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This Is It
Why is it that I want to roam Freedom knockin' on my door Just don't know when I'm gonna run Afraid I might fall Don't want to go on anymore Gotta take this chance Don't want to reminisce Not gonna miss This is it Hearts been hurt so many times before This feeling is real I wear the blood on my clothes Stains won't go away They scar my soul Gotta take this chance Don't want to reminisce Not gonna miss This is it Running as my feet hit the floor Not looking back Just goin' to move forward Memories fadin' as I go Pain was once there now it's gone Gotta take this chance Don't want to reminisce Not gonna miss This is it This is it This is it This is it

Falling Then Getting Up
hello friends and all people i recently became single from a relationship that lasted 7.5 yrs until one day it all came crashing down and hit me like a ton of bricks i was devestated and shocked that someone can say they love u and then with out seeing it coming swoop down and rip out ur fucking heart and make u feel like gum or shit on the bottom of there shoe that is how my life was now i am getting up after being knocked down and almost out now i am finally able to feel better about myself because i have people like all u to talk too u make me realize hay you gotta put mistakes and misfortunes behind u and help urself and start caring about u first and everyone else secondarily so now i have lots of friends who are beautiful people and are non judgemental who indeed are friends and not putdowners or critisizers and like a person for who they and trust will be given back again once life is easier to swallow ty all again and to all a pleasant and safe night big hugs phil if anyone eve

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Can you blow a bubble?: YES Can you dance?: slow dance yes Can you do a cart wheel?: haven't done one of those in over 4 years Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue?: haven't tried Can you touch your toes?: yes Can you whistle?: yes Can you wiggle your ears?: yup Can you wiggle your nose? yeah THE DIDS: Did you ever get into a fist fight in school?: not really Did you ever run away from home?: yes, me and my friend took off Did you ever want to be a doctor?: yes Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: no THE DOS: Do you believe in God?: NO Do you know how to swim?: YES Do you like roller coasters?: not really Do you own a bike?: a stationary one Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: oh hell no THE DOES: Does hair loss run in your family at all?: on my dad's side Does your car get good gas mileage?: not sure Does your family have family picnics?: no THE HAVES: Have you ever been on

Just Lucky I Guess
My heart may not be considered a worth while prize, with its duct tape and glue holding parts of it together. But someone came into my life and totally blew me away. I wasnt expecting him, not at this time, not in this situation, all I know is here he is, the greatest thing to have happened to me. I care about him very much. I know he cares about me too. He calls me beautiful, and calls me baby. Granted these are just words but they are better then being told you are sexy or hot all the time. I want to know that I am a beautiful person inside and out. I think he sees that side of me. He is sweet, smart, a great listner, caring, interesting, and most importantly funny. We have so much in common that it freaks us out. I have never met anyone like him. I am not revealing who he is at this time because we have both decided it best not for our privacy, but he knows who he is. I listen to his song over and over. I think about him all day long. When my cell rings and I hear his song I smile a

Do It!
So here I have two contests. Both end on May 3rd. This first picture all I need from you is a simple rate and comment. Just one comment, and just a rate. That's All. (Battle of the sexes contest) In this second contest, bombing is allowed. And I am offering gifts. To ask about the gifts, my page link is at the bottom of the bulliten so send me a shout =) This is HELLCAT. This is who I want to be my competition in part two of the Battle of the sexes contest so make sure you check her out as well. One comment, one rate. All she needs. Thanks!

You Know You Wanna
So here I have two contests. Both end on May 3rd. This first picture all I need from you is a simple rate and comment. Just one comment, and just a rate. That's All. (Battle of the sexes contest) In this second contest, bombing is allowed. And I am offering gifts. To ask about the gifts, my page link is at the bottom of the bulliten so send me a shout =) This is HELLCAT. This is who I want to be my competition in part two of the Battle of the sexes contest so make sure you check her out as well. One comment, one rate. All she needs. Thanks!

Paint Ball Fuck
I have always wanted to play paint ball. Hunting, being chased, hitting your target,,, total turn on! Suiting up in camo's and regulation army boots (don't laugh, its my fantasy). Of course I would get the top one size to small and tie it up around my waist…have to look hot, its to my advantage. Being on opposite ends of the playing field the hunt is on. Peeking around the corner of the wall to see where you are, Bam your first shot lands on the wall 12 inches from my head. Stunned I see you smile a wicked smile at me as you disappear behind the wall. This totally make me want to kick your ass and rip your clothes off at the same time. Hearing foot steps in the distance I get up and decide to dive for the next wall seeing your position. Getting on my belly I take the sniper position and wait for you to move again. Pop, pop, pop, your shots ring out landing in my general area. Shooting back I almost hit your foot as you slide it back behind the wall. Knowing your going to tr

Broken
it happens yet again...think you meet someone really good for you...and he ends up finding someone else...i guess i was just not mean to have anyone anymore...as i told him, im not looking for love, but if it happens, i won't slam the door in its face....don't misunderstand love would be nice, but i am not out hunting for it... oh well, i just woke up and had a message from him telling me he had met someone and got kinda sad so i thought i would write it down..

Have A Great Day
* Tell a man that there are 400 billion stars, and he'll believe you. Tell him a bench haswet paint, and he has to touch it. * How come SUPERMAN could stop bullets with his chest, but always ducked whensomeone threw a gun at him? * If it was only a 3 hour cruise, why did MRS. HOWELL have so many clothes. * Why is it called a HAMBURGER,when it's made out of BEEF? * Why does SOUR CREAMhave an Expiration date? * If "Con" is the Opposite of "Pro"....then what is the opposite of PROGRESS? * Why is LEMON JUICE mostly artificialingredients.... but DISH WASHING LIQUIDcontains real lemons? * How much deeper would the ocean be, if SPONGES didn'

Here With Out You Honey, I Love You!!
LIPS SO SOFT & WARM; HANDS SO SOFT, YET STRONG! HEART SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS; MIND SWARMS OF THOUGHTS OF THE NEXT TALK, NEXT THOUGHT, NEXT ORGASM! LONGING TO FEEL OR HEAR HIS VOICE; LONGING TO JUST KNOW HIM OR SEE HE IS THERE! TO KNOW EACH OTHERS THOUGHTS; FEEL EACH OTHERS FEELINGS, TO LONG FOR SOMETHING SO FAR AWAY! YET TO KNOW THAT VERY MINUTE YOU SEE HIM, OR HEAR HIM, YOUR HEART FEELS LIKE EXPLODING!! YOUR HANDS SHAKE; YOUR PALMS BEGIN TO SWEAT; YOUR NERVES JUMP ALL OVER! TO LONG TO HEAR HIM ONE LAST TIME, SEE THEM ONE LAST TIME! TO FEEL SO EMPTY WITH OUT HIM; TO FEEL SO FULL WHEN HE IS THERE! I LOVE YOU BABY!!! YOU ARE MY INSPIRITATION HONEY AND YOU FILL ME WHERE MY WHOLE IS NOT THERE!!

Taking Leave For A While Until Im Better Plz Read For Details
OK TO THE LDC FAM PURDY FAM AND WHIPS N CHAINS SOCIETY AND CLUB FANTASIA STAFF IM GOING ON LEAVE AS OF TONIGHT DO TO ILLNESS AND WILL BE BACK ON CT ONCE I GET BETTER TY FOR YA'LLS UNDERSTANDING MUAHZ I LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU IF YOU NEED ME IM ON YAHELL @ HYPNOTIKA.MESSY

Just On My Mind
Well some of you don't know but I went through a very abusive relationship years ago. I suffered from many bruises,my nose being broke,black eyes,my body just aching in places I couldn't imagine hurting. I survived that, and yes I can say that I suvived because I am still here and I no longer have to deal with that and haven't for 10 years. But yes I still have those moments when something triggers memories. Yes tney hurt, and yes they will always be there. FOr those of you who have never had to deal with something like this you can't say you know what I am going through because you don't. For those who have been through it well I just hope that when you are reading this that you have been stron enough to get out like I did Someone like that will never change. I know this because he's still that way. At this point in my life I have become stronger than him and I control every situation. He knows that I will hang up on him if he gets out of hand when talking about our children. Even thr

Sex
You have a sexual IQ of 142 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Untitled
the sight of lust in my eyes as i close in, it puts me in a state of mind like nothing else is around. the smell of your scent in the wind drives me nuts as i close in on your position. your in trouble, im a fiend for your beauty, i cant have enough. your eyes drive me wild, your hair like silken strands of gold. To have and to hold you is what i strive to achieve, when shall you be mine? when will time break the barrier of the distance that holds us apart? you are too good for me, i know this, yet i cant give up now. your perfect in every sense of the word, you will be the one i cherish this i promise. im a fiend for your beauty, your in trouble, i can never have enough. your body is what i long to hold close and dear, when shall time take over and bring us near? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I walk Miles inside my soul insearch of who i am, i come empty handed with dark holes inside my past. I have lost wha

Grandchildern
Do you remember how small thay once use to be, When you could bounce them on your knee. Take them by the hand to walk across the street To see them smile it's oh so sweet.At times thay would get into things thay should not, Even touch things that are hot.Tucking them into bed all safe and worm, And you try to keep them from all harm. Oh so small and and get into trouble, Helping them to blow bubbles.Throughing a ball for the first time, Even reading them a nursery ryme.Helping them get into bed,And watching lay down there tired head.Letting them use a spoon and fork, And getting them to eat pork.Teaching them to say their payers at night, And how thay look ed in the bright noon light. Sending off to school for the first day, And crying cause they thik thay going far away. And when thay are at the age to finish scholl, And touse there smart brain is a real good tool.Whaen the day comes to see them marry and have childern of there own, nd thay are able to have a house to call ther home.

Big Condoms
Tonight was an average day at work. One lady got mad because she said the sign decieved her. She just didn't read it right. So I refunded her stupid 10 2 litre bottles of pepsi products. She kept going on and on about "i'm going to go to the Safeway in University Place from now on where the clerks are MUCH MORE friendly" and "That sign was so deceiving, it should be illegal to trick people like that." To which I replied "I did not make that sign. And would you like to speak to my manager about this issue?" Because I don't get paid enough to listen to people whine and bitch. She says no and keeps on with the complaining. So I just take my time, slowly scanning each pop by itself when I could have done it a faster way. Then she wants to rent movies. She has never rented before so she hands me her ID and I start to open an account. She had a coupon, 3 movies for 3 days for 6.99 (normally it is 7.99). So I ask her for her telephone number, we need two to set up a video account

A Lil Bout Nothing
When it comes to blogs -either I will tend to babble about how I have made some lousy decisions in my life and other than my two girls, my pesonal life tends to suck.... well when it comes to women anyway-LOL. Or when I find something funny I might put it in a blog just for laughs and the occasion things I find interesting will end up here. So check back from time to time you never know what ya may find.

Love
Liefde..(L) voortdurend onrustig steeds maar weer dromen heen en weer lopen niet in te tomen denken aan hem alleen maar aan hem ik zie steeds zijn lach ik hoor steeds zijn stem nog maar heel eventjes nog een paar dagen dan zie ik hem weer ik ga 't erop wagen !

What Do You Think?
I was just wonering what you think, I need some input. I was just curious to ask if you think I should keep my goatee, have a soul patch or go all clean shaven? I know I know, it is what I want, but I was just curious that's all, so your input would be greatly appreciated. to all of you who have commented on my pics and shared some love, THANK YOU ALL!!!!!! I wish I could give you all a huge hug, kiss and anything else that you may want from me (start making a list...ha ha!) Much love to you all....*kisses*

Wahoo I Loooove The Summer
Being from florida where we spent most of the summer in a pool @ the beach or in some body of water & stayed out in the sun, last summer was rough on me i was 6months preggers when the summer started & being as it's not safe for pregnant women to get out in the heat & sun i stayed indoors most of the time...But this summer i am getting my tan back damnit i miss it sooo much ...Time to break out the babyoil,towel,radio & lawn chair & enjoy the summer again & this time i get to share it all with my almost 10month old son :) This is gonna be a great summer for us What things do you my friends like to get out & do to enjoy the summer ??

Promisespromises
Never had a doubt In the beginning Never a doubt Trusted too true In the beginning I loved you right through Arm in arm we laughed like kids At all the silly things we did You made me promises promises Knowing I'd believe Promises promises You knew you'd never keep Second time around I'm still believing words that you said You said you'd always be here "In love forever" Still repeats in my head You can't finish what you start If this is love it breaks my heart You made me promises promises You knew you'd never keep Promises promises Why do I believe Arm in arm we laughed like kids At all the silly things we did You can't finish what you start If this is love it breaks my heart You made me promises promises You knew you'd never keep Promises promises Why do I believe All of your promises You knew you'd never keep Promises promises Why do I believe Promises Promises Promises Promises Promises

The Differences In Prayer
Female Prayer Before I lay me down to sleep, I pray for a man, who's not a creep, One who's handsome, smart and strong One who loves to listen long, One who thinks before he speaks, One who'll call, not wait for weeks. I pray he's gainfully employed, When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed. Pulls out my chair and opens my door, Massages my back and begs to do more. Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind, Knows what to answer to "how big is my behind?" I pray that this man will love me to no end, And always be my best friend. Amen. MALE PRAYER I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs who owns a liquor store and a bass boat. This doesn't rhyme and I don't give a shit. Amen

Where Is The Logic?
I've been philosophizing about life again: A scorpion, being a very poor swimmer, asked a turtle to carry him on his back across a river. "Are you crazy?" exclaimed the turtle. "You'll sting me while I'm swimming and I'll drown." "My dear turtle," laughed the scorpion, "if I were to sting you, you would drown and I would go down with you. Now where is the logic in that?" "You're right!" cried the turtle. "Hop on!" The scorpion climbed aboard and halfway across the river gave the turtle a mighty sting. As they both sank to the bottom, the turtle resignedly said: "Do you mind if I ask you something? You said there'd be no logic in your stinging me. Then why did you do it?" "It has nothing to do with logic," the drowning scorpion sadly replied. "It's just my character." The moral of the story: Be careful of who you associate with.

Letter To Juggalos
-JUGGALOZ- Sorry to be all deep and serious but i got lots of shit on my mind. I'm tired of everything and everybody. The only thing i give a shit about in this hell we call a world is my Juggalo Family. The Carnival saved my life and my soul. My Juggalo Pride is the best thing that ever happened to me. It's starting to scare me for the fact when I sit back and actually observe the juggalo world, It seems like its going down hill. It seems to me that a lot of ninjas are out for self and trying to prove whos a bigger juggalo that who. There is no big or small juggalo. We are all the same. It doesn't take $4,000 is psychopathic merchandise to be a juggalo. Just because I got an old school mostastless jersey doesn't make me any better than a ninja with only one t-shirt. Being a juggalo is whats in your heart not whats on you clothes. I've seen juggalos callin each other juggahoes over spots in line at shows. That's BULLSHIT! Does anyone else realize this? Does anyone els

,top 11 Rules,on Cherry Tap
THE MYSPACE RULES ONE If you're ugly, stop acting like you don't know it. The captions under you picture that says "top model pose" "sexy bitch" "arnt i hot" doesn't convince anyone. TWO To the people who have like 25,000 friends, are you serious? Nobody in this universe can keep up with that many friends. You're stupid. Go play in traffic. THREE Don't ever post pictures and say "OMG, I'm so ugly" "OMG,I'm so fat" because if you were, you wouldn't post them. FOUR Nobody cares about threats over the internet. Don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard. Fighting online is like racing in the special olympics; even if you win, you're still retarded. FIVE Making 20 bulletins a day about how you have new pictures and begging people to comment on them is pathetic. Make the bulletin once if you have to, and those who actually care about you will comment on your pics. SIX If all your pictures look the same, don't post them all. Please

Insanity
Madness. Insanity. I often wonder whether I'm going insane or not, or if I have something inside of me that will one day be triggered, pushing me over the edge into insanity. Today, in our overly politically correct world, we used the term mentally ill, but the real word is insane, crazy. There used to be insane aslyums, now there are mental health facilities. It makes me wonder, have we come any closer to helping those that are crazy, or are we just making it easer to ignore them, to "adjust" them to daily life, drugging them into a sort of tranquility that makes it easier to deal with them, or to tolerate them. There was a time of electroshock therapy and lobotomies, now there are "miracle" drugs. But do they really help? Do they really make the insane not so crazy? If I were to lose my mind, would anything bring me back? There are days where I feel that I've lost control over my mind somehow and other days where I feel just fine. But in the back of the recesses of my mind, there is

Life Lesson
Soyez courtois à tous, mais suggérez avec peu, et laissez ces peu être bien essayé avant que vous leur donniez votre confiance. L'amitié vraie est une usine de croissance lente, et doit subir et résister aux chocs de l'adversité avant qu'elle ait droit à l'appellation. Translation: Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation.

Dont Want To Lose You
Sometimes, it's hard To make things clear Or know when to face the truth And I know that the moment is here I'll open my heart And show you inside My love has no pride I feel with you I've got nothing to hide So open your eyes And see who I am And not who you want for me to be I am only myself, myself I don't wanna lose you now We're gonna get through somehow Don't wanna lose you now Or ever Baby, I've fin'lly found The courage to stand my ground But if you want me, I'll be around Forever We all make mistakes We all lose our way But we've stood the test of time And I hope that's the way it will stay It's all up to you To tell me to go 'Cause it won't be me to walk away When you're all that I know And I know... That I don't wanna lose you now We're gonna get through somehow I don't wanna lose you now Or ever, never Baby, I've fin'lly found The courage to stand my ground But if you want me, I'll be around Forever, forever, yeah, yeah Don

Love, Lust, Marriage Thx Kitten
Love- When your eyes meet across a crowded room Lust- When your tongues meet across a crowded room Marriage- When you try to lose your spouse in a crowded room Love- When intercourse is called making love Lust- When intercourse in called screwing Marriage- When intercourse is a little town in Pennsylvania Love- When you argue over how many kids to have Lust- When you argue over who gets the wet spot Marriage- When you argue over whose idea it was to have kids Love- When you share everything you own Lust- When you steal everything they own Marriage- When the bank owns everything Love- When it doesn't matter if you don't climax Lust- When the relationship is over if you don't climax Marriage- When.... uh.... what's a climax Love- When your heart flutters every time you see them Lust- When your groin twitches every time you see them Marriage- When your wallet empties every time you see them Love- When all the songs on the radio describe exactly how you feel

Top Ten Things To Think About If You Want To Change The World
Mahatma Gandhi believed that we must be the change we want to see in the world. This was well demonstrated when he helped India gain its independence. Gandhi was a revolutionary man, but he accomplished India's emergence as a nation without starting a revolution. In fact, he advocated no violence. One of the most powerful countries in the world yielded to the commitment of one man and the dream of millions. What change can we effect? What's the difference we want to make in the world? Gandhi said, "In a gentle way you can shake the world." Here are some things to think about how to do just that … 1. Know that all significant change throughout history has occurred not because of nations, armies, governments and certainly not committees. They happened as a result of the courage and commitment of individuals. People like Joan of Ark, Albert Einstein, Clara Barton, Abraham Lincoln, Thomas Edison and Rosa Parks. They might not have done it alone, but they were, without question, th

So I Added New Stuff From Recent Events
“A Special Life” - My True Life Story. Added new stuff from very recently, and changed some parts on request of a friend, and new information changing part of the story. Check it out again if you wish

The Dream
Wandering through the violet mists of this landscape of the mind, voices crashing through the haze like the waves about small boat in a high sea, flashes of memory light the horizon, a rolling thunderhead of chaotic emotion and furtive hopes, above a churning ocean of forgoten desires. Where to go? Where to go...

I'm Tired, Written By A Man, Serving The Usa Even Tho He's Almost 60... Spend A Few Bux, Repost.. (repost)bulletion I Wanted To Keep
I'm Tired Two weeks ago, as I was starting my sixth month of duty in Iraq, I was forced to return to the USA for surgery for an injury I sustained prior to my deployment. With luck, I'll return to Iraq to finish my tour. I left Baghdad and a war that has every indication that we are winning, to return to a demoralized country much like the one I returned to in 1971 after my tour in Vietnam. Maybe it's because I'll turn 60 years old in just four months, but I'm tired: I'm tired of spineless politicians, both Democrat and Republican who lack the courage, fortitude, and character to see these difficult tasks through. I'm tired of the hypocrisy of politicians who want to rewrite history when the going gets tough. I'm tired of the disingenuous clamor from those that claim they 'Support the Troops' by wanting them to 'Cut and Run' before victory is achieved. I'm tired of a mainstream media that can only focus on car bombs and casualty reports because they are too afra

How Many??
OK so how many people really do read peoples profiles? Do they just browse around and add people with out reading what they are all about? They see ya and add you and then hit on you...OR they make a comment like "so whats it gonna take to get to see the other folder?" or "ill trade your folders" or "so wanna see my cock" "can i see your tits" that kinda shit.. If they took the time to read what people have to say and read what i want they would see there isnt a chance in fucken hell that i am gonna let you see UNLESS i want you to...I have added some people to see that folder and they are ones who got to know me..They think that there is pics of me in there that are dirty...NEWS FLASH THERE ARE NO PICS OF MY NAKED BODY IN THERE...and if you read my profile you will see that i will not post them on the internet for millions of people to see...When you post something like that only a few doesnt see it becuase LOTS see it...If they took the time to read my profile again they woul

F*ck Buddies
Statistically speaking, unless you are a total hermit, social retard, or ugly as a bag of spoiled ass... There's at least one person on your Cherry tap that wants to date you or sleep with you. So..... lets play "F*CK BUDDIES" The rules are simple... if you want to date the person who posted this, send them a message to their inbox saying "Im yours". If you just want to sleep with them and stay friends, send them a message that says "I'd hit it". SCARED? You pussy, just do it! THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO REPOST THIS, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN & see who replies. There is at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you, and maybe more that want to sleep with you. SO... re-post as "F*CK BUDDIES", as it doesn't matter if your married, in a relationship,single, gay or straight! You opened it so you HAVE to repost it! A test of your bravery

I'm Tired
I'm Tired Two weeks ago, as I was starting my sixth month of duty in Iraq, I was forced to return to the USA for surgery for an injury I sustained prior to my deployment. With luck, I'll return to Iraq to finish my tour. I left Baghdad and a war that has every indication that we are winning, to return to a demoralized country much like the one I returned to in 1971 after my tour in Vietnam. Maybe it's because I'll turn 60 years old in just four months, but I'm tired: I'm tired of spineless politicians, both Democrat and Republican who lack the courage, fortitude, and character to see these difficult tasks through. I'm tired of the hypocrisy of politicians who want to rewrite history when the going gets tough. I'm tired of the disingenuous clamor from those that claim they 'Support the Troops' by wanting them to 'Cut and Run' before victory is achieved. I'm tired of a mainstream media that can only focus on car bombs and casualty reports because they are too afra

Why Does It Always Happen To Me?
24 years of age going on 25 and still havent a clue about the opposite sex...probably never will! Met this guy last yr whilst temping at some company! was minding my own business (as i always do), this guy starts saying hello to me everyday...me being polite i say hello back. Time went and of course hellos turned into conversation, then lunches, then a few beers after work and finally to seeing him after working hours maybe once/twice a week. Being honest i will say as time went on i started to like him coz we always got on and felt comfortable around each other from day one! there's a catch...he had a fiancee of 5 yrs!! i found this out on one of our lunches but it wasnt from his mouth, it was somebody elses who was on lunch with us. Maybe a couple of weeks or so he tells me he likes me, even thou i liked him back there was no way anything was gonna happen between us coz of the fiancee. Gave him the speech bout nothing happening until he was a free agent! The reason behind hi

Cyber Love
Cyber Love: Real or Fantasy? Is it real? Or life like we would wish it were? All of us , who have been on the "net" for any length of time, know that we develop friendships on here. Strong Friendships And, after a period of time, some of these friendships become emotional bonding. Bonding that few, if any of us, were consciously seeking. Yet when we realize what has happened, how involved we have become , we honestly feel this other person is a "soul mate". The one person on this earth we have searched for/needed, all of our adult life. But we need to stop, back away and realize our "special friend" has just as many faults, maybe more than the spouse/special friend we have in real life. If we both can accept that each have faults, that neither are perfect and both are free to pursue the relationship, then there is a good chance the "cyber love" can become "real life love. When one or both already have a spouse, and possibly a family then the "cyber love

Let's
Let's... Current mood: sad Category: Life Let's rest our heads in each others laps when we have a bad day. Let's give each other soft kisses, our eyes closed. Let's melt our troubles with massages. Let's find great restaurants in far away places. Let's go to a coffee shop on Sunday morning and make up stories about the people we see -- better yet, let's sleep in on Sunday morning. Let's go to our friends houses and play board games. Let's surprise each other with things we've never told anyone else. Let's kiss like babies for fun, eyes and mouths wide open and not looking at each other, then giggle. Let's be patient with each other while we learn those spots on each others bodies and then exploit them. Let's look at each other across the room at a party and know it's time to go home. Let's notice a new wrinkle somewhere on each other's faces. Let's call the each other on our bullshit. Let's eat healthy and exercise so we can enjoy life. Let's be charm

This Is A Poem/song I Wrote And Forgot About But Found It Today, Here It Is...
will i pass or will i fall the question that fills us all could we be wrong will i listen or will i speak the suggestion that we seem to keep could i be wrong and now we listen to the call of love is this and I am all lurking somewhere in the past i find the promises that couldn't last but i wasn't wrong and we are so strong and we are so wrong, yet we fight our way back to the day when things were as we say was it june or december these little details i can't remember could i be wrong so will i act or will i fail the impulse that i can't seem to quail will i be wrong and looking back to the days of hearts of bliss, now they're away prevailing in this gusting wind i see the things that might have been how i was wrong and we are so strong and we are so wrong this can't break me this can't break me now things are falling back to me right back where they should be this happy ending finally sequentially, happy...

