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Tribute To United States Marine Corps
This letter was written, not by a pilot, but by a surgeon who is also a full Colonel Flight Surgeon with the Hawaii Air National Guard, and who is presently on active duty in Iraq. It was sent to his father, who is a retired fighter pilot who served during the Vietnam war. (published with permission) Dear Dad, If I ever hear airmen griping and complaining, I jump into them pretty quickly, now. Most people over here have nothing to gripe about compared to Marines. Marines are different. They have a different outlook on life. One Marine Private was here for several days because he was a lower priority evacuation patient. He insisted on coming to attention and displaying proper military courtesy every morning when I came through on rounds. He was in a great deal of pain, and it was a stressful to watch him work his way off the bed and onto his crutches. I told him he was excused and did not have to come to attention while he was a patient, and he informed me that he was a good Mari

Best Scenery Contest Starts Monday
the best scenery contest will start monday the 28th at 7pm est..i will except a couple more entrys,if anyones interested..just let me know..thanks brenda Brenda-founder N.C. FAMILY/CLUB F.A.R./CONFEDERATE BOMBERS FAMILY@ CherryTAP

Hope Ev.1 Has A Great Holiday Weekend
I will be leaving this afternoon,for my Great Escape Weekend.Some Sweet Quality Time with Kate.An lots of fishing with a few Buddies.Maybe Cookouts an Beers.Wishing everyone a Safe an Joyful Weekend.Don't no if I'll be back Sunday night or Monday.I no for sure I'll be Jonesing from here.Hopefully the Downraters will take the Weekend off as well. With all the Drama of Late,I'm going to Limit my time on the Tap,a little.(sure right)who am I kidding,not possible..I'd like for Family to join me at Myspace as well.An bring your Morphs,they love them their.Here is my Link:http://www.myspace.com/sobriety_rules06 Theresa will return around June 4,th.At that time,we will give the L.R.L. another go at it.Please continue to keep it on your Nic.An if u can sign others up,it would be Awesome. Theresa's Contest ends afternoon of the 28th so Hopefully,u all can keep her out in front.Wednesday night I pulled an alnighter bombing her,got her to 2,000 an 659 point lead. Of the Fallouts Alber

05-25-07
Share your dilemma with a close friend or trusted adviser. While you may not hit upon an immediate solution, it will give you something far more valuable and lasting -- a sense that you are supported. Hmm I did this last night, maybe I jumped the gun a bit?

~*time*~
Time tells many things as i sit here and there and think of so many things i think of how much im greatfull for and how much that has happen with so many things that im so glad that my life is as good as it is. I could be dieing or something or another could be going on but its not, I have three wonderful kids that mean so much to me. I have a man that loves me with all that he has and i love him with all that i have...... Seasons Seasons came and seasons passed Some say our love will never last This is what seasons bring Our love is the most inseperable thing I dont care if I have a freind As long as your with me till the end I dont care what people do All I care about is you I dont care what they say or do All my love is just for you My everything !! He has the most adorable eyes you could ever fall for & the cutest smile That will take your breath away.He also has the ability to make you laugh when you are sad and he is

Single And Looking
hello ladys my name is droopy i am twenty seven years old. and iam from pueblo colorado. i am single and looking. my intreasts are camping fishing hunting and swimming i also love to watch movies so ladys cheack me out

A Rose
A lovely rose with petals soft A scent so sweet and light So beautiful a flower With colors shining bright But something not so savory About the fragrant rose The thorns, so sharp upon the stem That sharpen as it grows Yet still lovely is the flower Despite the thorns that prick Just as life and love are sweet They too have thorns that stick But do not fear to live or love Life's not exempt from pain So pick a rose, you may get hurt But you will also gain!

College Bound:
College Bound: Billy Jo and Sue had just graduated high school in May of 2006. They spent all Summer touring colleges to find the right one for both of them. Billy Jo want to be a Vet and Sue wanted to be a teacher. They finally found a college that offered Both of them what they wanted. A nice college in Connecticut. So they got their Stuff packed and got enrolled into the college. And soon they found themselves On a greyhound bus going to Connecticut. It was a long bus ride from New York To Connecticut. But they soon found their way there. They got off the bus and collected their bags and luggage. Sue looked around the Bus station and said, "Ok, we are here, so now how do we get to the college?" Billy Jo took out his laptop computer and looked up the college's address and got The directions. Sue tried to get a taxi to stop to take them. A yellow taxi stopped And the driver loaded up all their bags and luggage, and asked them, "Where too?" Billy Jo showed the d

When Disaster Strikes:
When Disaster Strikes: It was a cold morning in June, usually cold. Bobby and Jen were in the barn doing their morning chores. Their dad, Mr. Simmons came into check on them. "Its about time to milk the cows." He said. Bobby and Jen looked up and grinned. Bobby replied "Ok, dad, we are all most done here." Mr. Simmons went out of the barn to start to fetch the cows. He opened the gate to the pasture and walked threw it and locked the gate. He then went to the side of the barn and opened the side doors there to herd the cows in the barn. Bobby and Jen followed their dad into the pasture calling to the cows to bring them in. "Here bossy, here bossies!!" They all chimed in. Mr. Simmons knelt down and frowned. Bobby knelt down beside him and asked "What’s wrong dad?" Mr. Simmons said, "Well Bobby I think we need to go back to the house and call the sheriff, Our cows have been stolen. Jen exclaimed "How can anyone steal 700 cows? Esp. in one night?" As they were walkin

Misfit Bears:
Misfit Bears: Once upon a time in a far away place, lived a family of bears in a little town called Misfit. Now they lived in a big house and Mr. and Mrs. Bear had three little bears. Their oldest is Olivia Bear, she is 8 years old, nexted is Franklin Bear, he is 6 years old, and last but not least is Sara Bear, she is 4 years old. And these three little Bears were all ways getting into trouble. One day, on a bright and sunny day in Misfit town, Olivia, Franklin and Sara Bear were very bored. Olivia Bear says "why can't we go to the park and play we all ways have fun there." Franklin Bear replies "We all ways go to the park, I want to do something different, something fun." "Like what?" says Olivia "I don't know" says Franklin, "maybe get into some mischief or something." Olivia Bear says, "Now Franklin you know mom and dad warned us about not getting into trouble this summer." "But being good is no fun." says Franklin. Sara Bear says, "Why don't we

First Blog Ever..
Well.. Here I sit.. Wondering what I could ever say on my Very first blog.. What does one say? Tell you what.. How about I tell you a good story. Go's kinda like this.. Hey maybe I could start a book.. HA HA HA HA LMFAO!!! So On to the story.. Titled: These are the people That I Have Worked With.!!! o.0 At where I work. Its a production plant. We use wood and glue's all the time. One of the glue's when it gets on your cloths.. It looks like Dried Blood. So As you can imagine people have a select set of work cloths.. No mater where you are in the plant your cloths take a shit kicking there.. So Anyways.. There is this one guy in the plant.. Scary Beard Fragle rock fluffly long black hair. doesn't weigh 130lbs.. 5'6" tall With these nasty torn up jean jacket and jeans and a shirt with this glue on it that looks like dry blood. He's wearin this nasty dirty work ball cap. So Our production plant broke down on a Wed. 11:30 in the morn. We all got sent

Your My Inspriation
Your the one that inspriers me to no end, we have so much in common, yet we are so far apart, and yet I feel that special connection to you. Your my inspriation, the one who belives in me the one who inspriers love in me, the one who gives me inspriation to write, to sing, to love, your my inspriation. You take me as I am not as anything else, you don't have any reason to think I am something I am not, you take as I am. I am lucky to call you my friend. Your my inspriation, the one who belives in me the one who inspriers love in me, the one who gives me inspriation to write, to sing, to love, your my inspriation. You keep telling me to sing and yet I am afraid to infront of others, but I belive that one of these days I will get the nerve to with your inspriation!! Your my inspriation, the one who belives in me the one who inspriers love in me, the one who gives me inspriation to write, to sing, to love, your my inspriation.

Undying Love
When I look into your loving eyes, my heart pounds and skips a beat. When I hear your voice I get chills up and down my spine, your touch gives me goose bumps everywhere. When we kiss.... Oh my god the fireworks that go off inside my whole body! And when we finally make sweet passionate love together its in perfect hormony, I feel like we are in heaven. And when we cuddle together our hearts beat together in perfect rythm. Our hearts and souls are connected through our unconditional undying love for each other till the end of all time!!!

See No Evil.
People keep talking, keep on moving through their lives just taking life at face value, they don't bother to see all the evil things that are among us. We all stop and wonder why people get killed over seas, but we never stop to see our own kids, and homeless adults living on the streets, asking for food or for money, we just walk by them like they are not there. We all are sad when our own get killed by terroist acts, but never wonder, why or how we could have prevented it, and saved our own people from dyin, we never see evil in our own back yard's till its too late. We all move through life just wondering on, threw all the things i have been through i hear no evil, i do no evil and i see no evil.

My Olivia.
She was born so small, yet so sweet and inocent. Her hair so fine and dark, she's my little angel,she's My Olivia. As the years go by, she grows so tall, yet so tiny At three years old, she was so smart, adding, subtracting, and reading, She's my little angel, she's My Olivia A few more years go by, and now she's turning seven years old, and another birthday I've missed, I don't get to hold her, hug her, or kiss her any more, she's my little angel, My Olivia.

My Love For You
It was magic when we first meet in person, the fireworks were awesome. the more we got to know each other the more i wanted to be with you. my love for you grows each day, the more we are together the more i love you. Then we were apart for a week, and then i knew that you were the one for me for all time, the love i was lookin for, the real man i needed in my life, my rock, my life, my soulmate. And since we have been together, we have had some tough times, but we all ways got threw them together, and i know we may have tough times ahead but our love will see us threw, and keep us together, no matter what life may bring, i will love you for all time my love.

My Legacy
Seven years ago i never though myself to be a mother of three, and now seven years later my three children not with me any more, i wonder if i will ever be able to be the mom i once was, and get up to the sounds of laughter and feet running down the hall. Now i just get to see my youngest daughter and wonder how my two oldest are doing? wondering if they think mommy don't love them no more, and missing their birthdays and not being able to give them their gifts I wonder what this world has come too taking children from their partents for no reason, and not giving them back, making us fight over two years and with still no hope of getting them back. what are my children thinking? What are they doing? I miss my babies, they are the light of my life they are my legacy!

Ensign: Ananias The Ugly
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 25 May 2007 Ananias the high priest seemed to have everything going for him. From his first appearance in Acts 23:2, he almost exudes confidence from the page and let's face it: you didn't get to be high priest (especially in Jerusalem) without hard work and diligent study. But just as Jesus castigated the scribes and Pharisees of His own day so Paul (yes, the same Paul, born Saul, who was led to salvation by Ananias of Damascus in Acts 9) had the opportunity to stand before the priests and elder of the Sanhedrin. Unlike Jesus, though, Paul couldn't be treated like a second-class citizen because he was born a Roman citizen. The Sanhedrin, the religious ruling council of Jerusalem whose high priest was appointed by Rome (as Ananias was a

Moving On
There comes a time in every one's life when all goes wrong and all is lost and the only thing left to do is move on with one's life the best we can. The world is tough and unloving, and cruel. Moving on threw life's cruelity is the only way we survive, moving on, moving on. When God lets cruel and crooked evil people take the most meaningful three lifes away from you and there is no hope in getting them back the only thing to do is to be moving on with youjr life. The world is tough and unloving, and cruel. Moving on threw life's cruelity is the only way we survive, moving on, moving on. In God's eyes we are to be created equal, but as we grow up as adults we know that is not true. Those with money and power can ruin our lifes in a blink of an eye, and we are powerless to do anything about it. So we pick up whats left and start over, by moving on. The world is tough and unloving, and cruel. Moving on threw life's cruelity is the only way we survive, moving on, moving on.

So True!!
These things really are spot on for me lately, i just came out of an exam and now i feel like poop, i come home and check my ct and what do i see but: "That saying about all work and no play is truer than you think. The stars say to live it up. And no, that does not mean ordering take-out and watching something different on television. Get outside. Wear something cute." So i put on a cute top and now i'm in my slightly overgrown garden with a home made pina colada :P

Flyin' On Angels
When we are lost, and can not find our way in the dark, we follow an unknown light and when we least expect it we are fliyin' on angels wings. When we lose a loved one, we grieve, and hope they are in a better place, we wonder if they are watching us, as we go through life without them, we not need to wonder they are with us flyin' on angels wings. Now its our turn to head towards the light, ""do not be afriad"" we hear as the angels sing is a lullaby, we gently float down the tunnel of light, we see rainbows of bountiful colors, with our loved ones flyin' on angels wings!

Attention All Fans And Friends Of Jeff (kingdrago)....this Is Urgent And Very Important!!!!!!
THIS IS AN URGENT BULLETIN FOR ALL OF THOSE WHO ARE FRIENDS WITH OR FANS OF KINGDRAGO. MY NAME IS AMANDA AND I AM HIS SISTER KINGDRAGO (JEFF) WAS ON HIS WAY TO A CONFERENCE IN WINNIPEG YESTERDAY ....WHEN THE VEHICLE HE WAS DRIVING WENT AND ROLLED. I AM NOT GOING TO GET INTO THE DETAILS WITH YOU FOR THEY ARE PRETTY GRAPHIC. HE HAS SUFFERED MASSIVE INTERNAL BLEEDING FROM HIS KIDNEYS AND STOMACH, 4 BROKEN RIBS, A BROKEN LEG AND IS NOW IN CRITICAL CONDITION...NOT TO MENTION HE IS PRETTY BEAT UP WITH MASSIVE BRUISING OVER HIS FACE AND HIS BODY. I KNOW THERE ARE TWO PEOPLE INPARTICULAR THAT NEEDS TO KNOW THIS INFORMATION, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE SO I WONT NAME NAMES. FRIENDS ARE UNABLE TO SEE HIM UNTIL HIS CONDITIONS IMPROVES AND IT IS JUST IMMEDIATE FAMILY ONLY.....RIGHT NOW HE IS IN WINNIPEG GENERAL HOSPITAL I BELIEVE. THERE HAS BEEN NO CONTACT FROM THE FAMILY AS TO HIS CONDITION, BUT I WILL TRY TO KEEP EVERYONE POSTED.. I HOPE ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS AND WISHES EXTEND TO THIS MAN

Predictable
The father of Josh Hancock, the late St. Louis Cardinals pitcher killed earlier this month while driving drunk, has filed suit against the restaurant Hancock was at the night he died as well as the towing company whose truck Hancock hit. Curiously, he has NOT filed suit against the Cardinals. Call me cynical, but it seems Hancock's father doesn't mind blaming everyone under the sun for his son's death except his son and his employer, who from all accounts knew about Hancock's issues with alcohol. Don't get me wrong -- I'm not saying the Cardinals are responsible in any way for Hancock's death. Far from it. But neither is the goddamn tow truck driver (who is lucky he wasn't killed by Hancock) or the bartender who served Hancock his drinks that evening. Personal responsibility is less en vogue every day. And a sad story gets even sadder with the taint of opportunism and greed.

