as no doubt I will fall off the non smoking wagon again and look like a dick. The Glasgow Comedy Festival has been going great guns and I saw some cracking comics. My own show is this Thursday 25th at Tron Theatre, am excited indeedy! Been busy getting my posters done for Edinburgh Fringe, as you all know I am doing two shows this year- a comedy myself and a kids show with Ashley at the Pleasance Dome! Ashley and I also have been up at my dads helping with his garden, well I say helping, my dad just handed power

Sittin In A Coffee Shop
Sittin here in a coffee shop lonely as a bell thinkin of you makes me shine like a shell imagining what you do to me dreamin your kiss is as sensitive as can be your body touchin every part of mine sending shivers down my spine sweet warm breath feels so nice looking into your eyes not thinkin twice your fingertips stroke my face wearing for you nothin but leather and lace Sittin here in a coffee shop horny as hell no one knowing how hard I fell passion drives me to insanity you can eat out makin me feel like no gravity I need to suck on your tasteful lollipop make you feel like

Why I Am Taking A Break.....
Those who know me know that I have been through HELL and back 3 times this past year. I have been hurt and I have smiled and all of it all over again. I have decided that I need to fix me and mine and F*ck the world if I need to but for so many years it has been about everyone else not me. I was beatin and abused, lied to and cheated on for 10 years and Im not even 30 yet. My Ex Husband is in jail and deserves to stay there. I took that opportunity to fix myself and my children. In order to do that I need to leave Fu alone for a while. I have so MANY MANY friends on here who have my heart and I hope theirs as well. They know how to get me if they need me but Fu needs to wait. For the first time in a long time I AM FIRST!!!! In 2 months I move to Phoenix. Thats a new life for me. Erase the past and begin to sketch my future, Those that I need will still be there and those I dont need can keep it movin. I love my friends and fam and those who have stolen my heart and friendship TH

Sittin Here On A Lonely Bed
Sittin here on a lonely bed horney and hot as the color of red Thinkin of you as the hours pass by twitchin and jittery cause I need a ride I need the warmth of hard gentle hands wanting to be filled as it stands Touch me freely with gentle fingers kiss me hard cover me as you linger Lightning strikes throughout my veigns my blood boils hot as I'm about to go insane Sittin here on a lonely bed lights down low and soft sweet sound I'll kiss you all over, your member is aroused put my hands to your face, kiss your sweet neck stroke my fingers down your chest Press my body to yours skin on skin tease me, please me, eat me , drive me crazy Ride me hard make me wet

The Nothing
Take a walk on a cold winter night see the shadows lurking in the moonlight Feel a presence that you cant touch it whispers in your ear but doesnt say much Get a sensation to burst into a run wishing you were to stay in the sun It has no smell no sence of being but it creeps upon you like its hearing You want to scream so very loudly the feeling of nothing comes to your mouth soundly It whips your body circling your sences trying to reach and grab the fences Finally it grasps you holding you down wanting to break free, wanting to flee the town Your mind is crazy its going insane then it hits you as your in pain Thinking of the future but stuck in the past need to be somewhere and not getting there fast

A Second A Minute An Hour A Day
A second a minute an hour a day its all the same when your away I miss you much I miss you dear I miss you whispering in my ear. A second a minute an hour a day its all so different when your here to stay time seems to stop when your having such fun time slips away with the sun. A second a minute an hour a day caring so much when we're at the bay you look so distant in a dream your lovely shining in the gleam. A second a minute an hour a day we're at ease while our children play love is the answer, hope is a key pain has no place here for we are the glee Writtin by Kat Buske/Richardson

Cool Story
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Giving
So much for me giving. It's about time others gave. Cooper Hospaital for 6 days and their excuse about this surgery is that they did not trust the accuracy of the blood work by Lab Corp. I even gave them a Cardiac Cath knocked out. Time for others to shell out to me. Like all the personal and private information of the strange man and woman from May 13, 2009. Ask Joe, my Barber, it was in hes shop, he's been cutting my hair off and on since I was a kid in Mantua, NJ. Two Others before him. He still has the booster seat I used. Hey, I gave and Doctor Viswanath, you said you or we can do no more. That's what you said. I mentioned the minimum invasive and you suggested someone. You said we can't do no more or any more. Your the one that took offense at the truth of that so called crazy letter which I have a copy. Norio

New Writings 2010
The Passing You think you will find yourself in being lost? Hypocrites that state the obvious to their design Ahead of the fast paced times, but never ahead of death Awakened to deceptions that are made by screams Repent when you have nothing to lose, not when you had it all to gain Egos enthroned, kissed on the feet by lies that are comforting Driving blind down a busy highway, riding a wind that is waiting to betray Standing before the gates you believe to be the resolution, a simple result remains Hungry for attention, but it really eats you without prejudice Repent, because when your everything turns to nothing there will need to be answers to given The big show is playing, you are within, but never in the center Forgotten by many, twisting and turning in dependency Darkness the seduction awaiting your oral injections Smiling in the nights that are in search of fading lights Repent to the master that is the reflection in a mirror, the one yo

Fucked Up Tattoos
I, as most people love Tattoos. I have five myself but some people need to understand that tattoos are FOREVER!!! If you are wondering what the hell I am ranting about take a look at www.ugliesttattoos.com. Tattoos are meant to have meaning behind them and say alot about you, but come on people, dont get Cum Slut inked on your lower back. I know some people that get tats of faces. unless the person that inks a picture of your son, daughter, best friend, or who the fuck ever on your body is a great artist its going to look like shit! For the past two days I have been looking at that site and the only thing that has been going through my head is "what the fuck was that person thinking about?" Fuck it. just take a look at the site and you will know what I am talking about. I am speechless

Rotflmao
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Thoughts
Lost in this cold dead hole of a town I need out but without a sound Show me the way if you will get me out of here before time spills These long cold winter nights bein lonely and wanting to fight My heart is takin it is gone from a man whos very strong His thoughts and soul flow like a river sometimes calm sometimes fast as a quiver People are mad people are crazy wont you come up and save me This place is dark and gloomy sweet thoughts run of you and me I want to run I want to be free one thing after another is makin it not be Wanting to ride wanting to feel alive moving around obstacles trying not to cry

Tavern
Sittin in a great ole tavern joyful as can be smiles all around as far as we can see Playin pool and dancin to good sound during the weekend you know where I'll be found Hangin with friends havin much fun its almost better than enjoying the sun Sittin in a great ole tavern its like bein at home except the constent ringing of the phone This place tavern is such a nice place to be where drinks are cheap and I can feel free The tables have the derby drift and the stools could use a lift The bartenders crack me up hey I could use another cup Sittin in a great ole tavern I wouldnt change a thing

Precious Gems
The twinkle in their eyes of a shimmering diamond Those effectous little giggles like an opal in the light They shine to all around the world as the emerald soothes the mood Their smooth smile gets you like an aquamarine gets the pearl The sad sighs and short tears of a peridot glowing in the candle light Soft hands upon the cheeks reminds you of an amethyst at its finest Tender footsteps across the room as a garnet shines true The playfullness they share like a saphire at its moment The love they give and treasuree like a ruby in the sun Writtin by Kat Buske

Lighthouse
I stand by the colorful ocean on a grassy green cliff so high my body sturdy and cold against the crisp blowing mist The ocean water splashes up from the hillside rocks the saltiness makes my color fade with age Beautiful birds visit me day in and day out I can see for miles and wide watch the ships and boats sail close and far I shine my light for all to see warn all of any dangers below and across the wavy waters Savior tall with a big bright light

Memories
You gave me life with love now your flying like a dove You gave me a purpose to be strong now your will is never wrong You gave me confidence and might now your soul will never give up the fight You gave me wisdom and power now your name will be yelled from the highest tower You gave me truth and trust now your body is nothin but dust You gave me a symbal of me now that your gone can you still see You gave me the right to be a mother now your daughter can be no other You gave m

You're Not What We Want
So every knows about the group 2nd Alarm hotties yes? Well their chief has approached me a few times now to join and I always politely declined. I got another request today and instead of the usual 'no thanks' I thought I'd ask a lil more. Jasmine: LOL ok... FirechiefF...: guess what your not what we want anyway goodbye Sweetnest just not looks are needed Jasmine: if i need help i have my friends, i don't need a girl group FirechiefF...: they hotties is the longest serving girls group and is a family they do help each other out at times but not a points grou[p\ Jasmine: what are they about then? FirechiefF...: points points has nothing to do with the Hotties FirechiefF...: I think u would be fine Jasmine: because i can't be bothered with points FirechiefF...: why would u not Jasmine: im not the kind of girl you'd want

I Need You!! To Vote
My little boy has been entered as a cute kid I need help..... the more the votes the better a chance he has of winning u dont have to register all u have to do is go to this site.... http://gapc-vote.com/?p=2156939 and vote please every1 vote

Lets See Some Titties
The unknownHearts racing hands tremblingSweat running down my faceRunning away from what can't be killedCoughing off a foul stenchFalling hard with hand up highLooking back at frightful eyesComing down sharp like a shard of broken glassBody weakening as the blood flows outLying around as the sky goes blackDeath in vain will never comeMemories live on in allIn peace I lay to all I loveFarewell!!!!!!

I'm A Hairry Monkey
Saved at lastI am the loner that lives in the cornerBanging my head on a heavy thorn wallWaiting to get caught for I am about to fallI am falling in the darkWaiting for a sparkThen here comes the lightWhich I can't fightHere is comes like a freight trainMy heart is filled with painBleeding and screaming who to hearFalling backwards I do fearWho will catch a falling rackWhile the clock goes tick tick tockI am half way day down A flash of light I see a crownHe said that I was falling into a binAnd told me that He will forgive my sinCaught me with both hands to form a gloveThen flying across was a beautiful whie doveNow all is calm and at restI feel that is at my bestHe let me go to be freeI am glad that he saved me

Tookie
Beautified loveDeep in the spirit of your eyesFortell the futur of my lifeNaked upon delivery of temptationThe heart beats refuse of thy lustGrabbing a hold what is part of youForcing myselft upon it filling my thirstLaying on the chest of loveSoothing sounds of beats that punp a loudHow beautiful is the light shines out from usHow glorious is the speech smothers in out loveEndures our strength of powerFollowed by our envious foesThe secrets that lies beneath youBut blind to those who can seeMother of truth and father of liesTrusting what has been heard

This Is Funny
Why are we on this earthTo fuck around and to populateOr just to live, survive, and toleratePeople suck people liePeople choose to live or dieJustice is never served without a fightWe get mad we get sad Just like dogs run around just to bark and biteSo come on bitch come over hereSit by me join me now Relax and have a beerYou pissed me off one last timeFuck you world you turned on me on a dimeHere i go again crazy in the headI think I'll kill myself insteadHere I come if there's a God Six feet under and forevermore Laying there in my little pod No just kidding haha denseI'm going to fuck your mom on the otherside of the fenceHere i go she screams my name Holy shit she has some kids No worries though i got my game I heard them coming I pulled my dickThen i ran pop pop the nines are flyingOh goddammit now I'm dieingHere I come to fertile groundPicked me up straight to the poundLike a bassYou caught my ass

Boogey Woogey
My heart to yoursIts christmas time and the fire blazing The music on and your amazing champaign's cold Your hand I holdAt first i was copTo say that I'm your pride and joyNow I give you this rose To go from your head to your toesYour voice I like to hearTo say sweet things in your earNow this is my cueTo say I love you

Here Is Another Poem
Sad storyIt was show and tell today I held my head and with a sigh just to sayWhat I brought was not a dog or a snailThis is a story and not a telltaleFor this has happened to and many othersOthers were sisters and brothersI have lost someone that was close to my heartWe were close and now we are far apartHe would be proud of me for what I am about to saySo lets bow our head and start to prayThis is not for fame or gloryIt's my father who wants me to share his storyHe was working 80 stories highAs he was running down when he saw a plane flew bySaw the plane and ran for dear lifeLast people popped up was son, daughter, and wifeNow he is up with GOD and forever moreWith a pain that I haven't felt beforeNow lets have a moment of silence for those who were lostWho would know how much it would costThe brave souls who try to find who's aliveAnd blessed the LORD for those who survivedAll Americans will remember that dayEver year we should kneel and pray

Hi
People working against you Teaming up until they have you pinnedBut don't realize that we have sinnedA common mistake among the human raceBurned in their minds set at their own paceHelping eachother stabbing at our heartsA role to be played everyone has their partsMost scew people overOthers have their four leaf cloversHurt eachother until hearts are brokenWords are flying and all are spokenThe treachery between love and liesFor those in love say hello while others say goodbyesThis is the key to survivalGo to far there is no revivalIf you don't love and rather hateThen there is such thing as fateWhen suspicion lies within the soulThe spirit is there to takes the tollIts better to be forgiven than to hold a grudgeThen we are the ones to judgeHelp us now to make some peacePass the word and everybody have their pieceInstead of torment and warBe kind and share and please leave and open door

Day Of The Van And The Low Water Bridge
April 2009 Fat Ass calls, got a fence job. I've been out of action with a shattered ankle for a month so I agree to help out for the measely pay (beer costs money and Mrs.V controls the money so I rarely have much) . We go and start the job. Fat Ass in a bobcat with an auger. It only took 2 hours for him to finally let me show him how to make the auger spin even (he's not much on reading instructions or listening to anyone else) . Anyhow come lunch time he decides he wants to get high so we pile in the van and head to his place. We come to the low water bridge which is flooded over. He says "what do you guys think", before we can respond we are going across. Half way there is a log in the bridge, he guns the van to get over it. The Van stalls. He cranks and cranks as I tell him all he is doing is sucking more water into the engine. "Shut up I know more about cars than you, you dumb fuck" "What do we do" he finally asks. "Umm call 911 since the water is rising and I rea

This
THIS. http://tpmcafe.talkingpointsmemo.com/talk/blogs/a/m/americandad/2010/03/an-open-letter-to-conservative.php?ref=recdc That is all. Okay, I lied, that is not all. I freely admit I'm not an expert on politics or current events. Still, the amount of idiocy, fearmongering, namecalling, racism, sexism, classism, and just plain asshattery I see in politics these days is mind-boggling. Do people really believe the things they're saying, or are they just saying them to be contrary and obstructionist? Whatever happened to informed, respectful debate?

I Think I Need Help
I just need to get this down somewhere so I can maybe get it off my mind. Ok so my boyfriend is being a total ass. He actually got mad at me because I didnt want to go out after physically getting sick. I get yelled at at least 4 days a week. He never touches me. Doesnt want to have sex any more. My mind is starting to wonder. I have this insanely hot neighbor. And he keeps doing these little things that just drive me up the wall. He comes over a lot and he will pull up chair so I can help him do diff things. Hes been rubbing his hand up against mine. And when he rests his hand on my leg he starts to rub it. Last night when he was over he even called me babe. I thought that was odd. I dont know if he even knows hes doing it. But with my current lack of sex, and being someone who like to have it at least 5 times a week, its starting to drive me crazy. I know its wrong to be so turned on by him. But I cant help myself. I also know that nothing will happen. I really care a

*sigh*
My work has screwed me even more. I was sceduled this week for a 2:30-cl shift. UGH! I can't work at 2:30. I have a class that ends at 3:15. So I called my deparment head on the weekend and asked what was going on. He told me it was just a misprint and that I go in at 5:30 as usual tomorrow. So I thought it was all worked out. Not hardly.. I got a call last night from him saying that it wasn't a misprint because they had a truck coming in on Wednesday. Well shit. So he had to give the shift to someone else. I'm very bummed out. I NEED those hours! I get paid shit as it is, around 65ish bucks every 2 weeks. I was excited about getting an actual 8hr shift instead of my measly 4.5hr shift every Wednesday.Hopefully he'll call me to cover a weekend shift or something.. So my next pay check will look like around 35 bucks or so, all of which willl be going towards my credit card bill. On a slightly brighter note, I will finally be able to hear my bff's radio show on Wednesday night for

Day 1 (possible Rp Group Formation?)
Well this site seems interesting, seems like it will be a good time waster. I may be able to do some good networking and build up an RP group. That would be cool, an RP lounge. Awesome. Cheers to Synnocent for introducing me to Fubar.