All The Psychopathis Records' "beefs" And How They Started
Esham vs. D-12 Eminem is a very controversial rapper. It seems as if half of the rap industry loves Eminem, half of the rap industry would love to get five minutes alone with the young white rapper. Psychopathic Records makes up a large portion of the half that cannot stand the rapper. However, of all the feud's between Psychopathic and Eminem, Esham seems to have the most intense die-hard hatred for him. Esham was the biggest name to come out of Detroit. Any rap artists you know who came out of Detroit was in some way influenced by Esham. That includes ICP, Twiztid, Eminem, and even Kid Rock. Esham had some sort of influence on them, Eminem himself admits that. It is said that in 1997 Proof from D12 was opening a show for rap star Lil' Kim in Detroit. Esham had decided to attend the show and watched on from the crowd. It didn't seem odd at all when the Godfather of the wicked shit was asked to come on stage. The hometown crowd went insane for the UNHOLY one. As Esham picked up a

Tests And Stuff
Disorder Rating Paranoid Disorder: Low Schizoid Disorder: Moderate Schizotypal Disorder: High Antisocial Disorder: Low Borderline Disorder: Low Histrionic Disorder: Low Narcissistic Disorder: Low Avoidant Disorder: Moderate Dependent Disorder: Low Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: Low -- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! ---- Personality Disorders -- I took my tests for criminal law, and interpersonal relaationshitps today. i think I did ok on both of them. If I didn't have them both on the same day, I would have done better, but ohwell. I think I did well enough to get an A on each of them. After that, I went to saltlake for my psych

Application To Date My Daughter
if i had a daughter this is what i would give to her first date bedrock Application to date my Daughter Name___________________ Home Address___________ City____________ State or Province____________________ Postal code or zip code______________ Date of birth____________ Iq________________________ Height__________Weight___________ Social insurance number__________ Drivers licence_________________ Boy scouts RanK and Badge__________ _________________________________________________ Do you have one female and male parent?__If not explain why Number of years they have been married:____If less then a year Explain________________ Do You have a van?______ a truck with oversize tires?_____ A waterbed?________________ A pickup with a mattress in the back?____ A condom?__________________ A pornographic collection?_______ DO you have a nose ring,ear ring, or any othe body piecing?___________ A Tattoo?____________ HELPFULL HINT (if you said YES to any of

2 Am Survey
1. What color is the bottom of your tongue?: *Pinkish-purplish color? 2. Do you memorize random facts?: *Yep.. I'm a wealth of useless information. 3. Do you stalk anyone?: *Cubby.. lol *leaves some chocolate covered strawberries on his doorstep* 4. Does anyone stalk you?: * Nope, just my page lol 5. Do you collect dust?: *I don't try to collect it, but it keeps showing up! 6. Have you ever thought of becoming a prostitute?: *If I lived in Nevada I'd seriously consider working at one of the legal brothels. 7. Have you ever played a kazoo?: *Uh huh 8. Have you ever shot someone?: *In his butt.. With a bb gun. 9. How many pairs of underwear do you own?: *More than I need.. I don't wear them, I have no idea why I'm compelled to buy them. 10. Jeans?: *What about them? 11. What ring size are you?: *6-9 12. Belt size?: *Ehh I Have No Clue 13. Have you ever gotten anything amputated?: *Negative 14. Do you have a calendar from 2001 hangi

Beef With Snow Peas
Beef with Snow Peas This quick stir-fry is ready before you know it, so be sure to have your ingredients prepped and waiting once you fire up the wok or skillet. You might try serving the dish over noodles for a change of pace, but rice is a perfect traditional accompaniment. Credit: Helen Chen's Chinese Home Cooking Servings: 3 Ingredients: * 1 pound flank steak, sliced * 2 tablespoons dark soy sauce * 1 tablespoon dry sherry * 1 tablespoon cornstarch * 1 teaspoon sugar * 3 tablespoons corn, peanut or canola oil * 2 unpeeled, 1-by-1/8-inch slices gingerroot * 1/4 pound snow peas, ends snapped off and strings removed * 1 (8-ounce) can sliced water chestnuts (1 scant cup) Directions: Place the beef in a bowl, stir in the soy sauce, sherry, cornstarch and sugar, and mix well. Set aside. Pour the oil into a wok or stir-fry pan and place over high heat. Add the gingerroot and stir around the pan until the oil is hot; the g

To See The Inner You
The first time that I saw you I felt as if I’d known you Perhaps another time or place You make me want to hold you I see the words you’ve never spoken The thoughts you leave behind Traces of a different place And of another time You have a soft and gentle side The one you hide from others The side that should remain unshown Should they ask? Don’t bother It wouldn’t matter, you’d never tell The things you’ve heard and seen The people that you knew before And the time spent in between I long to crawl inside your head When I touch your outer shell To caress you and to care for you And save you from this hell From this cold and dark uncaring world This evil place where we all must live I want to take you from this place And remind you how to give To give your fears to another soul To let them crawl inside That deepest darkest place in you Where your psyche runs to hide I’d like to touch the deepest inner you When I look into your eyes I see som

Page One
In this book, my heart it lies Please don’t tear the pages Tread upon it tenderly It’s been with me for ages. No fortunes you will find within Only thoughts and hopes and dreams Possibly two parables And my inner most schemes I tried to print it clear enough For just a few to read Not him or her or everyone Just those who have a need So, if you hold this in your hands My heart it goes with you And with every page that you may turn with my love it comes to you

The Key
I woke with you on my mind I laid in bed and watched you Wandering, at first it seemed aimlessly Then I saw you were searching I came from the shadows and asked ‘What is it you seek like a thief?’ You turned and smiled, a twinkle in your eye ‘Never a thief, I want you to give it to me willingly’ ‘and I think you keep what I want here’ I looked around at the clutter I keep inside Files, papers, memories, hopes, dreams Nothing shiny or bright in this corner of my mind No baubles, everything was covered in dust Then I saw your hand resting on a tiny box Scarred, ragged, tarnished a homely looking thing But my breath caught in my throat For in that box laid the most valuable treasure I own The key to my heart

What Kind Of Girl Would I Be
I've been thinking. I know that its dangerous, but I did it. And I've come to some well founded conclusions. Allow me to vent, if you will. 1) What kind of girl would I be if I allowed every guy that asked, to see my "family only" folder? Now, I admit, the pics arent nudes, toys included, or something illegal. They are however mine. I have my reasons for locking that door and I'll open it when I see fit. Dont like it? Tough. 2) What kind of girl would I be if I agreed to meet every guy that asked, at a motel, paid the bill and stayed the night alone after he left? I have higher standards for myself than that. If it was your daughter doing it, you wouldnt let her sell her self short. Why ask me to? 3)What kind of girl would I be if I treated a man with the level of care and consideration some guys have shown me? If I did that, would you want to take me home to your mother, or just take me to your home? If I was this kind of girl, would I be the one you'd wanna take home to

Am I Not Alone
i awoke this morning to an empty silence. no one there but me and yet i know i'm not alone. i turned and saw her next to me sleeping so peacefully. and yet my heart feels so all alone loneliness abounds from within me. my eyes no longer see the love i once held so dearly. what has changed or disappeared or is it just me. so i am alone - alone...

Wow Im Seeing So Many Women Lookin For Studs And Money
WOW IM SEEING SO MANY WOMEN LOOKIN FOR STUDS AND MONEY WOW AMAZES ME,I SEEING ALOT IF U DONT HAVE PREFECT ABS THEY WONT TALK TO YA,OR WHAT KIND OF CAR OR HOUSE U HAVE SEEMS IF U DONT HAVE A VETTE OR SOME MILLION DOLLAR HOUSE ITS A NO GO,OR IF U SAY HI TO SOME ONE THEY THINK YOUR STALKIN THEM LOL OR WHY U TALKIN TO ME YOUR NOT A STUD,HERES MY DEAL I NO IM NOT A STUD IM NOT RICH,I JUST SAY HI TO SEE HOWS THINGS ARE GOING ,NEVER DO I TRY TO PESTER PEOPLE,I DONT WANNA COMPETE CAUSE SO AND SO HAVE THIS AND U DONT THATS HIGH SCHOOL STUFF,TOM UCH COMPETION FOR 1 EVERYBODY WANTS PRFECT,HERES MY DEAL IM NOT AFTER TO TAKE ANYBODY AWAY FROM ANYBODY,IM NOT OUT TO PLAY ANY BODY HEARTS OR MIND GAMES,DONT WORRY IM NOT GONNA HAVE A CRUSH ON ANYBODY OR TRY TO MEET YA YOUR SAFE ,I KNOW IM NOT A 10 I NEVER SAID I WAS,U CAN THINK IM FUGLY,FAT,PIECE OF YOU KNOW WHAT, HEY THATS FINE,I KNOW WHO I AM,YOU DONT LIKE ME HEY THATS YOUR PROBLEM GET PAST HOW SOMEBODY LOOKS OR MONEY YOU SEE IM PRETTY COOL GUY JUST M

One Love
every hood repped on this shit so just gimme one mo second to rep it it's that 513 where we riot in these streets fuck that bull shit peace ful sit ins and civil disobedience gimme that brick, my ski mask and we'll take care that get our way show you how we do it down da way it's that city by the river where if you ain't careful end face down in that river it's soo cold on the streets make a somali shiver if ya don't like what your hearin from southwest ohio put your head phones back on and listen to ne-yo cause this is that real one love remix not that radio airplay bullshit

Wal-mart Technology
Subject: FW: Wal-Mart Technology One day, in line at the company cafeteria, Joe says to Mike behind him, "My elbow hurts like hell. I guess I'd better see a doctor." "Listen, you don't have to spend that kind of money," Mike replies. "There's a diagnostic computer down at Wal-Mart. Just give your urine sample and the computer will tell you what's wrong and what to do about it. It takes ten seconds and costs ten dollars. . . a lot cheaper than a doctor." So, Joe deposits a urine sample in a small jar and takes it to Wal-Mart. He deposits ten dollars, and the computer lights up and asks for the urine sample. He pours the sample into the slot and waits. Ten seconds later, the computer ejects a printout: "You have tennis elbow. Soak your arm in warm water and avoid heavy activity. It will improve in two weeks. Thank you for shopping @ Wal-Mart." That evening, while thinking how amazing this new technology was, Joe began wondering if the computer could be fool

Makes You Go Hmmmmmm
EVERY NOW AND AGAIN WE MEET SOMEONE THAT MAKES US GO HMMMMMM....ESPECIALLY THOSE YOU WOULD LOVE TO GET YOUR HANDS ON AND A FEW OTHER THINGS TOO....BUT AS MUCH AS YOU WANT TO TELL THEM OR SHOW THEM, YOU JUST DON'T HAVE THE NERVE...WELL THIS IS ONE TIME I AM NOT GONNA HIDE....THIS IS FOR YOU AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.....KISSES AND LICKS YOU SEXY THANG YOU.....

Yahoo Or Msn
If you have yahoo or msn and want to talk to me on either one i am always on either one so please feel free to add me. My names on both are the same but the @ parts ( yahoo ) tropicana982001@yahoo.com ( msn )tropicana982001@hotmail.com so please add me and tell me your from cherry thanks alot people and cherry friends.

Where Is Jessie~~
A young woman was about to finish her first year of college. Like so many others her age, she considered herself to be a very liberal Democrat, and was very much in favor of "the redistribution of wealth." She was deeply ashamed that her father was a rather staunch Republican, a feeling she openly expressed. Based on the lectures that she had participated in, and the occasional chat with a professor, she felt that her father had for years harbored an evil, selfish desire to keep what he thought should be his. One day she was challenging her father on his opposition to higher taxes on the rich and the addition of more government welfare programs. The self-professed objectivity proclaimed by her professors had to be the truth and she indicated so to her father. He responded by asking how she was doing in school. Taken aback, she answered rather haughtily that she had a 4.0 GPA, and let him know that it was tough to maintain, insisting that she was taking a very

Just Wondering....
so i have alot on my mind...its been a very long day...hell its been a long year already and i have so many thoughts and emotions at the moment that i just really don't know what to do to handle them...so i am writing a blog. the last couple of years have been a struggle for me. dealing with life and all that happens sometimes just gets to be too much. dont get me wrong...i am grateful for all God has given me in my life...and i am not talking material things. I know that this is a blog and people will read what i put down...but i dont care. at this moment i just need to write and get some stuff out of my head..so if you read this maybe you will relate, maybe not. I am not putting this here for comments or bashing...i am putting this here because i have to put it somewhere...please dont come back at me with..."your punctuation sucks or you aren't putting capital letters or you are using slang...i am not in english or language class..and i am intelligent and know how to write...but thi

Who's Bored????
Ok... So... I really want a morph however, there's ONE simple problem... I don't have the software. SOOOO... I was hoping that one of you lovely cherries would be a sweetheart and help me out =) I just want my face turned into a pink flower... I have everything for it. If you're interested.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEE Let me know!! Thanks everyone!! ~Josh's Biotch~

Draft...don't Judge
black on black, the businessmen are grinning. punching each other with that manly macho-ness we women are supposed to swoon under. sucks that i don't give a fuck. i wanna watch the boy with the mohawk as he's rolling his own smokes.

Make A Birthday Wish Come True For A Dying Child!!!!!!! Please Read!!!!!
125,000+ Birthday Cards Received! 33 Days until Shane's Birthday Add Glitter to your Photos Shane Bernier is a courageous seven-year-old boy from Lancaster, Ontario who was diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia when he was only five. On June 6th, 2006 Shane and his family received some unfortunate news: Shane experienced a relapse after completing 108 of 130 weeks of treatment. However, despite the bad news, Shane has managed to keep a positive outlook on his situation and has made a heart-warming wish... He hasn¡¯t asked for money or toys or anything of the sort. Instead, his birthday is on May 30th and he would like to break the world record for the most birthday cards ever received. His goal is 350 million cards. With every card, Shane¡¯s courage grows. Something as simple as sending a birthday card could be enough to help Shane find peace and joy in his current circumstances. Please take the time to send a card to Shane and make his dream become

Art Contest Still On
Well, I said I wasn't gonna post one of these again. And here I am. Wanted to let you know that the art contest is still going. Right now, I'm way behind...not even placing. I haven't seen to many familiar faces coming in to leave comments...or not near what I have on my friends, family and fan list. Anyway..just click the picture if you can spare a few comments. Thanks

Warning To All Pet Owners!!!!!
My puppy just died today because of kidney failure and the cause was from food that we bought her in a can. The food was supposed to be cleaned off the store shelves but not all of it has been removed. My baby girl was my whole life. She was my little princess. This is a slow death for them and although it takes them a while to die, they will die painfully. The last 3 days of my puppys life was pure pain and hell. I thought she had Parvo but I was wrong. A Veterinarian confirmed "Kidney Failure". We fed her Ol' Roy in a can. PLEASE GO TO THE FOLLOWING WEBSITE IF YOU ARE A PET OWNER AND CAREFULLY GO OVER THIS LIST. WE DID BEFORE ...THIS BUT THEY UPDATE IT AND WE DID NOT KNOW THIS. SO PLEASE BOOKMARK IT AND VISIT IT OFTEN IF YOU LOVE YOUR PETS. BOOKMARKING A WEBPAGE AND VISITING IT OFTEN IS A SMALL PRICE TO PAY COMPARED TO WHAT I JUST WATCHED MT DOG GO THROUGH. SHE DIED IN MY ARMS TODAY. AND THERES NOTHING THAT CAN BE DONE BECAUSE ITS A POISON!!!! SURE YOU CAN TRY TO OPEN A LAWSUIT BUT I

!yay!congrats!yay!
HEY ALL!! I have the AWESOME friend she is like a sister to me and one of the best friends that i have had in a long time.. This awesome friends name is Terin although i havent met her in person yet.. she and i have alot in common she's 20 lives in MD she's funny nice caring sweet a great friend and i can tell her anything.. we act so much alike and talk so much alike it's like we're sisters.. So i joke and say shes my unofficial adopted sister..and she agrees lol Well we tell eachother everything and talk almost every day! She is just an overal AWESOMELY GREAT person. she is so fun to talk to.. (Terin and Me: a Pixi and an Angel) Recently(very) Her boyfriend Bobby asked her to marry him.. I'm so happy for them! Of course i will make it no matter what to her wedding(when that will be in the future)and i hope me and her stay friends for a very long time! I know shes super excited about the engagement and her family and friends(me included) think they are great for each

Fuck These Thugs
i'm tired of lame ass white boys claimin they thuggin shit but sit wit me lemme explain some shit just cause you got ya white tee hangin down to ya knees don't mean shit on these nati streets cause we'll pull up quick unload the shit laying you on the side of the street makin ya whole family weep sittin in the corner of ya funeral knowin that i'm the who put you deep cause ya'll know how we roll bout 50 peeps deep when i'm jettin from the nyc all the way to the 513 then down to the h town to visit some family then across to the 213 that's what i do, that's where i been fuck these thugs thinkin they got some money to spend i work 7 days a week, 9-5 that's my life that's all i know come home fuck a hoe then roll back out smoke that shit until i pass out

"intense"
“INTENSE” I sit in the quietness of the night listening to the winds whispers and within the most stillness of silence I sometimes hear the voice of a spiritual guidance offering direction towards the path of life that will allow my deafened soul to hear again. Longing for the day to awaken and find the balance of complacency within myself like two identical twins on a scale, perfectly balanced, knowing they are pure, non corrupted, and there journey has just began. Like the metaphoric disposition that’s symbolic to the twins, I feel that at the turning point in my life I chose to get off life’s treadmill of repetitive emotional pain and hurt I have caused to those I cared for and loved, and now stand tall, awakened from the shameful sleep of alcoholic dreams I once lived. Able to allow my deepest of feelings to feel feelings of unsuppressed emotions, some untapped and many foreign to the heart to understand why such a thought can make the strongest of man drop to his knees

When The Fuck Is It Gonna Get Better?????????
OK FOR SUM OF YHALL KNO IM GOING THROUGH SUM TUFF TIMES RIGHT NOW........I HAVE NO JOB THOUGHT I DID TRAVELING WITH THE CARNIVAL.....BUT NOW THEY SAY THEY DONT NEED ANYONE RIGHT NOW WTF IS THAT SHIT????????I JUST THINK IT IS FUCKED UP ON AVERAGE THEY HAVE 2PPL A WEEK THAT LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK...SO YOU WOULD THINK THEY WOULD WANT PPL THAT KNO WUT THEY ARE DOING AND THAT ARE GONNA STAY WITH THE COMPANY RIGHT??????WELL I GUESS THESE GUYS ARE DIFFERENT....IT JUST SEEMS LIKE EVERY DOOR I SWING OPEN IT GETS SLAMED RIGHT BACK IN MY FACE IT IS FUCKING BULLSHIT...PLUS TO ADD TO THAT ON MY SHOULDERS I NEED A JOB HERE WITHIN A FEW WEEKS OR MY ASS GOES TO JAIL FOR 3-12 MONTHS YEA LOADS OF FUN RIGHT? PROLLY NOT IT IS VERY FUCKING STRESSFUL....NOT TO MENTION THE FACT THAT THE ONE I LOVE LIVES SO DAMM FAR AWAY AND CANT BE WITH HER RIGHT NOW YEA YHALL GUESSD IT ITS EATING ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT RIGHT NOW.....I PUT THAT MASK ON EVERYDAY AND MAKE IT LOOK LIKE EVERYTHING IS ALL FINE AND DANDY BUT YE

My Sweet Baby Girl And I Need Ya'lls Help
Well she isn't a baby anymore but always be my baby.She is 3 but the contest owner mistakenly put her n the age 4 to 8 group.let her know but haven't heard back but if she moves her every vote comment better count Anyway plz vote and bomb away would love to see my lil girl win click this link thank you!

Spent And Blessed
I feel like I’ve died So many times it’s old Like nothing here is real Just penniless and cold And everybody follows you But no one really knows… And you’re scared For what to do All there is just pain Lover’s won’t take hold Your senses sting to bother you The question only grows… To permanently sleep And the hate That fills your soul Put everything inside of you In hopes that it will go Then everybody looks at you Like you’re an empty hole… But the dreams Are what you feel Nothing that you’ve tried Compares to how they heal A better world round the bend Escaping the lot here… To permanently sleep Where everything is real

Tell Me About Yourself - The Survey
Name: PRINCES P. APARENTADO Birthday: october 30, 1987 Birthplace: lucena city Current Location: lucena city, quezon, ph Eye Color: black Hair Color: black Height: 5'3 Right Handed or Left Handed: left handed Your Heritage: filipino The Shoes You Wore Today: ..... Your Weakness: many Your Fears: frogs, snakes, worms, roaches, losing all the love of my life Your Perfect Pizza: lots of toppings Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to graduate Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "hi" Thoughts First Waking Up: noisiness Your Best Physical Feature: ...... Your Bedtime: anytime Your Most Missed Memory: so many Pepsi or Coke: either MacDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds Single or Group Dates: group dates Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: either Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate Cappuccino or Coffee: coffe Do you Smoke: yes Do you Swear: sometime Do you Sing: yes but it hates me Do you Shower Daily: yes Have you Been in Love: many time Do you want to go t

Determination And Caution..fun,,,,,!
I Get Up Every Morning Determined to Both Change the World and Have One Hell of a Good Time. Sometimes This Makes Planning My Day Difficult. I Just Tread Lightly! Don't think there are no crocodiles because the water is calm. Watch Your Back and Have a Great Time...! Life is Short Play Hard...!