Marvin Lewis Is Living In Denial
On the Dan Patrick Show yesterday, Marvin Lewis indicated that profiling might be at work in regards to the high number of arrests of his Cincinnati Bengals. Considering the fact that most of the players arrested have been black (with apologies for excluding Eric Steinbach), considering the history of the Cincinnati Police Department, and considering the strong association of the word "profiling" with race, this led many logical people to believe that Lewis was referring to his players being profiled by Cincinnati cops because they are black men. Given the riots that took place as recently as 2001 between Cincy police and the black community, this is one of those accusations that is not to be taken lightly. Especially coming from someone in a high-profile position. And even moreseo when that person is black man. Well, today Lewis is clarifying that he was not talking about racial profiling: "Yesterday, I gave a radio interview and made some comments that did not illustrate the h

Jokes...
Jack wakes up with a huge hangover after attending his company's Christmas Party. Jack is not normally a drinker, but the drinks didn't taste like alcohol at all. He didn't even remember how he got home from the party. As bad as he was feeling, he wondered if he did something wrong. Jack had to force himself to open his eyes and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins next to a glass of water on the side table. And, next to them, a single red rose! Jack sits up and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotlessly clean. So is the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins, cringes when he sees a huge black eye staring back at him in the bathroom mirror. Then he notices a note hanging on the corner of the mirror written in red with little hearts on it and a kiss mark from his wife in Lipstick: "Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to get groceries to make you your favorite dinner ton

I Have A Lover
i have someone on here that love me for me and i love her with my hart and soul i hop she love me with all her hart and soul to and will be with me to the end of time r to death come for us. I will be all the man she need in life and she be all the woman i need in my life i do what ever it take to be with her so baby i love love with my hart and soul to the end of time r to death come for me and when death do come i will still love when i'm die love you baby. kenny eckert

Robin Williams
You gotta love Robin Williams... Even if he's nuts! Leave it to Robin Williams to come up with the perfect plan. What we need now is for our UN Ambassador to stand up and repeat this message. Robin Williams' plan...(Hard to argue with this logic!) "I see a lot of people yelling for peace but I have not heard of a plan for peace. So, here's one plan." 1) The US will apologize to the world for our "interference" in their affairs, past &present. You know, Hitler, Mussolini, Stalin, Tojo, Noriega, Milosevic, Hussein, and the rest of those "good ole boys." We will never "interfere" again. 2) We will withdraw our troops from all over the world, starting with Germany, South Korea , the Middle East, and the Philippines . They don't want us there. We would station troops at our borders. No one allowed sneaking through holes in the fence. 3) All illegal aliens have 90 days to get their affairs together and leave. We'll give them a f

Bootycall Commandments
I. Thou shalt get out before the sun rises II. Thou shouldest never ask "can we see each other from now on?" III. Thou shalt refrain from referring to our activities as "love making." IV. Thou shalt not request advanced plans. V. Thou shalt kiss anything except my mouth. VI. Thou shalt scream my name often VII. If someone cometh over whilst thou art here, thou art my cousin from out of town. VIII. Thou shalt not ask me to walk thee to thy car. Don't thou knoweth what it looketh like? IX. There shall be no "pillow talk." X. There shall be no cuddling -- ever!

Groupies--the Good, The Bad, And The Nauseating
What is the difference between a dedicated fan supporting their love for music and "bad groupies"? I tell ya, my husband was in 2 bands when I met him and I would have never called myself a groupie. Sure, I was at every show I could get, but it was to support my FRIENDS and their MUSIC! That is why my husband is so supportive of me supporting and seeing bands; he understands. I tell ya, if I could play or sing, I would've been in a band a long time ago... Right? GROUPIES--THE GOOD, THE BAD, AND THE NAUSEATING By Cheryl Mullen - 09/06/05 - 08:06 PM EST Author's Note: After a LONG hiatus, I'm very happy to be back at the Muse's Muse! At this point I can't say for sure that I'll be writing on a regular basis, but I'll contribute as often as I can. I'm looking forward to being an active part of this community again, and I hope you enjoy my efforts. Most of the pieces I've contributed to the Muse's Muse so far have been about performers. But there's another side

Suicide
Some days I just wish. I could run and hide. No matter where I go. Suicide seems my only way. My life is not worth it. All this pain and suffering. I dont want to be here anymore. The only way is suicide. Nobody can help me. I cant fix myself. Nobody knows the real me. Suicide is the only way. I put on this false act. And slap a smile upon my face. When really Im dying inside. The only way is suicide. All I ever wanted was. To be loved and accepted. Just to feel the warth of your love. But you never loved or accepted me. Suicide is my only way. Leigh Ann

Working
Okay is it just me or is it that people that supposely and want a job turn out to be lazy and half assed.It's like the people who bust there ass cause they wanna work for their are also not only bust their ass for the money but bust their ass for the lazy ppl that just stand around so they have money in their pocket.i work 40 some hour work weeks.i like to work but i dislike having to do other people's jobs because they donbt want to work.like yesterday for instints we had 2 ppl talking,one person talking to their family .one person talking to a customer and food orders on the wheel not geting made.....i mean of course i was geting i"ll and yeah i did yell who wouldnt.the boss man is geting ready to retired so hopefully things will get better at work but undoubtfully i dont believe so.

Another Day To Remember
So today marks the 12th year after my brother graduated high school. It is also the same day that a very good friend of mine past away because of a drunk driver. I wish i could have been there instead of him. I still say that if i would have been there to stop it he would have still been alive. He was suppose to meet at at the civic center that night because we had planned on it!!! It wasnt like him to miss it. Me and my other friend john had been talking about it later on that night. The next mornin my friend that id known since like the fourth grade called me and told me the news! I was so freaked out that i told my mom to hold my keys so that i would not drive and then i walked out into the sun and walked like the 15 miles to my old school and cried!!! I wish that during my high school years that i would have been a better friend to him but he got new friends and i did as well! We didnt start hanging back out until college!! Now i wish i had more time with him! Im sorry if this sou

Why????
Some of you may know that my 5 year old son is Autistic. I also have a 7 year old daughter. On any given day my daughter will torture my son just for fun.....and I suspect, to drive me INSANE!!!!!!!! My son has a tendency to SCREAM when he is upset and his voice is high enough normally. WHY OH WHY does she do this to him and to me????? I can't imagine that she enjoys the screaming anymore than I do!! Today has already been one of those days.....it's only 11:40am!!! TGIF is all that I can say right now. I needed to vent cause they are driving me insane today!! Thanks for listening. Any advise will be greatly appreciated! LOL!

Why Do I Bother
I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE LYING TO ME AND MAKING PROMISES THEY KNOW THEY WONT KEEP IT IS SUCH BS THAT PEOPLE DO THIS TO NICE PEOPLE LIKE ME I TRY TO HELP EVERYBODY OUT AND TREAT EVERYBODY THE SAME WAY AND THIS IS WHAT I GET A LOAD OF CRAP AND BS I DONT KNOW WHY PEOPLE CANT LEARN TO BE THEMSELVES AND TELL THE TRUTH

Depression Sucks
Depression sucks.. or so a friend said in her blog today. And she was right it does suck. It sucks for the person that is depressed.. and for those who care about that person. Now I'm going to tell a bit about my past and depression. Maybe it will scare a few friends off. But maybe it will help a few understand me.. and to help me. After all, my struggles right now are about finding myself, changing myself, making myself stronger. When I left my ex, I was happy. I had finally broken free. After 9 years of living with "the warden" I could be free. What I didn't realize was, I wasn't very healthy emotionally. About a month after leaving, it hit me. I had 4-5 nightmares every night so I stopped sleeping. I had anxiety attacks. I became claustrophobic. I had flashbacks to things I either didn't.. or didn't want to remember. I didn't want to be around anyone. I laid in bed and cried. I didn't eat. I couln't let anyone touch me without jumping.. not even my son. I couldn't

Italian Vacation
A woman goes to Italy to attend a 2-week, company training session. Her husband drives her to the airport and wishes her to have a good trip. The wife answers : "Thank you honey, what would you like me to bring for you?" The husband laughs and says: "An Italian girl !!!" The woman kept quiet and left. Two weeks later he picks her up in the airport and asks: "So, honey, how was the trip?" "Very good, thank you." "And, what happened to my present?" "Which present?" She asked. "The one I asked for - an Italian girl!!" "Oh, that" she said "Well, I did what I could, now we have to wait for nine months to see if it is a girl !!!" Moral of the story: Don't tempt a woman, we are far too intelligent!

It's One Of Those Days
it's my kids last day of school and of course i overslept. didn't wake up until 7:40 which is the time my kids are supposed to be in school. lovely! get everyone dressed and ready in record time, jump in my car and WHAMMO! suprise number 2 of the day. car won't start. lovely! start calling ppl for rides and of course can't find anyone. lovely! just happen to look over and realize j's truck is still in the drive, now to find my set of keys. finally get going and WHAMMO! i remember that my two younger kids are supposed to take a lunch. haul ass to the grocery store grab some lunchables finally get their butts to school. now to go back home to try and clean up my living room, because the cable guy is supposed to show up to transfer me over to cable internet and set up my dvr. no show. are we surprised yet? i'm not. it's one of THOSE days. get a girlfriend to come over and wait for cable guy so i can get to work. get to work and i'm a few minutes early. so i'm

One Of Those Weeks
The week before memorial day weekend, and its been one of the top "one of them weeks". Locally the discount gas station went from $2.90 / gallon to $3.50 / gallon with the name brands being even more. Another announcement of some 300 jobs earning less than poverty level is coming soon to our town, A lot of people have stated to me I should write a political article lambasting politicians for ruining the lifestyles of 25% of the country ... which just happen to live around here. Personally, I have had to dig into my savings twice this week, once to replace the pump on the well for my parents or let them not have water and once to pay for the repairs to my car I asked for before the last 4 gas hikes. Hard to beleive that was only a couple of weeks ago. My publisher hounded me every day to get more revisions back to her for the novel. I wonder if she is panicking yet? In spite of her rants and raves, I managed to get to her all the information she was after and the novel w

Freedom Isn't Free By Me
Notice the daate...oldie "Freesom Isn't Free" As I watched you pull the seat belt across and buckle it I stood there and watched thinking I couldn't take it! On the inside I was screaming please don't go as my knees hit the ground and I pleaded with you but on the outside I stood tall and proud with a half smile and half frown as I waved to you. I never let you see just how bad it was killing me knowing that this is the price for America to be free! My heart broke as I heard the ignition turn over the car pulled away and our conversation played over in my mind and in my heart! I wanted us to never again part! As I made one last wave and said in a barely a whisper "See you later my love" one lone tear fell silently down my cheek! This is the price that we pay for you to serve our country and I will forever stand by your side proud that you keep me free! I will be here waiting now and foerver until you return to me to stay for alwa

Im On Air Come Join Me N Listen In All
HEY EVERYONE!!!! WE NEED YOUR HELP! COME SHOW NIGHT STALKERS SOME LUV N SUPPORT. WE COULD REALLY USE IT RIGHT NOW. DJIN RIGHT NOW IS ANARCHY SKULL!!! COME SHOW ANARCHY SOME LUV N SUPPORT ALONG WITH THE REST OF THE LOUNGE!!!! IF YOU COULD SHOW SOME MORE SUPPORT BY JOINING IN ON THE FUN!!! JUST CLICK BELOW AND IT WILL BRING YOU RIGHT TO OUR LOUNGE!!! SUBSCRIBE N BECOME A MEMBER!!!! click picture below to join the lounge THANK YOU AGAIN!!!! PLEASE, I AM BEGGIN EVERYONE!! COME SHOW US SOME LUV N SUPPORT!!!!!! (repost of original by '~SmOkIn~VaMp~BaBy~{BlOoDy~TeArS}~NsL~BaRtEnDeR~4~LiFe~' on '2007-05-24 09:45:10')

Seasons
I remember a moment in clockwork A fragile mind thinking of simple things Light escapes the trap that the moon set Exploring the directions it can travel The feeling of spring is being resurrected Snow is melting and bringing life to the ground Leaves are long forgotten Innocence being charged with hormones The seasons give me new feelings. Looking around in my environment Birth is the current stage Of the everlasting cycle of the planet Time moves forward without reason I'll always remember the time I spent alone Flowers breathing our poison And throwing away our precious life support Mother Earth is protecting all of her loved ones. Life is the season of spring Giving chances to possible new champions Blood is the season of summer The purest nourishment to the newborns Memory is the season of autumn The collection of thoughts of one's spring Death is the season of winter Nothing more.

Cry By Me
Cry I make myself seem tough I hold my head high and smile I never waver with my love and my support I say I am a Navy girlfriend and say it proud I look strong as the words roll off of my tongue And to the world I am a pillar But at night when I turn off the lights And lay down without my sailor and the fear hits me that I may never again be touched by his warm hands I want to cry by: Jennifer H. May 2006 These are older and unfortunately I am no longer a Navy Girlfriend....but the poetry still means as much!

When A Girl/when A Guy
IF YOUR A GUY When you catch a girl >glancing at you, >she wants you to look >back and smile > >When a girl bumps into your arm >while walking with you >she wants >you to hold her hand > >When she wants a hug >she will just stand there > >When u break a girls heart >she still feels it when >you run into each other 3 years later > >When a girl is quiet, >millions of things are running through her >mind > >When a girl is not arguing, >she is thinking deeply > >When a girl looks at you with eyes full of >questions, >she is wondering how long you will >be >around > >When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a >few seconds, >she is not at all fine > >When a girl stares at you, >she is wondering why you are playing games > >When a girl lays her head on your chest, >she is wishing for you to be hers forever > >When a girl says she can't live >without you, >she has made up her mind that you are >her future > >When a girl says, "I miss you," >no one in

Test For Smart People
TEST FOR SMART PEOPLE The following short quiz consists of 4 questions and will tell you whether you are qualified to be a professional. Scroll down for each answer. The questions are NOT that difficult. But don't scroll down UNTIL you have answered the question! 1. How do you put a giraffe into a refrigerator? The correct answer is: Open the refrigerator, put the giraffe in and close the door. This next question tests whether you tend to do simple things in an overly complicated way. 2. How do you put an elephant into a refrigerator? Did you say, Open the refrigerator, put the elephant in and close the refrigerator? Wrong Answer. lol Correct Answer: Open the refrigerator, take out the giraffe, put in the elephant and close the door. This tests your ability to think through the repercussions of your previous actions. 3. The Lion King is hosting an animal confer

Before I Forget This Wknd
thanks to all the men and women who have and still r serving this country to make it a better world for us to live in.for the iraq war USA needs to pull troops out and just make the damn place a glass plant.with all the sand a big ass nuke would make it shine for all to see. tc and same going over there all.come home soon to end all the damn bullshit there.

