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May 23, 2007
TIME TO CHANGE MY TRAIN OF THOUGHTS! IT IS SO MUCH MORE EASIER SAID THAN DONE. I SOMETIMES WISH I WAS NEVER BORN WITH SUCH A GENTLE HEART FOR OTHERS. BECAUSE IT TAKES AWAY SO MUCH MORE ENERGY FROM MYSELF! WHY IS IT SO MUCH MORE EASIER SAID THAN DONE TO DO ANYTHING DIFFERENT? WHY IS IT THAT SO MANY OTHERS MATTER MORE THAN SELF? AND HOW FUCKING LONG WILL IT TAKE FOR ME TO CHANGE THAT? I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO ACCEPT ME FOR ME! OTHERWISE NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE! THANKS GIVEN TO THE ONES THAT HAVE MADE ME REALIZE THAT!

My Heart Is Shattered
my baby was taken from me not to long ago by her father.he told me id never see her ever again!i dont know what to do!we all worry about these things when we become a parent!i just am going out of my mind with worry!!!!!!!!!!!!!someone pklease help me get out of this hell!!!!she'ss 22 months old has brown hair and black eyes, please someone help me find my babY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Help Jezebel
For those that wish there was something they could do to help Miss Jezebel Tempting there is a way. Her cafe press store is open 24 hours a day 7 days a week. go to: www.cafepress.com/jezebeltempting or click on the banner below all profits will be going to aide Jezebel with her medical bills as she continues to battle to get her situation taken care of and settled.This has been a very trying time for her and she could use all the help she can get. Thanks in advance from Jezebel Tempting and her family.

Since I Have The Pleasure Of Being Sick On My B-day...thought That I Might Make A Video About It....
Ok, so I am spending my 35th B-day sick, with almost no voice...soooooo, I thought that I would make a video for YouTube, based on my being sick on my B-day.....anyone have any suggestions?!?!? I can always use text over the screen instead of talking....

Cool Site To Be Aware Of
I typed in BDSM and it came up with all kinds of things that have happened. Like the first internet serial killer had a front as a BDSM. Remember to always try to be safe before meeting anyone? You could be a statistic or atleast on a milk carton. Don't think that everyone is dangeous. http://www.crimelibrary.com/index.html

Post Bombs & Begging
Why? Whyyyyyyyyy do all these ppl feel the need to "BOMB post"?????????? Is it really necessary to post the same thing over and over? Is that how you get people to read what you write? I'm amazed at posts that I see and at the amount of repeats there are. Not 'reposts' but repeats.....then again maybe there's nuttin else to do *shrugs* As for begging..... that's just too funny. Then again, is there somewhere the rest of us can go to sign up to be begged for? If someone comes to my profile and rates/comments/fans/friends me, I return the favor..... unless you rate me a 1 or a 2 and don't have the balls to say why. Then I will go check you out just to see what kind of jerk you are. I randomly visit new cherries and rate them/their pics/comment help them gain points. But I don't BEG anybody for anythingm and I don't as anyone to beg for me. I have some really good friends that deserve the rates just as much as these people who have been here 6/8/10 months or a year or whatever. Yet

A Soldiers Life
You stay up for 16 hours He stays up for days on end. _________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. __________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. __________________________ You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. __________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. __________________________ You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you. He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. __________________________ You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls. He walks the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists. _________________________ You complain about how h

I Have A Dream.
I have this dream of happiness Where I'm content and so carefree. Where I'm living with no worries Where I can relax and just be me No more shame over things I've done No more sadness and no more pain No more wanting what I just can't have No more fighting to just maintain I want to wake up in the morning With a smile on my face I want to lay my head down at night Knowing everything's in place Someone to hug, to love, to hold Someone to help me dream and pray Someone to tell my secrets too Someone to kiss my pain away To be myself again is my only wish This emptiness gone from me To truly feel what I show to you To be complete as only I can be Who will help me push the sadness down And be the one to pull me through Who will help me be who I know I am So I can be everything to you I have this dream of happiness Where the inside reflects what you see Where I'm content with my journey Where I can finally just be me.

Birth Month...
Your Birth Month is April You are trustworthy and highly ethical in all facets of life. Helpful and steady, you are able to solve any problem. Your soul reflects: Bliss, playfulness, and curiosity Your gemstone: Diamond Your flower: Sweet Pea Your colors: Yellow and red What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

A Soldiers Christmas
A Soldier's Christmas TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I 'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED? I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVES TO TH

There Will Be Sorrow
Life is full of boys over reacting, trying to be a man, twice as full of girls slicing up, starving the bodies they can't stand. My head hurt last night before falling asleep, from fighting all the demons I shoved down deep. It's not likely to stay this way, we just have to wait for the day we, Murder ourselves Bury the shelves Of our secrets Down Down Into the streets Of bad deeds. Survival isn't easy in a world that eats your self esteem like children to candy. My legs were stiff this morning after waking up, from running all night in my dreams. It's not the way it's supposed to be, but it's the way of things. Sniff your drugs Smoke your lungs Drink your liver Down Down Into cold sweats And shivers. Let there be tomorrow.

Starting Over
ok ima starting over. im deleting this account and starting over. so if you wana be a friend send me a request there. if i dont talk to you its simple ima gona deny you. ...................................................................................http://cherrytap.com/user/895471

I Ask This...
I dont usually ask for anything... I pretty much just deal with my life, go thru the motions and only let in my closest friends to what's underneath.. but right now, I could use some happy vibes n prayers.. I have a heart condition that when my electrolytes get low I go into SVT, super ventricular tachycardia and my heart races about 175-180 bpm.. it makes me dizzy, anxious, hurts my chest and just doesnt feel good.. well right now, im having some down time with money cause of my own stupidity when it came to my loan from skool..neways.. im having to skip days with my meds because i cant afford anymore right now.. so, i just ask that you can send me some good vibes.. im off to the ER where they'll get me on the bed, get an iv on me.. do an EKG.. gimme my drugs.. it will take a cpl hours.. then it will be fine.. they'll send me home.. and it will happen again cause i cant afford my meds.. skippidy doodah.. Thanks to my friends n loved ones and whoever else that reads this.. ~Conte

Sitting Around Thinking
Ok, so I'm just sitting here thinking about things. I've got mixed emotions right now, too. Fear, anger, disgust, sadness, with a little "happy" thrown in the mix. I fear my future. Where am I going to go? Who am I going to marry? Will I end up the battered wife? Will I have a dead-beat husband? I'm young and thinking of these things scare the living hell out of me. I'm angry at myself. I think and say things I shouldn't think and say. I'm almost disgusted at myself as well. I'm an attention whore and I'll admit it. Well, I don't actually go around looking for attention. Someone gives me a little bit and I snatch it up, THEN I start craving more. I'm just afraid one of these days I'm going to do something I regret or even worse, hurt someone I really love. Thinking of hurting someone makes me all sad and stuff. Here comes the happy. I think of what I've got now, my friends, family, my home and everything, and I feel lucky. My biological parents are still together, they give a d

Got Old Away Messages In Yahoo Messenger
A helpful tip from the Pedro Archives: Ever notice in Yahoo Messenger if you set an away message once you can't get rid of it? If you want to, there is a way, editing the windows registry. Standard Boilerplate on registry editing: The windows registry is important to system function, deleting the wrong thing can wreck your computer, so tread lightly, and if you are unsure of what you are doing, don't do it. That being said, it really isn't all that difficult. Click on start, run, and type in regedit and click ok. That will open the windows registry editor. Now you can drill down through all the tabs to find the Yahoo -> Pager -> Profiles -> Alerts or you can take the easy way: Press F3 to bring up a search box and type in the message from yahoo you want to remove. *Warning* When I say search on the message, it should be something you will only find in your yahoo messenger something like "I'm at the mall with aunt sally" not something like "Binary Data" or "CurrentV

Just Sayin' "hi"
Boy...I sure enjoyed having yesterday, my birthday off, now here it is another day, and I have to head back to work in a bit. Today's my son landon's b.d., so I think later today, we're going to head out to Finger Lakes...a neet place just north of town, for a cookout, and b.d. bash. I'm sure we'll have a blast, and there's LOTS of room for the grandkids to run off some of their energy...if that's possible...lol. We're headed to Indiana this weekend...not really relishing traveling at this time of the month, as I know traffic will be crazy, so please keep us in your prayers, that God grant us a safe trip there and back. The roads are full of crazy drivers, all the time, but they do seem to come out in hords anytime there is a holiday. Well...guess I need to head out...just wanted to drop in and say "HI", and to say THANKS AGAIN...for all the WONDERFUL birthday wishes that I received yesterday from so many friends. Love ya'll BUNCHES!!! Lev

Pay It Forward
List of my Star/Models signed photos so far? 1. Judy, Audrey, Kristy and Lindsey Landers 2. Terri Lynn Farrow 3. Alana Curry 4. Brandy Talore 5. Tami Donaldson 6. Queeny Love 7. Cori Yarckin 8. Harmony Shay 9. Sandra Taylor 10. Katie Lohmann 11. Judge Judy 12. Judge Joe Brown 13. Judge Milian 14. Dr. Phil 15. Heather Locklear 16. Chase Allen 17. Andrea Jackson 18. Jerri Clayton 19. Tom Nagel 20. Josh Wheaton 21. Karen Fujimoto 22. Julie Riggs 23. JAY the Band 24. Holly Herbert 25. Tammy Hunt 26. Christine Martucci 27. Dana Sessen 28. Devin Devasquez 29. Burt Ward 30. Adam West 31. Destiny 32. Donna Perry 33. Jerry Springer If your name is not on here and your famous in anyway? Please email me if you can or will send me your signed 8x10 signed photo. Thanks for stoppin by.... John

Party On Friday
Hello All You Michigan people. Cris & I will be heading to a BAR in Redford, Michigan called: Longshots Bar & Grill. A local radio station will be broadcasting their. (WRIF) So come hang out and party with me. Since Cris don't like to dance, I will be looking for dance partners (Guys or Gals). We should be up their by 9pm on Friday May 25, 2007. LongShots Bar & Grills Address: 27189 Grand River Ave Redford, Michigan 48240 Phone Number: (313)533-9350

Home
home is where the heart is or so i been told 2 yrs ago i moved to kansas not knowing anyone and now i have the best friends i have ever had and i thought ifi moved back to tulsa we would be able to salvage our impending marriage i was wrong it got worse she cheated one me with my brother and so we split i spent 8 months in hell aka:oklahoma and now i am back among all my friends here in kansas and i am so freaking happy

Hi All!
A great friend told me about this place. I love it. I have met great people on here. but I have a problem. My daughter is in college, she just got a great job in Denver working for a marketing firm. She went on her first businees trip out of state. How do parents handle that? Child leaving the nest?? I am freakin out.

Birth Month Blogthing
Your Birth Month is January You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can. Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you. Your soul reflects: deep love, fascination with life, and a distinctive persona Your gemstone: Garnet Your flower: Snowdrop Your colors: Black, dark red, and dark blue What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Brain Pattern Blogthing
Your Brain's Pattern You have a tempered, reasonable way of thinking. You tend to take every new idea in, and meld it with your world view. For you, everything is always changing. Each moment is different. Your thinking process tends to be very natural - with no beginnings or endings. What Pattern Is Your Brain?

-- ---we're Not Gonna Take It----
WE'RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT NO, WE AINT GONNA TAKE IT WE'RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT ANYMORE WE'RE GOT THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE AND THERE AIN'T NO WAY WE'LL LOSE IT THIS IS OUR LIFE;THIS IS OUR SONG WE'LL FIGHT THE POWERS THAT BE JUST DON'T PICK OUR DESTINY 'CAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW US, YOU DON'T BELONG WE'RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT NO, WE AIN'T GONNA TAKE IT WE'RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT ANYMORE OH YOU'RE SO CONDESCENDING YOUR GALL IS NEVER ENDING WE DON'T WANT NOTHIN', NOT A THING, FROM YOU YOUR LIFE IS TRITE AND JADED BORING AND CONFISCATED IF THAT'S YOUR BEST, YOUR BEST WON'T DO RELASE OH.............. OH.............. WE'RE RIGHT/YEAH WE'RE FREE/YEAH WE'LL FIGHT/YEAH YOU'LL SEE/YEAH WE'RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT NO,WE AIN'T GONNA TAKE IT WE'RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT ANYMORE

It Really Turns My Stomach.. When I Think Of This...
it really turns my stomach when i think about how harrys ex kept this house.. i been cleaning up here b4 goin and getting some of my shit from my old apt, and just seeing the filth and clutter its fucking disgusting... i mean how hard is it to run a sweaper once a day or to even dust once a wk... oh wait that would take away time from sleeping or being online.. then talkin with friends they tell me how she wanted to have a baby with him.... how the fuck could she of taken care of a baby when she cant even clean a toilet!!!!hell she would go like 3 wks if not more w/o changing the sheets on the bed!! no wonder y he would sleep on the couch.. n no wonder y she had a face full of zits!!shes a fat nasty pig!!! i could just see it.. shed have a kid and leave them in there dirty diaper for like 2 days!!its pretty bad im trying to move my stuff in here and cant cuz im too busy cleaning up after her nasty ass!!!

20 Different Ways To Say It!!!!
LOVE U!! (ENGLiiSH) I LOVE YOU (POLiiSH) JA KOCHAM CiiEBiiE (FRENCH) JE T'AiiME (HiiNDii) HUM TUMHE PYAR KARTE HAE (CZECH) MiiLUJii TE (SLOVAKiiAN) LU'BiiM TA (iiTALIAN) Tii AMO (UKRAiiNiiAN) YA TEBE KAHAYU (RUSSiiAN) YA TEBYA LYUBLYU (GERMAN) iiSH LiiBE DiiSH (CHiiNESE) WO Aii Nii (GREEK) S'AGAPO (HAWAiiAN) ALOHA WAU iiA Oii (LiiTHUiiANiiAN) TAV MYLiiU (KOREAN) SA RANG HAE YO (JAPANESE) Aii SHii TE RU (ROMANiiAN) TE UBSEC (BOSNiiAN) VOLiiM TE (ALBANiiAN) TE DUA (FiiLiiPiiNO) MAHAL KiiTA (SPANiiSH) TE AMO (ViiETNAMESE) ANH YEU EM OR EM YEU ANH I CAN SAY ii LOVE YOU iiN 20 DiiFFERENT LANGUAGES!!!

Did You Know?
Alabama - Illegal to wear a fake moustache that causes laughter in church Alaska - Illegal to wake a bear for the purpose of photography - although it is legal to shoot a sleeping bear Arizona -it is illegal to hunt camels (which is why they are taking over the state) Arkanas - in Little Rock, if a man and woman flirt with each other in the street, they could be jailed for 30 days California In San Francisco, it is illegal to wipe one’s car wiht dirty underwear (and you would do it why) Colorado - Illegal to go out in public dressed in clothing unbecoming to one’s gender Connecticut - to be officially considered a pickle, it must bounce Delaware - It is illegal to wear pants that are form fitting around the waist Florida - unmarried women can be arrested for parachuting on Sundays Georgia - has a law prohibting people from saying “Oh, boy” in public Hawaii - it is illegal to insert pennies in your ears (but quarters are ok) Idaho - in Pocotello it is

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Lost
I keep a knife in my desk to remind me of how close I once came to showing what kind of cross I carried with me My pink walls turned into my personal hell my very own prison there was no yard time for me in my mind having a voice was my crime, I got sentenced life without parol. No one knew WHO I was anymore the time I spent with people they didn’t seem so normal I was normal they were fucked up not me. I found a cure for my disease when I took my knife popped the blade open and wrote LOST ON MY BODY I was a lost girl trying to stand out in a big, big world when I feel lost I look at my knife and remind myself how human I really am that one day this LOST GIRL WILL BE FOUND!

Crazy
you look into my eyes you see a persons that can't be controlled the world is my playground and all want to do is burn it down I want to fuck on the back of a moving train taking me no where but right where I started from I want to see a girl cry from being told that her lover is alive I want to see the rainforest before it is burned down I want to meet the one person in this world who is truly innocent I want to do all these things but I am crazy and bound for life to a straight jacket with only my arms to hold me tight I have no lover to call to only the morphine that I am give to dull my raw emotion to think and react on my own The only way I see the light is threw a crack in my padded room where I am lock up tight I committed a crime I am free thinker and in a world of greed & power the few of us that commit this crime are damned to live a life threw morphine and locked doors for no one hear our cries So if you see the girl in the window looking do

My Note
How do I pull the trigger? Hell is the only promise land I know Suicide has become the only thing I know My soul & my heart died along time ago I was beaten & abused burned & tortured & used Fucked over & reused Never wanting to be woke up from my beautiful dream The sign on my door knob says it all “DO NO DISTURB” “SUICIDE TAKING PLACE” Popping the bullet into the chamber While playing Russian Roulette in my bedroom chamber Someone should have held her a little longer Someone should have held her a little tighter But then again that someone did hold her longer But then again that someone did hold her tighter My soul & my heart died along time ago I was beaten & abused burned & tortured & used Fucked over & reused With third degree burns that not only lay on the surface Her scars run deeper than anyone can touch The flames that burned her are nothing but a metaphor The only way I feel your touch is holding my pillow tight The only wa

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Blue
THE EYES BLUE LIKE WATER SADDEND BECAUSE THE RAIN IS FALLING THIS LITTLE GIRL IS LOCK AWAY NEVER GOING TO BE SET FREE THE DEMON THAT HAUNT HER WHISPER HER SINS TO ME I TRY TO SCREAM TO EXPLAIN WHAT IT IS SHE HAS DONE MY MOUTH IS SOWN SHUT WITH WIRE THE SECRET THAT I KNOW IS LOCKED INSIDE ME HER SINS BECOME MY ETERINAL HELL RELIVING EVERYTHING NOT BEING ABLE TO TELL BLUE RUNS FROM MY EYES AND NOW MY EYES ARE BLACK I AM FILLED WITH HATERED BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT SHE HAS FORSAKE THE BLOOD IN MY VAYNES SEEPS THREW MY POURS I AM SLOWLY DYING NOW WITH OUT A REMOURSE ALL THE SINS THAT HAVE BEEN LOCKED AWAY INSIDE ME THEY WERE MINE ALL ALONG I WAS TO STUPID TO SEE I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING I JUST WAN'T TO DIE NOT CARRYING WHO I STEPPED ON OR SHOULD I SAY DROWND ALONG THE WAY AS LONG AS I GOT WHAT I WANTED IT WAS OK

Devil
I am a devil on one hand and an angel on the other But Have trouble trying to figure out witch way this girl should go I scream into the night running from all the things that scare me I just figured out what the fuck is wrong with me I look in the mirror and see my horns growing out of my skull I feel my heart stop beating my body drops on to the floor as sweet pain cums over my body the shell of my soul is dying from the inside I gasp for breath like I had been drown I look at the body in the mirror and it looks like me but the person before me in the mirror is dead like the soul inside doomed to wonder the world alone As I began to cry my tears are not clear any more they have turned to crimson. I walk up the stair to my cell were this twist angel will spend eternity in her gelded cage called hell.

Silent Dreams
Silent dreams and death upon lonely lips of my lovers sweet flesh against mine, my desire to feel the sweet pain along with the sweet sinsations of only that of his touch. As he lifts my body up I hold on tight I bite my lip as my eyes roll into the back of my head when he bites my neck. He lays me down on the bed as he straddles my body I act like I am scared cuz I know it turns him on the since of fear turns into something much, much more. He leans into to me the only thing I can think of is drawing blood from his neck before our lips meet he beat me to it he bites my neck and blood streams from my neck with his tung he lixs the blood streaming from my neck. He looks at me with a devilish grin and our lips meet the only thing I can taste is blood as we kiss. I wrap my legs around him and roll so that I am on top of him I lean down and start lixing his nipple then I give a devilish grin as I bite his nipple blood trickles out from his nipple I lix the blood up and with the tip of my t

Asking Canada, Help Me Find Jayne
May 24th, 2007 Thursday Back in 2001 I became good friends with Jayne online. We helped each other through some really tough times and shared some great laughs. We were both married at the time but my marriage was a trainwreck waiting to happen.As time went on we drifted apart. Mostly because I finally went through a divorce and was offline for a few months. Maybe she thought I didn't care anymore. Anyway I had lost most info I had on my pc during the divorce but recently found a cd with some pics and stuff. Browsing through it I suddenly saw Jayne again. I have wondered often how she is and all but had no way to locate her. I've given up hope but figured why not ask my CherryTAP friends for help. If you know her or how to reach her let me know So here is Jayne... She's in Canada...Alberta if memory serves me right. Thanks for any help you can give, IceWizard1021

Romantic Lullaby
sweet insanity pours from me like blood that I have just shed this insanity contains every mistake that I have ever made the scars that my body hold are from a knife that I keep close to my side the tears that I have cried from being lonely oh so many times from never having anyone that listen I long to be held by someone besides the guilt and sorrow that I carry that is what makes my black wings to help me fly but I never get away from all of it my wings carry me to the same place every time the scene never changes the tears never stop falling and my blood drys It turns into a romantic lullaby for the criminally insane I can’t take this world any longer the guilt and the sorrow I don’t want it anymore I want to release these wings that I carry me I want the sorrow and the guilt to die I WANT TO DIE DO YOU HEAR ME I WANT O FUCKING DIE RELEASE ME RELEASE ME I HAVE FOUGHT TO LONG AT A WAR THAT I CAN NEVER WIN I AM A CREATURE OF HABIT THIS IS THE NIG

Grace
With wings of grace traded by sweet dreams of hell I float upon a cloud with no silver lining instead it drips blood from my body I cut my pain away but no matter how deep I go it still remains with in me the lose of a pure one hurts so bad that the words upon my lips can't even cum close to see the pain written all in my eyes and I am not able to erase the pain away it is my only sin upon this world to speak demotic tones filled with hate and love mixed with blood and envy I dare not show it all at once I cried pools of blood the other day and the words that I found that comforted me was " IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" "IT WAS ALL MY FAULT" PLEASE JUST LOCK ME AWAY I CAN'T STAND TO SEE ANOTHER D

Insanity
This is great I am insane just thought ya'll should be told that bi the way! I was treated for mental problems why was I treated for mental problems Right now I really don't care because the morphine there pumping into me is all but better I swiped a scalpel I want to brand my skin with the demons I was seeing I cut the nurse instead oops sorry my bad shit let me fix that for you I am given a tranq to make me sleep and make me sleep fast I wake up bound to a bed restraints to keep me in a state were I am starting to shake just so someone will come to my side the dumb fucks let me free I run out of the door and straight for the nearest house so I can escape the horrors of the mental state I was in I make a phone call no one answers so I leave a message after the fucking beep this is great I am insane just thought ya'll should be told that bi the way! Just kidding ya'll warning: any material read should not be taken seriously! Thank you and h

Trouble
I am trouble I am trouble that is my name no matter what this LiL Angel can't say out of it, I have never met anyone who wanted to stick out the storm and see what is on the other side of the storm. If there is a person who is just like me then our storms would be great and long but the turn out would be beautiful I swear. I am trouble I fall from grace and when I land there is no one to catch me when I land, I can no longer fly my wings have been clipped so that I can not escape from my cage, my door is lock I scream for someone to find the key. I am trouble I am trouble I am trouble I am trouble No one loves trouble here I go popping my knife blade open and then closing it the sound of the pop of the blade brings a picture into my head of the time I tried to free myself, I got close but they brought me back and locked me back up now my wings are gone the took my only chance for freedom now I am screwed! I am trouble they let me out of cage to dance for people