Lost Love
My love for you is so passionate and true I wish I could prove this to you I will climb the highest mountain to touch the sky And bring down that rainbow so high in the sky. Oh if I could prove to you that my love is real I'd swim that river oh so wide to prove That you are my joy and pride And my love is so real. But all these things are so impossible for me To do I can't climb a mountain oh so high and Bring down that rainbow from the sky, and no I Can't swim that river that is oh so wide. But to Prove my love is true and I really want to be with you is say I love you and mean it with all my heart!

I Wish..
Longing for affection, I yearn to hear you're voice. I'm sitting here impatiently, waiting to hear your choice. Desperately craving, to see your face again, you don't know this pain, I'm going through or when. Hopelessly wishing, you'll love me now. I can't stop these feelings, I don't know how. Continuously thinking, about what your thinking too. It kills me deep inside, I can't tell you I love you. I'm bare without you near. I thirst to hold you again. I'm scared I never will, what if I don't see you again? I'm aching for the kiss, or that special touch. I thing I've gone insane, from wanting you so much.

A Poem For All Us Girlies!
A poem for all us girlies! I shave my legs, I sit down to pee. And I can justify any shopping spree. Don't go to a barber, but a beauty salon. I can get a massage without getting a hard-on. I can balance the checkbook, I can pump my own gas. Can talk to my friends about the size of my a$$. My beauty's a masterpiece and yes, it takes long. At least I can admit to others when I'm wrong. I don't drive in circles, at any cost. And I don't have a problem admitting I'm lost. I never forget an important date. You just gotta deal with it, I'm usually late. I don't watch movies with lots of gore. Don't need instant replay to remember the score. I won't lose my hair, I won't get jock itch. And just cause I'm assertive, don't call me a bitch! Don't say to your friends, Oh yeah, I can get her. In your dreams, my dear, cause I can do better! Flowers are okay, But jewelry's best. Look at me you idiot... Not at my chest !!! I

Do U Get Whats Going Threw My Head
look they have plenty of people you hear about in school and threw out life that were called great but do all these people know what the fuck they were talking about. like for instance if there is a god then why the fuck do all these bad things happen, have you ever heard the term it is better to have loved and lost then to never loved at all what the fuck he must have never loved, have you ever heard of no pain no gain that all depends on how much pain your body can handle so how much is to much, some people like pain it makes them feel better, and whyare people scared to die what the fuck does any one know what really happens when you die, you know there is a lot of shit people say and do but who is to say it should be in our history, taught to our children, or even to be said to be right or wrong, no matter what we do someone is always trying to control us. does anyone get any of this shit

~evil Eyes~
I see it in your evil eyes. Their serpent slits so deep. I feel thje shudder in my bones... From the secrets that they keep. And as they stare down on me, The dominance that they vie... Sends a shiver down my bones And makes me want to die. They tell a tale of insolence. Of a destinied thats denied. Of a soul that's crucified. Of lifes and loves dispised. I see it in your evil eyes. I want to look away. I see it in your evil eyes... Where evil falls to play.

Cum On Tell Me Or You To Chicken Too?
There is at least one person on your Cherry TAP list that wants to fuck the hell out of you. So lets play the Fuck or Pass! game. The rules are simple... if you want to fuck the person who posts this, send them a message saying "Yep, I'd Fuck you." SCARED? lol this SHIT's funny

Me Against The World
whats the deal, i work, i play, and now one cares, i try to do things but the world won't let me, i push, claw, fight, kick and punch, to get to the top and the mountain and all the obsticals just keep getting bigger, everyone wants to be there but never are, why did life become so hard, once i grew everything hit, why not over time but all at once, what is it, am i not liked, did i do wrong, i know i made it this way but why wasn't i stopped, did anyone care were i was going, or did they jsut wnat to watch the show, so tell me why are you all against me, when i think you got my back you look away take a step back and then watch the show, if i was perfect would you like me am i really that bad of a person, do i push you away, or are you scared to tell me i want to know, i need to know, i have to know

Day Back
we won again ^_^ yay for us! we beat mclean 8 to 4 and i hear there may be a tournie soon (field, mclean, wilson and a mystery school) which is good cuz we NEED one. we did one last yr and got our asses kicked but it'd be kickass to do one this year. i feel sorta better...i'm really hopin this aint mono!! it switched sides too. it was my left gland that hurt and now it's my right. i guess i'll get over it or i'll make it worse when i go runnin this weekend. fuckin A!! i have to be at school tomorrow (we have a day off) AND sunday!! how much does that suck?! cept i guess i'm glad i'm not a lead...forrest has to be there for 8 and a half hours! but still...i still have to write my 4 pg essay for english or my grade dies. my teacher helped me some today thankfully. i went shoppin for a few hours ^_^ i found some HIM flip flops that i'll prolly bring to beach week. i cant wait! beachybeachy fun! seniors have 3 weeks of school left!! yay! i still have to buy a white

True Love
now i lay down to sleep, just hoping u wuz here, its hard to sleep witout u near.. i miss ur touch, i miss the way u laugh, i miss the way u make me feel..i don't like feeling like this is the end.. we been thru so much, we had of bad times, but we have had our goodtimes..u are the one, i just never showed it..thats y i married u, thats y i have forgave u all these times, i can't ask u to forgive me, but i never meant to hurt u, i never wante to loose u..u are my family now... me and u, and our son jakob..thats my world. without u, i am imcomplete..i feel lost, lonely, i feel so outta place..i never had this feeling cuz i knew u would be here, but now knowning that i might have lost u, its painful..its hurts more than words can say..nothing in this world compares to u..and wat u bring to the family..thsi is true love, not being able to go without sumone, feeling like ur heart has been riped out, whenur gone..u feel usless.. well i do love u, and even though u prolly well neer read

I Am "deadly Sin"
Your Deadly Sins Lust: 100% Pride: 100% Wrath: 100% Gluttony: 80% Greed: 80% Sloth: 40% Envy: 20% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 74% You'll die from overexertion. *wink* How Sinful Are You? hehehehe.. so true... so very true... -purrrrr-

Cancun
The wife and I are leaving for Cancun tomorrow. We're driving to Georgia first to leave the doggies with her sister, then we're flying out of Atlanta Saturday morning for Cancun. We leave Cancun the following Saturday, and we'll be back home on Sunday. I hope y'all have a great week!

Y Is It
every night i lay down to go to sleep things run threw my head till finally the walls start cloing in and i fall into a slumber, why is it it only at night the things you don't worry about during the day just pour into your head to fuck with you, why is it that when you think your all good your not, why is it that no matter what i do i can not kepp the toughts out, why is it if something doesn't happen soon the voices will take over, how do you stop them, why are they there, why wont they leave, tell me, tell me whats wrong with me, tell me the truth, why is it every time i crack open a beer the thoughts come back, why is it when ever i'm not busy the thought are there, why is it some are cursed and others aren't, why is it, why is it, that evry chance to do something something else comes along and fucks it up, why is it that all the trust i have ever had has ran off and i can't find it, why is it that what i want i can't have, why is it when you have a picnic it always rains, why is

How Could??
The 2 people who loved and wanted us as their own.....deserve only the best ,when they have given us the BEST of everything in Life.They taught us to love and be loved..taught us RESPECT & to treat others how we'd like to be treated. Yet..you don't have a clue what the word respect IS. You're ignorant to little old ladies..abusive to people who love you. WHY????? You make it SO hard to love you...when you treat us ALL like shit.We have done so much for you,wanting only respect in return.You do things for others only when it will benefit you.Why does it only matter how you feel?? The world has treated you badly??? No..You are responsible for YOU.Your life IS what YOU have made it. Out of greed. You Always said "The person who dies w/ the most toys wins"...The toys you have don't even belong to you.They may be in your possesion.Have they made you 'happy" ? Now our parents' will die with nothing..because they are losing everything they have worked hard for. I wish I could undo you

Europe, Thy Name Is Cowardice.
A GERMAN EDITORIAL If any of you still feel that this war on terror is a mistake, here is an opinion from an unexpected source. It's fascinating that this should come out of Europe . Mathias Dapfner, Chief Executive of the huge German publisher Axel Springer AG, has written a blistering attack in DIE WELT, Germany 's largest daily paper, against the timid reaction of Europe in the face of the Islamic threat. This is a must-read by all American's. History may well certify its correctness. EUROPE - THY NAME IS COWARDICE (Commentary by Mathias Dapfner CEO, Axel Springer, AG) A few days ago Henry Broder wrote in Welt am Sonntag, " Europe - your family name is appeasement." It's a phrase you can't get out of your head because it's so terribly true. Appeasement cost millions of Jews and non-Jews their lives, as England and France, allies at the time, negotiated and hesitated too long before they noticed that Hitler had to be fought, not bound to toot

Warnings
In Honor of Stupid People . . . In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed through stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods. On a Sears hairdryer -- Do not use while sleeping. (That's the only time I have to work on my hair.) On a bag of Fritos -- You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside. (the shoplifter special?) On a bar of Dial soap -- "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be???....) On some Swanson frozen dinners -- "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's just a suggestion.) On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom) -- "Do not turn upside down." (well...duh, a bit late, huh!) On Marks &Spencer Bread Pudding -- "Product will be hot after heating." (and you thought?...) On packaging for a Rowenta iron -- "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldn't this save me time?) On Boot's Children Cough Medicine -- "Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking t

Stupid Hoes
well people like I said earlier are stupid.... FUCKIN stupid.. its pretty sad that I am fighting about a pizza.. but I am sure that no one gives a shit about that..... anyways, I am tired of people being so FAKE... why? whats the point? I hate stupid ass skinny bitches who just wanna interfere with shit.. namely his ex.. why would you invite someone over that u used to fuck and not even tell me>? maybe I really have no reason to be mad.. I dunno... I am confused about everything... and its my own fault... I am in a new job.... I am going to school... I am trying to satisfy people.. my family and everyone else around me... this shit is hard.. I have epilepsy..seizures... and I cannot afford my meds right now... I HAVE NO INSURANCE... when I was still married the military insurance was GREAT.... but now... nothing... the more stress I have been under the more seizures I have been having... it fucking sucks.. I cannot even go to work or to the mailbox with out wondering wha

Brotherhood
like lost brothers, one in our souls forever in our hearts, this promise we'll hold for me to watch your head and you to watch mine our blood will never be shed by liquer or wine our day is upon us, and togeather we stand like two tierd soldiures who go hand in hand my last wish is to hurt you, and you know this too well for i'd give you heaven, even if for me it meant hell we'll take up our arms and fight for the truth they can only take our arms, they cant take our youth so live for the day my son, and do live it well for i'd give you heaven, even if for me it meant hell

Reflective
I Studied Psychology and Law and Language in School..I Love Change..Change has a Considerable Psychological Impact on the Human Mind. To the fearful it is Threatening because it Means that Things May Get Worse. To the Hopeful it is Encouraging because Things May get Better. To the Confident it is Inspiring because the Challenge Exists to Make Things Better. Real, constructive mental power lies in the creative thought that shapes your destiny, and your hour-by-hour mental conduct produces power for change in your life. Develop a train of thought on which to ride. The nobility of your life as well as your happiness depends upon the direction in which that train of thought is going. Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they chang

We Still Don't Have A Title.
You know what? Do you? It's almost like everything is in sight. Except the espresso machine. And even then... I'm not as sure as I used to be, about wanting it. It's all coming together. Right after it fell apart. Right after I fell apart. For the hundredth time. You say you're broke... And when I really think about it. I say I'm shattered. And I was never really all that preoccupied with picking up the pieces. It's just not as much fun with no one to talk to. And then ... one day. I made sense again. I think it's because deep down I made sense of us. It was a pretty cool moment. Like dropping a box of toothpicks. And one is left standing up on it's own. Yeah. That was it. Now come to bed. You'll mow the lawn. I'll do the dishes. I'll be the number onest dad ever. Not that I want to rush into that sort of thing... As I lay here in this imaginary hammock... in a hazey place becoming more real each day. For once Not dieing

You Will Not Be Forgotten..
This man is truely amazing.. he had a big dedication to his family.. which i loved about him.. he loves his friends to the fullest.. Always was there to help when he can. it is said that this amazing person is leaving the states and going away.. when i will see this person again i dont know..he is military so wherever they transplant him next..I am hurt but i can not be selfish.. he just meant alot to me, he was there when i needed it and never once did he give up on me..friendship always grows stronger.. luv ya jaymac.. ill miss you.. Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Trees And Celtic Astrology
What tree did you fall from? Find your birthday and then find your tree... This is in line with Celtic astrology. Dec 23 to Dec 31 - Apple Tree Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree Mar 21 - Oak Tree Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree Jun 24 - Birch Tree Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping WillowTree Sep 13 to Sep

"a Special Life"
You must be on my friends list on myspace to view. “A Special Life” - My True Life Story. “Jenna self injured again when Danielle died, but Mark kept her from doing it after the rape. Instead she talked with Brandon online and avoided the subject. Jenna wasn't sure she would make it; Pa-Pa, Aunt Mandy, Baby Johnny, Brenda, Sabrina, and now Danielle, on top of the heartache she still felt from Derek. She just wasn't sure she could handle anymore, but she tried to go on. "Is it ever going to end?" She asked God.”

What If?
what if What if? What if everything you knew was a lie? What if life was planned out for you by some untold element? What if you learned nothing what would you think? What if what you thought was real was not? What if you found out something that you never knew and it slowly eat away at you? What if you knew something that no one else did but you think they do so you never say a word? What if you woke up one day and the whole world was different? What if you were me and i were you? What if you did something that might change the world but you never knew? What if you never knew you fucked up but you did? What if you didn't wake up and slept your entire life? What if you loved someone and never told them and they loved you back? What if something happened to you and no one evr noticed? What if! What if this is the most compleceted question of all time? What if! What if! Just think about it!!!

Mission & Why I Am Mad As Hell...
My fiances grandfather went back to the hospital today! The reasons being that he was not going to the bathroom at all, would not wake up, and was not coherent and had trouble breathing. He has a pacemaker! Over the past month he has been in and out of the hospital several times. They have him on 18 medications. Tonight his urine sample had pieces of his kidneys in his urine, otherwise kidney cells....this above is the current scenario. They are not expecting him to make it!!! Ok, so lets backtrack to the last time he was in the hospital. What medication did they give him that he was not currently taking? The answer..MORPHINE!! Yes, they sent a HEART PATIENT HOME ON MORPHINE!! When he came home, before his first dosage..he was having episodes of having trouble breathing, but was still breathing, talking and coherent. After he started taking the morphine....well lets just say he was no longer coherent and no longer responsive, did not want to wake up, go to the bathroom at all! Stil

Peace Of Mind
Ooooo oooooo Peace of mind, Peace of mind [chorus] We want peace whoa We want a peace of mind It's times like this I wanna leave the world behind We want peace whoa We want a peace of mind I wanna take a little piece of my herb and get this whole world high. [Richter] Some body please explain Cause all we want is to be treated the same Just live in peace with peace of mind Enjoy the earth, this life and my kind (my kind) Right now it's time to celabrate Relax, Kick back put your feet up forget to hate. [chorus] [Daddy X] Is it me or has this world gone crazy Last chance, Last dance force maybe Bombs are droppin body's poppin like the last days Now I finally understand how crime pays Its the plan that's designed through corruption Total domination, mass destruction Or mass distraction you do the math When 1+1 don't equal 3 no It's like a sickness that they don't want the cure for Apocalyptic and only been sured for It's like we're doomed and were head

~~where Is Peta When You Need Them~~
DO ELEPHANTS REALLY HAVE MEMORIES? AN INTERESTING STORY! I don't usually like these heartwarming stories, but this one is truly interesting... In 1986, Mkele Mbembe was on holiday in Kenya after graduating from Northwestern University. On a hike through the bush, he came across a young bull elephant standing with one leg raised in the air. The elephant seemed distressed, so Mbembe approached it very carefully. He got down on one knee and inspected the elephant's foot and found a large piece of wood deeply embedded in it. As carefully and as gently as he could, Mbembe worked the wood out with his hunting knife, after which the elephant gingerly put down its foot. The elephant turned to face the man, and with a rather curious look on its face, stared at him for several tense moments. Mbembe stood frozen, thinking of nothing else but being trampled. Eventually the elephant trumpeted loudly, turned, and walked away. Mbembe n

Scenes From The Coffeehouse #5
the voices meld together, stifling my thoughts. thought i saw you in the window, craning your neck to see me. but i was mistaken. just some random fuck that lines the streets down here. grounds stick to teeth enamel, animated conversations at the next table over, and i can't seem to tear myself from what's in front of me. i make myself sick. the lights burn my eyes, i'd much prefer to watch the ground, never making contact with another human.

I Am Only Me
I am only me, that is all that I can be No more, no less, don't second guess I love, I laugh, I live and cry, I've wished at times, that I could die Some days I'm funny, others I'm not, sometimes I'm in overdrive and can't stop I am a loyal and honest friend, You know that I'll be there until the end I am a mother, my children my greatest gift, The smiles on their faces always give me a lift I am a romantic, sensual, sexual, and passionate too, to the love of my life, I'll share this with you I can be sweet and shy or sassy and bold, I'm quite a handful, or so I've been told I am not perfect, I do have my faults, like when I get scared I put up high walls Or I'm not as forgiving, as I'd sometimes like to be, because when I hurt, I hurt deeply My logic is all my own, at times misunderstood, because I don't always do things for my own good I have many facets, like a diamond you see... I am only me."

Goals...
Alright I guess I will start this list of goals that could be adjusted as I think of more or more details to them... Career wise...Currently been working on making management in the Fast Food industry but that is not something that is really the love of my life. So..the love of my life is Weather Forecasting...So goal # 1 is to get some schooling behind me to land a job in the career that I love! Better House/Apartment...Currently renting and the price is not that bad..$575 for a 3 bedroom but ..renting ya never get anywhere so goal #2 is to own a house... Another goal..career wise..weather forecasting is the love of my life and that I want to achieve, but no matter how good it pays...i realize that one can never get truly ahead of themselves less they are in business for themselves..So thats goal #3 to find a home based business and make it successful! Another goal is to truly love and appreciate all those that come in contact with me on a daily basis ( I do this now) but I

What Elemen Is Your Love?
Your Love Element Is Fire In love, you are a true listener and totally present. For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt. You attract others with your joy and passion. Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate. Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life. And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal. You connect best with: Wood Avoid: Water You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly What Element Is Your Love? hmm.. interesting..

Some Funny Shit....lol
1) What's the difference between a bitch and a whore? > > A whore sleeps with everybody at the party; A bitch > > sleeps with everybody at the party except you. > ____________________________________________ > > 2) What's the difference between love, true love, and > showing off? > > Spitting, swallowing, and gargling. > > ________________________ > > 3) What's the difference between a Catholic wife and a > Jewish wife? > > A Catholic wife has real orgasms and fake jewelry. > ____________________________________________ > > > 4) What makes men chase women they have no intention > of marrying? > > The same urge that makes dogs chase cars they have > no intention of driving. > ____________________________________________ > > > 5) What is the biggest problem for an atheist? > > No one to talk to during orgasm. > ____________________________________________ > > > 6) What do you call an Amish guy with his hand up a > horse's ass? > > A mechanic. > ____

Be Kind To Your Server
I work as a waitress, and I just want to let everybody know this..... please be kind to you server, when they approch you please dont ignore them. Or even worse.... PLEASE DONT PLACE YOUR CHEWED GUM ON YOUR PLATES OR IN THE ASH TRAYS. Sorry I guess i just had a bad night. But it is getting better already, Im at home and getting ready for beddy bye.... Have a great night everyone and thanks for letting me get that off my chest

On My Mind
well this is whats in my head i dont know much anymore cuz i figure everytinme i learn something there is something else to be learned, and its like u think u know someone but u really dont what the hell y do people change so much, i just wanted to make my 1st blg on here but i dont want to get to deep on anyone who will read this not for my first one lol

Soo.. I Got Attacked By A Squirrel!!
soooo there i was walking over to wyatts house.. i saw a nut on the ground and i decided i would pick it up and play with it.. well i guess that was a bad idea.. because out of fucking no where.. tis fucking squirrel jumps on me and fucking attacks me!!!!!!!! it was like scrat off of Ice Age .. i sware to god.. then after i ran half a block with a squirrel attacking me.. i got it off of me and i still had the nut in my hand.. and it fucking chased me!!!!! for another half a block.. i sware.. i am like scard for life!!!! hahaha TRUE FUCKING STORY!!!! just happened like 7 hours ago!!

A Father's Story
So often we hear of what the mother goes through when parents split. Too often the father is labled a deadbeat loser. Or worthless because he has issues spending time with the kids. So hear is my story. Warning, if you are a feminist or a 'know-it-all' that doesn't have a scrotum and been there, you really will not understand. I'm a father of four. With three different mothers, infer what you will from that...be that I'm easy, sleep around...or door #3 I make piss-poor choices in women. I was blessed with 4 boys. 11,7,3 & 2. At least I don't have to worry about dating as much as I would have to if I had a daughter...sexist...maybe. When father lose their kids....for whateer reason they lose a part of themselves. For men, who are used to being in control, either in their own lives or in relationships, something like this can be as deadly as a bullet. Kids, especially sons are a very serious part of a Father's life. They represent a chance....a chance to correct mistakes made (e

You Win At Life
You've Experienced 64% of Life You have all of the life experience that most adults will ever get. And unless you're already in your 40s, you're probably wise beyond your years. How Much Life Experience Do You Have?

Just Something I Wrote When The Sky Fell Down
Silence echoes Throughout the house Everything is quiet In this big old house Thoughts of you Spin round my head Which has become All but dead All is silent In the land of nevermore All is quiet In the land of nevermore Nevermore will I feel your touch That I long for so much Nevermore will I feel your kiss That has brought me so much bliss Nevermore will the sky feel so bright Or the moon dispel the darkest night Nevermore will I hear your cry As passion colors the sky Nevermore will I stare into your eyes Remembering them I have to stifle the cries Nevermore will I run my hands through your hair Nevermore will I be able to show you care As the night falls Darker in the land of nevermore Thoughts turn dark and bleak Hope is extinguished The light grows weak Nevermore will my heart be broken Nevermore will my soul be flayed Nevermore will my will be stifled N

Why I Could Never Be A Good Lesbian
Quite simply, I've tried licking pussy and I just didn't like it. Women, with their genitals being mostly inverted, have this dark and eerie quality to them when your head is down below. Somewhere in the middle of my one and only cunnilingus expedition I began to feel like the spelunkers from the movie The Descent. I kept expecting blind albino monsters to come crawling out from the depths of her pussy. My lesbian friends informed me that I simply chose the wrong woman with which to initiate my feminine oral adventures, but I must beg to differ. My love for the breast will go on unabated, my eventual appreciation for anyone's pussy other than my own will not. I like the things in my life to be upfront and quite frankly, there's nothing more upfront than my sexual organ of choice, the cock. Discussion of the Day: I suppose this could best be handled by my heterosexual male and lesbian readers, but what the fuck is so appealing about licking pussy? How the hell do you go thro

Girlish/boyish
You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. How Boyish or Girlish Are You? well.. Thats accurate! O.o

Does Anyone Know??
I'm curious...does anyone out there really know the differences between the Scotish and the Irish?They sound so much alike and they have so many other things in common....are they related in someway at all...they are very close together geographically....any clue as to how to cultures so very close in distance and many other ways are very separate???I would love to know!!