A Letter From Home By Me
A Letter From Home Far away from home he fights to give you and I our rights. He gives his all to our country only to be forgotten by most. At mail call he stands head held high though nothing for him came that night. Day after day the same thing he feels all alone and cries in the night. Why must he go forgotten by those he fights to protect? He does not ask a lot a simple how are you note, yet the days pass with not one word. Though lonely and broken hearted he stands tall and proud. He will not break his vow to protect his fellow Americans. While he gives his all, you should give your effort and write one little letter to a soldier that deserves it. by: Jennifer H. Lynchburg, Va 5/2/2006

Challenges Ahead
i JUST NEED TO VENT A LITTLE BIT...SORRY IF IT SEEMS LIKE I AM WHINING BUT I AM NOT....I AM VERY SCARED. I HAVE HAD BACK PROBLEMS SINCE I WAS ABOUT 20 YEARS OLD. HOWEVER, I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO DO CERTAIN THINGS TO HELP. TREAMENT, THERAPY AND EXERCISE. AS THE YEARS HAVE PROGRESSED AND I HAVE GOTTEN OLDER MY BACK HAS GOTTEN WORSE. I FOUND OUT WEDNESDAY THAT I NEED TO HAVE BACK SURGERY. ONE OF THE DISC'S IN MY LOWER BACK HAS TOTALLY COLLAPSED AND I HAVE TO HAVE TO BONES FUSED TOGETHER BECAUSE MY ENTIRE PELVIC AND HIP AREA IS SLIPPING FOWARD, AND IF I DO NOT HAVE THE SURGERY I COULD BECOME PARALYZED. IN ADDITION TO THAT WONDERFULO NEWS (LOL) I AM A SINGLE MOM WITH NO FAMILY AROUND AND NO SIGNIFICANT OTHER. MY SPIRIT IS FAILING ME NOW AND I DON'T HAVE THE WILL TO DO ANYTHING. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SEE IF THERE IS ANY HELP OUT THERE, FOR SOMEONE IN MY SITUATION BECAUSE I COULD BE OUT OF COMMISSION FOR UP TO 3 MONTHS IF NOT MORE. SO I AM FEELING SICK ALL THE TIME JUST THINKING ABOUT EV

Fav Alycat!!!
Im pretty sure most of u knoe this gorgeous lady who's alway willing to lend a helping hand to anyone who needs it and is always there for her frens!!! She's been a bit down SO...... its time to give back to this beautiful soul and show her some luving!!! RATE HER! FAN HER! ADD HER! COMMENT THE HECK OUT OF HER PICS! U WONT BE DISAPPOINTED!!! AlyCat**Bella's Love Slave**SAW Crew**Owner of WPR**Demon House Rebel**@ CherryTAP

... Y Salió El Sol Del 25!
This is WHY i got the Argentinian flag on :) and yes, i'm half argentinian so i can proudly say half of my heart is here! May Revolution From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia La Revolución de Mayo (the May Revolution) was a series of political and social events in the nineteenth century city of Buenos Aires which installed the first local government not designated by the Spanish Crown in the Viceroyalty of the Río de la Plata, which at the time contained the present-day nation-states of Argentina, Bolivia, Paraguay and Uruguay. Although the Revolution took place only in Buenos Aires, one of the consequences was that the head of the Viceroyalty, Viceroy Cisneros, was ousted from office. Involved in these acts were mostly middle-high to high-class inhabitants of Buenos Aires (most native Spanish émigrés or residents of Spanish descent). There was no great violence involved; the term "revolution" has been loosely applied by Argentine tradition to highlight the changing of their g

Where
Where do I go from here Now that you are not here to hurt me Nothere to get mad at me,if I want to go somewhere There is nothing left but cold lonely night Wondering if I can handle everythig now I'm on my now I'm wondering what I'm going to do now I'm not ready for dating quick yet I can,t handle haveing my heart shatter agian Sign:marion g.

None
You know, there must be something wrong with me. I actually come on here and tell the truth about myself. You start chatting with different people. People say they want to be your friends. Silly me, I take people for what they say. What am I thinking? I either need to toughen up and realize that everything on here is a lie, find somewhere else to go, or just lie like everyone else. Kinda sad.

Pet Peeves
I was talking the other night with someone I love to distraction, and the subject of pet peeves came up. He has a couple, one of which will be listed here, and I have discovered a few of my own recently that make me crazy (or crazier). The first one is this: my town no longer has a Burger King, and I saw on tv that they have Spiderman toys and I was damn determined to score one or two, and since I had to be in another town for a doctor's appointment yesterday, I kept my eye out for a Burger King, and found one! Imagine my delight! However, as I sat in the car waiting for my prize, I happened to see a sign on the door of this establishment that irritated me to death and triggerd a pet peeve attack. I have a niece who is a very successful ad executive in Dallas, and I know she went to college for years to become what she is. Apparently, the ad people who Burger King employs never went to school at all, because the sign looked like this: On the top was the Burger King logo, an

A Poetic Stranger
She was a stranger no doubt she was different from the crowd Soft spoken yet not afraid to holler out loud Not knowing much about me passed my many words and verses Unfixated on my many flaws just focused on the purpose Of why we met, the reason for this hour...this minute I was taken, drifted, writing love poetry again My wordplay was sentimental, gentle and vibrant Like a mid-morning eclipse and almost as timeless She could quote my every verse as thought she wrote it herself And seemed to know the very realm inside my heart in which it's kept I was felt and for the moment saw her as my missing link As we were captured in the scripts of life entangled in our ink We shared our views as we would write depicting life and how we feel We wrote of loving one another and pretended it was real Over sweet tea and candlelights in Calloway we dreamed Amidst a cedar brown balcony we overlooked the breeze Overlooking the crowd of those that shunned

Black Panties
Anna had lost her husband almost four years ago. Her daughter was constantly calling her and urging her to get back into the world. Finally, Anna said she'd go out, but didn't know anyone. Her daughter immediately replied, "Mom! I have someone for you to meet." Well, it was an immediate hit. They took to one another and after dating for six weeks, he asked her to join him for a weekend in Vermont. Their first night there, she undressed as he did. There she stood nude, except for a pair of black, lacy panties; he was in his birthday suit. Looking her over, he asked, "Why the black panties?" She replied: "My breasts you can fondle, my body is yours to explore, but down there I am still mourning." He knew he was not getting lucky that night. The following night was the same -- she stood there wearing the black panties, and he was in his birthday suit -- but now he was wearing a black condom. She looked at him and asked: "What's with the black condom?" He replie

Sex Offenders/wtf/need To Read!!!
SEX OFFENDERSWHAT THE FUCK I think we all can agree with the fact that its getting very old to keep hearing sex offenders needs to be dealt with more and more!!!! However, if all the sex offenders got together and decided to fight back, the world would be in alot of trouble!!!! There is a thing called the bill of rights wich protect them from discrimmination!!!! However, they are being discriminated against every day from society and the law wich desided to get power hungry!!!! If it make some people happy then its good!!! There are so many different types of sex offenders but they all get treated the same way!!!! This is an on going issue that need to be stoped and corrected befor war breakes out and good people are killed!!!! You might not see it but our team does and we will be here to fight for there side!!!! We believe that if they did the time they should be alowed to have a chance to get back up on there feet and try to live a good life!!! However, th

Journey (to My Forever)
She took all the worries from my hands as I entered her room The lights were dim...music played Our friendship was crossing the line...we allowed it Her voice seemed to play a silhouette As she whispered there's a full moon tonight Her eyes blossomed with reflections of water The wounds of past loves lay open...for both of us I never saw her, though she was always there I never touched her, though she was always within my reach And as the course of walking from one love to another fell beneath me, I yearned to discover the path she held The water in her eyes fell down her cheek If this was love than I truly never knew it before As her lips slowly made contact with mine, her tears ran down my face My aura fell from my body as her naked flesh grazed my own I was displaced Like a rainbow of light flashed before my face and my eyes where not yet prepared...I never saw it coming...though I never blinked I was making love... I taste

Indy 500
well this is the INDY 500 weekend i am ready to party and have a good time with my friends and watch a good race i hope.i am hopeing one of my driver's win's but the rarley happen's.anyway's hope you all have a great and safe weekend...talk to a few of you soon and to those i never talk to and you read this i will be deleating a whole bunch of people when i return monday...

Sand And Stone
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT. DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE. THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE. THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS, WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM. AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING, HE WROTE ON A STONE: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE ". THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?" THE FRIEND REPLIED "WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT." LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE

A Change Of Scenery
Well, it's been a year and a day since my brother died. This past Wednesday I moved back to Rhode Island from New York for personal reasons...one of which is to go through my brother's things that are still here at my Mother's house and get them out--auctions, yard sales, and just giving it all away... My brother was a "pack rat", so I've got TONS of NASCAR, Star Wars, and a LOT of other assorted stuff...the Dale Earnhart stuff is DEFINITELY going to auction. Aside from that, if you're from Rhode Island...please tell me...what the hell is there to do here now? I moved away back in '04 and now I feel like I'm so freakin' lost here--I know, pretty pathetic LOL

Recover Your Happiness
I LOVE THIS... A--Accept Accept others for who they are and for the choices they've made even if you have difficulty understanding their beliefs, motives, or actions. B--Break Away Break away from everything that stands in the way of what you hope to accomplish with your life. C--Create Create a family of friends whom you can share your hopes, dreams, sorrows, and happiness with. D--Decide Decide that you'll be successful and happy come what may, and good things will find you. The roadblocks are only minor obstacles along the way. E--Explore Explore and experiment. The world has much to offer, and you have much to give. And every time you try something new, you'll learn more about yourself. F--Forgive Forgive and forget. Grudges only weigh you down and inspire unhappiness and grief. Soar above it, and remember that everyone makes mistakes. G--Grow Leave the childhood monsters behind. They can no longer hurt you or stand in your way. H--Hope Hope for the

Somebody
SOMEBODY NEEDS YOU TO SEND THIS TO THEM... -somebody is very proud of you. -somebody is thinking of you. -somebody is caring about you. -somebody misses you. -somebody wants to talk to you. -somebody wants to be with you. -somebody hopes you aren't in trouble. -somebody is thankful for the support you have provided. -somebody wants to hold your hand. -somebody hopes everything turns out all right. -somebody wants you to be happy. -somebody wants you to find him/her. -somebody is celebrating your successes. -somebody wants to give you a gift. -somebody thinks that you ARE a gift. -somebody hopes you're not too cold, or too hot -somebody wants to hug you. -somebody loves you. -somebody admires your strength. -somebody is thinking of you and smiling. -somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on. -somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun. -somebody thinks the world of you. -somebody wants to protect you. -somebody would

When Trouble Comes To Life~~for Everyone
This was a post on a yahoo group I am in. Though it seems to be directed toward ONE belief, read it closely and see your belief in it, for you are never alone in your time of Need. Look to the Earth, the Trees, the Moon, the Sun, the Sky, to your own heart and Listen carefully, see in the eyes of those who care for you deeply and you will see you are never alone. When Trouble Comes to a Witch's Life There is a storm here. The Sea roils and churns and becomes what many may call a fearful place. The gulls wheel and spin and head for places only they know. The salty sea air becomes crisp and the wind whips the sands and Sea up into the air and rains confusion and mystery upon the shore. Where is the peaceful solace of the Goddess of my heart? My Ocean Mother. Has she gone from my life? Am I alone? Is my power drained away with the wrenching turmoil that is taking place in my life, just like the storm here at Sea? The ocean of life has its many tempests and storms. Our lives are

Life's Poem
A Life Poem Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind. Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind... Life can be blissful and happy and free... Life can put beauty in the things that you see... Life can place challenges right at your feet... Life can make good of the hardships we meet... Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin... Life can reward those determined to win... Life can be hurtful and not always fair... Life can surround you with people who care... Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs... Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns... Life teaches us to take the good with the bad... Life is a mixture of happy and sad... So... Take the Life that you have and give it your best... Think positive, be happy let God do the rest... Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet... Take pride and be thankful for each one you meet... To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall... Ta

Hot Man Updates The Best Contest Ever!
Hot Man On CT Contest! I'm doing a Hot Man On CT Contest and i need men! Comment bombing allowed and self comment bombing also! 1st Man is...... with 4334 comments! 2nd Man is...... with 4294 comments! 3rd Man is...... with 2950 comments! 4th Man is...... with 196 comments! 5th Man is...... with 104 comments! 6th Man is...... with 54 comments! 7th Man is...... with 3 comments! Comments + rates = total Winners will get 2 Gifts each 1 V.I.P. And 1 V.I.C.! Contest will start on 5/18 thur 5/25 Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~ ~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~@ CherryTAP

Hello
I haven't really felt like being online lately. I hardly ever come here anymore. Just not addicted like I used to be. Work will do that to you. Anywho, I hope you all have a safe and wonderful holiday weekend. Be careful for other motorists. Take care and God Bless. ~Ria

The Bad Side Of Life (long Blog)
Tell ya what last 24 hours have been frustrating. Last night got into a rip roarer of an argument with the guy I'm currently living with. Stupid ass junkie. He was agitated cos he had gone a whole two days without a fix and was hanging out for one but lack of money meant he was shit out of luck. So we had an argument about nothing in particular but he got so worked up he said he was gonna evict me from the house. Cheers mate you took me in from the street now you kicking me out in the cold! Could of cut the air with a knife this morning. I went to school and he went to tafe - didn't see each other all day till' tonight when (after he got his fix) said he was sorry and he did not mean the things he said and that he did not want me to move out. Yeah what ever mate. Not impressed with him at the moment. He is off his rocker. Decided not long ago that, although I love my mates, there are some that are just bad for me, like this guy I am living with. I do not want to associate with this

Being A Vet
I watched the latest episode of Gene Simmons Family Jewels this past Sunday when Gene took his daughter to Camp Pendleton Marine Base so she could gather information for a school report she was doing. They went through a mini boot-camp and visted the Long Beach VA and spoke with some veterans there. As a veteran of the US Army, this episode was touching in that how visibly Gene was moved by speaking to vets, telling them that they mattered and thanking them for thier scarifices in keeping our country free. I have to admit that there were times that my eyes were filled with tears. He just wasn't thanking the vets he met personally, he was thanking us all. After the episode was over, I looked at my wife and asked did I make a difference when I served. Did I do all that I could to protect our freedoms? Did I change anyone's life by the scarifices that I made? In the entire 11 years that I was in the service, only one person ever thanked me for defending his freedoms. Of course t

My Head
Last night was another late one... OMG, so much fun. At the end of the night it came down to just me and Jody. We had fun, went to another bar, played some pool, drank a beer (yuck) and went back to the club with the intention of dancing some. But that didn't work out so we just talked to the bar tender and went home, not together, she doesn't want to get involved with anyone before she ships off to basic training. I could see us together too that is what sucks, we have so much fun when were together...Why is that always the case? You find someone, it's all there and it goes nowhere??? Anyway, I made it home, stripped and passed out... Woke up, showered and all that and then came to work. I thought that I would be busier than I am, so I guess that is a good thing.. That is about all I have for this one... Have a great day! Ciao!

May 25, 2007
SO MUCH ANGER BREWED UP FROM FEARS,WORDS, AND ACTIONS. SO MANY DIFFERENT WORLDS THAT WE HAVE GONE THROUGH. NO ONE REALLY EVER UNDERSTANDS WHAT PAINS WE GO THROUGH FOR REAL! WE THINK WE KNOW EACH OTHER WHEN REALLY WE DON'T KNOW SHIT JUST WHAT IS FACE IS ALL!! WE ALL TALK ABOUT HATE WHEN REALLY ALL WE WANT IS LOVE! WHY DO WE EVER DO WHAT WE DO? BASICALLY BECAUSE WE KNOW WE CAN OR WE WANT TO PROVE SOMETHING TO OURSELVES AND OTHERS!

What A Joke
I just signed up at myspace again, to post a bulletin ta invite em here.. Well anyways it's funny because now they are trying so hard to be like Cherrytap,, which isn't gonna happen... Just thought that was funny as hell....