Naked
YOU HAVE BROKE ALL MY WALLS DOWN YOU WALK THREW THE RUBBLE OF BROKEN DREAMS & PROMISES MADE BY MANY THAT HAVE COME BEFORE YOU LOOKED UPON SHADDER DREAMS AND CRYS IN THE NIGHT YOU HAVE SEEN THE RIVER OF TEARS THATS LEAD YOU TO ME YOU LOOK UPON THE BLOOD THAT HAS BEEN SHED FROM BODY YOU FINALLY SEE ME IN A GILED CAGE LOCKED INSIDE NEVER BEEN SET FREE FROM PAIN & AGONY YOU BREAK THE DOOR DOWN AND SET ME FREE YOU STRIPPED ME DOWN PRIDE & FEARS HOPES & DREAMS YOU MAKE A PROMISE TO ME THAT YOU'LL NEVER HURT ME YOU SEE MY SOUL YOU SEE MY HEART BOTH HAVE BEEN TORN APART AS YOU PUT THEM BACK TOGETHER AND MAKE THEM WHOLE ONCE AGAIN MY SOUL RETURNS BACK TO WERE IT BELONGS MY HEART IS MISSING A PIECE BUT THERE ALWAYS IS I AM NAKED IN FRONT OF YOU EVERY PAIN I HAVE FELT IS STILL THERE BUT NUMB BECAUSE OF YOU YOU ARE THE REASON I SMILE AND I LOVE YOU

Broken Glass
With broken wings an angel wept from tears of a broken neck heart breaking cries blood lay still on the floor there is no life in this body anymore misshapen dreams shattered along time my arms lay by my side hero's are no where in this story shattered undying love bound by glory truth erased threw time glass lay shattered on the floor by my side hopes, dreams are all gone now a girl lying on the floor is all that is left now with the words I LOVE YOU lingering in her last breath

Heart Break
A sea of green lies still under me sweet surrender callS out to me Fighting a dying war wagering with the devil no more I am not Precious I am not sweet it is not required in my personality Nobody by my side begging me not to take my life Haunting dreams gentle whispers of a child all coming back to me Screaming my pain into the still lonely night I like a tiger waiting for its prey as I stare down a loving razor blade I tried to forget about the voices in my head they grow louder by the hour When this fragile body finally brakes don't cry for me

How Do You Like Me
hOW dO yOU lIKE mE DO YOU WANT ME DOWN ON MY HANDS & KNEES SHALL I BEG UNTIL YOU GIVE ME WHAT I WANT SHOULD I MOAN TO TURN YOU ON hOW dO yOU lIKE mE SHOULD I CRAWL ON MY HANDS & KNEES LET YOU TIE ME UP DRESS IN LEATHER, OR LACE AM I THE MASTER OR THE SLAVE DO WE SWITCH ROLES DAY TO DAY hOW dO yOU lIKE mE I DON'T MIND I NEVER FOLLOW THE RULES I LIKE TO BE TAUGHT A LESSON THE HARD WAY BUT REMEMBER ONE THING I LIKE PAIN HURT ME AS MUCH AS YOU WANT TO I WILL ASK FOR MORE hOW dO yOU lIKE mE

Funny
This sounds like something the southern rednecks would do!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA >> >> >> >> DUI - UPPER MICHIGAN STYLE >> >> Only a person in Upper Michigan could think of this. >> >> From the county where drunk driving is considered a sport, comes this >> true story. >> >> Recently a routine police patrol parked outside a bar in Escanaba , >> Michigan . >> After last call, the officer noticed a man leaving the bar so >> apparently intoxicated that he could barely walk. >> The man stumbled around the parking lot for a few minutes, with the >> officer quietly observing. After what seemed an eternity >>in which he tried his keys on five different vehicles, the man managed to >>find his car and fall into it. >> He sat there for a few minutes as a number of other patrons left the >> bar and drove off. Finally he started the car, switched the wipers on and >> off--it was a fine, dry summer night--, flicked the blinkers on and off a >>

Everybody's Dream
I remember it like it was yesterday we sat and drank the night away you stood up and turned your back your voice echoed off the tracks you laughed and let out a cry I never thought you would really try i could have been laying down there dead but it seems you went instead I never dreamed it would come true could have been me instead of you you can keep your fucking american dream I dont believe in anything anymore it seems everyday I see blood in streams so keep your fucking american dream you rode down to see her face she turned her back and cant erase everything that happened next just a couple of rejects early mornings nothing wrong where have all the good times gone on the walkman in class your life taken like shattered glass it could have been me instead of you so keep your fucking american dream everything thats said is untrue I see your blood in streams fuck everybody's dream

Too Funny!!!!
A father passing by his son's bedroom was astonished to see that his Bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then he saw an envelope, Propped up prominently on the pillow that was addressed to "Dad." With the worst premonition he opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter. Dear Dad: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice. But I knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercing, Tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it's not only the passion...Dad she's pregnant. Stacy said that we will be very happy. She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children. Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that mar

Scarface
SLITS ON MY FACE BLOOD RUNNING DOWN MY BODY LOOKING IN THE MIRROR AT THE DAMAGE I'VE DONE TO MY BODY SWEET SURRENDER FROM A RAZOR WARM CRIMSON DRIPPING FROM MY FINGERS ON A MIRROR I SEE MY LAST FORGIVING WORDS FLOWING FROM THIS BODY FALLING TO THE FLOOR IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING IS FADING FAST THE FLOOR IS COLD UNDER MY DYING BODY I AM ALONE LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE DAY I AM SOMEBODIES LOVE OF THERE LIFE THE NEXT DAY THE LOVE HAS RUN ALL BUT DRY IMAGES IN BROKEN GLASS ARE IMAGES THAT NEVER LAST REFLECTIONS OF MEMORIES FROM THE PAST BAD DREAMS THAT ALWAYS SEEM TO LAST I CRY INTO THE NIGHT A GIRL DYING ON THE COLD FLOOR THE WORDS I LOVE YOU LINGERING FROM HER LONELY LIPS

Inside A Gurls Head
SEE ME LIVING MY LIFE DO YOU THINK I'M NAUGHTY OR NICE MY EYES TELL MY TORTURED FAIRY TAIL LOOK IN MY DARKNESS WHAT DO YOU SEE CRAWL THREW THE MISSHAPEN CHAOS SLEEP IN MY NIGHTMARES OF LUST & TORTURE SEE MY BODY TWIST & TURN FROM THE INSANITY FROM THE ONES THAT DIDN'T LOVE ME BUT ONLY PLAYED ME FOR A FOOL SWIM IN TEARS OF ABUSES & SEE MY BLOOD POUR FROM MY FRAGILE BODY BUT YOU CAN'T SEE THIS ANYMORE I KILLED THE GIRL IN MY HEAD THE ONE BRING ME DOWN LOWERING MY HEAD NO MORE LIFE SENTENCES WITHOUT PAROLE I'M BREAKING FREE OF THIS HELL NO ONE MUST KNOW I'VE DRAWN A MAP & LOCKED AWAY DEEP INSIDE THIS GIRL CAN'T BE SET FREE I AM TIRED OF HIDING INSIDE AS WE CUM TO THE END OF OUR LIL MOVIE THE CREDIT ARE ROLLING BI ONE LAST THING MUST BE SAID FOR THAT GIRL "SHE FIGHTS EVEN THOUGH SHES IS DIED!!!

Daily Horoscope May 24
"Good fences make good neighbors, and that's never been truer than right now. Someone wants to be a good friend to you, but he or she needs to know your limits. Be kind but firm about your standards." That one is dumb.

Poetry
I GUESS I RIPPED YOUR FRAGILE STICKER OFF YOUR BODY JUST TO WATCH YOU BLEED TO SEE IF YOU FELT PAIN LIKE ME I NEEDED TO SEE IF YOUR BLOOD WAS CRIMSON LIKE MINE THE HOLE IN MY HEART THE STAB WOUND IN MY BACK IS BIG ENOUGH FOR YOU TO STICK YOUR HAND THREW WE SAID THE REASON WHY WE HAD TO PART THE FIRST TIME I WENT HOME AND HELD MY PILLOW AND DROWNED IN TEARS I CALLED MY ONCE UPON A TIME LOVE SLIT MY WRIST AND DIDN'T HEAR YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVED ME I KNOW IT WAS MY FAULT I KNOW IT WAS MY FAULT I HAVE SAID THAT OH SO MANY TIMES SO WHERE DOES THE FORGIVENESS BEGAN IN THE BETTERNESS END I AM COLD AND BEING LOWERED INTO THE GROUND TO MY PERMENT HIDING PLACE DID YOU FIND A TIME TO SEE THAT IT WAS NOT YOU I WAS TRYING TO HURT IT WAS REALLY MYSELF I WANTING TO WATCH MY BODY BLEED AND LOSE ALL THAT IT HOLDS DEAR I CAN’T HOLD PAINFUL MEMORIES ANYMORE MY BODY IS FRAGILE MY STICKER HAS BEEN REMOVED BY SOMEONE WHO DIDN’T LOVE ME HE USED ME AND TOURTURED MY SOUL TILL HE WAS

Fragile!!!!!
you look into my eyes you see a persons that can't be controlled the world is my playground and all want to do is burn it down I want to fuck on the back of a moving train taking me no where but right where I started from I want to see a girl cry from being told that her lover is alive I want to see the rainforest before it is burned down I want to meet the one person in this world who is truly innocent I want to do all these things but I am crazy and bound for life to a straight jacket with only my arms to hold me tight I have no lover to call to only the morphine that I am give to dull my raw emotion to think and react on my own The only way I see the light is threw a crack in my padded room where I am lock up tight I committed a crime I am free thinker and in a world of greed & power the few of us that commit this crime are damned to live a life threw morphine and locked doors for no one hear our cries So if you see the girl in the window looking do

Why I Am Here....plain N Simple
I am here on Cherrytap To make friends. Yes I am 46yrs old But bein friends doesn't mean I want to have sex with all of you. I am a generally nice and kind man, But like everyone else I have my limits. If you accept my friendship request I expect to get to say hi a time or too, Otherwise..why accept? I am Not a Perv. Yes I love Beautiful Women but U have nothing to fear from me. I do get upset at times..Try living the life that I live N see If it don't upset U. Anyways, I am here for my friends so if you added me for a number then remove me.. And don't worry, If you choose to ignore this you will be off my list soon. To the rest of my wonderful friends..I love you. Take care..Ken

You Haven't Broken Me Yet
YOU THINK I AM MADE OF GLASS & THE MORE YOU DROP ME THE MORE THE PIECES WILL SHATTER YOU HAVE ME NO MORE WHY CAN'T YOU GET THAT THREW YOUR HEAD YOUR MARK IS NO WHERE ON MY BODY ANY MORE THE SCARS HAVE HEALED THE BLACK EYES HAVE ALL BUT FADED AWAY YOU THINK I AM STILL YOUR LIL BITCH NOPE I AM ME LIL DARK SOUL AKA LIL DEVIL THE BITCH THAT HAS GROWN TO FUCKING HATE YOU WITH ALL THE PASSION IN THE WORLD YOU CAN'T BEAT ME NO MORE PLACE YOU HATRED UPON MY NOT SO FRAGILE BODY ANY LONGER THE TAG IS GONE THE GLOVES ARE OFF IF YOU WANT ME COME AND GET ME NO BODYGUARDS TO STOP YOU FROM GETTING TO ME I HIDE FROM NO ONE I FACE THE NIGHT MARE THAT HAUNTS MY ONCE SWEET DREAMS I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON NO ITS YOUR TURN THIS BITCH WILL SHOW YOU HOW MUCH YOUR LOVE BURNS THE ONE YOU LOVE ALL YOUR PAIN BROUGHT ME NO PLEASURE ONLY MENTAL SCARS NOW YOU HAVE MADE SOMETIME THAT YOU SHOULD FEAR YOUR HEAD WILL BE AS FUCKED AS MINE ONCE WAS FROM THE TORTURE YOU BROUGHT ME

Staring Down A 45
I STARE DOWN A 45 HOPING THAT I'M NOT ALIVE BITTERNESS THAT DWELLS LIKE A DROWNING CHILD FIGHTING TO SURVIVE REACHING HOPING SOMEONE WILL GRAB MY HAND WISHING SOMEONE WILL SAVE ME FROM MY OWN LIFE BEATEN DOWN ABUSE JUST BEING FOR SOMEONE TO USE PEOPLE HAVE WALKED ALL OVER ME BREAKING ME DOWN WHY DO I WISH THAT MY LIFE WOULD SOON BE OVER WHY DO I HATE MY PERSON STARING BACK AT ME IN THE MIRROR SHE TEASES ME BY SAYING I AM PERFECT I AM ALWAYS RIGHT WHILE YOU CRY & SCREAM FOR SOMEONE TO HOLD YOU LATE AT NIGHT I KNOW I AM NOT PERFECT NEVER ASKED TO BE I JUST WANT ALL THE BAD THOUGHTS THAT I AM THINKING ABOUT TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD I AM HAPPY I AM FREE BUT WHEN EVER I LOOK AT HER SHE IS KILLING MY TORTURING MY SOUL THE THOUGHTS TAKING THAT 45 & THROWING IT AWAY TELLING MYSELF EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT BUT YOU CAN ONLY BELIEVE THE LIES FOR SO LONG TILL THE HATE RETURNS THIS TIME THE BITCH IS STRONG PLEASE HELP PLEASE HEAR MY CRIES BEFORE THE CERTA

Games
to somepoeple think life is a game and they got to play it to the max and some just play for fun me i don't think life is a game and u need to know what u want in life and take it all the way if u can get what u want then keep on trying to u get the best thing u can in life i don't play my life as a game i just live one day at a time that all. to all plz let me know what u think of this plz love ken

Starting Over
I just wanted to let everyone know that I am planning on cleaning up my "friends,family,and fan" lists....it's nothing personal but there are sooo many people on here that I don't even talk to that its getting difficult to keep track of the ones that actually do talk to me....I'm not bitching or complaining I guess i just wanted to point out that i am here to meet new interesting people...which i have...i am not here to get points...rates....fake friends...or whatever else...im not looking for a man i already have on who i love with all my heart...no one has the power to change that...I have met some really great people on here and am glad to have them as friends...im just not seeing the point in having alot of "friends" that i dont even talk to....so anyways...don't be offended or pissed off...its not that i dont like you its just that i dont even know you...if you would like to get to know me...not to try to get me to post nsfw pics of myself...and not to try to get me to leave my bo

Winners For The Cutiest Female Child On Ct Contest Are......
Winners for the Cutiest Female Child On CT Contest are...... 1st Place is......Wins Motorcycle and a Trophy with 3406 + 12 Rates = 17090 2nd Place is......Wins a Watch and a trophy with 2750 comments + 10 rates = 13800 3rd Place is......Wins Men's Bracelet and Trophy with 892 comments + 13 rates = 4525 4th Place is...... Wins Earrings + Trophy with 194 comments + 8 rates = 1010 I want to thank everyone who was in the contest it was a close contest and we had fun! Thanks maria

Romanticism
Hey everyone! :) i'm sure you're wondering at the upbeat tone considering how hellish my week had been going... Hehehe... Nuts right? Well, I just watched Streisand's The Mirror Has Two Faces and I just felt so elated, so relaxed and thoroughly enjoyed me-self that I really think I should pursue a degree in literature when given the chance, and maybe... also get to teach it. I haven't felt the same passion, the same interest and intensity with the course that I'll be finishing this summer term nor with my information technology. Listening to Streisand's portrayal of a professor of 12th century romantic literature just got me fired up, riveted and so, SO ALIVE. It was overwhelming. The effect on me was so instantaneous, so seemingly directed to my whole being that I knew for sure that this is my calling. ^_^ I'm telling you pipol... now, it's for real. (a quote from Babs to come up...) Anyway, on to a darker topic... I can't believe that a friend had dared to accuse me of bein

Quote For May 24
He is happy whose circumstances suit his temper but he is more excellent who can suit his temper to any circumstances. -- David Hume Bonus Quote: Sex is nature, and I believe in going along with nature. -- Marilyn Monroe This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

General Discontent And Prospects For Change.
“Ideals: ” It has been said that a man should not complain, to himself or otherwise, unless he is willing to identify and implement a solution to the highlighted problem. I agree with that statement, and as such have resolved to highlight problems in our social systems and work towards resolving them. There was once a time when that which was inherently right was fought for by the majority. It made little matter what the laws of the day were. It was shared principles and standards that blazoned the trail between individual instinct and collective society. Another opinion of mine, very similar to the first one I mentioned above is that when a person becomes aware of a problem, on principle, it also becomes his duty to effect a change that will correct that problem. I would seem that I am in good company with my opinions. Were it not for the likes of Thomas Jefferson, John Hancock, and so many others who resolved that people should be treated a certain way there would

Myself
Hola to all! It had been a tres bien weekend for me... So good! :) *Goofy smile that stretched from ear to ear* I feel happy, even a bit content. Why? No big reason... just that the end of the summer term is fast approaching, I have finished my finals at philo 2 weeks early, and that for the longest span of time ever... my eyes and my thoughts haven't managed to stray to greener pastures. Yey! Hehehe... I know the reasons are all so trivial, but hey. My life in is not one big soap opera. I live in a world of mundane pleasures. Ordinary. Dull. The most exciting thing that ever happened to me was back in 3rd year high school, when I got stuck in the middle of a fight between a former suitor and his knife-wielding friend. Even then, nothing happened. It was all over in say, 2 minutes. So much for being so worldly. Anyway, these 2 days I have spent alone got me thinking. Again. (Boy, when will I ever stop to think about it?) If you're thinking about him...then you got

Tannin Without Lines
Some guys like tan lines so they can follow the bulls eye to the important spots.....Me on the other hand am not crazy over them and prefer to tan naked because I LOVE the way the sun warms my pussy!!! MEEEEOOOOW LOOK FOR PICS....HEHEHEHE

Tequila & Salt
This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true. 1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for. 2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. You mean the world to someone. 7. You are special and unique. 8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look. 11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks. So...........If you are a loving friend, send this to everyone, including the one that sent it to you. If you get

Pimping My Friends
These are some of the best people I have had the pleasure to meet. If you would like to make some great friends stop by their page and say Hi. ShelleyBell@ ** Kubilay's CT wife** Devil's playmate in the palace of *SIN*ful Desires@ CherryTAP BRIGHTEYES~THE SPANKER ~ON VACATION SSR'S HEAD BARTENDER/PROMOS/PIPPI'S SECRETARY@ CherryTAP & *Head Stripper* Palace of *SIN*ful Desires@ CherryTAP CountryCop74 *** Asst. Manager - Palace of *SIN*ful Desires - Head of Security ***@ CherryTAP *** Lovin The Cherries ***Owner *Palace of *SIN*ful Desires* Lounge**Crazy B$t*h@ CherryTAP Karma-ñWº-JµggålèTTè ßîT¢h-HK-£å¢µ$hiºñ$ ÇT WîFè-§µgå'$ Øwñè®-ÐMÇ ¶î®åTè@ CherryTAP bird *Stripper* in the *Palace of *SIN* ful DesiresIve got these eye's of mine heavily fixed on someone here on CT,..is it you? .. ::Smirk::,.. he@ CherryTAP SKULL™ ~ SDMF ~ Security ~ *Palace Of *SIN*ful Desire* ~ EVE'S PET@ CherryTAP I have only had the pleasure of talking to this young lad

"the Bird" Pics
I have trouble understanding why so many cherries find it funny, amusing or "kool" to post photos of themselves giving "the bird", "the finger", the "international gesture of F**K OFF!" in photos they allow to be seen & rated. However can you possibly expect anyone with a sense of decency to rate your photos or your profile highly if you are more or less telling them where to get off? I have decided that any photos I see that include the gesture will get the rate they so richly deserve....a 1!

At First
At first, remember how you promised? It would be soft and tender, A loving feeling to remember. But, instead . . . You made me feel like a whore, My body laid out in front of your eyes to adore. And I wondered how this could be, We were finally together, you and me. I was only a piece of flesh, No loving thing, And that was the night this angel was stripped of her wings. You hurt me, caused pain And what was I to gain? This tiny life that is inside, When I found out I could have died. Something that once had the chance to be so sweet, Turned out to be nothing to you but a piece of meat. The pain I felt, My heart you made melt. This pain can never be recovered, Because I will always have a reminder of my first lover. Something he will not see for a while. He does not know that we made a child

Morning....
I think yesterday I should have just rolled over and gone back to sleep rather than get out of bed. I swear NOTHING went right yesterday. So today has to be better. Its beautiful out. And I am going to MAKE it a good day. I have to look at problems not as problems, but as opportunities to make myself a better person

I'm Starting To Believe..lol
Daily Horoscope: Leo For May 24,2007 Right now the best solution is no solution at all. Yes, that answer is frustrating -- but when a situation's as convoluted as this one, you're better off waiting for a few items to sort themselves out before you dive in.

I Regret
My God, why did you take my mother? Angles took the wrong one - not her - another. Regret is a feeling that I feel everyday; You took her from me, and I didn't say - "I Love You, Mom," in my own way; Only to hear her say it back to me. God, why couldn't you just let us be? She didn't deserve to die; Didn't deserve to be in pain, Only to leave me here asking you why - Night after night when I cry in vain.

Mutilation Is The Most Sincere Form Of Flattery
Hey There's no rules today. You steal instead of borrow. You take all the shapes that I make. And you think That you thought All the thoughts That I thought you, Don't you? Mutilation's the most Sincere form of flattery. If you want to be me, Then stand in line like the rest. Now, do you know what I mean? The young get less bolder The legends get older But I stay the same As long as you have less to say Do you think that I wouldn't say this? You know that I play this better than you. Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you too Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you too Do you really think that I wouldn't say this? You know that I play this better than you. Rebels without applause I sell my shadow to those Who are standing in it They think I would Bitch about them Thinking they are The shit When they can't Even step In it The young get less bolder The legends get older But I stay the same As long as you have less to say Do you think that I wouldn't say this? You know t

Getting To Know Me....
Ok I got this from a new friend... Im kinda challenged on here.. but hey!!! who cares... Apparently Im suppose to change his answers... put mine in and post.. then someone else does it.. Shesh, how hard can this be huh? 1. PICK OUT A SCAR YOU HAVE, AND EXPLAIN HOW YOU GOT IT. Right Calf.. Sliced it carrying the garbage out to the bin... 2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? Brick, three cobwebs and a picture of the beach... 3. WHAT DOES YOUR MOBILE PHONE LOOK LIKE? Orange flip phone. 4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? Ben Lee, Snow Patrol, Jason Mraz and James Blunt. 5. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE? My Grandfather in front of the Sphinx during the war.... 6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? Junk Food, warm socks and tomorrow to be Saturday... 8. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN? 3.30pm on "Black Friday" 10. WHAT ENDED YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP? Dishonesty... 11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? Sometimes... 12. THE LAST P

Giving Up
I hate doing anything big. Because no matter how well I plan, and how much time I spent figuring out every aspect of everything, something always goes wrong. Yesterday I lost $400. I dont know where. I know I had it, and I THOUGHT I put it in my safe, but now its not there. And now I dropped my printer and its not working. And I had to print one last set of directions for my move. :| Fuck.