Sixtyfoureast @ Main Street Pub In Robinson!! Sat!
Hosted By: SixtyFourEast When: Saturday Apr 28, 2007 at 8:45 PMWhere: Main Street Pub122 E Main StreetRobinson, IL 62454United StatesDescription:SixtyFourEast Click Here To View Event

I Wish You Were Here!!!
lips so soft and warm; hands so strong yet soft. heart speaks louder than words; mind swarms of thoughts of the next talk,the next thought, the next orgasm! longing to feel or hear his voice; longing to just know or see he is there. to know each others thoughts; to feel each others feels. to long for something so far away; yet to know that very minute you see him, or hear him,your heart feels like exploding!! your hands shake;your palms begin to sweat, your nerves jump all over!!! to know you long to hear them one last time, feel them one last time!!! see them one last time;to feel empty with out them,but full when they are there!!! i love you baby and miss you so much!!!!

Ma B-day
Ok so my birthdays coming up in on like May 15th. And I'm really hoping to get a second bridge, a septum piercing and another lip piercing. That's all I really want. Hair extensions too but the piercings more. I remember When I got my lip done I was practically cumming.. LOL Getting piercings gets me off like no other! :) . And thinking about getting another makes me feel the same way. After I did it I was laying on the couch on this intense high. dang I gotta go. Lataaaaass

Coming Together
For those who have been following my drama I thought Id take a moment to update y'all. On Easter I got the blessing of my oldest child. My wife agreed to let her live with me. So finally I feel a little better about things. My life as I knew it with my wife are over but it is good that she seems to want things peaceful as I do. I dont want to go through all the drama. I think she knows that I am the type to take care of things as a man should and not play any games. There is nothing in life I love more than my family. And for the last couple of weeks my daughter and I have been sharing some great times together. Its going to be an expereince for me but all the sacrafice I have to make is worth it to be able to share time with my daughter. Life is good. I can hold by baby again.

Boredom
Listening to Lords of acid, should be sleeping but can't. Been studying and such... Mostly stopped being vegetarian after 3 years. Feel like I have to pray though before I eat a chicken or a pig. No beef ewwww! :) Have a happy night!

My Ct Wife
If u all havnt heard, i am now married to the most amazing woman, not only on ct but in the world, and i cant think of a better way to tell her that i am madly in love with her... i dont know how it is possible to fall in love with someone u never met face to face, but i have. there is nothing i wouldnt do for her and i miss her every second that i am not talking to her, and i want her and everyone else to know that i will never hurt her, and i want to spend the rest of my life with her. ♥♥♥I LOVE YOU KAT ♥♥♥

Stuck Up People On Ct
why are people on here so stuck up when you say hi to them they dont even reply back to you. that is so rude you try to be nice to them. but they dont even say nothing to you like kiss my a_ _ or nothing. you try to be friendly to them but you dont know what to say after you say hi to them. so why be on here if you cant say hi back.

How To Ride The Trains
For those of you asking: 1.Go to The Cherry Train 2.Choose a train 3. Enter your CherryTap ID. (This is the number of your profile like mine for instance www.cherrytap.com/user/233) 4. Enter your name. Hints: When adding your name put F or M to let other cherrie know who you are! Have fun and add me!! Vlad

Do You Need Therapy?
There's a 77% Chance That You Need Therapy You almost certainly need therapy. And there's nothing wrong with that. Lately life has not been easy for you. Why not let a therapist help you sort things out? Do You Need Therapy?

Tomorrow Is My Birthday!
Tomorrow is my birthday and I have to work! Talk about a way that you do not want to spend a birthday! Every year I try to just skip over the day cause I guess they are not that special anymore once you grow up LOL..I remember having the biggest parties for me when I was growing up by my parents..thats when I drove my first car (my 5th party) too bad it was not real lol Tomorrow though is going to be the start of starting over. Most people do that on New Years, they make there resolutions and all but how many stick with them? So over the next 24 hours I am going to be making a list of goals that in the next year I want to see and have accomplished and as they are accomplished check them off as a way to keep track. I know now that one goal that I have is to continue to be here for the friends that I have made that do talk (lol) and continue to always be here for that one special person! :)

Behind The Scenes Oregon Shoot
pics of me and the cast behind the scenes of the oregon filming of "doctored meat" a cannibal ruemorgue movie where i play serial killing and future vitcim nurse isis: watching aqua teen on my laptop in the hotel room hope and myself with mount bacherlor in the background quinn, lilly, myself, and hope quinn, lilly, harry, and myself harry and i digging graves... tehee grave digging roller coaster style!

All New Cherry Trains!!!
I know I know I have been slacking! But I have made another fun site for all of us that like to make lots of new friends! NEW CHERRY FRIEND TRAINS Add yourself to the: Fan Me Train Hottie Train Comment Bombers Train Military Train Sexy & Single Train BBW & Lovers Train I love 420 Train I have lots of trains made and lots more to come! Let me know what trains you want! Have fun and collect lots of friends! Cheers, Vlad

Damn Men
I love it when men think they are telling you how they "feel" when really what they are doing is clamming up and not saying anything at all. I love it that they think that we (we being "crazy women") are delving too deep where we shouldn't, when all we are doing is trying to be friends to them. I love it when right in the middle of a conversation, someone just *poof* disappears, you text them and get no response. Well, I wonder what a "crazy woman" is supposed to think that means? Especially if it happens over and over and over again. Hmmmm..... Then said "crazy woman" gets hurt over it, vents on her blog (without naming names, thank you very much) and comes home to find her friend list missing a person. Not only that, but that person has also deleted a few other people, which doesn't really matter, except that one of them is a part of their FAMILY! Um, hello? How mature is that? Did I say anything about not wanting to be friends? No. But obviously, that's what the goal wa

We Are Still Around, Just Not As Often
Hey Fans, Friends & Family: Just wanted to say HI to you all. Let you know we miss being here and talking with you. LIFE gets busy and crazy sometimes as you all know and it seems for us lately, we just get home from work, get all the cooking, cleaning and etc. done each night and then it is time for bed. Where does the time go? As most of you know, I lost my only child to Cancer - and in May (May 8th to be exact) it will be 3 years since he passed. Doesn't seem possible - again, where does time go? Ryan's birthday is in May also and so isn't Mother's Day - so needless to say that these dates have significance to me and well, I don't think anything more needs to be said. If I am more scarce this next month, well, I hope you will understand why. Don't get me wrong - I don't miss Ryan MORE on these particular days/dates, they just are significant dates in my life. EVERY day I miss Ryan... EVERY day I think of Ryan... EVERY day I wish that he was here... EVERY day I s

4/26/05
The end results may not be clearly visible to you right now, but have faith and stay the course. If anyone can turn these odds to a big advantage, that person is you. Just keep moving ahead one step at a time. ---------- Ok...I amd CORNfused!

The Love We Feel
I found this on the web, so it's somewhat dated, but I think it's every bit as true today: The Love we feel. There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you." So we try to communicate the idea in other words. We say 'take care' or 'don't drive too fast' or 'be good.' But really, these are just other ways of saying 'I love you,' 'you are important to me,' 'I care what happens to you,' 'I don't want you to get hurt.' We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted. Therefore, we have

~~toss Away The Fucking Bird Feeder~~
I bought a bird feeder. I hung it on my back porch and filled it with seed. Within a week we had hundreds of birds taking advantage of the continuous flow of free and easily accessible food. But then the birds started building nests in the boards of the patio, above the table, and next to the barbecue. Then came the poop. It was everywhere: on the patio tile, the chairs, the table...everywhere. Then some of the birds turned mean: They would dive bomb me and try to peck me even though I had fed them out of my own pocket. And others birds were boisterous and loud: They sat on the feeder and squawked and screamed at all hours of the day and night and demanded that I fill it when it got low on food. After a while, I couldn't even sit on my own back porch anymore. I took down the bird feeder and in three days the birds were gone. I cleaned up their mess and took down the many nests they had built all over the patio. Soon, the back yard was like it

Official
Well it is Official, This member of the War Hoast is once again proweling about. Unincombered by any relationship. It wasn't my Idea, but it is my life, and I will live it even if I no longer have a single thing to loose. heh heh heh that just means I have more to gain.

My Knight (poem)
You're my man, my mighty king, And I'm the jewel in your crown, You're the sun so hot and bright, I'm your light-rays shining down, You're the sky so vast and blue, And I'm the white clouds in your chest, I'm a river clean and pure, Who in your ocean finds her rest, You're the mountain huge and high, I'm the valley green and wide, You're the body firm and strong, And I'm a rib bone on your side, You're an eagle flying high, I'm your feathers light and brown, You're my man, my king of kings, And I'm the jewel in your crown.

Piggie Bank!!!
Just to let everyone know where I have been!!! My daughter swallowed a penny and got it stuck in her asafagus( excuse the spelling) She had to have endoscopy to remove it! We spent almost 24 hours in the hospital...2 of them to be exact! She is perfectly fine!!! Very scary! And heartbreaking ...But everything is ok now!!! You'd never know anything had happened! but just so no one thinks I forgot them..I was just busy in my real life!!!

Chinese Food?!
I know this is going to be a stupid blog, but ehhh shit happpens. Anywho why is it that I love chinese food so much.... Then later it makes me bloated, my stomach hurt, and then I wish I had never ate it? You would think I would have learned from the first time I ate it! But... I always eventually eat it again and lay in misery!! I always considered myself to be somewhat intelligent. In this matter I feel like a dumb blonde. ( Note: Not all blondes are dumb, so noone gets pissy with me.) I've just got to make myself stop eating chinese food!! :( Anywho carry on... lol xoxoxoxo

Personal Trainers
Why do people pay hundreds of dollars to have a personal trainer? Why not just pay someone to allow you to watch their kids? Then take the child-it has to be avery active child under the age of 5-and go chase the child as he or she gets into things and tries to run into the street or pulls the dogs tail or climbs up and down a flight of stairs. The rule is whatever the child does you have to do. If the child runs around in circles-so do you. If the child climbs a tree ( if you are at a park that has good ones to climb) you climb too. I bring this up becasue I just spent 45 minutes running around with my 4 year old. We ran (which I hate doing) and anytime I wasn't running with him he would stop, turn around, get my hand and pull me along with him. We also climbed up and down the stairs about 20 times. I am sweaty-ugh-but I feel more awake then I did earlier. My muscles are sore but it's a good sore.

Is My Superman Real?
And if he were real He'd love kids as much as I He would be the guy that would have just as much fun playing board games as he would going drinking He'd tell me if I looked good at any point in the day without me wondering if he really noticed or not He would accept my flaws and embrace my differences He's help me change the things I WANT to change about myself and my life He'd let me into his mind without me begging him to open up a little He'd understand that sometimes mommies need an extra hand if available He would love me unconditionally. He would know damn good and well he could never want to be without me. He would know the little things about me and tell me all the little things about himself He would surprise me with cute little romantic gestures for no reason other than to show he cares. He'd be my everything and I'd be his. I want to be married again someday, but I never want to divorce again Where is my true superman?

Untitled
i'm dragging on eggshells, bleeding something fierce. standing on the edge of whatever this is supposed to be. -don't lose yourself in the masses- bring me dead roses, bring me salvation from your heart. in the end, there's nothing more to feel. hoard away everything you thought you could give. it's painless, for what it's worth.

Hey Satan... You Rock..
Therapy? › Hey Satan - You RockWanna spend my whole life drunk, never wanna give a fuckWanna walk through gates of heaven, backstage pass in handSt. Peter, park my car, there's angels on my mindFix me up some manna, where d'ya keep the wine?Venom on the jukeboxPostcards to hell, hey Satan - you rockGet me Mary, she's a foxPostcards to hell, hey Satan - you rockHey Satan - you rockI wanna spend my whole life drunk, never wanna give a fuckWanna storm through gates of heaven, backstage pass in handSt. Peter, park my car, there's angels on my mindTake me through to see the big man, where d'ya keep the wine?Venom on the jukeboxPostcards to hell, hey Satan - you rockGet me Mary, she's a foxPostcards to hell, hey Satan - you rockHey Satan - you rockVenom on the jukeboxPostcards to hell, hey Satan - you rockGet me Mary, she's a foxPostcards to hell, hey Satan - you rockHey Satan - you rock

Syphillis
i took one of those about me quiz thingies and posted it on my profile..i'm bored so..if you actually get thru it i'll umm buy you a gift or something..but ya have to leave me a comment about it i'm being self indulgent..humor me lol love ya bitches :)

Just To Clear It Up...
okay... this is me officially "MENTIONING YOU" in one of my blogs Jake. I LOVE YOU! OK?! *to be honest I kinda thought you woulda read between the lines of my last post, you know- me bein' happy even though everythin' is goin to shit. You tool.* so yes just to clarify... ~I LOVE JAKE aka KID KRONIK~ ~Kitty~ *runs away in embarrassment* HAPPY?!

Black Man Was Talking To A White Man
Black man was talking to a white man and said : I''m black. When I was born I was black. When I grew up I was black. When I'm sick I'm black. When I go in the sun I'm black. When I'm cold I'm black. When I die I'll still be black. But you, When you were born you were pink. When you grew up you were white. When your sick you're green. When you go in the sun you're red. When you're cold you're blue. When you die you'll be purple. And you have the nerve to call me colored

For Someone Who Remains Unnamed
words fall in text... letters upon letters that say nothing, the same black and white, the same pathetic lines. your mouth opens and so does mine, and we both speak but nothing's resolved. hate me for anything love me for nothing... it makes no difference when i've lost the ability to bullshit. i wish for so much and you wish for silence but i won't let you have it.

When God Is Silent
When God is Silent "Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret -- it leads only to evil" Psalm 37:7-8, NIV. John (not his real name) realized that his marriage wasn't all that it could be, but he and Mary were in counseling so John was confident that their marriage would survive and be stronger than ever. Wrong. John was devastated when Mary informed him that she didn't love him and never would. Tragically time proved that she meant it. John said that he always believed with faith in God, hope, persistence, qualified counseling help, and hard work pretty much any problem could be resolved. Wrong again. Eventually John and Mary were divorced after which John experienced an intense "silence of God -- dark night of the soul." So what do you do when you are committed to and trusting God and your world falls apart? As

4-26-07 Astrology
The end results may not be clearly visible to you right now, but have faith and stay the course. If anyone can turn these odds to a big advantage, that person is you. Just keep moving ahead one step at a time.

Do You Ever Wonder What I Mean When I Say I Am Busy??
Well if curiosity is really hounding you, then Please take a few minutes and stop by my Work in Progess.......website for the jewelry and things I make that I am very passionate about!!!!!! Thanks all!!!!!!!! TheLilyzpad.com

Me
People wonder why I am the way I am, well I think I know that answer. I let to many things infulance my feelings. I know that I love my sons father and that I have never really given him a fair chance at seeing if we can make it work. I know that he loves me and is willing to give me what I want now. My heart is hurting right now because that one person who knows me and loves me even with all that I have done to him. I have hurt him in ways that he can't explain and he has hurt me in ways that I can't explain, but in the end we both know that we love each other. We both have issues and we both know how to deal with each other. We can cry with each other, we can laugh together, and we can just sit and do nothing together. I feel safe in his arms. I have never felt safe in anyone elses arms like do when I am in his arms. I know that someone might get hurt in the end and I have a feeling it will be me cause I have mixed feelings. I met a really great guy who makes me feel good, but he is

Patriotism
Have a kleenex handy while reading this! This is so touching..... Last week I was in Atlanta, Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest act's of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camo's, as they began heading to their gate everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal. Just when I thought I could not be m

Stand On The Promise
Standing on the promises of Christ my King, Through eternal ages let His praises ring, Glory in the highest, I will shout and sing, Standing on the promises of God. Standing, standing, Standing on the promises of God my Savior; Standing, standing, Iâ€™m standing on the promises of God. Standing on the promises that cannot fail, When the howling storms of doubt and fear assail, By the living Word of God I shall prevail, Standing on the promises of God. Standing on the promises I now can see Perfect, present cleansing in the blood for me; Standing in the liberty where Christ makes free, Standing on the promises of God. Standing on the promises of Christ the Lord, Bound to Him eternally by loveâ€™s strong cord, Overcoming daily with the Spiritâ€™s sword, Standing on the promises of God. Standing on the promises I cannot fall, Listening every moment to the Spiritâ€™s call Resting in my Savior as my all in all, Standing on the promises of God.

Hi There
hmmmm well my first blog on the cherry network i'm bustin my cherry eh... so much to say so little thoughts to say it in eh lets see here i sometimes feel i'm living and eastern philosophy in a westernized world.... hmmm i'm just a simple man trying to live a simple life in a complex world eh... too many thoughts going on in my head to blog now i'll try later eh

I Never Lost So Much
I NEVER LOST SO MUCH AS WHEN I LOST YOU. ONE DAY YOU WERE HERE AND THERE WERE TWO. YOUR NAME WAS CALLED AND YOU DEPARTED. I THOUGHT OUR LIFE TOGETHER HAD ONLY STARTED. REMEMBERING WHEN WE WERE TWO HEARTS IN LOVE. OUR SOULS TOUCHED WITH GUIDANCE FROM ABOVE. I REMEMBER YOUR TOUCH AND YOUR GENTLE EMBRACE. AND THE SHINING SMILE ALWAYS ON YOUR FACE. YOU CHERISHED ME AND NEVER GREW TIRED. YOU GAVE ME YOUR ALL IN EVERY WAY. I THINK OF YOU AND MISS YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY. WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN SOON. I'LL JUMP OVER THE RAINBOW AND OVER THE MOON. IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD WE WILL FROLIC AND PLAY. WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN SOME WONDERFUL DAY.

A Days Journey
Our undying act of painful ways, Our thoughts and words the same, Our memories and assorted moments, Held captive with an unknown force to blame. You've held the light, I could see. But blindness has a way, Of finding hearts as lovers part, And leads them where it may. Broken is a funny word. But then again pain is too. Return, lost, stolen, and given, So many times anew. Resentful is the word of agony, It never lets you sleep. And is in your mind, heart, and body, As forever you shall keep. Tracing back your familiar walk, like an intoxicating dream, Wondering, fumbling, and juggling, The many steps between. And then there are the moments, The ones we fear the most, Of casual occurrence and accidental meets, The game of who's become the lowest. Analyzing the reasons of, The reason is absurd. Sometimes there is no answer, to your every spoken word. But that's the plan, the idea, That is put into our head, Of something bigger and better, Th

The Hug
No moving parts, no batteries. No monthly payments and no fees; Inflation proof, nontaxable, In fact, it's quite relaxable; It can't be stolen, won't pollute, One size fits all, do not dilute. It uses little energy, But yields results enormously. Relieves your tension and your stress, Invigorate your happiness; Combats depression, makes you beam, And elevates your self esteem! Your circulation it corrects Without unpleasant side effects It is, I think, the perfect drug: May I prescribe, my friend, ... the hug! (and, of course, fully returnable)!

Did You Know That You Are Like A Pencil
Did you know that you are like a pencil? Here's how: Like a pencil, you can correct your mistakes. You can't change the past, but you can rectify it. And though you can't erase history, you can erase guilt and anger with forgiveness. Like a pencil, painful sharpening can serve to make you better. Your difficult times can actually sharpen your skills or shape you into the person you were meant to be. Like a pencil, you can do great things when you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand. Like a pencil, you can leave your mark whenever possible. That is what you're here for -- to leave your mark. It may be in small ways, it may be in the lives of people you have touched or nurtured, but you must leave something good behind whenever you can. Like a pencil, it is what is on the inside that matters. Whether it is understanding or intolerance, love or bitterness, peace or unrest, kindness or self-centeredness, hope or despair, courage or fear, what is on the inside matters most. Next

Amber Alert Cancelled
Amber Alert cancelled for 1 Year Old North Carolina Girl Posted: Wednesday April 26, 2007: 6:46 PM CDT Updated: Thursday April 26, 2007: 9:09 PM CDT The N.C. Department of Crime Control and Public Safety has cancelled the AMBER Alert for a 1-year-old girl. The child was found safe at her aunt's house. The suspect is still at large.

I Don't Know Who I Am By Dj~belladonna~vamperv Goddess Vdc~last Chance Dj~skitzer69's Wife And Chew Toy~
I don't know who I'am I don't know who I'am So I'm digging deep inside To Find out who I'm truely am And like the person i find I want to be a normal girl Who doesn't feel like this I want to move on with my life But i need to find me I want to smile and laugh And actually mean it And join in with the joke Feeling all happy and Not all broke I want to be seen As the person I'm Truely am But how can i do That when still I don't know who I'am

To All The Ladies In The House
Love me or leave me, make your choice But believe me, I love you I do, I do, I do, I do, I do I can't conceal it, don't you see Can't you feel it, don't you too I do, I do, I do, I do, I do Oh, I've been dreaming Through my lonely past Now, I just made it I found you at last So come on, now let's try it I love you, can't deny it Cause it's true I do, I do, I do, I do, I do Oh, no hard feelings Between you and me If we can't make it But just wait and see So come on, now let's try it I love you, can't deny it Cause it's true I do, I do, I do, I do, I do So, love me or leave me, make your choice But believe me, I love you I do, I do, I do, I do, I do I can't conceal it, don't you see Can't you feel it, don't you too I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

To You From Me
I wont say your name but give a little hint.I refer to you as a king.You touch my heart in a way that makes you that more speacial.The things you say when we talk sometimes touches my heart.Sometimes makes me want to cry other times laugh.You touch my heart in such a way that lately your sadness went right to my heart and caused it to feel as though it was torn from my chest and squeezed till there was no blood left.I do care about you.

New York Tied For Last Place!!
WTF I cant remember a losing streak like this!!! I know yankees always suck at the beginning of the season then they start playing better..Its just so damn frustrating to watch because they used to be so dominating!!!

"the Stronger Side"
I walked along the ocean, my head bowed low in sorrow, I hardly handled today, how do I cope with tomorrow? The day was like every other, the pain the grief inside, my strength was running out, I could no longer hide. The pain was immense that day, it had never been that bad, and all of a sudden, out of the blue, I didn't feel as sad. Something happened that day, the weight became like a feather, It'll never be entirely gone though, the memories are there forever. Although I still look back and cry, I had a friend to confide, He means the whole world to me, He helped me reach the stronger side.

Things Im Not So Crazy About
1. Piercings. I dont understand why people want to go around looking like pin cushions, my ex had one of those steel pins in her tongue and it made a horribly irritating clicking sound against her teeth, also it made her breath smell bad, nasty stuff. 2. Tattoos. Nope, i dont understand tattoos either, especially those, um, ass tattoos, you know what im talking about, those patterns women have tattooed just above their asses, from a distance it looks like they have a bruise there or havent wiped properly, i dont get it. Look, one day we are all going to get old and boy are we going to look ridiculous on the beach, our bodies all withered and our tits sagging with skulls and daggers tattooed on our arms, we will probably have had our piercings removed by then because the tongue pin kept getting caugt on our false teeth..