I Almost Feel Bad, Actually More Annoyed..
Ugh. Seriously. I've seen alot of stupid people. I mean I actually thrive to be at amusement parks on my annual free time. And yet I continue to see stupider people by the second. People that were once intelligent, and mature to a point. This specific person really had something special, at least a small fraciton of a mind. And now it's basically all gone just to have the intelligence of a four year old bag of sand. I've learned two lessons here: One, that person totally sucks. And two, if you abuse drugs, holy shit is the outsome horrible. Oh and also the whole, "too much of a good thing = a really bad thing," was reitterated. It's sad, it really is to see such ignorant retarded pieces of shit walking around in this world without a care. Just living life as one huge fantasy. It makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time. Yet, it also raises my blood pressure and damages my frontal cortex. Corruption at its finest, we are so totally fucked... (>.

Tgif!!!!!
Boy, am I glad it is Friday! Although, even for Friday, today's gonna be a crazy one, I'm afraid. I just finished getting ready for work, but don't have to leave for another 40 mins. or so...then off to work for a few hours. We're headin' for Indiana sometime today...whenever lee gets off. He normally doesn't get off till 7, but when I asked him if he was going to be stuck there all day...he just said, "we'll see". HOPEFULLY, there might be some possibility that he can get out of there before 7, and we can get on the road. When he doesn't get off till that late, then still has to come home, lots of times it's going on 8, before we can even hit the road. When you're looking at a 7-8 hr. trip, by the time we stop to eat, take pee breaks, get gas, etc...it puts us into Indy around 3am. A very very long and tiring trip. So...maybe he can get out of work a little sooner...that would be nice. After I get home from work, I've got to get all our clothes packed, and ready to go

My Ranting
pronunciation [AP-UH-THEE] 1. Absence or suppresion of passion, emotion, or excitement. 2. Lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting. 3. Also, AP...A...THEI...A, AP...A...THI...A stoicism. Freedom from emotion of any kind. Think about it, why don't we help the homeless, even though the inconvenience of them (like death and suffering) is so much greater than the inconvenience on ourselves (50 whole fucking cents). But why don't we give up the change? Well, apathy. We don't feel what they feel. I'm sure if we had to beg and fight for every meal we ate than we wouldn't mind giving up that 50 cents at all. Im just wondering if any of you, (maybe it is an inconvenience to read this entire entry, BECAUSE OH MY FUCKING GOD INTELLIGENCE IS SO PAINFUL...) would ever take into consideration, hhmmm... Someone else?

Best Teasing Pic Contest!!!
So you think ur the best TEASE on CT?!! Prove it!!! Calling all teasers!! Submit ur best TEASING PIC which obviously has to be SFW as its a teasing pic...not a nude ;) Take a look below at some example of teasing pics if your not sure what to submit... It must be SFW!! And of course I havent forgotten our guys... Lemme knoe if any of you guys are interested and I'll hold a seperate one for the males!!! The contest will be based on number of rates and comments combined. 1 rate will be worth 10 points 1 comment will be worth 1 point the PRIZES: 1st place will receive a 7 day blast and a Big Pimping gift. 2nd place will receive a 3 day blast and a Big Pimping gift. 3rd place will receive a 1 day blast and a Big Pim

Man Meets Woman
I condescend to climb that marble staircase, littered with broken glass and rat poison. Waiting impatiently is a porcelain doll for me to reach the summit and meet her. She will bribe me with pleasure, to raise her to the light, only to turn to powder in my hands which I will blow with disgust to the air for it to catch and do with her what it will. Such is the futility of female beauty. What is the function of the porcelain doll? Its only aparrent purpose is to aesthetically please, however it harbours a secret need. She aches for someone to touch her, therefore she beckons her observer's hand with an etherial charm, yet she threatens to break if one should so much as breathe on her. Do not be fooled by the fragility of her form for she is hardened of heart and mercenary in intent. I suggest indulging her whim - if not only to enjoy the sound of her shattering, then to revel in her stupid surprise. How conveniently she forgets that this is how she asked for it to end.

Fans
Hey, first I want to say sorry if you were removed from my fans list, I went and took off 3/4 of who I am a fan of! I WILL PUT YOU BACK ON! all I have to know is that you came to read this blog! lol, so leave a comment! I just thought it was silly for me to be a fan of SO many people I NEVER hear from! (BTW if you are still on my fan of list, it means you must have left an impression! lol)

Poem: Your Precious Soul
What is it about you that, is so lovely and beautiful . Is that you are gorgeous, and one in all so desired. That your beauty shine's, out above all the rest. I know darlin' that you, certainly are the best. As I am inspired, to write this poem. Knowing that I touched, your heart with desire. To dream of all dreams, could make you so real to me. Is the way your lovely eyes holds, the true inner beauty and real love, thats in your precious soul. Sign: Raymond Starns Dated: 12/31/07

Hot
im loving the sun and no jennie, im not taking off my sweaters in the sun ! i hate the sun, and it hates my body. but i will have a farmer's tan, {which by the way , im used too} so ha ! lol i miss you and call me soon and we'll get together and share new photos of the kids and whats been happening, sorry i missed ur phone call the other night, i wanted to get some hard core sleep, and damn i got it . even tho i had a really distburing dream, but it happens @ hee hee love always dee oxo :)smiles

Loving Ourselves Unconditionally
Love yourself into health and a good life of your own. Love yourself into relationships that work for you and the other person. Love yourself into peace, happiness, joy, success, and contentment. Love yourself into all that you always wanted. We can stop treating ourselves the way others treated us, if they behaved in a less than healthy, desirable way. If we have learned to see ourselves critically, conditionally, and in a diminishing and punishing way, it's time to stop. Other people treated us that way, but it's even worse to treat ourselves that way now. Loving ourselves may seem foreign, even foolish at times. People may accuse us of being selfish. We don't have to believe them. People who love themselves are truly able to love others and let others love them. People who love themselves and hold themselves in high esteem are those who give the most, contribute the most, and love the most. How do we love ourselves? By forcing it at first. By faking it, if necessary.

Do We Really Know Anybody? Who Does Not Wear One Face To Hide Another?
--Francis Marion A woman in her fifties watched her mother in her eighties struggle against the wrinkles in her face and neck, trying to hide them, pretend they weren't there. She wanted her mother to accept that she was getting older but found her unwilling to listen. Haven't we all run into this situation? We can learn so much just by remembering that what is right for one person may not be right for another, and others are entitled to decide how they want to behave. Often, we are just worried about ourselves, concerned, for instance, with our own ability to age gracefully. We don't need someone else to do it for us. We can take care of ourselves. What do I worry about in another that I can take care of in myself?

Quote For May 25
There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. -- Carl Jung Bonus Quote: I was nauseous and tingly all over. I was either in love or I had smallpox. -- Woody Allen This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

I Missed The 900,000 Mark!
I was trying to get number 900,000 dammit. I was sooo close too. ow well I hope everyone has a great week and watch this space for future developments brought to you live as they happen!LOL much luv 77

Friends
Around the corner I have a friend, In this great city that has no end, Yet the days go by and weeks rush on, And before I know it, a year is gone. And I never see my old friends face, For life is a swift and terrible race, He knows I like him just as well, As in the days when I rang his bell. And he rang mine but we were younger then, And now we are busy, tired men. Tired of playing a foolish game, Tired of trying to make a name. "Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim Just to show that I'm thinking of him." But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes, And distance between us grows and grows. Around the corner, yet miles away, "Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today." And that's what we get and deserve in the end. Around the corner, a vanished friend. Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time it mig

Bad Week
I know this week I have been especially moody. And that is saying a lot considering my usual disposition. But this week I have said things to friends I did not mean, hid from most of you, and said goodbye to some I cared for. I am struggling.. a lot. I am trying to keep making changes in my life. For so long I let everyone walk all over me. I accepted less than what I deserved. I held in anger. And now I am trying to find ways to change that. To settle for no less than what I deserve. And I am not doing it well. I've never been good at putting myself first. Never been willing to hurt another to keep from being hurt myself. And this week, in putting myself first, I did hurt some people. And it breaks my heart to do it. It's not who I am to let someone hurt. so right now I am confused.. hurt... trying to find a balance. feeling a bit lost because I am leaving the path I walked for so long.. to try to make myself a better person for myself. Someone stronger.. more

Busted Up
well i just recently decided i am a dumbass, i broke my knee, and tore my acl, and mcl ligaments. so im sittin here at work all knocked up on oxycodines and im starting this new page to pass the time. should be fun getting to know you guys on here, and i hope to make a couple new friends. thanks and have a nice day fuckers... that is all -big-ben-

Summers Here
Both kids are out of school now and the fun has just started... You will find that even though I may be signed on here that doesnt mean Im on here. I will be spending alot of time out doors with the boys this summer. And right now Im also spending a good amount of time with Jim and going to his softball games which I enjoy very much. So if I dont respond right away you now know why. I have many things planned for the boys and myself this summer and not much of it includes inside play. Have a great summer.

A Picture Paints A Thousand Words
I DONT HAVE MUCH TO GIVE YOU IN THE WAY OF MATERIAL THINGS BUT THEN...I HAVE NEVER BEEN A MATERIAL PERSON... SO IT WOULDN'T MATTER MUCH ANYWAY. I DO HAVE SOMETHING TO GIVE YOU, THOUGH... AND I HOPE YOU ACCEPT THIS GIFT WITH JOY. I HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO WRAP IT... I WANT IT TO BE PRESENTED TO YOU AS PRISTINE AS CAN BE. AND ANYWAY, DECORATIONS OR WRAPPINGS WOULD... CERTAINLY RUIN THE EFFECT. AND SO IT IS...THAT I STAND HERE BEFORE YOU... UNCLOTHED, BUT SURPRISINGLY, UNASHAMED YOU HAVE ALREADY CAPTURED A PIECE OF MY HEART, AND YOU HAVE CAPTIVATED MY SOUL. THE ONLY THING LEFT FOR ME TO PRESENT TO YOU IS MY VERY BEING...AND I DO THAT WILLINGLY, HAPPILY, AND MOST OF ALL...LOVINGLY. STANDING BEFORE YOU...WATCHING YOUR EVERY MOVEMENT... SEEING THE DESIRE IN YOUR EYES FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME. I DON'T BELIEVE IN ALL OF MY LIFE, I HAVE EVER WITNESSED A MOMENT AS BEAUTIFUL AS THIS. NEITHER ONE OF US CAN SPEAK... AND WE ARE FINDING, EVEN B

A Word To The Unwelcome...
A word to the unwelcome... For all of you out there on my shit list... Yeah, I know, I'm a big asshole ! Go ahead and fuck with me or mine, and it'll be the last bad memory you have... Or... chill, play by our rules & participate. You might just make it.

Some Ugly Philosophy !
Some Ugly Philosophy ! My Brothers and I live this way... Live life on your own terms and by your own rules, don't give a fuck about what "they" think Take care of those you love, be ready to give your life for them. Don't worry, choose your Brothers carefuly and they'll do the same for you... The world is full of assholes and their negative bullshit. Those who hate us for who we are can go to hell, we'll settle the score when we get there There are people that I wouldn't piss on if I saw em on fire Don't feel bad, its not your problem ! Stay righteous and let em' look like the crap they are Remember where you came from, and be proud of it ! Pride does not equal hate... I only hate people for 'what' they do, not 'who' they are Never confuse kindness with weakness You dont wanna make a bad judgment call and end up with some uglymotherfucker after you Those who look down at us should remember that it takes people like us to make fuckers like you to feel

Abpt Guardianangels!!
If you are willing, here is a way you can help spread the awareness and help stop the abuse. Please place the link to this profile somewhere on yours...the more exposure we can get, the more lives we can save. for those of you who dont know how to do this, click the link on the main page shown in the image below, copy it and paste it somewhere on your profile. To those of you who do link, let me know via ct-mail and I will add your profile link to the "APBT GuardianAngels" list! More traffic to your profile=lots of CT Love!

Just Me...
After a passionate discussion with someone I love, we came to the conclusion I am a walking contradiction... Given me a real important reason and I'll kill as soon as look at ya, but by nature I'm a chill person. I don't like much attention from outside, but I seem to draw it to myself. I don't like people who judge by the surface & jump to conclusions, but laugh when they do and love scaring the hell outta em. I don't need recognition, but want friends to know I'm the best at what I do. I sometimes struggle with commitment, but only know how to give 1000 percent. I don't like a lot of society, but think a evolved egalitarian one is the only hope. I'm idealistic wanting the wrongs of the world righted, but believe it to be a corrupt place undeserving of hope and will never happen. I have contempt for authority and rules, but really need my own set to live by. I rely on my appearance and demeanor to maintain distance from most, but am VERY close to some.

Daddy's Poem
I Don't know who wrote this but let't get it out there to remember the families who have lost a loved one Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees; a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly pas

When Are Ya'll Gonna Get It ?
When are ya'll gonna get it ? OUTLAWS AINT GANGSTERS ! True Outlaws choose to live outside both the Rule *and* Protection of etablished society, and instead live by their own stricter code. It does not include acting like punk gangsters preying on the weak and uninvolved. Instead standing up and taking care of things the old school way.

A Private Hank I I I Show
Damn, I'm exhausted, hung over and bruised up from the pit.WHEW, WHAT A NIGHT !Some great friends Jake & Nikki hooked us up !He and some of the guys from Flogging Molly go waaaaaay back, so he called in a favor for tickets.We love you guys, this was too awesome for you to do for us. THANK YOU !And for the record, I have NO IDEA what's with "monkey boy"... Musta been the whiskey !More as soon when we bribe the *GOOD* pics away from Nikki !

I Wanna Luv U By Donell Jones
CHORUS I wanna love you, every night, every day You know I need you in my life Won't you stay? I wanna love you, every night, every day You know I need you in my life Won't you stay? You are the reason why I live, hmm A newfound joy I can contain, yeah Find myself thinking 'bout your love, hmm It's a feeling I get only my heart can explain You know I Repeat Chorus I've never felt so deep in love I think it's because You've touched a special part of me, baby Hope I'm the one you're thinking of You must be feelin' the same as I do I can't see being in love without you Lady, lady Girl I think about you everyday Hopin' you will never go away It's so special when we all can share Someone who'll give us tender loving care Girl I think about you every night Sharing dinner and a candelight I'm sayin' I love you And I'm hopin' we'll be together for eternity Repeat Chorus I'm lovin' you, lovin' you baby Gonna say it one more time Said I'm lovin' you, lo

I Love The Cops !
A wise man once said... "Winning an argument with an idiot ain't much to brag about ! " Looks like I'm back on the local sheriffs department's list, Ya guys are gonna have to work a lot harder though to get me ! < Me with the motor turned off, hands in plain view, wallet already out > Do you know why I pulled you over ? No officer, why did you pull me over ? < no answer > Are you on parole ? Nope, you aint gonna get me that easy tonight ! < he actually laughs > That's a big knife you have on there... Yeah, I like em nice and big all legal n easy to see... How long you lived around here ? A while... Do you have a drivers license ? Sure officer, got an insurance card too if you need it < grinning > Nope, don't need to see it.... You got any warrants ? Nope officer, clean as a whistle ! < grinning more > You don't have anything to hide do you? You wont mind if I search your ride ? Actually, I mind and

My First Try At Web Page Design
I am trying to get my page together and having some trouble in finding a cool back ground. If ya can help send a comment of where to find some. Hpe ya get many Cherry points and find new friends here.