And Another Thing...
They have changed the marital status options. Why not add... Single but looking-(sub categories) (for a one night stand) (for that right one) Single and not looking (so don't even bother) (but would love friends) Engaged (but doing it for the green card) (and getting cold feet) Married but (cheating) (no longer in love with my other half) Married and (faithful to my other half) (looking for a second/third/fourth partner) (willing to cheat) LMAO I see they haven't changed the gender option though. It's still either male or female. What about ftm or mtf or... Your guess is as good as mine. And that one could work if they had a sexual orientation option as well. Some people are sick of being bombarded with flirts from the WRONG SEX. So why can't we have a sexual orientation option, they could be as follows: Gay/Lesbian Bisexual Pansexual Your guess is as good as mine It's not what's between the thighs but between the eyes that matters

Fyneazz's Team
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Starstruck's Tea
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New Name Rule...
What is up with the new name rule? I can't have 3 x's in a row in my name now? I can't have special symbols in my name any more because...WHO? voted on this new BS idea? Apparently the Fubar staff did? Or did I miss something? I was gone for a while and now this BS. I'm beginning to feel that fubar sucks.

Venom's Team
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Superman231
Superman231Real Name: Wesley aka WesRank: First Class Petty OfficerFriends since: March 2007Likes: Boobs, Jets, BoobsDislikes: Being vulnerable, cock blockersConsidering I joined in 2006 and have deleted nearly all of my fubar friends, Supe is now one of my oldest online pals. I can categorize my friendship with Supe into three timeframes… pre break, post break, and post Emanon. It wasn’t until after my year long hiatus (post break) that we started speaking on a regular basis. Little known fact: Supe invited me to a mumm community outside of fubar shortly before I left the Fu for a year. That is the first time I remember seeing his peen. Pre Break: The first half of our fu-friendship I don’t remember him, so either we didn’t talk often, or I didn’t care. Either is possible. Post Break: Upon returning, I actually started talking to Supe and remembering it. :p So this is where I shall begin. Supe & I started in the mumms. He was a funny d

Light On
Never really said too muchAfraid it wouldn’t be enoughJust try to keep my spirits upWhen there’s no point in grievingDoesn’t matter anywayWords could never make me stayWords will never take my placeWhen you know I’m leaving Try to leave a light on when I’m goneSomething I rely on to get homeOne I can feel at nightA naked light, a fire to keep me warmTry to leave a light on when I’m goneEven in the daylight, shine onAnd when it’s late at night you can look insideYou won’t feel so alone You know we’ve been down that roadWhat seems a thousand times beforeMy back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasonsThat roll out underneath my heelsAnd you don’t know how bad it feelsTo leave the only one that I have ever believed in Try to leave a light on when I’m goneSomething I rely on to get homeOne I can feel at nightA naked light, a fire to keep me warmTry to leave a light on when I’m goneEven in the daylight, shine onA

Let Me Tell You About Me
Let's see, where do I start. Hmmm.... I guess i'll start with the fun stuff. LOL. For those of you who have looked at my "Me Working" album, you probably wonder what it is that I do. It's quite simple really. I am an amatuer, BBW, porn model/producer. I do pictures, videos, and group shows. I also have a live house that runs during the day and at night, while the children are at school and in bed. LOL! I have been doing it for about two years now and still learning the ropes, as they say. If you want to know more about this then you will have to drop me a line and see where it goes from there. The site I am currently on is awesome and I love the friends I've made there and some of them are helping me get my own site up and running, but that is still a ways off in the future. I will give any info you want about what i do, but I will not give out the link unless I think you will be an active viewer. There are many of us on the site from around the world and we all cater to different ne

Are They Just Born Ignorant Or Looking For Attention At Any Cost?
I have been in alot of chat rooms and other sites that people chat. And yanno it's not much different, you get bullys, there to. They are pompous, self righteous, arrogant dick wades who think they are always right, feel the need to bash any one who doesnt agree with what they talk about. Or for example...lastnight I was in my favorite chat room with friends, I switched a av of a chick with egyptian eye make-up on. Imediately, boom this dude ask me if I was a posh bitch? I ask why do you say that? He said look at the av your wearing...I just said as nice as possible with out allowing him to piss me off. I like how she wears her makeup, this isnt me, it's just a av I like. Man he went on and on and on...I out of respect for my friends room just put his sorry ass on iggy. I keep trying to figure out what is up with these people, why do they hate so much? Does their life suck so dam bad, they have to take out their hurt on every one and any one that comes in to contact with th

Socialism In Medicine Is Bad Because The Government Can't Do Anything Right.
This morning I was awoken by my alarm clock powered by electricity generated by the public power monopoly regulated by the US Department of Energy. I then took a shower in the clean water provided by the municipal water utility. After that, I turned on the TV to one of the FCC regulated channels to see what the National Weather Service of the National Oceanographic and Atmospheric Administration determined the weather was going to be like using satellites designed, built, and launched by the National Aeronautics and Space Administration. I watched this while eating breakfast of US Department of Agriculture inspected food. At the appropriate time as regulated by the US Congress and kept accurate by the National Institute of Standards and Technology and the US Naval Observatory. I get into my National Highway Traffic Safety Administration approved automobile and set out to work on the roads built by the local, state, and federal departments of transportation, possibly stopping to purchas

Weighing In
Earlier this morning I read a blog, it stated some very interesting things, things that I recall happening. I'm the unfortunate factor in said blog. However I don't think anyone deserves what happened in that blog, regardless of feeling. You may think you deserve this, this and this but in reality no one deserves to emotionally or physically abused. The blog owner goes on to say everything was her fault, but it wasn't. It never was. Idiocy and fear were the main triggers in the 'antagonist' were the main factors in the blog owners blog. Fear and Idiocy have always been the case. The blog owner never knew was the person described was never once aware of what he was doin'. He just did it, but every night couldn't live with himself. Not once. And still can't. Thoughts of suicide ran through his mind a lot, something he refused to tell the blog owner. He didn't do it, because he loved the blog owner to much to do so. He still does, the blog owners flaws, the blog owners everything. As h

Words
"A Precious Flower"Like a precious flower, is her beauty to mea treasure to keep, in my heart foreverour souls, melding into oneeach time we hold hands, each time we kisssoftly, sweetly, she gives herself to meas I give myself to her, forever, in loveremember, my beauty, my lovely songbirdkeep in your heart always, my love for you By K

No One
I feel as though ivefallen through the cracksno one sees me for who i amwho i want to be, for who i was.No one to hold my hand,or look in my eyesor hold me in their armsin the pouring rain.No one is what i was bornno one is what i amand no one is what ill be when i die.No one to grieve my passingno one to even careno one will even remember me.No tears, no joy, no heartbreak. No Nothing.so nothing for nothing.. sounds about rightwhen those that stroll by see my tombstone in the pale moon light. they dont see the words just the words. no one special.. never has and never was.

Noh8 (make A Salute That Says Noh8 )
NOH8 (MAKE A SALUTE THAT SAYS NOH8 ) TIME TO SPREAD LUV NOT HATE LINK ME TO UR NOH8 SALUTE ILL ADD IT TO MY NOH8 FOLDER HERES A EXAMPLE OF MINE ... I JUST STARTED THE FOLDER BUT ITS DOING GREAT SO FAR SO MANY SENT IN AND WAY MORE STILL SENDING IN THANX ALL ^_^ WHERE IS THE LOVE?

Searching For My Rose
In the Garden of Eden, there is a flower, beautiful and delicate to the touch, It was so rare and unique, God loved it so very much. In time word would spread, of Gods special gift, soon after thousands would gather to give their spirits a lift. Questions would soon be asked, how God could create such beauty and why, there hasn't been another one created though many have tried. What was this gift, God has given us, what was the name that he chose? God soon answered by saying, " This gift I sent you is special to me, this gift I give you I have named Rose."

Jigsaw Crossword Mindfuck
The riddles and games take a walk through a maze Can anyone solve these puzzles? Please fucking stop these puzzles! Intense the complexity that boggles my mind with the mystery- instilled by the ones who act kind. How frusterating! How disheartening! Can I obtain the patience to furbish solutions- so the questions stop pounding inside? -Oh how they fuck with my mind. The games and these riddles must die! FIN

The Moon Is Made Of Hopscotch
In the twelve hours between seven pm Sunday night and seven am this morning, I walked nearly five miles on the treadmill at Anytime Fitness. When I arrive, I hit the Quick Start button on the treadmill for an hour-long walk but usually go to work on the machines for building arm and leg strength after thirty minutes. Martha was with me both times on the exercise bike, and it was worth it to get said workout! We’d just gotten the kids to bed late after several hours at my sister-in-law Margaret’s house where the Wii Sports Resort draws family and friends like moths to a flame … ok, I’m not ragging that bad, I bowled the first strike knocking down 100 pins in a specialized bowling game after talk went around that someone had rigged the game! But it got to be quite a crowd in there and fun for everybody! Yesterday at Main Street Books’ Story Time after Celia read “Horton Hatches An Egg” Martha and I brought Sarah and Jeffrey out to the si

More Lyrics!
"Just A Little Girl"- Amy Studt Sometimes I feel you’re not listening Sometimes I feel you don’t understand But I think I’ve got the answer Already know what you’re gonna say ‘Cause I’m just a little girl you see But there’s a hell of a lot more to me Don’t ever underestimate what I can do Don’t ever tell me how I’m meant to be You say I’m just a little girl, just a little girl How can I compare? What do I know? What have I got to share? But there’s nothing in this world, nothing in this world That could hold me down, can’t you hear me? Don’t you understand That I wanna be myself, wanna be the girl, Wanna be the one that you can rely on How I wish that you could see all there is of me How I long to hear that you take me For who I am ‘Cause I’m just a little girl you see But there’s a hell of a lot more to me Don’t ever underestimate what I can do Don’t ever tell me

:(
for a month I was having stabbing pains and a burning sensation in my stomach and feeling nausiated.. well I got tired of feeling this way so on the 18th I went to the emergency room and was admited within 10 minutes.. I went through a sonogram and they couldn't find my ovaries and my pain was up to a 10 at this point in time. I went in for an emergency surgery around 2100 and didn't get out till 2200 or later... they took a cist off of my right ovary the size of a tennis ball! the cist was pulling and cutting off blood circulation to that ovary for months apparently and never knew it!! on top of that, I had a huge amount of blood just sitting around my colon and I had blood soaking into my intestines and etc!! I lost my left fallopian tube due to a tubal pregnancy that I never knew about! my tube was not saveable since it was black and blue... pretty much dead!! my baby was dead also!! they nearly took my right fallopian tube also because they were and still are very concerned about i

[antics!]
Last night was a bitch for me.I didn't evensee it coming. ... and if you name those lyrics I'll put something nice in your love-box. Had to replace a tire today, but y'know... I was like "SCREW IT! You see this overcoat I'm wearing? I got money! Fah Q!" Paid off the old man. Wrote an entirely too long email to (name removed for your safety) explaining what she missed this weekend. And no there's nothing all that interesting about my weekend or the pothole that ruined my front passenger tire. I got tax money coming back, and another paycheck in ... a week. And like... 4 kits coming in the mail this week. I do notgive a fuck. My friend chris must be dead or dating someone new. Like ... two weeks no symposium about why final fantasy sucks ragged crusty donkey dick. Anyway, Ramba Ral Custom Zaku is started. I'm looking over the kit and it has some...*looks over to his work surface*short comings. I already talked about the nonsense parts (seriously, no fucking idea what they're

When Loneliness Consumes The Soul
Alone at night when darkness falls and the lack of life echoes through the halls The only sound; the heart rending silence left in the wake that seeks to drive me from this place The silence left with the absence of love, that precious gift bestowed from above With tears glistening throughout my eyes I stare blankly at all the lies The words that rended the lives in twain, such passion, desire, left only pain And through agonies blissful cry Im trapped inside and wish to die With mournful steps I go through life, a shell of the man consumed by strife And yet I still hear loves call, lost in the distance of it all Darkness encroaching, consuming the life with love approaching My love lost to me, locked inside my shell as my agony draws me down to my personal Hell My eyes lift to the heavens and I cry out, of fear, of doubt My agony so profound as the loneliness of my soul resounds As I still seek to find the woman to complete me, the one who will be mine

Aryes' Team
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Mists In The Heart's Dance
Once again I sit on the edge of the abyss dancingfeeling each drop of dew softly caress my skin as a lost lovesmelling the sickening sweetness of the wild honeysuckle as it fills the night airthe soft breeze gently blowing through my long hair as i gently move through the darkat the edge i hear the voice of my heart's desire pulling me with the darkest of desiresever so gently coaxing me more and more over the edge of the abyssfeeling the breath of my love softly warming my heart as words are spoken of soft but painful embrace

Bon Jovi - Always
This romeo is bleeding But you can't see his blood It's nothing but some feelings That this old dog kicked up It's been raining since you left me Now I'm drowning in the flood You see I've always been a fighter But without you I give up Now I can't sing a love song Like the way it's meant to be Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore But baby, that's just me And I will love you, baby - Always And I'll be there forever and a day - Always I'll be there till the stars don't shine Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always Now your pictures that you left behind Are just memories of a different life Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry One that made you have to say goodbye What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair To touch your lips, to hold you near When you say your prayers try to understand I've made mistakes, I'm just a man When he holds you close, when he pulls

Dammit
In your arms I can still feel the way you want me when you hold me I can still hear the words you whispered when you told me I can stay right here forever in your arms And there ain't no way-- I'm lettin' you go now And there ain't no way-- and there ain't no how I'll never see that day.... [Chorus:] 'Cause I'm keeping you forever and for always We will be together all of our days Wanna wake up every morning to your sweet face--always Mmmm, baby In your heart--I can still hear a beat for every time you kiss me And when we're apart, I know how much you miss me I can feel your love for me in your heart And there ain't no way-- I'm lettin' you go now And there ain't now way-- and there ain't no how I'll never see that day.... In your arms I can still feel the way you want me when you hold me I can still hear the words you whispered when you told me I can stay right here forever in your arms And there ain't no way-- I'm lettin' you go now And there ain't no way-- and there ain't no h

Kellie Pickler - "didn't You Know How Much I Loved You"
I remember the way you made love to me Like I was all you'd ever need Did you change your mind Well I didn't change mine Now here I am trying to make sense of it all We were best friends now we don't even talk You broke my heart Ripped my world apart Didn't you know how much I loved you Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby I gave you everything, every part of me Didn't you feel it when I touched you Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby Baby, tell me Didn't you know how much I loved you I can't get you out of my head I still feel you in this bed Left me all alone You couldn't be more gone From falling apart to fighting mad From wanting you back to not giving a damn I've felt it all I've been to the wall Didn't you know how much I loved you Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby I gave you everything, every part of me Didn't you feel it when I touched you Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby Baby, tell me Didn't you know how much I loved you One day justice will com

Counting Down To
You believe and I don't. You have faith in yourself or something I do not. All I'm doing is waiting for OR 13. Counting down to the last one to cross the threshold for that OR to exist and the final one to corss for it to cease. No one or thing knocked me down to cease. Nothing out here for any reason any can come up with for me to say, your right. That is my purpose and the reason for me to be here. Many things are said by The Master The Christ but one of the last thing that is said in The Gospel is very odd. He who has a coat must now sell it and buy a sword. That is referenced to Old Testament, they shall beat their sword into plow share. Gospel, if he presses you for your tunic, give him your coat as well. The Lord, left nothing but contradictions. Why is it that it that it is apparent to me but you bow down to who ever comes along with their very slick story to satisfy your need for the moment? Look at yourself in that mirror for the long haul. Glory to God Norio

Stimulus Payment
Sometime this year, we taxpayers will again receive another 'Economic Stimulus' payment. This is indeed a very exciting program, and I'll explain it by using a Q & A format: Q. What is an 'Economic Stimulus' payment ? A. It is money that the federal government will send to taxpayers. Q.. Where will the government get this money ? A. From taxpayers. Q. So the government is giving me back my own money ? A. Only a smidgen of it. Q. What is the purpose of this payment? A. The plan is for you to use the money to purchase a High-definition TV set, thus stimulating the economy. Q. But isn't that stimulating the economy of China ? A. Shut up. Below is some helpful advice on how to best help the U.S. economy by spending your stimulus check wisely: *If you spend the stimulus money at Wal-Mart, the money will go to China or Sri Lanka . *If you spend it on gasoline, your money will go to the Arabs. *If you purchase a comp

Celtic Woman
You know, I am not much of a person to listen to this kind of music, but just happen to listen to 1 song of theirs and fell right in love. I finally get to go see them in person. It is something about the "Celtic Woman" that just draws you to them. I am more of your, 5 Finger Death Punch kinda of music guy but what aww the "Celtic Woman" have. Tickets were expensive but they will be worth it. Just can't wait till April 14. Songs I would recommend if you ever want to listen to them is from CD, "Songs from the Heart" http://www.celticwoman.com/

Top 10 Things You Never Hear A Slave Say
TOP 10 THINGS YOU WILL NEVER HEAR A SLAVE SAY TO MASTER/MISTRESS THANKS JOANNE! LOL 10: How was I supposed to know I wasn't supposed to put your leather pants in the washer? 09: Yeah, right... SPANK THIS! 08: Tomorrow night, I get to tie you up, right? 07: God, you Dom's think the world should bow before you! 06: And just what do you think you are going to do with that paddle? 05: Sorry, I got a date tomorrow night. Some other time, perhaps. 04: Spanking? I-THINK-NOT! 03: Who died and left you in charge? 02: Do your own damn laundry! and the #1 thing you will never hear a sub say to their Master... 01: What do I look like, your maid?

