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Beyond
Soft splatters of paint hit the canvas Markings of an image seen through nightly images Some splats are black others seem bright A stroke of genius, bringing in new life Reflections seen through the artist interpretations Lost felt souls stirring around our imaginations Dark colored clouds circling the heavy skys Visions of what to come before the storm dies Over to the right, a lighter shade is drawn A bright yellow ray from the sunshine of dawn Swiftly with each stroke, the canvas begins to take form Could this be the end, or just the calm before the storm? Seamless the artists closes his eyes, and the brush takes control Patterns become frantic, clearly the brush is on a roll Colors meshed together blended for only our eyes to respond Passions of our dreams painted now and far Beyond!

Inside A Depressive's Head
It feels like I'm falling it's hard to hold on, Would anyone notice if I was gone. All alone with no one there All I want is someone to care. Life's a struggle from day to day, Ive had enough, I just wanna walk away, But you cant walk away it finds you, It knows what to do and how to get to you. Never free yet not far from misery. One day your on a high The next you don't care if you live or die. It's the name of the game, The pain is free then you got the misery. It ruins lives without a thought to spare, It ruined mine, I didn't care, I just wished I wasn't there. There are a lucky few who knew what to do, Got help and got through, I'm not that lucky, That'd be a treat, I embrace my death because that I'm ready to meet. Not everyone's life can be so sweet. It makes you cry you want to die, It tests your limits and pushes you to the edge, Now ask yourself, Don't you wish you was dead. If it would ease the strain and stop the pain I

Sorry This Isn't A Corny Love Poem.
Sorry that I can't write a corny love poem, Something about stars and the night moon, About hearts skipping beats and butterflies, I also don't see one of them coming soon. Sorry that I can't write you a poem, my friend, About how you have my hand and my heart, And how no one could separate us in the end, But not mention that it would happen at the start. Sorry I can't write something to make it okay, To make you feel better and so you feel at ease, Maybe I am being selfish and "not caring" lately, Cos I wouldn't write it even if you said please. Sorry I can't write anything that'll satisfy you, About a forever that I refuse to believe in, Even if you swear, it doesn't affect me - it's true. Because this is what I think and feel within. There are no love poems and no happy poems, None that you want to bother reading anymore, Simply because everything's a lie I've come to see, And life's not butterflies and rainbows, it's a self war. And right now, I'm losi

Scotland
The average Englishman in the home he calls his castle, slips into his national costume - a shabby raincoat - patented by Chemist Charles Macintosh from Glasgow, Scotland. En route to his office he strides along the English lane, surfance by John Macadam of Ayr, Scotland. He drives an English car fitted with tyres invented by John Boyd Dunlop, Veterinary Surgeon of Dreghorn, Scotland. At the office he receives the mail bearing adhesive stamps invented by John Chalmers, Bookseller and Printer of Dundee, Scotland. During the day he uses the telephone invented by Alexander Graham Bell, born in Edinburgh, Scotland. At home in the evening his daughter pedals her bicycle invented by Kirkpatrick Macmillan, Blacksmith of Thornhill, Dumfriesshire, Scotland. He watches the news on T.V. an invention of John Logie Baird of Helensburgh, Scotland and hears an item about the U.S. Navy founded by John Paul Jones of Kirkbean, Scotland. Nowhere can an englishman turn to escape

My Artificial Happiness
Some days I find myself trying to be happy by pretending to be. I sit there and laugh, Hide behind my fake smile. No one will ever know. I'm in a daze, staring off into space. Too much lurks in my mind. The tears build up, But I hold them in. In fear that someone will sense my unhappiness, and they will disapprove. Sympathy, I can live without. I live my life in the future. My superstitious ways give me hope. ~Maybe if i wish on that star tonight my wishes will finally come true~ My peace of mind comes when I sleep. ***I wish I could sleep forever*** But just as the rest, That wish wont be granted. So I will continue my life in artificial happiness.

I've Had Enough Now
I can not sleep again, My eyes constantly weep, I keep falling into myself, I am afraid of getting in too deep. I am slipping in the edge, Strongly ready to fall, Just to let go, And turn my back on it all. I am drowning in bad memories, So sick of crying inside, I have just had enough now, My corner is eroding away where I hide. My body is dying slowly, Wasting all away, I am slipping further, With each passing day. Burning out like a flame, Into a dark solitary place, Losing my undignified fight, As my tears fall down my face. I lie back, And suddenly I can not breathe, All I want in life, Is to quickly leave. Because I can not stand this, Can not cope with this anymore, My heart is badly broken, Scattered across the floor. Beyond being fixed, Pieces can never be but back together, It is too late, I can not be helped, This is me forever. I would rather walk away from here, I want to be dead, I wish I was never born, And to the happy

Show Me Some Luv!
PLZ stop by and show some luv to my cuz! ty all ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If you have time and can help me out in ANY way in this comment bombing contest for a 7 day blast, i would appreciate it! Thank you! Click on the photo below this to go directly there. No rates, just comments, LOTS of comments. LOL ? Joy ? FAN Me & i'll fan you back TY ? Gumdropz Lollys Candyland Candies@ CherryTAP The contest will run from May 31st until June 9th.... the one with the most comments wins.

Hell She Is Obssesed With Me!
Wow, stay off here for a few days and come back to see my stalker is still watching my page in the tops spot! What a fucking whore!! Who viewed me I viewed Blocked "Totally Happy&#... (HA HA HA) Badestbiotch Nyte Ryder (CT Hubby... CherryCodes.com Siranthony7 See All

Thanks Guys!!!!!!
I just want to tell all of you guys thank you for helping me win my happy hour! A big thank you to CT DADDY for making it possible!!!!! For all of you out there that have never had and want to know what a Happy Hour is like, I left the summary below. Again a big thank you to all my friends and family new and old!!!! I love you guys so much!!!! XOXO ~Jamie~

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Hey Everyone!!! I am spending less time on CT these days. Anyhow my true passion is forums. I love to post and interact with people in that setting. Here you can't really do it unless you sticky something. Who want's to come play? Check out http://speakyourminds.net/forums It is a forum where anyone can "Speak Your Mind" about anything they want!There are areas for crime and missing people as well as chit chat and tv stuff. Since it is a baby forum (brand new) I need help to get it rocking. We have an arcade with lotsa games like Mario and Pac Man as well as black jack and pinball! You can talk about anything you want. We are 64 members strong now so please come check us out! I really hope you come post with us...I wanna know all my friends better!! http://speakyourminds.net/forums

Hello Everyone!
Hi everyone out there, I am still trying to figure out all of the things to do here on Cherry Tap. I really dont get alot of time to spend here by myself without my kids over my shoulder...so anyways anyone with suggestions or just wants to talk....give me a shout or leave me a message....and yes i will be adding more pictures as soon as i can, having knee surgery soon so it may take a bit....look forward to talking to anyone who is real, down to earth and not just here to play games.....Hope everyone is having a great day!!!!!

So True
Virgo men leans to perfectionism and needs to know they play a major role in their lover’s life. Their dream is to have just one relationship for the entire lifetime, however they must be sure about the person they want to engage with before taking any decision. Right after that, they give their heart and soul.

Underestimated Depression
This is who I am And as sad as it may be Nothing can compare To the sadness within me Do you know what its like To wake each morning in pain? To go to sleep each night Hoping not to see another day Inside me is a disease One that cannot be cured I suffer from depression Its demons have me lured I'm haunted every moment And sometimes even teased By the cruel ways of this sickness It's a hunger that always feeds People come and go They leave because they're scared And when its said and done They say they really cared Oh but stay a little while Because if you listen close You will start to hear A meeting of the Devil's ghosts He speaks of how he'll get us By putting our life to an end He tries to make us believe That suicide is our friend And those we think are strong All too soon give in And as they take their fall The Devil gives a grin And those we think are weak Are the ones that do pull through The ones that live on to tell This painful story to you

Behind Every Smile
Behind every smile There's a sad little child Who's crying inside Trying to hide it for a while Behind every smile There's someone trying to break through To show their real selves To no longer be blue Behind every smile There's someone telling a lie Not allowing anyone to see All the tears that they've cried Behind every smile There's another sad face Whose suicidal thoughts Made them fall from grace Behind every smile There's somebody real Who tries to hide their pain And never show how they really feel Behind every smile There's some lost soul Just waiting to be found That's their primary goal Behind every smile There's a secret being kept That's killing them inside And the reason they just wept Behind every smile Is someone all alone Who can't stand the yelling And wishes to leave their home Behind every smile Is a sad little story That they keep bottled up And forever will they worry Behind every smile There's someone who lost

To Seduce Me =)
To Seduce a Virgo Man The type of woman who attracts the Virgo man in search of company always appears well groomed and conservatively dressed -- and, above all, has an air of propriety. They are very particular, and desire nothing short of perfection in their potential mates, which can leave them out in the cold more often than not. Good manners and good taste are essential for the consort of a Virgo man, as is a sense of personal responsibility. He can be slowly seduced by a woman who can makes herself useful to him in little ways that can make him feel as though he cannot get along without her assistance. A Virgo man's paradox is that while he is seeking the perfect person (and rejecting many who were judged not perfect enough), he may settle his attentions on a woman who present a "unique fixer-upper opportunity."

Home-made Alternatives To Toxic Household Products
Home-Made Alternatives to Toxic Household Products All-Purpose Cleaner 1 quart warm water 1 teaspoon liquid soap 1 teaspoon borax 1/4 cup undiluted white vinegar Mix ingredients and store in a spray bottle. Use for cleaning countertops, floors, walls, carpets and upholstery. Glass Cleaner 1 quart warm water 1/4 cup white vinegar (or 2 tablespoons lemon juice) Mix ingredients and store in a spray bottle. Dip a wet sponge in baking soda to clean a glass oven door. Stain Remover 1 part glycerin 1 part liquid dish washing detergent 8 parts water Test on unexposed area of fabric. Apply to stain as soon as possible and blot with cloth. Store in a plastic squeeze bottle. Shake well before each use. Disinfectant Use 1/2 cup of borax in one gallon of hot water. To prevent mold or mildew from forming, don’t rinse off the borax solution. Oven Cleaner 1 quart warm water 2 teaspoons borax 2 tablespoons liquid soap Spray on

One For The Cutter
This one's for The one who dreams all day Wishing that someone Will just take them away This one's for The one who found their life long mate But soon discovered That being alone was their only fate This one's for The one whose heart beats black Just because They didn't like them back This one's for The one who wears long sleeves To cover up the marks Praying that no one sees This one's for The one who never cries While thinking all day How perfect it would be to die This one's for The one who lost their friends Who said they be there always And help them till the end This one's for The one who chose the knife Thinking it would make things better Hoping it would get them through this life This one's for The one who has no more tears Because in their life They've experienced all their fears This one's for The one who sits in the dark Just so they can't see Their arm and all the marks This one's for The one who wears a smile a

Depression Is Who I Am...
When I wake up in the morning I just can’t help but cry Because it really hurts to know That inside I want to die This life I thought I had Has fallen before my eyes And the only way to hide it Is to cover it up with lies It seems I'm always crying And crying is all I do And all this makes me question If ill ever make it through I thought I had it all But the truth is I was wrong And each day it gets harder To continue being strong My smiles looking fake And my eyes are showing tears And all I guess this shows Is that I have so many fears I’ve tried to make this right I’ve done my very best But it doesn’t even matter For in the end I am depressed Depression is what I am And who I am inside And even thought I’ve tried From depression I cannot hide...

Sex Horoscope For 6-3-2007
Virgo: During this time of the disharmonious aspect of transiting Venus to Venus your feelings will be intense, but certainly a bit superfluous. It is important to care about forms but, obviously, love cannot be sustained only by extraneous details, more or less fancy gestures, gifts or painstaking care of the personal image, Virgo! If you are in a stable relationship such as marriage, you will be enthused to enjoy yourself, to relax, squander your energy and indulge in intensive leisure, all of which could lead to a certain vacuum sensation upon recapturing your daily responsibilities. You have to find a way to use your spare time for the most creative leisure this month. The Single Virgo: If you are in love with someone and up until now have not expressed your feelings, it probably would be a good time to do it, provided that you are sure and know for certain that your selection is right. If you already have someone or are married, use this chance to reaffirm your love fo

I'll Bleed It All Away
I know I said I'll leave the blade and learn to deal a different way. But I still cant calm my sorrow unless i bleed it all away. I had to put away my knife and let my wounds turn into scars I tried to find my own way out on a night that had no stars. I tried to fight this all alone to let all my old scars fade. But i find myself once more picking up this rusted blade. I'm sorry that i let you down that to your face i lied. But i just cant bear the pain its tearing me apart inside. Here I sit, blood dripping down, my weakened hands still write. Tears wash away the crimson ink as the pain i try to fight. I cant stop saying that I'm sorry, sorry if you're hurting too. I just don't want to deal with things, every thing I'm going through. Tired of hearing all these lies that keep shredding up my heart. I cant choose between the things that have torn my soul apart. I cant keep hiding from the truth cant keep hiding behind these eyes these eyes tha

Today Is A Day I Will Never Forget!
Today is a day I will never forget! I almost had a heart attack this morning when I woke up! I had thought either some bug had bitten me or maybe I was having a reaction to something I had eaten or drank. I got up thinking what am I going to do what am I going to do, ohhhh maybe some aspirin will help but I don’t have any and it’s Sunday; the MEA Medical Clinic is not open today. All swollen and stiff and just throbbing away I figured maybe a good shower would help but it didn’t so I dried off and started to put my clothes on and then raced to the bath room before going to the Emergency Room which is a long ride for me. When I came out of the bath room I notice all the swelling had gone down and it was not throbbing anymore….whewwww!

Welcome To My Life
I open my eyes But maybe its better they stay closed For what misery today will bring I just don't know Every day is like the one before I find I'm more hurt and lost Than ever before I can't remember a time Where I was happy and smiling It feels like forever That inside I've been dying It's strange But I've got use to it Being this way It's part of my life now Depressed everyday I thrive on the sadness That tears at my heart I find some sort of comfort in it This pain that rips me apart I was once smiling Once warm And so care free Now I look at myself And say "What has happened to me?" What made me this way? So cold and lost Were the memories so bad That I forced them to be forgot How I can brake free? And leave this behind I'm tired of being this way all the time I just want to be held close But I know I'll push everyone away I'm too scared to let anyone in Because I know no one will stay How do you fix a soul Which has piece

This Is A Message I Got In My Inbox Lol
Hold me very close tonight. I want you more than I want my life. Much More. Kiss me quickly. I love you. You are sleeping. I will quietly crawl in next to you, close my eyes, and enter your dream. All night long. Laughing. Playing with words Pillows blankets . Falling in love. falling asleep. Not making love until the next morning and the birds are singing. As we both wake up you reach under the covers feeling how hard my cock is, I reach over to feel your nipples they are so hard ready for me to suck. I start sucking your nipples as you stroke my hard cock under the covers. I put my hand between your legs to feel my fingers slip away from your pussy because of the wetness I feel. I feel something running down your legs, as I hear you breathing kind a loud. I pull you close to me for our lips to meet, You pull me and hold me so tight, I can hardly breath. I feel your tongue entering my mouth I start to suck your tongue as I feel your fingers going up and down > my back. I feel my cock

Don't Tell Me You Understand
What if you saw my arm one day And all those bloody trails? Will you be able to understand why I cut when all else fails? Would you tell me to stop the cutting Because what I do is wrong? Will you try to convince me again That I'm really very strong? Will you tell me otherwise When I say "you won't understand"? Answer me this question Have you sat with a knife in your hand? Have you even contemplated Or thought about suicide? Do you have any f u c k ed up emotions That you always try to hide? Have you ever lost best friends Because of the blade of a f u c k ing knife? Are you stuck in deep depression Always trying to end your life? Do you have the scars I have That decorate your wrist? And if you try to smile Do you smile with a twist? How about all that precious blood That's keeping you alive? Do you shed it every night Making it difficult to survive? Have you ever stayed up late While endless tears you cried? Have you felt that horrible fee

How Can I Serve U?
LOL, Should I say what can I get for you! Thats what I do all the time, being a waitress. What would you prefer I say. Doesnt matter what they cook I serve LOL. Never a dull moment, just another day in the food business.

Being Sick In The Heat Sucks
maybe the stress made me vulnerable, but this is most definitely the flu. Spent all day yesterday fighting it, and all night, finally at 6:30 this morning I called to let my director know I just couldn't sing this morning, I feel really bad about the super short notice, but I really thought I would be ok by the time the morning came around. needless to say, I am still not feeling well. luckily today is hubby's "Friday" for work, so he will be able to help with the kids and such. on the work front, much to get done and about time we got around to doing it. so.....yeah. I think that maybe I will go relax and heal first..... maybe I will try some dry toast

Your Daily Horoscope - Virgo 6-3--2007
Quickie: You deserve to have some fun today -- join a group of people and you'll find it. Overview: You know what you want; now you just have to figure out how you're going to get it. There's no need to rush, since the answers that take a long time to come might be just the ones you need. Let yourself ponder for a while.

Hard To Find
They all left one thousand times From my heart, from my soul From my brain, from my mind From my life... They left me in a pit Writhing with their lies They lies, they bite like snakes I don't want to die. But if I do die I won't mind I'd be out of that pit And be able to fly. They've all left But I don't mind I've got real good friends Who's friendship would be hard to find. I've tried to find my purpose For being upon this earth But it's too hard too find It's always too hard to find.

Who's There?
I feel like everyone has betrayed me All the people I know This world is about to implode And I'm falling again. Who's there to reach out a hand? Who's there to understand? Who's here to save me? Who would care? Who would? When I need a helping hand And words to comfort me Someone to wipe away my tears I guess I'm still alone. I try to be so strong But I just can't pretend no more I used to take this s h i t Now I won't take it no more. Slap...slap...slap... Slash, slice, slash I'm falling to the floor Maybe someone will care... no I'm still invisible. Can they pretend that I don't feel pain? Can they say that I don't feel hurt? No, they can't say I don't cry I do that every night... No one understands me, but they think they do And I am always invisible...to you...

No Title*
Do you know what it's like to be not listened to at all? Do you ever feel like you want to run into a wall? Have you ever been embarrassed too much to go to school? Has it ever hurt so much, you feel like the only fool? Is even getting up too hard knowing what you'll face? Is it even too difficult to walk in any place? Does it hurt to talk on the phone not knowing what to say? Does it make sense to...socialize if NOTHING goes your way? Are you too depressed you couldn't care less about ALL grades? Are you too worried if your mom might find your precious blades? Has it EVER been too hard to even talk on the phone? Have you ever wnated to leave school, just to be alone? Would it sound hard to go to school every day, every week? Would it sound stupid to conform and risk being unique? Ever feel like nobody ever truly listens to you? Ever feel like nobody cares about what you go through? Is life so frusterating cause nothing you plan goes ri

Do You Like Spanking???????????????????
DO YOU LIKE SPANKING?????????? THESE ARE MY SWEET FRIENDS,AND I'M SURE YOU KNOW THEM,,,,I LIKE TO HELP THEM LEVEL UP GO SPANK THESE PEOPLE WITH SOME LOVE,RATE,FAN AND ADD THEM.....AND TELL THEM THAT WildCat SENT YOU HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY AND FABULOUS UPCOMING WEEK HUGS AND MUCH LOVE TO EACH ONE OF YOU WildCat ΡЄЯKY ĆŦMäFїä_Mя.Ð's wife_ Dark Enigmas Mistress@ CherryTAP Mя.Ð ĆŦMäFїä ΡЄЯKY'§ Ĥûsband@ CherryTAP XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

How Im Feeling Today.....
its sunday.... i really dont care for sundays only because i no i have to work tomorrow.... eh but its all good because i like my job... unlike others. mom asked me to wash ALL the towels i the house... we'll see. lol. i dunno what im actually doing today. i dunno if im going anywhere today. all i know is is that today is sunday and im alive. who could ask for more than that? chow!