Robin Williams On World Peace
Leave it to Robin Williams to come up with the perfect plan ... what we need now is for our UN Ambassador to stand up and repeat this message. Robin Williams' plan... (Hard to argue with this logic!) I see a lot of people yelling for peace but I have not heard of a plan for peace. So, here's one plan: 1. The US will apologize to the world for our "interference" in their affairs, past & present. You know, Hitler, Mussolini, Tojo, Noriega, Milosovich and the rest of those 'good ole boys.' We will never "interfere" again. 2. We will withdraw our troops from all over the world starting with Germany, South Korea and the Philippines. They don't want us there. We would station our troops at all US borders. No more will anyone sneak through holes in the fence. 3. All illegal aliens have 90 days to get their affairs together and leave. We'll give them a free trip home. After 90 days the remainder will be gathered up and deported to France immediately, reg

May 25, 2007
There's no better way to disarm an opponent than to lower your defenses. The very idea may make the hair on your neck stand up, but try it. The path of least resistance could just lead to the quickest victory. TEEHEE...everyone knows that is when to be the most cautious of me. Because they are never sure what exactly I am up to when I am behaving LMAO!

Interpol!!
Interpol have issued this description of Madeleine; Present family name: MCCANN Birth name: MCCANN Forename: MADELEINE BETH Sex: FEMALE Date of birth: 12 May 2003 (3 years old) Place of birth: LEICESTER, United Kingdom Nationality: United Kingdom Father's family name: MCCANN Mother's maiden name: HEALY Height: 0.90 meter 35 inches Colour of eyes: BLUE , GREEN Colour of hair: BLONDE Distinguishing marks: Left eye blue and green colour; Right eye green colour. MADELEINE's Right eye has a quite unique brown strip at about the 7'oclock point from her PUPIL (the dark centre of the eye ) through the full width of her IRIS (the coloured circle of the eye ) and stops at the white of her eye. MADELEINE also has a small brown mark on the left leg calf. Language spoken: English Date of disappearance: 3 May 2007 at 3 years old Place of disappearance: PRAIA DA LUZ, Portugal

My Immigration Plan
I have been mulling over the problems with immigration that have been plaguing our nation. After some thought, I have developed some ideas that draw on the ways of our nation's Old West justice. I call it "Get Legal or Get Out" 1. A border fence or barrier will be built and manned with armed National Guard troops to intercept those attempting to cross into the USA illegally. This will also include a virtual border consisting of cameras, unmanned drones, sound sensors and satellite imagery. 2. There will be amnesty for those illegals currently in our country illegally, providing that they can furnish proof of identity and pass a strict background check. Those with criminal history will be denied. Those who qualify will pay all back taxes and a fine of $5000 per family. The head of household must return to their country of origin to register for a Z Visa. 3. Any illegals caught inside the USA without proper identification will be branded with a 2" I (for illegal) on their foreh

Emotions Untold
Emotions untold as I watch the sun set without rest. Remembering the times, as a church bell chimes, That we had spent together. All, now gone, like the end of our song. Emotions untold, as I walk the beach, being just out of reach. So many a days I cried, when I saw you were not going to be my bride. Now, I'm standing on grass, in front of your Marker. Looking at the date, I can no longer concentrate. Emotions untold, as I fall to my knees, yelling please. Not wanting to be let you go, its so hard to show. Now I cry, as I remember, your not coming back. AS you lay to rest, I can no longer look at this crest. Emotions untold, as I use all my power, to place a flower. Then taking the gun, Cause there is no more fun. I am a Romeo, as I want to go with my Juliet. I pull the trigger, now, I find you quicker.

King Bush
National Security and Homeland Security Presidential Directive NSPD 51 What is the Truth about this?......well Bush states in his own press release that he can be king! >>> http://www.whitehouse.gov/news/releases/2007/05/20070509-12.html http://www.fas.org/irp/offdocs/nspd/nspd-51.htm http://www.fas.org/irp/offdocs/nspd http://opovet.blogspot.com/2007/05/nspd-51-and-why-you-should-care.html

Vacation!!
I just wanted to let all my family, friends and fans know that I will be leaving later today for South Carolina for vacation. I will be gone for two weeks. I will be taking my laptop computer and hopefully I will be able to get onto cherrytap once in a while. I hope everyone has a great Memorial Day weekend and I will look forward to coming back. I would still love to receive comments, so keep them coming. Hugs, Christine

A Little Poem I Wrote
Just Us… I crave his fingers upon my flesh, His breath combined with mine Joining and creating our own world, Where nothing else matters, Just us… Our bodies tangled together, Skin warm and damp Not knowing where I end and he begins. Each of us feasting upon the other, Unable to satisfy our hunger, Loving each other until we collapse, In each other's arms. A look, a touch…just knowing, That all it takes is a moment and we'll be back to that place we created, Out of passion, love, desire, need… Never ending and wondrous, A place just for us. A place where the world can't invade. Somewhere no one else knows about, Just us… A passion created through time, A love created in the heavens. Two souls connected through fate. Just us…forever.

Eternal Dreams
Eternal dreams, as I let you slip away from my grasp. Soon your face fades from my sights, as I return to my world, of darkness and coldness. What once was is now become nothing as I enter my state of eternal dreams. I sit in my corner, of the small enclosed dark room, crying tears of blood as I have nothing more. Everything I attempt to do, in breaking out of this hell, is all in vain, because I don’t have anything. I only have my darkened soul, and my cold hate filled heart. Where am I, I’m lost, as the blood streams from my wrists, and down my arms, creating a pool of blood around my body, which some how still remains alive. Some reason, I can not die, and I want to get out of this hell I’m engulfed in. I have nothing, I am nothing. Eternal dreams, as I let it all slip away, as I lay here, wanting to die.

Killing The Pain
Killing the Pain The pain of living has become so great. I fall to my knee. The pain of living so tormenting that I cant stand it. All I want to do is kill this pain. I have done so much, that life sucks. I have done nothing, and I still here crap. Everyone hates me, and the pain continues to grow. Like a snowball getting bigger, as it rolls down the hill. Killing the pain is easy. I raise the knife. Place it on my throat And then I push it through Now I have killed the pain I now sit, traveling away from my Blood soaked body, but as long as the Pain is gone I'm happy.

Naked Friday
I officially declare that by no authority whatsoever, I declare today "naked friday" What that means I do not know. Maybe it is because I am extremely horny right now, or maybe because I am just bored. So I am askiing all of you to help me find unique ways to celebrate "naked day" All suggestions welcome. Thank you for your attention. I love you all. xxxooo

Memorial Day
MEMORIAL MEMORIAL DAY MEMORIAL DAY 2007 Memorial Day began as a memorial for Civil War veterans. It has become both, a National Decoration Day of family graves, and the holiday that opens the summer season. It is celebrated with backyard barbecues, outdoor picnics, and parades. Waterloo, New York was recognized by President Lyndon Johnson and both houses of Congress, as the birthplace of Memorial Day because the town decorated the graves of Civil War veterans as early as May 5, 1866. The claim is contested by Boalsburg, Pennsylvania, which claims to have begun the practice of decorating soldier's graves two years earlier than Waterloo. Another source claims that two years after the Civil War, it was southern women in Columbus, Mississippi who decorated the braves of both Confederate and Union men. Nevertheless, sources agree that it was General John A. Logan of the Grand Army of the Republic who designated May 30, 1868, " as a day for strewing with flowers or

Yesterday.
After I got home from work I was tired as hell because I didn't get much sleep Wednesday night. Anyway Sibs & Luvy came into my room to watch TV with me. After the second our of Married With Children started, Luvy and Sibi decided to give my legs a massage. When Sibi got tired and leaned up next to me, Luvy kept going. That kid should be a masseuse. I fell asleep while she was doing it. A much needed nap. And the best part was she didn't leave the room til I woke up. =)

Pleasures
I can almost imagine the taste and the scent magically embrassing in a moment well spent so tempting and sweet I know I should hide but I've longed for you and I know it's time to give in to the pleasure now that I'm alone licking you so gently you sweet little ice cream cone.

Happiness
Happiness... I am walking through the store and my tummy is fluttering. There is a smile inside that wants to break free. But I do not want it too. Not yet. I walk and I graze my stomach with my left hand. A small pat. I am telling the happiness to stay inside. Where I can keep it safe and harnessed. The smile bubbles forth and POPS into my chest. It is surrounding my heart and infusing it as well with happiness. My heart warms and I bite my lips to keep this sunshine from bursting forth into a surprising giggle. Smiles greet me as I glide past. A happy hop in my step. Up up up into my throat. A smile breaks free. I can feel my eyes glowing with it. A throaty laugh escapes and my head falls back to allow it's freedom. Happiness.

The Cabin
Before you read I am compelled to once more warn that if you are easily upset DO NOT read this or any other story in this blog. Brutality and death are the theme of every story in this blog and I am only writing them as a creative outlet. The fantasy and the reality are extremely different, we all enjoy fear once in a while. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! The Cabin by Restrictive She awoke in a haze as she fought to focus her eyes through the fog that was clouding her vision. Horror sets in as she looks around her, as her vision clears the feeling only grows. From what she can figure she in some kind of "cabin" guessing from the wooden planks that appear to be forming walls. She is alone and as she stands she falls back still a bit unsteady. As she replays what happen all she can figure is someone drugged her food at the mall somehow then brought to this place. Seeing a window she staggers towards it and looks out, only to see woods everywhere. Slapping herself a few time to clear her he

Blah
Hey there....hope everyone is faring well. Me? Im aight . Never heard anything back from the doctor, so Im assuming that he felt I dont need a mammogram. My follow up appointment is on the 7th, at which time Im gonna ask her to up the dosage of my Amitriptylin. Its kinda sorta doing what its supposd to, but kinda sorta aint gonna cut it. Sorry I havent been around much. Havent really had anything to say. Havent written anything new. Nothing new has happened, just work , home and the pc. While I havent been loyal on my visits to 360verse, I HAVE been around. Im always on messenger when Im online, just invisible sometimes. Ive been poking my nose around for better job oppertunities. Nothing serious...yet....just looking around. Im tired of workin in food service. It blows, big time. That, and it seems that Subway, and all of us who work there, are being held to blame for everything that happens in that place. Take for example, the kids who work inside the store, often come into Sub

Ughh Lol
Who wants to call in dead , um I mean sick for me today? lol oh dang , I can't call in, ugh!!!!! lol. But, I so do NOT want to go anywhere today! The good thing, for me at least, is I'll have a week off coming up, yay yay! lol. Well, that's all for now, coffee anyone? :D

Just An Update Of How I Am Doing.
Well all the formal stuff is all over, now comes the time where things are gonna have to get into a new routine and all the fun stuff with acquiring a child that you really were not expecting! I am still deeply hurt that he is gone, but found a poem that really helps, and his aunts thought this is what he was trying to tell all of us. He Only Took My Hand Last night while we were trying to sleep, His voice was all we could hear We opened our eyes looked around But he did not appear. H said you've got to listen You've got to understand God didn't take me from you He only took my hand. When I called out in pain that night The instant that I died, He reached down and took my hand And pulled me to his side. He pulled me up and saved me From my misery and pain My body was hurt so badly inside I could never be the same. I love you and miss you so And I'll always be near by My body is gone forever But my spirit will never die. And so you must go on no

What's Driving You Crazy?
Just curious... what song is driving you nuts these days? One that is overplayed? One that everyone else loves, but you can't stand? Mine is "Lips of an Angel" by Hinder. I hear it all of the time on the radio and I just can't stand the whine.

Happy Friday And Weekend..
THNAKS FOR ALL WHO STOP BY TO SAY HI.. AND LEVAE COMENTS.. I TRY TO STOP AND SAY HI TO YOU ON YOUR PAGE AS WELL.. GOING THRU MY LIST OF FRIENDS.. THOES I NEVER HEAR FROM WILL BE GONE.. DONT KNOW WHY YOU WANT TO BE ADDED IF YOU DONT KEEP IN TOUCH IF I HAVE NOT STOPPED BY YOUR PAGE PLEASE LET ME KNOW I DO TRY/.... TAKE CARE AND DO SOMETHING FUN OFF HERE!!! ANY PLANS FOR MEMORIAL DAY?? HERE PROB HAVE A BBQ.. Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com

Please Think Of Me
Im about to leave to go in for a biopsy and would appreciate everyones thoughts during this hard time for me....Ill know if its cancer in a week or two..Please keep me in your thoughts.. Much Love everyone xoxox Megan

I Can Have 2 Birthdays ?
HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE CHILDREN? WELL I KNOW ALL OF YOU ARE SOME ONES CHILD .. TO THOSE PARENTS OUT THERE .. REMEBER HOW YOU FELT WHEN YOUR CHILD WAS BORN? TO THOSE WITH OUT CHILD. REMEBER HOW YOUR PARENTS LOVED YOU.. WELL WONT YOU GIVE GOD THAT LOVE BACK AND BE REBORN.. SHED THE SKIN OF THE FLESH.. YOU HAVE BEEN BORN OF THE FLESH.. BE RE BORN .. BROUGHT INTO THE SPIRITUAL WORLD.. ALL OF MY LIFE I HAVE KNOWN OF THE SPIRITUAL WORLD.I GUESS ITS SOMETHING I REFUSED YET TO ONLY SEE CERTAIN PARTS OF IT..PEOPLE I CANNOT STRESS TO YOU ENOUGH THERE IS A BATTLE GOING ON INSIDE OF US DONT YOU WANT TO TAKE PART IN THAT FIGHT?I MYSELF AM ALWAYS HAVE BEEN AND WILL BE A WARRIOR..JUST AS GOD HAS AWESOME POWER THE DEVIL HAS THE POWER TO PURSAUDE US.. HE WILL GIVE US THINGS JUST TO WIN US OVER AND SOME OF YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THE DEVIL HAS WON YOU ...YOU KNOW WHEN YOU HAVE A LOVE AND IT STABS YOU IN THE BACK.. THIS IS WHAT THE DEVIL IS DOING TO YOU.. HE IS A LIAR..HE BLINDS US W

I Can Have 2 Birthdays?
HOW MANY OF YOU HAVE CHILDREN? WELL I KNOW ALL OF YOU ARE SOME ONES CHILD .. TO THOSE PARENTS OUT THERE .. REMEBER HOW YOU FELT WHEN YOUR CHILD WAS BORN? TO THOSE WITH OUT CHILD. REMEBER HOW YOUR PARENTS LOVED YOU.. WELL WONT YOU GIVE GOD THAT LOVE BACK AND BE REBORN.. SHED THE SKIN OF THE FLESH.. YOU HAVE BEEN BORN OF THE FLESH.. BE RE BORN .. BROUGHT INTO THE SPIRITUAL WORLD.. ALL OF MY LIFE I HAVE KNOWN OF THE SPIRITUAL WORLD.I GUESS ITS SOMETHING I REFUSED YET TO ONLY SEE CERTAIN PARTS OF IT..PEOPLE I CANNOT STRESS TO YOU ENOUGH THERE IS A BATTLE GOING ON INSIDE OF US DONT YOU WANT TO TAKE PART IN THAT FIGHT?I MYSELF AM ALWAYS HAVE BEEN AND WILL BE A WARRIOR..JUST AS GOD HAS AWESOME POWER THE DEVIL HAS THE POWER TO PURSAUDE US.. HE WILL GIVE US THINGS JUST TO WIN US OVER AND SOME OF YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THE DEVIL HAS WON YOU ...YOU KNOW WHEN YOU HAVE A LOVE AND IT STABS YOU IN THE BACK.. THIS IS WHAT THE DEVIL IS DOING TO YOU.. HE IS A LIAR..HE BLINDS US W

Mmmmm
So.... Considering this morning I woke up to The Sopranos theme.... Hehe... My day has been made. I God... I love the Sopranos.. That TV show has my life on Sundays... I'm way too baked to make sense of this right now... This song has just summed up my life in ways I can't imagine... Hehehe Totally better than the reggea I was listening to earlier.. Hmmm.. I wish I was in the mod it would be fucking awesome I think. But I know its not as glamorous as it is on TV... But I know the areas in Jersey where it is filmed.. and I will put this song on a disk... and I shall play it while lighting a cigar and driving on the NJ turnpike from new york... hehe in a caddy.. Hehehe..