...sad...
Feelings in a nutshell: Do the jabs hurt? Yes Do I wish they'd stop? Yes Do I wish that things were the way were? Definitely Do I think it'll happen? No I'm still gonna act like it doesn't get to me and hope for the best.

Do You Need Points/ability Points
DO YOU NEED HELP LEVELING WITH POINTS OR ABILITY POINTS SOME FRIENDS AND I WILL TRY TO HELP YOU YOU MUST BE LEVEL 28 OR HIGHER WITH 5 MIL OR LESS WHEN IT COMES TO ALTRUIZE POINTS WE WILL NOT HAVE AUTO'S OR BOMBS UNLESS YOU WANT TO DONATE ONE THERE IS NO CERTAIN AMOUNT OF POINTS IF WE ALTRUIZE YOU - YOU MUST RATE TOO MEANING YOU RATE THE PERSON'S PICS THAT IS ALTRUIZING YOU AFTER ALL YOU ARE GETTING THE POINTS IF WE SEE YOUR NOT HELPING YOURSELF LETING US DO ALL THE WORK WE WILL STOP HELPING YOU WE WILL NOT CHARGE YOU IF YOU WANT TO DONATE THATS FINE JUST TRYING TO GIVE BACK & HELP OTHERS IF YOU WOULD LIKE OUR HEL

About "dead Smile"
Evening was a dead day. Which is falling toward the horizon where the sun every unhappy punishable by redness. Rope hanging laundry fluttering due to wind angry evening, were moribund. Kids playing outside their homes one by one disbanded. Father returned from work. The curtains were covered, lights were lit, dinner was put on the table. The streets became deserted. Although the bank has removed the old pardesüsünün, Carmen still painfully felt by frost freezers. Sped up the steps. Dim and narrow streets, such as a carpet kaldýrýmlý Albanians who had covered dry leaves crunch beneath their feet were. If there would be no good in terms of these babies cold; After all, had only a month. Despite this, the less time to stay on to go to work then Fernando was infuriating. But should work Carmen. Fernando was very little money they have given to the factory. That's why Carmen had found a nursing job last week. Take the money even if much still fe ... Dark street corner on a dead man suddenly

Progress Versus Status Quo
I challenge us all to progress as a nation rather than choose to cling to outdated ideas. I challenge us to choose to be better than remain status quo. Our nation must be better if we are to have a future worth living on our planet. And, if you do not care for your future then I beseech you to look deep within your own humanity. The future of us all is at stake. So are you going to choose progress or remain status quo?

Scarification
Scarification I have been marked, and i wear it proudly. The design is original and can never be duplicated. It was a gift from the ONE that loves me most. A reminder of something so wonderful...something never to be forgotten. People who do not undertand...look and see....then turn in disgust or try to hide their revolt. There have been times they have made me feel ugly and full of shame, and i hated myself for letting them get to me. It took me a long time to realize that this was given to me out of pure love. That i earned this. It took a while to create such a masterpiece and it was meant to last forever. My scars are my stretchmarks, designed and given by God. A constant reminder of the most precious days i carried my children inside me. What could be more magical or beautiful than that. by Pita 3/22/10 A note of thanks to WHIPS, for inspiring this writing. xox

Not Sure When I'll Get A Camera Cored; But
Starting tomorrow I'll be taking photos twice a week along with excersizing. I'm going a size goal of a size 10. It won't be as hard as it was the first time I went for that small but just annoying. I'll be learning how to rollerblade hopefully this weekend. I'll take photos of me showing my problem areas and take a photo of how much i weigh. I'll write in my journal my process so that i don't forget what photos was taken what days. every two weeks or every week. I'll take the photos in the same outfit to show a difference that's more obvious. I'll take random pictures still.

Stanza 365 Week 10
Week 10 of Stanza 365 has begun. Today's piece is all about temptation. Want The harder I fight it the more it persists. I don't want to give in, but I just can't resist. I try to ignore it hoping it goes away, but it seems to get stronger every day. I don't know how much longer I can endure. Every second without just makes me want it more. It would be such a shame to let it all go to waste. Perhaps one last time ... I'll just take a taste. You can find this one, as well as days 1-62 at http://stanza365.wordpress.com/

Dear Teabagger Trolls, Please Read Facts:
WITHIN THE FIRST YEAR OF ENACTMENT Insurance companies will be barred from dropping people from coverage when they get sick. Lifetime coverage limits will be eliminated and annual limits are to be restricted. Insurers will be barred from excluding children for coverage because of pre-existing conditions. Young adults will be able to stay on their parents' health plans until the age of 26. Many health plans currently drop dependents from coverage when they turn 19 or finish college. Uninsured adults with a pre-existing conditions will be able to obtain health coverage through a new program that will expire once new insurance exchanges begin operating in 2014. A temporary reinsurance program is created to help companies maintain health coverage for early retirees between the ages of 55 and 64. This also expires in 2014. Medicare drug beneficiaries who fall into the "doughnut hole" coverage gap will get a $250 rebate. The bill eventually closes that ga

Letters From Home
i as thinking and have been curious how many people truly know how to write a real letter anymore? so heres the idea i had...i propose to you my friends to write me a real letter..yes a letter you write with your hand and have to lick the envelope and mail it i will answer everyone...tell me about your day..what funny trick your pet did...how your kid got his first tball hit etc etc if anyone is interested lemme know

Funny Questions And Thoughts
Why doesn't McDonald's sell hotdogs?At a movie theater which arm rest is yours?What is Satan's last name?Why do doctors leave the room when you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.Where does the toetag go on a dead person if they don't have toes?If your driving a federal owned car, and you run a stop sign, is it considered a felony? Why is there a disclaimer on the Allstate Auto Insurance commericals that says "Not available in all states"?If you dug a hole through the center of the earth,and jumped in, would you stay at the center because of gravity?If a person dies and then springs back to life, do they get their money back for the coffin?If you are asked to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth and your the main witness, what if you say "no"?Do they bury people with their braces on? How far east can you go before you're heading west?How does a Real Estate company sell its office without causing confusion?Do dentists go to other dentists or do they just

Dj Application
WICKED DESIRES IS CURRENTLY LOOKING FOR DJ's!! QUALIFICATIONS -- - EXPERIENCE PREFERRED - WILLING TO WORK AS A TEAM - ALREADY HAS SAMS OR SOMEOTHER DJ EQUIPMENT SET UP - RELIABLE FOR THE DAYS YOU CHOSE. IF YOU MEET THE QUALIFICATIONS --- PLEASE LEAVE YOUR YIM WITH THE TIME INTERESTED & SOMEONE WILL GET AHOLD OF YOU. THANK YOU - WD STAFF & MANAGEMENT

Helpppppppppppp
these are the practice questions for my test tomorrow 1. An instrument store gives a 10% discount to all students off the original cost of an instrument. During a back to school sale an additional 15% is taken off the discounted price. Julie, a student at the local high school, purchases a flute for $306. How much did it originally cost? A. $325 B. $375 C. $400 D. $408 E. $425 2. If y(x-1)=z then x= A. y-z B. z/y + 1 C. y(z-1) D. z(y-1) E. 1-zy 3. Which of the following values is NOT equal to 34(58+9)? A. 34 x 67 B. 58(34+9) C. 34 x 58 + 34 x 9 D. 1,972 + 306 E. (9 + 58) 34 4. Two angles of a triangle measure 15° and 85 °. What is the measure for the third angle? A. 50° B. 55° C. 60° D. 80° E. 90° 5. If 5 ounces is equal to 140 grams, then 2 pounds of ground meat is equal to how many grams? A. 863 B. 878 C. 896 D. 915 E. 932 6. Which year did the most children take swimming lessons? A. 1990 B. 1991 C. 1992 D. 1994 E. 1995 7. Between which year did the largest decrease

Mexica Moon
Down in the flat plains and prickly cacti much unseen beyond the human eye The sun goes down it seems all dark but a big bright star shines as it sparks If you are lost you will find your way its so bright you'll think it was light of day See the shadows creeping from here to there stand outside and let the wind take you anywhere The moon shines high and true it makes the ground look blue See the stucko houses stand tall and still and the huts short and frill The desert plains have disguises of all kinds the moon so bright can help ease the mind Its peacefuland quiet you can hear the heart talkin just relax and let the soul do the walkin The light so bright we call mexica moon hope I see it again very soon writtin by Kat Buske/richardson

Wondering Wat If
i sit wondering all the time wondering if ur doing the same. and if u ever think bout our life and if we would of worked ? but i just look back and ask myself what was going through that mind? i will always have a special place in my heart .but i second guess myself. i wonder how could i love u if u can't even love urself.i have cried and even straved myself and craved u for hrs on into the day.i can't get my mind around what u say is love..i don't understand how u c ould say u love me but consently hurt me over and over.u no how to say all the right things...

Help Me Help Flo
After I submitted my video and it was accepted I got an email telling me to share it with everyone and to get comments so pliz folks help me here! If ya do I'll give ya back rubba rubba. Leave a comment pliz!

Love
You know you are in love when that one person is the first thing you think about in the morning, the last thing you think about at night. When it hurts having to go even five minutes without talking to that person. Wanting to be with him, hold him, look into his eyes. When you close your eyes and all you see is his face looking back at you. You know you're in love when you can actually see yourself in the delivery room with that person, having a child with them. You can see yourself growing old with that person, and you cry because you can see a little old couple walking down the street hand in hand still as much in love as they were when they were in their 20's. You know you're in love when the longing to be near them is almost too much to bear. Not being able to see that person tears at your heart. When but a thought of them brings a smile to your face bigger than you have ever had. When just the mere mention of their name has you looking over your shoulde

Friends
You know for people saying that they will always be there for you no matter what, it always seems that when you truly need someone that they are nowhere to be found. i am sick of people telling me every day that they are your friend beyond anything and when they find out that they cant get into your pants they are gone. its bullshit that you can give someone your time and your ear, but you cant get the same thing in return. People dont care about other people, they only care about themselves. They only care about their problems, their dilemmas, but when it comes to yours, you might as well forget about it. But a true friend, a real honest to goodness friend, will be there for you whenever you need them. It doesnt matter what they are doing they will drop everything no matter the consequences and be there for you. That is the kind of friend everyone needs in their life. The one that will tell you how stupid you were, but still love ya none the less. The

The Ramblings
where i had once always seen a blurry face, the blurry is no longer there. there is now a face to go with my thoughts and dreams. i miss him as soon as our conversation has ended. cry when we have to say our goodbyes. i never thought feelings like this would overtake my thoughts, my dreams, my life in its entirety. warm sensations, happy dreams, the feeling of being loved and wanted, needed, adored. when i imagine my future i see his face right there beside me every step of the way. taking care of me when i am sick, making me laugh when i am sad, pushing me to go farther because he knows i can. he is my future, the one i have always dreamed of. the warm body laying next to me in bed. the hand holding mine. the father of my future children. he is the one who puts a smile on my face day after day, night after night. the person that is there in the good times and the bad. the person i can look into his eyes and the world around us seems to disappear. we begin to tal

Gone
I didn't want to let you into my heart, but somehow you snaked your way in. now like a bolt of lightening you are gone. You claim that I wasn't trying as hard, but I was you just couldn't see. The hell and the torture I went through because I wanted to be with you, you will never know. Now you have a new woman, a new life, and I honestly hope that you are happy because that is all I have ever wanted for you. At least you don't have to deal with my hurt, with my pain, knowing that yet another has stomped where no one should ever stomp. You claimed that you would never hurt me, never let me down. But you did, you changed and not for the better. You promised me the world and on a silver platter, I believed you, my heart told me I had to, but my head told me not to. I should have listened to my head because at least then I wouldn't be where I am today. I might actually be happy and be with someone that wanted to be with me. You say you are sorry, but I know that you

Curveballs
why is it that when things are finally going well for you life has to go and throw you a curveball? Went to court today for the divorce and the ex started crap in the courtroom. Now i have to provide proof that I am actively looking for a job, proof of how much I got on the tax return, proof of the stimulous check, and I may very well end up in jail. If thats not one hell of a curveball then I dont know what is. I mean we had agreed on making this divorce a quick and easy thing and I thought we had all of our issues hashed outside of the courtroom. Evidentally not. Here I was thinking that everything was going to go smoothly, I was going to be able to start my life over after the divorce, but no I honestly think at this point all the ex is trying to do is hurt me and have me thrown in jail. That would make him happy, he could get the kids and to hell with me I wouldnt be able to see them.... So now instead of the divorce being final in July, we have to go back

Quotes And Sayings From Around The Internet
THESE ARE THINGS THAT I HAVE FOUND SCATTERED AROUND THE INTERNET AND ARRANGED THEM TO WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO READ, I ENJOY IT AND I HOPE YOU WILL TOO! I love you enough to fight for you, compromise for you, and sacrifice myself for you if need be. Enough to miss you incredibly when we're apart no matter what length of time its for and regardless of the distance. enough to believe in our relationship to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in our strength as a couple, and to never give up on us. Enough to spend the rest of my life with you, be there for you when you need or want me, and never, ever want to leave you or live without you. I may not get to see you as often as I'd like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night, but deep in my heart I trul know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go. I have seen you a million times and everytime I see you I fall in love with you all over again. My heart starts to race, my

Falling
Thoughts and memories begin to swirl together, I am so tired I dont know whats real and whats not. And I begin to reach farther and farther finally beginning to fall forward unable to grasp. I keep falling and falling, falling into an endless pit, a black hole. I feel that there is no bottom to this pit, I am going to fall forever. I am reaching out for something, anything to keep me from falling for eternity. Finally after what seemed like forever of falling I landed on a soft ground. As I begin to stand the ground starts moving beneath my feet. I am now struggling to keep my balance, I do not want to fall. I begin to scream for help, I open my mouth, but there is no sound. I have gone mute. I try whistling, kicking, swinging my arms, but nothing. I can get no help. Out of the blackness I hear this high pitched screeching, like nails on a chalkboard. These black winged creatures start flying at me, attempting to peck at my face until there is nothing left

Thanks To The Soldiers
To every man and woman that has ever donned a uniform, wh ohas ever pledged to defend this country with his or her life. To every woman and man that has ever left their family behind in order to fight for our right to be free, who has ever fought alongside someone that they didnt much care for because they were called to duty. To every man and woman who has left their every day lives in search of something greater, to discover the person that they really are. To the families who have had to say goodbye, worried, scared that they would never see their loved one again. To the mothers and the fathers who raised their sons and daughters to have enough passion and courage to stand up for what they believe in. To the soldiers of the United States of America and the people who raised them, thank you.Thank you for making this country a great place to live, Thank you fo proving to me that there are more than cowards and sissies, for proving to me that people really do care. T