Gun Fight
1. Bring a gun. Preferably bring at least two guns. Bring all your friends who have guns. 2. Anything worth shooting is worth shooting twice. Ammo is cheap, life is expensive. 3. Only hits count, the only thing worse than a mis is a slow miss. 4. If your shooting stance is good, your probably not moving fast enough or using cover/concealment correctly. 5. Move away from your attacker. Distance is your friend.(Lateral and diagonal movement is preferred.) 6. If you can choose what to bring to a gun fight, bring a long gun and a friend with a long gun. 7. In ten years no one will remember the details of caliber, stance, or tactics, only who survived. 8. If you are not shooting, you should be communicating, reloading and running. 9. Accuracy is relative: Most combat shooting standards will be more dependent on "Pucker Factor" than inherent accuracy of the gun. Use a gun that works EVERY TIME. "All skill is in vain when an angel pisses in the flintlock of your mu

The Handwriting On The Wall
A weary mother returned from the store, Lugging groceries through the kitchen door. Awaiting her arrival was her 8 year old son, Anxious to relate what his younger brother had done. "While I was out playing and Dad was on a call, T.J. took his crayons and wrote on the wall! It's on the new paper you just hung in the den. I told him you'd be mad at having to do it again." She let out a moan and furrowed her brow, "Where is your little brother right now?" She emptied her arms and with a purposeful stride, She marched to his closet where he had gone to hide. She called his full name as she entered his room. He trembled with fear-he knew that meant doom! For the next ten minutes, she ranted and raved About the expensive wallpaper and how she had saved. Lamenting all the work it would take to repair, She condemned his actions and total lack of care. The more she scolded, the madder she got, Then stomped from his room, totally distraught! She headed for the den to confirm

Bitulf; An Utlagr Tale
Okay, this is a blatent tease, a work in progress. But, I am a bastard that way. Bitulf: An Utlagr Tale by Mitch Otinn Chapter 1 Under a Dark Cloud The late autumn storm clouds sucked the last of the starlight from the night of the new moon. Nottulf and Steggi could barely make each other out in the musky blackness, though only feet away from each other. It was not a night either would have chosen for such a hunt, but the dawn would bring the time of the dead, when Wodanaz mounted his eight-legged steed and scoured the land in a Wild Hunt, gathering the souls of the years dead. They had to make sure the varg was dead before the dawn, otherwise it would bode ill for the Chatte tribes along the river. Normally, the ulfr, the wolves of the land, were no threat to the people. Indeed, often they were used to aid in the hunt. But, then there were the varg: man eaters, having lost all fear or kinship with man. These were a force to be fear

I Am Moving To South Africa . . . Again!
Everytime things go a little (or a lot) haywire in my life, I start to look at moving to South Africa. I know, why South Africa? The luxury homes there are bested by nearly none on the face of this planet. I have always said when my novel gets published and I become a world famous author, this is where I am moving to. Of course, you have to pay attention to the little things - like the need for armed security 24/7 and the here and there revolution, but, a small price to pay for living the life of a King or Queen. I have found, ONCE AGAIN, my TWO dream homes. They are approximately the same price, around R5,434,000.00 . . . South African Rand . . .which is $ 752,215 American Dollars. When you see these homes, you will not believe that something like it could sell for so little and why I am so enthused to move there! Just cut and paste these links into your browser: http://www.elbeproperties.co.za/property.asp?property=SAHT1030123223 That is my first choice . . .

Insanity
Fuck me; Fuck you, the battles rages The voices in my head rattle in their cages Overwhelming nightmare, the agony of no sleep The hole to hell, so dark, so black and so deep I pray for end, I pray for death, but no such luck Why in the hell should anyone care or give a fuck? The white cushioned walls, they are closing in When will the time be up, for my unforgiving sin? Blurred eyes, shadows do I see stalking me Forgive My Father, for they are Holier than thee Bloody tears to the ground, yes do they fall I scream and I scream but no one to hear my cal The sun rises in the west and sets in the east Backwards is my mind, the voices they do feast And my thoughts yes they are disarranged My feelings toward mine kind, is now estranged…

What I Should Buy
hi all im trying to deside on what type of sunglasses i should get. lets say im driving down the road and u see me what kinda of sunglasses should i be wearing to catch your eye. and then if i do, what kind should i be wearing when im with u??? pls let me know. thanks

'ugly Betty'
I will be playing a parent/relative on 'Ugly Betty' tommorow in Pasadena, we are filming at Westminister Presbyterian. Today went ok on 'Prom Night', let's just say I got my exercise. I am wearing a teal green top and jeans and my pink backpack. --------- Ugly Betty - Tuesday Ah, a boring and LONG fuckin day. lol. But, I did catch a glimpse of America Ferrera, and she is SO short! Adorable, though. We filmed it in a little school in South Pasadena, in a little auditorium. I don't know what episode I will be on, but I will let you know if anything is thrown my way. I was near Mark Indelicato and from the sounds of it, it's sad that he is gay already and only 14, but he is really a sweet kid, and he is a good actor for his age, bless his heart.

'crossing Over' - Harrison Ford
"Crossing Over" -Harrison Ford - Wednesday experience So yesterday, in Los Angeles, we were on the set of "Crossing Over", it stars Harrison Ford and Ashley Judd. Here is the sypnosis: A multi-character canvas about immigrants of different nationalities struggling to achieve legal status in Los Angeles. Explores the border, document fraud, the asylum and green card process, work-site enforcement, naturalization, the office of counter terrorism and the clash of cultures. Anyways, I did not get to see Ashley, don't care about her, but I DID get to see my Harrison, and WOW, he is soooo amazingly beautiful in person. his hair is straight up silver/gray now, but the way he presents himself and carries himself is beautiful. I was about 5 feet away from him and he walked past me and smiled at me. He is a very easy-going person and minds his own business during takes, and YES folks, he IS treated like royalty on sets. The crew takes his jacket off for him, gives him coffee, and yeah.

Asa Raceing
hey it kelly be raceing in indy at the orielly race park this weekend I spot for derick neville on the BUZZ MOTORSPORTS team I am glad this race is here watching is great but when I can work oa a team It's a blast. Hopefully someday we'll be in NASCAR wich looks promiseing the owner my boss knows people so everyone have a good weekend I don't know if sarah will be online but if so show her some love. She gets lonley on these weekends. If your anywhere neer indy come check us out

A Story To Live By
A Story To Live By - by Ann Wells (Los Angeles Times) My brother-in-law opened the bottom drawer of my sister's bureau and lifted out a tissue-wrapped package. "This," he said, "is not a slip. This is lingerie." He discarded the tissue and handed me the slip. It was exquisite; silk, handmade and trimmed with a cobweb of lace. The price tag with an astronomical figure on it was still attached. "Jan bought this the first time we went to New York, at least 8 or 9 years ago. She never wore it. She was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this is the occasion." He took the slip from me and put it on the bed with the other clothes we were taking to the mortician. His hands lingered on the soft material for a moment, then he slammed the drawer shut and turned to me. "Don't ever save anything for a special occasion. Every day you're alive is a special occasion. I remembered those words through the funeral and the days that followed when I helped him and my niece attend to al

Some Special Wishes From My Heart...
May today and every day of your life bring you fresh hopes for tomorrow - because hope gives all of us our reason for trying. May each new day bring a feeling of excitement, joy, and a wonderful sense of expectation. Expect the best, and you'll get it. May you find peace in simple things, because those are the ones that will always be there. May you remember the good times and forget the sorrow and pain, for the good times remind you of how special your life has been. May you always feel secure and loved, and know you are the BEST. May you experience all the good things in life - the happiness of realizing your dreams, the joy of feeling worthwhile, and the satisfaction of knowing you've succeeded. May you find warmth in others expressions of love and kindness, smiles that encourage you, and friends who are loyal and honest. May you realize the importance of patience and accept others for what they are. With understanding and love. you'll find the good in ever

Wat A Life
I know i don't act like i am suppose to half the time, i know i don't act like i love u, and i know i always tell u too leave, i know we always fight.. but the truth is i do love u, more than i can show, say or prove..thur is just never enough to show how much u mean to me, without u i don't know wat to do..ur my true love and thats y i married u..ur the girl that i want to be with all my life..i wanna grow old with u, u have a son that loves u very much and doesn't under stand y mommy isn't home..all he can say is y..y isn't mommy here, y isn't mommy coming home. y can't i talk to mommy..it hurts me when he ask them questions, i don't know wat to say but mommy will be home soon.. u just never know wat u got til sumthing like this happens..and takes a toll on everyone, me and her sister, and mostly her son(jakob)..i don't wanna let her go, i wanna make everything right, i don't care about what she has done, just want her, with her family..we love her alot, and she is needed by me and

18 Ways To Make Each Day Of Your Life Happier Everyday...
18 Ways to Make Each Day of Your Life Happier Everyday... Share a kind word with a friend. Give away a smile. Listen to what someone has to say. Listen with your heart to what someone cannot say. Try one new thing. Forgive one person who has hurt you. Forgive yourself for past mistakes. Realize your imperfections. Discover your possibilities. Make a new friend. Accept responsibility for everything you do. Refuse responsibility for anyone else's actions. Dream one dream. Watch the sunset. Cherish what you have. Cherish who you are. Love your Life.

Why?
Why do men insist on acting like little boys when they don't get there way? It pisses me off so much. Just cuz they don't get their way the threaten you that they aren't gonna talk to you. You know what if thats the way you feel then they are not even fuckin worth it, see ya.

Look Ahead
Looking ahead, the hills seem steep and the road rises up to the sky But if we don't climb the hills we will always wonder if we let life pass us by. Along the pathway we crossed the bridge of sadness But through the teardrops we found the river of laughter. Then there was the twisted road of misunderstanding And just beyond the rocks we stumbled on we found the highway to agreements. Along the way, we walked through the dark forest of misfortune only to find the valley of sunshine and smiles. And lest we should forget that there was the meadow, full of sweet memories and shared dreams. But looking ahead now I see That the storms never last and the sun always shines when you are climbing the hills with me.

Time To Breath!
I have takin some time 4 myself! Time to breath! I have a world waitting 4 me and I am ready to fly! My world has come to a cross road! I think its time to fly! In your arms is were I must stay! Thank U 4 giving me My Little Bite Of Time! CT Loves, 'two'

Not So Long Ago...
An application was for employment A program was a TV show A cursor used profanity A keyboard was a piano! Memory was something that you lost with age A CD was a bank account And if you had a 3 1/2 inch floppy you hoped nobody found out! Compress was something you did to garbage not something you did to a file. And if you unzipped anything in public You'd be in jail for awhile! Log on was adding wood to a fire Hard drive was a long trip on the road A mouse pad was where a mouse lived And a backup happened to your commode! Cut - you did with a pocket knife Paste you did with glue A web was a spider's home And a virus was the flu! I guess I'll stick to my pad and paper And the memory in my head I hear nobody's been killed in a computer crash but when it happens they wish they were dead!

Missing
DID YOU EVER NOTICE THAT PEOPLE DON'T PAY ATTENTION MUCH,TO AMBER ALERTS OR MISSING POSTERS VERY MUCH,UNTIL IT HAPPENED TO THEM???I NEVER THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD HAPPEN TO ME,LAST WEEK I WAS DOWNTOWN,AND SAY A MISSING POSTER,POSTED ON A WALL,SO WENT OVER TO READ IT,AND IT WAS WAS ONE OF MY FRIENDS,AND IT BROKE MY HEART,NOW MY HEART IS BREAKING AGAIN,CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO SEE ANOTHER POSTER,BUT NOW ANOTHER ONE OF MY FRIENDS IS MISSING,...YOU WILL NEVER TRUELY KNOW THE FEELING TIL SOMEONE YOU KNOW,IS MISSING,AND UNTIL THEY ARE SAFELY FOUND AND OR YOU HAVE CLOSURE,YOU WILL KEEP FEELING THAT SOMEONE FROM YOUR LIFE IS MISSING,...Soul Asylum Videos | Music Video Codes | Chicago Relocation

Moving
My band moved our studio this evening. We have been renting a small room for five years and at last we got out of there and moved to a larger place. We have a lot of work ahead of us painting and soundproofing our new studio but this place has everything, our own sound recording booth, sound mixing room, chillout room and kitchen. And best of all we have it all to ourselves, no noisy neighbours or anything, this is just totally perfect!

~*more Than Ever*~
things come and things go and things are more powerfull than others. Somethings that we can control some things that we can control. We lock out the bad and bring in the good and we stand up for what need to and what we want to and things that we can control we let slide till we think we can take no more. The one power i thought i could fight was with love and when i seen that i couldnt block it anymore i let it in and seen that it was all worth takeing the chance. A friend told me to give it all worth a try and see were it goes and when i sat down and thought about it all i did it and wow was i shocked to find that i found my one true love and never could be happier that i did listen to her i couldnt be happier that him and i are together and that we both love each other more than anyone can even think of. We share a bond that alot of people dont understand to be honst i dont always understand it but i know that deep down he is the one i love and im the one he loves for we wasnt ea

~ Media Say We Kill The Iraq Children ~ Watch This You Won't See It On Tv
Shame what is really happening will never make it out to everyone. From the source: "Everyone wants to hate on soldiers calling us baby killers and how all the citizens despise us.. Hmmm this day it didn't seem like it. (These are real videos from our unit 3rd ID, 6/8 CAV - Opperation Iraqi Freedom III)"

On My Mind
On my Mind You are on my mind constantly nothing can set my imagination free. Free of the thoughts of me and you the thoughts of us making love so true. I dream wonderful dreams throughout the night, of us doing unimaginable things and doing them so right. I dream of us making love under the moon Under the moon so bright and full. I hope my dreams can come true soon in my mind nothing at all could be dull. You are on my mind constantly nothing can set my imagination free. Free of the thoughts of me and you the thoughts of us making love so true. Poem ID: 2174

Ask Me!
5 questions is all u get... You get to ask me 5 NAUGHTY questions! I'll answer 100% truthfully! BE CREATIVE! "What's your fantasy?" is getting annoying! COME ON GIRLS IF YOU VIEW YOU HAVE TO AT LEAST ASK ME ONE!! SEND TO MY EMAIL!!!

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Inspire
Youre a stranger to me But I want to know you you ignite a passion, from deep within you inspire me in ways you dont even know yet youre just a man that Ill yearn hold youve opened my eyes to beauty within you stimulate my mind leave me craving for more I want to know you feel you embrace you I wish I could show you just how amazed I am by you I catch myself thinking wondering where you are are you alone, are you happy, are you thinking of me at all youve touched me in ways I wish I could show you youve inspired a passion I want to burn out of control desire , lust, need and want I feel these all altho we're so far apart a touch a kiss and someday more I want you to know youve inspired my soul!!

Luddha's Ladies
Luddha's Ladies Luddha marshalls creek, PA 18301 610-417-9813 luddha@yahoo.com April 26, 2007 Dear Friend, This application is design to create a harem, for those who would like to be a part of Luddha's Ladies. Unlike the harems of old you are free to come and go as you please, but most importantly you must be willing to share me of course. In time I will create a large indoor pool where you all can lay about and talk about philosophy and how great I am. Here are the terms and conditions 1. must be at least 18yrs of age 2. No attitude, bitches will be denied 3. must send at least one pic (head shot preferred), others are ok 4. must get along with other women 5. must be understanding 6. must be respectable 7. no liars 8. must not spend time with other men, unless married from what I understand once married the sex life dies so its ok….muahahaha 9. must be a naturally born woman 10. most importantly must be true to the self as well as others Name_____

Stevies Story
In my pictures you will notice our cat Stevie. For those who really know me know I am an animal lover, but not one of those PETA fanatics. I was raised on a farm, eat meat, and will have an animal put down if they are suffering and in pain. I feel I have thought my children good ethics and morals as well as compassion. I did not realize how much they have picked up on and learned until this past winter. We are by no means monetarily well off. December 16, 2006 We have a tortie shell cat named Granola. Shortly after noon my kids come in the house upset and holding something. This item is limp in their hands and they are crying. I saw something black and thought it was our cat Granola. My first though was she had been ran over. As I got closer I noticed this thing was too small to be Granola. The kids tell me they found this kitten in the road and need my help. I followed them into the kitchen and proceeded to pull cactus out of her face. She was so sick looking and just crumpled in y

For The Soliders
This is for the Soldiers This is for the Soldiers, who died to save my life, This is for the Soldiers, who are fighting to stay alive. This is for the Soldiers, who risks their lives to save mine, This is for the Soldiers, who have to stay behind. This is for the Soldiers, who deserve every ones respect, This is for the Soldiers, who see more than they suspect. This is for the Soldiers, who never chose to die, This is for the Soldiers, whose family lies awake at night. This is for the Soldiers, who are so bold and brave, This is for the Soldiers, who loved you enough to prepare for their own graves. This is for the Soldiers, who had put their lives aside to fight war This is for the Soldiers, who believe in what they are fighting for. This is for the soldiers, who we pray make it out of Iraq, This is for the Soldiers, who died and couldn't make it back. This is for the Soldiers, who I pray for every night, This is for the Soldiers, who bel

For The Army Wives
ARMY WIFE MY SOLDIER SAID GOODBYE TODAY HE PACKED HIS BAG AND WENT AWAY THE KIDS ASLEEP UPON THEIR BEDS TOO YOUNG TO KNOW WHAT LIES AHEAD PICTURES FILL THE EMPTY SPACE THEY HAVE TO SEE THEIR DADDY'S FACE WE SAY OUR PRAYERS AND THANK THE LORD THAT WE HAVE A PLACE WORTH FIGHTING FOR TAKE THE TIME AND THINK ABOUT WHAT MY FAMILY'S DONE WITHOUT WE'VE LOST ALOT AND PAID THE PRICE ITS PART OF LIVING THE ARMY LIFE I'M PROUD OF HIM AND THE OTHERS TOO NOTHING THESE SOLDIERS OF OURS WON'T DO SO REMEMBER TONIGHT AS YOU KISS HIS CHEEK THAT MINE'S IN THE SAND SOMEWHERE KNEE DEEP TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM AND HOLD HIM TIGHT AND MINE WILL DRIVE ON AND KEEP UP THE FIGHT THEY'LL FINISH THE JOB, IT'S WHAT THEY DO THE FLAG WILL FLY, IT'S RED,WHITE AND BLUE DON'T FORGET YOUR FREEDOM AND REMEMBER YOUR PAST THAT'S WHY WE'RE THERE, IF YOU HAVE TO ASK THEY'LL ALL COME HOME WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT THEY'LL LAY DOWN THEIR GUNS AND STOP THE FIGHT WHEN THE BAD GUYS AR

Motivational Quote For Today Is:
"Honor is not something you are handed; it is something you earn inside yourself. Honor Your Crew, Honor Your Members, Honor Yourself." Baquera/Bus. Mgr./Sec.-C&C Divas SBC, PA/NJ This is something I thought of when I was in my Ti Chi Class the other day. My crew went though a some hard times last year, and this supported them all. I thought this might be good for someone else too. Remember we must go through hard times to become wiser, so use it as an educational mechanism and fight it with your head up high. God Bless and Be Safe!

Questions?
5 questions is all u get... You get to ask me 5 NAUGHTY questions! I'll answer 100% truthfully! BE CREATIVE! "What's your fantasy?" is getting annoying! COME ON GIRLS IF YOU VIEW YOU HAVE TO AT LEAST ASK ME ONE!!

Where Is The Love?
OK...i'm sick of the damn bulletin board cuz my stuff slides down so fast you can never see it anyway so i'm gonna try a new approach..i'm in the battle of the sexes contest...NO comment bombing needed...i just need ya to follow the link, rate the pic and leave ONE comment....see how easy it is..lol....thanks!!

Sad News.... :( Please Show Support
a very dear friend of mine, has lost his twins..He is an absolute sweetheart and I feel that he should be shown love and condolences, please rip this pic and make it ur default, to let him know that he has friends here, that support him if he needs it, much love to you yank!! Sending all my love, thoughts and prayers out to you and ur family. Hugs Photo to rip here The sweetie that didn't deserve this, hugs babes NY Yank@ CherryTAP MysticalGemini

Boo
EVERYONE HAS DREAMS IN THEIR HEARTS THAT THEY ARE EITHER AFRAID TO LET SHOW,OR DON'T KNOW HOW TO..EVERYONE AT SOMETIME IN THEIR LIVES GETS HURT..BUT IF WE GET LUCKY WE GET A CHANCE AT LOVE AGAIN..SO THIS IS FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS THAT SOMEONE SPECIAL IN THEIR LIVES..THERE ARE ALWAYS THE UP AND DOWNS IN LIFE WE ALL GO THROUGH..BUT HANG ON IT MAY BE A BUMPY RIDE..BUT OH WHAT YOU GET AT THE END OF IT IS WELL WORTH THE TIME YOU PUT IN..EVEN THE BREAK UPS AND THE MEETING SOMEONE NEW..IT ALL MEANS SOMETHING ITS WHAT MAKES YOU THE THE PERSON YOU ARE..

Hold Me Close By Dj~belladonna~vamperv Goddess Vdc~last Chance Dj~skitzer69's Wife And Chew Toy~
Hold me close Hold me close and dont let go; I'm so scared to be alone. I've been by myself for too long, And always had to be strong. Now I only want to rest; And lay my head on your chest. Hold me close and don't let go; These wars I fight no one knows. Now whisper how you love me, Say it tender and softly. I am weary and soon will sleep, But with you no longer will I weep. So hold me close and don't let go, For I never want to be alone

If You
If you If you would look at me the way I look at you If you could feel this love I hold for you. If you would hold me the way I wish I could hold you Then you would see this love I have inside waiting for you. So, can you please just hold me once So you can see I'm the one Then I could share this love that's so nice with the person I love the most.

Condom Game
The way you play the Box of Condoms Game is you have to come up with one item to take to the register with a box of condoms to make the cashier raise an eyebrow. No repeats Paul - a package of Depends adult diapers Jennifer - a disposable camera Erika - toilet cleaner brush Renée ~ Car air fresheners Cari~ a home pregnancy kit Joelle~ Scissors Danielle~Duct Tape...(Joelle yours is super funny!!!) Amber~tire pump Eric ~ quart of motor oil Mo ~ dog treats Cory - Crisco (loiw fat of course) Matt ~ Baby Wipes Joel ~ Bottle of penicillin Katie~ Can of frosting and sprinkles Keith~A bottle of Percacet and a bottle of Vicadin. (spelling?) Triston~Monopoly Board Game Holly- a mother's day card Stacia ~ A bag of ice Kate- a barbie Anakela - An electric razor. Via - Gerbil food Tyson - a plunger Camie- tampax supermaxies Jessica~ RID lice killer Jocelyn ~ a jar of peanut butter Miley~Anbasol Roxanne~Bananas Deadlegs - With the duct tape add some popsicle sticks.