User Friendly
Use me when you wanna come I've bled just to have your touch When I'm in you I want to die Use me when you wanna come I've bled just to have your touch When I'm in you I want to die User friendly fucking dopestar obscene Will you die when you're high you'd never die just for me User friendly fucking dopestar obscene Will you die when you're high you'd never die just for me She says, I'm not in love, but I'm gonna fuck you 'til somebody better comes along. I'm not in love, but I'm gonna fuck you 'til somebody better comes along. Use me like I was a whore Relationships are such a bore Deleted the ones that you've fucked Use me like I was a whore Relationships are such a bore Deleted the ones that you've fucked User friendly fucking dopestar obscene Will you die when you're high you'd never die just for me User friendly fucking dopestar obscene Will you die when you're high you'd never die just for me She says, I'm not in l

Hugg War
HUGG WAR YOU BETTER HUG ME NOW! Pass this hug to all of your friends and back to me, see how many you get back! 1-5 HUGS....Your on someones mind! 5-10 HUGS...Someone likes you! 10-15 HUGS..Someone wants to be with you! 15-20 HUGS..WOW! you are really loved by alot!

Sorry
I'm sorry I'm not around like I used to be.I miss you all very much.but my cable company was bought out by a big named company and they felt the lines needed upgrading and replacing so for awhile im stuck on dial-up.as most of you know dial-up makes cherrytapping nearly immpossible.If anybody wants to chat im on yahoo ladysback99 and its a whole lot easier not to mention quicker:) I will be back returning the loves they say possibly next week sometime.so until then lots of cherry love and licks and kisses to you:)

Come On In And Lister To Some Of The Best Of The 80's Music Bring Your Friend And Have Fun
COME ON IN TO THE NEWEST LOUNGE ON CHERRY TAP INTRODUCING LOWRIDERs 80's LOUNGE!!!!!!!! MEET GREAT/NEW PEOPLE, HAVE FUN, LISTEN TO MUSIC {PICK YOUR OWN}...... PLEASE:: COME IN AND JOIN THE FUN NO DRAMA, NO BULLSHIT, NO HATERS ALSO LOOKING FOR HELP SUCH AS BARTENDERS,BOUNCERS,GREETERS,DJ'S,MANAGERS APPLY WITH IN THANK YOU WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR??? CLICK ON THE BANNER BELOW AND JOIN THE FUN NOW OPEN 24 HR 7 DAY A WEEK BE THERE AND BRING YOUR FRIENDS

Not Sure How To Respond To This...
There's a particular profile that will only except female fans and friends. The person will not except ANY males at all even if it is in support of the profile. I'm not sure how to respond to this. I mean, it's hard not to take it person as a guy when I'm only trying to genuinely show support, but still get denied. I 'm not doing it to get anything in return....what to do? So is this something to be offended by or should I look at the deeper picture to this? I assume the reason why this profile is only for female members is because of something that guys typically do...and so she established her boundaries. For the guys out there....STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE. If a females member wants you to be one, don't worry she'll let you know, but stop making the rest of us look bad. Hopefully she'll change her mind if this is the reason to why she doesn't want guys...you can't label a majority just because of the minority that acts in a certain vulgar ways. Enjoy your day ladies...and ge

Which Side Of Your Brain Do You Use?
You're a Balanced-brained! That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation. When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over. While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker. The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.

Garbage
This site called hoverspot.com which I told you all about/ to join me, whatta joke there was so many pop ups an really nothing there unable to see anything GOOD, lol and or do much at all so I decided to cancel my account over there. Just a waste of my time really, can't have this and that as well to hard...Thought I'd let ya'll know what was going on and if you signed up rethink it!

Deformography
when you wish upon a star don't let yourself fall, fall in too hard I fell into you and I'm on my back an insect decaying in your little trap I squirm into you, now I'm in your gut I fell into you, now I'm in a rut "i lift you up like the sweetest angel, i'll tear you down like a whore. i will bury your god in my warm spit, you'll be deformed in your porn" rock star, yeah (you're such a dirty, dirty) rock star, yeah (dirty, dirty, dirty) you eat up my heart and all the little parts your star is so sharp it leaves me jagged holes I make myself sick just to poison you if I can't have you then no one will (chorus) you are the one i want and what i want is so unreal i'm such a dirty Rock star yeah... (i am the one you want and the one you want is so unreal)

Blocked
if any of you ever questioned......yes I do know where the block function on this site is there are certan rules that I apply to everyone and I think I have been more than equally fair to all here - if you treat me with disrespect - downrate me just to be a jerk - harass me - treat my fiends poorly these kinds of things will get you put here I will continue to update my list by either adding or deleting as i see fit if you don't like it......you can kiss my lily white A$$

Wanted
Photography, I am pretty good but I need practice on people. If you are in the local area (Miami, Ft Lauderdale area) and would like pictures for profiles or what ever just shoot a e-mail or private message with your ideas. I will give you an dvd of all of the images taken. I will Shoot on location only ( I currently do not have a studio.)

Wow
I hadx such a crazy night..it started and 11:30pm and ended at 5:15 this morning.. I'm getting attached to a guy that has a girlfriend. When I met him he didn't tell me he had one. Now I'm just stuck and I like him a lot. I'm like his GF#2..when she isnt around I am..I want to let him go but I cant. I want him to choose but I dont want to pressure him. I want to be with him right now..even though I was just with him 3 hours ago.I didnt want to leave his side..I had to go to work. If not I wouldve stayed... I hate this

Birthdays
Well, my Sweet Mom died March 11 this year, and today would have been her 76th Birthday. She now is no longer burdened with worrying about her 3 daughters and one son and hubby with Alzheimers. She can finally have peace and no more pain that she has suffered for the last 20 years. So very many times I almost called her to let her know about what is happening around here, she loved it out here where I live in the country. She would have adored this tiny baby that currently resides here named Bambi. But, she knows all this already, and now can have a few laughs as she watches this crazy house!!( a 10 pound dog that thinks she is the deers' Mommy ) Please, all of you that still are Blessed with your Mom's still alive. NEVER ever take them for Granted! They will not be here forever!

And Here She Is Again Today!!!!
Yes!!! I know she wants this hot body, she cant stay away!! Totally Happy my ass, she must be in a miserable marriage to check my profile everyday, she is in LOVE with the JMAN!! Yes people, I know my stalker wants me that bad, but I dont deal with psycho lying whores, who are obsessed. Hey Totally, if your man makes you that miserable, that you need to fullfill your sexual life and fantasies online, I suggest you find a man that wants you! I have already met you once, and I cant stand liars! You know what I am talking about! Deal with it, YOU ARE NOT GETTING INTO MY PANTS...SORRY YOU ARE NOT MY TYPE, YOU ARE TO OLD FOR ME!!! below is the proof again! Who viewed me I viewed Blocked "Totally Happy&#... (On TAP) 728733 Jenni ღKittyღ ~UKnowUWantMeBaby~ (On TAP) See All

It's Been A While
Howdy folks. It's been awhile since I blogged, and its been busy busy busy on this end. Due to another fine job of corporate thinking, our company failed to hire enough for the third year in a row, so we've been working lots of hours 530 is way to early to start a day, letme tell you. But I get home at the same time usually, and three more hours a day is definitely fattening up the paychecks nicely. Sebastian will be graduating from 8th grade June 1st, with his party the 3rd, so that will be a busy weekend. We agreed to go to a birthday party the 2nd, so I should be hung over the 3rd. Great way to face my ex lol. Demetrius is starting his late surge to get his grades up. I am amazed that he can do 5 weeks of D to F work, and 4 of straight A work. He has had a friend drop out, and one will be back for a 5th year, so that sort of opened his eyes. He says he doesn't want to be a "super senior". My wife is also working 12 hour days where she works, so we've both been ex

A Littel Bit Of Honesty
This was written by a very good friend of mine, and i wanted to share it. A Little Bit of Honesty I want to be me... I want to be loved for who I am... What I am... The way I am... completely. I am everything that you have ever wanted... Needed... Desired... and I will not be second place...to anyone...anything. I will not compete for your attention... Your time... Your love... If you cannot see my worth it will be your loss... and someday the tears I have cried will be yours. I will not be a conveniant distraction... a temporary amusement... a toy to be put on the shelf until you decide to play again. Someday you will think of the time we spent together... The words whispered in the dark... The promises that you broke... and all you will be left with is the memory of what we had. Someday you will realize that what you really wanted was within your reach... but then it will be

African Medicine Man
African medicine man A man, getting along in years, finds that he is unable to perform sexually. He goes to his doctor who tries a few things, but nothing seems to work. Finally, as a last hope, the doctor refers him to an African medicine man. The medicine man says, "I can cure this." With that said, he throws a white powder into a flame, and there is a flash with billowing blue smoke. Then the African medicine man says, "This is powerful healing but you can only use it once a year. All you have to do is say '123,' and it shall rise for as long as you wish!" The man then asks, "What happens when it's over, and I don't want to continue?" The medicine man replies, "When your partner can take no more sex and is completely raddled, all she has to say is '1234', and it will then go down. But be warned, the pork sword will not rise again for another whole year." The old gent rushes home, anxious to try out his new powers. That night he showers, shaves and smother

Have You Ever
Wundered what it would be like to run into one of your friends from CT? Hopefully it wont be one of the perverts that runs wild on here, I'm talking about the nice guys that really want to get to know you for your heart. How would you react? If we have already came face to face please don't type anything.

The Runaway
This is no place for u my dear, Turn around and leave, u hear? U left your mamma’s warm embrace, She longs to see your pretty face. Young and sweet, u lost your way, But “Private” means u cannot stay, Grab your sack and walk on by, There’s the door, and don’t ask why. Go home baby, don’t turn back, They’ll eat u like a midnite snack, Smother u like candy cream, Their latest, sick, perverted dream. They’ll chew u up and spit u out, And snicker while they watch u pout, Then lick your wounds and lap u up, You’ll become they’re newest pup. Words of comfort, sugar and spice, And all things warm, inviting and nice, Is what your ears will hear at first, Then you’ll feel your bubble burst. They’ll cast their eyes on your sweet lips, Then have u shake your naked hips, Throw u in the lions cage, Right up on their centre stage. They’ll Kiss u Love u Hug u Hold u Then Wine u Dine u Grope u Fuck u Listen hard and listen well, This place will be your

Backroad Trouble
“Oh my God I am going to be so late!” I said to my self as I flew down the country back roads that seemed to be deserted. I glanced at the speedometer, and realized the doing 75 on these back roads was probably not very good on my car. Suddenly the sounds of sirens raged in my ears as a black and white county cruiser pulled in behind me. “Well Hell!” I said to myself as I eased off the gas and pulled to the side of the road. I glanced in the mirror to see a very large, muscular police office climb out of the car and he did not appear to be in a good mood by the scowl on his face. I put on my brightest smile and turned toward my window. “Hi officer”, “I know I was …” “Madam do you realize how fast you were going?” I looked at him sort of irritated that he had interrupted me and smiling with a smirk and said “Why no officer, but I am sure that you are going to tell me now aren’t you?” “Madam, I suggest that you change your tone of voice with me!” the office shouted. He looked