If I Could
if i could i would dry each tear that found its way down your face not hit or miss but catch each droplet before it reached your chin and let you know i really do care what happens to you i want you to know compassion still exists in a world of tense emotion where too many people are too easily offended too busy to be bothered or too wrapped up in themselves to even notice your pain

Friendly Or Flirty?
I'm on here for friends only. AND I am a very happily married woman. I think I stated that pretty clearly in my profile. But maybe I didn't? I was going thru my friends trying to leave a comment on everyone. For a few I found some that I thought fit them better. (Like military funnies for the military guys, etc.) One friend, who shall remain nameless because I really do think he seems like a great guy, sent me a message saying "You like flirting with me dont you" It made me think for a minute. Do I say things in a way that seems flirty or perhaps misleads people in some manner? Perhaps I am not realizing it? I thought I was just being friendly when I chat or leave comments. I would hate to be misleading in any way, ya know? I am not a lady who likes to lead others on. That would make me a false peron. Let me know if I say something wrong so I can correct it, ok? I love all my friends. I really do. Please keep in mind, that if I say something that sou

Wierd Thights
Here are Some Wierd Thoughts to Think About. Can a cross-eyed teacher control his pupils? What shape is the sky? Why is it written "May contain traces of peanuts or other kind of nuts" on peanut butter jars. Are people stupid enough not to realize it themselves? What happens if you get a paper cut from a Get Well card? How does Freddy Kruger wipe his butt? If you dig a hole through the center of the earth, come out on the other side, and then let go, would you be falling down or floating up? Would you die if you didn't pee? If a hermaphrodite got sent to a certain gender prison, which one would it get sent to? If a king is gay and marries another guy what is that guy to the royal family? When the French swear do they say pardon my English? If there's a wheelchair-bound comedian, is it still called "stand-up"? Why do we sing "Rock a bye baby" to lull our little ones to sleep when the song is about putting your baby in a tree and letting the wind c

Fathers Day Contest
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Please Show Her Some Love
hello cherries. i just want 2 say my dear friend is thinking about leaving Cherry Tap becaue of the haters and i dont want her 2 leave and neither any of her other friends so if all r friends of mine please go by and show her some love. i will be so grateful. let her know that we dont want her 2 go. i will return the favor and i know she will. thanks a bunch. and please repost. boobookitty07 ****{Angel Family}****Stop By and Sign My Guestbooks TY@ CherryTAP

Love Him Or Loathe Him
Love him or loathe him ! Love him or loathe him, he nailed this one right on the >head.......... > > By Rush Limbaugh: > > I think the vast differences in compensation between victims of the >September 11 casualty and those who die serving our country in Uniform are >profound. No one is really talking about it either, because you just don't >criticize anything having to do with September 11. Well, I can't let the >numbers pass by because it says something really disturbing about the >entitlement mentality of this country. If you lost a family member in the >September 11 attack, you're going to get an average of $1,185,000. The >range is a minimum guarantee of $250,000, all the way up to $4.7 million. > If you are a surviving family member of an American soldier killed >in action, the first check you get is a $6,000 direct death benefit, half >of which is taxable. > > Next, you get $1,750 for burial costs. If you are the survivi

The World's Shortest Fairy Tale...
Once upon a time, a girl asked a guy, "Will you marry me?" The guy said, "No." The girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, drank martinis, always had a clean house, never had to cook, stayed skinny, and was never farted on. ~ The End

Quote For June 3
All I can tell you really is if you get to the point where someone is telling you that you are not great or not good enough, just follow your heart and don't let anybody crush your dream. -- Patti LaBelle Bonus Quote: Close your eyes and pretend it's all a bad dream. That's how I get by. -- Jack Sparrow Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Nsfw?????
You know, im about effing tired of the all the crap on this site. NSFW, i get my photos turned in all the time for being NSFW and there is nothing wrong with them. other chicks have their primary photos with their boobs all hanging out and bras that you can see through, ass shots, naked stuff, ive seen it. and noone turns them in. I, on the other hand, have a pic of COOP art in my photo section. three pics actually and someone turns me in. WTF!!! its a cartoon chick, for christ sake. GET OVER IT!!! I thought we were all adults here. I obviously was mistaken. you know cruisin around on cherrytap, ive come across offensive photos, do i immediately run and tattle?? no, i put on my big girl panties and fucking deal with it. Jesus Christ, you know what fucking delete me

The Latest Happenings At Cyanidedolls.com
Things have really been busy here at Cyanide Central, so busy I have not had the chance to tell you all about it. I had to take some time off just so I could bring you these updates. Last weekend was our first doll only pool party, Cyanide, Rosebud, Saphire, Poison Ivy and a guest appearance by former Doll Opium frolicked naked in the pool while their fans watched via webcam. Let me tell you when you get five naked women in the pool, throw in a little booze, things are bound to get HOT! These ladies could not keep their hands and mouths off each other. Someone had to operate the equipment and be there to capture it all in film of course, be sure and take a peek in my photos section That pool party was such a success they decided to do it AGAIN, this weekend. Poison Ivy even offered a live strip show later. WOW! We also got some new photo sets of Saphire and Ivy that are bound to Rock your world, yes there will be previews in my photo section so be sure and check them o

For My Adopted Brother Warchild Love Ya!!!
Ok everyone I do not do this just for anyone but I am going to for this very sexy man lol he adopted me as his foster sister this morning so I owe him this much.. He is the best...He is such a sweetie and a very good friend of mine.. He is funny as hell and I think if you all get to know him you will agree with me.. Just click on the link below and you will go straigh to his page.. Make sure you rate his pics, cause he wants to know everyones thoughts of him. Show this great sexy man some love.. warchild@ CherryTAP I dedicate this song to you, just because you are one of my sexiest friends and I love Ya!!! Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Ok 2nd Update Some Wonderful Artist To Add!
This is my 2nd update to this blog to share with everyone some great artists I have found on Cherry Tap. I am so impressed with the very talented people on this site and I thought it would be good for me to share those that I find with anyone who wants to see other talent. I am going to post links to profiles of people that have exceptional talent in the areas of Photography, traditional art, crafts and digital or graphic arts. I am hoping that it will generate more interest in these areas and people will know where to look to find others with these interests. I am always looking for more talent.........so if you think you have something to show me let me know and I will check it out and if you are good I will add your link to this blog. This gentleman has some great graphic designs and also does skins you can rip! He is also one of my favorite people on CT! JΞЯΞΜΥ CЯΩШ™@ CherryTAP This gentleman does some very wonderful wood wor

A Bit Of Mirabilia...
I read not too long ago about an odd incident that apparently happened out in the Congo. Apparently some individuals shot tranquilizers into a troop of gorillas and applied clown make-up to all their faces. Stop and imagine for a second. You're a park warden, hiking through the jungles of the Congo. You work diligently to ensure that poachers had not killed more of these apes for their meat (and handy gorilla paw ashtrays!) and you come across all these gorillas painted up so. Just stop. And imagine.

Sex Appeal
You Are 94% Sexy Your Sex Appeal Is: Off the Charts! Let's face it... you're one of the sexiest people around. And you don't let anyone forget it. You're crazy hot, and you deliver on what you promise. You are definitely one wild ride. How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

Erotic Tale
What a romantic image! I am sitting at this table at a short distance from the canal. The trees are reflected in the mirror-like waters of the canal. A boat crammed with over excited tourists, passes slowly, almost grazing the concrete wall that edges the canal, and disturbs, for a short moment, the soft peaceful tranquillity of the environment, then it disappears in a curve, gradually masking the murmurs. The sounds of the close-by city merge again with the domestic noises of the cafe-terrasse that surrounds the canal. I am in San-Antonio since one hour only. I can appreciate finally, a certain peace after this exhausting journey before finding a lodging for the night. I observe the canals, the faces that encumber the coffee-shops, the lovers on the benches, the passers-by loitering peacefully in this flowery oasis; the canals are spread out and lengthen freely, without any constraint, under the disciplined and encumbered streets of the city. An elegant and very beautiful lady

6/2/07
What a damn day I had, was on here fixing my page and Avery my (DOG) unplugged me needless to say after that happen the damn computer wasn't working correctly so had to take it in to get fixed which cost me $110 and well it's laggin an shit, locking up on my ass! Hopefully it'll work itself out sometime soon.

Do You Need What You Want...
One day, I was sitting in my yard wondering what is it that made people different? Why are some people very successful while others feel so miserable and let down? What did some do right that others didn't? ............my train of thoughts swept me through a maze of queries and I soon found myself struggling to find answers. but the one question that kept popping back into my head, It was quite confusing at first. Need and WANT! Do they mean something different or are they just two different words with the same meaning? want and need? Want could be defined as something the human mind craves for. Something born out of thoughts, dreams and desires. But want belongs to the future. what is need, then? Need could be defined as something the mind or the body demands immediate satiation. There is an urgency to this demand and it makes one realize that it is part of the present... so they both need t

Aaaahhhhh....new England
> Aaaahhhhh....New England > > > > > > > New Englanders > > Forget Rednecks... here is what Jeff Foxworthy has to say about New > Englanders... > > > If your local Dairy Queen is closed from September through May, you live > in New England . > > > If someone in a Home Depot store offers you assistance and they don't > work there, you live in New England . > > If you've worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you live in New > England . > > > If you've had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed a > wrong number, you live in New England . > > > If "Vacation" means going anywhere south of New York City for the > weekend, you live in New England . > > > If you measure distance in hours, you live in New England . > > > If you know several people who have hit a deer more than once, you live > in New England . > > > If you have switched from "heat" to "A/

A Story I Wrote
My body as well as my gear was bouncing off of the C-47’s floor, along with every other soldier aboard the plane, that night as it started down the runway to pick up speed to take off. The day that everyone had been waiting so long for had finally arrived, D- DAY. The more speed the C-47 picked up, the worse the vibrations became. I held my Thompson machine gun close to my chest. It was the one thing that helped me stay calm through the German flak and night fighters that I knew were coming. Then all became somewhat calm, we were finally airborne. The only sound that could be heard was the sound of the wind whipping past the jump door as the engines strained to gain altitude. The pitch of the two engines changed which told us veterans that we were at altitude and we were headed for France and the welcoming committee in Normandy. I was sure the welcoming wasn’t going to be very friendly. My buddy Carl Bush was sitting next to me trying to write a letter to his wife or mother. Then the

If...you...love Me
"If You.... love me................leave a love comment like me.................leave a sweet comment wanna marry me....leave a "will you marry me?" comment wanna fuck me............. reply "i want to fuck u" think im a sexy.................leave a dirty comment care about me ....................leave a caring comment if you hate me.................GO FUCK URSELF!!!! IF YOU THINK I'M CRAZY.......JUST SAY SO basically leave a comment................... REPOST THIS AND SEE HOW MANY COMMENTS OR TESTIMONIALS YOU GET"

Sunday June 3
You know you look forward to the weekend and it go's by so fast. I want to get out and leave for the weekend and just take the rest of the week off. I am so broke right now. I had to pay for two places this week. You know Fridays sounds so good right now. I love that place. I had a good week only did 48hrs. More to come later.

Which Car Is Right For You? I'm A Taurus
WHich Car Is Right For YOU? ARIES (March 21-April 19) 1964 Checker Marathon Taxicab. Your dream to make millions will come true when you answer that ad about repairing cracked windshields with miracle resin. Give the Leo in your life "Martha Stewart's Guide to Military Vehicles." Don't put tofu in the carburetor today. The highway rest stops on your route will be out of order this week, so put an empty 2-liter bottle in the car now. Read your compass carefully; a mistake could put you in the chemical wastelands of New Jersey causing you to miss the big party at Graceland. TAURUS (April 20-May 20) Ford L8000 Garbage Truck. Don't practice your bagpipes on the way to work today; your carpool partners are beginning to take offense. Next Thursday, the speed limits in towns beginning with the letter N will not be enforced; feel free to go 100 mph. The takeout Taco Bell chalupa will drip on your private parts. Get a quesadilla today instead. If events don't go your wa

Does Your Job Feed Your Soul?
Is your work inspiring or draining the spirit out of you? Take the quiz. Q1. On my way to work, I: O 1. Walk with a spring in my step. I look forward to it. O 2. Stroll. I like work but I'm in no hurry to get there. O 3. Practically sleepwalk. Another day, another peso/dollar. O 4. Trudge. Agony awaits. Q2. I work late hours: O 1. Too often. Help! O 2. When necessary. Ugh. O 3. All the time. I can't get enough. O 4. Rarely. Life's too short. Q3. My job generally: O 1. Gives me the opportunity to use my whole self -- mind, spirit, and imagination. O 2. Challenges me but leaves little room for creativity. O 3. Wears me out. O 4. Makes me wonder why I was born. Q4. At dinner with friends, I: O 1. Talk about work with pride and enthusiasm. O 2. Share the ups and downs of my workday. O 3. Mostly vent about work. O 4. Who wants to talk about work after hours? Q5. The song title that comes closest to representing my relationship to my coworkers is: O 1. Welcom

10,000-mile Ride For The Wounded
The 10,000 Mile Ride For the Wounded Complete Itinerrary: http://www.tagworld.com/davidbowers LIVE UpDates W/Dr. Annete OnLine The Ride will pass through 29 states, and will be the Ride of a lifetime! Join at any point in the Ride and ride with us for as long as you like. Help keep America's severely wounded military personnel uppermost in the minds and hearts of her citizens! There is no charge for riding along! If you can't ride with him, be sure to give a TagWorld HELLO when they ride near you! Website: http://www.10000milerideforthewounded.com Email: forrest@10000milerideforthewounded.com Get LIVE UpDates on your computer Please pass this info along Honor our men and women in the military past and present And if you can, please join the ride

Cage
Cage (BDSM) This page is about BDSM play; for other topics see Cage (disambiguation). In BDSM, a cage is an enclosure, usually made of metal bars, sometimes also of wood, used to confine a submissive. In dungeons, cages are standard equipment; however, cages are also placed in residential basements or spare rooms. Cages are used as a means to restrict the freedom of the enclosed person in an obvious way. They have a connotation both of animal husbandry and of prisons. Cages are relatively weighty and costly, and are therefore found less frequently in the non-professional sub-culture, even though they are highly appealing to many sadomasochists. Cages come in the following variants: Free-standing cage. The enclosed person can be seen from all angles and is unable to conceal himself/herself. Cage door. Closes a room by a lattice. Hanging cage. After a person has been enclosed in it, the cage can be hoisted up using a winch. Hanging chaincage (often consisting of a

Deeper Thought
I was inspired to share my thoughts by two things: 1) Some stupid personality test that says I am a deep thinker. Well, I am - but I realize that very few people know that I am (unless of course they look close enough) 2) I have actually found someone that not only sees and appreciates my outer beauty but is also equally attracted to my ability to hold a deep conversation. I was actually shocked by that, I guess because there has never been anyone that has actually expressed an interest in getting to know that side of me. He not only is interested but has PUSHED me to share my thoughts on things. I've kept the deeper side of me pretty much hidden, not just on CT but in all parts of my life. Maybe it's time that I stop doing that - might lead to me actually finding people to have decent conversations with and having friends in my life that I can actually identify with. Or it could lead to the lot of you thinking I am bizarre and running in the other direction - either way

Extended Bio
About me: Lets see, what is there to know about me? Well, for starters I have two speeds - walk and kill. I once ate 3 72 oz. steaks in 1 hour - I spent the first 45 minutes having sex with my waitresses. When the Boogeyman goes to sleep at night, he checks his closet for ME! I sleep with a nightlight because the dark if afraid of me. I can unscramble an egg. I do not sleep, I wait. My chief export is pain, and I can divide by zero. I hold the secret to cold fusion - but will not let it be known until they put Family Matters back on the air. I clog the toilet when I piss. My cowboy boots are made from real cowboys. I once ordered a Big Mac at Burger King and got one. If I’m running late, time better slow the fuck down. I do not go hunting, I go killing. It takes 25 puppeteers to make me smile, but only 2 to destroy an orphanage. I can make a woman pregnant just by pointing at her and saying "booyow". In the morning, I don't have to style my hair - it jumps into place out of s

Dungeon
Dungeon (BDSM) This page is about BDSM play; for other topics see Dungeon (disambiguation). In BDSM (bondage/discipline, Dominance/submission, sadism/masochism) play, a dungeon is any space set aside for scene activities. It may or may not be underground and may or may not resemble a stereotypical dungeon from a Robin Hood film. Private dungeons are often fabricated in residential basements or spare rooms. BDSM organizations sometimes secure space for their members to play, old warehouses and factory spaces are popular for this. Some dungeons are open to the public on a membership basis or as a nightclub. These are called "public dungeons" even if they are only open to members. A professional dominant or dominatrix will often maintain their own dungeon, or several ProDoms may join together in a common facility often called a ProDom house, where they may share staff such as receptionists or cleaning staff. More recently, since the BDSM community has become more established

Whips
Whip For other uses, see Whip (disambiguation). And distinguish from wip and WIP. A type of whip known as a riding cropThe word whip describes two basic types of tools: A long stick-like device, usually slightly flexible, with a small bit of leather or cord, called a "popper", on the end. Depending on length and flexibility, type is often called a riding whip, riding crop or "bat". It is also sometimes called a "horsewhip" or "horse whip". The other type of whip is a long tapered flexible length of single-strand or plaited (braided) material (usually leather) with a stiff handle. Some whips of this type include the bullwhip and the stock whip. Each design has many variations and lengths for different purposes, often with different names. As well as these traditional whip types designed for use on animals, there are whip designs that had historic uses for inflicting pain on humans, such as the "cat o' nine tails" and others. These devices are used as flogging instrumen

Excerpts From Peter Britt's Book
I thought it would be a great idea to offer friends & fans the opportunity to get their names in my book on a special dedication page. Please red below as to "how" to pre-order and, to read some samples. Peter Britt; Country/rock recording artist-Singer/songwriter/musician-Twice published author, poetry and now his soon to be best selling book "All That I Am, I Think!" And, his soon to be submitted and published second book, "The Devistation" To pre-order the book is $35.00 to have your name in the book. You will also receive an autographed copy for that. No extra shipping is required. Pre-order the book and have your name in it alongside those who have made a differernce in Peter Britt's climbing music career. Click the banner to join the street team. Click the paypal link below to Order the book. Click here to pre-order All That I Am, I Think! Below is a preview of chapter Five (Passion) and chapter Twelve (Rights & Wrongs) of All That I Am, I Think! This preview will also be

The Life Of A Single Woman
I am Diwata, 22 years old, single and loving it. People may ask me how come I am single, or a better question, why are you single? My answer is simple, because no one has found me interesting. If I answer, ‘because I choose to’, well, I would be lying to myself. So my answer is definite, ‘no one has found me interesting’. Then people may say that you are just trying to defend yourself, by saying ‘I love the single life’. It may be true, but one thing I can tell you, I have been single for quite sometime, and I never felt depressed, I feel lonely sometimes, yes, but not depressed. Happy? Probably yes, and probably not. Some women, who are single, find it hard, not to have a boyfriend. But I always say, you cannot find your happiness in other people. Positive thinking is one of the best things that you can hold on to, especially when you’re single. Focus on more important things, like your career, family and friends. I work in a call center, an environment where 90% speaks English, an

Leash
Leash (BDSM) A leash or lead is a length of rope, leather, chain or other flexible material ostensibly for restraint or control. Most leashes attach to collars or body harnesses, while others loop directly around the person's neck, wrist, ankle or sometimes around the male genitals. The most common leash used on a human is one with a clip at one end and a loop of the same material at the other. Commonly made of leather (occasionally braided for extra flexibility) but sometimes of nylon webbing, small-linked chain or rope. Many people use a strong dog leash, especially a black leather one. Typical length in total is between one and two metres. Purposes of a leash include: A visual sign of ownership to other people (especially at clubs). A psychological enforcer to the submissive of their status Physical control and positioning The submissive's collar, leash, and restraints are highly symbolic. Being led on a leash makes many submissive people feel comforted and gives t

If U Same Love Music And Life
HI!I AM Gumi!from shanghai.CHINA!today is first time come here ! meet lot friend i very happy !music very important in my life cos i am singer!i love sing and art but maybe i in CHINA though these year young chinese more and more love some differ music but anyway cant real know and take R&B BLUES HIP-HOP...music i hope in here no only meet in the world friend and learn any music let eachother know more... WELCOME FRIENDS TOUCH ME! LET'S GO...