Some Fuckin Survey
More fun from the greatness that is Rhine'-land 1. Who were you with Friday night? the bf & my daughter 2. What woke you up this morning? my alarm clock blaring 3. Where are you? puter in my bedroom 4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? hopefully, since its Friday. 5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today? bf this morning, my daughter tonite 6. When was the last time you cried? almost did today.. did last sat. 7. What were you doing at 10 last night? watching tv zoned out in bed 10. What were you doing at midnight? tossing and turning in bed 12. Ever thrown up from a roller coaster or an amusement park? NOPE 13. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW? possibilities... 14. Would you take a bullet for anyone? my daughter definately.. maybe a few others 15. Where would you like to live? atl 16. What kind of home would you like? contemperary... modern.. lots of convenience.. but comfy 17. What do you want to be when you grow up? secure in mys

People Are Funny
there is a person on here that has blockd me and refuses to even talk to me. but yet he seems to find his way to my page AND reads these blogs. while i find it quite funny, mayb it will b the way i get my msg across to him. so if yur reading this (u should know who u are)i dont hate u, nvr did. im not mad. dont understand why u wouldnt atleast b a man and talk to me. but hey whuts done is done. i dont reget u, probly nvr will. i would LOVE to have a actually conversation with u one day, probly wont happen but hey. and as much as i dont get it i hope u and yur new gurl make it. or u work shit out with yur wife. which ever u choose. b/c as naive as u think i am, im not a hateful person and as much as u affected me, i am able to go on with my lyfe. and i want to thank u for this lesson and for lifting the guilt i felt for spending that nite with shawn. so if u ever feel like actually talkin to me feel free to send a msg. O and one more thing, will u PLEASE remove the silly lil persona

Condoms And What?
The way you play the Box of Condoms Game is you have to come up with one item to take to the register with a box of condoms to make the cashier raise an eyebrow. No repeats Paul - a package of Depends adult diapers Jennifer - a disposable camera Erika - toilet cleaner brush Renée ~ Car air fresheners Cari~ a home pregnancy kit Joelle~ Scissors Danielle~Duct Tape...(Joelle yours is super funny!!!) Amber~tire pump Eric ~ quart of motor oil Mo ~ dog treats Cory - Crisco (loiw fat of course) Matt ~ Baby Wipes Joel ~ Bottle of penicillin Katie~ Can of frosting and sprinkles Keith~A bottle of Percacet and a bottle of Vicadin. (spelling?) Triston~Monopoly Board Game Holly- a mother's day card Stacia ~ A bag of ice Kate- a barbie Anakela - An electric razor. Via - Gerbil food Tyson - a plunger Camie- tampax supermaxies Jessica~ RID lice killer Jocelyn ~ a jar of peanut butter Miley~Anbasol Roxanne~Bananas Deadlegs - With the duct tape add some popsicle sticks.

Thursday 4/26/07
Just another day as usual, I played on here and got my cousin to join the site woohoo lol, hopefully between this and email I'll be able to keep in touch with her more since she lives out of state. We had a thunderstorm today, so I was inside all day mumming and chatting and listening to CrushFM. I hope the weather clears up over the weekend because I'd like to go out with a friend or something, because I'm bored of sitting around the house doing nothing lol. I've been up since 6 A.M. so I'm gonna end this here and call it a night. Have a great night.

It Wasn't Enough Being Myself By Dj~belladonna~vamperv Goddess Vdc~last Chance Dj~skitzer69's Wife And Chew Toy~
It Wasn't Enough Being Myself I hate being me It's like being myself just isn't enough I hated living that nightmare He was so violent and rough He use to hit me, beat me up He always made me cry I was just to scared to leave him But if i didn't i would have died He always convinced me it was my fault He made me so depressed He was always there watching me I was afraid to get undressed He always put me down Especially about my weight So i started to starve myself I barely ever ate I tried to do everything I even changed myself I hated living that nightmare Koz it just wasnt enough being myself

Ripping Pics
All of our band pics are free reign to any who wish to rip 'em! Morph one for us, I don't know how! Other artwerk included on our page and in our galleries is courtesy of; Belos @ www.gothic-iowegian.com Pay his site a visit and please tell him Greg sent ya. peace

If Words Could Express...
If Words Could Express... If words could express My feelings for you How would you react If you truly knew? Would you laugh, would you cry Would any emotion show Or would you shrug it away And just let it go? My heart skips a beat At the sound of your name I try to calm down... I try in vain To me, you're perfect None even come close From the tips of your hair To the tips of your toes Into your eyes I could gaze forever None can surpass None is better I could say, "I love you" But that's just a start If only words could express The feelings in my heart

Lessons In Lfe!!!!!!
>THIS IS TRULY A GOOD LESSON TO ALWAYS REMEMBER! > >Eddie desperately wants to make love to the really >cute, really hot girl, Gina, in his office.... but she >is dating someone else. > >One day Eddie, terribly frustrated, says " Gina, I'll >give you a $100 if you let me make love to you..." > >She stares at him & says > >"Are you out of your mind?" > >Eddie replies, "Look, I'll be really fast. I'll just >throw the money on the floor; you bend down, and I'll >finish by the time you've picked it up." > >Gina hesitates a moment; then says she'll ask her >boyfriend, & see if he'll agree. > >So she calls him and explains the offer. > >Boyfriend says, "OK, but ask for $200; & then pick up >the money really fast. >He won't even be able to get his pants down. >Call me back as soon as you get the money." > >So she agrees and accepts Eddie's proposition. > >Half an hour goes by, & no call from Gina. > >Too impatient to wait any longer, boyfriend calls her; > >"W

To Get To You
To Get To You What I would do to be in your arms.... I'd swim across oceans deep and rivers wide. All this I'd do if I could just be by your side. What I would do to just hold your hand, for to do so would make me feel safe and secure. To put my arms around you would be a sweet dream come true. What I would do to hear your sexy voice whispering I love you in my ear, for I'm sure that those are the most beautiful words I will ever hear. What I would do to make the miles between us disapear and bring you closer to me, becasue I so desperately need you here. What I would do to share with you my every thought and my wildest dreams. What I would do to experience all the little things that life can daily bring. What I would do to look deep into your eyes and say I love you.

Things I Never Knew Plz Read
You Might Not Ever Guess Captain Kangaroo passed away on January 23, 2004 as age 76 , which is odd, because he always looked to be 76. (DOB: 6/27/27 ) His death reminded me of the following story. Some people have been a bit offended that the actor, Lee Marvin, is buried in a grave alongside 3 and 4 star generals at Arlington National Cemetery . His marker gives his name, rank (PVT) and service (USMC). Nothing else. Here's a guy who was only a famous movie star who served his time, why the heck does he rate burial with these guys? Well, following is the amazing answer: I always liked Lee Marvin, but didn't know the extent of his Corps experiences. In a time when many Hollywood stars served their country in the armed forces often in rear echelon posts where they were carefully protected, only to be trotted out to perform for the cameras in war bond promotions, Lee Marvin was a genuine hero. He won the Navy Cross at Iwo Jima . There is only one

I've Learned....
I've learned- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I've learned- that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I've learned- that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I've learned- that you can keep going long after you can't. I've learned- that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I've learned- that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned- that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place. I've learned- that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned- that money is a lousy way of keeping score. I've learned- that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I've learned- that sometimes the pe

Why Does Everyone Fear The Darkness
Why does everyone fear the darkness? When light is so much more dangerous When light can blind and fool us all Play with our emotions and trick us Darkness is not that fearful as it seems Perhaps it is within darkness that lies Mankind only salvation for the sins Committed on their meaningless lives Unlike what we all think about darkness, Light is not that better if we compare it. While light fool and blind us with no exception, Darkness guides us all throughout our lives It shows us the path we should follow The right decisions we all should take But only a few understand this truth Only a few manages to see reality as it is

I'm Not Okay By Dj~belladonna~vamperv Goddess Vdc~last Chance Dj~skitzer69's Wife And Chew Toy~
I'm Not Okay I'm upset You ask if I'm OK I say I'm fine But I'm not OK Not by a long shot Everyday my life is a nightmare Everyday I cry On the inside if not outside I can't stay this way I need to be OK But I never am I'm never OK I'm not OK Not by a long shot The only way I'm ever OK Is talking to you

Me The Metal Years Pt. 1
Kirsten was the younger sister of one of my good friends from school. She was tall even then probably 5'7", thin, had a nice olive complexian, she was Cape Verdian, perky breasts, with dark nipples that are still some of the most sensitive I've ever encountered, and a nicely trimmed pussy. She loved to wear super short miniskirts, with fishnets and heels. She had made a habit of coming to watch the band rehearse in my garage, which was fine with all the guys in the band. On this particualry day I had not been in school, it was too nice a day or some such thing. So as the late afternoon rolled around I was already out in the garage running through some of my parts before the guys got there a 5:30. I never heard the door open over my amp. When i turned around I almost jumped out of my skin. Kirsten was standing there tight skirt, stockings, heels, and plunging purple top that showed her cleavage nicely. "Hey, baby when did you get here?", I manged to stammer. Very uncool, I kno

Why???
Why do people think they can worm your way into your heart then rip it out like nothing and think they didnt hurt you?? They have to know deep inside that your hurting and crying because of their cruel intentions. The lies the hurt the pain the tears do they even care??? Probably not Im just tired of crying and hurting over this one person. Why cant I stop. Why do I feel she purposely did this??? Why do I feel outraged enough to want to hurt her too when I know the pain she will feel. I wouldnt want anyone to feel what I feel right now. The pain of the tears is too much to handle. But in time I will be ok.

Is It A Dream?
I wake up to you in the morning With your smile shining so bright We part our ways, To fo our work for the day I have supper ready when you get home I am never long alone. Dinner is ready my Love. Made by your lil turtle dove Sharing the house work Wenever go beserk Cuddling on the couchwatching T.V. I feel the warmth of your love surround me I spend my nights in your loving arms Where I am safe from any harm You are a wonderful man You always give a helping hand You shower me with many things YOu amaze me, with the joy you bring The Man of my life Please say one day you will make me your wife! I can not live with out you My love is sooo True If you left me, I would die inside So,please make me your bride I offer myheart, my soul abd my total being to you What you have touched in me, you have no clue When I am blue or sick you make me feel like a queen YOu are the man of my dreams. Someone please tell me this is not a Dream!!! dk written by farah

Um, Yeah I Tried To Get It Out.
You move along as if its nothing looking for your next love struck victim for you to bleed dry who knew you would say goodbye without a tear in your eye Just shut me out of evertying in your life Ill take all the love I had for you and throw it away, Like you threw away my heart. Sweetie I knew you were trouble from the start. -The ties you chose to sever -Thought you were so clever -But I wont bleed foever I'll pull threw this hell you tossed me into In the end its the same old story with just another heartbroken boy. First it was me, then you were into him, but now your in the classifieds for a rendevue in the back room. So take care my dear, and darling dont you fear, your heartlessness will catch up.

One Of The Loneliest Days Of My Life
So today is a hard day for me. Today would have been my grandmas birthday. She would have been 72. She passed away on Aug 21, 1993. It has never gotten any easier. I remember everything like it was yesterday. I was close to my grandma, she was like my mom. Most of my family hated her or hates her but I'm the one person that she helped and you could even say saved. I've always wondered what she would say to me today what she would think of the things and choices I've made. I care more about how she would feel then my own mother. I miss her everyday and everyday I look at her picture when I wake up. I don't think anything will ever fill the piece of innocence that i lost when she died. I grew up the day we hurried to pack w/ me sobbing to go up north. I still haven't to this day cried as much and as true as I did when I watched them lower her into the ground from across the cemetery. There's so much most people will never know or see about me. This....today is one of them.

My Ex Is Officially Out Of My Life
Oh god it feels so good to know that I won't hear from her anymore. I blocked her on myspace, yahoo, and MSN. All I have to do is change my cell phone number, which will happen as soon as I get a differant phone(tracfones blow). I've learned my leason and I've learned it good. If someone doesnt love you, you can't make them love you. And you shouldn't try, you will only get hurt. The only thing that still bothers me is that there are so many women like her. They want you around, but don't want a relationship. They want the company, the cuddling, the sex, the babysitter if they have kids....but heaven forebid you have feelings for them. Then they will treat you like crap and hurt you, until you've had enough and give up. Thats what happened to me, and I hope never happens again.

Thoughts Inspired By Mumms
I'm beginning to see it as increasingly important to not just "go along" with "traditional" customs and celebrations to be polite, and not make waves. I'm starting to see it as important to take a stand, and not just allow people who would have their beliefs usurp all others, control the popular perception of history and "thruthiness." Consequently, I'm no longer going to celebrate Thanksgiving. And I'm not just going to not celebrate it. I'm going to not celebrate it in a very open, and opinionated way. Thanksgiving is not about the founding and establishment of the United States as a sovereign nation. Thanksgiving is not a religious holiday. And the founding and establishment of the United States as a sovereign nation is not a religious phenomenon. And I am fed up with people trying to shove their perception of any of that down my throat. Important things that happened in history are not important, and are not recognized or celebrated, because there happened to be a Ch

Be A Child
I am a little girl Playing and dancing in my own lil world. Come dance with me, Set your spirit free. My table is set For that warm cup of tea. With crakcers and cheese, Come and jion me. Let your body relax. Time to play house. Setting up the dollhouse. Ken and Barbie are watching T.V. While lil Bobbi and Sarah are dancing, In the diningroom so sweetly. Take your friend by the hand. Put on the radio. Let's Dance Let's Dance Let's Laugh Let's Laugh And relive our childhood. Now it was more then it seemed. Enjoy your youthas long as you can. Many years later, You will grow and see. What being an adult really means. Find the time to reflect. Grab your partner and relive your childhood dream. Remember to have we are never done. Let the child out from within. It is not a sin. Be a child again.

Fallen Angel
I came in this world with blood and gore I have no friends I have no family darkness confines me I try to fly but my wings have been cut off I'm a fallen angel with nothing to love. hate is in me and its to late to stop it. bloody tears fall from my eyes and I cry for I only talk lies. I fell from the sky not knowing either to live nor die.

The Fiction We Live- From Autumn To Ashes
You might be just what I need No I would not change a thing Been dreaming of this so long But we only exist in this song The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow And if you come and meet me tomorrow I will hold you down, fold you in Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live I break in two over you I break in two And if a piece of you dies Autumn, I will bring you back to life Of course I see you I do.

Halloween
Dead rotted trees on all hollows eve we come to pray under floral sway midnight wind for we have sinned pagan worship on a boulder,the fire smolders A crack in the sky puzzles our mind We worship the pentagram others say we are damned Beneath the howling stars the moon shimmers on our scars blue lit forests arranged like by a florist the hushed trees creep th over me Listen for the vicious screams Hear the men on Halloween What do they say,they whisper to me prey and worship the black cat Kneel down before the witch's hat October rust in the trees and in the darkened seas Necrobutcher look at him gleam though the sewer grate steam I run afraid to a downtown masquerade In the country the stars are bright living scarecrows are a fright All alone in the alley wish for a lush green valley Manslaughter lycanthropes wish for a new hope Give me the blood of Christ and mute him into night Dig deep in my lucid dreams Hear the wolfs on Halloween what does it sa

Autumn's Monologue-from Autumn To Ashes
Oh why cant I be what you need a new improved version of me but i'm nothing so good no i'm nothing just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs of violence of love and of sorrow i beg for just one more tomorrow where you hold me down fold me in deep deep deep in the heart of your sins I break in two over you I break in two And each piece of me dies And only you can give the breath of life But you dont see me, you dont... here i'm in between darkness and light bleached and blinded by these nights where im tossing and tortured til dawn by you, visions of you then youre gone the shock lifts the red from my face when i hear someone's taking my place how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel when all, all that i did was for you i break in two over you i break in two and each piece of me dies and only you can give the breath of life but you dont see me you dont.. i break in two over you i break in two and each piece of me di

Net Radio In Danger Of Being Governed To Death
Monday, April 23, 2007 SaveNetRadio - By Ian Rogers from Yahoo! Music By now you've likely heard the news about the Copyright Board's ruling regarding net radio. Simply put, it approximately triples the amount paid to record labels via SoundExchange for streaming Internet radio over the next three years, changes the way the payments are computed (from what is called an "Aggregate Tuning Hour" basis to a straight "per play"), adds a confusing and onerous "per station minimum" fee with no maximum, and extends the new rates back to the beginning of 2006. Many small Webcasters won't be able to afford this, and you can bet large Webcasters like us are all taking a hard look at the Internet radio business and our products to decide if it's really worth the cost. Big companies might have more money, but they can't stay in businesses where they don't make any profit, a pretty simple business fact. Compare the implications of this decision to terrestrial radio which pays NOTHING to Sou

New Job
Well... I have applied for a job back in Northern California, doesn't look like I got the fill time slot! BUT... I just found out that I am still in the game for the seasonal! Now is the hurry up and wait to see what happens! Wish me luck! :o)

Real Friends.................................
JUST WANTED TO LET ALL MY FRIENDS KNOW THAT I AM NOT IGNORING YOU , I HAVE BEEN REALLY BUSY WHAT WITH HAVING MY GRANDSON BORN AND THEM MOVING INTO THE HOUSE WITH ME. (PLUS MY PC IS IN THE SHOP HAS IT TOOK A NOSE DIVE, CANT BELEVIE I JUST BROUGHT THE DAMM THING...LOL) I GUESS IT IS REALLY SHOWING MY AGE, AS TO HAVE A ONE WEEK OLD BABY AROUND, IT SURE MAKES YOUR LIFE CHANGE. I AM A VERY PROUD GRANDMOTHER AND I CANT KEEP FROM PICKING HIM UP ALL THE TIME AND GIVING HIM LOTS OF KISSES. PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF I HAVENT RESPONED TO YOUR EMAILS OR IM'S, BUT I WILL BACK ON LINE SOON.... JUST WANTED TO SAY THANKS FOR ALL THE CALLS AND WELL WISHES I REALLY DO THANKYOU ALL.... LUV TO ALL SUGAR '

Bulimia By Dj~belladonna~vamperv Goddess Vdc~last Chance Dj~skitzer69's Wife And Chew Toy~
Bulimia Bingeing and purging Ultimatum, diet or be fat Life can no longer be free It's you against yourself Mirrors reflect ugliness In and out your just a food machine And its habit thats now become a mistake Influenced by pictures of others Slowly your losing the reality of how you really look Pain rages inside day after day And there is no breaking away from it It can never go back to how it was before Nothing is ever good enough Forget everything you don't have a life anymore Until your life is through this will taint you Lies, lies, lies, lies and lies to cover up the truth till it hurts

My Jsin
My Jsin The man whose saved my life many times over, and saved me from myself more times than I care to admit. He sees me better than I've ever seen myself. When I'm at my worst, or when I'm at my best, he's been there. His soulful eyes have always had the ability to see me for who and what I am, and everything I'm not. All the while; convincing every piece of his shattered heart to love the damaged broken me. He is resilient. No matter what he finds himself faced with, he digs deep within the depths of his wounded soul forever clawing his way back from the abyss stronger and more passionate than ever. More than I care to admit I have crossed the line. They say love has limits, but, his heart knows no boundaries. His love is unconditional. I still have the beer can to prove it, and to remind me of how close I came to losing him. I can never forget the look on his face, the pain in his eyes that night. Some things just arent meant to be forgotten and even if I wish it away, I am comf

The Devil Jinn
i spent my time waisting in hell a humanly body became my jail a dream walker for the man upstairs im a demon that grant wishes with some scare make your wish but watch what you say the prince of the jinns that loves to play a werewolf of sorts with a hunger for pain an evil soul for you to claim a nice guy but twisted in fucked up ways drinking the blood of my enemies lost my sword back a few centuries tell truth cause its always funnier than fiction it wont be believed even if said with conviction through your eyes i taste your soul so give up i enjoy watching you fold sick, twisted, wierd, nuts, lair, daydreamer, stupid fuck names that you might call me say what you want i'll see you in your dreams my hate fuels my craft your ignorance adds to that in your dreams i wait for you to call for me to save you from my fathers beasts in a flash of light i will appear as what you want need even fear my touch is as hot as fire my guns spitting lead faster then sp

Today's Laugh...check It Out
The wedding date was set and the groom's three pals - A carpenter, an electrician and a dentist were deciding What pranks to play on the couple on their wedding night. The carpenter figured sawing the slats of their bed would give them a chuckle or two. The electrician decided to wire the bed - with alternating current, of course. The dentist wouldn't commit himself, but wore a sly grin and promised it would be memorable. The nuptials went as planned and a few days later, Each of the grooms buddies received the following note: DEAR FRIENDS, WE DIDN'T MIND THE BED SLATS BEING SAWED. THE ELECTRIC SHOCK WAS ONLY A MINOR SETBACK. BUT I SWEAR BY GOD ALMIGHTY, I'M GOING TO KILL WHOEVER PUT NOVOCAINE IN THE K-Y JELLY.

Rain
Striking at the sky I bring down the rain. It falls, soaking all below. Misery of my own creation, It dissolves all I hold dear. All I can do is watch, As I struggle for control. Why does this rain never end? Why do they all have to be hurt? Hoping for an end to the downpour, I turn my mind to the aftermath. The world flooded and bewildered. Attempting to rebuild the dreams on the ruined ground. Why did every one have to suffer? Consequence of my own self destruction. Why couldn't this be stopped, Before it consumed everything? A new world struggles for a beginning, As the old realm fights to survive. Both trapped in the land of rain, The domain of shifting tides. The future appears to be ahead, But the past is unready to end. Their battle rages still. Their ranks still clash in the present, On the land that which I stand.

8 Home Remedies (must Read)
YOU'LL ASK YOURSELF WHY YOU DIDN'T THINK ABOUT THEM YOURSELF! 1. When choking on an ice cube, simply pour a cup of boiling water down your throat. Presto! The blockage will instantly remove itself. 2. Avoid cutting yourself slicing vegetables by getting someone else to hold while you chop. 3. Avoid arguments with the Mrs. about lifting the toilet seat by using the sink. 4. To treat high blood pressure: simply cut yourself and bleed for a few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins. Remember to use a timer. 5. A mouse trap, placed on top of your alarm clock, will prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep after you hit the snooze button. >>> > 6. If you have a bad cough, take a large dose of laxatives, then you will be afraid to cough. 7. You only need two tools in life - WD-40 and Duct Tape. If it doesn't move and should, use the WD-40. If it shouldn't move and does, use the duct tape. 8. When confused remember, everyone seems no

My Fav Chuck Norris Facts
10. In ancient China there is a legend that one day a child will be born from a dragon, grow to be a man, and vanquish evil from the land. That man is not Chuck Norris, because Chuck Norris killed that man 9. Superman wears Chuck Norris PJ's. 8. chuck norris counted to infinity...twice 7. wilt chamberlain said he slept with over 20,000 women in his lifetime...Chuck Norris calls this a "slow tuesday"... 6. Chuck Norris was originally cast as the main character in 24, but was replaced by the producers when he managed to kill every terrorist and save the day in 12 minutes and 37 seconds. 5. God said let there be light and Chuck Norris said Say Please. 4. chuck norris has been dead for 10 years ...the reaper is just to afraid to come get him 3. There is no theory of evolution. Just a list of creatures Chuck Norris has allowed to live 2. chuck norris visited the virgin islands, now they're just known as the islands 1. Chuck Norris is the only reason Waldo

When We First Meet
When we first meet On that November day We started as friends We shared our thoughts We opened our hearts You never knew You had no clue But on that day My heart stolen So here’s a rose To show my love With the heart That was stolen We never knew We had no clue That on that day A love would grow But this I knew From the start You are special And in my heart Now I must say I LOVE YOU SO (ALL OF MY POEMS ARE COPIED WRITED SO PLEASE DO NOT TAKE)

Bitchology
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.. Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that! So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed

Stars Above
STARS ABOVE The stars above Will guide the way To find the love You so long await I found my love So far away Thanks to the stars From high up above When the stars above Shines so bright I know I will see My love tonight So trust the stars Their always right Because if they weren’t I would be lost tonight When the day turns night The stars shine bright Up above you will see A smile from me

To Look At What Is There And See....
SOME THINGS WILL CATCH YOUR EYE AND WHEN THEY DO WE JUST LOOK AWAY BUT WHEN SOMETHING CATCHES OUR HEARTS WE TEND TO TAKE A MOMENT TO THINK ABOUT IT AND WETHER IT MAKES US SAD OR HAPPY .... TAKE IT FOR WHAT IT IS WORTH AND HOW IT HAS OR WILL EFFECT OR LIVES IN SOME WAY...WE TEND TO TAKE FAMILY AND FRIENDS FOR GRANTED AND NOT EVEN REALIZE IT...UNTILL IT TIME TO SAY GOODBYE FOR EVER AND YOU REALIZE THAT THEIR WHERE THINGS YOU WANTED TO SAY ....SO WHEN SOMETHING CATCHES YOUR EYE TAKE A MOMENT AND SEE WHAT YOUR MISSING OR NOT... SAY WHATS ON YOUR MIND, AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY ...(SO THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK, BECAUSE YOU CANT TAKE IT BACK)....LIVE EACH DAY TO THE FULLEST AS IF IT YOUR LAST AND TREAT OTHERS AS YOU WOULD WANT TO BE TREATED............