~vacation Time..will Miss You Guys~
I wanted to wish everyone a wonderful rest of the week and a wonderful weekend. I'm going on vacation to Myrtle Beach for the weekend. Leaving early in the morning (Friday) be back Monday sometime. Will miss you guys...stop by and show me luv while I'm gone...Will miss my sweet friends... :) See ya when I get back... Hugss & Kisses Cheryl

~~~~oneway~~~~
THERE IS NO OTHER WAY TO LIVE BUT THREW JESUS.. IN MY PERSONAL EXPIRIANCE LIVING WITH OUT HIM IS NO WAY TO LIVE @ ALL..THE BLOOD OF CHRIST HAS MADE IT POSSIBLE FOR ME TO HAVE HAPPINESS .. DONT YOU WANT HAPPINESS.. ONE OF YOU HERE KNOWS THAT THE HAPPINESS YOU GET HAS ONLY BEEN MEATEOCORE.THE SONG HAS GREAT MEANING.. IF YOU LIVE BY FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT HE WILL SHOW YOU AWESOME THINGS.. SOMEONE READING THIS NOW.. YOU HAVE KNOWN GOD FOR SOME TIME . BUT SOMETHING BAD HAS HAPPENED..OK LET ME EXPLAIN SOMETHNG..JUST BECAUSE YOU WALK WITH GOD DOESNT MEAN BAD THINGS ARENT GOING TO HAPPEN ALL AROUND YOU..BUT THE DIFFENCE IS GOING TO BE GOD WILL GIVE YOU THE STREGNTH AND THE POWER TO DEAL WITH WHATS HAPPENING TO YOU.. YOU WALKED AWAY FROM HIM HE DIDNT WALK AWAY FROM YOU.. REMEBER WHAT JESUS DID FOR YOU.. HE WENT THREW TRMENDIOUS PAIN. BEATEN DRAINED OF ALL HIS BLOOD SO YOU CAN HAVE THIS HE WAS BETRAYED BY ONES HE LOVED.HE LOVES YOU BUT THAT LOVE COMES WITH A COST. YOU HAVE T

Pray For Others
Pray for Others God is the ever-renewing spirit of life that is within my loved ones. In a sacred prayer time, I reach across the miles to embrace a loved one who is grieving a loss or to bless a friend who is starting a new career. I pray: “Thank You, God, for blessing my loved ones. As I enfold each of them in prayer, I am faithfully entrusting them into Your care.” My prayers support family and friends who are facing a busy day at work or school. I relax knowing that I am helping them through both challenges and opportunities. Even though I am not physically able to be with my loved ones every moment, God is—as the ever-renewing spirit of life. God is present within and enfolding my friends and family throughout the day. Indeed, God is comforting, sustaining, guiding, and loving each of us throughout every event and moment of the day and night. “I do not cease to give thanks for you as I remember you in my prayers.”—Ephesians 1:16

Longtime No Blog (hopefully This Makes Up For It)
predictions of world war 3 I have many ideas of what will cause world war 3 So I will name them for sanitys sake. Lets start with the craziest lol. 1-The government really has so many nukes threw out the world because there paranoid of aliens they continually piss off with weaponizing space (Mainly america with haarp) Wanting to create a crazy automphereic type shield around the whole country. I dont know if haarp is just to throw us off from the real weapon close by to its location But I do know that they do fucked up tests that can destroy the whole planet and all life thats how fucking paranoid America is This weapon whenever used its ovious because strange weather follows They just shrug it off as global warming that bush dosint even belive in anyways Kinda like when he says he belives in god (Hes such a coke head he probably thinks he is god) Katrina was more then likely caused by Haarp So version 1=fake alien attack or real alien attack=Cause the governme

The Fuck You List
Body: fucklist Add 1 thing to the fuck list IN 20 MINUTES or you'll have a FUCKED up 20 days! 1. fuck dumbass guys. 2. fuck mustangs!!!!!!!!! 3. fuck frogs 4. fuck you. 5. fuck 1% milk 6. fuck your mom! [inside joke] 7. fuck really sharp knives 8. FUCK US AIRWAYS!!!! 9. Fuck working at a job you despise... 10.Fuck Salt! 11.Fuck the drama 12.Fuck me (yeah i said it) 13.Fuck the Valley... 14. Fuck work 15. Fuck this 16. FUCK DUMB ASS GIRLS WHO CANT GET THEIR OWN MEN! 17. FUCK JENNA!!!!!!!!!!! 18. FUCK INSECURE PPL 19. FUCK WHOEVER WROTE #17!!!! 20. FUCK HER IN THE BUTT!!! (inside joke) 21. Fuck the police! 22.FUCK PEOPLE WITH NO TRUST !!!! 23.FUCK what you heard! 24.F*U*C*K* MY CAR BEING A P.O.S. 25. fuck not having any money to buy the new linkin park cd!!!!! 26. fuck this fuck list 27. Fuck Gangsters 28. Fuck you and your motherfuckin mama. :P 29. Fuck snitches 30.Fuck me 31. Fuck stupid blonde russian bitches who disrespect while here on a visa. 32.F

May 24,2007
Daily Horoscope: Capricorn For May 24,2007 People can tell when advice is being given with good motives. Alternately, they can also tell when advice is a thinly veiled attempt at control. So which is it you're doing now? Be honest with yourself.

G W Is A Douche
So yeah, I watched Fahrenheit 9-11 and Bush is the biggest douche on the planet.. Granted, I thought he was a douche befrore.... But now I think is a Monster Douche. I can't believe he got elected to a second term... Considering he wasn't even elected to his first term... I'll keep this mild (wouldn't want to get the secret police... erm I mean service at my door). I just hope he somehow gets his karma back from all the people he's killed... I know this one won't happen but I can wish it. I hope he gets convicted of the war crimes and crimes against humanity that he's committed, and when he dies I hope it is a long painful process and he burns in the pits of hell (if there is such a place, and in his case I hope there is.) With love, butterflies, cupcakes and rock and roll. ~~Bryan

Punishments By Kay
Punishments are usually in the form of spankings when I am nude. My being nude is not a sexual thing but because I feel more vulnerable when I am nude. Sometimes I am required to stand in a corner, write sentences, or look up bible verses on submission, etc. Below follows the rules concerning punishments: The need for punishment is determined by HOH only and he will inform me of decision and why. If I feel I need to punished I may "confess" to him what it is I've done wrong and why I feel I need to be punished, however, this does not guarantee that I will be punished. Upon being informed I must immediately apologize, ask for forgiveness, and ask for punishment; whether I agree or not. I must do this whether punishment will be immediately or not. Arguing or questioning the punishment will result in more punishment. Failure to ask will also result in more punishment. Punishments will be administered the next time HOH and I are alone (no matter where or when) or immediately

Contest Wahoo Candies Lets Do It
OK BOUT TIME I WANNA DO A CONTEST HERE AND HERE IS THE THING U NEED TO LET ME KNOW SO I CAN AD YOUR PIC FOR THE SWEETEST CANDY I WILL HAVE UR PIC IN A FOLDER IT WILL BE CLOSED TILL THE DAY AND TIME IT OPENS UP*STILL WORKING ON IT* AND U AND FRIENDS RATE AND BOMB YA PIC 1 ST PLACE 7 DAY LAST 2 PLACE 3 DAY BLAST 3RD PLACE 1 DAY LAST OMG COME ON WHO WANTS A BLAST........... LET ME KNOW CANT WIN IT IF UR NOT IN IT ...LOLLY WHO IS MY SWEETEST CANDY???... ♥ ok guys more setails i want to hold the contest on may 31 till june 9th the one with the most pic comments wins i will send a blog out saying contest is open sense most of us are on duffrent times but i want it io open up at 4 pm est time. good luck to my candies. hurry and let me know if ur in it.

Info About Candyland*new Candies*
HELLO GLAD YOU WANT TO BECOME A NEW CANDIE THIS CLUB IS A DRAMA FREE ZONE EVERYONE THAT IS A CANDIE GETS ALONG GREAT. THE POINT OF THIS CLUB WAS TO DO SOMETHING FUN. SO I MADE IT UP. WE HAVE CONTEST AND GAMES JUST FOR THE CANDIES NO ONE ELES ALSO HAVE A LOUNGE I MADE JUST FOR THE CANDIES NO ONE ELES. WHAT TO DO TO BECOME A CANDY. FIRST HAVE TO GET A SWEET NIC NAME THAT NO OTHER CANDY HAS CANT HAVE TWO CANDIES WITH THE SAME NAME YOU CAN USE SOMTHING SWEET CANDY OR CAKE LIKE. NEXT ADD OR CHANGE YOUR NICKNAME. 2ND LET ME KNOW :) SO I CAN ADD YOU TO THE CANDYLAND CANDIES LIST. ALSO U NEED TO MAKE SURE U HAVE RATED FANNED AND ADDED ME. NEXT JOIN THE CANDYLAND LOUNGE. IF YOU STILL WOULD LIKE FUTER INFO PLS JUST EMAIL ME DO NOT SEND ME A SHOUT I MIGHT NOT GET IT. ALSO THE CLUB IS OPEN FOR MEN AND WOMEN COUPLES IT DONT MATTER TO BECOME ONE OF MY SWEET CANDIES :) THANKS ..LOLLY

Senior Class Pranks...
Good morning and how’s every little thing in your world today? Mine is fine, sore, tired (not like trucks and cars) and beat (not like I just lost a golf match or something) but, all is good and this week has almost passed me by. You ever feel so tired and sore that to move your fingers is a major event? I feel like a rodeo clown after a bull got the best of him. Oh well a few more days and all will be over, oh and yes I will snap some pictures or have Jax do it. The year is coming to a close for Mandy on high School and like all seniors they did a senior prank on the water tower. A police report is out but no one is coming forward. The kids all know who did it and the authorities do also but they have to make it seem like they’re still searching for the culprits to deter any future events of this magnitude. Most classes do similar tricks, pranks of this nature but when it involves kids climbing up on the towns water tower which is so high in the air they do not want it to end in a fun

Rheumatoid Arthritis
I found out last Friday that I have arthritis at 25 and from looks of it Ive had it since i was 20 just no one told me.Yippy.I went to the doc becuz the last few months my hand esp my right one has hurt like hell and i cant open jars or anything any more with my right hand.even writeing this hurts like hell and i have to stop alot and take a break.And after thinking about it,alot of things now make more since.ive been in pain for a long fuckin time and every told me iw as fine.if the docs had just looked closer at my xrays they would have seen it.the doc i have right now thinks they did see just didnt say anything.Great.My hands are slowly become worthless.Theres already things i cant do anymore and its sad.I dont know if ill be ablie to use the computer after some point.I love makeing layouts and designing pages but i dont know if my hands can do it anymore.And me and Dave had been in talks about haveing a baby....cant have a baby if your hands dont work very well now can you? thats t

What Changed Us
Take a second value your life and the skeletons left behind do not forget the past There is blood behind on the fingertips and when but a taste breaks our mind we'll fall we crack, these ghosts come back to sit beside and taunt of immaturity soon, skin will leather and we'll be old men looking back, trying to drown in our misery

Thursday Links: Opie And Anthony Live, Dr. Ian Smith, Good Morning Strippers, Stalker Patti, Pat From Moonachie, Traveling Virus Tickets, New Videos O
Happy ThursDEE, everybuddy! The Opie and Anthony Show is LIVE this morning (on terrestrial radio, that is) and of course, if you think we're fibbing, you can log on to Paltalk and see us all LIVE, scratching, burping, and farting. Oh, and you can also check out the many Naked Women in front of their webcams. This morning, we're staying 'Good Morning' to all the Strippers Working their way through school. Morning ladies! Today on the show, we welcome back Dr. Ian Smith from Celebrity Fit Club, whose new Extreme Fat Smash, which is helping EROCK shed some unwanted pounds. We'll also check in with Stalker Patti and Pat from Moonachie. Check out CESNORSHIP ROOSTER, a new animated O&A satire by Peter Coffin. Tickets for the Opie and Anthony Traveling Virus are on FIRE!!! (so buy two... 'cuz one might burn up). If you don't have your tickets yet, CLICK HERE FOR SHOW DATES AND LINE UPS New Traveling Virus T-shirts - On Sale NOW! CLICK HERE TO ORDER YOURS TODAY! The beautiful

The Quiz
1.)Q. Can you cook? 1.) 2.)Q. What was your dream growing up? 2.) 3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had? 3.) 4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be? 4.) 5.)Q. Favorite vegetable? 5.) 6.)Q. What was the last book you read? 6.) 7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ? 7.) 8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? 8.) 9.)Q. Worst Habit? 9.) 10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 10.) 11.)Q. What is your favorite sport? 11.) 12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude? 12.) 13.)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 13.) 14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you? 14.) 15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you: 15.) 16.)Q. Do you have any pets? 16.) 17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly? 17.) 18.)Q. What was your first impression of me? 18.) 19.)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 19.) 20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would

You Are The One My Friend
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.comFrom the first time our eyes met, I knew you were the one.The one I searched for,The one I longed for as a friendThe missing piece to my heart.Nothing could ever compareto this loving friendship that we share.I can't imagine my lifewithout you, and I hope I never have to.Have A Lovely Day, My Friend Music Codes at MySpace ToolBox

Minutes Seconds
The Smashbox Cosmetics Modeling Contest is still going on, any support you would like to give would be greatly appreciated. THANKS FOLKS! You can vote daily. For those of you with HTML code disabled: http://216.117.193.21/modeling/profile.asp?SmashBox_ProfileID=1250606

I Quit!!!!!
I QUIT!!!!! If you have life responsibilities, then you qualify to read this. It is a new take on an oldie! I thought you might enjoy this. RESIGNATION I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year old again. I want to go to McDonald’s and think that it’s a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think that M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer’s day. I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn’t bother you, because you didn’t know what you didn’t know and you didn’t care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried

Why Boys Fall In Love With Girls
why boys fall in love with girls (THis WAS WRITTEN BY A GUY) Don't break this; it's so sweet! 1. They will always smell good even if it's just shampoo. 2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder. 3. How cute they look when they sleep. 4. The ease in which they fit into our arms. 5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world. 6. How cute they are when they eat. 7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while. 8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside. 9. The way they look good no matter what they wear. 10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth. 11. How cute they are when they argue. 12. The way her hand always finds yours. 13. The way they smile. 14. The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you

Omg Someone Stop This Girl From Breeding!!
ok the following is the email i since to some girl who felt she needed to come uninvited to my page and downrate a pic of mine. could this girl really not know why i was just a wee bit pissed? Umm no i dont have a prob. but obviously you do. so whut are you ranting about? On 5/24/2007, mordechai@cherrytap.com wrote: >hey bitch you have a problem ? you dont have someone who loves you? welll i dont really give a shit one way or another! so fuck off!~*~Anti-Cupid Shattered Soul~*~GraveYard Guy~*~GraveYard Family~*~ This is a Perfect example why blood relations should never mate! Lil Xo Laguna@ CherryTAP

Online Friends
Online friends are people we may never meet.... We see pictures, we see cams...It isn't the same.... We grow close...We care and love one another.... One day we may not hear from one another.... Our hearts will break... All we see is a name on messenger but the person we don't see anymore..... We pray....."Please come back".... All I ask is you remember me in the good times we had..... Keep me close to your heart....Friends forever... Pass this on to all your friends....If I get it back.... I know you care ( To a very special friend I have made on here. One day you never know if we will ever meet. Lets just pray we might )

Hi All
THE AGE OLD QUESTION.... WHAT IS LOVE??? LOVE IS WHEN HE/SHE IS THE ONLY THING THAT YOU CAN THINK OF... LOVE IS WHEN HE/SHE IS THE FIRST THOUGHT THAT CROSSES YOUR MIND IN THE MORNING AND THE LAST THOUGHT THAT ENTERS YOUR HEAD AS YOU FALL ASLEEP. LOVE IS DREAMIN OF HOW YOUR FUTURE IS GOING TO BE WITH THEM IN YOUR LIFE... LOVE IS NEVER LETTING GO AND ALWAYS WANTING MORE OF THEM AS THE DAYS GO BY YOU KNOW THAT THIS IS THE PERSON THAT YOU WANT TO GROW OLD WITH... AND THAT IS MY VERSION OF LOVE AND BEFORE I FORGET LOVE IS LOVING THAT PERSON WITH THE GOOD AND THE BAD AND NEVER LEAVING THEIR SIDE WHEN THEY ARE IN NEED AND WHEN THEY ARE JUST NEEDING TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOING TO BE THERE FOR THEM... I KNOW THIS KIND OF LOVE NOW AND HAVEN'T BEFORE AND I NEVER WANT HIM TO LEAVE.... I LOVE HIM HE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND I SEE MYSELF GROWING OLD WITH HIM....

Alice In Chains- Down In A Hole
Bury Me Softly In This Womb I Give This Part Of Me For You Sand Rains Down And Here I Sit Holding Rare Flowers In A Tomb.....In Bloom Down In A Hole And I Don't Know If I Can Be Saved See My Heart I Decorate It Like A Grave You Don't Understand Who They Thought I Was Supposed To Be Look At Me Now A Man Who Won't Let Himself Be Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul Down In A Hole, Losin' Control I'd Like To Fly But My Wings Have Been So Denied Down In A Hole And They've Put All The Stones In Their Place I've Eaten The Sun So My Tongue Has Been Burned Of The Taste I Have Been Guilty Of Kicking Myself In The Teeth I Will Speak No More Of My Feelings Beneath Oh I Want To Be Inside Of You Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul Down In A Hole, Feelin' So Small Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul Down In A Hole, Out Of Control I'd Like To Fly But My Wings Have Been So Denied

This A Friend Wrote For Me,,ty
Sexygirlblond, A tender kiss upon your heart, a endearing place for us to start, expanding our horizons for all to see, as our friendship blossoms perfectly, sharing laughter as time goes by, destine to last for you and I, memorable moments as time comes close, a relation that lasts more than most

2 Downraters And Haters!
OK SINCE THIS MORNING SEEMS TO BE THE DAY FOR DOWNRATERS AND HATERS, I FIGURED I WOULD MAKE THIS SPECIAL PLACE JUST FOR THEM HERE IN MY BLOGS. IF YOU ARENT LOVED BY SOMEONE WELL ALL I CAN SAY IS I DONT LOVE YOU EITHER SO YOU CAN JUST GO FUCK YOURSELF! Brentunian@ CherryTAP Lil Xo Laguna@ CherryTAP

Your On My Friends List And Id Like To Know......
1.)Q. Can you cook? 1.) 2.)Q. What was your dream growing up? 2.) 3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had? 3.) 4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be? 4.) 5.)Q. Favorite vegetable? 5.) 6.)Q. What was the last book you read? 6.) 7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ? 7.) 8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? 8.) 9.)Q. Worst Habit? 9.) 10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 10.) 11.)Q. What is your favorite sport? 11.) 12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude? 12.) 13.)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 13.) 14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you? 14.) 15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you: 15.) 16.)Q. Do you have any pets? 16.) 17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly? 17.) 18.)Q. What was your first impression of me? 18.) 19.)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 19.) 20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would

How To Handle A Husband
A couple was celebrating their golden wedding anniversary on the beaches in Montego Bay, Jamaica. Their domestic tranquility had long been the talk of the town. People would say, "What a peaceful & loving couple". The local newspaper reporter was inquiring as to the secret of their long and happy marriage. The Husband replied: "Well, it dates back to our honeymoon in America," explained the man. "We visited the Grand Canyon, in Arizona, and took a trip down to the bottom of the canyon, by horse. We hadn't gone too far when my wife's horse stumbled and she almost fell off. My wife looked down at the horse and quietly said, "That's once." "We proceeded a little further her and horse stumbled again. Once more my wife quietly said, "That's twice." "We hadn't gone a half-mile when the horse stumbled for the third time. My wife quietly removed a revolver from her purse and shot the horse dead. I SHOUTED at her, "What's wrong with you, Woman! Why did y

Finally!!! We Have Take Off!
I put out a mum a while back about potty training my son. Well Everybody that remembers (lol) He's doing it! I stayed the night somewhere else on sunday night, (where is not important) and on Monday I walked by the bathroom and my boy was doing his biz. All by himself! I asked his Daddy how he did it, and he said " I took off his potty seat off the toilet lifted the seat and told him to go when he wants" OMG I have been trying for what two years now and all he needed was his Daddy's permission. Oh my stubborn lil guy. But I thought I would share that bit of info with you. Thanx for reading.

Violence
May 15, 2007 JOLIET -- Police are asking for the public's help in finding out who shot a man at a party late Saturday. Devron D. Weddington, 19, was killed after shots came through the window of a house in the 300 block of East Benton Street. "There was a large party going on at the house when someone fired into the house from outside," said Deputy Chief Pat Kerr. Kerr said 40 to 50 people were in the house at the time. No one else was injured. Weddington was shot in the head and pronounced dead at 12:11 a.m. at Silver Cross Hospital, about 20 minutes after the shooting. Investigators say some guests argued shortly before the shooting. "It does not appear Weddington was involved in the altercation, and it's uncertain if he was the intended target," Kerr said. While police had no suspect information Monday, Chief Fred Hayes said they have learned of a possible motive. "The investigation has indicated there are gang overtones to this incident," Hayes said. He said it do

Dreams
In my blog about alice I put forth the idea that alice in wonderland was a true story because of my dream...for those of you who don't know that dreams are as real as our lives in this physical world- that blog wouldn't have made sense. But I believe that our Souls leave our bodies when we dream, and travel into other dimensions, such as the Astral Plane...

Childhood Lost 1-17-00
She remembers sunshine warm rain on her upturned face She remembers laughter fun and love at forever's pace. Where has it gone? She remembers trusting feeling she could do no wrong Thinking Angels surely love her Singing aloud a beautiful song. But she's alone. She remembers a thoughtful child she had a smile for everyone She had a dream for growing old never a thought for being alone. Joy a flag unfurled. She remembers shattered trust broken dreams and heartfelt pain Love and faith just not enough to squelch the tears that fell like rain. In her dead world. She remembers happy times but memories have a higher cost When you add the pain and fear that comes with Childhood Lost. Then you can see She knows the pain of healing Though she'll always have the scars But she'll never quit and can't forget For she has come too far. That lost child is me. © 2007 d. r. hyden another poem found in my old notebook. shows childhood innocence, then as it's

24 May 2006
Dear Alexa, Here is your single's love horoscope for Thursday, May 24: That feeling that you're forgetting something is only natural, given how busy life is. The paradox is that you'll have to fit in yet more activity -- meditation, exercise, whatever centers you -- to uncover its source.

We All Know Or Knew Someone Like This!!
One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd." I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of hi s arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. " They really should get lives. " He looked at me and sa

24th May 2007
Dear Alexa, Here is your AstroSlam for Thursday, May 24: The feeling of being seriously, claustrophobically hemmed in is clawing at your sanity today. Give in to the urge to run screaming down the street. Fighting this urge will only delay the inevitable. wow, that could be me for real today..lol

& Im Leaving Yet Again....
but no worries i'll be back on wed. the 30th. i'm off to spend a week with my hubby...[[sigh]]...i love these little trips he's planned for us. i jump at the chance to spend time with him...even if it means a whole day of plane rides & wait times. i miss him so much & i cant wait to see him. well i fly out in a few hours & i have yet to get dressed to leave. so i gues i better get going... ttfn...

To My Darling Husband,
Before you return from your trip I just want to let you know about the small accident I had with the pickup truck when I turned into the driveway. Fortunately it's not too bad and I really didn't get hurt, so please don't worry too much about me. I was coming home from Wal-Mart, and when I turned into the driveway I accidentally pushed down on the accelerator instead of the brake. The garage door is slightly bent but the pick up fortunately came to a halt when it bumped into your car. I am really sorry, but I know with your kind-hearted personality you will forgive me. You know how much I love you and care for you my sweetheart. I am enclosing a picture for you. I cannot wait to hold you in my arms again. Your loving wife. XXX P.S. Your girlfriend called.

Find Me On Facebook
Besides my personal websites and fanclubs, you can now catch me daily on FACEBOOK - If you're already on there, then feel free to add me! Have a great day! Melanie http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=735520568

Why?
And you wonder Why?? Why does she cry? Why can't she be Happy? Why does she think she's worthless? Why would she hurt? I wonder how many people know what emotional abuse truely is? What it does to live with it day in and day out... How it effects your outlook and your self image... It leaves invisible scars, sometimes deeper and more painful than physical abuse... Daily battles within to try and overcome the person you have become, not realizing that somewhere along the way you lost yourself... and became everything he told you over and over again... You loose your self esteem and confidance... The ability to believe in yourself...You start believing the worst and hear the voice in your head over and over again... sometimes screaming, sometimes whispering...but always there. Your friends and family never understand... they think you are crazy for staying ... but what about the kids, what about the commitment? where did the love go? was it ever really there?? How could I

Cruel Insanity
Worlds together, worlds unbroken Like a game, a child has spoken. Holding hands, while breaking trust Breaking hearts while smiling first. Fingers crossed behind stabbed backs Lying eyes and secret tracks, Showing mercy, giving in Then turning 'round, and fight to win. A second face, to hide the lies While in the heart, forgiveness dies. Selling souls to give away Stealing hearts, a price to pay. Giving nothing, taking all Clawing higher, backwards fall Blindfold on to hide the sight Of greedy mouths and newborn flight. The world it ends, the world begins Until in darkness reality bends. The truth is never far behind the twisted paths of a broken mind, Shoving hearts in soul's fast lane And you say that I'M insane? (c) 2007 D.R. Hyden just something i wrote in January, 2000... not sure of my mindset at the time. from the content it would appear that i felt betrayed. go figure... seems to fit a lot of my life lately.

A Favor For Hellcat & Jeremy Plz (((hugs)))
Hey I think you all know Hellcat here on CherryTAP ... She posts the blog with all the contest info and stuff in it "CT Contests And Giveaways" which is a pretty good service to everyone on here which I had been chasing up the top 100 blogs since I started blogging on CherryTAP ... Well unfortunately this morning I went to look at how I was faring in the old top 100 and it wasn't there, so I asked her about it and she told me that she accidentally deleted it ... Now it was nice moving up one place and all in the rankings but I didn't like it happening that way so I would really appreciate it if you all could go and rate her "New Version" of that blog and get it back in front of mine where it belongs, and then I will have my gauge back and all will be right with the world ... Trust me, this is NOT an idle favor either as she works very hard on her blog and deserves to be back there again so please just CLICK THIS LINK and go rate that blog a ten for me ... I would really appreciate it .

Alice In Wonderland
Back in the 20th century I had a dream that I fell down the rabbit-hole...exactly like Alice did. It was in slow-motion, and I could see bookshelves and so forth clearly on my way down. When I got to the bottom I found myself in a beautiful day-glo world. There were buildings of every color of the rainbow. It was dark, but the buildings were bright. I went up some stairs and met the dark ruler of that world...and no, it wasn't the Queen of Hearts. It was Satan...and he appeared to me as a black man. Though my dream was a little different than Lewis Carroll's story, it convinced me that his story was not fiction, but based on actual experience...in the book The Tiger's Fang by Paul Twitchell he saw Satan as a Chinaman...so I guess the devil looks different to each person who sees him. And the same holds true for God or the GODDESS.

Browneyed Leo
PISCES: Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor. Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. ARIES: Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to SCREW with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships. Addictive. Loud. Best in bed. TAURUS: Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual. Sexy. Most caring person you will ever meet. One of a kind. Not one to SCREW with. GEMINI: Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Go

Naughty Story 2