Please Check It Out
Aphrodite and Devilish DD's Hideout come and join the party bring yourself, your fans, ,your family, and your friends to have a good time to hang out and chat and enjoy great music please come and at least suscribe and feel free to invite who you would like to no drama as well also we are in need of help so PLEASE CHECK IT OUT. CLICK PIC TO JOIN

Sin City Pt 2
What seemed like hours later the door opened back up and she immediately recognized the driver and passenger. "Are you going to let me go now" she asked. Sh could hear her voice shake uncontrollably. The passenger just laughed and started undoing her ties. She started to feel a little relief wash over her when she started to get up. Her legs still bound to the table she sat up and saw that evil look on the drivers face and knew that her nightmare wasn't over. She started to tremble harder than ever. She watched the driver untie her legs afraid to move. As soon as her legs were free she started to struggle to get free but she knew it was useless. The passenger took her hands while the driver took her legs and they rolled her over onto her stomach on the table. The driver tied her ankles the the bottom of the legs of the table so she was standing bent over the table with her hands tied to the legs at the other end. The table was just long enough for her chin to hang off the end which wa

Ch Ch Ch Changes....
This week has been a hellacious week. (And not even all good hellacious either...) It started BEFORE this actual week...but it seemed to just end right here...in THIS one. It started when my mom said she was "seeing someone". I remember pulling the telephone away from my ear and looking down at it cradled there in my hand. Teeny and black, with an orange faceplate glowing. I just stared at it there. for a moment. And then placed it back on my ear and answered "excuse me?" Again she repeated... She sounded nervous. And quiet...hesitant. It took me a moment and I forced a smile into my tone as I asked her about this "Nice man" As she answered my eyes searched out the calendar and I mentally counted back the months since my father passed away. There had been 5 single ones. I drew a deep breath into my lungs and I squeezed my eyes shut. As a woman. I am happy for her. I knew and have always known that my parents marriage....well. It pretty much sucked. Roy

Collar (bdsm)
Collar (BDSM) A BDSM-style collar that buckles in the back. Detail of collar showing D-rings.In a BDSM context, a collar is a device of any material placed around the neck of the submissive partner. It is also a term used to show ownership of a submissive by a dominant. The most common material is leather, and many people use actual dog collars with a buckle. Other materials include rubber, PVC, and metal, typically stainless steel. Collars may be decorated in various ways, and often feature buckles, straps and hooks, padlocks and other attachments. The standard form is a black leather band around the neck, though there are many variations including elegant jewelry necklaces. D-rings are often added to allow the attachment of a leash. Collars may be used in role-playing games involving humiliation because they have connotations of control and pet-like status, especially when worn with a leash. Collars have varying degrees of significance for people in the BDSM commun

I Ran Into Love
I ran into love just the other day and it told me that it was lost, and I would've offered it a place to stay but it would come at to great of a cost. Thats when love looked at me and said I used to know you but haven't seen you in quite sometime, and I said this is true that we used to be close as a matter of fact you were mine. And love gave me a smile and it touched me so deep to remember how it used to feel, to have it, to hold it, to kiss it and know it but still I realize it's not real. Thats when love said so softly, oh please can you help me and find me another way home? and I said I was sorry but find someone else for I'm happy just being alone. And then love hung it's head and it walked away slowly but it stopped all the sudden and turned and said tho it was lost there was something it found or better yet something it learned, that no matter how far or long it's away that with me someday it would return.... Let me know if your'e feeling this....Holla

Negotiation
Negotiation (BDSM) Negotiation in BDSM community is a form of communication where participants make arrangements on each others' requirements, responsibilities and limits to find the best possible agreement. As BDSM is sexual practice that keeps to SSC philosophy, negotiation is necessary to set sexual activity within the boundaries of these principles. Activity within BDSM relationships requires trust, openness about most practices that may include risks. On the other hand, partners have certain needs which should be clearly defined in order to be properly satisfied. In this regard, negotiation is essential part not only when parties were not familiar with each other but also in case when partners have long-term relationships. Negotiation may not only concern a particular session but touch upon a more wide range of subjects on a BDSM philosophy in general: considerations on a lifestyle, the perspectives of the relationships, religious beliefs and many other issues that can

Poem: Your Lovely Eyes
Darlin' you are one beautiful lady, that can only some can really see like me. God How I wish I was really, free to do what I wanted... But I am not and with you, our friendship can be more for now. I only hope that you see and understand, that at this time I must stay where I'm at. You not alone and I am your friend, and hope that it will remain this way. For it who you are inside that I, really desire that's behind your lovely eyes. Signed:Raymond Starns Dated:6/3/07

Bofh Misc - He Really Is Back
The LAST Bastard Operator from Hell! I get back from Britian and return to my old stomping grounds to take up a post as an Analyst/Programmer... As an A/P I\'m expected to work weird hours so I start putting in some 9 to 5 shifts to see what it\'s like. It\'s weird all right. I don\'t like it. I go to the computer room to check out my machine, only I\'m not the Operator any more, so I\'ve got no access. I call the Operator. He answers. Bad sign. \"Can I get access to the Computer Room?\" I ask, respectfully \"Well...\" he pauses \".. what do you want to do?\" Indecisive. It gets worse! He should\'ve come straight out and said that the day a user gets access to HIS computer room is the day he\'ll be crated up and freighted to the big Computer Room in the sky to meet the Chief Operator! \"Just look at my machines\" I say.. \"Um, well, we\'re not supposed to let programmers in here unless it\'s an emergency\" he blubs. Dear oh dear. It\'s almost as if he\'s a

The Bastard In Britian
"He's back, and this time he's got a portable bulk-eraser!!!" It's... It's... IT'S!!!!.... The Bastard Operator from Britain #1 ...... "...I'd like to escalate this call please.." "I'm sorry?" I can't help but be a little surprised at this guy's tone. "I'd like to escalate the severity of this call. Surely a person in your situation is aware of the new International Standard regarding fault logging and tracking..." He's obviously insane. There's no other reason why he'd call me this early on a monday afternoon, as soon as I've got to work... "What was your username?" He tells me, and some all-too-familiar key clicking noises follow. I notice his account has the pervert flag set, and yet he has no gif files in his directory - which can only mean one thing.... "Now, this escalation business, you want me to increase the priority with which I'll handle this call?" "Yes!" "Tell you what, I'll double it" I say, in gentle, soothing tones "Good" he

If A Man Wants You
IF A MAN WANTS YOU If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any dif

Bofh #15
It's a warm afternoon in the computer room. I dunno, maybe I should turn the chillers back on, but what the hell, I've got a cold and I need to keep warm. I flip today's excuse card. Magnetic Interferance from Money/Credit Cards. Hmmm, vague enough to be plausible. The phone rings "Hello, Computer Room" I say "Hi!" the caller says "I want to fit some RAM to my machine to upgrade the memory. I just bought some 8 meg chips off a guy in town and wanted to know if you guys would fit it." "Well," I say "normally we would, but today the technicians are busy trying to gas axe open our tape safe to see why it smells - You could probably fit it yourself though.." "Really? I thought that was dangerous?" she says "Nah nah, it's safe as houses, just remember to get the chips out of those stupid plastic bags before they stuff them up altogether" "Really?! How do they do that?" "Well, you've heard of static RAM right?" "Yes..." "Well, Why pack static RAM in an antistatic b

Bofh #14 - The Bastard Is Back
Don't ask how I got back, I just did. Suffice to say that work frowns upon management material that uses electrodes to gain client information. Especially when you do it to the boss's in-laws. That's HIS entertainment. So I'm back in the saddle. Unfortunately, that means there's a surplus of operators in the computer room. One slam of the tape safe door later, the problem is solved. The knocking dies down in a couple of hours, so I guess the safes really *are* airtight. To welcome myself back, I send a message out saying there's a shutdown in 10 minutes. 5 minutes later I shut the system down. I love doing that. I see the hard-disk activity lights flicker as the "disk recovery" phase of startup run through, globally deleting journal files. Funny how we always start up with lots of free disk.. I just get Wolfenstein started and the phone rings. What the hell, I almost missed it while I was away, so I answer it. "Computer Room" I say "THAT WASN'T TEN MINUTES!!!!" the voice

System Operator From Hell #2
So I'm interviewing for new Operators, and, as the Bastard System Manager from Hell, I have high standards. And as the Immediate Past Bastard Operator from Hell, I have even higher standards. I get the first applicant in. "Ok" I say "I'm just going to ask you some simple questions to guage your knowledge of Computing and Networking in relation to the Operations Field" "Sure" "Right. Question One. What's the best way to stop an individual posting nasty articles to news?" "Close their account" "Good - But can you elaborate?" "Delete all their files, Change their password to `Knobhead' and Erase any backups of their account" "Excellent. What is a killfile?" "Uh. It's a list of usernames/topics/news items etc that you wish the news- reader to automatically skip so you don't have to wade through rubbish" "Uh No. Remember I said pertaining to Operations. A killfile is in fact a file with a list of names of people you are going to kill." "Oh. Of course." "N

System Operator From Hell #1
I get into my office and it's my first day - I want to make a good impression, so I empty my IN tray into the bin. Now that's what I call efficient! I get a call from the big boss - he's been getting complaints about the Trainee Bastard Operator from Hell. I ask him to forward all the complaints to me and that it would be best to let me deal with them. I ring the operator and get him to make an appointment with me. Two weeks later, he does, and I show him the complaints that have accumulated so far. "Seventy Three complaints in your first three weeks!" I shout "It's good - but it's NOT Good Enough! You should be getting at least 10 complaints a day - AT LEAST! Now, let's see what you're doing wrong: You get a call from a user - what do you do?" "Kill them off?" The TBOFH replies "NO! How can you kill them off if you don't know their USERNAME? Your FIRST priority is to get their username. Then what would you do?" "Kill them off?" "NO! Get them to tell you what their

A Question To Everyone Out There
Hello to everyone that reads this. Ok, I have a question, Guess it might be kind of funny. Why do people get on here or online period and lie? Is it because it makes them feel better about themselves or what. It really gets annoying because you can almost tell when people are lying to you. What does it actually hurt to get online and be honest. Would you rather everyone think you are an idiot because you lie about such small things or maybe they might respect you just that much more for being honest. I had a guy send me a message on here trying to say he was Hulk Hogan. Oh my goodness. Like im gonna believe that Hulk Hogan actually jumped on the computer and announced to the world he was hitting on some Oklahoma girl. Come on people, be honest. What are u gonna lose unless you really are just a no good piece or you are just so dissatisfied with yourself that you do have to lie.

Episode 66: Dreams And Visions
Sometimes, I can actually see, lucidly, the trailer of a movie about my life. In my mind, I hear Don LaFontaine (the movie announcer guy) narrating it. I don't know who the hell would star in it so I might take a stab at it. Laugh if you must but it's me making the damn casting call. "In a world where one man struggles with his mind..." Then, of course, you see some dark room with some bald guy sitting at a computer, silhouetted by the warm glow of a monitor. "Dreams and visions take a life of their own..." Cut to the sound of some record scratching and then this unearthly scream as a show opens "This summer..." Naturally you'll have scenes of me going off with pieces of my angry ranting, raving and carrying on. "prepare yourself..." Now, you see flashes of whoever has the audacity to play my part on the phone in more funny-as-hell angered rants over the phone saying shit like, "I don't give a fuck what the hell it looks like, I want it on the show. We're going

Adult Survey
You:What color eyes?blueHair?dirty blondeHow tall?5'7How old?22What city do you live in?in NH thats all you need to knowMale/Female?femaleThe Private You?How many people have you had sex with in 2006?3How many of those people were one night stands?0How many serious relationships have you had?4What is your favorite position?legs over the shoulders bent toward me Have you ever slept with more than one person at a time?yesHim / HerEyes?doesnt really matter blue a huge turn onHeight?negotionable preferably same hight or tallerWeight?negotionableBody structure?not a big deal Tall / short?taller betterPersonality?caring,sweet,honest,loyal,helpful,understanding,fun loving,compromising,loves kids and moreAge?preferably 18-30 may be lienant for right personMisc.What is the first question you ask before having sex with someone?dont really ask a question but would be nice to know if they have feelings for meHave you ever considered or had a sex buddy with no relationship?unfortunitaly i was trivk

Thank You
On the 26th May 2007 My Mum died. I have found it very Hard to cope with the loss off my mum. But 2 off My friends on here have help me cope with this situation. I felt really depressed losing my mum. So To little Hippie Girl and her hubby and Candygirl Uk, I want to say a big thank you for being there for me. You are special to me and I love you guys, you are true friends XXXXXXX PS yhere is ALSO kerch who with his comments as helped keep my chin up. RIDE SAFE my FRIEND

Health
So as I said in an earlier blog I am finally very happy. What really sucks about all this is that when I wasn't happy I was a very healthy person. Just one month after meeting Wayne I start having back pain. Went to the dr thinking it was a pinched nerve. Took xrays and gave me pain meds. Called and told me nothing wrong. Said then why am I always in constant pain? So sent me to orthopedic. He took more xrays and said I had arthritis in my back. Gave me some more meds. Sent me to physical therapy. Went back for 6 week follow up and still in lots of pain. Also swollen ankles and feet. Turns out one of the meds caused a reaction. Was sent to take mri and a nerve test. Nerve test not very fun. Ever have needles stuck in your neck? So here it is 3 months later and waiting to go see a rhumetologist. Think I might have MS or lupus. So was I handed all this now that I am happy so I could handle it better? Earlier in life I had just too many problems to handle this also? Sounds fair in one wa

Fun Stars 6-3-07
A gesture doesn't have to be empty if you understand the significance it holds for the other person. So, yes, this may seem a little silly or strange to you, but through their eyes it takes on a whole different light.

Here We Gooooooooo
Nothing against CT...... Just that I know some of us want some more freedom to express ourselves and to be ourselves. I want to thank all that has joined so far....:) Also who have gone through the transition from a reg networking to a Mature site. Luv you all....... Now this is a 21+ site... be yourself and have fun......... http://shhhhh.me.com

Just Starting
So I have always wanted to write in one of these. Its like a diary and even as a kid I was bad about that. Probably because when I was a teenager I had one and my brother found it. Read it and then showed it to my mother. Man did I get in trouble. Burned it and since then have never been really able to keep one!! So for the first time in my life I am very happy. Have been married twice. First husband died in car wreck. Second was just a disaster. Will go into all that in other blogs. So I have finally met this wonderful guy. Everything you could always want in a guy. Never have felt like this before. Always thought I was in love with others. Maybe so but from what I am feeling now, not true love. Or maybe I am just wiser and more cautious in what I want and have found it. Ok I wrote my first page!! For those who have read make me write more. lol Believe me I feel like spilling guts and some is just too good not to hear!

U Do What U Do To Your Self
so u ask your self why u feel pain? why no one is there for u? why no one seem to care? well maybe u should look back at all the time u where never there all the times u missed out all the time a hand was reached out to u all the thing u siad before speaking that hurt the ones u loved and cared for. maybe u should open your mind before u open your mouth nobody like thoughtless people iam not saying i know it all but sometimes people can realy fuck thing up with just one word and that because the don't think before the speak anymore iam not saying that iam better then everyone cause iam far from it but i do try to do more thinking then speaking frist it save so much trouble in the end. so pretty much what iam saying is u can save your self in so many ways by just thinking before u say something to someone to hurt them it save so many friendship and bult new ones up. so just think before u speak.

Inspirational Thought For The Day
Life Is.... Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it. Life is bliss, taste it. Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it. Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tragedy, confront it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it. Life is too precious, do not destroy it. Life is life...fight for it!

Somthing New For Me!
Well I have,kept up to the idea of not fooling around and have done it! So Im writing sumthing just to write because I cant sleep. Why is depression so prominant in the USA?Is it because there are so many streses?like trying to be the perfect parent?or hubsband or wife?Is it because every household as 1 person in it that spends mnoney faster then you can make it?Is it because peoples kids are alittle chunky and we read in the paper or online that the states can start charging thier parents for neglect?Is it because we have to pay through the nose for gas or electricity because the rich want to get richer?Is it because when we try to have a good time with our kids,like taking them to the movies it cost 40 bucks just to get in? Hell I dont know,I do know that at times,Im depressed but not because all of these and many more reasons.I consider most of these and many more,being a part of Life! I'm depressed because I cant do more for my kids! And I dont get a good lon

If I Didn't Love You ( Found This Its Soo True )
If I Didn't Love You If I Didn't Love You I Wouldn't Care If I Didn't Love You I Wouldn't Share If I Didn't Love You I Wouldn't Fear If I Didn't Love You I Wouldn't Shead A Single Tear If I Didn't Love you Such Small things I Couldn't Bear If I Didn't Love You I'd Let You Go As If You Were A Spare If I Didn't Love You I Wouldn't hold You Close so you Could Whisper In My Ear Written By: Blossom Love

A Night At The Fair
I was walking with my friends at the Santiago fair. 2 of my friends decides to take off leaving me with my best friend Layla. her and i have been close. heck we were virgins till that day. see we were both hanging out in out tight white halter tops and short shorts. man she looked hot. I have been checking her out since we were 15. i have secretly lusted to touch her breasts. we went by this hot hot guy working the concession stand for fried dough. he was checking us both out and both Layla and I were eyeing him. he asked us if we would like to eat some fried dough with him as a vacant spot in the field in the moon light. both Layla and I jumped at the chance. he said he would be right over. Layla and I both went and sat in the field in the moon light. we sat next to each other and the wind was blowing our long hair. I was just looking at her and she seemed sexier then ever. I could feel the chill and I could see Layla’s nipples sticking out her pure white shirt. I could smell my bare

Sunscreen Song
"Everybody is free to wear sunscreen" by Baz Luhrman Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97, Wear sunscreen, If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine. Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside y

Fuck 3rd Shift After What Happened 2night
fuck 3rd shift after what happened 2night there was this black dude that came in that was at the store i believe wednesday night also that when i walked passed him to distribute baskets thruout the store that just stared at me with a dirty ass look and mumbled shit that i just ignored. well he came in and my boss shelly told me he told her that he didnt like me so when he was ready to checkout i went out to have a smoke. she ranghim up and he was ignorent to her but like we hafta she brushed it off. she came out right behind him to make sure he didnt say anything to me. well when he came out i said to him have a good night like i would any customer.. hes like ya u too have a really fucked up night then mumbled more shit i was like excuse me and he perceeded to run his mouth sayin fuck u, fuck ur mom ill fuck u up. shelly was like please just go keep walkin, so we watched him walk to the brass rail. not even 2 min later hes walkin back down running his mouth mother fuckin me t

Plz Read Every One
DOES ANY ONE KNOW WHAT REAL LOVE IS I DO I HAVE FOUND THE MAN THAT IS CARING HONEST AND IS VERY TRUE TO ME LIKE I AM TO HIM LOVE IS ABOUT CARING SHARING AND BEING BEST FRIENDS AND HONESTY TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO FIND HIM WE HAVE ALOT IN COMMEN WE BOTH LOVE THE SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE IN CASE U ALL DONT KNOW WHAT THAT IS ITS LIKE LONG WALKS SPENING TIME TOGEATHER AND TIME WITH OUR FRIENDS LIFE IS TO SHORT TO BE A PLAYER AND THATS HE IS NOT A PLAYER HE IS A REAL MAN WITH FEELINGS LIKE I AM A REAL WOMAN WITH FEELINGS SO NO MATTER WHAT NOBODY CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM US AND HE VERY PROTICVE OF ME SO BECAREFUL WHAT U POST THANKS

Xii "swept Away"
Oh~ Jenny's a' weet, poor body Jenny's seldom dry: She draigl't a' her petticoatie, comin thro' the rye! Comin thro' the rye, poor body, comin thro' the rye she draigl't a' her petticoatie comin thro' the rye! Gin a body meet a body comin thro' the rye gin a body kiss a body, need a body cry? Gin a body meet a body comin thro' the glen, gin a body kiss a body, need the warl' ken? Gin a body meet a body comin thro' the grain gin a body kiss a body, the thing's a body's ain. .... I did a little hop skip as I sang the lyric for the umteenth time. There's really not much to do out here. It was night, the sky was a lovely dark green, with no promise of a starlit purple twilight. The pools of blood where I had tread... were not diminishing nor soaking into the ground. By the looks of it... the last dune I crossed had a red stream trickling after me. I could only imagine the torrent that would come tomorrow. Sweeping me away in an angry r

The Angry American Part 4
This morning, I have seen something that touched me...it was something about a place...that I know most of you have never been, but you've heard of. Arlington National Cemetary. For those of you that don't know what it is, it's a national cemetary where our soldiers, and presidents are laid to rest. This is a beautiful place, there is a tomb there, it's of the unknown soldiers. This beautiful peice of land, and the tomb is guarded 24 hours a day, seven days a week, 365 days a year, by soldiers of the 3rd infantry division. These soldiers are the example of what it's like to be the 'best of the best'. These soldiers walk this little peice of earth, and never mutter a word, or bitch because it's too cold, or it's too hot, or it's raining, or snowing, or whatever. They do this honor and never complain. Since the tomb has been there, it has never went unguarded...there was a hurricane that blew through the DC area, the guards were told that they did not have to guard the tomb durin

My Wish
If I could make a wish And have it last forever and a day, I would take you in my arms And this is where I'd stay.. For there's no one else I know That holds my heart like you, And I know someday, baby, You'll realize this is true. If I could make a wish Your lips would be on mine, I'd slowly sip and savor you Like only the finest wine. For there's no one else I know That gives me so much pleasure, And I know someday, baby, You'll see that you're my treasure. If I could make a wish Our bodies would unite, There's nothing I'd love more Than making love all night. For there's no one else I know Who gives me passion like you do, And I know someday, baby, All my wishes will come true. If I could make a wish I'd start by making things right, I'd take away all your doubts, And hold you through the night. For there's no one else I know That means as much you see, And I know someday, baby, You'll learn to trust in me. If I could make a wish. It would be

Well Can You?
Can you feel it? Have you felt it yourself? That tremor, Flutter, Slight flip of the heart at every thought . . . Reminisce and feel its dull tug. Dream of the future and feel it fill. Hope pulls it, Fantasies stretch it, People can break it, not you. Heart to Heart. Soul to Soul. Match it. Make it. Hope it. Dream it. Love of you feeds my body. Dreams of you feed my soul

Loving Miles Apart
There are many miles between us, But our hearts see not the distance. Drawing our love even closer, On this my heart it is insistent. When we talk my heart sings, You'll never know the happiness it brings. Just to hear a word from you, Keeps my heart from being blue. I love you truly, yes I do. I forever want to be with you. For now I'll settle for the phone, But know it's in your dreams that I belong Longing for the day we greet, Two loving hearts will then get to meet. Never more to be apart, Knowing it was long distance we got our start.

The One
We were two Me and you We hadn't met Nor touched yet Our souls ached Our bodies longed For the two to become one Over many miles You drove with smiles To meet your love Sent from above With souls aching With bodies longing The two would soon become one An hour away My love did stay To him I went And the day we spent Satisfying our aches Fulfilling our longings The two became one That day we both knew we were meant to be I was made for you and you for me Never again will our hearts beat as two For your heart beats for me and mine for you We are forever one

My First Horoscope Posting In June!!
Everyone needs a little foolishness in life; it's good for the soul. Just remember that there's a difference between committing a folly and being a fool. Just which side are you on right now? Think about it. I like this... its always right on... well this one is a little late, but Im not the fool anymore!!!!!