Poetry
i never knew how much love my heart could hold until the day you girls were born. looking down into your precious little faces i knew my life was forever changed. i counted each of your tiny little fingers and each of your teeny little toes. i kissed your little chubby cheeks and even your cute little nose. i cuddled you up so very close, cuddled you skin to skin. i laughed when nana said now that you were out you would try to get back in. when you opened your eyes so big and bright, i knew i always wanted to be there directly in your sight. as the weeks flew buy you grew so very big, just to hear your adorable laugh i would dance a jig. you are all my precious little baby girls, with your heads so full of bouncing curls. even when you make me spend and spend, i will love you until the very end

Master's Creed
Above all else He cherishes His slave, in the knowledge that the gift she gives Him is the greatest gift of all He is strict and takes full advantage of the power given to Him but knows to share the pleasure that comes from that precious gift He is in control of himself first and foremost, so that He may control others. As a stern and demanding Master, He can cause His slave real tears As the consummate lover, He will kiss the tears away without stepping out of character In times of trouble, a Master is a supportive partner and friend never forgetting that this is a loving relationship between two caring individuals He is quick to understanding the difference between fantasy and reality He would never ask His slave to put Him before her career or family just to satisfy His own pleasure To win His slaves mind, body, soul and love. He must first earn her trust. He will show His slave humor, kindness and warmth He must always show her that His guidance and tut

Abortion History: From This Woman's Work To.... Men's Choice?
With Bart Stupak's idiocy bringing discussion of abortion to the fore, I thought a look at the history of abortion might be of interest. Despite what the Church says, their views on it have been inconsistent over its history. How did a woman's personal matter became part of the business of the Church? Follow me below the fold...Pregnancy and everything surrounding it, from contraception to abortion to birth, began as exclusively woman's territory. As it should be. In ancient times, there were wise women and herbalists to help a woman in this area. Abortifacient herbs have been found in ancient archeological sites. Though primitive, their methods worked with minimal side effects or other problems.The earliest written evidence of abortion appears in the Ebers Papyrus, which dates back to 1550 BC. It is believed to be the earliest written medical document and includes chapters on gynecology and obstetrics as well as other medical conditions. Chinese folklore dates the use of mercury to in

Arizona Sun
Daydreamin in a plane so high look out the window at the clear blue sky The sun star so bright, but its clors start to fade deep red to hazy orange, drifting yellow, and rays sharp as a blade Slowly it slipsdown every minute of the day so hot the great desert cactus seems to lay In the distance see the formatting hills deep under rocks the rattle snakes wait for shade to kill The sky slowly turning pink as the star starts to hide colors as strong as the big pacific tide Darker and darker the plains must be the sky is still rich as I can see Half and half behind the hills the sun drifts away this wonderful beautiful image in my head will stay The colors fade the bright star is done

My Majestic
Majesticaly look through the eyes see the dawn of the sun as it sets while the eagle flies The kiss sets the butterflies free from the bind strngth that of a bear creating an uproar in the mind Journey to the moonas it dances on the lakeby taking the hand feeling free as we look upon this landd The touch so eroticand sensitive the stars are burning sweet voice makes the heart and world keep turning Thoughts running wildletting the inasents be buried in the well warm breath on the skinso smooth like the wings of an angel Loving memory hits like lightning across the sky so bright our bodies vibrate intensly like that of thunder crashing in the night Your love is the most majestic I've witnessed in my time may my soul be your majestic crime writtin by Kat Buske/richardson

Untutled Poem I Wrote A Long Time Ago
i love you i love you without knowing when where why and how its like i was drowning and you saved me a breath of fresh air you mean the world to me its like words cant explain my heart stops and speeds up everytime i think about you hearing thoes three words is like nothing anyone has expierenced with each passing day i fall more and more in love with you i cant imagine my life without you i know i can but i never want to live my life without you your my world my everything ive never wanted anything more than i want you in my life. no let me correct myself i not only want you in my life i need you in my life before, even in a room full of people i felt alone but now all i see is us nothing matters anymore but us our life you and me your everything i have ever wanted you may not be perfect but your perfect for me

Come Join A New Group Starting!
Come join this new group if you want to be a playboy bunny! We are going to start off small and take off! Come ask me how you can join if ur interested!!! I will hope that we can be a family and help everyone out!

So, This Guy Walks Into A Bar...
Where to start... How can one define a self? What makes a person who they are? Is it what that individual decides to do, how they act, who they socialize with? What makes a person? Who made you? I've long since been an advocate of the "make yourself" campaign. My grandfather instilled in me the power of free will, for that I'm forever grateful. A lot of people go to their parents for guidance, some look to their friends, and some choose a God. Who do you go to? Who ultimately makes the decision that will infinitely affect your life? What happened to make you believe in the things you do. Not everything is as certain as gravity. Are you making yourself, or are you letting others assemble you? Do you lead or follow? Are you someone you're proud of? What I'm getting at is that so many people I meet on a daily basis seem so happy, so secure, yet so clueless! People drift in and out of the bar without paying much attention to anything unfamiliar. Strangers will sit side by side and not utte

$tre$$
Money can’t buy happiness, right? Well then, why is it that everything that makes me happy, in one way or another, costs something?? I’m happy just to hang out with my friends… but the gas it takes me to get over there isn’t free, nor was my car. I’m happy sitting and playing with my cat, while he WAS free, his upkeep isn’t. Life is not free. Water, food, shelter… all these things cost. People have often said that “money is the root of all evil”. I’m not sure if I agree. If I were a millionaire, I wouldn’t have much to complain about initially. Why is everything so expensive? Our country is in a recession, and they’re still draining our bank accounts. Everyone seems to have noticed the rise and fall of gas prices, but it doesn’t end there! Has anyone paid ANY attention to the cost of Milk, OTC Meds, Rice, and even Clean Water? All of these everyday products have nearly doubled in price since 2000

O.i.l.
Why are American cities designed so it's almost impossible not to have a car? Why were hundreds of railways in big cities created and then deliberately destroyed? Why did the electric car get scrapped? Why were we, the United States, along with Australia, the only two countries not to sign the original Kyoto Climate Treaty? Why was an oil company lobbyist allowed to change official government reports on global warming? Why was the same P.R. firm employed by the tobacco industry to persuade the public that smoking is healthy, then employed by oil companies to convince us that there's still doubt about climate change? Alternative energy has been available for over 50 years! Why have we barely used it? Why were the solar panels taken off of the White House? Because right from the early days of the industry, the “oil men” and their obscene profits have had an unhealthy influence with the people running our country. Now they are the people running our country! The oil b

Looking Up
For the longest time, as far back as I can remember, I've questioned why life has been such a struggle. Between the day-to-day, nonsensical, inane bullshit one must endure, and the fact that we are forced to reside among idiots, it’s an accomplishment just to get out of bed. I’ve never understood how, or why, some people choose to be the way they are; ignorant, careless, deceitful, and just plain rude. Life is tough enough without their “contributions”. I’ve become desensitized to words like “recession”, “economy”, “debt”, and my personal least favorite… “Love”. Love is nothing shy of a fucking fairy tale to me. I know that it exists, I’ve felt it. It’s a great idea and all, but eventually, as well as inevitably, it will hurt you. After the only girl I ever loved died, I gave up. I knew that no matter what, I’d never get her back and I’d never love someone like I loved her. Well

Stoopidity
Now I'm well aware that people make mistakes once in a while when it comes to grammar, but seriously... There are people my age, people that have graduated high school, even college, that still can't differentiate between the usages of “your” and “you’re”. This is not a lesson in English; I seriously doubt that anything I could ever say would make you want to further educate yourself. My friends say words and phrases like “funner” or “seent it” just because they know how much it irks me. Now I’m even becoming desensitized to that. If you want to intentionally sound stupid, do it, I don’t give a shit. But if you’re going to send me a message packed full of netiquette, don’t even bother. I don’t like reading things like; “r u comin out 4 the show @ (insert venue here) 2morrow”. Jesus… things like that shouldn’t bother me as much as they do. Ignorance isn’t cool. It’s c

What's Your Problem?
By now I’ve learned that everyone has their own set of problems. Whether your problem is starvation and disease, or that the Italian tile you’re importing for your new bathroom addition is going to arrive late and throw off your whole schedule, a problem is a problem. We might view some problems as petty or trivial, but the fact of the matter is, that problem means something to someone else. Right now, my problem is that I’m not where I want to be in life. I’m sick of my surroundings and I’ve never been so homesick in my life. I’d love to move back to Florida, but I recently received a DWI and will not be able to relocate until my probationary period is complete. I won’t know how long my probation is until my court date, and I have not been given a court date yet… I’m officially at a stand-still. To some, my problem won’t qualify as a problem; it’d be a selfish complaint. To the millions of children, women, and men star

Dying To Live
You wanna know what’s really starting to piss me off… The fact that whenever a celebrity floods the media, everyone starts acting like he/she was one of the best of their time and change their status on myspace and facebook to “OMG (insert name here) is (insert ‘tragedy’ here)“. Well first off, Brittany Murphy wasn’t the greatest actress (based on the fact that the only award she’s ever won was a voice-over role on King of the Hill), Michael Jackson didn’t change how music was heard, and Tiger Woods isn’t the first athlete to cheat on his spouse! Why any of their lives, outside of entertainment, would ever matter to you, I don’t know. If you were to pass away tomorrow, do you think Angelina Jolie or Derek Jeter would say, “Last night Jane Johnson died, and she will be missed.” No! They don’t know you, you don’t know them. So why get all heartbroken because someone you’ve never met died? Hav

Tax Reform
At an open conference in Vermont, the state tax commissioner asked the audience which sort of taxation they thought was the most fair and equitable. There was a pause, and then a white-haired man in the back raised his hand. "The poll tax," he said. "But the poll tax was repealed some time ago," replied the commissioner. "Ay-yuh," declared the old man, "that's what I like about it."

What 8 Hours Sleep Get You!
I slept.. Im excited I finally stopped having major leg cramps last night and got a full 8 hours.. All of this sleep has changed my perspective on a few things... !. Ive been a mean sob lately, i apologize to my friends but hahahaha i love it. 2. I think im getting horny again and really its only to the gender with vagina's 3. I talked to Witchie on the phone at first i was scared i make shitty impressions but hey i made the call.. seriously that woman brightens my mornings.... maybe its cause were both psycho 4. Seamus still refuses to allow my to enter the boobs contest cause apparently he thinks the scorpion will give it away i personally think hes has "pregnant lady" hate... I love you all and i will try really hard to be nicer to those around me.. *crosses fingers behind back* HAHA FUCKERS IM PREGNANT YOU HAVE TO PUT UP WITH ME!! Wicked My daughter is getting fat and oh im 6 months pregnant yeah PS i havent really talked to you people at all so what happe

Here, There And Anything I Say
Just wanna thank everyone that has helped me along so far here on Fu... This is actually my 3rd time with an account and love to level up and give Fu luv to all that I can! More to come @ another posting time... Keep Fu Rock'n and Rate'n!

A Sad, Sad Day For Americans
For the 1st time in my life I am ashamed of our government and the American People. Our government has always been a government of and for the People of this country. With 65 to 70 percent of the People of the United States not in favor of this Health Care legislation, the Federal government has decided that this issue should be forced down the People's throat whether we like it or not. They have now treated the People like small children who do not know what's best for them and by God they are going to show us what is no matter what. And we have no choice in this at all. The People have spoken and we have been told to shut up and enjoy the ride. To shut up and do what we have been told. The Democrats have decided they know best what is good for the country and the rest of us are just spoiled children who know nothing. Not only is this the biggest power grab in the history of the United States, it is also the start of the dismantling of our republic. As "We, the People" a

Victim #1
So I decided in an effort to keep my friends list down I am going to write a blog about a person on my friends or family list, once a week or so. I figure, by seeing what I really think about them, I will trim my list down considerably. So, who should the first victim be?

Faq's Revisited.
I get a ton of shoutbox messages everyday asking me the same questions over and over. Since I hate repeating myself, I am going to answer the FAQ's in here since apparently my profile is too much to read. 1. What do you like to do for fun? I love outdoor activities like camping, horseback riding, swimming, boating, and fishing. My favorite thing in the world is to travel and experience different cultures. I like reading, but rarely find the time. I love concerts and watching movies and plays. I also like to drive, to go and TRY to get lost just so I can say I found a new place. 2. Are you single? To 99.99% of the people asking, it is irrelevant, because I have no interest in you, and you shouldn't waste your time having any interest in me. But to answer your question, yes I am single. Let me save you some heartache and time: ~if I am nice to you, it is because I want to be nice and/or haven't decided that you are dull/annoying/boring/ignorant/closed mi

Ramblings
So Tuesday evening I took a new energy Supplement, Rhodiloa 110, that my wife received free at her half marathon...thanks to this new Supplement, I had plenty of energy and got 2 hours of shitty sleep... I will not be taking that again unless I plan an all night bender... Wednesday...get up at 3:45 central time...travel to ABQ...16 hour work day...too tired to go out to eat so bought a frozen pizza for dinner and 2 Harps (it was St. Pattys day after all)...had a great conversation with haiku who kept me up way too late...:) went to bed 11pm mountain time and slept like crap (starting to get sick)...work up at 7am and worked for 10 hours...feeling shittier as the day progressed... went out to eat to Red Robin and they lost my food order...2nd time I have been there and 2nd time they have completely fucked up my order...good news they comp'ed my meal but made me pay for my one beer...beer was probably not a good idea but fuck it i was sick... Went to bed and 10:30 and slept like shi

Taser
Always wanted a Taser. Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-taser supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety....?? COOL! Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two AAA batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arc of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs. AWESOME!!! Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Julie what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave. Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking to myself that it couldn't be all that bad with only two triple-A batteries,

Music Monday 22...i Think
Only 5 songs...but good songs. An overall upbeat music Monday. 1. Vaporize - Broken Bells2. Bulletproof - LaRoux3. Sweet DIsposition - The Temper Trap4. Treehouse - I'm From Barcelona5. Lollipop - Ben Kweller I recommend delving deeper into each of these artists...maybe with the exception of The Temper Trap and only because I don't know much about them...but have a look, they might be great. I'm still working on branching out for these playlists, but since it's really just what I listen to, it's difficult. If you have any suggestions in completely different directions, let me know.

Luv It!!!! Lol
here's something a dirty Irishman wrote, I thought I would send it to you since it seems to fit you..... The Good Lord decided, That you should he blessed. You were made very pretty, With a really nice chest. You may not be a musician, Who will score a lot of hits. But you are really cute, With a nice set of tits. With so many good qualities, There is not much you lack. Your smile is lovely, And you have a nice rack. And I am sure you are tired, Of this poem by some noob. But it is really difficult, To stop looking at your boobs.

Surveyy
How tall are you? 5'5"Do you have any enemies? i dont careHave you ever been to Mexico? nope!!Do you like the subject of math? oh totallly ! cause im nerdy like that.Can you name six types of flowers?roseslilliescarnationspoppiesanndd thats ittttHas anyone ever made you cry? duhWhat do you think of clowns?they scare me >.