A woman is looking in the mirror as a man approaches her, she turns to look at him with love and wanting in her eyes. He sees her beauty and the wanting look and he kisses her softly on the lips. Her body aches for more, and he feels it in her trembling lips. He lightly touches her waist and pulls her to him. She flows to him, and he puts his arms around her waist, and kisses her on the lips. Her lips are filled with passion, and fire. He kisses her more deeply and gently carresses her back. He slowly glides his hands over her back and neck, pulling her body closer to him. She freely gives in to the passion and fire that is burning inside her, and lets him have his way with her. He gently places her on the bed, with her beautiful body sprawled out and ready for him to take her to extreme pleasures and senses. He slowly glides his hands up and down her beautiful body, tempting and teasing her with each swipe of his hand. She arches her back into his touch wanting and needi

Sadness
I will never know what it is like to be someone's fantasy I will never be the object of envy I can't remember what it feels like to be made love to and no fucked I can't remember when my life hasn't sucked No matter what I am outside I will always be the fat girl on the in I am in so much pain and so alone I don't know where to begin I will never know the look of true desire I will never know a man who's not a liar I will never again know a day free from pain now with MS another life's stain my oldest baby lost all family and friends gone I ask every minute what I've done wrong I crave for one hour in a pretty woman's life to be so desired all of my life I will never know love like the love I have wasted only cheating and ugliness I have tasted I ache for one love filled kiss full of longing before I die but I know it won't happen so my poem ends with good-bye

Voice Comments!@!@
yeah okay okay after going around and leaving them for all my friends I finally put one on my page too.. sooo.. hint hint nudge nudge wink wink.. stop by and give me hot phone sexxors.. i mean voice comments.. i meant voice comments!!

Empty Gusto
Yet let no empty gust Of passion find an utterance in thy lay, A blast that whirls the dust Along the howling street and dies away; But feelings of calm power and mighty sweep, Like currents journeying through the windless deep. that bryant, sitting bearded and quite pompously overlooking his park, his back turned on the new york public library, a cupola on neoclassical columns arching over his naked globe, his right hand on the empire armrest, the other lost somewhere in a humongous folio, should be made to speak by this stanza of “the poet,” can only be credited to the willful identification of the howling emptiness of the gusts of passion to be banned from poetry with midtown manhattan. a canny polemic lost on the sweeps as much as on the howlers congregating in the outdoor café that’s really a bar, drinks abreast and suits ajar. power doesn’t come calm here, among recent graduates of the corporate cocksuck, the swashbuckling bimbos, and the cigar-yielding bondsmen of

Rainy Day
I’ve told you everything And never did I lie After all that I told you I feel like I could die I gave you my heart And you ripped it out whole You used me, abused me, and threw me away You took and crushed my soul I trusted you so much And you only lied You said you loved me But now I cry Tears fall I crawl Never to stand again I’ve loved you Never hurt you But still I cry I told you how I felt You heard me sigh And told me not to worry, never to cry You said you’d never hurt me But the price I paid was high I listened, and was happy to have you back But then you’d say good-bye I never should have gone back Never listened to another lie All you did was lift me up so high Then let me fall- Fall ‘till I crashed Fall ‘till I cried You used me, abused me, and threw me away Then slowly took me back, and saved me in your pocket Just for another rainy day

Sorry
You say you’re sorry To her starry lit eyes Underneath the blue, blue skies You say you’re sorry But sorry doesn’t help No matter what you do It will all come back to you The happy The sad The fun The bad You say you’re sorry But she still cries For she knows she won’t be able to look into your eyes You say you’re sorry But sorry won’t cure a broken heart You’ll still be friends if she agrees But she doesn’t want to She won’t be able to handle it She says she’s sorry It doesn’t help You’ll miss her and you know that But you move on And take whatever life gives You think you’ll never forget that bad night You’re both sorry But you won’t see each other the way you use to You’ll be sorry for the rest of your life But life moves on And you forget Until one day when you meet again You’ll be happy, you both will Then you say those two words The same words that got you into this mess “I’m sorry” This time it’s different though You can’t let each other be

Super Musings About Some Other Daze
i really have nothing in particular to blog about. i am missing someone i was supposed to talk to and or see monday and now it's thursday am. the only art i have to accomplish requires nailing (nailing of the glued on fake fur frame on the new super piece) and it's 12:19 am. and crappy paper work. art resume update. a letter on why i want the marin headlands residency (see i told you crappy paperwork). who wants to do that when i'm ahead of schedule and it's after midnight. i want to work on MAKING ART but i don't want to be rude to my neighbors so i'll wait till tomorrow. so, i'm on cherrytap instead. i'd like to get more points and get to another level so i can upload more photos. cherrytap feels like it has kind of maxed out for me at the moment. so sad cuz it was so exciting at first and now..? so i decided to branch out and blog for all you jocelyn superstar fans out there! boy, though, i wish that special someone would see my pretty pictures. but does that special s

First
today is may 24 2007. this is my first time on Cherry tap. it is not a bad place. Better then i thought. Well i got asked to tell a little more about my self. I'm a soon to be married woman. I have a great guy in my life, I could not ask for more. I have a great little boy. Not real little he is 9 almost 10. My life he is. I work as a CNA and have for the last 10 years. About to start working working with mental ill people. Which i like to do a lot. There is a little biut more about me.

Italian And English
denunciato Anche. la gente ha un grande rapporto con quello che allineare amano. Come potete fidarti di quella persona con il vostro cuore. Sapendo che forse l'un giorno sarà rotto. Il mio tema è. Y fa strappare a qualcuno il vostro cuore nei peaces quando vostro tring per conservare un rapporto ma non lasciato che la persona glie l'prende? Ho tante domande. Ma non abbastanza risposta per rispondere a quelle domande che la I, personaly vuole ha chiesto. Conoscere la mia persona che sono inlove con sta andando sempre amarlo ed essere là ma che cosa circa le mie sensibilità circa determinate situazioni. Che genere di persona è l'amore della persona i? Dose allineare lo ama? Queste domande sono qualcosa che prenda in considerazione. Il mio cuore è una bomba a orologeria e vuole la ferita di u esso. Lo danneggiate che e non sta andando essere riparato da voi o è esso che va essere sostituito con me che sono con voi. troverò qualcuno che resepct me n lo ami. Sapendo che tutto io lo ha giù

Ultimate Girlfriend Application
SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THIS BACK TO YOU! EVEN IF YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND- REPOST THIS! GIRLS TITLE IT "ULTIMATE BOYFRIEND APPLICATION" BOYS TITLE IT "ULTIMATE GIRLFRIEND APPLICATION" 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Eye/Hair color: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 11.Would you walk on the beach with me? and then take advantage of me? 12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 13. Do you/have you talked junk about me? 14. Do you think I'm a good person? 15. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)? 16. Would you let anything happen in that bed? 17.Do you think I'm hott? 18. If you

8 Down, 6 To Go
8 written chapters complete in writing my book. 6 more chapters to go. I'm fucking thrilled. I know you're thinking "What the fuck is he going on about?" and wondering "Book? What book?". I'm writing a book about my life. It's been an ongoing process since July 2004. And it's finally getting close to the end. At least the skeleton of it is. I still have a few more things to do to fully complete it before I can shop it around to publishers.

When All Else Fails
Ok at first I wasn't surprised that Steve got pneumonia. What's the point. I know he's bound to get it at least once a year (which as I was told he was susceptible to it as he has been for a very long time) and so Friday night I was beginning to realize that he was in fact coming down with it. We had our twin nieces graduation last Friday and I was saying we shouldn't go because he was sick. He kept saying it was a cold. But that night we got home then he starts running a temperature. So, Saturday came along and I had woke up with coughing and a sore throat (so much for wearing a dressy tank top for our nieces graduation to look nice) and so I knew I wasn't feeling up to doing a whole lot and he of course started burning up. By 5 pm he called his mother to come and take him to an urgent care clinic close to the house and she takes him and the diagnosis was as figured. So, that was not a lot of fun. I ended up sleeping alone for two nights until Sunday night and then again I didn't

On The Road Again
Hey all, I will probably be online sporadically for a spell as I am heading down to Boston tomorrow and gonna hang there for the summer while I take care of some business and do some other things like making a "pilgrimage" to Fenway Park

Where Are The Americans???
A Somali arrives in Minneapolis as a new immigrant to the United States. He stops the first person he sees walking down the street and says, "Thank you Mr. American for letting me in this country, giving me housing, food stamps, free medical care, and free education!" The passerby says, "You are mistaken, I am Mexican." The man goes on and encounters another passerby "Thank you for having such a beautiful country here in America!" The person says, "I not American, I Vietnamese." The new arrival walks further, and the next person he sees he stops, shakes his hand and says, "Thank you for the wonderful America!" That person puts up his hand and says, "I am from Middle East, I am not American!" He finally sees a nice lady and asks, "Are you an American?" She says, "No, I am from Russia!" Puzzled, he asks her, "Where are all the Americans?" The Russian lady checks her watch and says..."Probably at work."

Trust
It's easier to never try then to try at all my heart wont break and I wont fall I love you so much you say you like me but together is something I fear we'll never be I wonder if it's worth the pain I wonder what I will gain I'd give you anything to make you smile to make you love me for just a while We haven't known each other for very long how could much have gone wrong I broke my rule I fell for you something I said I would never do I want to show you you can trust me cause honestly together is what I want us to be But that can't happen cause you can't trust maybe this love is really just lust So to tell you this I really love you trust me or not that's the truth

I Wish
i wish to fined my true love,i am feeling fo lonley,not being held at night makeing love till the sun rises,holding hand ,kissing..how do i stop the raceing thoughts of being lonley feeling a trace of love i would be happy,some men are scared to committe and that is understandable but you have to take a risk sometime or you will grow old with out knowing what it feels like to be loved

Uber Me Please ..lol
YEPP YEPP I'M PIMPIN MYSELF FOR MY BIRTHDAY !! I WANNA HIT LEVEL UBER CHERRY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY ON MAY 30TH ! RIGHT NOW I NEED 80,076 ! SO IF U CAN HELP JUST A LIL I WOULD A APPRECIATE IT SO KINDLY ! I HAVE GREAT FAM,FRIENDS,AND FANZ I THINK I CAN DO IT. U THINK ? ALSO ADDED TO NEW FOLDER "MAY 2007" AND A BUNCH TO "ABOUT ME "! XOXOXO.. BIG THANK YOU TO THOSE THAT HAVE BEEN HELPING ALREADY !! ¢¾BossLadywitdaSeXxXyEyez¢¾MY BIRTHDAY IS SOON !! WOOT WOOT@ CherryTAP

Breast Pathology
Breast Pathology 1. Describe the causative factors and potential complications of acute mastitis. Zen Seeker, Stevens and Lowe 421 Infections of the breast are associated with lactation, the organisms (commonly Staph aureus and Strep) gaining access through cracks and fissure in the nipple and areola. The initial infection causes an acute mastitis, with painful tender enlargement of the breast, which generally resolves after treatment with appropriate antibiotics. Without antibiotic therapy, bacterial mastitis is often followed by the development of a breast abscess, which may require surgical drainage Chronic inflammation of the breast is rare, but may develop after incomplete resolution of an acute mastitis. Tuberculous mastitis may occur, but is uncommon in western countries Raylene L S&L 421 Acute mastitis – infection of the breast, usually Staph aureus and strep, which gain access through cracks in the nipple an areola. Causes painful enlargeme

If Ever You Need Me
If ever you need me, I'll be right here, To chase away the sadness, And wipe away a tear. If ever you need me, I'll be two steps behind, To follow in your footsteps, And hear what's on your mind. If ever you need me, You'll never have to fear, That your presence isn't important, And your love isn't dear. If ever you need me, I'll always be around, To bring back the laughter, Where deep in your heart it's found. You'll never have to worry, For I'll always be here, To chase away the sadness, And wipe away a tear.

I'm Gonna Miss The Grumpy Old Git....
I am doing already.... there's an empty corner in my living room and a hole in my heart. Hemangiosarcoma, I'd heard about it but never really paid much attention. It now has my full attention. And yeah I'm totally getting that 'Silent killer' bit.... Scarbatton Totem Dancer at Ambii BS CL1 15th July 1998 - 23rd May 2007 I can't find the words right now. Just know that I loved you old boy....

Moving
To my friends I'm not going to be on ct for a few days.....I'm moving hope to be back on in a few days!!!!!!! I got this Sexy Comment from CommentsDump.com! I got this Sexy Comment from CommentsDump.com! SEE YA SOON !!!!!!

Long Blog People. All About The Vacation
Okay, I am going to admit to my laziness. I wrote this as a three part blog on another site. I copied and pasted. So do your best kids, and enjoy Okay, for starters, if you are coming here to listen/read about my usual bitching about the general stupidity of people, you might be a little disappointed. For starters, it was a long weekend. I left town Wed Morning. We started off with playing a newer golf course just south of Madison. It is called Burgamount(or somewhat spelled like that) I am thankful that the company was great. Cause the golf SUCKED. Nice course and all. I just played like shit. I am guessing I didn't want Matt to feel too bad. LOL We continued on the journey, making a short stop(well should had been) at My Moms. But my nephew broke his bike, so I would up driving in circles until I found him. Gave him a ride out to the house. Then we get to Hazel Green area of Wisconsin. This is where Tina(the bride, Now Troys wife) Grew up. Stopped at her parents house

I Am Truly Sorry.....
for those who have helped me level before and i havent shown the love back!! I am really sorry! It was not intentional!! PLEASE PLEASE leave me a private message telling me u have helped me level before or now and I WILL return the love!! Again i am very sorry and extremely embarrassed about it....

Do Women Wear The Wrong Size Shoes???
I say what i mean and mean what i say or i dont bother to say iti am NOT gay! Do women wear the wrong size shoes??? BY: F. SEAN Hello, I am a straight male that was born in 1975. When I go out I tend to watch the people around me. I do like to watch females more then I like watching males. I guess that is natural. Over the years I have come to notice a few things about Women. As I watched these many females, I noticed a pattern of sorts. I wondered “Do women wear the wrong size shoes???” The only answer I could come up with was “Yes, many many women wear the wrong size shoes.” Now, you might be thinking to yourself… “Well, I wear the right size, don’t I?” Here is how to tell.... I am of the theory that most women buy the wrong size shoes, especially in open toe styles. So to know it fits right... your heels should never hang off the back, your toes should never hang off on the sides or be squished together, never ever should your toe

To Smoke Or Not To Smoke
It's so hard to believe in this country we're being told for us what's bad and what isn't. A plant, for example, can get you thrown in jail, and in some countries, the transportation of it can get you the death sentence. I'll write more later.. too fucking tired

I Was Reminded
As we lay there quiet I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you Your smile, and the way it teased at me seductively Your laugh, and the way it tempted me Your eyes, and the way they seem to hypnotize me As we sat there silent I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you Your smile, and the way it brings such life into me Your laugh, and the way it makes everything okay Your eyes, and the way they seem to read my thoughts As we stand here now I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you Your smile, and the way it confuses me Your laugh, and the way it seems to mock me Your eyes, and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

Why A Boy Loves A Girl
1. They will always smell good even if it's just shampoo. 2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder. 3. How cute they look when they sleep. 4. The ease in which they fit into our arms. 5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world. 6. How cute they are when they eat. 7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while. 8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside. 9. The way they look good no matter what they wear. 10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful girl on this earth. 11. How cute they are when they argue. 12. The way her hand always finds yours. 13. The way they smile. 14. The way you feel when you see their name on the your cell after you just had a big fight. 15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" - even though you know that an hour

Rant About The First Amendment
Right now I believe I'm being tested. So are you. Is it right that a government can send our friends and family to some God forsaken hell hole but I can't write the word fuck in a newspaper editorial to be seen. I'm not saying the word in a context to which a child might see it, and if they do just so happen to see this word they should know what it is and respect it. Not just let it loose in a flurry of obscenity. Words are undefinable that way, and they're just not that effective. You see, we're human beings, and we've been put here for a reason. Some are to undermined the capacity of thought for other people. You're being told to shut up and you are. Good monkey. Now, go buy something and say to yourself, "The United States is a land of freedom." I've also heard the phrase, speaking of freedom, "Freedom isn't free." Well, if it isn't free, it isn't freedom now is it? Don Imus, don't really know the man, lost his job over his use of the phrase "nappy-headed hos" that was directed t

Short Story
"Whoever owns that photograph," the old man said shuffling by, "is said to be haunted by the spirits." Greg just smiled at this, looking down at the photograph. It was a black and white picture taken maybe fifty or sixty years ago of an old cemetery. The junk shop the old man owned on the side of the road had all kinds of cool stuff in it, but there was something more to this picture. "Where was this place?" Greg asked the old man. All the old man did was smile, "Tell you what..you can have it, as long as you burn it after.." He stops himself and lets out a small laugh and coughs while walking into the back part of the shop. Looking back down at the picture, Greg feels a cold chill. "Thanks for the picture," he says and walks out to his car. He sits the picture next to him in the car and for some reason he can't keep his eyes off of it. Suddenly, his cell phone rings, startling him. Smiling at himself, he answers it. "Hello baby," he says to his girlfriend. "How's your trip?" she ask

The Real Ten Commandments
The Real Ten Commandments By Richard Carrier http://www.infidels.org I keep hearing this chant, variously phrased: "The Ten Commandments are the foundation of Western morality and the American Constitution and government." In saying this, people are essentially crediting Moses with the invention of ethics, democracy and civil rights, a claim that is of course absurd. But its absurdity is eclipsed by its injustice, for there is another lawmaker who is far more important to us, whose ideas and actions lie far more at the foundation of American government, and whose own Ten Commandments were distributed at large and influencing the greatest civilizations of the West--Greece and Rome--for well over half a millennia before the laws of Moses were anything near a universal social influence. In fact, by the time the Ten Commandments of Moses had any real chance of being the foundation of anything in Western society, democracy and civil rights had all but died out, never to rise again unti

Small Town Liveing
You know you live(d) in a hick town when... 1) You can name everyone you graduated with. 2) You know what FFA means. 3) You went to parties at a pasture, barn, gravel pit, or in the middle of a dirt road. On Monday you could always tell who was at the party because of the scratches on their legs from running through the woods when the party was busted. (See #6.) 4) You used to "drag" Main . 5) You said the "F" word and your parents knew within the hour. 6) You scheduled parties around the schedules of different police officers, because you knew which ones would bust you and which ones wouldn't. 7) You could never buy cigarettes because all the store clerks knew how old you were (and if you were old enough, they'd tell your parents anyhow.) 8) When you did find somebody old enough and brave enough

Confessions-
1. I got cut off after one drink in a bar last Monday for kissing a girl.. I guess it was still too early for that. No I wasn't drunk- she was just hawt. lol! 2. My new favorite hang out is a gay bar I stumbled into after getting cut off at above said bar. I wound up drinking a bottle of jack to my head and stumbled home at 11. Yeah I wound up showing all these gay guys my piercings- but it was a blast. 3. I don't remember much of the walk home- nor of the conversation that took place on the phone with umm my uhh friend after that. lol 4. Im not much of a JD person- I prefer Jameson's- but I was pretty impressed that I didn't throw up :P 5. I thought of a great joke today- but I blew him before I caught his name. 6. that was a joke. 7. I'm pretty kinky. Most of the time. Yeah like you couldn't guess. Hah! 8. I'm not much of a romantic even though I'm a helpless lovelorn poet lol. 9. I'm trying to learn how to write erotica. 10. I was craving somethi

Talking About The Videos
I know I seem to be on a roll here. I am not a freek that is freeking out on this subject. I am just a Humane Officer that needed to vent. I can't show any feelings out there. But I guess that I can break down here. When I am in the field I have to keep my cool. I have to act like it does not bother me. When I would love to just beat the ever loving fucking shit out of the sons of bitches. OK I am done.

Pierced Nose
So yeah I got bored, went through our piercing supply and my old medical supply that wasn't used. Got all sterile and POP! Pierced my right nostril. It is about maaaaaaaaaaybe 1/4cm off of where I wanted but considering I am just going to get a 14gauge nose ring or nose screw in June, no biggie, you can't tell a difference. All I had was a 14g captive bead ring. It looks okay but I still prefer the studs overall. Maybe something purple jeweled. Anyway... here is my nose.... after an hour since I pierced it... all I can say is.. OW.. now it hurts. Yes I think there is a little dried blood on my lip. Crap I never bled that much before when piercing myself. Sorry for the 'gore'. Man I look like crap tonight. Love, TF

A Daughter
A daughter is beauty at its finest. Heart of an angel, soul so pure, and sweet. Daughters are one of God's most precious gifts that he has bestowed upon the world. Angels in Heaven do not compare to thine beauty, and grace my ever so beautiful, and lovely daughter. Seeing you at birth brought more joy to me than all the money in the world could ever do. You are morning, bright, and shining, you are noon, you reside at the highest point in my heart, you are the dew kissed night. You are my daughter, heart, and soul.

One Wish!!! Hahahahahaha!!!!!!!
Subject: One Wish A man was riding his Harley along a California beach When suddenly the sky clouded above his head and, in a Booming voice, the Lord said, "Because you have TRIED To be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant you one Wish." The biker pulled over and said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I can ride over anytime I want." The Lord said, " Your request is materialistic, think Of the enormous challenges for that kind of Undertaking; the supports required to reach the bottom Of the Pacific and the concrete and steel it would Take..! It will nearly exhaust several natural Resources. I can do it, but it is hard for me to Justify your desire for worldly things. Take a little More time and think of so mething that could possibly Help mankind." The biker thought about it for a long time. Finally, He said, "Lord, I wish that I and all men could Understand our wives..; I want to know how she feels Inside.., what she's thinking when she gives me the

Boy On The Beach
Boy On The Beach A mother and father take their 6-year old son to a nude beach in Miami . As the boy walks along the sand, he notices that many of the women have boobs bigger than his mother's, so he goes back to ask her why. She tells her son, "The bigger they are, the sillier the lady is." The boy, pleased with the answer, goes to play in the ocean but returns to tell his mother that many of the men have larger things than his dad does. She replies, "The bigger THEY are, the dumber the man is." Again satisfied with her answer, the boy goes back to the ocean to play. Shortly thereafter, the boy returns again, and promptly tells his mother: "Daddy is talking to the silliest lady on the beach, and the long er he talks, the dumber he gets."

Where Would U Be??
>WHERE WOULD YOU BE: > > >IF - YOU HAD ALL THE MONEY YOUR HEART DESIRES? > > >IF - YOU HAD NO WORRIES? > > >IF - YOU CAME HOME AND THE FINEST MEAL IS AWAITING YOU > >IF - YOUR BATHWATER HAD BEEN RUN? > > >IF - YOU HAD THE PERFECT KIDS? > > >IF - YOUR PARTNER WAS AWAITING YOU, > WITH OPEN ARMS AND KISSES? > > >SO, WHERE WOULD YOU BE? > > > > >HELLOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! > > >YOU'D BE IN THE WRONG FUCKING HOUSE

Looking For A Girlfriend For Hot Sex!
I am looking for a girlfriend for some hot sex! Also if we really get along and click, I am looking for a girlfriend for a long term relationship! So if there are any females from PA, preferably Lehigh Valley area or close by..let me a message!! Hugs and Kisses Kelly

The Wedding Dress......this Is Just Wrong!!!
A Son asked his mother the following question: "Mum, why are wedding dresses white?" The mother looks at her son and replies, "Son, this is an old old tradition and it signifies to all your friends and relatives that your bride is pure." The son thanks his Mum and goes off to double-check this with his father. "Dad why are wedding dresses white?" The father looks at his son in surprise and says, "Son, all household appliances come in white."

Only 8,314 Pts Before I Level!!
Please Help Me!! If u havent rated my pics or stashes please rate them!! If u have rated my pics and/or stashes leave me a private message and i will return the favor!! Thanks everybody!! Have a great night!!

The Cop
>While she was "flying" down the road yesterday, a woman >passed over a bridge only to find a cop with a radar gun on >the other side lying in wait. > >The cop pulled her over, walked up to the car, with that >classic patronizing smirk we all know and love, asked, >"What's your hurry?" > >To which she replied, "I'm late for work." > >"Oh yeah," said the cop, "what do you do?" > >I'm a rectum stretcher," she responded. > >The cop stammered, "A what?............ > > >A rectum stretcher? > > >And just what does a rectum stretcher do?" > >"Well," she said, "I start by inserting one finger, then >work my way up to two fingers, then three, then four, then >with my whole hand in. I work from side to side until I can >get both hands in, and then I slowly but surely stretch it, >until it's about 6 feet wide." > >"And just what the hell do you do with a 6 foot asshole?" he >asked > >"You give him a radar gun and park him behind a bridge..." > >Traffic Ticket $95.

Omg
I'm bearing myself on webcam and no one wants to see it.let's me know who I really am. Plus, i signed up for another ten weeks with my personal trainer. And since shoe gets to make up the program she's killing me. in total on yhe weight loss I lost 15 pounds and 15 inches.

This Broken Man.......
I havn't been on much i know i just disapeared to all you i'm sorry im ina slump ive taken so much from you all im full im breaking down ive been keeping myself away from you all so i dont let you see how weak an frail i am at the moment im sorry i just dont feel strong right now dunno when i'll be myself again so im sorry if i dont answer phone calls txts or emails or any other type of messages im just trying to keep myself together....and apprently ive fucked up an im falling apart im just no myself i cant focuz i cant do anything right... i feel im not living up to my end of the promise ive made you all secretly im sorry i im just not me right now......yes i drank an got wasted yesterday but i felt even worse it sped up my decay, i wake up every morning look at my face in the mirror an want to break the reflection is this the man ive become why is it that i suffer why is it i i just cant be me...i do so much yet im not strong enough to take it all in i help an help where is the