The Weekend Is Here
Hi all Im soooo happy I will b Leavin today @ 12:00 No computer NO phone Isnt that great I think it is I will b camping all weekend sooo excited well anyway SHUT the hell up MiZT.... ALLL of u of A great MEMORIAL DAY....... BE SAfe....

Moving My Comp.
just blogging out to ya'll that I will be offline as well as the homepage as I have to move my comp so I can install my air conditioner.Yes the heat has finally hit Canada lol,and the snow she be melting lmao.Will only take a little while and I will be back up and running.TY all for your patience.

Please Help ...
I need votes in this contest...i gotta goto work or id selfvote but i gotta feed my kids and pay my rent so im counting on you! please rate and comment this photo as much as possible...ill be looking latter and the luv will be returned...

Um Yeah
no clue how to use all of this yet but im sure ill figure it out sometime haha everyone seems sweet praying to god no freaks annoy me hmm just a down home country girl sweet not so innocent but i try ummmm yeah ok thats good for now right haha byeeeeee smooches hugs & rubs xoxoxo muahhhh

Drama
Good day everyone, thanks for stopping by my blog today~! HUGZ... I want to first start off by saying, please don't bring your drama to me. I have enough in my "real life" and don't need more in this virtual one. I love my friends and I will help out if you need me, a friend to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, ratings, contests,etc... I just don't want drama( people being mean and saying mean things just to say them) Please be cool with me and I will return the favor~!

Has Rosie O'donnel Gone Over The Edge Calling U.s Troops Terrorist?
Date: May 22, 2007 4:00 PM Subject Rosie O'Donnell calls US Troops Terrorist on National TV! ROSIE O'DONNELL (ACTRESS, AND SHOW HOST), MADE A STATEMENT ON "THE VIEW", A NATIONAL TV SHOW, A FEW DAYS AGO DISRESPECTING OUR MEN AND WOMEN WHO ARE FIGHTING IN IRAQ! Cut and Paste this link into your browser http://video.msn.com/v/us/msnbc.htm?g=8555e0a1-511e-43aa-a950-4b42219ba941&f=00&fg=copy IF YOU ARE AS SHOCKED AND DISGUSTED AS I AM BY THIS IGNORANCE AND DISRESPECT, PLEASE GO TO THIS LINK ON ABC'S WEBSITE: To lodge a complaint to ABC about the show and Rosie's irresponsibility http://abc.go.com/site/contactus.html OUR CHILDREN, BOYFRIENDS, FIANCES, HUSBANDS, Cousins, aunts, uncles, sisters,brothers..ETC & ALL OF OUR TROOPS WERE DISRESPECTED AND I FEEL AS THOUGH IT IS PART OF OUR JOB TO MAKE SURE THIS DOES NOT HAPPEN AGAIN! PLEASE HELP GET THE WORD OUT THERE!!

Roller Derby Tonight!
Woohoo!! Been waiting all week since the bout got cancelled due to weather, but tonight ITS ON!!!!!!! Hot chicks on wheelz kickin ass!!! I'm sooooooo psyched!! My first derby!!! Come hang out and hit Jerky's after the game!! Route .44 will be jammin during the intermission!! See you there!!

Kiss Forever: A Poem By Pamela
Kiss forever by Pamela I gotta tell you what I`m feelin` inside I could lie to myself, but it`s true There`s no denying when I look in your Eyes Girl I`m out of my head over you I lived so long believin` all Love is blind But everything about you is tellin` me this Time It`s Forever This Time I know and there`s no doubt in my mind Forever Until my life is thru, girl i`ll be lovin` you forever I heard the echo of a Promise I made When you`re strong you can stand on your own But those words grow distand as I look at your Face No, I don`t wanna go it alone I never thought I`d lay my Heart on the line But everything about you is tellin` me this Time It`s Forever This Time I know and there`s no doubt in my mind Forever Until my life is thru, girl i`ll be lovin` you forever I see my Future when I look in your Eyes and it took your Love to make my Heart come alive Cos I lived so long believin` all Love is blind But everything about you is tellin` me this Time

Top 11 Reasons To Go To Work Naked...
Top 11 Reasons to Go to Work Naked... 11. No one ever steals your chair. 10. Gives "bad hair day" a whole new meaning. 9. Diverts attention from the fact that you also came to work drunk. 8. People stop stealing your pens after they've seen where you keep them. 7. So that -with a little help from Muzak you can add "Exotic Dancer" to your exaggerated resume. 6. You want to see if it's like the dream. 5. To stop those creepy guys in Marketing from looking down your blouse. 4. "I'd love to chip in, but I left my wallet in my pants." 3. Inventive way to finally meet that special person in Human Resources. 2. Can take advantage of computer monitor radiation to work on your tan. ... And (drum roll) the number one reason to Go To Work Naked: 1. Your boss is always yelling, "I wanna see your ass in here by 8:00!"

Dominance And The Illusion Of Control
If you have read a lot of my blogs about relationships, you will know that I have a dominant personality. Most of what I tell you is about the typical male/dominant - female/submissive type relationship. When I wrote "Relationships, Love and Women", I state that most of it was generalized and I mention that some couples reverse those roles where the woman is the dominant partner and the man submissive and it works for them. When I said it was generalized and some things may seem one-sided when things weren't meant to be, that means that you have to be flexible when you think about things. It doesn't mean that what I say is all or nothing thing. Although there are many constants and laws about life, there are many ways to live life and somethings are flexible. There is no "one certain way" to live life, except to live by love. I understand that some women don't want to be dominated and at times women can lead, be aggressive and take control too. I love it when a woman shows her

Friday Links: Opie And Anthony Live, New York Format Flip, Lars From Metallica, Carl From Fuel, Patrice Oneal, New Video Hotness, Traveling Virus Tick
Happy Friday, everyone... it's a busy busy day here on the Opie and Anthony Show. First off, despite all the craziness, the show is LIVE today. Turn on yer friggin Paltalk and see for yourselves! We have Patrice Oneal in studio (he's playing COMIX Comedy Club in New York all weekend) and Bob Kelly on the phone. We have the crew from Basil T's in here making breakfast, and the place smells GREAT. As you may have heard, Free FM is no more (In New York City) and 92.3 KROCK is back. In honor of this format-flipping occasion, Lars Ulrich from METALLICA checked in with the show, and Carl Bell from FUEL called in to welcome us back...not that the O&A Show is going anywhere. We're still broadcasting from 6a-9a EST (on terrestrial stations), so don't panic. Thanks to our own Sam, we have some new O&A Show videos online: Uncomfortably Close Interview: Jared the intern and Stalker Patti Roland attempts the Rock Scream Opie's Birthday Skit - by the Opie and Anthony Interns The lovely

51/2 Months
OK ITS BEEN 51/2 MONTHS I AM DOWN 106 POUNDS AS OF THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED MY SELF AND I FEEL GREAT I HAVE MORE ENERGY AND I AM DOING ALOT MORE AND ENJOYING THINGS WITH MY KIDS ALOT MORE IT IS WEIRD TO SEE PPLS REACTIONS SINCE I HAVE LOST SO MUCH BUT ITS FEELS GOOD I HAVENT REACHED MY GOAL YET BUT IM STILL GOING WELL THAT IS ALL FOR NOW AND TALK TO EVERYONE SOON

Mess With Me
I posted a new pic and am using it as my primary at the moment. The pic states "mess with me and you mess with the whole trailer park" I thought that I might as well share the story with my friends on here as to why I chose this picture. Yes, I live in a trailer park. I live in a trailer. I do not live in a mobile home community. Thats a joke, its a trailer park.We have our share of trailer trash, however just because you live in a trailer does not make you trash. Me, all trailer no trash..... Anyway about a year and a half ago the trailer next door to me was up for sale, the neighbor on the other side of me has a daughter with two grown childern, she bought it and moved in. only one child lives with her and he at the time was 15 and is a bad child. seriously a demon child. Well, we had many many problems. their late night fights, music blasting at all hours. cars comeing and going all the time, (they were selling drugs). So, of course me and a few neighbors were trying to get them

My Poetry
Friday, April 20, 2007 I AM NOTHING Current mood: relieved I AM NOTHING NOT EVEN A PIECE OF DIRT ON UR SHOE I AM NOTHING DID I EVER MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU? I AM NOTHING THE TIME WE SPENT TOGETHER I AM NOTHING THEN YOU LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER I AM NOTHING THE PAIN I FEEL INSIDE I AM NOTHING CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY? I AM NOTHING EVERYWHERE I GO I SEE YOUR FACE I AM NOTHING THE TIMES WE SHARED IN THIS PLACE I AM NOTHING YOU ARE EMBEDDED IN MY MIND I AM NOTHING YOU LEFT ME LIKE I WAS A CRIME I AM NOTHING WHAT WE WERE IS NOW A THING OF THE PAST I AM NOTHINGMY MIND IS FREE AT LAST I AM NOTHING WHEN I THINK OF WHAT WE HAD I AM NOTHING ALL THE GOOD TIMES AND THE BAD I AM NOTHING JUST REMEMBER YOU WERE NEVER HATED I AM NOTHING OUR TIME TOGETHER WAS NEVER WASTED I AM NOTHING THIS IS MY LETTER GOODBYE I AM NOTHING HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE LIFE 7:25 PM - 5 Comments - 10 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Sunday, February 11, 2007

Friends With Benefits
Friends with Benefits Ok..see..I'm NOT a chicken & have posted this !!! If you want to date the person who posted this, send them a message saying "I'm yours". If you just want to sleep with them and stay friends, send them a message that says "I'd hit it". If you have no interest in the person at all send them a message that states "no comment".... SCARED? LOL THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO REPOST THIS, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN & see who replies. There is at least 1 person on your 360 that wants to date you, and maybe more that want to sleep with you.

Long Weekend
Well for those who read this, Memorial day weekend is here and with the warm weather means lots of outdoor activities. Like taking nude photos of Kay, submissive fun, spankings, bound, flashing, etc... I have promised Kay that this weekend will be a long one with her showing her submission the entire time, no matter when, where or who may be around, she knows that her ass will be spanked every day, that only skirts and tank tops will be worn, NO bra or panties. The start of summer is one she really looks forward to, for the winter clothes come off, and the summer ones come out, meaning many times she will be exposed, for all to see. Any suggestions you would like to make for her to do will be gladly accepted. Sir Don

Love Survives: A Poem By Sugarbreeches
Time to share is always there by Sugarbreeches I peered thru life Ever avoiding strife But now am undone My barriers broken For one has found me Reached in and unbound me His love has burst my bonds And set music to my songs His need for me And mine for him Has made my Winter Spring A new start With hammering heart We color the world with our dream Nothing is as it did seem He - my rising sun.

Daily Horoscope May 25
"That saying about all work and no play is truer than you think. The stars say to live it up. And no, that does not mean ordering take-out and watching something different on television. Get outside. Wear something cute." Outside? In the sun? With cute clothes? ME? They've lost their damn minds. Do they know how hot it is outside right now? Well, it's not so bad at night at least. Especially if you're kinda drunk!

Into Each Life
Into each LIFe Into each life a little rain will fall, but if you have a friend, you can bear it all, for a friend is an umbrella, to hold above your head, and help you think about, the sunny days instead. Into each life a little sun will shine, but if you have a friend, it will always be fine, for if you can share the sunny times, with a friend that will be grand, as you talk and walk together, securely hand in hand. Into each life a little wind will blow, but if you have a friend, to whom you can go, your friend can help to guide you, can help you make the choice, by offering their view, and adding a new voice. Into each life like leaves things will fall, but if you have a friend, you know that you can call, they'll always steer you clearly, when their counsel's sought, for a friend is like a safety net, in which you will be caught. Into each life a friend will come to you, for if you have a friend, you'll know what to do, when a probl

Another Downrater
and yet another downrater for Madeline http://www.cherrytap.com/user/869648 these people make me sick. Downrating people 1 is one thing I can cope with, I mean, I just think those people are sad and pathetic and probably have such a boring life that they need to try to make people feel miserable, but people who downrate a poster for a missing child is just heartless cruel and should be put in cages

Survey
Answer this and send it back 2 me in my inbox. You can add more to these if you want. Post it on ur bulletin w/ out the answers. You might be surprised w/ the results y = Yes n = No m=Maybe Would you? Will you? [_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _ [_] kiss me? [_] let me kiss you? [_] watch a porn movie with me? [_] take me out to dinner? [_] let me drive you somewhere? [_] take a shower with me? [_] buy me a drink? [_] take me home for the night? [_] let me sleep in your bed? [_] Sing car karaoke w/ me? [_] re-post this for me to answer your questions? [_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? [_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me? [_] let me make you breakfast? [_] help me with homework? [_] tickle me? [_] let me tickle you? [_] stick up for me if i was being put down? [_] get wasted with me? [_] instant message me? [_] greet me in public? [_] hang out with me? [_] bring me around your friends?

Friday And The Start To The Weekend, Memorial Day Weekend
Good Morning. Friday is here…Graduation weekend, oh my…where did this week go? It seemed like it was just Monday a few minutes ago…Oh well time to make the best of little time. I am in a hurry today as I was all week long but will survive. I have to make an appearance at the grocery store and hopefully not cart nap again…that is not fun running someone else’s cart around and having put items in it and then as they look at you removing your items from their cart…well let’s just say not the best looks in the world are to be had at that given minute. But, irregardless I have to pick up the food for Mandy’s Party, the beverages or should I say my beverages…LOL wow…I have a lot to do in little time. When the smoke finally clears I hope to be happy and resting. Talking about smoke…here is a story for you from our friends over in Scotland: "Stewart Laidlaw, 35, was banished from Thirsty Kirsty's pub in Dunfermline, Scotland, in March, following numerous complaints about his excessive flatul

Mod Of The Day
PLEASE CHECK OUT JOANNE...SHES BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT AND SHES TOADY'S "MOD OF THE DAY" JUST LET ME KNOW IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SHARE THE SPOTLIGHT. ALWAYS TAKING REQUESTS AND PLEASE BE PATIENT AS IM FLOODED WITH REQUESTS :) HAVE A WONDERFUL FRIDAY!!!