Packin Away Your Memories
THERE IS NOTHING HARDER TO DO THEN GOIN THROUGH THE BELONGINGS OF SOMEONE WHO HAS PASSED I MEAN I WANNA KEEP SOME MEMORIES BUT DONT WANNA FEEL LIKE A HOARDER OR SOMENONE WHO CANT LET GO OF THE PAST DONT WANNA ACT LIKE YOU NEVER EXISTED BUT THEN I DO NEED TO TRY AND MOVE ON SO I SHALL SLOWLY GO THROUGH THE THINGS WE HAD SHARED AND THE THINGS I BOUGHT AND THE THINGS YOU BOUGHT YOURSELF BUT THATS GONNA TAKE SOMETIME AS THERE IS ALOT TO SORT THROUGH LIKE WHATS GONNA GO TO YOUR FAMILY WHAT YOUD WANT ME TO DONATE AND WHAT I PLAN ON KEEPIN AND SOME OF THIS IM JUST GONNA TRY TO SEE IF IT FEELS RIGHT CAUSE IF IT DOES THEN I BELIEVE IN MY HEART IT WOULD BE WHAT YOUD TRULY WANT ME TO DO tbc

For Snowball
Now normally I wouldn't ask for anything at all.....I just rate, have fun, maybe help out a couple people if they need it BUT THIS TIME I DO NEED HELP!!!! Snowball, our Flame Point Siamese, is sick bad!!!! She hardly eats, she doesn't go number 2 because she is badly constipated which can kill a cat if not treated, and she sleeps way to much aka she's lethargic. We've tried mineral oil, change in diet to pure protein, alot of attention, at least she drinks her water that I'm thankful for. Anyway it's gonna take 70 bucks for the treatment plus exam 40 bucks for the exam 8 bucks for the antibiotics 22 bucks for the laxative I don't have that kind of money, anyone who knows me can verify that I'm down to handwashing clothes because his job is straight commission and honestly I can't work anymore. I've got a blood disorder/back disorder and vitamin D deficency/plus PTSD. I'm still fighting for disability. We don't have cable, we really can't afford rent our landlord is working with

U Will Understand This Soon....
de Francisco Luis Bernárdez:ESTAR ENAMORADOEstar enamorado, amigos, es encontrar el nombre justo de la vida.Es dar al fin con la palabra que para hacer frente a la muerte seprecisa.Es recobrar la llave oculta que abre la cárcel en que el almaestá cautiva.Es levantarse de la tierra con una fuerza que reclama desde arriba.Es respirar el ancho viento que por encima de la carne se respira.Es contemplar desde la cumbre de la persona la razón de lasheridas.Es advertir en unos ojos una mirada verdadera que nos mira.Es escuchar en una boca la propia voz profundamente repetida.Es sorprender en unas manos ese calor de la perfectacompañía.Es sospechar que, para siempre, la soledad de nuestra sombra estávencida.Estar enamorado amigos, es descubrir dónde se juntan cuerpo yalma.Es percibir en el desierto la cristalina voz de un río que nosllama.Es ver el mar desde la torre donde ha quedado prisionera nuestrainfancia.Es apoyar los ojos tristes en un paisaje de cigüeñas ycampanas.Es ocupar un territor

Are You Scared?
POST THiS iF YOU AREN'T SCARED TO SEE HOW PEOPLE THINK OF YOU 0 = ewwwwwwwwwwww!? 1 = Definetly not attractive. 2 = Decent 3 = Cute 4 = Fine as hell! 5 = I'd do you. 6 = Pretty damn sexy! 7 = Lovable,I LOVE YOU!!! 8 = I wanna make you mine Don't Be Shy, LOL!

Sarah And Jeff Part 2
When Jeff stepped into the shower, Sarah immediately dropped to her knees. She swirled her pierced tongue around the tip of his cock then lightly sucked on it. Jeff looked down at her and slowly worked his fingers into her wet hair and gave a playful tug. Sarah moaned softly and slid the tip of his cock into her mouth a little further. Sucking a little harder and moved her tongue around him. He tugged at her hair again a little harder this time and closed his eyes and put his head back moaning slightly. She took more of his cock into her mouth going further and further down until his cock was deep in her throat. She looked up at him .Jeff moaned a little louder and looked down at her and locked eyes with her. Her eyes looked so innocent, he pulled her head back and pushed it down on his cock again, putting himself deeper into her throat until she gagged a little. Sarah moaned louder every time he pulled her hair. She sucked harder and faster swirling her tongue all around Jeff&rsq

Loss
have you ever thought about what your life would be like if you were left alone?Some of you still have your parents or maybe just one parent alive and some of you have children to love and love you back.Have you ever thought about what your world would be like to not have those people in your life? sometimes we act like nothing is wrong and smile as we walk down the street and then go into our empty homes where silence greets us and sometimes all you want to do is crawl in a corner and hide your self from the world.But life goes on around us the sun still shines the clouds still float by children laugh and we carry on as if our world hasn't just been turned upside down. Today I smiled for the first time in days and I felt guilty so I caught myself and thought no this isnt what right...I am young and yet I feel sooo old right now and broken but I will smile again tomorrow and every day after because that is why i am still here To keep memorie's alive and not forget those that loved me

Random
hello hello everyone. I havnt written in a while and i cant sleep SO i figured why the hell not.... Things in 2010 arent going as well as i planned, found the most amazing man ever and he dumped me the day after my birthday because i told him i loved him...Whateverrrrr im over it. Iv decided im going back to college but im going to go to college out of state. i want out of this state so bad. Still living at home with my mom and dad... not where i want to be BUT i cant really do anything about it. its either be here or be homeless. I lost my job back in december because i got swine flu and was out of work for 2 weeks. They labled me as a "liablity". again...WHATEVER. I lost a bunch of weight. if you havnt been able to tell i went from a size 20 down to a size 13. and still losing more! Im so proud of myself for accomplishing something i have been working so hard to do for a long time. I may look different on the outside BUT i am the same me on the inside. And that will never change. i

My Supper Tonight :d
GRANDMA BALTON'S LITHUANIAN KUGELIS(POTATO PUDDING) 5 lbs. peeled potatoes1 lg. onion4 eggsSalt and pepper to taste2 tbsp. Bisquick2 tbsp. flour2 c. milk, scalded2 sticks melted butter Grate potatoes and onion; drain off liquid. Pour scalded milk over potatoes. Add flour, Bisquick, melted butter, eggs, salt and pepper, mixing well. Pour into 9x13 inch baking pan. Place in 400 degree oven for 15 minutes. Lower heat to 375 degrees and bake for 45 minutes or until done.

I Wonder Why
~ I WONDER WHY~ I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU SAY GOOD-BYE! I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU MAKE ME CRY! I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HURT MY HEART! I DON’T UNDERSTAND THE END WHEN THERE IS BARELY A START! THERE’S AN ACHE IN ME I DON’T LIKE FEELING! I NEED YOUR WORDS FOR THE HEALING! YOU MAKE ME FEEL REALLY WRONG! I THOUGHT YOU HAD A FEELING STRONG! WHAT DID I DO BAD TO YOU? THAT YOU WOULD SAY IT’S THROUGH? BLUE AND SAD OVER THIS! BUT IT’S YOU I WILL MISS!!!

Connected To You
FEELING SO SPIRITUALLY CONNECTED THAT HAS A BLINDING LIGHT, TO SEE YOUR SOUL IT IS MIGHTY BRIGHT. YOUR SPIRIT LIFTED SO HIGH THAT THE MEASURE IS BEYOND SPACE AND SKY, THOUGHTS OF YOU I CAN’T COMPARE AND FEEL HONORED THAT YOUR HEART YOU WOULD SHARE. IN THE DEPTHS OF YOU I CAN FEEL FREE TO OPEN UP AND JUST BE ME, GREATFUL TO HAVE YOU AS A FRIEND TO THIS I HOPE NO END. YOU TOUCHED MY HEART IN WAYS YOU’LL NEVER KNOW, BUT I AM TRYING TO TELL YOU SO.........

I Do Believe That God Above
I do believe that God above, Created you for me to Love, He picked you out from all the rest, Cause he knew I'd love you best. I had a heart that once was true, Now it has gone from me to you, Take care of it as I have done, For you have two and I have none.. If I die I'll wait for you at the Golden Stairs, But if you aren't there by Judgement Day , I know you went the other way,, And just to prove my Love is true I'd go To Hell to be with you!!

In A Heart Beat
IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD BE SAD,, IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD BE GLAD,, IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD DIE,, IN A HEART BEAT A NEW BABY COULD CRY!! IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD SAY I HATE YOU! IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD SAY I LOVE YOU!! IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD DO SOMETHING MEAN! IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD DO SOMETHING KIND!! IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD LOSE THE ONE YOU LOVE!! IN A HEART BEAT YOU COULD MEET SOMEONE NEW!! IN A HEART BEAT YOUR WHOLE LIFE CAN CHANGE!! IF YOU THINK OF LIFE AS A HEART BEAT TREASURE WHAT YOU HAVE AND TAKE CARE OF IT EVERY DAY!! CAUSE IN A HEART BEAT IT COULD ALL GO AWAY!!

What People Say!!
People say this is only the net and not to let ur feelings get involved. People say that its only a site so what does it matter. I say the internet is what connects people. I say the site is a helper for people to get to know someone else that you other wise could not do. If people thought that the land that we are on is all really common ground then you would see that the internet and site are a tool on it. I wish people would treat other people with dignity and respect. We are all on here for a reason to meet new people. Greed has gotten out of control and how many people can truely say they are a real friend on here?

A Truly Dark Day In American History....today, 3/21/2010.
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A Truly Dark Day In American History....today, 3/21/2010.
How this… Leads to this… First off, friends thank you for stopping by and taking the time out of your busy real and Fubar lives to check out this blog. It won’t be pretty, so if you’re easily offended, you may want to skip this one…sorry, It’s not about fakes and drama. It’s about real life that will effect each and every American and their children for years to come, so yeah, that kind of take precedence over the usual stuff… So it seems that at some point tonight, your president Obama and the elitist Congress in Washington will have , barring a miracle, have passed health insurance reform in the Senate and House and it will be on the way to the President’s desk to make the law of the land. This is a progressive socialist’s dream come true. I don’t’ really know how many, or at what level any of you follow the news and current events. It should be much, much more but that’s another issue altogether. I’

The Age Of Aquarius
I am often asked by people online who I really am deep down inside. Ok, in all actuality, I'm NEVER EVER asked that. I'm usually just asked to show my tits. But maybe one day someone won't care about my bust and will just want to get to know me for me. He will probably be gay, but at least I will be able to direct him to this blog as a means of enlightening him about all that is Mandyness. I came across this description of Aquarians on BUGSTER'S profile yesterday and I thought it really fit me. Yes I am an Aquarius and yes I'm kind of into that goofy astrology stuff. Aquarius Strength Keywords:- Witty- Clever- Humanitarian- Inventive- Original Aquarius Weakness Keywords:- Stubborn- Unemotional- Sarcastic- Rebellious- Aloof Aquarius and Independence:Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them to flee. They need to be free to be on their own. Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well

Old Brown Shoe
I want a love that's right but right is only half of what's wrong. I want a short haired girl who sometimes wears it twice as long. Now I'm stepping out this old brown shoe, baby, I'm in love with you. I'm so glad you came here, it won't be the same now, I'm telling you. You know you pick me up from where some try to drag me down And when I see your smile replacing every thoughtless frown. Got me escaping from this zoo, baby, I'm in love with you. I'm so glad you came here, it won't be the same now when I'm with you. If I grow up I'll be a singer wearing rings on every finger. Not worrying what they or you say I'll live and love and maybe someday Who knows, baby, you may comfort me. I may appear to be imperfect, my love is something you can't reject I'm changing faster than the weather, If you and me should get together Who knows baby, you may comfort me That love of yours, to miss that love is something I'd hate. I'll make an early start, I'm making sure that I'm not late. For you

For Martin
It's been one long week since I've seen your face or felt your warm embrace. Loving that you love it when I smile. Get lost in your eyes; a sea of shimmering caramel. I wish I would have held on just a little longer For today you are gone and your memory slips a lil farther away from my mind and heart. But the most shocking of all is that I can still feel your energy and presence near by. I can feel you thinking about me simply because you know I'm thinking about you. "If you love someone, set them free and let go and let God" because we are not the ones in control, HE is. "The king's heart is in the hand of the Lord, as the rivers of water: he turneth it withersoever he will" This is why I must let go of the situation and pray that you come back to love me the way I would love you... I miss you

For The Love Of God.
I was going to blog. Had the subject and everything, then my phone vibrated...I had a text....and I forgot. =/ I don't think it was something really all that wonderful, but still. It just proves that I have ADD. Oh the idea is back. Not really an idea, but yeah. How do these people, and by "these people" I mean point whores, get people to give them blasts and expensive bling?

Authentic Ugg Boots And Replicas
Uggs-Australia boots first reached upscale surroundings through its advertising in high-end distributors such as Nordstrom's. However, after Oprah Winfrey's endorsement, sales have expanded to the general public, who obviously wishes to experience the same luxury and comfort as their idols. In fact, the increased popularity has had an unexpected and unfortunate result: the introduction of imitation ugg boots. Unsuspecting buyers can easily end up with irritating pig hide or cow skin instead of sheepskin, and find it far less enjoyable than they expected!The best bet is to contact a reputable supplier of UGG Classic Mini on sale-Australia for authentic, new, Uggs at the fair market price. Buyers will have assurance of quality and the true luxury experience associated with ugg boots.

"life Is A Theater"
LIFE IS A THEATER_invite your audience carefully. Not everyone is holy enough and healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives. There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance. Its amazing what you can accomplish when you let go or atleast minimize your time with draining,negative,incompatable,not-going-anywhere,relationships/friendships/fellowships! Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention. Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones incourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path uphill and which ones are downhill? When you leave certain people,do you feel better or do you feel worse? Which ones always have drama or dont really understand,know and appreciate you and the gift that lies within you? The more you seek God and the things of God...the more you seek quality,the more you seek not just the hand of God but the face of God...the more you seek things honorable...the more you seek growth, peace of mind, love and tru

Called Out 1
Well, the point whores are in full effect tonight. I don't understand why the Fubar "way of life" is appealing to people, but I have to say I find it quite pathetic... Let's take a look! · bihorny little ... rated your photo an '11'! · bihorny little ... rated your photo a '10'! · bihorny little ... rated your photo an '11'! · new friend request from 'bihorny little ...' received! · bihorny little ... rated you an '11'! · bihorny little ... just checked you out! bihorny little devil@ fubar hi welcome to my page im JAZZ ,IM 29 38C 135 BLONDE AND BI IM A SWINGER YOU CAN CHECK MY PAGE ON THE SWING SITE BELOW I NEED HELP 2 LEVEL UP 2 GODFATHER IT SEEMS LIKE 4 EVER I HAVE BEEN ON THIS LEVEL IF U HELP ME ILL HELP U PLEASE SEND ME VIP,HAPPY HOUR,BLINGS,BLAST OR TICKER ILL MAKE IT WORTH YOUR TIME I HAVE ALOUT OF PICS UP NSFW PICS ILL LET U SEE IF U BUY ANY OF THOSES THAT I LISTED IF I GOT A HAPPY HOUR I WOULD LET U SEE MY PICS 4

I'm Curious
I hate to say it, now I'm curious as to why I'm still here not only to key this but to do other things? See, I'm supposed to be dead. Some people say Jesus is with him and others the devil is with him. My sister says I have a Guardian Angel. I'm curious as to why I'm still here. To me it does not matter. I'm alive, I'm alive. I'm dead, I'm dead. Intresting, since I do not have anyone special but only material things. Glad to hear that the day went well for Cheryl. Cheryl is a friend. Glory to God Norio

An Early Start
When I was about 10 or 11 years old - we were volunteered by the scouts to model for a clothing catalog - I was backstage and all of my friends were out on stage - so it was just me and about 5 women - I was standing there and the woman next to me said to the other woman - bathing suits? the answer came back yes - so she reached over and unsnapped my pants and pulled them down - undies too - then she turned and asked which one - I’m standing there naked - when I noticed all of the women smiling and looking at me - I looked down and was standing at attention - now - I wasn't very big then but I was rock hard - ever since then - there is a smile that a woman gets that just makes me crazy. I think that's where it comes from - I love to see that smile that says - hey - look at that - I like what I’m seeing.

Update About Medical Condition Please Read!!!
Well I have been doing chemo for cancer for the past few months and I found out today that they are stopping chemo due to the fact that the cancer is spreading. They also informed me that I have a max of 1 year left to live. I thank God that I have lived thus far!!

Mirror Shot Contest!!
Ok Gang....Since I love mirror shots so much..Ive been told that I should do a contest. So, guys and gals, if you have a sexy mirror shot and want a chance to win 5 million fubucks...let me know. My investor tells me I should start the contest as soon as possible so....spread the word.....and private message me with contest in the subject......The contest will run for 7 days, it must be SFW and total number of rates and comments will be added up to determine the winner......this is my first time, so be gentle on me.... guys and girls...don't be shy!!