Well...it Could Be Worse...
UGH! My mom went to my cousin's wedding this weekend. My cousin is younger than I am and I am so afraid all I'm going to get when I get home was... "well they asked about you, about if you had a boyfriend and when you were getting married." They mention it at every family gathering just about. It's so depressing for them to bring this up. I don't often whine. My friend set me up with someone last week. And when he wasn't honest with me about something, it blew up in my face instead of his. I was completely a honest person with him. He was a complete toad. I'm sick of toads. I'm sick of trying to talk to the toads. And I'm sick of my friend fixing me up. Bless her for trying though. No luck on the job front either. I wish that I had of talked to someone who went to the school first, all about the job experience stuff. I wish someone had just told me the truth of it. I am lucky to be living with my family. One of the people there at school said to go work for a temp age

I Miss You
My Darling, How I miss your touch I miss your whisper of "I love you so much" Your love is so sweet, so gentle, so tender So wonderful - just like the sender My love for you is so true and so deep I pray that my love you will forever keep I love you more each and every day I love you, Baby - in every way I love it when you Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! ! ! ! ! OMG - that makes me Purrrrrrrrrrr! ! ! ! LYL - is where I want to be Me pleasing you and you pleasing me I want to be touching you - skin to skin Baby - I am ready for our life to begin I am counting the days until then You will long for love - never again I will love you like crazy for the rest of your life You will have the best friend, lover I want to be your everything I want to be what makes your heart sing I love you, Darling - please never doubt I love you so much - I want to Shout Until we are together again - hold me in your heart I am holding you in mine - as I have from the start

What The Devil!
What the Devil! Nicholas Halligan, O.P. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There has recently surfaced a somewhat popular interest in angels. It may be a passing thing, perhaps related to the interest in the extraterrestrial as portrayed in the movies or on television or to the search for the transcendental. Whatever the explanation, it seems not to be a theological inquiry about the nature of angels and their benevolent action toward us humans. At the same time there seems to be currently little or no realization that there are bad angels who have a definite influence in our lives. These angelic creatures--devils or demons or evil spirits--are headed by Satan, referred to in Christian writings as the chief enemy of God, the tempter of our first parents and of Jesus Christ himself. Nevertheless, there are many references in our language, as in others, to the devil, such as "What the devil!", "The devil you say!", "The devil with y

My Dirty Little Secrets
HAVING SOME ONE TO LOVE AND LOVING THEM IN SOME WAYS THAT CAN BE SO SPECIAL, IT CAN MAKE YOU FEEL SO GOOD INSIDE AND FREE! TO SEE THEM AND THEIR SMILE CAN MAKE YOU JUST WANT TO EITHER COME ALIVE OR JUST COME OUT OF YOUR SKIN! IT CAN BE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL LIE, TO BELIEVE THAT IT CAN BE YOURS IN EVERY WAY SHAPE OR FORM, BUT THE FACT OF THE MATTER IS, NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS NO MATTER WHAT IT SHOWS YOU AT ALL. EVERYTHING IS JUST AN IMAGINATION THAT COMES TO LIFE WHEN YOU BELIEVE THAT SOME ONE LOVES YOU IN WAYS THAT YOU CAN'T DO FOR YOURSELF! THERE REALLY IS NO WAY OF LOVING SOME ONE THAT YOU CAN'T DO FOR YOURSELF, BECAUSE WE ALL CAN LOVE OURSELVES IN WAYS THAT NO ONE CAN! I AM SO SICK THAT PEOPLE BELIEVE THAT OTHERS ARE WHAT THEY SAY THEY ARE, WHEN REALLY YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHEN IT COMES TO SOME ONE ELSE, THE ONLY THING THAT YOU CAN REALLY BE SURE OF IS YOURSELF AND EVEN THEN YOU MAY NEVER KNOW!! I AM SO SORRY THAT YOU FEEL THE WAY YOU DO, BUT I CAN'T CHANGE THAT AND I C

June 2, 2007
WHY IS IT THAT IF SOME ONE HAS SO MANY PROBLEMS THAT THEY WANT TO ACT AS IF THEY WANT TO TRY TO DO ANYTHING IN THEIR POWER TO KEEP SOME ONE AROUND? I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND SOMETIMES HOW OTHER PEOPLE'S MINDS WORK! I REALLY KNOW I SHOULDN'T TRY TO FIGURE ANYTHING OUT AFTER ALL I HAVE A HARD TIME TRYING TO KEEP TRACK OF MY OWN DAMN MIND! YOU KNOW I WAS ASKED IF I WAS CRAZY OR SOMETHING BECAUSE OF HOW I FEEL. THE FACT OF THE MATTER YES I AM!! IS THAT SO BAD THOUGH, I DON'T REALLY THINK SO AS LONG AS YOU KNOW YOUR LIMITS. I KNOW WHERE MY LINE IS AND IT HAS NOT REALLY BEEN CLOSE TO CROSSING IT. AFTER ALL I HAVE BEEN: CHOKED, HIT, CALLED STUPID, VIOLATED, USED, TOLD THAT ALL OF SOMETHING OF MY CHILD'S DOINGS WAS ALL IN MY HEAD; THAT THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG WITH THEM; ASKED NUMEROUS OF TIMES WHY ARE YOU ACTING SO STUPID; TOLD THAT IF YOU DON'T TELL THE JUDGE YOU WANT TO COME HOME WITH ME, I WILL PACK YOUR BELONGINGS AND LEAVE YOU WHERE YOU ARE, CALLED A SLUT, WHORE, TRAMP, AND JUST OH JUST

Drinking
so, the party thing went well until my boyfriend left, and this other guy got all up in my grill. he wouldn't quit groping me..and i don't know how many people told him to stop...so therefore, it ruined the rest of my night. ..i ended up driving my happy ass back home. ..i don't recommend it after what i drank...but i made it safely..to all those who care. anyways. i just thought that i would update the drinking story.

Bye
ok on my 23rd b-day i was going to get off line 4 good but i had a dj thing and well des so i did not but now that both r gone from my life des hopely 4 ever i am getting of line my ct will be gone in the next fow days same as my myspace if i have talked to you and your truely care let me know but i will be gone soon from the net love you all turtlesymbiote

Feeling Good!
Well, anyone who's been in contact with me, either online or offline will have noticed that my moods have been al over the place this past week or so! Damn, it's as if I was going through some sort of mini breakdown, I said some crazy to stuf and I've done some crazy things. Last night I got drunk and did even more crazy stuff, I pissed off a few of my friends and I'm pretty sure I alienated some of the people on here too! Last night as I lay in bed I realized that I've been feeling a bit off for a while now and it's down to the fact that I'm starting to feel old, will be 31 soon and maybe it's time to change some stuff in my life! Well all's good now, I'm up bright and early this morning, I'm going for a big long run in the rain with my friend and I'm gonna slowly put right everything that's wrong in my life! So it's a new Dave with no more negativity! Thanks also to those who've had to put up with me this past few days, and thanks for the advice and concern last night, you know

Rates And Down Rates
I been seeing alot of people complain about being given a 1 or a 4 like when you go to someones page you have to give them a 10. I mean come on thats why there is a scale to rate some peoples tastes. If you dont like what the person rated you go rate them back and block there asses. Why worrie anyway what someone gave you as a pic rating i mean its not like you got to add them as a friend. For me i am at a high level on here i dont give a shit about points like i did back in the day so if i get a 1 i just laugh about it. Now dont get me wrong when i go to peoples pages for the most part i give them 10's unless i get a 1 and the afore mention happens..lol Thats my take on the whole down rate ordeal.

Poem
The Red Rose This red rose is my heart The pedals of blood fall for this hole in my heart grows greatly day by day Times I talk to her, the hole is closed Days I can hold her, pedals grow back Dreams of her make it stronger The rose grows bigger and brighter The larger it becomes the easier to harm to break will only lead to distaster But she protects me for me For she is my heart and I am hers

Why?
This is my heart it crys night after night in pain not for anyone more for everyone. I feel everyones pain i cant tall what it is but i know that there is a pain everyone has a pain but i can feel it how deep it goes or wide it is. I cry because this is my pain. I love so many and so many say they love me but yet i dont feel it. Why Why does everyone have to hurt. This is my question and i will live on intell i find the answer.

Do Any Of You Ever Sleep ?
Shit do any of you ever sleep on here LMSLAO like I have any room to talk here... Strips down to my thong and jumps in between the satin sheets here... Sweet dreams everyone... .¸¸. ºÖº.¸¸. ºÔº ºÖº.¸¸.Sweet Package.¸¸. ºÔº ºÖº.¸¸. ºÖº.¸¸.

Love And Life.
'm sorry that i bought you roses to tell you that i like you I'm sorry That I was raised with respect, enough not to sleep with you when you were drunk I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy" I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not an asshole I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club I'm sorry I would rather make love to you then just f**k you like some random guy. I'm sorry That I am always the one you need to talk to, but never good enough to date I'm sorry That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car, but when we went out you went home with another guy I'm s

Life When Im Down
Why do i feel so empty inside DOes this life no have those that care why do i hurt in pain like this This pain i hide in my well Why do i cry for those that couldnt care Why do i try to care for those that dont understand It hurts but i cont. to do it, why. I dont give up but i hold to this pain hardwhy? Do i hold on to my past because it has made me me.... or is it because i live in my sufferin... do i do this to myself or do others... its me i know thats the truth but why me.... Why do i cause so much pain to myself..... Does it show how much i love myself or what... Could it mean that no matter how many come... How many stand beside me will i always have this pain... The pain that eats at my heart... Tears at my soul... rips apart my thoughts cuts my skin...... eats my power... leavin nothin but a dry dead courpse or was that what i was to begin with... Why does it consume me This pain and surrow surroundin me A red silk blanket wrapin me up.. Squeezin

Rest In Peace Dad!!!!!!
12-29-32 thru 06-01-07 DAMN LIFE SUXS!!!!! Im n Amerillo working in the Chevron refinery and I get a call that my dad has passed away!!!!!!! I work on the road doing shut downs,Maybe i should do a shut down in to the wall on the way home! That way the funeral wont b sooooooo fucking hard!!!!!!!!! Dont get in my way im a train out of control crashing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who Am I?
do you know who i am? number 1. The Final Examination It was the final examination for an introductory Biology course at the local university. Like many such freshman courses, it was designed to weed out new students, having over 500 students in the class! The examination was two hours long, and exam booklets were provided. The professor was very strict and told the class that any exam that was not on his desk in exactly two hours would not be accepted and the student would fail. Half of an hour into the exam, a student came rushing in and asked the professor for an exam booklet. "You're not going to have time to finish this," the professor stated sarcastically as he handed the student a booklet. "Yes I will," replied the student. He then took a seat and began writing. After two hours, the professor called for the exams, and the students filed up and handed them in. All except the late student, who continued writing. An hour later, the last studen

Waiting Rants
1:00 AM - I went to a party this evening, celebrating the opening of a new magic show at the Planet Hollywood Hotel. Lots of people there - too many for my taste. Good food, though, and, of course, free booze. I didn't imbibe much. Just wasn't in the mood, I suppose, plus, I drove myself to the event. So, I had to be responsible. Typical Vegas party - tons of frosty headed, striped shirt boys and lots of nubile girls in very skimpy outfits. Quite a few "model" girls, strutting around as scenery. There was even some interestingly body painted girls walking around in nothing but little bikini bottoms. Of course, they had pasties over their nipples. I think, too, they had some sort of sheer body suit on. I couldn't get close enough to any of them to actually see for sure. I tried to get one of the guys that was in the group I was hanging out with to go and find out for me, but he was too chicken. I'll have to find out from someone else that went to the party if they were wearing that.

So Much To Give, In One Simple Gesture
A simple hug means you care. A simple gesture that may mean so many things, more than words a painting could give. When you feel low there is one thing that you need the most, it’s a hug. I was in a friend’s house searching on what we can do over the internet, then he asked me, ‘have you seen the video, “Free Hugs”?’ and I said ‘no I haven’t, and he said ‘you should watch it’. So we did. It’s a simple video that made me feel so emotional. A man have this sign that says “FREE HUGS” and out of nowhere people coming over to him and giving him a hug. It was fantastic! Until some people tried to stop it so they made a petition, and they gathered 10,000 signatures! Amazing! I wanna shed some tear, after realizing that ‘yeah everyone needs a hug!’ I remember the time when I was seeking attention, and feeling that I have no friends and such drama in life. And when I came into the office and our party place, I asked my friends ‘I need a hug!’ And they gave a hug. Then my world became brigh

Late Night Addendum!
Well, here I am on CherryTAP at 3 a.m.! Yep, can't sleep. What fun! Very quiet here tonight, isn't it! Ah, well! Guess I should try getting a little more sleep, lol! Good morning to the UK and European contingent of friends/family! Hope your day is spectacular, one and all! Love, hugs, and blessings! Muah!

Military Member Your Chance To Get A Blast
THAT'S RIGHT!! TIME FOR THE SEXIEST SOLDIER CONTEST RULES 1.All Military Member's are welcome to participate. 2. Must have some kind of Military Idenification in the picture (Camo's, PT outfit, ext) 3. If there are 10 entry's by June 6, 2007, The contest will start on the 7th. 4. Last day for entry's is June 10, 2007. 5. Contest ends June 25, 2007. 6. You may nominate military members for this contest. 7. Prizes based on # of Entry's and comment bombs. SEND ENTRY'S TO THE FOLLOWING **DJ Devil Witch** AKA Adopt a soldier@ CherryTAP PLEASE REPOST THIS ALSO, THANKS, AND FOR THOSE THAT MAKE STICKY PLEASE CONTACT ME, THERE WILL BE A GIFT GIVEN TO THOSE WHO STICKY THIS. THANKS! THANKS TO ALL THE MILITARY MEMBERS THAT ARE IN THE CONTEST. GOOD LUCK TO YOU ALL! ROBERT: US ARMY (NOMINATED BY GIRLFRIEND) KEVIN: US ARMY (NOMINATED BY-WISH NOT TO BE NAMED)

Marilyn Manson/slayer
Ya, in Dallas... Aug 30th.. ONE WEEK after my b day... guess who's going??!?!? YEAH!!! ME!!!! maybe spend a few days in dallas... yup yup will be fucking awesome!!! I never thought i'd see SLAYER as young as i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! plus, gotta love manson!! OOOHHH men and make up :D

Strongly Against Abuse "" My Mssg ""
HEY THIS IS SOME MUSIC WORTH LISTENING TO.NOT THE BLING BLING TYPE RAP SHIT THIS IS STRAIGHT REALITY MUSIC..CHECK IT OUT ND UNDERSTAND.. There are days when you feel like you're at the end of your rope Trying to hold on, you start losing all hope. Looking into your eyes, I see the hidden pain That inside is driving you insane. Seeing you hurt tears me apart I just wish I could heal your broken heart. You tell me that you don't belong in this place I'm here by your side in life's hard race. I see in you the inner beauty And I believe in the best you can be. A fighter is what you are Survival is your game, and in life you've come so far. Never once have I thought you were weak Because to me you are special and unique. Sure, I can't chase away all your unknown fear But for you I will always be here. If I could, all your pain I would take Just know that through everything you I won't forsake. In life you've helped me get a new start Putting my heart togeth

Afraid Of Love .
I always thought I was afraid of nothing . I'm not afraid to die . I'm not afraid to kill . But then I realised I'm afraid for showing my deepest feeling to her . Her : that one special girl . That girl I now for so long . That girl I already love for so long . The girl who's perfection to me . There sow many things I wanna tell her . There sow many things I wanna do with her . But then when I see her . I can't say a word . I can't do a thing .

My Angel
Who will catch me if I fall Who will be my gaurdian angel Who will save me if I'm on the edge Is that you? The one I love The girl I adore Are you my angel? I think you are because you give me light in the dark You talk to me when I'm down You rock my world You are the sun in my life

Yet Another Poem
Goodbye Skin as soft as the petal of a flower. You long to hold her one more hour. Eyes so deep you can feel the pride, she has when you stand near her side. You look even deeper and see the pain, that this little girl will see again. You hold her near and kiss her brow. The time has come to leave her now. The news is given in the gentlist way, she screams and yells there's so much to say. Finally she realizes its out of her control, She leaves the room with her head held low. Her head soon will rise with a glow of love, as she looks to her daddy in the heavens above. The memories he left, the kisses and smiles, the pride of his "angel", showing for miles. The support he had given in her trials and griefs, will guide her through life as he Rests In Peace!

Another Poem I Made!
Waterworks If my heart could hold the tears, of all my friends throughout the years. I'd need a chest 100 feet wide Just to fit the heart inside. I'd need a lake built right below to catch the tears that overflow. The lake would flood..impending doom So I'd shed my tears to make more room. To all of my friends just know I think and care for you all....you are the best!

R.i.p. Tim
R.I.P. Tim and Clay One of my good buds Tim Marshall was killed in a plane crash Friday night. Although I didn't know the pilot Clay Whitney My heart goes out to both of their families. A news clipping below describes the incident. You will definately be missed Tim I have alot of great memories! Search for crash victims halts Recovery of bodies to continue Monday at Lake Pleasant Lynh Bui The Arizona Republic May. 13, 2007 12:00 AM Divers stopped searching Saturday evening for the bodies of two men whose plane crashed into Lake Pleasant while the pilot was reportedly talking on his cellphone and flying 10 feet above the water. Family members of passenger Tim Marshall said they are frustrated that the Maricopa County Sheriff's Office won't continue recovery efforts until Monday. Members of Marshall's family identified the pilot as Phoenix resident Clay Whitney. The Sheriff's Office would not confirm the identity of the passenger or pilot. "I don't really

52
She shops on sunday afternoons Rides the subway down to me Then back up to you Forgotten umbrella now she's wet and cold See her smile so full of life And I am nothing if not old In her eyes my end reflects A glorious ordinary fool All the kindness she rejects She is a drug that's in my veins Scarlett and grey behind my mind Leaves a mark but does not stain One last line before I sleep Should never learn to swim In pools so green and deep

If Beauty Is Skin-deep.......
If beauty is skin-deep how deep is your love cause your beauty is eternal and soft as a dove you flow through my veins like a river to my heart that wil never stop running and will never depart forever together together forever with us together none could be better your sexy while awake probably sexy while asleep so just in that your love must be deep!

For My Sons
To my Sons: I try to think, so you don't have to break, from being a child, my fathers mistake. I try to be strong and endure any pain, So you don't have to.... just play with your train! The lessons I teach I have no guide, I make the best choices but sometimes I slide. I try to teach you both to grow to be great, to be respectful and appreciate, what life gives to you and all of your friends, to guide you through "the road of lifes" little bends. Sometimes I make decisions, that just don't seem fair, I'm doing my best..just know that I care. To Coty: I love to wrestle with you and watch you play ball, to always be there and catch you when you fall. To see the gleem in your dark brown eyes, as we play football or I hit you pop flies. I am trying my best and please understand, That I will always be there to lend you a hand! To Nathan: I love to hug you and hear your jokes, to hear you giggle at my tickles and pokes. I love your indepe

A Poem By Cowboydaddyb
I HAVE SEARCHED MY WHOLE LIFE THRU, FOR A VERY SPECIAL LOVE SO TRUE, I LONGED AND PRAYED BUT NEVER KNEW, THE LOVE I FEEL FOR MY REBECCA SUE!!! SOME PEOPLE SAY SHES PRETTY, SOME SAY THAT YOUR A CUTIE, BUT TO ME, YOU SHALL ALWAYS BE, MY GORGEOUS GODDESS BEAUTY!! I LONG FOR THAT ONE DAY, SURE TO BE THE HAPPIEST OF MY LIFE, THAT PERFECT,OH SO SPECIAL DAY, THAT YOU BECOME MY WIFE!!! FROM NOW ON THRU ETERNITY, MY LOVE AND AFFECTION IS FOREVER TRUE, TO YOUR FOUR AWESOME DAUGHTERS, AND MOST ESPECIALLY TO YOU!!! MELINDA SUE IS THE YOUNGEST, SHE LOVES TO DRAW AND DANCE, SHE IS AS CUTE AS THEY COME , WHEN SHE DOES HER LITTLE PRANCE. THERE IS THE PRETTY MISS KRISTEN, WHO LOVES HER ARTS AND CRAFTS, SHES CRAZY ABOUT ALL THE ANIMALS, EVEN THE GIRAFFES?!?!? THEN COMES THE LOVELY MISS SAMANTHA, SHE HAS TONS OF LOVE TO SHARE, ALWAYS WANTING TO GIVE A HUG, LIKE A CUTE AND CUDDLY PANDA BEAR!! THE OLDEST GIRL IS JESSICA, SHE PLAYS THE CLARINET, SHE LOVES ALL KINDS OF MUSIC, AND IS AS BEAUTIFUL AS THEY GET!

If You Knew
If you knew what u meant to me you'd be mine in a minute all this love and admiration and no where to send it with the face of an angel and the heart of gold you could never be bought never traded or sold So if you only knew you'd drop everything and run cause measured 1 to 10 you're 9 million and one!!!