Friends
FRIENDS friends come by few friends come by many friends come to you for many reasons they live so far they live so near but when in need they're there indeed with these words I'm proud to say i have good friends and one is you.. there is one we know that is always special and I'm glad that you have found one too you know what i mean cause you have seen and knows how it feels to have that friend so dear..

Beneath The Willow Tree
BENEATH THE WILLOW TREE Down by the stream Stands a weeping willow tree With the limbs hanging low And the wind blowing slow As I sit by the stream Beneath this willow tree All I can see is you and me All I can hear is a voice so sweet When I close my eyes This is what I see You sitting by my side With your arm around me My head on your shoulder My hand on your knee I feel a soft touch upon my face As I look up, a kiss takes place So tender and soft as it should be A taste so sweet and feelings so true That’s what I felt being kissed by you We gazed in each others eyes With my hands upon your face Then we embraced We held each other tight Oh how it felt so right I wrapped my hands around your neck As we looked into each others eyes again I feel you softly touch my face Then suddenly Another kiss takes place Underneath that willow This is what I seen It was all so clear to me For it felt so real As you and m

I Like It Like That
yeah bitches what more can I say? lol.. good news... I am working EVERY WEEKEND from now on... I dont have a life... so.. FUck yeahMONEY mo money bitches... and school... fuck me... aahahahawell I love all my stash shit.. cuz I am the shit... LOl whatever

Why Cmail Is Called Cmail
Thanks to the Yellow Rose of Texas for pointing this out to me. (Yes, it's no secret. I just hadn't noticed. I'd noticed the SMTP etc. business in the headers and junk mail errors that looked a _whole_ lot like regular mail, but...) cMail isn't an internal message system like private messaging was. ct96574 @ cherrytap.com (or eschiss1- to use the examples of my own addresses) apparently is now an e-mail address that can receive mail from and send mail to within and without the site. Well, neat.

Love Is Lost
Love is Lost Emotional scars never heal, They always find a way to control how you feel. Love is supposed to be unconditional and free, I guess that isn’t something that is for me. It’s my entire fault I did it to myself, Now he has put his love for me up on the shelf. I guess in his mind it is over, There is no love in the clover. Help me to see this is right, Let me know that I have lost the fight. I love him still, And I always will. He has chosen a side that I am not on, He wants me out so I am gone.

Found
funny how the answers to questions fall into place when you least expect. and from sources you didn't know imaginable. (thank you source!) understanding a thing within (or without) oneself, goes a long way towards discovering oneself. after all that has happened in life one would think the answers obvious. when they are not, that is when that cloud hides the mind from itself. overthinking, over analyzing, the things that sometimes just need to come from afar. things are not always what they seem, how easy it is to forget that. regardless i think i found my mind!

Lovely Lady Contest
Please click on the pic above ...Only if you wish to, or have the time to. Please feel free to vote and comment, for the lovely ladies contest that I entered. Thank you for your help, I don't care either way if I win or not, just thought it would help get the contest going cause he was short contestants. Thank you for your help. ~Melody

27 Apr 07 - Friday
27 Apr 07 - Friday SPC Butler (home havin’ a beer) 1737 Edward Gibbon England, historian (Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire) 1822 [Hiram] Ulysses S[impson] Grant Point Pleasant OH, 18th US President (1869-77, Republican) 1840 Edward Whymper 1st to climb Matterhorn (1865) 1900 Walter Lantz animator (Woody Woodpecker's creator) 1922 Jack Klugman Philadelphia PA, actor (Oscar-Odd Couple, Quincy, Goodbye Columbus) 1932 Casey Kasem Detroit MI, radio personality (American Top 40) 1939 Judy Carne Northhampton England, comedienne (Laugh-in, Fair Exchange) 1939 Jerry Mercer Montréal Québec Canada, rock drummer (April Wine) 1944 Cuba Gooding US singer (Everybody Plays the Fool) 1947 Pete Ham Swansea South Wales, rock guitarist/pianist/vocalist (Badfinger) 1949 Yoshiaki Fujiwara wrestler (NJPW/PWF/UWF) 1951 Ace Frehley Bronx NY, heavy metal rocker (Kiss, Frehley's Comet) 1959 Sheena [Shirley Orr] Easton Belshill Scotland, singer (Morning Train, For Your Eyes Only)

How To Balance Freedom And Security
This is reposted with permission from my Great Friend: DEE-licious Please stop by & rate her blog: http://cherrytap.com/blog/71022/327037# ----------------------------------------------- CIVIL LIBERTIES IN AN AGE OF TERROR How to Balance Freedom and Security The world after 9/11 has led many Western countries to rethink their security policies, but where does the limit lie between protecting citizens and eroding their civil liberties? The terrorist attacks on the Twin Towers in New York, on trains in Madrid, on the subway in London and Tokyo, the suicide-bombers in Israel and Iraq have dramatically increased the demand for security, not only in those societies that were victims of the attacks, but also in other Western societies that are afraid of becoming targets of terrorists. Guaranteeing security is the foremost task of the state. The modern state with its attribute, the monopoly of legitimate force, owes its existence to the desire for security pr

She Has Done It Now!
domino lost her job at diamonds and her gettin fired might cost me mine so with this shit now and a few other things goin on with it just thought i would let everyone know that i am very pissed to fuck off and will be leavin her soon any ?s talk to me one on one and will anser if i feel you know me well enuff that know all of what happened

Missing Child
Amber Alert Missing From: Dover, NC Missing Date: 04/26/07 Issued for: North Carolina: Statewide Contact: If you have information, please contact Craven County Sheriff's Office, 256-636-6620 Circumstances: The child is a Hispanic female. She was taken after homicide of biological mother by the suspect. Missing Child Name: Junni Angel Rios Alias: Hair Color: Black Eye Color: Brown Skin Color: Age: 1YO Height: 2FT Weight: 30LBS Gender: Description: Suspect Name: Jorge Angel Hernandez Alias: Hair Color: Eye Color: Skin Color: Age: 22YO Height: Weight: Gender: Male Description: Vehicle Information Make: Chevrolet Model: Tahoe K1500 Color: Burgandy Interior Color: License State: NC License Text: VVY1522 Vehicle Description:

Todayyyy
Well so far today i haven't really done too much...If i'm doing this blog right now i'm obviously pretty BORED...I did some "gardening" this afternoon repotted some plants for my dragon tank and one for my scorpion, Spike. I also put my Hyacinthe flower in a pot so i can keep it inside for awhile!! Smells sooo pretty! oh and i put a humming bird feeder up, hopefully that will take our cats mind off the dragon lol. I've been downing energy driks all day too!! loves it! and getting hella baked too...Some sad news, this morning one of my fish died, his name was Sushi and he was pretty cool...The female i had in the tank killed him, damn her!!! But at least my shark and other fish are good.OMG i found a teacup yorkie today for only $650, i'm trying to work something out to get one!! Anyways this was a long and pointless blog entry, who ever actually reads these damn things anyways lol... peace

Snow Angels
snow angels by crazyjt in IN This happened back in February. Mick was gone with work again and it was right near Valentines Day. Since Mick was gone I picked up some extra hours at work. It was snowing when I left and promised to be a bad storm. Around 8am my daughter called to say school was cancelled and grandma was going to pick them up. I called my mom and told her to take stuff for overnight since I might work double because of the storm. Sure enough I did. By 11 pm I was ready to head home and soak in the hot tub before getting some sleep. When I walked out I was glad I had taken Mick’s 4x4 truck since there was over a foot of snow and there would be huge drifts out by us. I made the usually ½ hour trip in a little over an hour just wanting to get home and soak. When I turned up our drive I noticed a light on in the house and thought the kids must have left it on earlier. Then I noticed footprints along the drive and really began to wonder what was up. As I slowed near the

I'm Getting A Dead Persons Tendon...
Well I finally saw my surgeon today and he wants to use a cadavers tendon. I hope it's a good one. He says they do that so they don't have to do more surgery on me and the healing time is alot faster. I also found out I'm going to lose my job after my short term disability runs out and my 30 personal leave, but will get hired back after I heal up. Which sucks ass but I'll survive. Well wish me luck. I hope to get through this with no infection. I had a MRSA infection a couple of monthes ago and should bring that up to him so he can take some extra precautions. I hope it doesn't come from this fellow, my guy better be drinkin' Jack~;)>

Suffering In Silence
She has the world singing at her feet,she hears only silence, every beauty imaginable is placed before her she sees only pain.The love of everyone she meets is hers to keep,she feels nothing but hate.It is not because she is uncaring or unfeeling, but she was beaten down too young and never quite understood how to get up again, so she goes on existing waiting for a peaceful end to the pain. Anna

Poooooohhhhh
i'm sick, stupid allergies i had to come back home earlier because i was feeling crappy wanna do something good? here you go, vote for the new 7 wonders!! http://www.new7wonders.com read all the details for each one :) it's super interesting well at least for me lol i got my new glasses finally! scream at me NEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRDDDD :D

Farewell For Awhile
Well, I am not going to have internet access very soon because I have just leased an apartment and I will be moving out of my parents house. I will be able to use mobile Yahoo since I have a cell phone, so if you want to add me on there my screen name is words_make_war. Otherwise, I'll be pretty unreachable. If we're pretty good friends and we've talked a lot and you'd like my number, send me a message and I'll hook you up with that. So long everyone, it's been fun.

You Asked. Or Maybe You Wondered
Nicknames: Twink, Sassy, Babygirl, Sweets, Hugnkiss Hometown: Sarnia, Ont Croutons or Bacon Bits: Both...mmmmm Favorite Salad Dressing: Ranch Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Yes Do you make fun of people: Occasionally Have you ever been convicted of a crime?: Is being too sexy a crime now?? One pillow or two?: 3, lol (really i love pillows) Pets: Nacho, Sparky(moms dog) & Tucker Favorite Type of Music: Top 40 and 80's rock Hobbies: Reading, decorating, cherry tapping Dream Car: A Hummer baby!! Type of Car you drive now: Ford Escort Sport LX Words or Phrases you overuse: Lol & I rock, you suck Toothpaste: Colgate total plus whitening Favorite Food: Tacos, Pizza, pasta Current Boyfriend/Girlfriend: single Piercing or tattoos?: 2 tattoos, 6 piercings Most romantic thing that ever happened to you: my ex finally gave me my divorce :oD lol Do you get along with your parents: Yes, they are my rocks Favorite town to chill in: Ummm

Anniversaries Suck
Tomorrow, april the 27th is my 3 year wedding anniversary. And the spouse has to work, which is fine but he didn't even bother to save alittle money to even take me out or anything for this occasion. I am seriously starting to think that he doesn't care about me. And tonight we have a baby free night and I'm pretty damn sure he's gonna wanna just sit at the computer and play world of warcraft instead of spending time with me, like a normal married couple would do when it's close to their anniversary. Am I wrong for wanting to go out and have a nice dinner for my anniversary? Or should I just shut up and be happy with the same old boring spaghetti he makes every fucking year? He said he was gonna get some real wine and make the most amazing spaghetti this year but he spent all of his spare money on bullshit as usual. Okay maybe I should stop now before I upset myself yet again.

My Bodily Seduction With Arnaldo
I never knew that it could be like this, I find it hard to believe that such a thing could exist, especially the openess and the warmth. The trust that he has even when I talk to my friends Damion, Nolan and Sean. All three were good looking men, of which he wasn't insecure or started acting jealous or stuff along those lines. I just knew him for like a day but it feels like I've known him for years, I guess it was during puberty and times of innocence was what he reminds me of best. He's so tempting to touch... And I'm so tempted to touch as I hear Kevin Little playing at the background. It hurts to touch him. But it feels so good at the same time. Feels like my first. OOooooooooooo...Mmmmmmmmmmm... I can't wait for the break.. I tried to stroke him but..I resisted... and winched......... too much of a bump. SAY HELLO TO MY LOVELY ZIT ARNALDO! Assignments

Sounds Alot Like My Wife
Rihanna – Unfaithful lyrics Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul Cause it seems that wrong Really loves my company He's more than a man And this is more than love The reason that the sky is blue But clouds are rolling in Because I'm gone again And to him I just can't be true And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful And it kills him inside To know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... A murderer I feel it in the air As I'm doing my hair Preparing for another date A kiss upon my cheek As he reluctantly Asks if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hanging with the girls A lie I didn't have to tell Because we both know Where I'm about to go And we know it very

Is There A God?????
maybee its just me but what the fuck.I work at a fast food place and this small girl came in with her family and she was burned bad,no fingers on eather hand and her face was burned too.If there were a god why would he let that happen to a small girl that did nothing to anyone.this shit makes me mad how could this happen to someone so young? I wish it would have happened to me other than her.and i cant stop thinking about her...Someone please tell me what kind of god would let something like this happen???maybee there is no god ,just someone filling your head with some shit that there is a god....sorry had to get that off my chest.

Get Of The Damn Spam Mails
YAHOO NEWS Lawsuit targets 'spam harvesters' McLEAN, Va. - An anti-spam organization filed a federal lawsuit Thursday targeting so-called spam harvesters, who facilitate the mass distribution of junk e-mail by trolling the Internet and collecting millions of e-mail addresses. The lawsuit was filed in U.S. District Court in Alexandria by a Utah company called Unspam Technologies Inc. The company runs a Web site called Project Honey Pot dedicated to tracking spam harvesters worldwide. Project Honey Pot has collected thousands of Internet addresses that it has linked to spam harvesters, but it so far has been unable to link those addresses to an actual person. The lawsuit names a variety of John Does as defendants, and the plaintiffs hope that the legal process will allow them to track the actual people who are harvesting the e-mail addresses, said lead attorney Jon Praed with the Arlington-based Internet Law Group. Collecting e-mail addresses is not by itself illegal, b

Family_vs-nsfw
I have read a few Blogs and Stashes on CT about the guys on here who keep asking to see the Family pics folders of women Ct’ers (I have done it myself asking, How do I get to be a member of your family?). These guys, myself included, are portrayed by the women as pervs and lechers, and that they should get a life or a woman in their life so as not to keep bothering them. My problem is this, if you have a folder on your CT profile marked as Family Only, then isn’t that what it should be about, your Family? I have a folder with only a few pics, so far, of my daughter Amy, but the folder is marked as Amy not Family! The reason for this? I am very proud of our little girl, and would like to share her loveliness with everyone, not just those that I accept into my CT Family, if I have accepted or asked you to be my friend, then you are welcome to see any pics I upload. If I do make a folder called Family, then that is what would be in it my Family, not NSFW. If I make a folder and I mark

Stone Sour, "reborn"
I'm walking through your streets I'm looking in your windows I am elemental now You'll never even know I'm there I'm watching over you I'm living in the shadows I'm just a word to you But I am very real And cold... Cold to all of this Cold to how you feel Cold to all your lose of reason I AM EVERYTHING I AM ANYTHING I AM AUTOMATIC I AM YESTERDAY I AM EVERYDAY I AM GONNA BE... I'm all there is to know I'm all that you've forgotten I'am enigmatic now You never even knew my name I'm dressed tragedy I'm by design immortal I'm just the last one left I'm always here and old... Old and very strong Old as all you feel Old as all the world around you I AM EVERYTHING I AM ANYTHING I AM AUTOMATIC I AM YESTERDAY I AM EVERYDAY I AM GONNA BE... REBORN (This is the start of something) REBORN (This is the start of something) REBORN (This is the start of something) RE...BORN I'm just a secret now I'm just a vague illusion I' a lie you tell yourself Th

Missing Child
ATTENTION: There is an Amber Alert in your area. Please CLICK HERE to find out more information. Missing From: Dover, NC Missing Date: 4/26/2007 12:00 AM Contact: Craven County Sheriff's Office 256-636-6620 Circumstances: The child is a Hispanic female. She was taken after homicide of biological mother by the suspect. Missing ChildName: Junni Angel Rios Hair Color: Black Eye Color: Brown Age: 1YO Height: 2FT Weight: 30LBS Gender: Female SuspectName: Jorge Angel Hernandez Age: 22YO Gender: Male Vehicle Information Make: Chevrolet Model: Tahoe K1500 Color: Burgandy License State: NC License Text: VVY1522

I Can't Believe How Right This Is
What are you trying to achieve? Once you answer that question, you can figure out the best means to get it. Don't spend your life pussyfooting around other people's potential hurt feelings. Figure it out.

You Know You Are Living In 2007
when... 1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave. 2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years. 3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3. 4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you. 5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses. 6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries. 7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen. 8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it. 10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee. 11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : ) 12. You're reading this and nodding and laughing. 13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you ar

Eat Those Bananas!!!
Eat those bananas!!! A professor at CCNY for a physiological psych class told his class about bananas. He said the expression "going bananas" is from the effects of bananas on the brain. Read on: Never, put your banana in the refrigerator!!! This is interesting. After reading this, you'll never look at a banana in the same way again. Bananas contain three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber. A banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy. Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout. No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes. But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet. Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people suffering from depression, man

Non Participatory Friends!
TOP Comment Graphics Hot Site FAV Myspace Tweaks Generators This is not for everyone that I have on my friends list. (And they know who they are!) This is for the people that don't stop by and say hi or anything. I have met a few nice people on here that are faithful in stopping by and rating and commenting and those are the ones that I have time to get to first. So if you want to be one of those few people, holla atcha gurl! I also wanted to take this opportunity to say thanks to those of you that are faithful "true friends"! (Schattenreiter, Beckie, Sexy metalman, sylvia, Drake Tauru, Di, Seejaykaygee, stonecold, vampire jack, el gringo loco, tedy bare, uwannalick, earth angel, all eyez on me, and there are a few more, I'll update this when I remember, sorry). TOP COMMENT Graphics Cool Comments Graphics Images

Note To Self
Turn the TV off while trying to get anything important done that actually has time constraints. Cause, ya know, if Colin Farrell happens to make a guest appearance on a show and you aren't expecting it, and hear that charmingly lilting Irish accent, you will be compelled to watch and aren't gonna get anything done until that show is over. Sigh.

Wicked Boy
How shall I punish you? Kiss you on the tops of your feet while I rub the bottoms? Knead your calves? Climb the length of you slowly while I work my way up? Look into your eyes as I stop at your mid-section? Kiss the hair below your navel and work my way down below the testicles? Lick from the base to the tip, up, down, and around - looking up only when you lock your fingers in my hair? Shall I take you fully into my mouth and move back and forth? Shall I let you move me at your speed until you explode deep inside that wet warmth? And afterward, when you've turned over onto your stomach, shall I massage the length of you and stroke your hair until you fall asleep? Are you spent yet? It's all the punishment I can manage tonight.

The Wall
I stood upon the walls Watching the waves crash below The human tide had come To wash away all before it Like so many times before Nothing had ever halted it Nor slowed nor turned An inevitable force On a mindless path Up they came without mercy Reason gone madness their aim To die by the thousands Thrown back time and again Each time getting nearer Closer to their goal To overtop the wall Run free and wild Raping and looting Burning and pillaging It is all they are and all they know Nothing has stood before them All crushed underfoot Here they stand tested For their coming I have awaited My people stand with me For there is no other choice Fight or die is the simple fact We slay them by the scores No man untouched Arrows and swords Pikes and spears Javelins and rocks Using whatever at hand We strike them down and throw them off To reurn again in another rush Finally the day draws to an end The sight I behold so profound Before they have vanquished

+who Am I........what Do I Want?
yeah I dunno anymore I am a CNA... Nursing student... Graphic arts student... just me.. but it isnt good enough for anyone... what the fuck? I dont care what anyone fucking thinks about me anymore... eat my ass... kiss my ass... fuck you... oh well.. maybe missfortune is my forte

I Knew I Was Right
I know some may not care and for me that is just fine. But today at work was a good day for me. For almost a year now no one could find this meter at an old location. It was put in sometime ago, and it got covered up big time. Well everyone was saying there were only 2 meters there and now with the new store that was there there is a total of 3.. I kept telling them that there was 3 out there before i knew there was, but everyone said no, and everyone kept reading the wrong meter for the wrong store.... well after yesterday i made a promise to myself that this morning when i went into work that i would not leave that place until i found it because i just knew there was another meter out there. Well i was right, there is a 3rd meter there in the area where i thought there was, so that makes for 4 meters instead of 3....I was so proud that i did not give up in what i knew and that was i know my job, may have a bad mememory sometimes but when i remember i remember, so the meter

New Auto Gallery
Hey Everybody Visit My New *Outrages Auto Photo Gallery* Called Big Toys For Big Boys, If You See A Car You Like Show Some Love And Rate That Bad A-s-s Car With Cherry’s LoL….Thanks For Stopping By And Visiting Me. You’re Friend Carlitos Inferno.