Finding The Reason
Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes you find the answer in the journey and sometimes you find the answer at the end of the road. Sometimes you're too busy looking for the answer that you can't see that it's right in front of you. It's in that moment when you realize why things have happened, that you find peace within your journey. It's that moment when you realize how thankful you are for the answered or unanswered prayers. I was surfing through my profiles all over the net when I came across a particular profile. I've looked at that profile hundreds of times, but today was different. For the 1st time I looked at that profile and I was at peace and thankful for those unanswered prayers. I was no longer angry by what had transpired previously. I finally realized that those things happened because better things await in the road ahead of me. There's potential for greatness in every area of my life. I'm excited and nervous about the possibilities that may come my wa

Friendship
Friendship~–noun1.the state of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.2.a friendly relation or intimacy.3.friendly feeling or disposition.Friend~–noun1.a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.2.a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony. Ok now that i have that out of the way...what does it mean to you when someone says they are your friend...or that u say that you're their friend??? is it someone you can trust??? someone you can run to when you need advice, or a shoulder to cry on....what about judging??? if you are really friends with someone...do u judge everything they do...or do you trust them??? i know for me when i have a friend, a real true friend, i dont judge them..i like them for who they are & trust their decisions...i mean we all have our moments...where we may rub our friends the wrong way or maybe do something that they are not happy about...but if they ar

Now I Feel Old.....
checking out Hastings with my 13 year old daughter, and 9 year old son. Saw somw little things from cartoons from my child hood. and my 13 year old looks at me and say "wow mom, i didnt know they had cartoons back then" i pointed to some things from even before my time and she was like wow was there actually tv before you were born.. lol i wanted to slap her.. lol i mean come on im not even 32 yet.. lol

Saving The Soul
The story takes place during the summer of 1995. At the time I was a firefighter/medic and crew officer for a local volunteer fire and rescue department. One weekend, which I had off from fire duty, I was notified of a large structure fire within my area of operations. Not having anything else to do, I went to the station to help with staffing. When I got to the station, there was an immediate need for an ambulance. A grabbed two other personnel to staff the unit. While responding to the fire, dispatch redirected us to the interstate for a significant multi-car accident. The dispatcher indicated there were 5 at least 5 cars involved with possible trapped victims. There were other units dispatched but would be delayed because of the fire. When we arrived on the scene, I knew this was going to be bad. Half of four-door sedan had slid under a tractor-trailer. An old station wagon was upside down and was partially in a ditch approximately 50 feet from the sedan. There were f

Love
1 Corinthians 13 (NKJ) Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned,[a] but have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part

Downloading Music
..was the name of the MuMM I was blocked in. She deleted my comment too. Ugh. Oh well. She proved my point. In her MuMM she asked people to tell her music to download because she deleted all of hers. I said that she shouldn't download music just because people are telling her and that it sounds like she's just trying to "fit in". Anyway, she says she's only downloading music from artists that she knows. Ummm, then I said she wasn't starting fresh fresh. That starting fresh would mean that she would download music that she's never heard. Yanno, NEW things. Oh well, I'm blocked and my comments were deleted. I guess she doesn't like when people prove her wrong.

Marooned
I know I'm from a lesser tribeI suppose the range of my intelligenceIs way too wideAnd you don't see me'cause I don't have much to sayMy emotional outletIs consuming the better part of meAnd apart from the wrong wordsA tortured cry is making me seeThat you don't see me'cause I don't have much to sayHours and hours of jealousyAre passing me byAlthough hollow silenceIs the only waveGoing through your brainAnd you don't see me'cause I don't have much to say

Life Is Good In The South
I went fishing this morning but after ashort time I ran out of worms. Then Isaw a cottonmouth snake with afrog in his mouth. Frogs are goodbass bait. Knowing the snake couldn'tbite me with the frog in his mouth I grabbed him right behind the head, took the frog, and put it in my baitbucket. Now the dilemma was how to releasethe snake without getting bit. So, I grabbed my bottle of Jack Daniels and poured a little whiskey in thesnake's mouth. His eyes rolled back, he went limp. I released him intothe lake without incident and carriedon fishing using the frog. A little later, I felt a nudge on my foot. There was that same snake with two frogs in his mouth. Life is good in the South.

What Did I Do
What did I do to deserve this? I don’t know what to do , I am just beside myself confused and hurt…… Why does this seem to always happen to me? I have opened up my heart to those who seem to be trustworthy but shame on me for it turned out to be nothing but lies. What did I do wrong? Is it my looks? My hair to short, boobs not perky, is it because I am not pretty enough, or don’t got the perfect body? How about my personality? Would it be the way I talk or how I dress… tell me please I deserve to know where it all went wrong damn it is that to much to ask from you? You don’t give a damn for you have moved on and closed the door on this relationship before we could even try to work things out…. I never understood the meaning “if you truly love someone, sometimes you have to let them go “ I did and it hurts like I have never hurt before ….. It hurts when two people who love each other have to let go because they will

Doubt
Why is the darkness so terrifying the rain falls the thunder rollsdreams of love haunt my nights the reality of lonlieness haunts my days doubting my choices wondering if time was truley to shortmaybe fate wanted one more joke before my time ran out as the sunsets the darkness consumes me terrifying me once again leaving me alone fending for my sanity

Sunday Thoughts....
The ongoing question as of late is, "Why do you post the pics that you do?" Its very simple. I enjoy the pics and from the ratings, most others do as well. If I'm bisexual, why all women? There are a lot more pics of women available on the net than men...the Internet world is a mans world. I am always looking for a nice cock. (figuratively, not literally). Speaking of that....you see a woman on Fubar that says she doesn't want to see your cock, question her sexuality or her realness. In the modified words of the very funny Ron White.."once you've seen one cock, you want to see them all". Being bisexual doesn't mean I'm a slut, a whore, easy or wanting to cam and talk about sex all the time. I am a mommy first and foremost and then a fiance to a wonderful man. That is my world. Fubar is a game I love to play and have to admit, I've become quite addicted. I flirt, maybe more than I should, but I'm not hiding anything from anybody..especially from the man that works hard and

Turtle Turtle
Do any of you know anything about aquatic turtles? I'm having a problem keeping his cage clean. We just cleaned it and the water has a green tinge to it. We used to be able just to change the water about once a month, but change the filter once a week, and the water would stay clear. The filter doesn't seem cloged, or look dirty, just the water.

A Little About Me
Name: Ashley Birthday: April 3rd Birthplace: Lewisville, Texas Current Location: Dallas, Texas Eye Color: Red Hair Color: mostly Brown Height: 5'7'' Right Handed or Left Handed: right Your Heritage: german & irish The Shoes You Wore Today: none yet! Your Weakness: boys, shopping and alcohol Your Fears: spiders and being alone Your Perfect Pizza: just pepperoni Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: stay in a happy healthy relationship! Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol Thoughts First Waking up: i need to pee Your Best Physical Feature: my boobs probably Your Bedtime: weekdays try for 12ish...weekends like 2 or 3 Your Most Missed Memory: my best friend living right by me Pepsi or Coke: pepsi but i perfer dr pepper MacDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds Single or Group Dates: single, but i like both Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: i dont care as long as its sweet! Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate Cappuccino or Coffee: neither Do you Smoke: nope Do

Life Changes Means Less Fubar
Good morning. Wow.Been along time since my last blog. First the good news. After working for my father for 25 years, i have finally kicked his ass to the curb. :P. Yesterday i bought him out and will be the owner of the company starting on Monday. I have always had many ideas what i want to do with the company, and the changes i want to make. Now i can. I'm very excited, and know this will be alot of hard work for years to come. But i welcome it. Now for the bad news... I'll be putting all my free time and energy into the comapny, which means little or no time on Fubar. Of course i'll still pop on and say hello to who i can, but i'll be on very little as you can imagine. This makes me sad, i really enjoy my Fubar time, and the friends on here. But real life comes first, and i have to take this chance to make life better for myself. Please feel free to still stop by and say hello. I will get back to you. (mostly on weekends.). I thank you all. You guys rock. To All my FUMaf

Bombing List For Ability Points 3/21/10
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Today's Vote...?
Since I am bored and still writing My version of the Declaration of Independence, and Spinoza is bored and is too much of a sissy to post a blog I said I would.So I am waiting for the vote on health care later on, maybe around 2 or 3 I will turn to a liberal news station on one T.V. and a conservative one on the other T.V. [I have two T.V.'s in My office] I enjoy watching how they cover the exact same thing in different ways, if it is a liberal pushing it the conservatives love to talk about the freedoms of America being taken, and if it is a conservative pushing it, the liberals love bitching about how they want a say... I just find them both funny since I am neither. So figured I would blog and ask what do you, whoever happens to view this blog other than Spinoza... think of the health care bill?I mean it was mentioned months ago, they have the bill online on nonpartisan sites. I trust these more than liberal and conservative sites who post the bill cause they only post part of it t

1 Chance Make It Count!
One guestion,one change,One honest answer, you can ask me one guestion(to my inbox only),Any guestion, anything ,no matter how crazy,dirty or wrong it is no catch,but I dare you to post this on your status,and see what people ask you?

Invictus- William Ernest Henley
Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds and shall find me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. I wish I had such a command of language.

I Serve You
Leather choker with matching chain around my neck you will tame stand before me as I'm on my knees paddle in hand I'm at your mercy give the commands I must follow your punnishings shall not be shallow the touch of your hands is pleasing if I behave your eyes and hands are stern Iam a bad girl this day the tension is erotic when I beg for you to play I crawl before you at your will sturdy antisipation as I await your spill your juice is like drug flowing in my stream I'm intoxicated from your demanding gleam the intensity boils hot throughout my body your tongue tantalizing my flesh as you explore the stroke of your fingertips soft yet rough on my thighs excitment runs through my veigns when you pull my hair vibration shakes our souls while our minds are caught in this role our hearts are flooded and trapped behind this wall who's the servent , who's the master

Sittin In A Traveling Train
Sittin in a Traveling Train Sittin in a traveling train dreams running wild in the brain waking to chains that bind me to the bed a tray of toys lay next to my head confused at first as exitment quickly follows wanting to move to touch you deep in the hollows the binding stops meso you can explore slowly our clothes start hitting the floor you drag cold beads across my warm flesh intensly the feeling sends lightning through my blood so erotically you brush a leather strap down my chest to around my thighs the sensation gives me a powerfull high sittin in a travelling train your stare demanding me without all the pain the strength from your body like thunder so exotically conflicted your like a drug I'm caught and addicted the passion you provide has my mind in a daze your soul runs deep and traps me in a haze everything about you grasps my soul; how I know exactly

Life And Death
Life is not the changes and chances of this world, and its true significance is found in the development of the soul. True life, the life of the soul, occurs in this world for a brief time and continues eternally in other worlds of God.

Fuels Of Passion
Everyday I waken just to see you, frozen speechless unknowing what to do. My heart went to you in fear, just to let my soul tear. I pray that I find in you is found in me, the very special thing that can set you free. just hug, and kiss you forever makes me want to cuddle in the arms of love and happiness. The beauty in those eyes, stir up feelings from deep inside. mind racing pacing neverslowing, my feelings for him run like a river ever so flowing. The kindness in the voice so hypnotized, is it for real what he says? The fire in your touch, the passion in your kiss, fuels the passion from within.

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1.Who are you?2.Are we friends?3.When and how did we meet?4.How have I affected you?5.What do you think of me?6.What's the fondest memory you have of me?7.How long do you think we will be friends?8.Do you love me?9.Do you have a crush on me?10.Would you kiss me?11.Would you hug me?12.Physically, what stands out?13.Emotionally, what stands out?14.Do you wish I was cooler?15.On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.17.Am I loveable?18.How long have you known me?19. Describe me in one word.20.What was your first impression?21.Do you still think that way about me now?22.What do you think my weakness is?23.Do you think I'll get married?24.What makes me happy?25.What makes me sad?26.What reminds you of me?27.If you could give me anything what would it be?28.How well do you know me?29.When's the last time you saw me?30.Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?31.Do you think I could kill someone?32.Do you miss me?33.Do you think i

Flagging Pics For Nsfw
IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF MY PICS THAT DON'T SHOW MUCH SKIN ALWAYS GET FLAGGED NSFW, AND THERE ARE A LOT MORE PICS ON HERE THAT SHOW MORE THAN JUST SKIN AND THEY ARE NOT FLAGGED NSFW. I AM WONDERING WHY THAT IS? ANYONE CARE TO EXPAND ON THIS? LET ME KNOW YOUR OPINION.

Military Men
So I've noticed lately a lot of anti-war, military bashing shit talking by people who don't even know what they're talking about. This shit is starting to piss me off. It's not only people in my city but its people on this website too. I actually had some broad say she supports the troops and then turned around and said that none of our soldiers should be over there, that they're stupid and wasting their time and the ones that re-enlist are begging to be blown up. Those soldiers are over there protecting your right to talk all the shit you're talking about them. So STFU! And those stupid bitches that marry men in the military, knowing they're going to be goin over to Iraq and will be gone for a year, but marry them anyway and then CHEAT on them..I hope you stupid broads die. You're the reason the men in our military barely trust any women anymore and why most of them are starting to treat us like shit. Isn't it enough that they go over and fight this war, possibly having to kill somebo

Ugh.......
grrrrrr...... why is it that people work so hard at making you fall in love with them and then fuck your world up...... a year of my life gone to an asshole..... why cant you just be honnest and straight forward... i told you all my expectations, where i wanted to go what i wanted to do and so on over a year ago... then you move thousands of miles away, promising visits and to move here and such, just to keep me wrapped around your finger but FUCK THAT.. i'm done its over and there is no chance of it ever going back. you had my heart and threw it in dirt. i'm over it all your broken promises and plans. i;'m not to be put last after all your club meetings and working on your cars hanging out with friends... i cant even get 10 mins of your time just to talk about whats going on..... this is my good bye... i'm gone its over P.S FUCK YOU!!!!

Chapter 6: The Demons On My Sleeve
Is it my pride that allows me to have a hatrid for those who don't know or those whom know but treat knowledge like a joke. I remember a time when I was treated like I was the dumbest person on this planet.. But then I proved them all wrong.. A half nigga from the back fucking woods of my town ended up with an "ed-u-mah-kation" well gee williekers..imagine that. But then again intelegance has became a joke. So then what do I do.. I rip the head off the first person that insults ither my intelegance or the pure simple knowledge of any situation. Am I right for doing so? Probably not but then again with all this shit sometimes I just don't care. And its that don't care attitude that at times I try to regret but yet I don't allow myself to for the simple fact that I know living with regret won't solve anything. So does this make pride my vice? Well then what about wrath?.. Yes I am full of wrath at times I live for those vengeful moments.. were people that fuck me over are comfortable the

Chapter 5: Confessions Of A Nice Guy
To be lost within a midnights dream.. To have everything that could be utterly seem like happiness seem like within a single whisp of the wind it could all go away. This is what I have learned about happiness. No matter how you may act it can oh so easily change. From being the number one mother fucking ideal expression to being something that can be oh so hated. There is an eye upon me. An eye staring into my very soul. Is it an eye from past loved ones, enemies... or just a higher power?... Or could this eye be just the very start of a paranoia that has been binding it's time within me. Waiting to come out of a young boy into the man that is here today. How ever this may be just something that I must live with. I must live with this and other shit within my life. Gettings screwed over again and again by my friends... Getting angered by so many enemines... And yet what do I do about this fucking bullshit?! I do stand up for myself.. and yet I'm too much of a nice guy to be so violent.