Warped & Twisted
Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped & twisted

The Greatest Cereal Of All Time: Round Iv
The Greatest Cereal of All Time: Round IV Honey Nut Cheerios Vs. Fosted Mini Wheats [ Click Here to Place Your Vote! ] There is still three hours left to vote on round three. Don't worry, if your favorite ceral has not made it into the voting just yet. Just wright down your requests and maybe they will make it in Round V.

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Online right noW! webcam! I don't know how to automaticallay work so i guess you have to add me to hotmail msn to make it work. it you know how to let me make it work on the INTERNET WIthOUT HAVING TO Make a witout let me know. hahhahaha I had caps lock on

Poem 5
This one is called Only Time Will Tell. I wrote it during a difficult time of my life so you may find it a little depressing. As I sit in my darkest moment I think and I wonder What has happened to my one life's thunder How have I gotten to this lowly place Without emotion on my face Just a plain drawn out look Like a withered up old book Will it ever get better I ask myself Or is my life already on the shelf Why must I sit and slowly grow mad Can my life really be this bad I find myself dwelling on what I could of had And it makes my lonely heart grow sad Has the road I have taken Been right or wrong I guess only time will tell I say it will get better as time proceeds That is something I will just have to believe My life is not over It has only begun The war is not over Though some battles are won I will push on I say to myself Take my life one day at a time Now I sit back and find My tension slowly start to unwind Hey my life is fine I must

People Kinda Suck...
I was thinking today, and although I already knew it, it still pisses me off. The human race in general sucks and I pretty much have no friends that are decent. People never do what they say they are going to do and you know what I have to say about it? Fuck 'em! I'm over trying to be friends with people who put no effort into being friends with me. So fuck them all!!!

Please Support These Causes!
1. The June Christine Lembo Foundation is a registered 501(c)(3) non- profit organization. All donations are dedicated to raising awareness of Lam and funding research. It is essential to raise awareness in both the medical/scientific as well as the lay communities in order to encourage the interest required to further research. E.I.N.# 03-0613422. HOPE4 LAM on MYSPACE From June Lembo: My name is June. I'm 35 years old and I was recently diagnosed with a rare,progressive,fatal lung disease I had never ever heard of. in fact, not many people have. In September of 2006 After a catscan of my chest I was diagnosed with the beginning of Emphesema.It was misdiagnosed as it often is. The disease I have is called Lymphangioleiomyomatosis "Lam" and as of yet there is no cure Lymphangioleiomyomatosis is pronounced lim-fan-gee-o-ly-o-my-o-ma-to-sis. "Lymph" and "angio" refer to the lymph and blood vessels, respectively. "Leiomy" means smooth muscle, and "oma" is a tumor. The last part

A Lil Love Letter To Those Who Suck
For those who like to play mind games. Those who like to manipulate. Those who like to pick up the strings tied to our heads and shoulders and use us as everyday puppets. Fuck you all. Burn in no other place than Hell. Hope the best for you all, only for the best to be taken away at your highest happiest moment. And youre left with nothing. Nothing at all. So that you are left alone and you wither away and collapse like a building during an earthquake. You all will reap what you sow. Whats done is done, and you WILL hear from your maker when the time comes for you to be judged. Payback is one sweet sweet motherfucker. Tis all.

Part 1-3
I've been in love but nothing like this, I've had feelings for girls, but nothing like this. Every time we held hands I would break down. I felt that our relationship was special, that it would never end. What came to me next was the words that hurt worse than a thousands bullets, the words that it’s over, this happened to soon. I felt that I would rather be shot in the head, but that wouldn't have solved anything. Girl I gave you my love, and what you did was throw my heart to the floor. The problem was figuring out what I did wrong and it seemed that you believed I was your father, before we started going out I thought I proved to you that I would never hurt you in any way, but longer we went out that never seemed to get to your ass. You have got jealous over some bull shit. I had friends that were girls before we were a couple and they will remain my friend when it’s over. every day I tried to prove that I loved you, but that never happened you only cared that I was happy, b

Part 21
Hollowing the Heart of True Love Well it all over you proved that you didn't really love me as I did you. Ending our relationship was your idea and not ours. As of now I don't care what you do, what you say or anything else. You were not being a real person by breaking up with me through a email. That’s one of the lowest things anyone could do. Just thinking about what you said didn't make sense. I never disrespected you in anyway until now. I thought we had something this time around, but I guess I was wrong. I tried to be the man you always wanted me to be, as I changed the way I acted just to be with you, I ended relationships with my friend so you wouldn't get any ideas. For disrupting my life you caused my heart to grow cold once more. As I thought me search was over it seemed it never really ended. As of being a third time well there won't be. I proved that I loved you every day, as I only pleased you enough to stay with me and not truly love me as your partner. So as

Girls Girls Girls
Dear readers: So many of my male friends have asked me to share some of my secrets wondering how or why I am so popular with Ladies. So I decided to give all my guys friends reading my newsletters some tips on how to respectfully and intelligently deal with women. Of course now and then I receive emails from guys (and girls) wondering about my image because of all the pretty people exposed on Myspace siteClick here Some concerned people are judging me harshly and "assume" all sorts of things that are so far from reality. Some wrote to me saying "Well Dr. Turi is you don't take all those girls down from your sites people will think you are a playboy and not exactly ready for a serious relationship" but to all of them I say; "I was happily married for 13 years with Brigitte and I have what it takes to be in a solid relationship and love, respect and honor my mate". First realize that being highly spiritual does not mean not having fun and appreciate friends, beauty and all the

Dj Schedule
Alright all you WP Djs... I'm startin a schedule and I NEED TO KNOE ASAP which days and times you are available for so I can work out something that everyone is happy wif and can commit too..for starters... Give me ur dates and times ur available for just tis week and we will proceed like so on n forth in the future..every sunday I will ask u to update me again for the rest of the week. Thanks lovies!!!

5-24-07
Just sitting here. Crazy jazz blues, Swing funk mix playing in my ears. Wishing for a waterfall. On rush of rain, the energy revealed. I remebered how you watched me drown. Smile curves my lips then disappears. I've grown wiser through the years. I pray for your hand to reach out. Cause I've been wanting to tell you, Tell you what an ass you've been. Reach out to me. I will lift you up. Yes I will lift you up then watch you fall. I crave to see you crumble. How does it feel now? How do like this switch thats a blade in your side? Tell me does it hurt? Is your breath taken away gratefully, Then hatefully given to you again. I've been wanting to show you. That I learned from the best. Do you see it now that my foot is on your breast? How do you feel now.... Does hatred seeth within? Hatred cause your broken forgotten rag doll, Has come back for revenge? 5-24-07

Tomorrow Is Last Day Of School, And Some Websites I Like
Hi all, Tomorrow, Thursday, May 24th is the last day of school for my boys! Wow it has definitely flown by. I just can't believe that after tomorrow they will be out for the summer. I finally got some of my chores around here done, been a crazy week and it's not even over! I just found this really cool website for players on pogo.com who love it as much as i do, it's called Mypogospot.com! You need to check it out if you love to play on pogo.com, or just meet other players from pogo. It reminds me alot of myspace! Also I have an account with Classmates.com to find old high school friends and all, and I couldn't believe who signed my guestbook on there. My very first boyfriend from like middle school!!! I was totally shocked to hear from him, I haven't seen him since he graduated a yr before me. I was originally supposed to graduate a yr before i did, but I was held back in 4th grade. I went to half of the year 5th grade, and wasn't ready, so they sent me back to 4th! I was definitely p

For My Love
There is only one woman in my life and she knows who she is. She is my poetry . I SEE YOU LOOKING AT ME Love is a strange and beautiful thing, It spans time and space, distance is no object to love. You will wait forever for the one you love, Travel wherever you need to be with them. When you are in the arms of the one you love, That love can make a moment last a lifetime, Yet make a lifetime seem no more than a moment. When love is distant it grows strong, When it returns it flowers. People crave it, strive for it, fight for it, and die for it, And when they find it, they know they are complete. For in the arms of the one we love is wholeness, Belief, completeness, passion, and security. The one we love is someone for whom we would do anything, And never ask for anything in return. It produces a love of all that person is and will ever be, Regardless of what that may mean to me. Love knows that when you are away, That you are still loved, cherished, tho

She Is Finally A "mom'
My older sister had always wanted children. Due to her ex husband and his physical abuse, she was became barren. A week and a half ago, my youngest sister who has two or should I say had, two sons, decided that she no longer wanted to be a mom. Men and partying became her top priorities in life. My mother adopted the oldest of the two, but did not want the youngest. My older sis { I love her dearly} took the youngest in. This past Monday, she went to court and adopted P.J. She is finally a mom and P.J. will have a better chance in life. He is already quite spoiled, but that is alright! The look on my sister's face was priceless when the judge announced that he was now her's and no one could ever take him away from her. Even though it has only been just a few days, I can tel a big and needed change in her. This weekend I am giving a surprise party for them. lol, ok I just wanted to share this with my friends.

Beaten And Broken.
Beaten and broken, I carry on. Live my life to the best of my ability. With all the hurt and instability. I once called home. I've never felt so alone. Beaten and broken, I carry on. At one time a hardass. Turns out I have a heart made of glass. So afraid to give it away again. I don't know if I can. Beaten and broken, I carry on. But I will do it again, and again. I desperately want to regain, What I lost, I've never felt so connected. Lost focus on the road, and I wrecked it. Beaten and broken, I carry on. No one will ever have a higher place in my heart. Than the one, who turned my darkness into a colorful work of art. I will always love her, more than anyone else could. I will be here for her like a best friend should. Beaten and broken, I carry on. Keep my heart silent. Drown the hurt, too violent. Fill the void with faces, And all the empty spaces. Beaten and broken, I carry on. I am happy with where I am at. We are still b

Just Me
I was once crying over you Then I was trying to forget you Just when I thought I had achieved that goal Now you walked back into my life And confused the hell out of me Can i learn to forgive and forget? Are we meant to love again ? Or doomed to repeat this pattern of unfullfilled hopes and dreams ?

Russo: Ron Paul Should Attack Giuliani In Next Debate
Film maker and former presidential candidate advises Texas Congressman to target former New York Mayor Prison Planet | May 23, 2007 Paul Joseph Watson Film maker and former presidential candidate Aaron Russo has a simple piece of advice for Ron Paul should he wish to continue the amazing momentum that the Texas Congressman's campaign has built up over the last few weeks - attack Rudy Giuliani. Russo, producer of the hugely popular documentary America: From Freedom to Fascism , is currently battling against cancer and used his extensive experience of political campaigning and knowledge of how the media operates to advise the Texas Congressman on his strategy for the next debate, which is to be held on August 5th. "I spoke to Ron and I think what Ron has to do right now is go after Rudy Giuliani," Russo told the Alex Jones Show. "I think the way the press played what happened in the last debate is that they made it out to be as if Ron Paul gave Rudy Giuliani the election

Bush: Bin Laden Tried To Start Iraq Unit
Deb Riechmann / AP | May 23, 2007 NEW LONDON, Conn. - President Bush, stressing that Americans face an ongoing threat from terrorists, shared intelligence on Wednesday asserting that Osama bin Laden was working in 2005 to set up a unit inside Iraq to hit U.S. targets. Much of the information Bush cited in a commencement address at the U.S. Coast Guard Academy described terrorism plots already revealed, but he fleshed out details and highlighted U.S. successes in foiling planned attacks since the Sept. 11, 2001 attacks. "In the minds of al-Qaida leaders, 9-11 was just a downpayment on violence yet to come," Bush said on a bright, sunny day at the U.S. Coast Guard Academy commencement, held at a stadium along the Thames River. "It is tempting to believe that the calm here at home after 9-11 means that the danger to our country has passed." "The danger has not passed. Here in America, we are living in the eye of a storm," he said, depicting the struggle in Iraq as a battle be

Nine Us Military Ships Enter Persian Gulf Wednesday, Assembling Off Iran’s Coast In Largest American Naval Move Since 2003
Debka File Wednesday, May 23, 2007 They sailed through the Strait of Hormuz by day - according to US Navy officials for training exercises. The vessels carry around 17,000 combat and marine personnel. They include the two aircraft carriers, USS Nimitz and USS Stennis, as well as the USS Bonhomme Richard LHD 6 Group, the world’s biggest amphibious strike force. Iran was not notified of the planned arrival. DEBKAfile reports the maneuvers take place less than two weeks after Vice President Dick Cheney visited the region and informed Saudi King Abdullah and fellow Gulf rulers that President George W. Bush has determined that if Iran refuses to waive a nuclear weapon capability, the US will attack its nuclear, military and economic infrastructure before he leaves the White House in Jan. 2009. (This was first disclosed in DEBKA-Net-Weekly 300 on May 11.) Our sources also note that the US armada sailed into the Gulf on the day the latest UN Security Council ultimatum expired for

New Al Ciada Tapes Feature U.s. Capitol Under 'attack'
Rhonda Schwartz ABC News Wednesday, May 23, 2007 FLASHBACK: U.S. Government Caught Red-Handed Releasing Staged Al-Qaeda Videos Al Qaeda has a new opening graphic for its propaganda tapes: the U.S. Capitol under "attack." "The Islamic State of Iraq...March Toward Washington" reads the headline in English superimposed over a digitally created scene of the U.S. Capitol under attack in the introductory sequence of one tape released on the Internet this week. Another from al Qaeda's "as Sahab" production arm announces "Holocaust of the Americans in the Land of Khorasan" and shows an image of the U.S. Capitol to introduce a short clip of al Qaeda fighters. "This is a disturbing new trend," says Laura Mansfield, an Arabic expert who monitors jihadi videos on the Internet. "Recall that in January 2006, Osama Bin Laden said that plans for attacks in the U.S. were in progress," Mansfield told the Blotter on ABCNews.com. "It may be that this new imagery is designed to motivate

Check This Joke.
A young woman asks her mother, "Mom, how many kind of penises are there?" The mother, surprised, answers, "Well, daughter, a man goes through three phases. In a man's twenties, a man's penis is like an oak, mighty and hard. In his thirties and forties, it is like a birch, flexible but reliable. After his fifties, it is like a Christmas tree." "A Christmas tree?" "Yes, dried up and the balls are there for decoration only."

I Love My Boyfriend John
Hey everyone hows it going well i am so in love with my boyfriend john he is such an amazing person he makes me so proud everyday he i just want him to know that he is never ever gonna lose me and that is my promise and my word and i will never ever break it i'm his forever and ever for life he is my world my everything and my life and i thank god everynight that i have him in my life and that i'm with him i am so madly in love with him and nothing is gonna stop me no lies no nothing i'm always gonna love john no matter what lies ahead he is such a sweetheart john means so much to me I'm so glad I'm never ever gonna lose him and he will never ever lose me john is such a loving loyal caring person and i'm so lucky and glad to have him and like i said i thank god that he gave john to me i love you with all of my heart john and i always will no matter what and you will never ever lose me john i'm yours forever and ever and that is a promise and my word xoxoxo

U.s. Government Caught Red-handed Releasing Staged Al-qaeda Videos
Immediate Congressional investigation demanded, media oversight of clear and deliberate psychological warfare against American population non-existent Paul Joseph Watson/Prison Planet.com | October 5 2006 Revelations that the US government had been in possession of footage released on Sunday depicting alleged Al-Qaeda hijackers and Osama Bin Laden since 2001 and evidence that the footage itself was filmed by security agencies, went unquestioned by the media - who blindly towed the official line that the tape was released by Al-Qaeda. This is smoking gun proof that the U.S. government is staging the release of alleged Al-Qaeda tapes and it demands an immediate Congressional investigation. Segments of the video that were interspersed with footage of the "laughing hijackers," Jarrah and Atta, showing Bin Laden giving a speech to an audience in Afghanistan on January 8 2000, were culled from what terror experts describe as surveillance footage taken by a "security agency." This

This Ought To Upset Everybody:
How They Vote in the United Nations: Below are the actual voting records of various Arabic/Islamic States which are recorded in both the US State Department and United Nations records: Kuwait votes against the United States 67% of the time Qatar votes against the United States 67% of the time Morocco votes against the United States 70% of the time United Arab Emirates votes against the U.S. 70% of the time. Jordan votes against the United States 71% of the time. Tunisia votes against the United States 71% of the time. Saudi Arabia votes against the United States 73% of the time. Yemen votes against the United States 74% of the time. Algeria votes against the United States 74% of the time. Oman votes against the United States 74% of the time. Sudan votes against the United States 75% of the time. Pakistan votes against the United States 75% of the time. Libya votes against the United States 76% of the time. Egypt votes again

Bush Re-authorizes Martial Law Provisions
Americans have officially been living under a dictatorship since at least 1933 Paul Joseph Watson, Steve Watson & Alex Jones Prison Planet Wednesday, May 23, 2007 President George W. Bush has sparked much alarm by openly declaring himself to be a dictator in the event of a national emergency under new provisions that will effectively nullify the U.S. constitution, but such an infrastructure has been in place for over 70 years and this merely represents a re-authorization of the infrastructure of martial law. New legislation signed on May 9, 2007, declares that in the event of a "catastrophic event", the President can take total control over the government and the country, bypassing all other levels of government at the state, federal, local, territorial and tribal levels, and thus ensuring total unprecedented dictatorial power. The National Security and Homeland Security Presidential Directive, which also places the Secretary of Homeland Security in charge of domestic

I Miss His Voice, I Miss Him So....
It dosn't have to be said who he is, he knows. He will always know. Despite knowing he knows not how much i truly do. It's a harsh blow to be apart from those you care about and I've reaized that. Its never easy not to get to say bye, not to get to talk how you really wanted to. Not to get to say those words you feel so he'd know. I just can't say it to him. It makes me sad. So now you know. I hope atleast a little. i say i dont need anyone to know my personal life when im living in the real world. Here i get to spill a little. So now you see im vulnerable. I have no shoulder to cry on. I am alienated by my choices of my career. Being a cop leaves a person with no shoulder to lean on, no shoulder to cry on, and no one to promise to be there for every day.

By Any Other Name, Amnesty Bill Still Stinks!
Chuck Baldwin Tuesday, May 22, 2007 One of Shakespeare's most oft-quoted phrases comes from Romeo and Juliet, where Juliet asks Romeo: "What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet." Accordingly, President Bush and Senate Majority Leader Harry Reid can call their immigration bill by any name they want to, but it is still amnesty, and it still stinks! Hopefully, readers are aware that the Bush/Kennedy amnesty bill is being debated in the U.S. Senate this week with both the White House and senate leaders hopeful of quick passage. If it passes, the proposed immigration bill would immediately give all 12-20 million illegal aliens already in the United States "probationary" citizenship. It would also put an estimated 60 million immigrants on the path to citizenship over the next 20 years. In exchange for granting U.S. citizenship to tens of millions of illegals, the bill promises to better protect America's borders. However, what is abundan

Poll: Public Wants Illegals To Go Home
Eagle Forum Wednesday May 23, 2007 WASHINGTON - New polling shows a strong preference for enforcing U.S. Immigration laws that cause illegal aliens to go home. Advocacy groups and even some media outlets have released surveys showing support for legalizing illegals. However, those polls often gave voters a very limited choice between large-scale deportations or "earned legalization," or simply asked about conditional legalization without any alternative. When given the across-the-board enforcement option, with the goal of causing illegals to go home, the public strongly favors the enforcement approach over legalization with conditions. Contrary to the new Senate bill, most Americans want less and not more immigration. When told the number of immigrants here and the number coming, 70 percent of voters said the level is too high, 19 percent said it is about right, and 5 percent said too low. * 75% of Republicans said immigration is too high, 5% said too low. * 69% o

Quote
Was going through some old stuff and I found this. Read it back in high school in a Holocaust class and made me think. It's very powerful. "First they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out - because I was not a socialist. Then they came for the trade-unionists, and I did not speak out - because I was not a trade-unionist. Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out - because I was not a Jew. Then they came for me - and there was no one left to speak for me." --Reverend Martin Niemöller

Random Thought
"Black then white are, all i see in my infancy. Red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me." Without you the colors pause and are to dark to see. Someone needs to hit play, or the image will be burned into the screen.

It's Official — Nafta Is A Treaty
Jim Capo JBS Wednesday, May 23, 2007 It must be true. The editors of the Washington Post would never lie to us would they? Yesterday, while whining over lawmakers in the U.S. House having the temerity to re-assert their Constitutional authority to "regulate trade with foreign nations," the pro-globalist editors of the Washington Post made it official that as far as their paper of record is concerned, NAFTA is a treaty. Post editors let their willful ignorance of the Constitution slip while they were explaining their disdain for the elected representatives of the people, who last week passed the Safe American Roads Act of 2007. The act effectively blocks Mexican trucking companies from having free access to all U.S. highways until they can verify that they are in compliance with all Federal regulations that have to be met by U.S. trucking companies. The act is in direct defiance of the already postponed timetable set out in NAFTA for opening up all U.S. roads to Mexican truc

What Not To Name Your Dog
Everybody who has a dog, calls him "Rover" or "Buddy"... I decided to call mine "Sex." Now Sex has been very embarrassing to me. When I went to City Hall to renew his dog license, I told the clerk I would like to have a license for Sex. He said, "I'd like to have one too." Then I said, "You don't understand, I've had Sex since I was nine years old." He said I must have been quite a kid. When I got married and went on my honeymoon, I took the dog with me. I told the motel clerk that I wanted a room for my wife and me, and a special room for Sex. He said that every room in the place was for sex. I said, "You don't understand, Sex keeps me awake at night." The clerk said, "Me too." One day I entered Sex in a contest, but before the competition began, the dog ran away. Another contestant asked me why I was just standing there looking around. I told him that I had planned to have Sex in the contest. He told me that I should have sold my own tickets. "But you don't understand," I

Always Remembering Fallen Brothers
Rollin threw this old hood makes me think of all of you. The days we all sat around talkin about what we'd all turn out to be. I never thought that we'd all end up like this. I never thought i'd stand here with out you all. I always thought we'd all grow up to be crazy old guys talkin bout how fun the past use to be. So with the days rollin by with memorial day right around the corner i want you all to know i never forgot any of you. I hate the fact i stand here and be the last of us. I wish it had been me insted of any of you, I know your all in a better place and you all smilin down sayin we're in a better place. But it dont change missin all you. I still got that picture of us all just hangin out in our group. No matter how many years go by i'll never take it down, no matter where i am what i do you'll all always be my boys. No worries one day we'll all hang out again i have faith that will be how it ends, So when these days go by. I'll smoke one for you, I

Another Night
Wounds never heal, as long as you try, but never again should you be able to cry. For just one second it goes away, but once again it tries to sway. I've always wondered what it felt like, just to lead a normal life. A life without stress or hurt or loss, yet one without love, for it is always lost. A thought or feeling of normal, pulled away by the truth of life. Always knowing your caught in the middle of a strife. I always wished to be loved, to be held and to be hugged, but now I find its overreated and so much easier to just be hated. I once loved I trusted and hugged but before long I was betrayed. and forevermore unable to trade. I tried to trust and love again but once I got close once more was I slayed. Even though the cuts have heale They still lay there beneith my sheild. In a sense I've survived only by knowing I must decide. I have ambitions and futures and hopes, and to prove my strength they shall never be revoked.

~justified~
I have a lot of anger... I feel it's justified. I wont take retaliation, I just want it rectified. You promised you'd be here for me. But then you turned your back. Was it just your other easy way out? Or was it backbone that you lacked. You made promise to another... On his grave. You said you'd watch over me. But in the end you sidestepped them away, To satify the powers that be. I hope you never need me. For I'll be here to the end. But remember when I turn my back... And you thought you had a friend.

My Awesome Birthday Present Ever!
Tonight I received probably the best birthday present ever!! My heart is still melted. =) My friend Dave Chlad, an acoustic musician just starting out, gave me a mini concert tonight for my birthday. He sang two songs...one was by Dave Mathews (which he sounds so much like it gave me chills)I think the name of it was Crash Into Me. I soooo loved that one!! The other one was great too but I wasn't familiar with the artist so I can't remember the name of it, sorry. Then at the end he sang a third song to me and my soon to be daughter-in-law Kathryn, making up the words as he went along, which he called...Two Angels. Needless to say I cried, yep...I'm such a tenderheart and that so turned me to mush. I've never had anyone do such a sweet thing for me in my life. =) Anyway, I had to share my awesome birthday present with everyone and I wanted to thank Dave and his wife Katie for being such wonderful friends. Dave, thanks for doing something so awesome for me. I love you sweetie, you

Last Call
Hello,Oh its you again callin me one last time Like im the perpetrater of some evil crime MmHmm Sure!!!Yeah Whatever!!! Its not like you did anything wrong never Mrs.Goody Two Shoes would never tell a lie You make me so sick to my stomach feels like im gonna die Pretending to be something your not Just go to hell and fucking rot Yeah ok YES!!! im still here, you still throwing a fit Ive told you before im not listening to this shit Hang Up Shut Up and call someone who cares Because from you bitch ive taken all i can bear