Thoughts
Who the Hell said I was nice? Some people have the nerve to tell me ... "hey your not nice". Well who the Hell told you I was? I never did. Hell I'm generous, loyal as Hell, honest to a fault, even understanding of people's plights, but nice? Look if you are brave enough to ask me for the truth ... that is what I am going to tell you. Why spare your feelings when the truth is what you want to know. If you want sentiment at that time, then ask me to send you a Hallmark card don't ask me to be honest. Believe me I am doing the more generous thing by telling you the hard, crusty, bitter tasting, hard to swallow, unmitagated, ugly truth as opposed to some sweet, smooth tasting, lovely to behold, leave your breath minty fresh, easy to swallow ... LIE. But hey I respect your right to want that, just don't expect it from me. I would die for my friends but tell them lies to spare feelings is not my style. And to those I don't count as friends or strangers ... well I owe you nothing, but I wi

Freaking Neighbours
I'm moving out in 2 weeks time but I swear the most annoying people have just moved in ubove and beside me. I live in a 9 apartment block and for the past 18 months it has been lovely and peaceful, but now two families have moved into the apartment beside me and above me and bloody hell I've never heard so much arguing in my life!!! Then they have make up sex!!!! jesus... I'm one of these people that play songs really loud when people annoy me to try to convey a message... can anyone suggest any good songs??

Diaries Of A Suvivor
WHEN LIFE WAS FUN, I THOUGHT LIFE WAS HARD..... WHEN LIFE WAS HARD, I THOUGHT LIFE WAS TURBULANT... WHEN LIFE WAS TURBULANT, I THOUGHT LIFE WAS HORRID.. WHEN LIFE WAS HORRID, I THOUGHT LIFE WAS CRAZY... WHEN LIFE WAS CRAZY, I THOUGHT LIFE WAS CRUEL... WHEN LIFE WAS CRUEL, I THOUGHT LIFE WAS IMPROBABLE.. WHEN LIFE WAS IMPROBABLE, I THOUGHT LIFE WAS IMMPOSIBLE...... THEN I REMEMBERED WHEN I THOUGHT LIFE WAS JUST HARD

Parenting Licenses
It's been a bad day — Friday, May 25, 2007 It's been a bad day, not just for me, but many of the people I know too. So that kinda sux. I think that there should be parenting licenses. If people don't have one, or don't get enrolled in a class to get one in a reasonable amount of time, they shouldn't be able to retain custody of their children. People don't get rights over others simply by forcing them to exist. Due to the extensive research that's been done, and the studied results of it, and the things it showed; there seems to be a best sort of way to raise children. Children deserve that way. If people aren't raising their children in a way that is shown to produce positive results, they should be told how to. There's this weird social stigma about telling people how to raise " their own children. " Children can't be owned, they are fucking human beings!!!!!!! People who think in that context have issues from the beginning. People need advice and training. Paren

After Party
Tomorrow is the big day LoL, Just a little nervous. Wow the event is from 10 pm till 3 am. This is going to be my first fashion show shoot / party. Hmmm I hope I got everything.... Do you think 1,275 photo's will be enought? LoL after the show i will try to post some samples... see ya there ....

Wtf!
yes i got rid of a few ppl off my family list a couple by mistake & this is what i get from 1 that i was just goin to put back on: "I really am sorry you feel that way towards me. I have done nothing but care about how you feel and what you were up to. If you feel I am not worhty to be in your family then FUCK OFF. Don't text me either. I don't care to deal with your drama any more. You want to Dis me like this well go ahead. YOU SUCK and remind me of all My CHEATING WHORE EX'S." what the fuck was i thinking!

My Baby Names
IF U DUMB ASS MUTHA FUCKING PPL ON HERE WANNA TALK DIRTY ON THE MUMS AND SHIT THEN TAKE IT SOMEWHERE ELSE AND FOR THOSE OF U ASS HOLES AND BITCHES THAT THINK MY BBAY NAMES ARE UNAPPEALING WELL I DIDNT ASK FOR UR STUPID ASS COMMENTS I JUST ASKED FOR VOTES SO IF ITS NOT NICE THEN DONT FUCKING SAY IT

I Am
I AM A YOUNG LADY MY INNOSCENCE LOST, IF YOU COULD TALK TO ME FROM THE GRAVE WOULD YOU ASK ME WAS IT WORTH THE COST? I AM A WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR U WILL NEVER AGAIN TREAT ME AS YOUR WHORE... I WAS SOMEBODY'S DAUGHTER WHO GOT LOST ALONG THE WAY AND IT'S BEEN A TOUGH JOURNEY BUT I'M HERE TO STAY.. I AM TAKING DOWN MY WALLS, BRICK BY BRICK, STONE BY STONE, EXAMINING EACH AS I GO... I AM ON A JOURNEY OF THE SOULS, FEELING MY WAY TRYING TO MEND THE HOLES.... I AM HUNGRY WITH THE PASSION TO LEARN ABOUT ME, AND EVERY LITTLE THING I SEE.... I AM TORMENTED BY THE PAIN I CAUSED FOR IT IS WITHOUT LOVE AND COMPASSION THAT WE HAVE PUT THIS PLANET ON PAUSE I AM WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES I NEVER LOST THE VISION... I AM WHO I CREATE............

Idle Chatter From The Voices In My Head
...before our way ward children ~ before the political wars ~ after sounds of bop & jazz ~ when new generations where born ~ a man with many names and faces ~ romed to all those Far off places ~ and spun the tales that began the search for our selves ~ drifting and trying in vail ~ to grab hold of the meaning of life ~ and all of it's dreaming...

Laws Regarding Child Support For Someone Getting Support From Someone On Ssdi
Can disability benefits be taken or seized for child support? Yes, disability benefits can be taken for child support. But this only applies to Social Security disability benefits. SSI recipients will not have their monthly disability benefits and past due benefits (backpay) seized. The reasoning applied by the federal government is this: since SSI is essentially a public welfare benefit and does not derive not from a claimant's earnings record, SSI benefits cannot be taken for other purposes, just as food stamps and AFDC funds, likewise, cannot be seized. got that from a law message board. Is a father who never married the mother still required to pay child support? What if the father is not allowed to see the child? Regardless of marital status, an 'assumed father' is any biological father of a child for whom paternity has been established by either the admission of the father or paternal testing. Assumed fathers are required to pay child support. Additionally, a

My Thoughts & Words
DIG ALITTLE DEEPER WHY DON'T YOU NOW ~ FOR ALL YOU HAVE LEAREDIN THE PAST IS IRRELEVANT ~ FORGET THE RULES ~ THE NEW RULE IS EVERYTHING GOES ~ FORGET WHAT SOCIETY HAS TOLD YOU IS CLEAN ~ ALL THAT WAS DIRTY IS NOW DEEMED CLEAN ~ DIG A LITTLE DEEEPER AND SET YOUR HIDDEN DESIRES FREE ~ FEEL NO SHAME ~ EVERYTHING IS NOT AS IT SEEMS ~ LET GO F YOUR FEARS ~ CRAVE ONLY WHAT YOU DESIRE ~ SEARCH DEEP AND BRING BACK ALL THAT YOU WHERE FORCED TO PUSH AWAY ~ DON'T GET CAUGHT UP IN THE GAME ~ IS BECAUSE IT'S JUST THAT ~ A GAME ~ AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LIFE

I Think Better When I've Got A Few Sleeping Pills In Me
Sleep eludes me as usual, so I'm just going to get out a little...musing (thus would be the basis of this blog). I've been kicking around the idea of spending the summer writing a play or novella. Yeah, I'm one of those sorry bastards that thinks they have the great American story inside them just dying to get out. I'm taking medication for this. Tonight is filled with the sound of Annie Lennox and soothing music that makes me die to write. Alas, I don't have much depth to say this evening...I've taken sleeping pills as work is gonna drag me up in there in about 6 hours. Something keeps me awake tonight, I just wish I knew what it was so I could fix it to sleep. I wasn't sure if poetry was the right mood, somehow...and whether anyone reads this, or gives a fuck (as I know I don't sometimes)...I'm slipping into one of those holiday depressions that mean I'm looking for the meaning of it all and finding myself very disillusioned with myself and the world around me. I really fee

The Monster Within...........
I WROTE THIS POEM IN MEMORY OF KEVIN MILLER R.I.P. STEP ASIDE MR. COCAINE YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN YOUR CHANCE.... IT'S MY TURN NOW TO SPIN YOU INTO MY ILLUSIONAL TRANCE.... YOU'VE SEEN ME BEFORE, BUT U PASSED RIGHT ON BY I JUST WAS'NT YOUR CHOICE IN YOUR SEARCH TO GET HIGH.. MY MAGIC IS PART OF MY MYSTICAL GAME... SHATTERED TORN VISIONS ONLY MYSELF IS TO BLAME THE WICKED ILLUSIONS OF THE MONSTERS WITHIN LIES ONLY AS DEEP AS YOU YOU LET HIM IN.... CREATURES OF NIGHT-TIME SLEPT THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE DAY YOUR LIFE REAPS MADDNESS IN SO MANY WAYS.... SO HERE IS A CLUE THAT I OFFER TO YOU, THE DAY IT BEGAN WAS THE DAY IT BEGUN WAS THE DAY YOU WERE THROUGH AND YOU KNOW THAT IT'S TRUE.... FOR I AM THE ONE, THE ONE YOU SHOULD THANK FOR YOU NOW HAVE BECOME MY SLAVE TO THE ONE THEY CALL CRANK HIT AFTER HIT, LINE AFTER LINE THE NEEDLE LAYED WAITING IT WAS JUST A MATTER OF TIME. SITTING AND TWEAKING DWELLING ON LIFE THAT FUCKING DOPE MONSTER TOOK MY FRIENDS LIFE...

My Clone
don't tell me that my heart is lying don't tell me it is not true don't tell me not to feel the way i am feeling about you i want to let this take me wherever it may lead i want to see what could become i want to know what could be i have only known you for a short while but the impact you have made is driving my heart wild this feeling rushing over me the way you make me smile this feeling that i have is much more than something mild a mirror image of myself in you i do see there is too much here to just let this feeling be whatever may become i just want to see you already have a place in my heart where forever you will be.

Haven't Been On In A While
sorry that i haven't been on in a while. galen and i have decided to to our seperate ways. it just wasn't working out....Just kidding. we are still going good; however, we have decided to move from where we are currently living to a trailer out in the country. it is rent free and that saves us $700 a month in rent; however, it has taken us probably a week to get this place cleaned up since his brother left it a mess and then we are going to start building a house. We are trying to save on money and have cut every means possible. I am at my parents house right watching their dogs as they my oldest son to go and see his brother. I get my youngest on June 10 and I can not wait. So please bear with me and if you sent a friend request, then i am slowly but surely getting to you.

Egad!
I am yet again amazed by the way that some people will overreact about the most inconsequential things. We have a temporary exhibition at the museum at the moment, called “1001 Inventions” (temporary exhibitions are a museums for a period of time and then usually move onto another venue). This is all about how, while most of Western Europe was wallowing in the muck and ignorance of the Dark Ages, the Muslim world was churning out scientific and medical innovations like…well, a lot. Now, with this being an exhibition that focuses on Islam, we had to be careful (as we all know, every Muslim in the entire world is a potential suicide bomber*) and we where expecting a certain amount of strong reactions, both positive and negative. The exhibition was officially opened yesterday (Thursday 24th May) at 12.30pm. We had our first complaint at 3.00pm. A gentleman (I use the word in it’s loosest possible sense) phoned our switchboard and said that while the exhibition looks at the Islamic contr

Things A Man Should Never Do After The Age Of 30
1. Use the word party as a verb. 2. Shots. 3. Body shots. 4. Jell-O shots...Especially Jell-O shots. 5. Read a book with the words "Zen and the Art of" in the title. 6. Do impressions of Austin Powers characters, especially Dr. Evil. 7. Help friends move. 8. Ask friends to help you move. 9. Crash on a friend's floor or couch. 10. Refer to breasts as "chesticles." 11. Experiment with facial hair. 12. Let your underpants show above your jeans or below your shorts. 13. Apply paint to your face for any reason at all. 14. Own beer-drinking paraphernalia. 15. Own a skull bong. 16. Know the names of the current Real World cast. 17. Remove your shirt in public—unless there is sand and a large body of water nearby. 18. Use the word dude, except when referring to a ranch or a well-dressed Englishman. 19. Use the word dawg in a sentence when referring to a friend or, worse, yourself. 20. Own a futon.

Fm Radio
why is it that radio disk jockies are like the gayest little bunch of metrosexual little blabbermouth pussies on the planet? seriously somebody tell me why. it's everywhere i go. they should put people who appreciate real music in charge of the airplay. put me on air. i'm sick of hearing the same 40 songs by "artists" who i hate, over & over

Die
Ok before you read this one, let me assure you I have no desire to die. I do NOT feel this way. I just felt like trying something different from my normal writing. Sometimes words are just that, WORDS! Title: Die By:Me Fix me, I'm broken It's these words left unspoken It's nothing more than a word It's something that's not absurd It's things left unsaid It's things that make me feel dead Feelings out on the table Life is not unlike a fable Some things never last And some things remind me of the past Sometimes life moves too fast And sometimes it's these stones I cast It's as if the weight of the world is on my back As if I fade to grey and everything turns black It's as if I'm listening to a dream But all I hear is my silent scream Save me if you can Save me if you have a plan I'm in a place with no doors I'm in a house with no rooms I'm in a place with no floors Something had better change soon I'm in a world of steel and concrete I'm in a world where

Kidnapping
Okay, so here is the thing...my ex had the kids back in January for a few weeks and possibly almost a whole month. They were doing me a favor in helping me out so that I can get a fresh start of things in my life. (They as in his fiance at the time, now wife) My ex and I had a virbal agreement that he would have the kids for just three months so that I can find a good job and possibly a new place to live...was living with my parents at the time because of other issues. So during this time, I was putting in job offers after job offers, until finally I found a job. By the time I was workin again it was almost at the end of January. Well, my ex's fiance at the time decided to put me down a mother that doesn't know how to take care of her kids and she is much more better mother than I will ever be...that kind of speech I got from her. It was she that had to tell me that my ex and her was going to keep the kids till the summertime and if they feel that I havent changed by having a good j

3,000 Comments Needed For A 3 Day Blast!
I need all my real friends to give me some real CT help! If i can get this pic commented 3,000 times i will win a 3 day BLAST! There is no time limit, so if you ever just get bored or would just really like to help me (those are the friends i love) I will love you forever and it will be greatly appreciated. I will find a way to show my appreciation for those who help me. p.s. Remember... this is a great time filler and point maker during Happy Hour!!!