Chapter 4: Wicket Shit Bitch
So tell me this what makes one better than another? What makes the human mind become so fucking clouded that it has beliefs that everyone else is just so fucking beneath them that anything that anyone else does goes unnoticed? I have to know this for that I grow tired of this type of human... just because they cannot realize the truth.. Everyone is equal. Show me a man that is flawless within everyway and I'll reveal that he's a mere figment of an imagination. I know my flaws. I wear them on my sleeve. And yet even still I have those thinking that they are better than me why? Its all because of popularaty. How so? Thats just the way of life. Until that very day that I'll snap and reveal to them what I've held back for oh so long then well lets just say I'll keep smiling. I have some people telling me that I shouldn't smile that I should commit acts of volience. That is something that I feel right down to my very bone everyday. And yet the reason that I smile is because with a smile th

Chapter 3: More Human Then Human
What is it that makes us to be human? I mean besides the flesh and the bone what makes us to be human emotionally and physically? Some may say that not acting on impulse and thinking our actions out makes us human... though what about the others that say to man up and not back down... are they human as well? If so then why does eveyone makes them out to be such vicious animals? ... Ah yes music calms the savage beast. Atleast the savage beast the lurks within my soul. Everyday it's getting harder to hold back.. harder to keep my inner demons atbay. Sometimes it just gets so damn overwhelming.. I know not what to do what to say. I just hide and pray that I do not hurt anyone once my inner demons are unleashed. It hurts to even know the devastation that they can cause. Though I do know this when I am pushed so far I am going to open those gates. And flood everything around me with all of this fucking haterid that the world will stand on edge until I stop. Just how long can I hold on? Tel

Chapter 2: Enter The Mind Of A Twisted Indivual
To be a cog within the wheel of life forever turning to be apart of something to make someone else money. That is what this life is for. Life has became nothing more than just a spoke within a wheel. Just another way to give to the ever feeding machine of our own undoing. What am I talking about some may ask but many already know. Many are not blind to the system. We created a system for the people. And yet only the people in power are those in uniform. And where does that leave me? Just to be a simple pieon.. a worker ant just waiting to be stepped on. So why did we start something that will never give us power as a group? Tell me why... Some may think it's fun to pick on the little guy.. and others just laugh.. but what happens when that little guy is just a ticking time bomb? What happened to the laughter? Answer me... Family.. ah yes just such a simple word... I once had a family that was out side of my own blood. They helped me out when I needed them and gave me everything that I

Chapter 1: Downward Spiral Of Self Hate
Am I just a puppet for the entertainment of others? I help people out with their problems, but there's no one to hear my own. I can never be myself or my own, because I am dead. My mother is never happy with anything that I do. My father only has anything to say to me when my mother gets angry at me. Sometimes I feel like a robot becayse that is how I am treated. I've not been able to shed a single tear for many of years. Sometimes I feel like a ghost and everybody walks through me. Sometimes I can never tell how others feel towards me, and that just shows that poeple hate what they dont understand. I know how they feel, but I dont let them know. I sometimes sit back and think about how my brother treated me, everone tells me that I love him, but they wont tell me that after I tell them what he has done to me. Everyone has an older figure to look up to but I dont. I sit back and wonder if I died then who would come to my funeral. Who would say they knew me. Who would be there just to s

Alien Abduction Day
If you ever had visions of being abducted by aliens then March 20th is your day. March 20th is Alien Abduction Day. Although no one knows for sure when it started, in 2008 the day was celebrated with a festival in Toronto. So if you’re reading this then it’s unlikely you are in an alien space ship. Oh well, there’s always next year. http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2010/03/19/alien-abduction-day/?test=latestnews BlastFM is open to aliens of all types. Aliens like good music too. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Intro
It's odd how one day I'm here and the next I'm there. How life can seem so short but yet so everlasting at the sametime. How a simple object can carry so many memories and emotions. It is these thoughts that pleauges my mind. What is the inner workings that takes a boy to become a man? Or is it that a man is just truely a boy that has aged? Answer me this. These are my thoughts. Thoughts of sickness, fear, anger, angst, love, lust... though are they just thoughts? Or just emotions?... Come and take a step into what I am... the love.... hate.... machine.

Subless Domme
The crop, discarded, regards her scornfully. Chains, rattling, hang limp and useless. A whip, not yet broken in, awaits a firm hand. All are empty in her eyes. A subless Domme cries shallow tears. Her breasts ache for attention, no slave to fawn over them, needing to bring pink nipples to full and hardened bud. Boot laced legs so cold. No one to kneel before them, lay their precious lips against them. No warm hands to massage awaiting flesh. Warm feelings stirring between shaven lips. Passion growing a needing so strong. An aching in the impassioned bud that lays hidden in the folds. The whip cracks. The crop swings. The chains reach out. But nothing releases the burning. No one to give will to her completely, to serve in delivering her into ecstasy. She suffers in silent strength, too bold to show her tears she chokes them down. Her skin quivers with the touch of the air's carresses. An unclaimed collar in her hand she moves between her legs, slidin

Pink- Don't Let Me Get Me
This song is the story of my life, lol Never win first place, I don't support the team I can't take direction, and my socks are never clean Teachers dated me, my parents hated me I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin' right Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me I'm a hazard to myself Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy Its bad when you annoy yourself So irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else I wanna be somebody else, yeah LA told me, "You'll be a pop star, All you have to change is everything you are." Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears She's so pretty, that just ain't me Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe somethin A day in the life of someone else? Cuz I'm a hazard to myself Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy Its bad when you annoy yourself So irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else Don't let me get me I'm my own w

Who's The Fairest One Of All?
When I started yesterday reading the first Star Trek novel of the year, “The Sorrows of Empire” (ISBN 9781439155165) it occurred to me how unreal that science fiction franchise’s mirror universe – where the United Federation of Planets is instead the Terran Empire, where assassinating a superior officer to get promoted is routine, extermination of dangerous species is not uncommon policy to get what you want – is. Or at least in late 1967 when the original episode set there, “Mirror, Mirror” premiered I guess that it was. Quoth Spock from the main universe (perhaps the most enduring image from that episode is his counterpart sporting a beard): “It was far easier for you as civilized men to behave like barbarians than it was for them as barbarians to behave like civilized men.” At least, we like to think we’re civilized … So the novel’s set after the episode where Kirk challenges the mirror universe’s

Lets See If I Can Grasp This Right.......
IF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR > > IF YOU CROSS THE CANADIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 3 YEARS IN PRISON AND DEPORTED > > IF YOU CROSS THE FRENCH BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 5 YEARS IN PRISON AND DEPORTED > > IF YOU CROSS THE MEXICAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE BEATEN AND JAILED. > > IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY. > > IF YOU CROSS THE AFGHAN BORDER ILLEGALLY, YOU GET SHOT. > > IF YOU CROSS THE SAUDI ARABIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE JAILED. > > IF YOU CROSS THE CHINESE BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU MAY NEVER BE HEARD FROM AGAIN. > > IF YOU CROSS THE VENEZUELAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE BRANDED A SPY AND YOUR FATE WILL BE SEALED. > > IF YOU CROSS THE CUBAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE THROWN INTO POLITICAL PRISON TO ROT. > > IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET > > A JOB, > DRIVERS LICENSE, > SOCIAL SECURITY CARD, > WELFARE, > FOOD STAMPS,

Call Me,text Me,email Me And Stalk Me! Haha!
Yahoo id.... ihaveboobs@yahoo.comHome Number.. 382 563 3650Cell Nuber.. 696 873 7326and last but not least...my home addressKerosene38258 Dream StreetStalker,Fuland37325yahoo me,call me,text me and stalk me...ok then :)

The Morning After Reality
The Morning After Reality\ Can someone in all honesty fall in love with someone and know in there heart and in there mind that it will never happen. Can two souls be so alike.. being in total sincronicity with one another ..knowing that just a single kiss could ruin this. Why do complications of the heart always fog the better of ones judgment .. is it the lack or reason or thought .. can love have purpose other then just the common thread that we all see it as .. Why can loving someone have such larger meaning and devotion yet cant. What is truly love.. a thought or a concept of what happiness is. When does happiness become love, just the simple questions one never thinks yet alone asks ..

They Caugt His Ass
Bruce Shipkowski, Associated Press Writer, On Saturday March 20, 2010, 3:14 pm EDT WASHINGTON TOWNSHIP, N.J. (AP) -- A 16-year-old boy patronizing a Walmart store in southern New Jersey took over the public-address system and ordered black people to leave, angering customers and prompting company leaders to apologize, police said Saturday. Police said the boy, whose name is not being released because he is a juvenile, went on the intercom at Walmart's Washington Township store Sunday evening and calmly announced: "Attention, Walmart customers: All black people, leave the store now." The teen was arrested Friday on charges of harassment and bias intimidation. Authorities said he was released to the custody of his parents; they did not know whether he had a lawyer. "This was an extremely disturbing event on many levels," Gloucester County Prosecutor Sean Dalton said at a news conference. "Any statements like these that can cause harm or grave concern must be addressed as quickly we

More Questions About Me
Do you love anyone who's name starts with A?Sure I do, Amy, Andrew, and a few others.When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?I gave my Tony a hug about 3 hours ago!Who is the last person that made you smile?My sister, she's a flake!Do you lose interest in someone easily?Depends on if the piss me off quickly.Are you dating the last person you kissed?No, I haven't had a kiss in forever... Has anyone ever asked you if you were bi polar?Um, my high school teachers?When is the last time you cried?Last night. Who is the last person that disappointed you?My mothers husband constantly. But as of late, myself. What's one thing in your life that you wish you could change?Wish I could lose the weight I need to.Do you fall in love easily?Not easily, but when I do, I fall hard.Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for?No.Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?Hahaha.... yeea... Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?I

Corona It Is!
You Are Corona You are outgoing, energetic, and very extroverted. When people talk about the "life of the party," they're talking about you. You always have a good time when you drink. Kicking back with a couple beers makes your usual cheerful self even happier. You enjoy the company of others, and you thrive in any social situation. No group is too big or too small for you. You may like beer more than most people, but that doesn't mean you aren't successful or productive. You are a huge go-getter. What Type of Beer Are You? Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

Friends,and Family
hi,just want 2 let everyone that on Sunday morning,I will be looking at my friends,and family list,and will be taking a lot of people out.It not because I'm mad or anything like that I love you all,but I don't care about moving up level,and I really just want 2 give more time 2 fewer people then the way it just hit or miss now .So please don't get mad or thing I'm mad ,I'm not still love you all.PS sorry but there just 2 many,and it not fair 2 anyone .Hope you all understand, this need 2 be done love you all

Passion's Flames
A touch, soft and tender.A whisper, full of desireA gasp of sweet surrenderAs passion fuels the fireNo words spoken between themNo promises to be keptNo lies being told tonightNo looking back - no regretsLonging to hold each otherSuch precious little timeBoth vowed to anotherBeing lonely their only crimeTomorrow bringing sorrowA brief moment of shameWith the memory of this one nightA release from passion's flames

[buggering Hell That's A Lot Of Option Parts]
Now... why I have the BOTTOM of a shield... and no other parts is beyond me.I'm looking over the runners to my Ramba Ral custom and there are...THINGS...that don't do anything. Parts parts parts... and I have no idea where they go. There appear to be 3 extra chest plates, an extra cod piece (was crotch plate a better word? center skirt?), and an extra set of face hoses and leg hoses. And these weird little ... I dunno what to call em... hooks?These do not exist on a Zaku I.*scratches his head* ... ... ... Now I kinda wanna get it done and take a look at what fits where with the surplus. I haven't seen a nonstandard build for this kit except the dark blue custom paint job, and from what I can see...... ...I guess my point is there's a lot of extra... Jazzon this kit.And I wants to play with it. I'm still kinda annoyed about the shield. I was hoping it was complete.Something about 2 "ball shields" in one of the reviews. I got your 2 balls right here!

Animals-city Of The Damned
High heels and smoke filled thoughts Litter the street in disgust Strangled children and crying howls Scare away passing strangers The city of the damned and the condemned Is the name that has been known Shot in the face or lingerie and lace Decides your future fate Scream his name as loud as you can You’re in our town now Dreadful darkness clouds your world Until it is no more We are the ones you have abandoned Now we want revenge Stumble into our world and onto my knife Your are in the city of the damned

So Much
So much pain I set aside, So many rules I must abide, So how do i distinguish the line of a girlfriend, As apposed to that of a bride, I wouldn't want to stray to far, because i've never been touched before, but we both know I can't stay still, so I run around some more, Could I loose her, have I already, My god am I too late, was I a fool or just being played, sometimes I believe its fate, peeking over my shoulder slapping my hand, whenever I try to reach, Destined to be "in the land of laughter", stuck on my own one man beach, Other couples walking slow, pointing as they whisper by, Saying he'll never be able to love just one, but I know that's a lie, I strive to be the best, that is the best I can, Play my cards listen to my heart, but i'm the first high maintenance man, I need someone to tell my problems, we laugh and they go away, I need you near at 5 am, when I have something sweet to say, Am I asking too much of you?, My dream girl my everything, one whose presence melts this st

Random Thought
What do you think horror is? It should make you squirm in your skin. You're mind should go mad at thought of what could be. Not this stupid slasher shit. "OMG drive even though the bad guy running on foot is faster than a car." Idiots. The mind is much more interesting place to play with than a humans gag reflex at the site of mangled bodies. The imagination is much more powerful than we give credit.

Me And Myself?
its 4 am a strange voice wakes me suggesting I rise and shine, startled I jump up and have a look around it seemed to be all in my mind, to unease to go back to bed plus I have a full day planed out, so my day has begun in the weirdest of ways no clue what that was about, to the sink I soon head face towel in hand all set to remove sleep from my eyes, I arrive at my destination only to find the mirror held quite a surprise, it me but not me he seemed to look through me and move when I reached for the soap, he folded his arms and I hear that voice again saying rudely {my god what a joke,} that's when it got weird because the voice started to sound oh so familiar you see, I spun around then focused on the mirror the voice was coming from me, losing it dose not describe how I feel at this moment in time, I'm either still sleep or crazy either way I need to get a grip on my mind, who are you to live such a life as this and NOT love every minuet you are given, you have all that you

For Jules
just brightens my day wheneven shes around u make me feel all squishy inside loves to please everyone around her excites and entices all the guys special to me and to many others JOVIAL UNDERSTANDING LOVEABLE INTELLIGENT ENIGMATIC

I'm Blogging To Let You Know I Blogged
So yeah, what the title says. I've started a new short story over on my other blog. I'd love it if you'd check it out and let me know what you think! Feel free to leave comments either here or there (or in a box with a fox). I less-than-three feedback.

My Sexy Wife Wrote This For Me
i've been thinking about you all dayit seems like my hearts been blown awaymy minds spinningmy hearts cryingi am in painand it makes me go insanemy feelings for you i cannot defineeven in the most prestige dictionary you cant findit feels like foreverbut my mind says NEVER!why am i suffering?is my life thy offering?i knew from the very startthat you're the one whose gonna break my heartbut i was blinded with your smilethat tempts me all the whileohh poor heart of minei've been fooled, by a foolish smile...

Walk Away
I'm sorry,for the demon I've become, You should be sorry,for the angel you are not, I apologise,for the crule things that I did, But I don't regret, one single word I said, Just walk away, make it easy on yourself, Just walk away, please relese me from this hell, Just walk away, theres just nothing left to feel, Just walk away, pretend that none of this is real, Could you forgive me,if I told you that I cared, Would you be sorry,if I swore that I'd be there, Plese forgive me,for laughing when you fall, I'm so sorry,but I never cared at all, Just walk away, make it easy on yourself, Just walk away, please relese me from this hell, Just walk away, theres just nothing left to feel, Just walk away, pretend that none of this is none of this is, Just walk away, make it easy on us both, Just walk away, there was never any hope, Just walk away, you already know the deal, Just walk away, pretend that none of this was..none of this was real

State Laws Don't Apply To Me
I truly "love" some of the people in our condo building. (Please note the quotes. LOL) They seem to feel that it's their place and they can do whatever they please. Granted, while this is true to a degree, being in a condo setting, there are State Declarations and Rules and Regulations that need to be followed. One of the declarations is that 80% of your unit MUST be carpeted. It's an older building and doesn't have sound proofing. WELL, some people have decided they're "going to do what they want to do" and put in tile/hard wood floors. Um, hello, no. You can have tile/flooring in the hallway from the door, the kitchen and bathrooms. Everything else though, carpeted. Well, apparently that interfers with their lifestyle (in the case of the people that live above us without carpeting - it must mean running around liked fucking animals). They feel that the State Declarations and the Rules should just be "tossed out" because they don't agree with them. Also, we have a passenger elevato

Erotic Poetry
Can I have you? Written by SweetInnocence Can I have you? Your heart? Your love?Can I have that first kiss? that first touch?Can I have the warmth of your skin against mine?Tell me what I have to do...tell me what it takes...I will do anything...I will do everything...just to have you.So please, answer...Can I have you?