Wish You Were Here
How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. Running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears. Wish you were here. xoxo, Miss Classy Cunt

You Seem...
so flussy... so fake... so wrong.. a mistake when you spoke when you wrote.. from those pills that you take.. from the meanings they partake/// you are but a speck let me demonstrate that in this time... you wont be in history books your face won't get second looks and you can't take what you carry with you./ so fake, so phony.. But I realize you're just lonely

Gas War -- An Idea That Will Work
GAS WAR - an idea that WILL work This was originally sent by a retired Coca Cola executive. It came from one of his engineer buddies who retired from Halliburton. It ' s worth your consideration. Join the resistance!!!! I hear we are going to hit close to $4.00 a gallon by next summer and it might go higher!! Want gasoline prices to come down? We need to take some intelligent, united action. Phillip Hollsworth offered this good idea. This makes MUCH MORE SENSE than the "don't buy gas on a certain day" campaign that was going around last April or May! The oil companies just laughed at that because they knew we wouldn't continue to "hurt" ourselves by refusing to buy gas. It was more of an inconvenience to us than it was a problem for them. BUT, whoever thought of this idea, has come up with a plan that can really work. Please read on and join with us! By now you're probably thinking gasoli

Deep Thoughts
* A bus station is where a bus stops. A train station is where train stops. On my desk, I have a work station... * If quitters never win, and winners never quit, what fool came up with "quit while you're ahead"? * I was thinking about how people seem to read the Bible whole lot more as they get older, then it dawned on me. They were cramming for their finals. * I thought about how mothers feed their babies with little tiny spoons and forks, so I wonder what Chinese mothers use...Toothpicks? * Why do they put pictures of criminals up in the Post Office? What are we supposed to do...write to these men? Why don't they just put their pictures on the postage stamps so the mailmen could look for them while they delivered the mail? * How much deeper would oceans be if sponges didn't live there? * If it's true that we are here to help others, then what exactly are the OTHERS here for? * Go ahead and take risks... just be sure that everything will turn out OK. * If you c

Forever
In the brightest hour of my darkest day I realized what is wrong with me Can't get over you. can't get through to you It's been a helter-skelter romance from the start Take these memories that are Haunting me Of a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors He'll never forgive her...he'll never forgive her... Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever Sitting by a fire on a lonely night Hanging over from another good time With another girl... little dirty girl You should listen to this story of a life You're my heroine-in this moment I'm lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams All these drugs all these women I'm never forgiven..this broken heart of mine One last kiss before I go Dry your tears, it is time to let you go One last kiss

Help Me Out!
Hey People, My girl "Mystified" just signed up and I need all my peoples to hit up her page and show her a little CT love and let her know that her girl Mistress Andie sent you. http://cherrytap.com/user/843390

True Meaning Of Love!
"Can I see my baby?" the happy new mother asked. When the bundle was nestled in her arms and she moved the fold of cloth to look upon his tiny face, she gasped. The doctor turned quickly and looked out the tall hospital window. The baby had been born without ears. Time proved that the baby's hearing was perfect. It was only his appearance that was marred. When he rushed home from school one day and flung himself into his mother's arms, she sighed, knowing that his life was to be a succession of heartbreaks. He blurted out the tragedy. "A boy, a big boy...called me a freak." He grew up, handsome for his misfortune. A favorite with his fellow students, he might have been class president, but for that. He developed a gift, a talent for literature and music. "You might mingle with other young people," his mother reproved him, but felt tenderness in her heart. The boy's father had a session with the family physician. Could nothing be done? "I believe I could graft on a pair of outer ears,

Pride And Envy
Striding over the field Sword unsheathed in hand Blood running it's length Blade flashing in the moonlight Corpses lay where they fell An endless panorama of death Foes and friend alike Too many to count And so few to mourn them They took up arms When they should have taken a knee Warred against the throne The end never in question Destiny without a doubt Judgement their only reward For a battle so valiantly fought They paid for their uprising With an everlasting price To be denied Heaven The grace and the light Cast down forever Into darkness and blight They rose up so high Asked to be put down For eons they stormed and raged Assailing the gates Seeking entrance once more But in the end they were struck down As vengeance came upon them Final retribution for all of their sins They sought to cast down he who made all But their pride was so great They took no note of the truth There was no chance or hope Facing a power beyond reason A wrath so justl

Deployment Time
Well the time has come. I am deploying somewhere between May 9th and May 14th. I am really nervous becuase I don't know what to expect or where we are going. As of time now, they have no clue where we are going. Is it because they really don't want to tell us? Maybe. Is it because they don't know themselves? Could be. All I can say is LACK OF COMMUNICATION. People need to talk to one another and get some real answers. To me, this is bull shit. I didn't get my orders to go there until 2 days ago. Alot of other people got theirs 3 weeks ago. I am going to a CLS class right now. CLS stands for Combat Life Saver. I had to zero my weapon and qualify on Tuesday and Wednesday. Hopefully we don't do anthing in last weeks to come. I am really tired of the hush hush bull shit. My so called high speed Commander and 1SG don't even know or they aint saying anything if they do. Well I guess I will shut my mouth before I say something to really get into trouble. Everyone have a great d

Where I Belong
I may have a smile on my face I may not even look sad But the smile is out of place They dont want to deal with something so bad I am going through so much pain I hate everything that I have gone through But I know theres nothing to gain So those stupid things I just wont do I look to others for encouragement I hear what they whisper and say My days on earth are badly spent But they say I'll find better one day! I dont know why, but I just dont agree I feel so lame and weak telling me theres someone just for me But to find him first I must seek I must find out who I want to be I dont understand what they say But if I search hard enough I'll find me Though it takes some time to find ones way I will search deep within my heart I want to know where is my place So today is the day I start this way my life isnt considered a waste

Backhand Me
All seems to be quiet on the North front, but small remains of a shattered breath still hums. Lonely and solice is the tune from the world that bent you over its knee and claimed victory in the dark region of no sunshine. Taking it dry from the world and everything in it, you walk as if a silver spoon has been placed in your ass for safe keeping, just incase someone wants another taste. It wouldnt so much matter as long as mercy was granted somewhere in between the toture of memorable mistakes and empty promises. Sometimes people just cant see what the good thing is, not even while it is right in front of them kicking them in the balls. Sometimes ignorance is just the best route for those who deny the fact that indeed they have been sentences to a road in which few can travel let alone walk on. In triggered emotions of anger and pain it was the lasting thoughts of a born love that brought on the hope that maybe one day everything would pass. It is this grey lull where nothing seems

Cheating For Two
I know its him you despise As you try to look into his eyes What he did to you Doesnt mean for you to do it too Listen to me and let me explain I know your pain I know what you're going through Dont so what you think you should do Wait for his return Then break it off there And watch him yearn For your love and care In the end you know its true That what he has done to you He truely shouldnt have done So in the end you werent number 1 I know it hurts like hell But he is the one that fails To realize you were more Then just a fling or a whore But the way you went about doing what you did means you just spent Your time wtih him for nothing So stop this somehow I can tell you now Dont do this anymore I have seen it all before It can only end in a mess Trust me I know this best I have had it happen to me Its not something you want to see

Hidden Beneath The Smile?
The fake faces And the smile I too had them For a short while You try to hide Your emotions Deep inside Causing a commotion Figuring its better to hide What you see fit But, In me you can abide And I wont repeat any of it I know how you feel I've been there too I know you dont want to deal But its something we must do It's a way to move on With all that has taken place I know it was a sacred bond But not in this time, Not in this space I wish it werent true None of it occurred Nothing happened between me and you Not ever exchanging a single word You are just a part of me A part that I imagined Something that could never be So it never happened Goodbye to the memory To all the things I know All the things I wanted to be Goodbye I have to go! ©Tammy Roscoe

No Clue
One day he says to me I love you But we just cant be And theres nothing I can do What is there What dont I see Did you ever care Could we ever truely be Before you knew me You said I love you Why cant you be The one I want you to You told me to open my heart To give you my love Then we would never part I do hoping to come out above I dont want to be Someone who will die Heart Broken, hoping its not me But int he end I say goodbye I dont want to feel this pain I know that I love you But I see I cannont gain Anything, what can I do? But my heart Cant take it, I sigh Its been torn apart So heres one last goodbye!

Encouragement
You tell me its ok To think and say What I know I need to let out But no one can know what I think about You read the words I write You know this pain, You too had to fight To try and hide What you once felt inside I know I am weak I wasnt allowed to speak So when there is a story to tell many find they know it well I try to keep it inside The things I think I should hide Though I know it isnt good They shut me up like I should I weep and cry They'll never know why You said "let it out, Its ok" So I looked to you and found my way Thank you for the praise You have given me these days It helps me express How I feel in a way I know best

For You
Nine months have come and gone, a lot of things have past. There were many times I thought I wouldn't be here, times when I thought I wouldn't last. Many times when I thought that I should be the one walk away and save my heart the pain of saying goodbye to you one day. But then I thought how I hate the fact I'd miss you and hate the fact i'd cry, if I never had another chance to look into your eyes. I hate the fact that I love your smile and the way you smell. I hate it when you make me laugh and even more when you make me cry. Because everytime we laugh you see, its gets harder to say goodbye. I hate the fact I love you for who you have helped me become, and that it took your help to discover who I was. I'm not the girl I was nine months ago, i don't know where she's gone. I hate the fact I love the girl who was left here in her place. Without you I would never have found her, she would have never broken free. I hate the fact that when we say goodbye this girl I found won't be st

A Little Bit Of Info
I am 38 years old and have problems with my health. I recently found out that I have no cartiledge around either of my knee caps and that they no longer stay in place. I had surgery that was supposed to correct this problem but it only made it worse. Now everytime I move it is all bone on bone and my knee caps sometimes go into a posistion where they lock up and I can't move them. I also have problems with my left shoulder. I have had 2 surgeries on that to fix problems but now they tell me that is just has to be replaced but they won't do it yet because I am too young. I guess that the replacement only lasts 10 years and they can only do it twice so I have to wait till I get older. So that is the story of my health problems. I hope to someday be able to have something done so that I can reduce the pain that I am in. Thank you for listening and letting me vent, Shane

Because You've All Been Asking About
If this thing I keep posting is real: This is my account: You get $5 for signing up, $1 for each survery you do, and 10 cents for each email you click open. Plus you get money from anyone you refer once you join. So if you want to, please join, if you don't like it, just cancel your account. Hugs and Kisses, Jen

Nightfall
Loneliness and bitterness Two companions forever more Locked for all time inside Never let loose or set free Release is something never found Freedom is but a shattered dream Soul searching a waste Optimisim a foolish notion Living without meaning or hope Dreading the light of day Waiting for darkness to finally settle Blessed peace once and for all The endless sleep and a final escape

Just Another Day At Work!
Hey everyone, today is just another day at work, out here in the oilfield, and away from my Cyn. So, like most days out here, I am sitting out here watching this gas well, and thinkin bout my girl Cyn. Other than that, aint much goin on here. Oh ya, if anyone is in the market for a 93 Ford Ext. cab dually that has a new motor, trans, and a lot of other done to it, hollar at me and we will talk. Laterz.........Love ya Cyn!

Part Six
Onboard the Monterey in December 2002, I took over as Leading Petty Officer for the Electronics Division with 4 work centers of Radar Technicians, Communications Technicians, and Interior Communications Technicians (IC). There were 20 of us in the division and we also maintained the miniature and microminiature electronics repairs and personnel working aloft programs. In Feb 2003, the ship was invited to Mardi Gras, but not to New Orleans. The Captain was a native of Mobile Alabama and we went there, which is actually the origin of the American Celebration of the day preceeding Lent. It's also a better family atmosphere than New Orleans, however, many sailors took a bus to New Orleans to partake of the festivities there. On our way there, we lost a shipmate who took his life by jumping overboard. We spent hours looking for him, with one of my sailors as a Search and Rescue swimmer in the water. On the way back, we held a memorial service in the exact spot where he jumped

Help My Friends Out
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Knon Benefit Tonight! 4-26-2007
Come out to The Rockstar Bar tonight in Fort Worth and check out-- live with Alcohollica! (Metallica tribute band) This show benefits KNON 89.3 FM Dallas Texas -The Voice of The People! With Thrashin Alan hosting and broadcasting live on location at The Rockstar Bar! Check out www.rockstarbarsportsbar.com for directions! Hope to see you there! Yeah I know it's a Thursday but come on out anyway and get your weekend party on a day early!!

This Is Interesting
Your Personality is Somewhat Common (ISFJ) Your personality type is stubborn, conservative, trustworthy, and caring. About 13% of all people have your personality, including 18% of all women and 7% of all men You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Judging. How Rare Is Your Personality?

Frustrations
Hi all, I have a 9 yr old boy who is starting to really frustrate me here lately. He isn't acting like himself and i am wondering if there is something going on at school. A couple of years ago, when he was in the 1st grade he had a boy that was really bullying him, and instead of telling us or the teacher, or anyone else, he let all his anger build until one day the boy threw playdough at his head and hit him. My son turned around and stuck a sharpened pencil in the boy's hand. We have talked about this and he nows tells us when something is wrong at school or he tells the teacher/ principal. Here lately he seems distracted, more worried about small things then actually doing what he needs to be doing, like home work, making sure i check it all and sign his book, giving me important paperwork, etc..... He is a very good boy, and i know that it is nearing the end of school, and he is tired and ready for a break and fun, but for right now he needs to concentrate on school and completing

Some Facts About The 1500s
Next time you are washing your hands and complain because the water temperature isn't just how you like it, think about how things used to be.... Here are some facts about the 1500s: - Most people got married in June because they took their yearly bath in May and still smelled pretty good by June. However, they were starting to smell so brides carried a bouquet of flowers to hide the body odor. - Baths consisted of a big tub filled with hot water. The man of the house had the privilege of the nice clean water, then all the other sons and men, then the women and finally the children--last of all the babies. By then the water was so dirty you could actually lose someone in it-hence the saying, "Don't throw the baby out with the bath water." - Houses had thatched roofs--thick straw, piled high, with no wood underneath. It was the only place for animals to get warm, so all the dogs, cats and other small animals (mice rats, and bugs lived in the roof. When it rained it became sl

A Cute Joke
The Good Husband Jack wakes up with a huge hangover after attending his company's Christmas party. Jack is not normally a drinker, but the drinks didn't taste like alcohol at all. He didn't even remember how he got home from the party. As bad as he was feeling, he wondered if he did something wrong. Jack had to force himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins next to a glass of water on the side table. And, next to them, a single red rose! Jack sits up and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotlessly clean. So is the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins, cringes when he sees a huge black eye staring back at him in the bathroom mirror. Then he notices a note hanging on the corner of the mirror written in red with little hearts on it and a kiss mark from his wife in lipstick: "Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to get groceries to make you you

Lost....
i am constantly lost....even online, i dont know where to go and what to say....im in need of something new in my life but that person doesnt exist or is to far way to realize it....i have some bad luck or something around me keeping me from being happy....karma,.. i keep my hopes up knowing that someone in this world loves me and ill eventually find them....dont lose hope..right?...im not exactly sure anymore but i hope someone hears my cry for help....thanks for listening or not listening or whatever...:P stephen c.

Lost In My Own Pain
At one time I was told to always follow my heart for it will never lead me astray. what whisdom I thought this was comming from someone who seemed to have it all in life and love. So I took that chance and let my heart lead my way, opened up all that was with in and loved to the fullest, only to have my heart ripped out and tossed around like a play toy. How does one recover? feelings and emotions mixed with pain and hurt, do you sit and cry, let this bring you down to a level of nonworth, tear yourself appart wondering what did I do wrong, am I that bad, find yourself thinking of thoughts of how to make the pain stop forever. Would they miss me, would they think of me, would it really matter. This is all of what has been going through my mind. Then one day my heart woke up again and started making me feel started making me know that yes they would miss me yes they would think of me yes I am worth it and no I did nothing to derserve such pain and torment. I can look at

Cool Set Of Rules (comes With Warning Label)
Rule number 1 Women, learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. Ammendment to rule number 1 I now leave not just the seat down, but the lid too, because I got too many accusations of peeing on the seat when it was the dog drinking out of it and dripping on the seat.....so now, don't complain that you have to lift the lid to pee. Rule number 1 Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not considered by us to be opportunities to see if we can find the perfect present . . . . again! Rule number 1 Sometimes we are not thinking about you. Live with it. Rule number 1 Sunday = sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. Rule number 1 Don't cut your hair. Ever. Long hair is always more attractive than short hair. One of the big reasons guys fear getting married is that married women always cut their hair, and by

What Kinda Drunk Are You?
What's Kinda Drunk Are you?The Happy DrunkLet the good times roll! When you’re out drinking with your friends, you’re there to have a good time and nothing more. Isn’t that what drinking is all about? You’re a blast to be around when it’s time to celebrate; always the life of the party. Who wouldn’t want to drink with someone who’s always cheerful and up for a good time? In your case, alcohol is not a depressant because in the midst of total drunken bliss, you always manage to fill the night with a whole lot of fun and laughter.How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

When Are We As An Native American Ppl Going To Wake Up
Health study finds American Indians a 'vulnerable' group A new report paints a grim picture of American Indians as more likely than the general U.S. population to be poor and unemployed, to live in single-parent households, and to die young. Titled "Changing Numbers, Changing Needs: American Indian Demography and Health," the report -- released Wednesday by the National Research Council -- focuses on the major health problems Indians face. Overall, American Indians are a "vulnerable" population, the report said. "In the long term, improving the situation of American Indians will require substantial efforts to improve their education and health, along with efforts to provide employment opportunities, both on and off the reservations," the report said. Culling many sources, the report is a goldmine of information on the nation's nearly 2 million American Indians, a group that the authors say is the least studied in the nation. Among the report's findings:

Take Me Home
The sun kissed my cheeks, bringing color to my skin, that was pale and drawn under, A sickly thing. I opened my eyes, to the day that had dawned. Pulling me out of my darkness, wrapping me up in it's warmth. I washed my face in the sweet smell of mild winds. Allowed my spirit to rise with the dancing leaves at my feet. I watched and I listened, till I could understand. Where my life began. My heart beating, my hand steady, I set forth, on the gentle path. I see you, my home, My mountains and sunshine. Soft grasses and towering trees, for all the eye to see. Devouring it, my senses do, to be home once again. No not city scapes and paved streets, but rocky hills and cracked sidewalks, Park fountains and giggling children. I miss you, the home of my heart. The church on the hill, sits in my minds eye, calling me back with it's echoing bells, the sweet tones of faith that greeted me every morning.

Brain Quiz
The following short quiz consists of 4 questions and will tell you if > you are qualified to be a professional. Scroll down for each answer. > The questions are NOT that difficult. But don't scroll down UNTIL you > have answered the question! > > 1. How do you put a giraffe into a refrigerator? > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > The correct answer is: > > Open the refrigerator, put in the giraffe, and close the door. > > This question tested whether you tend to do simple things > > in an overly complicated way. > > > 2. How do you put an elephant into a refrigerator? > > > > > > > > > > > > Did you say, Open the refrigerator, > > put in the elephant, and close the refrigerator? > Wrong Answer. > > Correct Answer: Open the refrigerator, take out the giraffe, > > put in the elephant and close the door. > > This tested your ability to think through the repercussions of your > previous actions. > > > 3. The Lion King is hostin

Early Morning- 11-2007
I woke up with a start this morning, no good morning, no Hello's, just the sound of two children out of control. A three year old with a mind of his own, whose words dig deeper, it's like a sinking stone, this thing, my heart. It's breaking each day, as I watch my grip on reality break away. The chill in the air, makes my body shiver, My mind is on what I have to deliver. A job, a home, a life that's so good. So I can prove to myself, what is right. I watch as they play, as they wrestle and fight. I hear the crying, the bitching, the lowdown, no good skeeming And I wonder, where do I belong? My heart it is bitter, My mind is raging made. It's like wild waters, breaking from the land. Disturbed, I feel as my heart beats this beat. The constant tears, they don't seem to peak. It's a mountain I climb each day of my life. From early morning, to late at night. When will it be my turn to dance? To Stand and Deliver, t

Two Weeks Smoke Free
yea i have two weeks smoke free. I am so proud of myself. i was able to get a handle on the dreams but i had to start taking some herbal supplements. i am taking Valerian and melatonin. they are to help you sleep and the valerian is for stress aswell. i think that is the one helping me with the dreams. anyway. i hope this little blog helps someone else to quit smoking. oh and i have to tell you. i smell great! i know that's a funny thing to say but i don't smell like smoke anymore. i still smell my perfume at the end of the day. my hair smells really good too:D

The Thinking Of A Woman Compared To The Thinking Of A Man...
An elderly woman walked into the Bank of Canada one morning with a purse full of money. She wanted to open a savings account and insisted on talking to the president of the Bank because, she said, she had a lot of money. After many lengthy discussions (after all, the client is always right) an employee took the elderly woman to the president's office. The president of the Bank asked her how much she wanted to deposit. She placed her purse on his desk and replied, "$165,000". The president was curious and asked her how she had been able to save so much money. The elderly woman replied that she made bets. The president was surprised and asked, "What kind of bets?" The elderly woman replied, "Well, I bet you $25,000 that your testicles are square." The president started to laugh and told the woman that it was impossible to win a bet like that. The woman never batted an eye. She just looked at the president and said, "Would you like to take my bet?"

Things I Have Done
1. My brother decided to throw my shoe in the grass, during the night, and would not help me find it. So I decided to take his matress off his bed and put it on the balcony. 2. my brother got on my nerves so I threw his shoe out the window...but I ended up having to get it. 3. I drew penises and LAO and the wor Penis fuck on my brother's door. 4. My one friend I hung out with in highschool always got called Avril Lavine, cause she dressed like her. So when we went ou in public I told these kids "OMG LOOK AVRIL LAVINE" and they was like is it really?? and got all excited I only did it cause I knew she hated it 5. I let off a stink bomb in the ladies bathroom and the mall and made some woman jump and yell Jesus Crist. 6. I put a bag of my own throw up on my brothers bed since he did not listen and take out the trash. 7. I sprayed paint a board dissing this bimbo loser chick who I hate. 8. I always left gym class i hs...and went home early ++++I did more let me t

I Have Robbed Myself Of All My Precious Time
Sometimes I can't believe those days are gone Most of my friends back then have moved along One's in Hollywood one's a millionaire Some are gone for good some still livin' here Me I'm just the same lost in a crowd Lookin' for the rain in a thunder cloud I have moved around but it don't matter though One thing I have found there are just two ways to go It all comes down to livin' fast or dyin' slow

~letting Someone In Ur Heart~
How many times does it take to let someone in ur heart only to get hurt by them over and over till ur fed up? Well been there twice and got hurt twice, is 3rd time the charm? I have met yet again a WONDERFUL man, he lives nearby and we try to see each other oftenly. I am cautious, yet I have fallen for him more than I wanted to yet and that's not a bad thing. He is a great man, loving caring, cooks, helps always wanting to be loved back in return, calls, texts, sends messages always saying hi and I love you. His name is Darrell and yes I love him and gave him my heart and he has given me his!! We get along soo well and have ALOT in common as well as been thru alot in our past and are able to share it!! All I can say is, if no one can be happy for me then too bad I am happy for me and happy for him too. WE ARE HAPPY!! And in time, our children will be too and accept each of us. I love you Darrell!!!

Heard This On The Sopranos - Powerful!
Evidently Chickentown Lyrics - JOHN COOPER-CLARKE the bloody cops are bloody keen to bloody keep it bloody clean the bloody chief's a bloody swine who bloody draws a bloody line at bloody fun and bloody games the bloody kids he bloody blames are nowehere to be bloody found anywhere in chicken town the bloody scene is bloody sad the bloody news is bloody bad the bloody weed is bloody turf the bloody speed is bloody surf the bloody folks are bloody daft don't make me bloody laugh it bloody hurts to look around everywhere in chicken town the bloody train is bloody late you bloody wait you bloody wait you're bloody lost and bloody found stuck in bloody chicken town the bloody view is bloody vile for bloody miles and bloody miles the bloody babies bloody cry the bloody flowers bloody die= the bloody food is bloody muck the bloody drains are bloody fucked the colour scheme is bloody brown everywhere in chicken town the bloody pubs are bloody dull the

I'm Moving
i have to move. im staying in the same town but i have to move to a diff house. i hate moving but it's for a good reason. so i may not be here much over the next month. ill will try to check in from time to time. and i promise to be back. I'll make my computer is the first thing to be hooked up:D

Lumidee - She's Like The Wind
"She's Like The Wind" (feat. Tony Sunshine) Yea Yo Tony Sunshine [Lumidee] Listen baby I’ve been around I know that you like how I wear my crown And I know that im something that is so profound So far what im hearing look I like the sound Everybodys talkin about it We could be talkin why would u doubt it Your plams are sweaty and your heart sounds poundin This is what u feeling tell me about it [Tony Sunshine] Shes like the wind Thru my tree (baby yea baby yea) Shes rides all night Next to me Like u won’t believe (No) She leaves me the moonlight Only to burn me wit the sun Damn it I believe she knows She takin my heart She doesn’t know what shes done Baby please I feel her breath in my face (baby I can feel) Her bodys close to me (her body close to me) Can’t look in her eyes (can’t look in your eyes) Shes outta my league (shes outta my league oh) Just a fool to believe Shes got everything I need Shes like the wind [Lumidee] If u cant conceiv