More Crazy Thoughts
Why are dandelions considered weeds when daisies are considered flowers? Why does Sea World have a seafood restaurant? Whenever an adult is kidnapped why isn't it called adultnapped?? Why do blacklights look purple? Did Yankee Doodle name the feather, hat, town, or his pony Macaroni? Why is it that people duck in the rain, do they really think the rain won't hit them? How come the Bible is the most stolen book, and one of the ten comandments is "thou shall not steal"? Why isn't the caps lock capitalized? If there's a hole straight through the earth, from the south pole to the north pole, and you jump through it what would happen? would you keep falling forever, or fall back down when you get to the middle, or is it physically impossible? If someone with a nostril ring takes it out, then blows their nose, do they have to cover that hole as well as their nostril holes so that snot does'nt blow out everywere? Isn't it weird that if you rearange the word "teacher" you get

~to Be As She~
~To Be As She~ It is a night of sorrow, a song of ethereal pain, wolves vent their loneliness. The dark one wakens. Wisps of death shrouds her pale form, an eternal wanting. Her silken hair cascades over fragile milk-white shoulders, and her full blood red lips part slightly, to taste the life streaming from the pale flesh beneath her. Now a night of new life, I rise.

Some Crazy Thoughts
What's the difference between a novel and a book? How old are you before it can be said you died of old age? If nobody buys a ticket to a movie do they still show it? If someone owns a piece of land, do they own it all the way to the center of the earth? If you have a cold hot pocket, is it just a pocket? If humans evolved from monkey's/apes, why are they still here? Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle? Why is the show called unsolved mysteries? if they were solved they wouldn't be mysteries. Do penguins have knees? Why is it said that an alarm clock is going off when really its coming on? How come people tell you not to stand in front of an emergency exit when if there was an emergency surely you would run through it? Why did Sally sell seashells on the seashore when you can just pick them up anyway? In libraries, do they put the bible in the fiction or non-fiction section? Why are both of Spongebob's parents round like sea sponges while he is square

Sense Me
Sense me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tell me why the sky spins round Leaving my personality and mind in air Gravitating my body to ground People can only see what’s on ground My breast .... My lips… My legs.. My thighs. My butt…. My arms… My neck.. My eyes. What about what you cant see What is only know through senses Not physical , But emotional. If only to have one man Just one man sense my emotional side To FEEL my passion and loving heart To SEE my inner self… To HEAR my thoughts.. my dreams.. my opinions To TASTE my inner soul and beauty inside To SMELL and take in my entire personality just sense and draw my soul down in me just place it in my grounded self Make me a body with emotion in it Help and see my WHOLE true self.

Fuck You!
gh, these past few days have just not been good, me and amar have been arguing alot, i'm like really stressed, i've hardly been getting any sleep, though I took a nap today! =] I didn't have enough money to send Amar money to come down here, cause it cost 25 just to send it and then 23 more for money in mutes. And then Pat told me today that me and her were in trouble for last night, we both got wrote up, so I'll probably have to sign the paper tomorrow and my dad says if Shelly bitches me out or gives me shit then I can quit, which sucks because I need the money but i'm not putting up with her shit just because she has fucking problems so yeah, everything is just ugh =/ Actually I really don't know what I got wrote up for. Pat says she got wrote up for one letting me buy stuff after 8, but I bought everything after costumers did, I was standing in line, i've seen a million people who work there do it before! Then Pat said she got in trouble for cashing someone's check after 8, th

Fuck Life
WHY SHOULD I CARE IF NO ONE ELSE CARES WHY SHOULD I TRY NE MORE WHY THE HELL DO MOST PEOPLE THAT SAY THEY ARE YOUR FRIENDS ALWAYS GOTTA DO SOMETHING STUPID AND FUCK EVERYTHING GOOD IN YOUR LIFE UP.....WHY EVEN LIVE NE MORE WHY EVER CARE ABOUT LIFE....FUCK IT ALL....

This Bitch Is A Fucking Idiot And Shes Pissed Over Something So Stupid And This Is Proof All In The Same Convo That People Are Afraid Of What They Don
NOW SHE TRIES TO ACCUSE ME OF FUCKING WANTING HIS ASS LMFAO THAT WAS THE FUNNIEST PART OF IT AND THEN OH LOOK SHES EVEN RACIAL O.O ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/3/2007 12:00:00 AM): i havent done shit dont wanna do shit with him so fuck off smoking_guns_the_prick (6/3/2007 12:00:22 AM): yeah well fuck you why dont you go and suck some niggar dick and i don't care that i am fat at least i don't look like you i can be oretty and fat at the same time and you are just plain fucking ugly ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/3/2007 12:00:24 AM): dont bring your insecurites about your husband and your bs to me AND HERES THE REST FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT FOLKS AND AS YOU READ LOOK SHE FUCKING HATES ON ME BECAUSE IM GOTHIC AND THEN LATER WHEN I CORRECT HER ABOUT ME BEING WICCAN SHE CALLS ME A DEVIL WORSHIPER LMFAO ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/3/2007 12:00:46 AM): yeah suree what because im mother fucking gothic ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/3/2007 12:00:58 AM): what you afraid of those darker an

Wrecks
well ladies and gentle men.. i got into my first wreck in my truck that i've had for not yet 2 years (welllllllll ok it's my second wreck but i don't count the first since it was my fault and did no damage to my truck) here i was on a thursday morning , just got adjusted by the chiropractor and man oh man was i feeling really good.. my neck wasnt hurting anymore and that damn achey left arm i've had for years finally wasnt there.... so i get into my truck, drive down the road, 5 minutes into the trip *sqeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling of my tires* *bammmmmmmmmmm as the lady hits my truck* *crashhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the ladys window breaks* *thump thump as my truck goes up and curve* then silence as both vehicals stop making all the wracket and sit still' now to really give you the details.. see i was in the left hand lane, the lady was in the center lane, her vehical is ahead of mine but i'm catching up to her (and no ladies and gents i was not speeding which is a miracle) the lady moves into my

This Bitch Is A Fucking Idiot And Shes Pissed Over Something So Stupid And This Is Proof All In The Same Convo That People Are Afraid Of What They Don
OK I SWEAR TO GOD BY THIS FUCKING TIME IT WAS MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I WAS ON A LIE DETECTOR TEST LMAO...AND I TRIED TO POINT OUT TO HER THAT IT WAS WRONG TO GO BEHIND HIS BACK ASKING HIS WHOLE LIST THINGS LIKE THIS WHEN SHE COULD ASK HIM... ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/2/2007 11:49:37 PM): but theres something wrong somewhere if you have to do this behind his back smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:49:57 PM): no it is not behind his back smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:50:06 PM): i have talked to eveyone on his list ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/2/2007 11:50:58 PM): well good for them...but i got nothing to hide but i got nothing to tell either because he hasnt said nothing to me in quite some time RIGHT HERE SHE TRIES TO ACCUSE ME OF WITH HOLDING INFO FROM HER WHICH I WAS NOT TRYING TO DO BUT I HAD NOTHING TO HIDE PLUS IF YOU READ IN THE PREVIOUS PARTS OF THE CONVO I TOLD HER WHERE I MET HIM I JUST DIDNT SAY WHAT THE FALL OUT WAS ABOUT smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:51:

Te Acuerdo
Saturday, June 02, 2007 Te Acuerdo Category: Writing and Poetry Mi Dulce Acuerdo © Te acuerdo...haunting me with the past....among the Zocolo where we met in Cuernavaca as I look at fotos, mirando las fotos...the cafe where we drank coffee...tomando café. Our final embrace...holding you in my arms as tight as I could, for fear it was goodbye forever. Para siempre. Nuestro abrazo final...el último. And I think of you Still. Todavía. Ya. Eres como un suenyo. And you leave me as easily as you drift in these dreams. Like a piece of my Past that I attempt to excuse. What ever happened? Eres solo mi fantasia del pasado. So where is the Present? In this Search for Something, Someone Real. Alguien Real. So where? Couldn't be in this Box to which I am geographically assigned my Physical presence. This Body is not Limited to such Space. Que puedo decir? Quien sabe? Soy un Poeta…Artista….y voy a vivir Siempre en mis palabras y en las Mentes de mis amigos leales....cualquier grupo

The Fire Is Out
So I noticed today my cherry is no longer on fire. I have neglected CherryTap for so long that I have fallen below the #50 mark. I remember a time when I was top 20 and was sincerely upset when I dropped in numbers. This time I hadn't even noticed the drop in numbers, until of course the flame went out :( So what shall I do? Delve back into the addiction? Buy myself a blast I can't afford, spend hours upon hours working on my page, profile, and friends. I know it's all so trivial, but I suppose this will at least keep me around more. Be on the look out for my face in the blast box, and then you'll know how long I held out :)

The Attractive Test Take It Now!!!
The Attractive Test Take It Now!!! This is the "attractive" test. Reply to the person that post this with your answers. Re-Post this blank and see who will fill this out for you. You may be surprised to see some of the answers. BE HONEST!!! Do i look like a good kisser? [] yes [] no Would you kiss me? [] yes [] no Am I? [] beautiful! [] sexy azz hell [] fine [] pretty [] cute [] iight [] ugly! I look like.. [] a player [] slut [] whore [] hubby/wifey type [] one time thing [] next bf/gf If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me? [] Yes [] No Would you rather.. [] hook up with me [] cuddle with me [] have sex with me [] date me On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me.. [] 1 [] 2 [] 3 [] 4 [] 5 [] 6 [] 7 [] 8 [] 9 [] 10 Are you going to repost this so i can answer for YOU? [] yes [] no what would you want me to be to you? [] friend [] f

My First Cherry Blog
Just to let you know, if I blog, it's usually because some trifilin lil ho done pissed me off, and instead of beating someone's ass n going to jail, I'll vent here. I haven't had anyone piss me off yet, except my ex bf.. but i'll blog about that later ;)

Its Pimp Out Time-help A Friend Out
OK NORMALLY I DON'T DO THIS. BUT ITS PIMP OUT TIME!! PLEASE GO SHOW SOME LOVE TO A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE! HE HAS MANY PICTURES THAT CAN BE RATED AS WELL AS A GOOD STASH! DJ STRYKE *OWNER CNLL *ANGLEVIL'S CT FIANCE/RL BF* CT PASTOR * MANAGER WPR & DJ @ HOD@ CherryTAP SO PLEASE LETS HELP HIM LEVEL UP. HE HAS BEEN STUCK AT LEVEL 14 WHICH IS A EPIC CHERRY. SO LETS HELP HIM OUT AND SHOW HIM WHAT GOOD FRIENDS ARE FOR!!

This Bitch Is A Fucking Idiot And Shes Pissed Over Something So Stupid And This Is Proof All In The Same Convo That People Are Afraid Of What They Don
OK NOW HERES WHERE I TRIED TO TELL HER THAT SHE OBVIOUSLY HAS NO TRUST BETWEEN THEM IF SHES ASKING OTHER PEOPLE THESE QUESTIONS AND EVEN APOLOGIZED AHEAD OF TIME AND EVERYTHING IF I MIGHT HAVE OFFENDED HER BUT SHE EVEN DENYS THAT SHES TRYING TO FIND THESE THINGS OUT BUT YET SHES ASKING ME ALL OF THESE QUESTIONS SUSPICIOUS HUH? SO HERES MORE OF THE CONVO ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/2/2007 11:40:44 PM): um hun im gonna be straight with you...and im sorry if i offend you ahead of time...but um usually when a chick is trying to find these things out it usually starts out with questions like the ones your asking me...and obviously theres no trust if you have to ask other ppl if hes cheating on you smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:41:11 PM): oh i know that he is not cheating on me now smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:41:16 PM): i know that he has smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:41:26 PM): but i was just wondering how you know him smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:41:39 PM

Life
as i stand here in this world, without a map or a clue as to where or who i am...ive developed a hypothesis so deep that it ponders inside my deepest thoughts... before i tell you this is how ive begun this train of thought...based on all the thinking of all the things that have happened to me and the things that ive done...i grew a sudden feeling of emptiness a void in which i know cannot be answered. *as a child your mind is a blank state...you can be raised as an animal without the influence of any human and youll act as an animal. Animals can be done so in a similar way. Animals have found productive ways to use there time. Basic life cycle consists of birth, consumtion, mate, death...some out exist others based on the theory of darwinism. humans are born, consume, breed and die as well...but we also create useless things that have controled so many lives...im not saying this to be rude but what is a religion...how many are there...do dogs go to church...so what if this is a test..

"the Man With A Tear"
from the womb i came, as a child she gave me a name. from her, from here i begin, the tiniest of sin. time progresses and i learn the ways, every last one of the 6,935 days. the day i was born i began to die, but i surpassed that evertime i got high. the day i met my assailant, i was my only monovalent. with my eyes i saw my lies, as a corpse would gather flies. everyday and everynight inside i cry, and only wish i would die. my words float away in the breeze, here is my cursed disease. i felt the anger build into a rage, nothing could stop it until the next ice age. my life depicts itself as a riddle, but one spends his life to piddle. everyday inside i bleed, but only i realize and heed. i am a man without fear, but i am a man with a tear.

Verse Of Converse: Love Begins Here
Thine eyes are of truest beauty. Your lips are of heavenly touch. Our embrace makes the world disappear. In our life time we make the possible, and together we conquer the impossible. With you I share a piece of me. I will wait for you patiently, each and every last day. Hence we meet again, trueth become of hope, our bond shall be strong. Dear'st of my thoughts, Let my words be heard. But words cannot come close to describing how I feel about you. From: Zero

I Write Poetry
Time is precious It is of the essence But no time is worth my time Unless that time is spent with you I remember us the way we used to be I'd hold you in my arms your smile so sweet to me Rest your head and close your eyes Everything will be okay For when you wake with the sweet sunrise For when you wake with the warm summer scent It will be a brand new day I dream only of your love and happiness in life I try not to think of you but when I close my eyes...All I see is you.

Cherry Blasts
Are cutting off Half of my shout box wich im trying to have a converstation in, and cant see everything the other person is saying! this is pissing me off! is there any way i can just turn off from seeing these stupid blasts?

So Who Cares?
NO ONE!! NO ONE FUCKING CAAAAAAAAAAAAAARES!! ohwell..I'm done. Over-cooked. Monday, I get to see David and we might hang out with Angel. and more then likely if everything gets situation financially..Angel will be our room-mate. Angel....GAY PROM PRINCE AND OWENS!! muwhahaha...long story. I hold no resentment for anyone.....I wish them the best of lives...even though I know one person who wish I enjoy living getting fucked over...I wish you the best of a life hun...I really do. I wish you can marry the person you love and have a great life. I hope everything turns out right for you and that you never have to endure what some people do. You're fortunate in your life, don't take it for-granted. Best of luck to you. as for Becky....YOUS A KICK-ASS CHICK!! I wish you only the best hun. From what I know of you, you deserve it. I hope you get everything situated and that you'll know what will happen to you. Just remember, theres always a reason to keep trying...and yo

This Bitch Is A Fucking Idiot And Shes Pissed Over Something So Stupid And This Is Proof All In The Same Convo That People Are Afraid Of What They Don
OK THERES A GUY IVE KNOWN FOR A LITTLE OVER A YEAR ON YAHOO ME AND HIM HAD OUR DISAGREEMENT ABOUT A LITTLE OVER 6 MONTHS AGO SO I HAVENT TALKED TO HIM SINCE HE GOES BY SMOKING_GUNS_THE_PRICK HIS SUPPOSID WIFE POPS UP WITH THIS AND TO PROVE OR TRY TO PROVE THAT ITS BEEN A LONG ASS TIME SINCE IVE TALKED TO HIM I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE HAD GOTTEN MARRIED THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IVE EVER MET ANY SYMBALINCE OF A GF OR WIFE HES HAD BUT ANYWAY SHE STARTS OUT NICE AND STUFF AND SHE SAYS THIS: smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:32:00 PM): hello ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/2/2007 11:32:22 PM): hi smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:33:01 PM): how do you know travis ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/2/2007 11:33:19 PM): Travis is a friend of mine from a while back smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:33:38 PM): oh ok well i saw you on his list and was wondering smoking_guns_the_prick (6/2/2007 11:33:52 PM): well this list ~+yourxworst xnightmare+~ (6/2/2007 11:33:55 PM): uh huh i see smoking_gun

I Hate Being Single!!!
Here I sit.. All alone, late, bored. This gets sooo old. Why is it if there are so many single girls, no one wants me? How is it the only ones I find are crazy? When do I get to be happy for once? I know I tend to be negative. I try not to be, But I've not had an easy life. I just wish I could find someone who liked what I liked and loved me for me and who I am. Not who they think I should be. I dunno.. I just wish...

It's Not Hard To Think About Positive Things When You Try.
This weekend, we got our new washer and dryer, that we went to go and pick out yesterday. It was delivered which was a load off of my mind since I would rather just go ahead and pay a delivery fee and get the things we buy that need to be set up done right.In case nobody has noticed, and I was one who didn't at first, is that my husband will come off of his wallet for lawn mower stuff, drill stuff (Power tools) but when it comes to paying for delivery on our refrigerator (We had to get "basic" delivery which was 40 something dollars (They delivered and leveled the refrigerator and didn't do very much else) which we needed before Thanksgiving, he was not a happy camper. This time around we got the deluxe delivery package (my doing) so that it was set up and leveled and even tested before they left. Plus they took the old set (didn't take the fridge because of "basic" delivery) this time with them. But my plan was to go lay back down after it was delivered but then I went to a local BBQ

Sorry Its Been So Long.....
Well for the semi-good news:: I'm moving to a bigger place in two weeks A THREE BEDROOM YAY!! that will cost me only 150 more than im paying now....work is still going great, im in my eigth month and getting my medical benefits, Old lady charlie is back with me and moving into the three bedroom with me and i have a restraining order on the somoan that has been giving me troubles.......he can no longer hurt me again....the pd are watching him now for drugs. And most of the politics from work before are now wiped since they got rid of a few pit bosses and others that were top dog, they have all been demoted and theyre talking about promoting me!! As for the really bad news:: Well, Dee is still in town but probably wont be for long since she still cant hold a job {lost her job at the gas station too and still goes to my work} ...My parents are in town but they seem to be pretty cordial so far...which is a good thing so that part isnt really bad news....And ive got a church Evangel

All Is Vain
Yesterday, I thought today, was vain. It was clear, I could hear, it was plain. Inside my mind, I could not find, it was cold. But I thought of you, yes it's true....."I fold, I fold!!!" As my lips could not speak, I got weak, but you knew. My hands cound not say, but I May, I still love you. But as it is known, that while I have grown, I have been slain. This part is so torn, my heart is so warn, and all is vain.

Well, That's A First And A Second
"You've received 180 points just for being online!" I see twice tonight for the first time (reminding me of that Punch cartoon, "You wait forever for a Horseman of the Apocalypse and then four arrive at once")

Gun Control
FIREARMS REFRESHER COURSE >>>>> >>>>> *1. An armed man is a citizen. An unarmed man is a subject. >>>>> >>>>> *2. A gun in the hand is better than a cop on the phone. >>>>> >>>>> *3. Colt: The original point and click interface. >>>>> >>>>> *4. Gun control is not about guns; it's about control. >>>>> >>>>> *5. If guns are outlawed, can we use swords? >>>>> >>>>> *6. If guns cause crime, then pencils cause misspelled words. >>>>> >>>>> *7. "Free" men do not ask permission to bear arms. >>>>> >>>>> *8. If you don't know your rights you don't have any. >>>>> >>>>> *9. Those who trade liberty for security have neither. >>>>> >>>>> *10. The United States Constitution (c) 1791. All Rights reserved. >>>>> >>>>> *11. What part of "shall not be infringed" do you not understand? >>>>> >>>>> *12. The Second Amendment is in place in case the politicians ignore >>>>> the >>>>> others. >>>>> >>>>> *13. 64,999,987 firearms owners killed no one yesterday. >>>>> >>>

It's Times Like These......
It's times like these, I wish I did not fret. I'd take the ashes from the burning lake, and write to you once more. I don't care what is said or whose blood should be shed, I'd still take the pain. What is to become of those who are late, who davel in life and toil in voided reality. Why can't they see, why can't they go??? What must I choose so's not to loose?? These are the things that you helped me with, and still I refuse. And all the Men, whose hearts you touch...and those that you don't, Can't see what it's like when I sing the blues and drink the sober mind 'till death. It's times like these that I wish I lived a blind man, and deaf and slaughtered too. But, it can't be stopped and you try to piece together the puzzle that was never there

I'll Wait For You......
Into servitude I was bought, And with an ounce of pain, I was tought. Incriminating with what I always thought. By love and greed, I was caught. Maybe, someday I'll be different; But until then, I'm not coherent. Shadowy thoughts, that is all apparent. Envy sayth "Be Ignorant! ! ! ! !" "No one is the wiser." So they said. Repeating images of casting demons in my head, I could have ended it all, with a piece of lead, As I walk through life laying on my death bed. Jumbled thoughts of todays date, I still don't know how much you hate, If you don't, can you wait? Just tell me straight.......is it too late??