Missing Out.
Here it is March 20th my son's 9TH B-DAY an yet it seems as if I was just changing his diapers an holding him in my arms, I know I've missed alot from may 18TH of 2008 till resently because of my cancers my mind just wasn't with me but I will say this much if it wasn't for Edward/Summer an Jo Jo plus John (husband), my mother an father-in-law plus the doctors I wouldn't be here today to enjoy my little mans BIG DAY... I love them so much, they were there when I needed them most an still are for whatever reason just makes me wanna cry thinking about it, what this family has went through for damn near 2 years because of me but what can you do when your sick? Anyways I just want to say to those that's going through this or going to be let anyone & everyone help you don't push em away it doesn't help in the long run believe me...

Green Eyed Monsters
Okay that woman I was talking about in my other blog, lets just call her Sybil,anyway after all the heartache and torment she caused me, she had the audacity to try to turn my ex husband against me,sur e he bought her crap for awhile but after some facts came to light, like her calling me names after she said she stopped, and threats on my life he stopped talking to her.great but 1 thing he told me and my cousin told me to; see, she (Sybil) unknowingly was talking to my cus on Facebook,(my cousin is slick) anyway she whined how she had to work for evryting she has, her parents struggled,ate soup, blah blah blah,she bitched about how I was raised, comftorably , but not rich,my dad owned a juice business for over 40 years, built it from the ground up literally.it was a big sucucess,but i never got a car till after i was married the 1st time then it was a used 1, she called me a rich bitch,how is that?because my parents didn't starve? owned a modest 3 bedrom home,car,we had tvs, coul

Death Of A Wonderful Man
Dr Spike@ fubar This man was one of my best friends here. This was a man who could make you smile , no matter how bad your day was, he is and always will be , my Angel. But sadly, at 3.15am Today (20th March 2010), he passed away. He has had blood clots, for the last 25 years. He had many that had travelled to his intestines. He did not know about them. Well last week, he was rushed to the hospital, in severe pain. They tried to figure out what was going on. They had him in surgery on Friday. When they were in there they found it had caused gangrene throughout his insides. there was nothing they could do. They put him in a medically induced coma, so he was not in any pain, until he died. I'm unsure what else to say, but if you knew him, you would have loved him as much as I did. Please visit his page and leave messages for his family. I will Always Remember You Eric aka Dr Spike. R.I.P My Hug Buddy I Love You xox

March 20, 2010
Feeling lost in the ocean all by myself no lights to guide me water is cold and i cant swim I want to cry out but I cant part of me wants to let it all go and let it all be leaving myself in the bottom of the ocean it might be so much easier it might be so much painless but it might be too heartbroken to be peaceful I want to cry but I cant I am lost in the ocean

Let's Get Nekkid!
Join me for my Saturday morning show at 8am est (5AM SLT). Get connected & happy listening and stay Nekkid! http://st1.webradioworld.net:8258/ I'll be playing a little Paramore, Your Way Out, Kings of Leon, The Promise Hero, and a whole lot more!!!!Did you know you could connect from our website? Go to www.nekkidradio.net and listen to us any time you'd like!!!!

Not So Blonde
You look at me & have already decided what I am. Who am I to make you the fool. Few people actually realize it's your ears..not your mouth...that hears. There is more than 1 way to live, yet there is only 1 way to be right. Hmmmmm, how many of lifes lessons are not taught nor learned due to those who already know it all? I can babble like an idiot or be as quiet as a mouse, either way, I'm sure I was listening more than you. I don't have to be right to you, so long as I know I'm not wrong to me. Those old sayings carry much wisdom, " Never Judge a Book by it's Cover", you might just miss out on the best novel you'll ever find.

Snapvine
What better place to post the messages that everyone left me on Snapvine. I thank each of you for being a part of my life in this way and I archive those messages here because they are part of the story of my life for the friends they represent. You will need flash installed to load the player.

A Beautiful Song
Unbelievable by Craig David...Thank you for this song baby...I love it...and I love you Rob Always said I would know where to find loveAlways thought I'd be ready and strong enoughBut sometimes I just felt I could give upBut you came and you changed my whole world nowI'm somewhere I've never been beforeNow I seeWhat word love means It's so unbelievableAnd I don't wanna let it goIts something so beautifulFlowin down like a waterfallI feel like you've always beenForever a part of meAnd it's so unbelievableTo finally be in loveSomewhere I never thought I'd be In my heart in my head it's so clear nowhold my hand you've got nothin' to fear nowI was lost and you've rescued me somehowI'm alive I'm in love you complete meAnd I've never been here beforeNow I seeWhat the word love means It's so unbelievableAnd I don't wanna let it goIts something so beautifulFlowin down like a waterfallI feel like you've always beenForever a part of meAnd it's so unbelievableTo finally be in loveSomewh

Tragic Blast
I'm a blast from the past movein to fast to grasp the fact that is i am an impact distractions never last when u never can see past the otherside of a chili bowl you fuckin fat ass you pussies you fakes you cowards im gonna worship the motherfuckin flower its leafy green with a sour imbetween Hell id make her my fuckin queen Mary Jane Green To my homies my respects through all the shit just straight up kill that bitch if they have the need to snitch just straight up kill that bitch if they have the need to switch to straight up bitch Now let me introduce you to the true definition of another thrillin classic expedition through the past haters u can fuckin kiss my white ass cause this was a blast from the true definition of class

A Song To My Ex-wife Sam Kinison-wild Thing
Wild thing! Wild thing! Wild thing, I think you move me� But. I wanna know for sure! Every time I kiss you, I taste what other men had for lunch! The only thing that can get you off is to see me in pain, but I think I love you! Wild thing! You make my heart scream! You took everything! Oh, wild thing! Wild thing, I think you move me! Ah, that just came to my mind � I thought I�d say it� You made me trust you, then stuck the knife in my heart! You�re a lying, unfaithful, untrustable tramp, and I think I love you! Wild thing! You make my heart scream! You took everything! Oh, wild thing! Wild thing! Oh, we�ve all had some kind of wild thing that went through our lives and made it hell. �Cause everybody�s had one � you, me � NOBODY likes to lose! And you know she�s out there, laughing at you � I don�t care if it was last week or the 3rd grade! Someone broke your heart! What was her name?!!!!! Wild

Being A Mother!!!!!!
AFTER 17 YEARS OF MARRIAGE, I ASK MY HUSBAND TO TAKE ANOTHER WOMAN OUT TO DINNER AND A MOVIE. I TOLD HIM" I LOVE YOU" BUT I KNOW THIS OTHER WOMAN LOVES HIM ALSO AND WOULD LOVE TO SPEND TIME WITH HIM. THE OTHER WOMAN I WANTED HIM TO VISIT WAS HIS MOTHER.WHO HAS BEEN ALONE FOR 20 YEARS,BUT THE DEMANDS OF HIS WORK AND THE TWO KIDS HAD MADE IT POSSIBLE TO VISIT HER ONLY OCCASIONALLY.THAT NIGHT HE CALLED TO INVITE HER TO GO OUT FOR DINNER AND A MOVIE.'WHATS WRONG AREN'T YOU WELL; SHE ASK MY HUSBAND?HIS MOTHER IS THE TYPE OF WOMAN WHO SUSPECTS THAT A LATE NIGHT CALL OR SURPRISE INVITATION IS A SIGN OF BAD NEWS.'I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE PLEASANT TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH YOU,'HE RESPONDED.'JUST THE TWO OF US.'SHE THOUGHT ABOUT IT FOR A MOMENT,AND THEN SAID,''I WOULD LIKE THAT VERY MUCH.''THAT FRIDAY AFTER WORK,AS HE DROVE OVER TO PICK HER UP HE WAS A BIT NERVOUS.WHEN HE ARRIVED AT HER HOUSE.HE NOTICED THAT SHE,TOO,SEEMED TO BE NERVOUS ABOUT THERE DATE ALSO.SHE WAITED IN THE DOOR..SHE HAD CURLED H

Not Kat Von D
Jesse James' alleged mistress, Michelle "Bombshell" McGee, has lots of tattoos. Kat Von D is a famous Hollywood tattoo artist. Paps put two and two together and figured Kat must have done Bombshell's tattoos, right? Not exactly. In fact, the L.A. Ink star says she's never even met the woman who claims to have had an affair with Sandra Bullock's hubby. What's more, she's never even heard of this skank lady. "I have no idea who she is," said Kat outside West Hollywood's BOA Steakhouse Thursday night. Which kind of makes the follow-up question by the paps—"Did you do any of her tats?"—a little unnecessary, but she politely responded nonetheless. "Hell no!" Kat answered with a smile before driving off. And so the search for the person behind Bombshell's body art continues. Or not.

Updated Blog ...read It Lol!
WOW! Where to even begin... a lot has happened since the last time i was on teh Foo! For those of you wo did not know , i bought a house! WOOT WOOT! I love it! Its amazing.(i really never thought i would own one lol) I finished up last years drifting season taking second in the advance class.I lost by 1 point out of 100 can you believe it!!! But i lost to a great friend who had earned it so i guess its cool haha! After the end of the drift season last year i sold my car... :( The drifting was a blast but i need to take a few years off from it to work on some otherthings. One of those other things i am working on is music. After not playing with any regularity for the last 5 or so years i decided to pick up my guitar and play... i ended up writing almost a full album which i am in the process of putting the finishing touches on. I formed a band as well ( abunch of drifta friends ,go figure lol) and we really click great.Each one of them brings something great to the table and makes o

Zodiac Mindwarp And The Love Reaction - Let's Break The Law
Zodiac Mindwarp And The Love Reaction - Let's Break The Law I'm A Stormbringer Baby Got A Broken Glass Stare Ride A Blood-Stained Charger Said I Call It My Nightmare You Can Tie Me To Old Sparky Said Let The Fire Fly Told You Baby I'm The Wild One Ain't Afraid To Die Said Let's - Break The Law Said Let's - Break The Law Jailbait Baby Wanna Flick Your Legal Switch Well I Like To See My Baby Like To See That Little Bitch Twitch People Say I'm Bad Tell Me That I'm Mad But Man She's The Best Thing That I Ever Had Said Let's - Break The Law Said Let's - Break The Law Well Some Call It Murder I Just Call It Fun Want To Slaughter Your Little Sister With My Sex Machine Gun Wanna Break The Law On The Living Room Floor Wanna Break The Law Til My Baby - Til My Baby's Sore

Wtf
why does it always to have end up with someone getting hurt? at the begining i asked please dont hurt me ive been through a lot an my heart cant take it getting hurt anymore an they reply dont worry i wont ever hurt you an they end up not wanting to talk an is already talking to there new "fav" friend. why do they say they really like you an get jealous over you hanging out with friends an then the next thing you know they dont want to talk to you anymore? WTF!!!!! seriously why does this always happen to me i am always getting my fucking heart broken by fucking people. does anyone really care? i mean if you have someone care so much about you that they help you with financial things to help get you out of the hole an to actually have a cell phone heat for you an your kids an have money to put food on the table. but yeah i guess the nice ones always get fucked at the end, but why is that? its like the assholes always get everything an the nice ones always get fucked over.

[the Most Cruel Month]
I guess it wasn't so bad.She asked me to "call if I wanted to hang out"and I did.At 5:30.She didn't pick up.I texted her the details, basically stating"I wanna hang out... my parents want to hijack my weekendHALP!!!...call me when you can :)" she said "Okay :)" ... there's one ... four problems with this girl. 1. Kind of a space cadet on stuff like that.I might be here waiting ... STARING at my phone willing it to ring. Okay, no might about it, that's exactly what I'm doing. She has this weird history of blanking out on these things.Bless her heart.From what I can gather its never willful but she might very well forget alltogether to call me. say "oh yeah... he wanted to spend time with me" at exactly 11:00 Sunday night :/ Suh-igh. Its not that I have the time this weekend,that I have ANY idea what I'd do with heror... any of that really... *shuffles his feet*haven't you ever just wanted someone specific around? Anyway, the theme tonight is unintentional cruelty. Accidental

Yes Virginia There Is A "g" Spot After All
For years women were told there was a “G” spot that when touched would raise your ecstasy level exponentially. Then a study came out last year that said there was no such thing as a “G” spot. Telling women don’t worry if you don’t have an orgasm. Now we’re told there is a “G” spot after all. OK ladies, which is it? Is there a “G” spot or not? http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,589623,00.html BlastFM has a “G” spot in your favorite file. Push it anytime and you will be entertained to the heights of listening pleasure. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Ensign: The Classic, The Bridge, And The Current
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 19 March 2010 When my family and I were in Bismarck last week, I noticed a church sign with today’s title on the marquee. Accompanying “The Classic”, “The Bridge”, and “The Current” were times for what I guessed were church services – that is, the same message preached in each service, but the accompanying music and programs within their services designed to appeal to a particular age or mindset. It wasn’t so much of a shock to me, even though I grew up in a traditional church setting with the “thee”s and “thou”s intact. I attended a church for three years where they sincerely tried to make both a “contemporary” and “traditional” service work, but you’ve got to have the peop

Lifes Changes
Here is a poem I wrote one day when I was feeling a little down and creative. As time goes by; and people change.There are many questions why;and answers so strange.Understanding life;can be so hard. It can be like a knife;stabbing you in the heart.The pain you feel; can incompacitate you.Wondering if its real;or another distorted view.Driving you to look for an answer;to lifes hardships and strife.Striving to find a chance or;reason to live a better life.Life can be easy;or it can be hard.Life is what you make it;and its never to late for a new start.

Shiver
So I look in your direction,But you pay me no attention, do you.I know you don't listen to me.'cause you say you see straight through me, don't you.On and on from the moment I wake,To the moment I sleep,I'll be there by your side,Just you try and stop me,I'll be waiting in line,Just to see if you care.Did you want me to change?well I change for good.And I want you to know.that you'll always get your way,I wanted to say,(Chorus)Don't you Shiver? ShiverSing it loud and clearI'll always be waiting for youSo you know how much I need ya,But you never even see me, do you?And this is my final chance of getting you.On and on from the moment I wakeTo the moment I sleep,I'll be there by your side,Just you try and stop me,I'll be waiting in line,Just to see if you care.Did you want me to change?well I change for good.And I want you to know.that you'll always get your way,I wanted to say,Sing it loud and clear.I'll always be waiting for you.I'll always be waiting for you.I'll always be waiting for

One Last Time....
this is only public because this person occasionally comes by when others are looking sooooo.... if ANYONE ANYWHERE wants to continue to accuse me of something like they have that is so fucked up and could possibly have me in jail for a long time so help me god i will spend the rest of my days hunting you down and i will find you and i will beat the holy living shit out of you and pull you in front of a mirror and slice you from ear to ear just so you can watch yourself bleed out....you may think im talking shit but lets see what happens if i hear or see it again....i WILL find a way to get to you i swear that on my kids head i will end you have a good nite im outtie

Don't Cry By Guns N Roses
"Don't Cry" Talk to me softly There is something in your eyes Don't hang your head in sorrow And please don't cry I know how you feel inside I've I've been there before Somethin is changin' inside you And don't you know Don't you cry tonight I still love you baby Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight Give me a whisper And give me a sign Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye Don't you take it so hard now And please don't take it so bad I'll still be thinkin' of you And the times we had...baby And don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight And please remember that I never lied And please remember how I felt inside now honey You gotta make it your own way But you'll be alright now sugar You'll feel better tomorrow Come the morning light now baby And don't you cry tonight And don't you cry tonight And don't you cry tonight There's a heaven

Fail
P { MARGIN: 0px } UL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } OL { MARGIN-TOP: 5px; MARGIN-BOTTOM: 5px } One simple word... Taken the wrong way. One hesitated action... Can be punished. I am expected to know you... In all things. Perceiving what comes next... Though you don't understand me. The gentle teasing I might do... My humor. How I try to make you smile... And FAIL. How many more times... Until I stop trying? Giving and learning who you are... And yet never knowing at all.

Stoned Thoughts
What makes you believe/trust someone? Is it one thing in particular or is it a combination of little things? Does everybody require the same things to believe/trust someone? Is there a time limit on how long it takes you to trust someone? This isn't about anything in particular, just a thought while I was high.