What To Say What To Say
what can you say when your family is cutting other family members off at the knee, do i say fuck you what comes comes. do i tell them to keep playing til they get theirs. one thing i will say is im glad my grandmas not here to see it. the things ive seen, the people burnt. are there friends and family in this life? not yours i guess. the things ive seen and the things youve done would make a best seller but you cant expect that from family. you have problems serrious problems, but thats ok you can move off and leave your kid, you have a chance to move on and start over somewhere else. were still fucking here you left your bullshit on our shoulders thanks a fucking lot we have to deal with your life we didnt take that on god i dont want to know you right now

My Internal Murderer
You took my everything, Tore my life. Don't ever touch me again. You said it was your castle and you were the king, With no one in sight you pull out a knife. You took my everything. Did you honestly feel nothing, When you cut me that blood stained slice? Don't ever touch me again. Trying to scare me with your threat as I began reclothing. Funny thing is, I saw you in the eyes of a lowlife. Don't ever touch me again. You were stupid to think I was you "plaything", But I was stupid to be your wife. You took my everything, Don't ever touch me again. All I Want The very thing I dreaded The very very one That someone could see through me and know what I have done I never stopped my habit The one that keeps me happy All others thought I did and continued to be sappy I want to live a normal life One without him there But only few do know that and not the ones who care You don't care what happens

A Poem -- The Essence Of True Love
True love is a sacred flame That burns eternally, And none can dim its special glow Or change its destiny. True love speaks in tender tones And hears with gentle ear, True love gives with open heart And true love conquers fear. True love makes no harsh demands It neither rules nor binds, And true love holds with gentle hands The hearts that it entwines. by Helen Steiner Rice :) ~~Spanky~~

Some People Piss Me Off
I'm really sick of people accusing me of shit that is none of their business or just really rude. I've dealt with quite a number of people. Who i thought were cool with me than all of a sudden are too busy to be on here. I have no idea what I do wrong. Why the fuck is your boyfriend coming on my page? why are you making me seem like someone who is harassing you when you ask me how I'm doing? i don't get it. if you got problems with your relationship..don't bring me into it. if we are friends cool but don't send me an email saying we can't be friends cause your boyfriend is angry. thats a load of shit.. I wouldn't be so angry if this just happened one time but this has happened at least 4 times to me. I have no idea what women want anymore.. nor do i want to care. all i want is to be happy.. i just someone to be there for me instead of me doing all the bullshit. it gets really tiring sometimes just keeping friends all my friends, as i've vented before, seem to chang

With Comments
Sorry, being such a low level here at CT, i guess has its drawbacks. Being new at all of this i dont know about all of these things. I set up a new account also so that i could bomb more then just with the one, i kept getting the message i had to wait. Well good thing that i did, because not only that reason, but i now found out that your number of comments are limited to your level. Well, with all that said, I have reached my level for the day with both accounts. I guess that the night will be spent working on leveling up then. I apologize and thank you all for the help you are all so wonderful!!!!

~evil Eyes~
I see it in your evil eyes. Their serpent slits so deep. I feel thje shudder in my bones... From the secrets that they keep. And as they stare down on me, The dominance that they vie... Sends a shiver down my bones And makes me want to die. They tell a tale of insolence. Of a destinied thats denied. Of a soul that's crucified. Of lifes and loves dispised. I see it in your evil eyes. I want to look away. I see it in your evil eyes... Where evil falls to play. Hating You Hating everything about you, In the mirror, in public, What should I do to you? Nothing as usual. I hate the way you look, It makes me ill, Confidence that you took, Just let me walk away as you stay still. I keeping coming back to the same old habit, The habit I hate more than you, Having to look at you every fucking day, I hate it. I hate you more than you know, I should cut with a razor, Giving more pleasure than you'd know, And thats the last

Beautiful Saying
"A building gets torched, all that is left is ashes. I used to think that was true about everything: families, friends, feelings....but now I know that sometimes if love proves real; two people are meant to be together...nothing can keep them apart.If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love it forever." Heard this in a music video I watched. It's from some movie, maybe Edward Scissorhands, not sure...if u know, u can let me know. I just thought it was pretty, though. :)

Just A Few Words
It's funny how this life can break you. Never knowing which direction it will take you. My life most days feels like a reaccuring nightmare. Leaving me shaking,broken and usually crying. I try so hard and it gets me nowhere. Asking myself repeatedily..why do I care? My words often twisted.. My actions misuderstood.. I try to make the right choices.. but it never does me any good. My life feels like it's spinning out of control. I need someone to take the wheel and never let go. I can't hold onto it anymore...if I do I will crash and burn. I see everyone else is so happy in their lives..when is ever going to be my turn? So I sit here and think on the brink of breaking. Empty and hollow inside...I keep on pretending.. Happiness is something I'm getting tired of faking. It's driving my mind insane and there is nothing that anyone can really do.. It's all going so wrong, so crazy.. I need someone to just be there for me, so that i can be in there arms, i don't w

2500 Photos?? Oh Dear God!
I had the pleasure of receiving a one month VIC membership today by Shorty. Thanks girl! But now I have a bigger problem. 2500 photos? Are you kidding me? It took me this long just to fill over a hundred spots. Anyone got any naked chick photos I could use as filler? Actually, better yet, send me your naked photos, and I'll use them as featured filler!! Thanks again, Shorty!

My Mind Runs To Fast I Cant Keep Up
when did i become a cute attractive guy? i ask myself this all the time. i continuosly see myself as a dorky, nerdy, and goofy guy that i have always been. i guess i keep seeing myself as i was so many years ago. no confidence and a loser. i guess i ahvent overcome that fear of being a success in the game of life. it keeps throwing me curve balls and i keep missing them. its only been a few years since rather attractive people have given me the time of day and i dont know how to handle it. ive always wanted acceptance from people but then when i do get it i dont know how to handle it. it seems like it all came at once almost like overnight. i just wasnt ready to accept it then and im still struggling with it. i have started to at least consider myself and mildly attractive and interesting. ive always been interesting i guess more people are accepting and into the same kinds of things. maybe its just the times we are living in. they are very different from say even 5 year

Lies
uh i think someone has been liein to me. but whatever. people lie rigth? fuckin people. today was a better day but the supposive lie isnt makein it to great. well i was gonna go to texas but with this shit going on i dont know if i want to. uh i dont know what to do. lots of money to spend on tickets to go there and fuckin hate it you know? oh well i dont need people. they just fuck with you and leave you to yourself. i feel empty inside all the time now. like i want people and friends but they always seem to fuck ya over! i dont know im just a depressed fucked up person. ok any thing good in my life...well if i dont go to texas ill save 300. thats always a plus specially cuz im lookin into buyin a hearse i was gonna go for a camaro but if im gonna do a gothic porn site i prolly should have something a lil more scary. so ya...liers!

Upa And Downs
Why is it that when you are Happy and feel so full of life, that nothing ever gets you down? When you are down and feel lonely, why is it so hard to get back up? I have been on such a high elevation of happiness these past 7 weeks, I can barely contain myself, then, BAM, like a hammer to the forhead I feel myself falling to the ground. Is it that the one person I want to be closest to, is too far away to be close to? A simple voice on the phone, a few words on the internet, an email, anything to turn me back up. Without her for even 8 or ten hours of conscience thought and I feel so alone, yet I know that she is there, in my heart, I can feel it. I spent over 16 months in training and Iraq, was married, and did not feel this alone, of course I thank my Brothers and Sisters in Arms for their steadfast support and companionship during that time. However, I can't stop thinking about her, no matter what the circumstances are, she is always there on my mind, in my thoughts. I feel better ju

Change
Life changes every day Every hour, every second But some of the change Is too much to take Life threw curve after curve I swing at each one But soon as one's gone Another takes its place My heart still cries Because of the past But it also cries for the future That won't be for a while I still think I need That love and acceptance I get that from some But it's lacking from others The changes in life Are all hard to take But at least we know that change Is the only thing that's the same

Gifts From The Heart
For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it. Never give up on your dreams of finding that perfect partner for you. The day you give up, your heart will begin to wilt away. Love is space and time measured by the heart. If you have much, give of your wealth, if you have little, give of your heart. Without a rich heart, wealth is an ugly beggar. If you find it in your heart to care for someone else, you will have succeeded. The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed. Love wasn't put in your heart to stay, love isn't love till you give it away. Nobody can measure, not even poets, how much the heart can hold. It can mend and heal, even the most broken of them in time. Always keep love in your heart. A life without i

What's Important
Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; than try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want so that they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then, do what you need to do. In order to have what you want. What really matters is what you do with what you have. You have to accept whatever comes and the only important thing is that you meet it with the best you have to give. Follow your passion. Live your life the way you want too. What makes you happy. Who has the power to stop you from being happy. Only you have that power; no one else. Your only here for a short visit. Don't hurry, don't worry. And be sure to smell the flowers along the way. Get pleasures out of life; as much as you can. Nobody ever died from pleasure. If you break your neck, if you have nothing to eat, if you don't have a roof over your head ~ then you have problems. Everything else is just an inconvenien

Going To Be Gone Until Tuesday 5/29/07!!
Hey everyone just wanted to let you know that i am going to be gone until tuesday. I'm gonna go spend some time with my daughter in Montana. I hope you all have a great weekend and i'll catch up on things when i get back.. If you get some time or need something to do feel free to comment bomb my pic for me for the contest i'm in so i dont fall to far behind... **HUGS**

I Love You
I Love You With my every breath, With all I have left, From the deepest depths, Of my heart, I love you. With all of my strength, With ten miles' length, Every thought I think, I think that I love you. For the length of forever, As long as we're together, Through good and bad weather, For always, I love you. Until the very end of days, Until God takes my breath away, Until death separates our ways, Until then, I love you. When no one is there, When you think no one cares, When love seems too rare, Remember, I love you. When everything's gone, When all has withdrawn, When hopelessness dawns, Don't forget, I love you. When you fall down, When your dreams come unwound, When hope can't be found, Be happy, I love you. When you make mistakes, When you're filled with hate, When you're old and gray, Even then, I'll love you.

A Favor For Hellcat And Me
Hey I think you all know Hellcat here on CherryTAP ... She posts the blog with all the contest info and stuff in it "CT Contests And Giveaways" which is a pretty good service to everyone on here which I had been chasing up the top 100 blogs since I started blogging on CherryTAP ... Well unfortunately this morning I went to look at how I was faring in the old top 100 and it wasn't there, so I asked her about it and she told me that she accidentally deleted it ... Now it was nice moving up one place and all in the rankings but I didn't like it happening that way so I would really appreciate it if you all could go and rate her "New Version" of that blog and get it back in front of mine where it belongs, and then I will have my gauge back and all will be right with the world ... Trust me, this is NOT an idle favor either as she works very hard on her blog and deserves to be back there again so please just CLICK THIS LINK and go rate that blog a ten for me ... I would really appreciate it .

Forever
I love you today and I will love you tomorrow Just some words To clear the sorrow That will never Leave my heart or yours From this day forward You are so special to me I love you With all my heart Always have And always will From family and friends That never end You will always be with me As I will always be with you Until we cross the gates of heaven There we will always be Together until the end

Always
The day you were born, the whole world was blessed These thoughts in my mind to you I must confess The time has come for me to express my true feelings You are the center of my thoughts and the essence of my being What you have brought me I never thought I could procure The gift of comfort, with you I am secure For you have lifted me up from a life filled with sorrow And made me realize there is always a better tomorrow It amazes me how someone can make me feel this way I love you more and more with each passing day You brighten my days and lift my spirits I have felt this for so long and now want you to hear it So you may know the place you hold in my heart You are always with me even when we're apart I truly believe what we have is meant to be Just open your heart and soon you shall see What I am willing to do to keep a smile on your face Just know that I'm here and will be always

100 Things That Annoy Me-- To Go With The 100 Things I Love :)
100 Things That Annoy Me-- to go with the 100 Things I Love :) (This was rather hard to sit and think of 100 things so bear with me) 1. Those who drive under the speed limit in the left hand lane 2. People who chew with their mouths open or smack their mouths when they eat 3. Crowds--small crowds I dont mind, but elbow to elbow crowds really bother me 4. Poor service at nice restaurants 5. Ordering something through the drive-thru and getting home to find it's incorrect 6. Excessively poor grammar/spelling 7. Those who count out loud--especially when you are trying to do the same 8. Those who constantly talk during a movie 9. Loud and/or obnoxious people 10. People who do not take the time to correct and discipline their children 11. Those who do not take responsibility for their own actions and try to shift blame 12. Those who live for the next drunken weekend 13. Broken plans--with my type 'A' personality, I try to keep whatever plans I make 14. Rude people and tho

100 Things I Love
100 Things I Love Late night movies in bed Sleeping in warm camping socks The smell of the air after a rainstorm Playing in the snow Slow dancing in the rain Listening to thunderstorms and lightning while falling asleep Being around animals of any kind Waking up on a Saturday morning and realizing you dont have to go to work Sleeping in!! Warm apple cider Finding your favorite shirt or pair of jeans on a clearance rack Pretty underwear/lingerie The feeling of walking into a courtroom and feeling achievement in a dream The breeze blowing in your face when ice skating Falling in love Wrestling with a boyfriend Being goofy with a significant other Playing cards and board games with the family Sunday afternoon naps Hot bubble baths Unexpected text messages Handwritten letters Sexy eye contact Body spray Smooth legs Egg-nog at Christmas time Slipping into my pjs after a long night First kisses New myspace comments and email Cra

Dead(i Dont Know It's A Poem)broken Words
U can die U can live with pain inside meanless broken lifeless body spit at maggots flesh seem so un wanted to say alot and to say not a damn thing at all walkng with the living seem they run and hide from it pay to pro long it if u know when u was dieing u try to cheat death. i always learn deal with death all my life.

Writing
Tears Why is it all tears What is it that my heart fears All day and not hearing from you Is that why I am feeling blue The dark ache deep inside Yet another tear's downward slide How do I say how I feel To some it's no big deal Not wanting you to see How you are affecting me Please tell me why I have tears. Nonna J. Seaborn

Kids Are Innocent
A first-grade teacher, Ms. Brooks, was having trouble with one of her students. The teacher asked, "Harry, what's your problem?" Harry answered, "I'm too smart for the 1st grade. My sister is in the 3rd grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the 3rd grade too!" Ms. Brooks had had enough. She took Harry to the principal's office. While Harry waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms. Brooks he would give the boy a test. If he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the 1st grade and behave. She agreed. Harry was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test. Principal: "What is 3 x 3?" Harry : "9." Principal: "What is 6 x 6?" Harry: "36." And so it went with every question the principal thought a 3rd grader should know. The principal looks at Ms. Brooks and tells her, "I think Harry can go to the 3rd grade." Ms. Brooks says to the p

Amber In The House!!
Amber In The House!!My New Grandaughter To your success! Have A Happy Day!! Grandpa Thondor http://thondor.com thondor@vmdirect.com Here Is A Video Email To You!! http://www.virtualmediadirect.net/Thondor/helloworld.htm

Volume Xvii - Cleansed And Pampered...
This is dedicated to "Magically Delicious", as she helped to inspire this. 6:35pm. Thursday night. She walks in the door, exhausted from her long day at work. She sets her purse down on the end table, and kicks off her high heels toward the kitchen. The sound of running water echoes through the hallway. She decides to walk toward the source, which is the bathroom. There, she finds me. I have, a few minutes earlier, took it upon myself to run a nice hot bubble bath for her upon her arrival. Scented candles are all around. The sound of Bach permeates the air. She smiles, as if she knew that i knew she needed it. She slowly undresses... her skirt... her blouse... her bra... her panties... and she slips in the bathtub. Slowly sliding down into the almost-scalding water, she emanates a long sigh...the heated water soothes her, sending tingles all across her flesh. I hand her a washcloth, all soapy. She takes it and massages across her body...down her arms, he

What Does Your Brith Mean?
Your Birthdate: June 6 You tend to be a the rock in relationships - people depend on you. Thoughtful and caring, you often put others needs first. You aren't content to help those you know... you want to give to the world. An idealist, you strive for positive change and dream about how much better things could be. Your strength: Your intuition Your weakness: You put yourself last Your power color: Rose Your power symbol: Cloud Your power month: June What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Ecstasy
Passion's abyss, can be seen in your eyes Twilight's aura, a beauty to see Forever lost, in the sweet rapture of your touch Your captivating essence, invokes my soul Your love, wraps me in a blanket of contentment Endless search is over, I've attained ecstasy by Michelle 2007

Really Happened........
Raping me was fun for him. After, he asked me how I liked it. Perhaps he already lived in a cell, Ex-communicated, soul-deaf. I told him and he laughed, stroked me. So? He was boss. On top. A woman wanted that, no? Crying, crying, I said nothing. Rape was a wound across my sky. I saw blackness beyond the blue. My life was twisted, like those girders Earthquakes throw brutally to the ground. After such helplessness, what hope? Going on with my life in blackness, A black sky, black rage in my heart, In my mind an endless blackness, Nothing within me but blackness Screamed at the boy no longer there, The screams like walls I took with me, The walls of screams protecting me, How could I love without seeing? Even so, the light pierced me, Shattering the cell of fury, Opening my heart again Under a new sun, once more Laughing in the chill of fear.

A True Letter,...
THIS IS A TRUE LETTER TO A FRIEND,...WHEN I STAND WITH YOU I AM STRONG YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME,MORE THAN WHAT BOTH OF OUR EYES,WORDS AND HEARTS CAN SEE,...SOMETIMES WHAT I FEEL IS SO STRONG,THAT I AM AFRAID TO LOOK UP FOR THEN AT THAT MOMENT I MAYBE LOOKING DEEP INTO YOUR EYES AND THE HONESTY MAYBE TOO MUCH THAT I MIGHT CRY,I DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE ME CRY,BUT IN SILENCE I THINK OF YOU AND DREAM OF YOU EVERYDAY,AND HOPE YOU ARE CLOSE BY,THINKING OF ME OR MISSING ME TOO,WE BOTH KNOW WE HAVE SOMETHING,AND IF THIS MORE THAN FRIENDS IF IT'S LOVE WE ARE BOTH AFRAID TO SAY IT,...YOU ARE MY SHELTER IN TIME OF STORM,AND IT MAYBE THE WORST DAY,BUT IF I SEE YOU OR TALK TO YOU OR EVEN HEAR YOUR NAME,IT DOESN'T SEEM AS BAD.YOU ARE MY WISH,AND MY DREAM IS TO COME TRUE JUST TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU,..."I LOVE YOU"FOR NOW,AND FOREVER. SWEET&KINKY 2007 DEADICATED TO:JMV

1 Little Moment.....
bruised face,shattered heart, my life,falling apart, took a knife,thought awhile, made a cut, thought of life,my family, my friends, OMG!! MY KIDS! what was i doing, what would they think, how would they no how much they mean, i looked down, saw my blood, good thing it didnt cut enough..............

~~getting Wood~~
> A Hawaiian woodpecker and a Californian woodpecker, > who had managed to fly across the ocean to Hawaii, > were arguing about which place had the toughest trees. > > The Hawaiian woodpecker led him to a tree that no > woodpecker could peck! > > The Californian woodpecker challenged him and promptly > pecked a hole in the tree with no problem. > The Hawaiian woodpecker was in awe. > > The Californian woodpecker then challenged the > Hawaiian woodpecker to peck a tree in California that > was absolutely un-peckable. > > The Hawaiian woodpecker expressed confidence that he could > do it and accepted the challenge. > > So after flying to California, the Hawaiian woodpecker successfully > pecked the tree with no problem. > > The two woodpeckers were now confused. > > How is it that the California woodpecker was able to peck the > Hawaiian tree and the Hawaiian woodpecker was able to peck > the California tree, when neither one

? Y ?
OK,WHERE SHOULD I START,NOT SURE WHAT TO THINK ON A FEW THINGS,MAYBE SOMEONE CAN TELL ME. Y IS IT, GUYS DONT THINK WE HAVE FEELING? Y IS IT, THAT THEY THINK WE ALWAYS WANT SOMETHING FR THEM? Y CANT THEY JUST UNDERSTAND,THAT MAYBE, WE REALLY THINK OF THEM AS A FRIEND. BUT IN MY CASE,MAYBE I WENT TO FAR. THAT I DONT NO. WISH I NEW. JUST VERY CONFUSED, ITS LIKE WHEN U GO & DO SOMETHING WITH SOMEONE,& U DONT REALLY HEAR FR THEM AGAIN,& HOW IT MAKES U FEEL LIKE MAYBE UR NOTHING,LIKE ALL U WERE WAS.........I THINK U GET IT. JUST REALLY SUCKS. JUST WISH THEY UNDERSTOOD ME, THE REAL ME. I THINK MAYBE ALL I DID WAS RUIN A FRIENDSHIP THAT REALLY DID MEAN ALOT. & THEY PROBABLY HAVE NO CLUE. NOW WHAT SHOULD I DO?

Home Nice And Early.
I love spending time with my family, I love hearing my daughters singing, I love waking up to lottsa hugs and kiss's, I love hearing my daughters laugh. Shit, I even have to crack a smile when I hear them complain about something so simple but to them it seems so difficult. I love my family more then life itself. I'd rather be sitting here hanging with them then sitting somewhere else hearing useless crap in my ear all day. I love being with them. It makes life worth the effort. I want to wake up every morning hearing the one thing I crave most. I Love you! and you know something. I love you too!

Life
Life throws you some blows and you just need to pick up the peices and just move on. Sometimes its just feels too hard but thanks to a certain person (you know who you are)makes it easier to by him always being there to talk to and to make me smile. THANK YOU!

~~humor...something For Everyone~~
What do you call two Mexicans playing basketball? Juan on Juan What is a Yankee? The same as a Quickie, but a guy can do it alone. What is the difference between a Harley and a Hoover ? The position of the dirt bag. Why is divorce so expensive? Because it's worth it. What do you see when the Pillsbury Dough Boy bends over? Doughnuts.... Why is air a lot like sex? Because it's no big deal unless you're not getting any. What do you call a smart blonde? A golden retriever. What do attorneys use for birth control? Their personalities. What's the difference between a girlfriend and wife? 10 years and 45 lbs What's the difference between a boyfriend and husband? 45 minutes What's the fastest

Ultimate Level Challenge
I have the Ultimate level Challenge for you all. I need 150,000 points to level. Anyone that I see needing help i help level and try and bring others with me. So heres my challenge to all my friends.I want to level by Sunday at 9:00 p.m. at the end of my blast Contest.So will you stop by and show some love.If you rate all my pictures or all my stash or both please comment on this blog. This way i can return the love if i havent already rated all your stuff. Also I you are a bomber I have 20 people in my Blast contest come show them some love .Thank you and much love to you all.

Nothing
I search the night for meaning Finding Nothing... I look to my soul for reason Nothing... Words don't make sense anymore They're too easily spoken Then regretted or forgotten A screaming voice echoes Over the din of my stereo I know it But want to deny the knowledge Of its personal relationship Somewhere a soul is swallowed By anger and another by jealousy Then yet one more by the thought of Love

"sex Application"
Your Name: Samantha 2. Age: 28 3. Favorite position (s) on top 4. Do you think i'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? yup 6. lights on or off? off 7. Would you have to be drunk? nope 8. Would you take a shower with me? yup 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? yup 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? stay 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? yup 12. Condom or skin? skin 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? yup 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? yup 15. Have sex on the first date? sometimes 16. Would you kiss me during sex? yup 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? hell fuck yeah (any woman is gud in bed....lol 18. Three sum? with women only (NO MEN)!!!! 19. Anal yes/no? FUCK NO 20. How many times would you like to cum? as many times as u can get me there 21. Would you use me as a booty call? no 22. Do you like fore play ? ehh.. ya!!! 23. What is fore play to you? domination 24. Can we take pictures of the act? nope (unless we put the

Thanks, Thanks, Thanks....
I want to say a big "THANKS" to everyone who sent me wishes for my birthday today. I got so many great comments, alot of birthday cards, waaaaaaaaay too much cake..lol...and alot of pretty balloons to decorate with! It's was great to see all the friends I've made on CT, drop by and think of me! Bunches of love... Lev

Bend In The Road
Bend In The Road -=-=-=-=-=-= - When we feel we have nothing left to give And we are sure that the song has ended When our day seems over and the shadows fall And the darkness of night has descended, Where can we go to find the strength To valiantly keep on trying, Where can we find the hand that will dry The tears that the heart is crying? There's but one place to go and that is to God And, dropping all pretense and pride, We can pour out our problems without restraint And gain strength from Him at our side, And together we stand at life's crossroads And view what we think is the end But God has a much bigger vision And He tells us it's only a bend For the road goes on and is smoother And the "pause in the song" is a rest And the part that's unsung and unfinished Is the sweetest and richest and best So rest and relax and grow stronger Let go and let God share your load Your work is not finished or ended, You've just come to a "bend in the road."

Letting Go
Letting Go -=-=-=-=-=-= - As silence fills my loneliness Only for you my heart cries The growing gnawing pain within myself That tears every senses of my life. Tears flow endlessly Even my eyes swells in deep agony But nothing had been left That I burned even more with desire Just to feel the warmness of your embrace. I still have the memories when we first meet Memories that I thought would just be the beginning And would never end But suddenly it was gone with the wind. I always say I LOVE YOU Deep inside my heart I do Thinking that you feel the same way too That even we're miles away we can make it through I felt my world shattered like a glass One day when you told me that I was just a back up And that you are still in search of your perfect match For someone you can marry even when there's no real LOVE. I have been waiting for a chance Hoping that one day you would realize and understand I gave you everything that I ha