'soul Cleansing' Guitar Blog By Marq
Copyrighted so back off A song I wrote called: The lyrics go like this... Soul Cleansing This is to my shadowself To break straight through & cleanse myself Of the aberrations that deeply dwell I must excavate my soul now well! So I shovel til I reach the core Down to my festering wounds & bleeding sores From all this trauma I‘ve endured Wondering why must I suffer for So this is to my shadowself To shatter through & dissect myself An now I open up just to reveal All this twisted torment that I feel Like mother what did you abandon me for & father why did you beat your boy Both left me bruised & sore Some of the many wounds that I need cured But no I just struggle to concoct a plan To make sure the pain can’t come back again & finally, then I will be whole Having told & unearthed my soul Wrote by S.M.Hall 2007 Copyrighted All Rights Reserved

My Quote For The Day
BECAREFUL WHO YOU GIVE YOUR HEART TO BECAUSE YOU NOT ONLY GIVE THE PERSON THE RIGHT TO LOVE YOU BUT ALSO GIVE THEM A THE CHANCE TO HURT YOU. Many people ask why does love hurt so much and I guess the only answer to that is the obvious, if it wasnt really love then it wouldnt hurt when you lost out .

Katherine 'kat' Szakacs (911808)
For some reason, I know not why, the person mentioned voted my photo a 2. I don't know if she took time to visit my profile. I know she didn't contact me to find out what kind of person I am. Think I'll go down rate one on her, see how it feels. I left her a message too.

A Poem For All
Decent into Madness Walking down a road unseen Taking turns that are not there Answering questions That will never be asked Fighting a hunger which cannot be fed Wanting for a sleep that will not come Wanting to sit but can’t see the ground Hearing screams that have no sound Fighting a war you cannot win Reading the books that have no words Chased by memories that do not exist Spinning down into a hole Where there is no escape Darkness swirling around No light to behold Crying out for help But none is near The walls closing in The only way out Is to go through to the end

Moving
Ok, that's it, tonight is the last fucking time someone is gonna piss me off in Texas. And my solution is moving. As soon as I get my shit sold, I'm gone. So for those of you here in Texas, I'm sorry. I can't take it no more. Those of you in Florida, I'm on my way, just give me time. (BTW, just to let ya'll know, I got ran off the road in Mineral Wells, TX, I'm still not very happy about that)

Havent Wrote In Here In A Long Time
im haveing some personal problems and i was hoping this blog could give me some help with ur ideas...i havent really had a real relationship and now im in one but i dont feel wanted and he always avoids me online and never calls me we only talk when we hang out i wanted to know if this is normal or if i have something to worry about thank you xoxo

The Love Is There
Is death an end to lifes problems? Is loneliness a punishment for lifes mistakes? To find a friend is a feat many cannot believe A friend finds you perfect no matter the mistakes How can someone with so many friends be lonely? Why does loneliness only creep into our lives? Life is a gift that so many squander Family is a treasure so many turn away Why is this life so hard? Why are friends so loving when family looks away? This world of so many people Seems to always look the other way Why is this life so hard? Why should this life continue? It's time to get up and move around Don't sit wasting your time feeling down Is there a world out there full of love? Do my friends and famly believe in me? Yes they do Actually, they love you

Food For Thought
I've got a freaking bee in my bonnet!! About 99% of the older albums that I acquire, or re-acquire, that have been re-mastered sound like shit to me! A case in point. I've just bought Joni Mitchells 'Blue' and it sounds like it's been dipped in liquid oxygen. The sound has lost all the warmth of the original recording and it seems like it could shatter into a thousand pieces any minute! Am I just being a grumpy old git or does anybody else out there share this little bug-bear of mine? Or is it that in this time of mp3 and iPod that often produces (depending on the format selected) a sound that would have disgraced a Dansette, that people's ears are changing and brittle is the order of the day! In short, is digital the new analogue?

Wow
Well apparently some people are offended by hitman6's response....boohooohooo.Was expected and to bad for them.Glen has tried so hard to keep our family clean and drama free but the other's wouldn't allow it.Wish these whiner's would grow up and shut-up...now Joker's Wild is personally attacking Hitman6 which he expected. Joker the more you do,the more you prove Glen right and show the pawn you are!The whole of CT is probably watching this unfold as nothing like a good war between family's to make people take notice.You want to start calling names like cock sucker and shit...you dumb fuck it just show's Glen hit the mark and now your pissy cause you got caught!!!

Bitter Sweet
Life really is Bitter Sweet! Well, isn't life just full of suprises? Both good and bad, never underestimate the power of life to suprise you. I have recently been taking consolation in the following things: -First, the fact that everything works out, although not neccessarily how we would wish it to be. There is a lesson in that, something vaguely Buddhist in that the pain comes from one's own desire for things to be different from how they are. More on that sometime. -Second, that for whatever reason, the moon still shines down upon me, no matter what. I am rather fond of its light, and the fact that it will stay with me for as long as I can see, is rather pleasant to know. -Third, the mildly-self-destructive-but-emotionally-satisfying-urges I tend to indulge in, "But how are those things destructive?" you may ask. Go on, I give you permission. Heh. Mostly because they cut away from the rest of my life, and although they comfort me, it is the bittersweet comfort of

News
so just an update had a wedding to go to today we missed the wedding hit the reception helped out there had some fun had a few drinks i caught the boquet that was an experience and yeah thats about it life is pretty much the same i went back to brown for now we'll see how long i can make it last lol might put extentions in in a little bit but we'll see until then not much happening catch ya'll later M 92.5 Concert in 7 days WOOT!

Rating Pics
well, it seems as tho ive reched my limit tonite on rating pics....which sux. it also sux that there is any such limit donch all think? what prpose dose it serve to limit ur ratings? i certanly dont see any (atleast not that i know.)but who knows....so for u people out there who r my friends or have just stopped by and have rated my pics and r wondering why i havent rated urs yet, its because ive reached my limit...but dont worry, theres always tommorrow! and im sure ill probably reach my limit again as it seems pretty short (or is it just me?). but anywho, for those of u that have become my friends and fans today thankyou very much....and also thanx to everyone who has rated me a 10 and has rated my pix a 10! that always makes me feel great...like im doing something right (not that i think im not, but ya know)! designing and putting togather my cherrTAP page has beenn a lot of hard work but has also been a lot of fun! ive gotta say im having a blast with this place! i find myself on i

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Tangled Hair
Tangled Hair Â Â Beth was sitting at an airport terminal waiting to board a plane.Â She was sitting there with several other people whom she did not know who were also waiting.As she waited, she pulled out her Bible and started to read. All of a sudden, she felt as if the people sitting there around her were looking at her.Â She looked up but realized that they were looking just over her head, in the direction right behind her. She turned to see what everyone was looking at and when she did, she saw a flight attendant pushing a wheelchair with the ugliest old man sitting in it.Â It was the ugliest man she ever saw.Â He had this long white hair that was all tangled and such a mess.Â His face was really wrinkled, and he didn't look friendly at all. She didn't know why, but she felt drawn to the man and thought at first that God wanted her to witness to him.Â In her mind she said she was thinking, "Oh God, please not now, not here." No matter what she did, she coul

Hmmm Updates........
Lately things have been going like hell but its all good I guess. On monday if I dont have a home for my german shepard I'm outta my place YAY I LIVE IN MY CAR THEN. Eh lets see what else. I took 3 pg test an they all come out to be positvie so who knows i might be pg ONCE again but not with screwed up jakes kid. It would be my recent ex bf kid. YAY.... NOT. Ya jakes been a PRICK lately an really dont give 2 shits no more cause he on ignore on everything, the dude really needs to get a real life shit maybe a job would help him out hey. YAY jake im talking about u. I may have been pg with his babies but i think it was well worth it that i didnt have them. Eh drinking is soo going to be fun tonight. Ya if Im pg oh well lifes a bitch an we all die. Ya one of my girls are jelous cause of me cause her boobs size went from a c to a b an mine went from a c to d. Well time to get going here ITS BEER TIME yaaaaaaaaaaaay... oh shit thats right according to JAKE im an alchy. Sweet, sorry dear but

Losing Alot Of Good Friends
I was in a contest, that was a dam good one at that, congrats caveman!!!!! With that being said, I have lost alot of good friends because of all the crazy crap going on. I certainly will not enter another for a longgggggggggggg time, I enjoy the contest from time to time, but my friends mean far more. If I have offended anyone in any way, it was not my intention. I have enough real drama here at home with my daughter who just got out the hospital for cutting herslf and my son trying to get his life back into order and working my ass off to put my other son to college soon and going to college myself, part time I love all my friends on here and I just wanna laugh and have a good time and I am thinking maybe I should just be on my own, not because of the families but because I don't want to lose anymore friends. I hope everyone will understand my decision. I love all the bomber families they are really awesome and I will still be here to help ya out when you need it, but I just wanna lau

Exercise For Seniors...too Funny!!
( I came across these simple exercises for older people recently and thought I should share them with you. The article suggested doing them three times a week.) 1. Stand on a comfortable surface, with plenty of room at each side. With a 2kg potato sack in each hand, extend your arms straight out from your sides. Hold them there as long as you can. Try to reach a full minute, and then relax. 2. Each day, hold this position for just a bit longer. After 2 weeks, move up to 5kg potato sacks. After a further 2 weeks, use 25kg potato sacks and then eventually try to lift a 50kg potato sack in each hand and hold your arms straight for more than a full minute. (I'm now at this level, by the way.) 3. When you feel confident at that level, put a potato in each sack. LOL!! Tc n peace..Boo xo

News Wow Im So Proud Of My Boy But A Sad Day Was Had Too
well this has been and exciting and sad month for me in the last week had my ten year reunion and found out i've lost a few more good friends from school been to too many funerals this month lets hope theres no next month my son is graduating from kindergaten on june 18 im so proud of my little man he starts grade 1 next fall wow do children grow faster than u think on june 1st we lost our beloved 14 yr old cat shadow she will be ever so missed in this house may she rest in eternal peace thats all thats new so far hope u all take care and cherish every moment with loved ones they might not be there tommorrow hugs to u all trin,

A Few Days Off
I needed a few days off work, but I knew the Boss would not allow me to take a leave. I thought that maybe if I acted "CRAZY" then he would tell me to take a few days off. So I hung upside down on the ceiling and made funny noises. My co-worker (who's blonde) asked me what I was doing. I told her that I was pretending to be a light bulb so that the Boss >would think I was "CRAZY" and give me a few days off. A few minutes later the Boss came into the office and asked "What are you doing?" I told him I was a light bulb. He said "You are clearly stressed out. Go home and recuperate for a couple of days". I jumped down and walked out of the office. When my co-worker (the blonde) followed me, the Boss asked her"...And where do you think you're going?" (You're gonna love this.....keep going) . . . . . . . . . . . She said, "I'm going home too. I can't work in the DARK!" lol!! Tc n peace..Boo xo

Holy Cow!
ok well as you know well if ya know me im 19 and i live in an one room apt with another person, dog, cat, and rat and now im gettin another person! it would be fine if it was morbid that was moving with me which she still might but now im gettin my baby brother... not much of a baby he is 18 and my dad ad step mom are throwing him out if he doesnt have a job and car at the end of the summer and they dont plan on helpin him (btw he just graduated..congrats get out of my house now!) the worst part he doesnt care he doesnt want to move to michigan! fucker just needs to come here and i will help him out. not much room here but ill try my best. he is a lil brat too. its like being a mom! im only 19 i dont want to be a mom yet! also its gonna be weird my pinup/porn site is openin at the end of the month and fuckin crazy cuz there is gonna be girls in and out of the house and nakedness....and my brother....oh god. im gonn ahve to build a box to put him in till the girls and nakedness is out

Time Will Tell ...
So far everythings' so good We've already connected like we should You say you've been wanting me I believe you, because when I look at you- I see it in your smile When we are together I am happier than ever I use to feel this way with others but with you- it's better I hope we can have a happy and wonderful relationship because I'm tired of trying to find someone to share my love with I find myself thinking about you more than I should If I could kiss you every minute- boy you know I would I hope, with you, I'll be appreciated and respected because I can't bare going through being neglected I want to be your everything and help you to love me So one day we can make it official and you could be my hubby I ain't here to break your heart I'm here to satisfy you and treat you like the king you are Things may be still rough around the edges since we're just starting out but once we understand each other it'll smooth on out So far you've been a gentleman

Wanting....
Wrote this one a few years back too. I sit in your silence, scared. Waiting patiently for recognition. For a word, For a breath, For a touch But I am raw. Because I watch your hands instead of writing, and I listen to your breath instead of breathing. Its strange, how close I feel and the need I have to help you, to make you smile. And yet I'm still here waiting, for you to let me in. And this is where I will stay, until you come for me.

Always And Forever
For you I'd make the world turn, For you my heart will always yearn. For you I'd give my life at will, For, you are the one who makes my heart stand still. Without you, my life is dull, Your smile warms my deepest soul. Your laugh is like a thousand bells, And when you laugh... my heart doth swell. For every wave that finds the shore, My heart loves you a thousand times more. For every bird that sings it's song, My love for you grows deep and strong. Always and forever, I'll love you till I die, And to you, my darling, I cannot lie. For you, my heart, I'll always endeavor To love you now, always... and forever.

After A While
Found this years ago, and it touched me. Think this is something ever person needs to find out. After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, And you learn to build your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you even learn that sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure.... That you really are strong, And you really do have worth. ~ Unknown~

Darkness
Wrote this back in high school. Darkness, Stone cold darkness all around. Trembling hands, slowly reaching.... Reaching for someone to hold me, anyone who could possibly understand. But no one is ever there. Screaming, Searching, Hoping someone will come and help. But no one ever comes. So here I will sit In this stone cold darkness, and wait, for that one person, who will some day come and save me from my darkness.

Finally
The first time I saw you, I thought I was going to die. I found out you had someone, and felt like I was going to cry. I knew you for many years, you didn't know I even existed. I only could dream of a time, when we would get to kiss. We hung out all the time, but only you talked about 'her'. Then when you were single again, you talked of how you were. She broke your heart in two, which, for her, was very wrong. If only yours would have been mine, we would still be together, going strong. I never had the guts to tell you, of how I loved you so. Then you came back into town, and I know you had to know I told you I loved you, then quickly got out of sight. Just incase the look you would give, was one I wouldn't like. Luckly for me... because you told me, exacally how you felt. I was so happy to hear it, I thought that I would melt. So, now I have been completly honest with you, everything, I believe, you know now. But I really wish I wouldn't h

Hurt
some people that say they that their my friend that they'll be there for me til the end but many of my so called friends are not ones i can trust or depend i'm stuck in a world of miss trust believing in friends that lie and grind me like dust i cant figure out why people are this way to tell you what you want to hear and lies are all they say they say they'll be there for me and then they walk away they'll be friends to my face and back stabb me in every way they promise to hold my secrets and then will tell them all away it will forever hurt my heart each and every day Trin,

Went Out Last Night...
Was the first time in a while I'd gone out. Since about the 3rd week of April, in fact. So I headed out to Gameworks in Newport, Kentucky (which is a combination of bar/grill/arcade). I got there about 8:45 or so and the place is already packed. That's not unusual on Friday nights. So I'm in there, playing games. There's a couple games in particular where you win tickets by playing them, and sometimes can win BIG. Well I was playing one called the "Big Win Super Spin". LO AND BEHOLD - you're looking at one of the latest big jackpot winners at that game - because on the third or 4th spin (I cannot remember which now for the life of me, I was sky high on one liter of Dew at that point), I hit the thousand. Jackpot baby! The buzzer went off and it came over the loudspeaker that there was a winner. The Gameworks staff came, got my card from me to put the thousand tickets on it, and then just as I'm about to turn around, another employee whom I've been talking to off and on since Janua

What A Girl Is Waiting For...
A four year old girl was learning to say the Lord's Prayer. She was reciting it all by herself without help from her mother. She said, "And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us some e-mail. Amen."

Donation
A local United Way office realized that it had never received a donation from the town's most successful lawyer. The person in charge of contributions called him to persuade him to contribute. "Our research shows that out of a yearly income of at least $500,000, you give not a penny to charity. Wouldn't you like to give back to the community in some way?" The lawyer mulled this over for a moment and replied, "First, did your research also show that my mother is dying after a long illness, and has medical bills that are several times her annual income?" Embarrassed, the United Way rep mumbled, "Um. . . no." " - or that my brother, a disabled veteran, is blind and confined to a wheelchair?" The stricken United Way rep began to stammer out an apology but was interrupted, " " - or that my sister's husband died in a traffic accident," the lawyer's voice rising in indignation, "leaving her penniless with three children?!" The humiliated United Way rep, completely beaten, said simply, "I had

Idk
There was a competition to cross the English channel doing only the breaststroke, and the three women who entered the race were a brunette, a redhead and a blonde. After approximately 14 hours, the brunette staggered up on the shore and was declared the fastest. About 40 minutes later, the redhead crawled up on the shore and was declared the second place finisher. Nearly 4 hours after that, the blonde finally came ashore and promptly collapsed in front of the worried onlookers. When the reporters asked why it took her so long to complete the race, she replied, "I don't want to sound like I'm a sore loser, but I think those two other girls were using their arms..."

True Love ...
Past is the past The present is now And the future has yet to unfold But the one sure thing is... I want you there to hold. I want to open your eyes to a world of paradise Where life is full of happiness without having to pay a price Where ectasy can be reach and love is full of joy Where once again a grown man can become a little boy I want you to be in a world of no worries or regrets Where love is full of joy and happiness is able to be met. Maybe to people- this is just a dream But if you give me a chance I`ll show you what i mean A dream is an illusion we create in our mind Hoping it will come true sooner or later, in time But whoever said you can`t make your dreams come true All you have to do is believe it and it's all up to you I want to take you up and never let you down I promise to let no one push you to the ground I want to give you love like no one has given before A love that all guys want and all girls truly adore I want to show you love

Fantastic Animals
The Clydesdale Horse Society was established in 1877, almost a century and a half after the breed first began to evolve. The primary purpose of the breed was literally as a farm work horse - true horse power prior to mechanisationThe estimated United States Clydesdale population is between 2,500 and 3,000. Approximately 400 Clydesdales are registered in the United States each year. Anheuser-Busch currently maintains the largest Clydesdale herd in the world, between 225 and 250 horses. One of two breeding farms for the Anheuser-Busch Clydesdales is Grant’s Farm, located in south St. Louis, Missouri. Approximately 15 to 20 foals (a horse under six months of age) are born there each year. The second breeding farm is located near Romoland, California, about 60 miles southeast of Los Angeles. Approximately 15 to 20 foals are born there each year. Grant’s Farm is the former home of Ulysses S. Grant, Civil War commander and the eighteenth president of the United States

Best Back Tattoo On Ct!
Best Back Tattoo On Ct! I Need Tattoos Of Backs! Contest will start on 6/4 thur 6/11 Winners will get 2 gifts each! Comment bombing allowed and self bombing also! Want to enter just send me a link to ur pic or tell me and i will Rip your pic for you! Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~ FoUnDeR Of~ * AnGeLs Of MeRcY BoMb SqUaD * ~@ CherryTAP

Best Sexxy Eyes On Ct Contest!
Best Sexxy Eyes On Ct Contest! Contest will start on 6/4 thur 6/11 Winners will get 2 gifts each! Comment bombing allowed and self bombing also! Want to enter just send me a link to ur pic or tell me and i will Rip your pic for you! Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~ FoUnDeR Of~ * AnGeLs Of MeRcY BoMb SqUaD * ~@ CherryTAP

Mindless
when you say something and it is taken wrong. when is too late to explain? or is it even worth it?? Im not a whiny baby.. I know when Im not wanted, or when Im not needed even. So why do you just continue on? Just want to see how much more wrapped can I be.. to toss me aside?? Or until I care even more.. so that this will be the final time for hurt. I am me.. always will be. It never was a problem before. Why is it now? I HAVE FEELINGS!!!!!!!!

Heart Problems
In life we take breathing for granted. I don't! The simple reason being is that as most of you know I have a mechanical aorta valve! When I was young I thought I was normal I played around like any kid would. When I was older I started having problems. Being that I was born with the problem I thought it was normal! I couldn't breathe right and I had severe chest pains every so often (but not enough to make me wonder if something was wrong). It realy hit me one day when I was working for a meat company. I had a bad chest pain and had to literally drop what I was doing and wait for the pain to go away. I've had them in the past but this was the worst! My stupid ass thought this was normal. I had to go for a physical to get my CDL. The worst felling you ever have is the one when the doctor says to your face you are and I quote "fucked up. you need open heart surgery." I have never been so scared in my life. something always goes wrong. I didn't want to die!! My family didn't believe this

September 1st, 2007
That's not that far away. You may be wondering what I care about that date for. Well, I am marrying ARCADIAN on that day. I can't wait but at the same time nothing is ready...lol We will get it all figured out. I'm so excited! We are all doing good. The kids went to the bay to go swimming and I kinda wish I would have went with them. It's about 100 degrees in my apt. It lasts all summer this way and is very hard to sleep in the heat. School is starting again soon for me and I'm excited about that too. I can't wait to get a job and stop living on SSI. Trying to make some big changes in my life right now. Well, that's all for now....if you want to know more just send me a message and I will respond. Sweet

Dear Friend ...
Dear friend, what's on your mind...you don't laugh the way you used to...but I've noticed how you cry...Dear friend, I feel so helpless...I see you sit in silence...as you face new pain each day...I feel there's nothing I can do...I know you don't feel pretty...even though you are...but it wasn't your beauty...that found room in my heart(Dear friend, you are so precious, dear friend)Dear friend, I'm here for you...I know that you don't talk too much...but we can share this day anew...Dear friend, please don't feel like your alone...There is someone who is praying...praying for your peace of mind...hoping joy is what you find...I know you don't feel weak...even though you are...but it wasn't your strength...that found room in my heart(Dear friend, you are so precious, dear friend)

Tribute Tattoo Contest!
Tribute Tattoo Contest! I need Tribute Tattoos for this contest! Contest will start on 6/4 thur 6/11 Winners will get 2 gifts each! Comment bombing allowed and self bombing also! Want to enter just send me a link to ur pic or tell me and i will Rip your pic for you! Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~ FoUnDeR Of~ * AnGeLs Of MeRcY BoMb SqUaD * ~@ CherryTAP

The Joining
Another writing challenge met.... The Joining ~~~~~~~~ Coming together under A lovers moon Our meeting just a little Too soon Work roughened hands Caress silk skin So soon in the knowing We take each other in Simple touch brings Sounds of sweet delight Underneath the stars Soft light Hearts beating wildly At Heavens door As heated pleasure reached Evermore

Why Cant I Get A Job
I have been looking for a job since March and I have had no luck. I have a BA in Accounting and still nothing. I have 5-7 of experience to back it up and still nothing. I have even applied for other jobs such as retail and still nothing. I am a nice polite person and still cant get a job. I love working. I always have had a job. I have recently reloceated to this area due to my divorce and the only person I know is my sister and she is no help because she is a petty person. I dont see how peopel do this not having a job. I am going crazy. If it wasnt for the internet, I would have no social life. I just wish I knew what I was doing wrong.

Ever Wonder ...
Ever wonder why we have two eyes? It was made that way so that one can see clearly how beautiful the world is just by looking at the eyes of a loved one. Have you every thought why God created spaces between our fingers? Simply, so that another person's fingers could fill them in ... And guess why is it that the heart is placed where it is right now? It was placed there so that during those moments of silent togetherness, we could listen to our hearts telling us that we have found the right person for us.

Friendship!
I can honestly say that joining cherry tap was the best thing I have done. I have made some true friends on here people who don't judge you for the way you look but for who you are. The frinds I have made here have show me what true frindship really is thanks to all my friends here I love each and everyone of you and thank you all for being my friends!!

Am I Worth It?
Sometimes she puts up walls... Not to keep people out... But to see who cares enough to break them down... Every now and then She starts to run away... Not because she wants to be set free... but because shes scared... wants to know if shes worth chasing down

Web Of Lies
As I lay down in my bed and cry I realize It was all a web of lies I was deceived as I misconceived the one identity that I even had to question my own sanity I became a fatality an instant causality of using this facility with hidden negative opportunites called the internet A web of lies spun on the internet Right in the chat room dusted into my corner with a broom I wanted to believe I do not know why hence created a world of my own email addresses flashing me messages as cold as any marble stone The truth was blown When I heard my clowns on the phone Be careful Take care I say with a sigh It was all a web of lies

Maybe One Day
She is someone who holds a diamond in her eyes A girl to one day develop into the woman in my dreams The smile she creates will always make me do the same Her body is something I hope to hold in my hands Center of balance that contains my heart Will always remain side by side with her own. Something inside me makes me want to enjoy The feelings that shall never run away to hide. Sweet dreams rush throughout her head As she questions how I came across her life Caring for me in ways I never thought would occur I'm scared to go through life knowing she always wanted me. A crush to begin her everlasting path in life Now blooming into a flower with roots of deep connections Fate and destiny brought us two together To maybe meld our worlds as one. Her soft lips demand satisfaction And her face creates the universe in my mind I will never forget the love she brings to me The happiness that I enjoy everyday that I breathe As she leaves to kiss the night away. How

Death Of A Vampiress
I wrote this January 26, 2006 in responce to a writing challenge. Hope you like it. Death of a Vampiress The sun comes through the window illuminating this hotel room Falling gracefully across sheets cold as ice Nothing seems to warm through this dreaded cold No amount of fire seems to break through Heart tangled in a web of lies Long ago lost to the dark Soul searching Trying to find my way Out of this void I sit on the chair across the room Hiding in shadows The sun has yet to touch Watching you as you lay Not moving What brought me to this place I know not I search for answers None to be found here The marks on your neck Dripping crimson in the light Drained, you sleep forever The life I’ve lived Has begun to take it’s toll Having eaten my fill For the last time in hundreds of years I offer the little left of My long ago shattered humanity To the fates As for the first time In five millennium I enter the daylight To kill again No more

Lessons From My First Mumm - Part 2
I had one comment yesterday on my Mumm that I sort of wanted to single out. Actually, I could write several blogs on many of them cause there is so much to learn about sexual preference, sociology and biology and things that I haven't even touched on yet. But one comment I got was from this guy who said that if he met a woman who was bisexual, she wouldn't be for long because one time with her and she would be "converted". A guy I work with once said the same thing once about this lesbian he was talking to and said "That's when you know you are a real man!" Actually, that's when you know you are a real egotistical asshole who is coming from the ego, insecurities and complete cluelessness of what women want. It also shows a man who has no standards, has no idea how to qualify a woman to make sure she meets them and who has no consideration for who she chooses to be or live her life. If a man is so jealous and afraid of sharing the woman's love for women also, then he shouldn't

Im Going Back To Just Crazylady Hell With All The Drama
To all my friends and family just wanna let everyone know Im going back to just plain Crazylady. Not apart of any bombing family at all just bomb for who I want when I want it works out alot better that way. I really dont know what happened and really dont care but who needs all the drama all the time I come on here to get away from the drama. So, if any of you need my help feel free to stop by and let me know I will be glad to do what I can to help. I hope no one is mad at me and I love you all just wanna have a good time when Im on here thats all. Much love to you all and I hope we can all stay friends. Crazylady

I Feel Nothing But Anger Right Now
This is going to be very messy and have a lot of spelling errors in it.. Later if I feel up to it I will give out more detail and make it look nicer.. Just a few minutes ago I had just found out that my very good friend here had died. April 2 with only part of a head and very little body left. He lost both arms and one leg.. ROSS LABADIE (3/1/2007 2:48:28 PM): incoming brb Mizzshady (3/1/2007 2:48:33 PM): k ROSS LABADIE (3/1/2007 2:51:03 PM): back hun they missed by a long ways Mizzshady (3/1/2007 2:51:32 PM): what do you mean Mizzshady (3/1/2007 2:51:35 PM): a bomb ROSS LABADIE (3/1/2007 2:51:44 PM): incoming rocket fire Mizzshady (3/1/2007 2:51:56 PM): wow ROSS LABADIE (3/1/2007 2:52:12 PM): missed us by 500 meters Mizzshady (3/1/2007 2:52:25 PM): Mizzshady (3/1/2007 2:52:36 PM): wow ROSS LABADIE (3/1/2007 2:52:56 PM): lol they harly ever get close to the camp more just to wake us up Mizzshady (3/1/2007 2:53:09 PM): im sorry this is

Growing Up In Lincoln County Mo
When the Wal*Mart parking lot is full of people on the 4th of July because they don't want to drive to the fair grounds!!! When your parents ask you where you going to hang out you say Wal*Mart or McDonalds. When at least 5 of your friends work at Wal*Mart or McDonalds. As soon as we get a good restaurant it burns down! If you start talking to somebody about muddin(who doesn't live around here) they look at you like you are an idiot. If you think China Green Buffet is fine dining. If you bought your Birkenstocks at Wal*Mart. If you got drunk for the first time before you were 16!! If you pronounce Wright City "rat city" If you get your sun glasses from Wal*Mart and you break them and then fix them with JB weld. If you all hate the LCSD for the same reason. When on the opening day of Deer Season You are the only one at School

Hate Mongers/attention Whores
Everyone is entitled to freedom of speech thats our right. AMEN.. I noticed you can write a BLOG or a MUMM and you get these Hate Mongers who have nothing nice to say.. "WHY THE FUCK SAY ANYTHING" is what I say. It leads me to believe these are not only HATE MONGERS but Attention WHORES. My impression was that CT was a place to meet,mingle, share interests and ideas-to have fun not show stupidity..I think a lot of so called "grown ups" at least thats what them may look like take the fun out of other peoples ideas and interest when they post a blogs or mumms with their immature comments. I mean I can careless on my page because to me it just shows immaturity and I laugh my head off. I go to read my friends MUMMS and you get pure adult idiots OMFG that is funny but sad for my friends. YES sad indeed. SO this blog is written in response to those I have seen leave their STUPIDITY on others blogs and mumms. I know I am opening the door to scrutiny but HEY I WELCOME IT..show me your tr

Stripping Away My Pride
Tools are used and tools are broken. Hearts are used and hearts are broken. Laughs don't last but hurt the most, when rain hits pavement we laugh with the host. Bitter stings of agony while torment is just, We impale our lives to others we trust. Jokers circle the stage with calamity and fright, I think that where we stand falls short of might. I care not for the value but for worthless pride, I've seen noone who cares beside me in stride. And the hopeless jesters of the court are all out But we overlook what is there and reply a shout. If I hadn't seen blue all my life, what would i know? If I hadn't felt blue all my life, what would i show?

Open Up Your Heart
As I step into the sunshine today God's Beauty takes my breath away, With many wonderous things to see That God has created for you and me. I see many different kinds of birds Each singing their song to be heard, Flying over fields of flowers in view Sounds of nature singing out to you. Open up your heart taking it all in You'll find pleasure making you sing, Happiness will remain in your heart Capturing memories from the start. God created universal heavens too Implanted with stars in a sky so blue, Magnificent mysteries He brings In creation of life's greatest things. We must accept God for giving song Creating beauty for us to reflect on, In showing us a love so very strong, He opens hearts to where we belong.

Reflection Of Love
I looked in the mirror But I failed to see A reflection of myself For you have all of me And all of me Needs all of you To make my dreams come true And if I don't get to see you soon I don't know what I'll do For love struck like lightning But it only took one flash To let me know I love you And forever it will last So while the stars I have wished upon Witness from above You'll see a face Beside your own Reflecting all my love.

For The Next Few Weeks
For the next few weeks I will be on and off a lot. I know, its sad, but for a good reason. :D I move on the 10th, and between doing all the work I need to get done to be able to leave my job, and packing, settling my new apartment, looking for a new job, etc, I havent had much time to be on this past week. And Ive missed all my friends. :( Fear not dear friends, I will be back and it'll be like I never left. :D I hope that I get a shitload of comments and ratings and gifts and what not or I will have to cry, and fat bitches cryin is a sad sight. So dont make me cry. :D

Winners Of The Dad And Kid Contest!
Winners of the Dad And Kid Contest! 1st Place is......Wins Earrings + Beer Keg with 422 comments + 5 rates = 2135 2nd Place is......Wins Root Beer + Beer Keg with 59 comments + 10 rates = 345 3rd Place is......Wins Long Island Iced tea + Beer Keg with 23 comments + 5 rates = 140 I want to thank everyone who was in the contest! Thanks Maria

Great Novel---
"Charge it to the Game"Michele Fletcher's got what you want and what everybody needs. Gone are the days of standing on the street corner selling drugs, welcome to the new hustle..good credit. If the cover and title don't grab your attention, then the contents of this novel surely will. Newcomer, Michele Fletcher does and outstanding job of bringing the new jack hustle to your hood. She came strong and hard with this in your face urban tale about love, betrayal, friendship and hustling from a females' point of view. Taking the game to the next level in more ways than one, Fletcher gives hustling a new meaning as she switches the players and the product. A talented writer, Fletcher is definitely one to watch!$16.95 plus $3.00 shipping/handling Send check/money order to Axis One Communications, PO Box 1975, Stephenville, TX 76401

Friends ....
Ok.... have you ever been friends with someone or thought you were good friends with someone and everything was great..... then all of a sudden they weren't? Like you sense or feel something is wrong.. and you know if you ask they'll just say nothing.... or you do ask and they say nothing.... but you can tell it.. just in the way the person interacts with you? It's not like it usually is. Or maybe its just me reading too much into things..... *sigh* well anyways...... I'm tired... off to bed... nite nite

Hahahaha
So I went to Ikea today with my cousin. We were buying a bed for her son. So I was on a rant and rave about guys not having balls and how I could care less that we were broken up but I think at the VERY least deserved a face to face explanation instead of a text... but anyway...(dwell over the situation not the guy!) She had picked out which bed she wanted and was waiting for her mom to come take a look at it and we decided to wander. I found two bedroom sets that I absolutely love, but seeing as I don't have any room for them or expendable cash at the moment had to leave it :( Oh well. We ventured into the office chair section and were testing out chairs. I've come to the realization there should be an ikea type store for Men! Just like how I tested out a bunch of chairs looking for a comfy one I could go around and test out hugs and kisses and such then pick one out that had the looks and personality I wanted. Would be Perfect! Go to isle 45, bin 6 for this one! hahahaha! So yeah. He

Waves Of Love
~ Waves Of Love ~ Our bodies trembled intensely so full of passion on that first kiss with the anxiety of a deep love we began to share on a bright warm moonlit night. Our bodies molded together upon the beach like a beautiful sand castle as we made love to the sound of ocean waves splashing upon the sandy shore. Our intense love created sounds from our breath louder than the roaring waves that pounded hard along the shoreline creeping upon us. The Ocean Waters flowed all around us in the instance of our love gone wild touching all of our very souls with a clean purity only true love knows. As I laid upon my back looking into the heavens of your eyes sparkling like the universal stars ever so bright you illuminated my very spirit and filled my heart with joy. A silence came upon us as the waves flowed smoothly on the beach with a moment of calm hearing only sounds of peace within our spirits fill

Noble Savages
THIS IS NO MOVIE OF NOBLE SAVAGES Adrian C Louis (Paiute) Born of trees whose timeless atoms carried on their savage act of indolence in annual assault of leaves upon the earth while their branches felt up the sky where the white man's God lives, this paper holding these petroglyphs is neither apology nor legacy but a wanted poster. Now, dauntless before Dante's nocturnal emissions of visions of Hell I curse God and weep because some creeps crept through the back window and carried away my typewriter while we were at the wake. When I find them, they will bleed broken English from shattered mouths and my fists will sing songs of forgiveness, unless of course they're my in-laws.

Secret To Life
The Secret to Life Is Living It One Day at a Time ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Our lives are made up of a million moments, spent in a million different ways. Some are spent searching for love, peace, and harmony. Others are spent surviving day by day. But there is no greater moment than when we find that life, with all it's joys and sorrows, is meant to be lived one day at a time. It's in this knowledge that we discover the most wonderful truth of all. Whether we live in a forty-room mansion, surrounded by servants and wealth, or find it a struggle to manage the rent month to month, we have it within our power to be fully satisfied and live a life with true meaning. One day at a time - we have that ability, through cherishing each moment and rejoicing in each dream. We can experience each day anew, and with this fresh start we have what it takes to make all our dreams come true. Each day is new, and living one day at a time enables us to truly enjoy life and live it to the fullest.

Forgotten Words Forgotten Times
My dear wife, It is impossible for me to express to you my feeling in writing you this letter as it is the last I shall ever write to you. This will inform you that I have been condemned to death and I pay the penalty that the law has inflicted upon me tommorrow. You must know therefore my anxiety and suffering today. The offense for which I am to die is desertion. I have no malice against those who have pronounced this sentence upon me. I have something of more importance to think of now. Since this world is lost ot me I must employ the few hours allotted to me to live in preparing for another and better world. It will be some consolation to you, my dear wife, that I am not afraid to die and that I die with a Christian hope and the christiany faith. It is a hard thing to die but when we die as we should with the love of God in our hearts we have nothing to fear but everything to live for. I have no advice to give to you, save of living to meet us in heaven. Let this unfortunate e

Creation: A Sioux Story
The Creator gathered all of Creation and said,"I want to hide something from the humans until they are ready for it. It is the realization that they create their own reality." The eagle said, "Give it to me, I will take it to the moon." The Creator said, "No. One day they will go there and find it." The salmon said, "I will bury it on the bottom of the ocean." "No. They will go there too." The buffalo said, "I will bury it on the Great Plains." The Creator said, "They will cut into the skin of the Earth and find it even there." Grandmother Mole, who lives in the breast of Mother Earth, and who has no physical eyes but sees with spiritual eyes, said, "Put it inside of them." And the Creator said, "It is done."

Harmony
Remember that women have been the heart of all mankind and we will always be. Without us, our world would not exist. But we need to live in harmony with man and "men". Without them, we are nothing either. So it is in harmony that we must live with all.

Winners Of The Kid And Mom Contest Are.......
Winners of the Kid And Mom Contest are....... 1st Place is......Wins Womans Ring + Trophy with 824 comments + 9 rates = 4165 2nd Place is...... Wins Earrings + Trophy with 282 comments + 8 rates = 1450 3rd Place is......Wins Platinum Cherry + Beer Keg with 255 comments + 8 rates = 1315 I want to thank everyone who was in the contest! Thanks Maria

Important About Me...
ok.. to let all of my sexy friends of mine on here.. friday june first.. my appendix burst. and they have to do emergancy surgery on me friday nite.. it took them 3 hrs for the surgery. because they couldnt control my bleeding or my blood pressure.. so they almost lost me twice.. im home now.. recovering.. i got out of the hospital today at 2 pm.. by the grace of god.. my blood pressure went back to normal.. i have over 100 staples in my tummy. they had to reopen my hystroectmony(sp) to find th bleedin..

Thinking.
At times I wish I could just turn of my mind. I often ponder what if you could really have that surgery that is in the movie Enternal Sunshine of the spotless mind? I have come to realize though, that I wouldn't have it done. I guess it is better to have our memories to reflect on. As much as some of those memories hurt...

For Just A Lil While :-}
JUST TO LET MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, AND FANS KNOW I'M NOT GONNA BE ON VERY MUCH, ATLEST FOR A LIL WHILE. I WILL CHECK IN FROM TIME 2 TIME. I HAVE ALOT GOIN ON AND NEED TO TAKE TIME 2 GET THINGS STRAIGHT. IMMA MISS YA, AND I HOPE U UNDERSTAND. TAKE CARE EVERYONE AND I'LL BE BACK IN FULL SWING BEFORE U KNOW IT!! :-} MMMMWWWWAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

Something I Thought Of
For today has come Tomorrow is yet to be seen All that is seen by your eyes My not be seen by your neighbors Accept that which comes It may be true For all you say Make it come true You are there As I am here we are still one but yet we are seperate The will be soon That we will be As meant to be You are my heart You are my love You are missed Glitter Images @ Bopmyspace.com

My Stand In Matters Of The Heart
THE SUN WILL RISE AND SET TOMORROW, I LET YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL, I DO NOT REGRET I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND IF SOMETHING SHOULD HAPPEN TO ME, I LET YOU KNOW, LIFE IS SO SHORT,... THE ONLY TIME I HAVE IS NOW, MY STAND, THE LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU IS SUNRISE AND SUNFALL, I WAKE TO MAYBE SEE YOU AND FALL ASLEEP DREAMING OF YOU, YOU MAKE WISHES COME TRUE. & YOU TELLING ME TO DREAM OF YOU, TELLS ME YOU WANT TO BE CLOSE TO ME. CAUSE YOU WANT ME TO THINK OF YOU & MAYBE MISS YOU. I HOPE THAT IS ENOUGH,...FOR YOU TO KNOW, MY STAND IN MATTERS OF THE HEART.

My Soul Laid Bare,.....
There was a line from Practical Magic, always rang true for me. "Sometimes I think if you put my heart up to your ear you could hear the ocean." So many times I looked upon the expanses of my heart as a desolate plane of nothingness. There has been an awakening, like the desert getting rain. Suddenly there are growing things and beauty popping up from sleepy tombs in unmarked graves. My spirit had been cast into an eternal winter shards of ice pierced the already bleeding wounds and scars left by past failures. So many parts of myself had been locked away. Hidden and unbidden for countless years on end. Hoping that someday the holder of the key would appear. Not that I held out much hope of having that happen. Time heals all wounds they say.... funny that is a cliche that doesn't hold water. It leaks like a jar that won't seal. Hurts and disappointments piled themselves in front of caves that led to the core of my true self. Echoes of who I used to be long ago in a time

You Know Who You Are
TO THE DUMB MOTHER FUCKER WHO REPORTD THE CRACK FOTO AS NSFW ... FUCK YOU ! IT WAS AN INCH AND A HALF OF BUTT CRACK IN JEANS ...HOW IS THAT NSFW ? ARE YOU THAT FUCKN JEALOUS THAT NO ONE WANTS TO LOOK AT YOUR THREE TON TESSY FLABBY FLAT ASS (THAT WAS DIRECTED TOWARDS A WOMAN AND THIS WILL BE TOWARDS A MAN , NOT SURE WHO DID IT) OR THAT PATHETIC TWO INCH WORM THAT SMELLS LIKE YOUR MOMS FILTHY BROWN EYE THAT YOU ACTUALLY CALL A PENIS ? GO BACK TO MYSPACE YA FUCK ! OTHER THAN THAT ASSHOLE , I HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT WEEKEND ! ITS FINALY RAINING , I HOPE ENOUGH TO STOP THE WATER RESTRICTIONS . THEY KINDA SUCK . WELL KDDIES , IM OFF TO THE JETSETTERS LOUNGE . ANY ONE IN THE LAKE WORTH AREA STOP BY AND HAVE A DRINK .