Graduation 2morrow
Okay so practice went well today. Just tomorrow is the big day I get to graduate High School. WOW! I am so nervous!!! My stomach is all blah. I got my cap and gown today at practice. It's gold yucky. LOL! So I wont be on tomorrow night:( Tomorrow is going to be crazy I have been invited to 2 parties and can't go because my mother want's me to be here for her lil party. Oh well... I'll put on a happy face and try to enjoy it.

Wednesday 5/23/07
Woohoo I remembered to post again before I got offline for the night lol. I haven't done much tonight, just the usual chatting in the lobby and listening to Bratty Lil Kitten on CrushFM. I've been looking at my pc trying to find a way to plug in my mic so I can do Skype voice with Cracker, but I don't have a USB mic to hook into the front of the tower, so I guess I'll just keep nagging someone to hook it up for me lol. I looked at Blue tooth stuff hoping that would be easier for me to use, but dang that stuff is way to expensive for me to afford, especially when I can use what I already have, I just need help getting it hooked up as I can't get behind the tower because of my chair. Well, I'm done ranting for the night so I'm gonna go lay down lol. Have a good night everyone.

Learning A New Dance...
The dance of the submissive A learning and growing submissive is rather like one who is learning to dance. she stands, her body tense, her mind focused on her moves, on the steps she needs to take. She knows that her arms, her legs, her body must all move in specific ways for her movements to be seen as the dance she desires to perform. The music begins, and her arms move in a tense, almost awkward way as her feet step as awkwardly to the markers on the floor she knows she is to follow. She watches the markers, while her mind races to ensure her arms are completing their movements, and suddenly she remembers too, her body must carry a rhythm, so her hips and chest purposefully begin to sway, almost in an exaggerated effort to get it right. She hears her instructor, she hears the command, 'smile'... as she lifts her head... her eyes wide with concentration as her lips rise in a forced, mechanical grin as her mind attempts to focus on all she is striving to do. Her ins

Letters From Nobody (the Dragon Journals) Pt. 17
some days life just gets so damn boring anymore. Ever have the strange feeling that you were out of your body and watching as an innocent bystander from a distance? In centuries past, the Ancient One has felt that way many times...too numerous to count or mention. Sometimes I have the uncanny ability to do it just as a release from this void in life. Or lifetimes... Ah, to just once feel the actual sting of Death's sweet hand on my shoulder beckoning me home. What a glorious day that will be in the story of this old de-humanified dragon. To ride the gossamer wings of Death's angel and look into the void and the expanse of time after lifetimes. To laugh in glorious wonder at those who think they have it all figured out already and are yet barely from their teens. Hahahaha. To livie as I have lived, and cheated Death his just rewards so many times; only now to allow him full control and reign over my soul. To allow him to take me from this cold, bitter humanized world and plant my fee

Dear ♥
Dear Heart I'm sorry for all the bad things you've felt I'm sorry for the pain you've gone through I'm sorry for just not appreciating Because I couldn't have gone on without you You've taught me how to feel and accept The special love from another You've taught me how good it felt too The love between a daughter and a mother You've taught me that I can open up To my crazy but great family To feel that kind of love in this heart Makes me feel... yes... HAPPY Then you taught me love from friends Who I love sooo true and deep And when I found out who my TRUE friends were You taught me how to weep Yes you taught me pain as well Sadness... sorrow.... and loss I know how precious life is And that life has no cost You've taught me how to give too And to someone that I truly love I remember how it felt like when... He was the only one I was thinking of Yes I felt more pain then too When

Friends ?
Ok, I have met so many people so far. the ones that I thought ment alot to me I added to yahoo. The chat box here sucks so I figured that would help with chat. But, the few ppl I added to yahoo dont chat. so you will not only be deleted there but here also. and ones that I added here that dont ever chat will also be deleted. SOrry, Im not a here for points ....I think I am part of the 1% here that actually want to try and make some REAL frineds. Anyway..... as time goes by I will be deleting the ones that dont chat. I guess the right thing to do is to give it some time. some people dont spend that much time on here. Anyway...... if I end up deleting all my friends I will delete my profile as well. it all seems like a waste of time. well.... thanx for listening. Alex

To Be Honest....
People who tell you that they are "brutally honest" are typically just idiots trying to distract you from the fact that their "honesty" is nothing more than moronic tripe that they fling around like monkeys and their poo. Sure, it's poo. But do you really benefit from having it flung at you?

My Heart Has Mended And Pain Is Forever Gone.
My phone died last night But this Shocked the hell out of me. I'm trying so hard not to cry... Cause i need to be strong.. Iceblueeyez, (My Boyfreind) Got into a car-accident, His Mustang is totaled, and He's in pretty bad shape. I Promised I would not cry and I would be strong, and everything will be okay. My heart shuttered of that frighting Shock. Like this nightmare would end... But It wasn't a nightmare it was real. I will be strong and I will never forget that He told me " I love you..." and i said it back.. My heart runs of Happieness and I will always remember he Says You are beautiful Rogue, My accent drives him wild. But I finally snaped out of My daze. I Love Lee and nothing is ever going to change that. Rogue

Volume Xvi - Isolation
The more I learn about humans, The more I wish to isolate myself from them. I have received an e-mail on my MySpace account, of someone who copied much of my...in every aspect. Even my screen name, "aeturnallrain". I have held this name for many years, and I'll be god-damned to change it now. I don't even go on MySpace much anymore, so it really matters not much at all. The reality of this world just causes me to crave the life of a modern-day hermit. How I would love to bid "farewell" to the insanities of work, the awkwardness of social interaction, the confines of marriage, and the struggles to survive amidst a growing population. I'd gladly forsake technology and the comforts of home in order to begin life anew. I've grown up knowing how to hunt, fish, and survive. Well, maybe that'd be TOO drastic. I love my music too much, and plus, some of you Cherry-Tappers would miss me. SOME. I hope not all. I'm listening to "Ramblin' Man" by one of my favorite country si

Woot Woot Another Horoscope
Teddy Roosevelt said to speak softly and carry a big stick. There's something to that. When you're really aware of your own power, you don't need to show it off. It just radiates from you without any need for display.

Dogs And Wives
26 reasons why I have 2 dogs and not 2 wives: 1. The later you are, the more excited your dogs are to see you. 2. Dogs will forgive you for playing with other dogs. 3. If a dog is gorgeous, other dogs don't hate it. 4. Dogs don't notice if you call them by another dog's name. 5. Dogs like it if you leave a lot of things on the floor. 6. A dog's parents never visit. 7. Dogs do not hate their bodies. 8. Dogs agree that you have to raise your voice to get your point across. 9. Dogs like to do their snooping outside rather than in your wallet or desk. 10. Dogs seldom outlive you. 11. Dogs can't talk. 12. You never have to wait for a dog; they're ready to go 24 hours a day. 13. Dogs find you amusing when you're drunk. 14. Dogs like to go hunting and fishing. 15. Another man will seldom steal your dog. 16. A dog will not wake you up at night to ask, "If I died, would you get another dog?" 17. If a dog has babies, you can put an ad in the paper and give them away. 18. A do

Scenes From The Coffeehouse #8
The passersby become more and more intriguing... I follow the bum with eyes only. the pretty boy with the black eye and tattooed forearm relinquishes a smoke to him, refusing his quarter as well. it's not uncommon these days, around here, to have some semblance of compassion. it flows on the sidewalks of Maryland Avenue. drink your fiji water, watch drunken fish fill up tonight from the safety of another misspent evening at Cartel. here is where we gather to partake in the wifi, to soak ourselves in a bathing of espresso, to sneak our sideways glances at the attractive businessmen in the corner, the bums in thin, ratty clothing, the sights and sounds of women in summer, skin gleaming with tan even in the night. my soft whisper of ink and pad lets the deafening bustle of this place reach my ears in stereo, and i scratch the paper in fervor. another saint louie summer, myself and a sketchbook, the assorted city life inspires my pen to dance while the air condit

Liberation
So understated, you confuse me (Being so different) You've become so ordinary What are you so scared of? What made you so afraid to feel? I know your heart was broken But the emotion is unreal Now you're afraid of complication And you mark every love With this stone cold liberation So I thought, "Yeah - what a concept" Let's take some more, give a little less Until your future is yesterday You've got to hide your love away Now it's not your fault If they break your heart You never live up to your part I know it shouldn't be like this But it's all you wanted (Isn't it?) What do you expect From every mother's son? When you only flirt because it's fun It was never my thing To be like everyone So how can I understand Your motivation? Busy playing hard to get Until it's all you really are Did you think an apology And the third degree Was love, actually? The one thing I hate most about me Is the one thing you've made your trademark To have a crus

Questions?
I sit here all alone day in day out wondering what I could have done?What would make you realize that going on this way is something I just can't do? You think because you "pay" for me that I will look the other way? That I won't see what you do? That I can't tell how you feel? Even when your here are you really? You think just because I let you get away with things you can hurt me all the time? Do you know what it's like to live in the silence? The past replaying in my head? What could have been? What will never be? You left a long time ago like a season that comes on slow but is over before you know it. Are you ever going to except some responsibility? Any at all? Ever realize that how much you give from your pockets will never measure what's in your heart? That all I ever wanted was you? Other things are nothing! They will never be important to me. Why is it when I am all you have you push me away? Why are you so scared to just let go? Let go of the past and hold on to our future? T

Wow... Soo True
My whole life has changed Since you came in I know back then You were that special one I'm so in love, so deep in love You made my life complete You are so sweet No one can beat Glad you came into my life You blind me with your love With you I am in sight Yuo opened me I'm wide open And I'm doing thins, I never do But I feel so good, I feel so good Why'd it take so long for me to find you This is my story And I'm telling you It's not fiction It's surely a fact With out you right here having my back I really just don't know where to begin repeat chorus: I analized myself I was buck wild Never thought about, settling down When all the time I know I was ready But not with my friends around But girl I put you first now You make me, you mold me Turn me into a man I'm so responsable And I owe it all to you.................. repeat chorus: God's blessed me God's blessed me, baby God was so good to me When he sent you I'm so happy I'm so happy,

Scenes From The Coffeehouse #7
click-clack of ceramic in the pockets, the prod of a shot heard 'cross the room... and i can't sink a shot for shit today. I don't much care, for once I'm in a paradise moment of nothingness and boredom. the bum chooses his perch next to us. i'm flinching for his question. the music is straining on my nerves, i need a little something to jam to that isn't the whining of recycled poetry, marketed to make you feel like the depressed mass of youth that breeds black clothing that clings to your skin as if to choke you. all i see as i'm scanning the room are runoff versions of starvingartists, piecing together the more controllable moments, coffee gripped in one hand, maxed out credit card in the other. there's a discernible, horrified silence-- the bum asks me to spare a smoke... i refuse his quarter.

*sigh*
Too much stress! I want to scream at the top of my lungs... 1. i can't get my deposit back on my old place till the garage is empty... and even then they have 21 days after that... and my mom keeps saying she'll do it and she's still not done yet (but won't let me do it cause of my foot)... 2. it's trying to figure out how to afford to title and insure my car, 3. figure out how to go to class and or work and find a babysitter... 4. making an extra trip to okc because of classes that i really can't afford to, 5. having to pay for a dress for a wedding that i can't afford... 5+1. having to fill out more forms just to possibly get financial aid (which i found out today that i might not get)... 7. having my phone shut off cause of my money... 8. i might have to make an extra trip up here for the wedding stuff cause of problems they're having... Then the topping on the cake... i might have to bring one of my cousins down there as my babysitter, and if i do there will

Argh
I cannot take this fucking place any fuck longer. Anyone want a fucking roommate? Anything? I'm fucking serious. I can't stand living in this shit hole anymore its driving my absolutely insane. I'm gonna fucking off someone if I can't get out.

Deliver Us From Evil..
I think americans are nuts, well some of them are anyway. Like now they are going to ban the portrayal of people smoking cigarettes in movies, i guess that that will mean that the entire back catalog of film noir movies from the fifties will be cut down to beginning and end sequences with nothing in between. Can you even visualise Humphrey Bogarde without a cigarette between his lips? I cant. Maybe using the wonders of Photoshop they can erase the cigarettes from those old movies, hell, they might even replace them with something else, like carrots for instance.. Do you know what movies are suffering the worst edits and cuts at the moment? If you guessed horror movies then no, you are wrong. Old westerns are being cut to shreds, its like, here come the indians, bang bang, its over.. You see in old westerns the horses would get tripped up to look like they had been shot and now due to rules about not portraying cruelty to animals these scenes have been removed.. In a few years sc

Fifty Mistakes Men Make When Having Sex
Just in case you thought the route to sexual bliss was straightforward, here's a list of things to avoid. They're all pretty much guaranteed passion killers for a woman - and if your check list contains more than ten of these, you've got some serious work to do on your sexual etiquette! 1) Going straight for the naughty bits You've got to be sensitive to the fact that a woman is more likely to be irritated than aroused when a man dives for her breasts and vulva after a few minutes' perfunctory kissing. While you might get to feel the goods, you're not going to be invited back. 2) Not knowing how to kiss sensitively Passionate or sensitive, firm or gentle, good kissing is an art form which lubricates the wheels of sex and gets everyone in the mood for more intimacy. Learn how to kiss, and do it well. That doesn't mean sticking your tongue in her mouth and wiggling it around like you're trying to floss her teeth. 3) Being too rough when you touch her eroge

Lmaoooooooo
THIS, my friends is called entertaining yourself....... waaaaaaaahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee runs , jumps and lands on the slip n slide whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *splat* ouch , dammit that hurt! lol let's go again! LOL! (over loud speaker I say: to the one that was 'entertaining me last night, you are being paged, beep beep lmao ) hahahahaaaaaaa ;)< giggles >

Libra - May 23rd,2007 ( Lmao)
My horoscope so says CherryTap! lol Life's too short to live without love. Romantically, maybe you need a new take on an old situation to keep it fresh. On the job and in your personal life, it's time to find a new passion to keep your instincts sharp.

My Advice To You All
Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable then my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice....now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, nevermind, you won't understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded, but trust me in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine. Don't worry about the future, or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind: the kind that blindsides you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing every day that scares you. Sing. Don't

Stormy Weather
Electricity in the air begins to soar; The thunder begins to roar. As I hold you, you snuggle me to you; Excitement fills us all the way through. As the rain pours you kiss my wanton lips; While my hand on your heaving breast slips. Our hearts race with desire; And our hormones rage like fire. The storm increases in intensity; We run outside and set our inhibitions free. The only thing covering our bodies is rain; There, that stormy night, true euphoria we gain.

¢¾just Do It!!....i Wanna Know!..¢¾
¢¾just do it!!....i wanna know!..¢¾ 1 question. 1 chance. 1 honest answer. Thats all you get. You get to ask me 1 question. (TO MY INBOX) Any one question, anything, no matter how crazy it is. No matter how insane or crazy it is. But I challenge you to have the balls to repost this and see what others ask you!

I'm Sorry
I'm Sorry. I'm sorry I didn't end it sooner. I knew it would come to this. I knew there would come a time letting go of you would be like cutting off a part of my limbs. I'm sorry I made it go on for so long. I made it last this long even if I knew we were never a match. Even if I knew I was dragging myself into a trap, I stayed. I tried. I'm sorry I made the wrong decision. I decided to stick with you even if I felt like you were not enjoying. Even when I saw you'd rather be somewhere else instead, I held on to you. I'm sorry I was too weak. I didn't have enough courage to tell you I was in pain. I held it all in, praying things would change. I kept it inside; hoping things would be different when I opened my eyes the next day. I'm sorry I lied. I led myself to believe everything was okay. Even though all the signs pointed to no, I still kept telling myself yes. I'm sorry I gave you so many chances. I led you to believe second, third, fourth chances were easily a

I Quit
If you have life responsibilities, then you qualify to read this. It is a new take on an oldie! I thought you might enjoy this. RESIGNATION I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year old again. I want to go to McDonald’s and think that it’s a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think that M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer’s day. I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn’t bother you, because you didn’t know what you didn’t know and you didn’t care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to th

Unexpected Resolution....
I'm glad that this situation is over w/, cause he wrote back to me and apologize (which is cool) as well as when I unblocked him he reversed the 1's ratings he left...as well as I did the same to his profile. So, maybe there's hope after all for those who have gotten the same responses from our more treacherous cherrytap members. Enjoy your day everyone! Remo

Twenty Nine Lines To Make You Smile
1.. My husband and I divorced over religious differences. He thought he was God and I didn't. 2.. I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it. 3.. Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them. 4.. I used to have a handle on life, but it broke! 5.. Don't take life too seriously; No one gets out alive. 6.. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me 7.. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder. 8.. Earth is the insane asylum for the universe. 9.. I'm not a complete idiot -- Some parts are just missing. 10.. Out of my mind. Back in five minutes. 11.. NyQuil, the stuffy, sneezy, why-the-heck-is-the-room-spinning medicine. 12.. God must love stupid people; He made so many. 13.. The gene pool could use a little chlorine. 14.. Consciousness: That annoying time between naps. 15.. Ever stop to think, and forget to start again? 16.. Being "over the hill" is much better than being under it! 17.. Wrinkled Was Not One of the Things I

Life Must Be Treated As A Gift
We to often take advantage of the fact that we always have tomorrow to say I love you or I am sorry. We fight with family, friends, and love ones thinking that we have all the time in the world. The cold hard truth is tomorrow is promised to no one. I am writing this because today a very dear friend to me lost her brother who was only 17. This his very close to home for me because back in 1999 my 17 year old brother was killed by a drunk driver. He was left on the side of the road to die because I asshole was to affraid to turn himself in. My brother laid there for an hour or two and this guy sat at home and cried to his mom about what he had done. My brother most likely would have survived if the guy had just walked across the street to the fire station that his truck had died in front of. Instead he chose to be a coward and run from his problems. The guy was given 10 yrs and is also serving 4 years at the same time for accesory to murder after the fact because he was involved in a ro

The History Of Witchcraft
The History of Witchcraft Early in the Middle Ages, almost anything women did could be described as witchcraft because their daily lives invoked the Goddess with a thousand small ceremonies as well as the larger ones connected with major holidays. Martin of Braga said women must be condemned for "decorating tables, wearing laurels, taking omens from footsteps, putting fruit and wine on the log in the hearth, and bread, in the well, what are these but worship of the devil? For women to call upon Minerva when they spin, and to observe the day of Venus at weddings and to call upon her whenever they go out upon the public highway, what is that but worship of the devil?"1 Outside the official religion, where they were kept, women passed down their private family recipes and charms, curses and blessings, telling traditional tales of the past and foretelling the future from omens and "signs." The Dominican Johann Herolt declared: "Most women believe their catholic faith with charms and spe

People Are So Fickle!
Is it just me, or do you find that most people are so fickle any more these days? I mean, they'll talk with you one day then the next day not even respond to you, as in IGNORE YOU! lol. I know people have 'busy' lives and all, hell, I do too most of the time, but at least I respond to people and not ignore them, and if I don't feel like talking then I won't even show myself online or 'as online',whatever. But, even when I'm not in a mood to talk/chat, I ALWAYS will at the very least talk a little bit with those that I'm closest too and those that I've told, I care about you,to. I'm just puzzled as to why people seem to have such a blatent lack of respect for others, especially when they claimed to have cared about that other person. All I can say is that I'm normally respectful towards others but this type of behavior isn't gaining respect from me towards those particular individuals. It makes me want to treat them the same way, in fact, since it seems that that's what t

The History Of The Pentagram/pentacle
The History of the Pentagram/Pentacle Imagine the perfect apple, ripe and bursting with life. Sliced in half, it reveals a beautiful five-point symmetry-a star formed by the seeds inside. In fact, each of these five seeds may be seen to contain a symbolism of its own mirroring the spiritual aspects of this universal symbol: idea, sustenance, life, secret knowledge and the hidden mysteries within the earth. Why has this beautiful and potent emblem, the five-pointed star or pentagram, become such a misunderstood and stigmatized symbol in these times of re-emerging enlightenment? In the tale of Adam and Eve, the apple signified hidden knowledge which was forbidden to human kind. Other early cultures encouraged holy and learned persons in their search for divine wisdom. For example, the Vedas state that the universe and ourselves are One, and that by realizing this and tapping into that Universal energy and state, we achieve wholeness and bliss. These concepts were known to many anci

Three Rednecks Working On A Tower
Three Rednecks were working up on a cell phone tower - Steve, Bruce and Ed. As they start their descent Steve slips, falls off the tower and is killed instantly. As the ambulance takes the body away, Bruce says, "Well, damn, someone should go and tell his wife." Ed says, "OK, I'm pretty good at that sensitive stuff, I'll do it." Two hours later, he comes back carrying a case of Budweiser. Bruce says, "Where did you get that beer, Ed?" "Steve's wife gave it to me," Ed replies. "That's unbelievable, you told the lady her husband was dead and she gave you beer?" "Well, not exactly", Ed says. "When she answered the door, I said to her, 'You must be Steve's Widow'." She said, "You must be mistaken, I'm not a widow.".... Then I said "I'll bet you a case of Budweiser you are." Rednecks Are Good At Sensitive Stuff......LOL

What Is Witchcraft?
What Is Witchcraft? Witchcraft is a broad term use to describe many faiths. Also known as "Wise Craft" or "Craft of the Wise" Witchcraft is a peaceful, nature based faith or path. Practitioners of Witchcraft or "witches" are often accused of devil worship due to the prevalence of misconceptions of the general public. Witchcraft was all but eradicated by the spread of Christianity because of the interpretation of biblical verses such as: "There shall not be found among you that maketh his son or daughter to pass through the fire, or that uses divination, or an observer of the times, or an enchanter, or a witch, or a charmer, or a consulter with familiar spirits, or a wizard or a necromancer." (Deuteronomy 18:10-11) or "Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live" (Exodus 22:18) Between the years of 1450-1750 hundreds of thousands of people were captured, tortured and killed for the practice of Witchcraft. By some estimates, between 80-90% of the witch-hunt victims were women. What

Hump Day
Please, can someone explain to me what in the blue moon is Hump Day? It sure sounds fun but I don't see anyone wanting to hump with me during "Hump day" so please, anyone knows what it's suppose to happen and where the whole idea come from and is it every Wednesday??

Hooked: Illegal Drugs And How They Got That Way
How did the psychedelic drugs LSD and Ecstasy journey from a scientific discovery to a popular recreation to banned drugs? Mental health professionals once believed that LSD could treat schizophrenia or alcoholism. Meanwhile, Ecstasy, the "penicillin for the soul", was used in marriage counseling. Now, continuing the cycle of the hallucinogen, some of the latest derivatives in this category of drugs, the "rave" drugs such as GHB and Ketamine, are about to be banned. http://www.history.com/shows.do?episodeId=221522&action=detail

Bad New Ct Friends!!
the time has come. school is over. and it just so happens that the only way i was on the internet as much as i was was because I got a laptop from the school. and i have to turn in my computer tomorrow!!!! so i wont be on as much as i use to! and it is very sad! but i will be on 2 or 3 times a week! so i will get back to you if you leave me comments or drop me some mail!! peace out! love ya guys!!

Ten Thoughts To Ponder
**_Number 10_** Life is sexually transmitted. **_Number 9_** Good health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die **_Number 8_** Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny. If you see him without anerection, make him a sandwich. **_Number 7_** Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach a person to >> use the Internet and they won't bother you for weeks. **_Number 6_** Some people are like a Slinky ... not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you shove them down the stairs. **_Number 5_** Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying >> of nothing. **_Number 4_** All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to criticism. **_Number 3_** Why does a slight tax increase cost you $200.00 and a substantial tax cut saves you 30¢? **_Number 2_** In the 60s, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal. AND THE NUMBER 1

Sexual Would Youz.
Answer with HonEst Truth. *Would YOu?* Bend Me Over. Hit on me In a Bar. Take Me home With You. FuCk me Royally. Have a One Night Stand. Wanna See Me Again. Come Vistit Me. Take Me On a DaTe. Let me Give You dome. Eat me OUt. take A shower With Me In My Two person StandUp sHower*It has A counTer/seat In It*. Send Me naked Pictures Of You. See naked Pictures Of me. Have sex With me. Be Passionate. Send me Flowers. *Hibiskis are My favorIte* Hold me In publiC. Talk dirtY to Me. Laugh with Me. Fuck Under The Stars. If I missed Somethin You woudl do With me Just tell Me. If Your a Chick Would U let me Fuck U with a Strap on. make out with me. Be Honest. Chicks and Dicks