I Left Barnsley ... I Didn't Leave My Friends Why Leave Me???
why doesnt anyone speak to me anymore, i'm pregnant and the people i thought were i myfriend dont even bother to ask how the pregnancy is going, ONE person has asked me ONE out of everyone, call yourselves friends, i think not... if you were you'd have been there for me, and answered when i messaged you, but instead is too much trouble because i moved away from barnsley so why should you care, hmmm let me think about this one, BECAUSE YOUR SURPOSED TO BE MY FRIEND!!! well for those of you who are interested heres the deal. Baby is developing well i first felt her move in week 15, and yes im 18 weeks pregnant now. I find out if im am actually havin a girl in 23 days time. Health wise im perfectly healthy and all my tests came back and im doing really good, im worried cuz when i leave the house or take a shower, i get to the fainting point, i get really hot, start to feel sick, feels like the blood is rushing to my head and its gonna explode, and then my vision goes, and t

Me
Ok this is my first blog here. So I am gonna make it about me. LOL! Lets see where to start. Ok I am a 27 years old female divorced with 2 charming sons. I am currently single but who knows I might find someone one day. I live in North Georgia with my best friends. I am a DJ and DJ trainer for an online radio station. www.straightjacketradio.net Ummmmm..... lets see what else.... Oh I am a big girl and let me tell you if you dont like it then move the hell on I dont need your drama or bullshit! But you know what I dont know what else to say so I am closing for now but I will write more at another time! Sending Cherry Love ~*Tease*~ Aka ~*DJ_Smurfette*~

Just Stuff
To start my day, I was walking up the stairs (with flip flops on) to my apartment with my dog and stubbed my toe and fell onto the rail. Killed my arm. It hurts like hell. Just went to brush me teeth and leaned on the counter.... yeah shouldn't have done that. Then I was on the floor playing with my dog when my brother stops right beside me and farts. Thanks bro! So I hit his leg. He's lucky I didn't hit something else. Ass. Thats all the complaints I have for now.

Short Version Of The Bible
BIBLE TAG!!! This is so neat!!!! The Bible in 50 Words! God made Adam bit Noah arked Abraham split Joseph ruled Jacob fooled Bush talked Moses balked Pharaoh plagued People walked Sea divided Tablets guided Promise landed Saul freaked David peeked Prophets warned Jesus born God Walked Love talked Anger crucified Hope died Love rose Spirit flamed Word spread God remained. Tag - you're it . Consider yourself hit by... The Love Of GOD! TAG EVERYONE YOU KNOW BEFORE THEY CAN TAG YOU. TAG SOMEONE TODAY, EXCEPT THE PERSON THAT HIT YOU. SORRY, NO TAG BACKS! Prayers go up, Blessings come down.

Friends??? (bulletin/blog For Myspace)
Hey Folks Do you still wanna be my friends if you do click on my picture and join me and my friends on cherrytap and come into our lounge where i DJ Yes me who would have thought it CHECK OUT OUR LOUNGE TOO WE PLAY EVERYTHING ROCK METAL PUNK INDUSTRIAL EMO R N B HIP HOP CLASSIC EIGHTIES YOU NAME WE PLAY IT REQUEST A SONG AND IT WITH BE PLAYED FOR YOU Click the pick to Join the Fun Click the pick to Join the Fun

Showing Love This Weekend
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Sex Quiz
You scored as A Slave To BDSM, Admit it, you like being tied up and being told you've been very naughty. You like teasing your partner and making them squirm, and not letting them be able to do anything about it. Some people think what you do is sick and disgusting, but you know it's all in good fun.A Slave To BDSM95% Sex God65% A Romantic53% Virgin28% How are you in bedcreated with QuizFarm.com

Why Do You?
I hate it when you go into someones pics and start to rate and then all the sudden it is private. I was just on someones page where every other one is private and it is dumb. So I gave up on the rating and left lesson to ya! Don't be a dumbass if it is private put it in a folder marked so. xoxoxo

Help Me Laugh...
Yesterday, I was having a delightful conversation with Cliche. During the course of the conversation, I was reminded of a long, drawn out joke about a guy who knows everyone. Unfortunately, I can't remember much of the little tale except for the premise and the punchline. Hopefully, with the little clue that I am about to give, one of my spectacular CT friends will help me out and either find the joke online or jot it down, so that I can post it in my stash. The person who is kind enough to do this for me will be rewarded with my never ending adoration...or I'll do buttsechs with them. Whichever. Winner's choice. :P So, yeah, the punchline goes something like this: "Everything was cool until the guy next to me says, 'Hey, who is that guy with Bob?'"

I Am Bored, So Deal With It.
Please answer and the repost in your blog so i can do the same 1. What would the child you once were think of the adult you have become? Duuude..... Sweeeet!!! I would seriously ask if it really possible to de-mature? 2. If you knew that there would be a nuclear war in one week, what would you do? There is a long list of who I would do. Then head north two days before. 3. After you die you are given the chance to be reborn as an animal, which animal would you chose?I would have to say.... A dog. 4. Given the ability to project yourself into the past but not return, would you do so? Where would you go? Selfish me says yes, July 16th 1990 5. Imagine you got hit by a car and could be saved only by a special operation. The operation would give you a normal, happy life, but would unfortunately cause you fifteen minutes of terrible, stabbing pain every morning when you awoke. Would you want to have the operation? I have 5 minutes now, so what is 10 more? 6. If you could wak

Lessons From My First Mumm - Part 1 - Personal Power
So yesterday I wrote my first MUMM. I couldn't sleep, even though I had to work last night and I was going to write a very inspiring and heart opening blog but I decided to do the MUMM. It was a controversial question and I got some answers that were pure gems. I will write about them another time as there is something else about the MUMM I want to comment on. There was a second part to the MUMM that I made that was also interesting to me. Having answered a few MUMM's on Marriage, meeting people online and a few other things, I have noticed that along with blogs, ratings and comments, there are a lot of people who comment MUMMs, who just choose to be rude, inconsiderate and waste moments of their life being downright asinine. So I wrote some RULES for the MUMM about people answering with bullshit comments and decided to test them out. It didn't work out as I intended put it wasn't a failure either because I learned TONS of stuff from the test. I made some rules about not wanting

Low Down
The reflection being presented is an analysis on the nature of human control. It is presented in the “prose” form to emphasize on the personal view and aspect of control focusing on the how its wrong for masses of society than good. It also explores how industry and government use control to fuel insecurity and distrust and in the long term we’re more the worse. A Man once talked about the sad sad truth and the dirty low down. He said that somebody had a "jones" for this and a "jones" for that, that this running with the jones boy he sure knows where its at. It sounds kinda simple, buts what’s in a word? What’s in a line? Finally, what do you the individual understand and learn from it? To me "the sad sad truth" is that people always want to be right. Whether they're right or wrong, being right seems to be the way to go. Take for instance this past Saturday my parents had an argument about the Soxs and Cubs. My mom's a cubs fan while my dad and I are fans of the Soxs, he calle

Weekend Links: Traveling Virus Tickets And Myspace, New Boobs On Ratemywow, New Video Hotness, Rss Feeds Working
For those of you who aren't sunning it up at the beach, or making the trip to Washington to see Jim Norton tape his hour-long special for HBO, we've decided to post a few updates for you. Why? Because we have NO lives, and we'd rather spend the weekend with our asses glued to computer monitors than enjoying actual sunlight. So, here we go... Traveling Virus on MYSPACE: If you are on MySpace and you haven't added the TRAVELING VIRUS MYSPACE to your friends list, then shame on you. Do it now. Aaaaand since we're whoring out MySpace pages, let's just plug these: MySpace: Anthony MySpace: Jim Norton MySpace: FoundryMusic MySpace: Travis MySpace: FoundryMusicDanny MySpace: Nathaniel MySpace: Sebagel MySpace: Sam Remember, the Opie and Anthony Traveling Virus Tour is only a few short weeks away from kicking off. Do you have tickets? Are you being an ass and waiting till the last minute to get them??? We hope not. If you don't have your tickets yet, CLICK HERE FOR SHOW DATES AND

Death Visited Today
My beautiful little sun conure Hecate died. I'm not sure what happened to her. She was talking shit just last night like she usually does. We covered her up for the night and this morning she wasn't hollering at the top of her lungs which is her usual habit. I commented to my roomie that she sure was being quiet and when he went to take her cover off, we discovered her at the botom of her cage. I've been crying all day. I love all my animals and I wonder if I mised something, some sign that she was sick or uncomfortable. The odd thing is when we went outside there was a dead sparrow in the front of our complex. Freaky. My roomie is so kick ass though, he buried her in a pot container and he planted a flowering bush on top of her and hung her bell from her favorite toy it's branches. Now she will always be on the patio where she loved to hang out and enjoy the sun. I'm just so sad...all our other animals have been really quiet today, I guess they can tell when things l

Which Car Is Right For You? I'm Aquarius Lol
WHich Car Is Right For YOU? ARIES (March 21-April 19) 1964 Checker Marathon Taxicab. Your dream to make millions will come true when you answer that ad about repairing cracked windshields with miracle resin. Give the Leo in your life "Martha Stewart's Guide to Military Vehicles." Don't put tofu in the carburetor today. The highway rest stops on your route will be out of order this week, so put an empty 2-liter bottle in the car now. Read your compass carefully; a mistake could put you in the chemical wastelands of New Jersey causing you to miss the big party at Graceland. TAURUS (April 20-May 20) Ford L8000 Garbage Truck. Don't practice your bagpipes on the way to work today; your carpool partners are beginning to take offense. Next Thursday, the speed limits in towns beginning with the letter N will not be enforced; feel free to go 100 mph. The takeout Taco Bell chalupa will drip on your private parts. Get a quesadilla today instead. If events don't go your wa

Only In My Dreams
I LOOK AT YOU AND THINK I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU. YOUR THE PERSON IN MY DREAMS,IN MY THOUGHTS. EVEN THOUGH WERE SO FAR APART, I WANT TO GIVE YOU MY HEART. BUT I KNOW THAT YOU DONT FEEL THE SAME FOR ME, AS THE WAY I FEEL FOR YOU. BUT AS A FRIEND I NEED YOU TO KNOW WHAT MY HEART FEELS. BUT THEN I STOP MYSELF FROM TELLING YOU EXACTLY HOW I FEEL CUZ IM AFRAID OF LOSING YOU.

Random Ramblings
Some of us dream in technicolor, seeing the things that we wish to see. Upon waking the reality begins to creep back in wringing the color from life like a dishrag. Sure there are things we can do to escape this reality. Put on rose colored glasses and deny the stark focus of pain. No matter how many times you close your eyes the truth will still be there staring you in the face. As if the pain of daily living is not enough, we chose to seek out one to be a witness to our trials. Mostly in the hopes of evening out the burdens we all carry. The choice we make to share our lives is also to opt to help relieve some of the others load as well. Sometimes colors flare like fireworks against a darkened sky. These bring a few precious moments of happiness and bliss. Eventually even these moments get ground against the wheel. Until the ashes of our euphoria ride along the breeze. Leaving us once again to face the loneliness and agony. The question then follows if the moments are

Amnesty???
WTF Is up with that???? Word is that they are going to give all the illegal aliens amnesty, for entering our country. WHY!??! What the hell makes them so special? First of tall they are here illegally. Second, they are eating up our medical benefits because of their inability to pay and, driving our medical costs through the roof (as if they weren’t already). They are eligible for Medicaid and Medicare, helping to render those benefits useless for our own citizens. They are able to get S.S.I. And social security benefits also. I’m 43, in 22 years when I am supposed to be able to retire, I wont be able to because all these wet backs have illegally, but with this countries fucked up political system, have been allowed to do so. Why??? We are the most powerful nation in the world, are we afraid of pissing Mexico and all these other nations off?? So damn insane knows what it’s like to piss us off. Haws it hanging sadam?? THIS PISSES ME OFF!!! What housing benefits are out the

A Poem
roses r red, nuts r brown, skirts r up, pants r down, body 2 body, skin 2 skin, when its stiff, stick it in. send to 10 ppl and see if u get it back that means someone wants to F*** YOU. if i don't get this back i guess ur not my friend. if u have a lot of luv 4 someone.....copy and send to ur whole friend list and in 5 mins ur true love will call or im you. da sex train - if u get it ur cute... u get it twice ur a hottie...u get it 3 times ur sexy...4 times ur f***able

¢¾top 10 Reasons To Date A Dancer¢¾
1. We know all the positions 2. We have perfect technique, good rhythm, and great hip rotation 3. We're used to having bruises on our knees 4. We're used to performing in minimal amounts of clothing 5. We're perfectionists: we'll keep going until we hit it 6. We can shake it like no other 7. After a quick intermission we're ready to go at it again 8. We don't mind getting hot and sweaty 9. We're not as delicate and fragile as we look 10. One word - FLEXIBLE

Home Again.
Well I finished up the 1st run of that well. Helped another crew rig up for a job, went the next day and had a meeting with the boss. (Fun!) Went yesterday afternoon and picked up my new company truck, then spent today cleaning up my old one, so we can give it to one of the other guys to use. So,,,,,I finally got my butt back home again!! And now im fixin to get off here, and spend some time with my sexy lil girl Cyn. Ya'll have a good weekend and be safe. Laterz

For Those Of You Wondering Where I Have Been
Here's a blog i posted on myspace a couple of weeks ago explaining everything: So a lot has been going on for this little old man lately. I got called friday last minute to be in an extra in a movie called 27 Dresses. And if I am not mistaken this is affiliated with Paramount, and if it is not than the Paramount logos on the trailers and equipment are very misleading. But anyway, as it turns out, James Marsden is in this film. They finally called the extras in for the first scene and i'm just standing there and I look up and there he is a few feet away. Now this immediately caused embarrassment to me. As fate would have it, in my first set of clothes they made me lose my belt because it was studded. I happened to be wearing the one pair of khakis I can almost pull off those pants without a belt, but alas it was still falling down and i had to keep retucking my shirt and adjusting in between every take. Now this normally wouldn't be an issue, but they had me cross beh

Untitled Poem
There was a time when I sat alone. My heart lonely and made of stone. Thoughts floating like leaves on a river. I was always the one that was the giver. An island unto myself relying on none. Hoping and praying to find that one. One that would stand the test of time. Fight the demons to become mine. Moving through the maze I created. To save myself from being jaded. You knocked down walls at every turn. Are you the one for which my heart burns? Stand beside me, take my hand. While the years race by like falling sand. Be my lover, my friend, my life. Be my rock my pillow in all the strife. Have my heart its yours to take. Happiness, misery every other emotion to make.

Reach
And when God reminds you you are not alone He has been there all the time You sit in silence in the awe that reigns For who are you That He should send His love your way? In humility you bow your head and say the first of many prayers pieces fall in place once scattered upon the winds You are amazed, that He loves and remembers you in your little place. Faith as fragile as gossamer is stronger than the letters possess. I cannot remember, and I cannot forget the wash of grace You give, accept me; as I am all I have for you.

Thieves
Ok as most of you know i am an easy going guy, i let people come in to my place, play games watch movies, basicly anything they want to do short of blowing their load in my room, but 1 thing i cant stand is a god damn thief, i am nice enough to allow almost anything but i just noticed some of my things missing & when i find out who it was i might be away a while because im cutting the cocksuckers hands off for stealing from me i treat everyone like family & YOU DONT FUCKING STEAL FROM FAMILY. im so fucking sick of shit comming up missing from my house & sooner or later i will catch who it is then it will be over so for now im fucking done Lobo

My Marriage!!!!!
This bitch is trying to destroy mine and my husbands marriage and neither me or my husband has ever met this stupid bitch....Let's go show her some not so cherry love....Here is the link to her page!!!! Florida Gal@ CherryTAP With much love to all my friends, Crazy Bitch

Whiny Bitches (long Blog)
OK, so this chick named Shed A Tear posted a mumm earlier today. Her question was this: "Do you think men who dont get laid live with there mom for the rest of there life.?? And do what do you think there problem is as far as not getting laid. ?" Most mummers started calling her out on her bullshit, including Punkin, who said "because of women like you which there are plenty of em'" Shed A Tear got all pissy and bitchy, and she attacked Punkin. I defended Punkin and said "punkin's cuter furthermore, when she said women like you, she was referring to personality, not looks you made an assumption that men who live at home dont get laid, which is a bullshit assumption, and you see it as a problem that men dont get laid that in itself is a stupid thing to think. like wiz said-maybe guys dont have sex because they're tired of how women tend to play men maybe they're not looking for one night stands, but an actual meaningful committed relationship maybe th

Hahahaha
This childish little girl thought it was so funny to post a mumm about "Why men don't get laid" and asked for everyones opinion....Well we gave our opinions and she got really pissed off at PuNkin and started saying PuNkin was ugly and she was cuter than PuNkin and when I chimed in to defend PuNkin the little bitch started shouting at me in my Shoutbox and leaving me private messages....She started telling me she hated me and I was a bitch (well duh look at my screen-name LOL) and she said she was going to go to the bouncers and tell them me and PuNkin and Pierced Psycho were harrassing her and I told her the bouncers didn't give a shit about goes on in between CHERRYTAP memebers....Well if you would like to go show her some not so cherry love attacking Me, PuNkin and Pierced Psycho then here is her link: Shed a Tear¢¾@ CherryTAP Much love to all my friends, Crazy Bitch

The New School Prayer
Now I sit me down in school Where praying is against the rule For this great nation under God Finds mention of Him very odd. If Scripture now the class recites, It violates the Bill of Rights. And anytime my head I bow Becomes a Federal matter now. Our hair can be purple, orange or green, That's no offense; it's a freedom scene. The law is specific, the law is precise. Prayers spoken aloud are a serious vice. For praying in a public hall Might offend someone with no faith at all. In silence alone we must meditate, God's name is prohibited by the state. We're allowed to cuss and dress like freaks, And pierce our noses, tongues and cheeks. They've outlawed guns, but FIRST the Bible. To quote the Good Book makes me liable. We can elect a pregnant Senior Queen, And the 'unwed daddy,' our Senior King. It's "inappropriate" to teach right from wrong, We're taught that such "judgments" do not belong. We can get our condoms and birth controls, St

Things
I am distracted by things, like white fluffy clouds in a blue sky, Or by the way a bird sings, I am amazed by the simplicity of things, Like chimes fastened by strings, By the smell of a rose and how it’s beauty stings, I believe in many things, Each man as an equal and not one to be a king, A child smiling on a swing, And watching the joy and happiness it brings I am opened minded but very private about things, like my relationships, fleeting wedding rings the puppet strings, or how the balance of love swings I am conscious of many things

Vnv Show
Curious to know if anyone else plans to attend the Imperative Reaction, And One and VNV Nation show June 23rd in Los Angeles? Of the three who are you most excited about? As for me, it seems I'm most looking forward to And One since it's not often that one gets a chance to see them in the US.

How Do You Remove Blood From Your Shirt Or Your Clothes
Im told I wear my heart on my sleeve. Maybe so, but how do you remove the blood stains from a your shirt ? Im moving my heart from my sleeve to where it should be. Dont know if it will go back though.

About Damn Time
Gee look y'all I got a fucking horoscope that actually makes sense for once - woohoo!!!! Charm can't always get you out of a tight spot. This might need a touch of -- oh, let's face it -- work. Be honest, be sincere and admit where you could've done things differently. Then be done with it and move on.

I Guess...
I am fired now. I watched this little boy for a friend of my mom's because she was having trouble so now she fired me cause she said she was gonna pay me on Friday and she never did. I wouldn't make a big deal if I didnt need the money but I do. Which makes me sad that I am now jobless. She owes me over a 100 dollars. Grrr..... Why do I always get played and fucked over??

The Dash
~ The Dash ~ by Linda Ellis I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning to the end. He noted that first came the date of her birth And spoke of the following date with tears, But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years. For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth An now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not, how much we own, The cars, the house, the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard; Are there things you'd like to change? For you never know how much time is left That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what's true and real And always try to understand The way other people feel. And be less quick to anger And show appreciation more And love the

Ppl Who R Just Fake!
If u are a slut. O hate ppl who try 2 hide it, especciallt if u r telling me. I m not like one of those judging bitches! So that makes me mad as hell when they hide it from me and we are supposed to be "Friends". When the hoes come to me and be fake that is even more fustrating because they are soo good at being fake!!!! When i find out im ready 2 fight, so just let me tell u all this, don't bring the fakeness, lieng, and stupidness towards me! Im the only "REAL" HBBICOE, if you are wondering what that means let me tell u, Head Black Bitch In Control Of Everything So don't ova step me unless u want 2 get stepped on. DON'T LET THIS CUTE FACE FOOL YA!!! THIS IS 4 THE HOOKERS,SLUTS, AND WHORES IN MY LIFE THAT DO NOTHING BUT BE FAKE AND LIE!!!! U ALL R ON MY HATE LIST, HOOKERS, SLUTS, WHORES, AND LETS NOT FORGET THE STRAIGHT UP ASSHOLES!!!!!