International Missing Child Day
Madeleine's Picture Lights Up Marble Arch Updated: 07:22, Friday May 25, 2007 An image of missing four-year-old Madeleine McCann has been projected onto London's Marble Arch ahead of today's International Missing Children's Day. Her picture featured on a huge projected poster along with two other missing children, Javian Matthews, 14, from London and Samantha Osborn, 15, from Buckinghamshire who both disappeared in April this year. The Marble Arch landmark was bathed in a pink light dotted with yellow letters heralding the relaunch of the National Missing Persons Helpline. The charity has been renamed as Missing People, and Madeleine's uncle John McCann is to visit staff and volunteers at the organisation's headquarters in central London later today. Missing People will also announce a new campaign to adopt a yellow ribbon as an official symbol to remember anyone who has disappeared. Chief Executive of Missing People Paul Tuohy said: "Madeleine's disappearance

Nhl Boredom
Taken from the Book of Gretzky (2007 Edition): May the rich Oilers rise down and drink from the cup of Stanley, followed by Rangers and unfortunate for the Kings, they weren't worthy enough of greatness, for they had to settle with their own Blues. With no Captial rise. But now we are in the rise...the rise where the Senators get quaked to death by a bunch of ducks Almighty. Lemme hear a Quack! And if that is not a ridiculous site may they be struck down by Lightning and deal with the Coyotes, Sharks, Bruins and Panthers in the Wild and get hurled to smithereens by an Avalanche un the midst of a Hurricane. May they look up at the Stars with their Red Wings and dressed in their Blue Jackets and get beaten by Canadiens and Canucks holding Maple Leafs. Shall they met the Devils, Predators, and Islanders to get poked by Penquins on Flyers holding Sabres and sent to Flames, to be assaulted by Thrashers Have such no pity, says the Blackhawks. Can I get a Hat Trick!?

Life Is Shit And Im Gonna Run
so amanda how about that fucking trip lets go ... now across the country. im selling my shit ..because like every other person i know .you .you have fun and drink . you say stupid things that you dont mea when your sober and when your drunk but really you dont know what you want so you fuck other people over to protect yoursel fuck that man and fuck you

Oh My...
I had this guy on my friend list who i thought was Wiccan and had just uploaded some pics so I was happily going through his pics rating them tens... that is until... I came across a picture of him wearing a Nazi symbol. I asked him why he was wearing it and he said same reason he has it tattooed on him, and that is his beliefs. Yet another person who claims to be wiccan but actually isn't. Now, as a Gnostic I accept all beliefs but this one is way too far fetched for me. I usually embrace peoples beliefs and let them get on with whatever they want and still be friends with them, but this one is beyond me. The belief that everyone without blonde hair and blue eyes, and whom is not of "perfect blood" should be murdered in the most brutal way and their bodies to be experimented on is not the kind of thing that I deem acceptable. Strangely, this mans young daughter looked as if she was going brunette to me. So please, if you are on my list and are a Nazi or agree with what the

You Hold
Your lips speak soft sweetness, Your touch a cool caress, I am lost in your magic, My heart beats within your chest, I think of you each morning, And dream of you each night, I think of your arms being around me, And cannot express my delight, Never have I fallen, But I am quickly on my way, You hold a heart in your hands, That has never before been given away.

Pcd Finalist
OK, I know a few of you know but most of you dont so her we go.... Most of you have seen in my name future PCD. First off PCD stands for PUSSY CAT DOLLS! on June 2nd I'll be in HollyWood getting the rest of the information I need an dI will update yo but for starters thisis what been going on. I have made the final 10 cut for the second season of The search for the Next Pussy Cat Doll. which airs Tuesdays on The CW. So far I know we are shooting from aorund the 13th of July till the 13th of September. alot ofthe show is live but then again some isnt so I promise to keep you all posted on what and when to look for .. Thanks to all my friends who have shown thier support and been there for me "you all mean the world to me" I swear I couldnt be happier. Well unless I win wich I do plan on doing. Once again thank you all for being such great friends and always being there for me. Promising to keep you posted!!!! Always Ella AKA LADY E.

I Am A Work In Progress.
Not to say that I am more complex then others, but I am not sure how many people will actually understand what I am about to say. They are just things on my mind that I often wish I could just blob out with a big black marker. Perhaps then and only then could I have a complete moment of clarity My life can easily be broken down into different sections. Looking back at these “sections” it seems each one was an entirely different life. Each filled with entirely different people, whom somehow I affected or they affected me; sometimes this being for the best other times not. I believed certain people come into our lives to teach us important lessons. At times those lessons might fall upon deaf ears but not until later down the road do we release what they were there for. Each different section holds different experiences; sometimes these memories haunt me late into the night. Yet, I truly believe that I went through these things for a reason. As hard as some of them are to face they ea

I Made This Topic Weeks Ago And Never Put Anythig In It....
I sit here at 3 in the morning wondering where I have been going wrong all of this time. I got on this site to flirt and make friends. Instead I get a lot of bullshit. Tonight within about a 5 minute period I had three rude comments. They were so bad that if it had not for a friend of mine I would have deleted my account, but after talking to him about the verbal assaults I decided that there are people on here that are worth me staying for. I can not seem to figure out though why I am still here. Yes there are a few people that I do not want to loose contact with but is it not just as easy to talk to them on messenger or add them to myspace and do it that way? It is fixig to be the only way to find me and talk to me. If I feel like that even. Ya know I really messed up recently and started to care about someone who recently has made me realize not by words so much as actions that I need to back up and reevaluate my life and the way that I handle things. So more or less here is my deci

Stuff You Might Wanna Know..
Stuff you might not know Body: *The liquid inside young coconuts can be used as substitute for blood plasma. *No piece of paper can be folded in half more than 7 times. *Donkeys kill more people annually than plane crashes. *The king of hearts is the only king without a mustache. *Venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise. *Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning. *The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets or flugobinders *Most dust particles in your house are made from dead skin. *The first owner of the Marlboro Company died of lung cancer. *Pearls melt in vinegar. *The three most valuable brand names on earth: Marlboro, Coca-Cola, and Budweiser, in that order. *It is possible to lead a cow upstairs....but not downstairs. *A duck's quack doesn't echo and no one knows why. *Turtles can breathe through their butts. *On average, 100 people choke to death on ball-point pens every year. *Elephants are the only ani

Wanna Get Married? ... Rofl!
This is a true story about a recent wedding It was in local newspaper and even Jay Leno mentioned it. It was a huge wedding with about 300 guests. After the wedding, at the reception, the groom got up on stage with a microphone to talk to the crowd. He wanted to thank everyone for coming, many from long distances, to support them at their wedding. He especially wanted to thank the bride's and his family and to thank his new father-in-law for providing such a lavish reception. As a token of his appreciation he said he wanted to give everyone a special gift just from him. So taped to the bottom of everyone's chair, including the wedding party was an envelope. He said this was his gift to everyone. Inside each manila envelope was an 8x10 glossy of his bride having sex with the best man. The groom had gotten suspicious of them weeks earlier and had hired a private detective to tail them. After just standing there, just watching the guests' reactions for a couple of minutes, he turned to th

Hillbilly Sex
HILLBILLY SEX Two hillbillies were sitting around talking one afternoon. After a while the first fellow says to the second, "If'n I was to sneak over to your place Saturday and make love to your wife while you was off huntin', and she got pregnant and had a baby, would that make us kin?" The second fellow crooked his head sideways for a minute, scratched his head, and squinted his eyes like he was thinking real hard about the question. Finally, he said, "Well, I don't know about kin, but it would make us even.

Torn
Could life just become simple.. Everyting just fall into place? Well obviously not mine. Its more confusing now then it has been in awhile. First off I need to find a better job.. I love the job that I have, but I need more money.. But doesnt everyone? My love life is one big mess. I have some of the greatest men in the world in my life but its not fair to them that I am dating them all and not giving just one my undivided attention. Man #1 has had my attention for a while now. He is a sweetheart but his life is a little crazy for me, and I'm not sure I would fit in it. He is a bit of a wild child, and I dont think he is ready to give that up.He says he really cares about me, and that if he had a reason to settle down he would. I know he really wants a family and to be the provider, and take care of everyoe, but he cant accept that he might need to be taken care of too, and needs to let someone in in order to have the family. Man #2 Is actually a former ex and he wants us to be a coupl

Well I Am One Step Closer......
I am one step closer to starting my online classes. I finished my orientation tonight. It was long and a little boring, but I gave it hell and learned a few things in the process. Basically wrote this out of boredom lol.

Here We Go Again
i love these things lol first off, yes i have a cam, i did not take my pics with my mind i dont have yahoo i dont cam very often and only with close friends my boobs are 38F i have low tolerance for stupid questions im the moron here on a lighter note, i had my first ct proposal lol it was very sweet big hugs and kisses for my friends

Sexy Dad Contest Help Me Win Please
THIS IS THE LINK CONTEST http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=480938&albumid=367867&i=2194674403 SEXIEST CT DAD CONTEST WILL BEGIN TONIGHT 24TH, AT 7PST-10 CENTRAL...CONTEST WILL END MAY 31ST..TY FOR ENTERING AN GOODLUCK Please help me I would love to win ab=nd if all my friends and fans vote I could do it. send out the message a nd put me in first place please THANKSfor the help and for all the votes in advance Ken

Fun Stars 5-25-07
Your professional life gets a nudge that will get (and keep) your ambitions on the right track. You've got what it takes, and most importantly, you know how to get it across to the powers that be. Compromise is key.

So There I Was...
in exactly nine hours i will be "leaving on a jet plane" to my beloved home town, OLYMPIA! "yeaaaaaaaahhhh booyyyeeeeeeee!" who's stoked!? oh yeah. ME!!!!!! anywho yizzall, i will most likely be engrossed in massive amounts of alcohol, beside nothing but the best of friends, so don't miss me tooooo much! heh. in the words of Nay, "pee ou!"

Would You?
Answer this and send it back 2 me in my inbox. You can add more to these if you want. Post it on ur bulletin w/ out the answers. You might be surprised w/ the results y = Yes n = No m=Maybe Would you? Will you? [_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _ [_] kiss me? [_] let me kiss you? [_] watch a porn movie with me? [_] take me out to dinner? [_] let me drive you somewhere? [_] take a shower with me? [_] buy me a drink? [_] take me home for the night? [_] let me sleep in your bed? [_] Sing car karaoke w/ me? [_] re-post this for me to answer your questions? [_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? [_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me? [_] let me make you breakfast? [_] help me with homework? [_] tickle me? [_] let me tickle you? [_] stick up for me if i was being put down? [_] get wasted with me? [_] instant message me? [_] greet me in public? [_] hang out with me? [_] bring me around your friends?

Shannon A. Hodges In Loving Memory
In loving memory We love you Shannon A. Hodges April, 7 1973-----April, 14 2007 Shannon we little knew that morning, That God was going to call your name, and as you ascend the starry sky above, You know you are truly blessed for, In life we loved and cherished you dearly, In death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you, and though our hearts we’re still mending, You did not go alone, For part of us went with you the day God called you home, You left us peaceful memories, Your love is still our guide, and though we cannot see you, You are always at our side and in our hearts. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same. You were a friend, a brother, a husband and a father Like no other, and as God calls us one by one, our family chain will link again once more. By: Victoria Lee Takenaka

Going To Fla, With Some One I Never Met
This is going to be a crazy trip I can tell, Stared out taking a old girl friend and last night got tired of her mouth and being bossy ! Wrong, So to night I'm on a site and see this hot girl and playing ? I sent her a message saying you want to go to Fla. ? She replyed hell Yes ! So we talked and we are going to meet up and go. I'm excited but nervous at the same time, Will finish ot this may be a start to a long story. We'll see ? Stay tuned ? Same bat channel same bat time ,

Do I Have A Kick Me Sign On My Page?
Look I know that people can rate 1- 10 but I don't rate anyone under a 10, this might sound like bitching to many of you, but the way I see it is that you came to my page to look around you YOU FOND ME you like what you see fine, you want to rate it thats fine,but why bother telling me that you think my page and the pictures on it are worth anything under a 10?? this is my profile I like what I put on here fuck off... I have been back here on CT for under a week and I have blocked more people in that amount of time then I have sense I started on here when it was lost cherry...what the hell happened here? this is the way I see it and I'm sure most of you disagree but whatever. If someone rates me a 10 or an 11 I do the same for them if someone fans me than I do the same for them this also works with pictures, NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER do I go on someones page and rate them under a 10 even if their page sucks!!! I just don't rate at all I move on or maybe I find something on the page I mi

Memories*
As times ruin each day of my life Every single moments keeps alive In every leaves that fall unto thy tree I keep counting the days back to thee Seasons comes and go as the years went on Shadows of your Love in the airs divine Your warm kisses keep my lips wet Your hug and cares keep my body sweat The dawn is now appearing As my tired memories endearing My youthfullness fall as a dry leaf But still my Love for you is safe I will close my eyes with sweet smile Cause I know we will meet at the rainbows tail...

My Name Is Sarah
Sarah My name is Sarah I am but three, My eyes are swollen I cannot see, I must be stupid, I must be bad, What else could have made My daddy so mad? I wish I were better, I wish I weren't ugly, Then maybe my Mommy Would still want to hug me. I can't speak at all, I can't do a wrong Or else I'm locked up All the day long. When I awake I'm all alone The house is dark My folks aren't home. When my Mommy does come I'll try and be nice, So maybe I'll get just One whipping tonight. Don't make a sound! I just heard a car My daddy is back From Charlie's Bar. I hear him curse My name he calls I press myself Against the wall. I try and hide From his evil eyes I'm so afraid now I'm starting to cry. He finds me weeping He shouts ugly words, He says its my fault That he suffers at work. He slaps me and hits me And yells at me more, I finally get free And I run for the door. He's

Well He Enough One
you know you thank you can trust a person the you see something and wonder about it. unbeliver i thank i am about ready to gave up in beliveing poeple.if i am wrong and i want to be wrong but i do not know.i mean u there for someone when they needed you and then . so i donot know well if that person want to after all that crap hey its on that person look what happen want to go back to that thats up to you. but when you get stab in the back again may not be there .you like family its a shame it seems to mean nothing to you . if i am wrong tell me if not goodbye and good luck.

Le Requiem D'un E`tranger
Anyone else ashamed of what they are? The smoke curls around my fingertips. Burned you. Dunno why. Beat your head into a mess of wet meat. Dunno why. Took myself out on myself. Breathe in poison. Try not to smile. Try not to cry. Still okay to scream. Still okay to drag the needle across your brain. Used needles. Crusted over with aborted scabs. Withering away. No one to put all this hate into but myself. No fix until the weekend. Need a hit. So take you out on you. One with none. Comes with instructions. Because... you... I?- can't bear to see her in pain. Hate that pout. Only smiles... please. Only laughter in this house. You know the one... small ranch... yellow sheets. Big orange couch. ...what rhymes with orange? Doesn't matter, I'm not that kind of poet anyway. I'm no kind of poet. I'm no kind. Outsider. Wanting only everything. Tout dans rien. Seulement vous.

When You Left
Not my work, but fully expresses my feelings at the recent passing of my Father. Dad, when you left to go home to God, You took a big part of my heart. I see you and feel you will all that I do. Will this broken heart ever mend? I hope that some day I willbe with you again. For I still cry those tears and Still want you to hold me and make it better. Life isn't the same without you here. The family is pulling apart. Don't they care any more? Only you could hold it together, Because you WAS the glue that held us together! Dad, I love you and miss you so much. Please watch over Mom, as you have always done, I know how she misses you, For I have heard her crying in the night. I tried to tell her that everything will be alright. Copyright 2004, Juanita Hutchinson I got a certificate saying that I had won in a poetry contest for this poem. As I read it now, I can see where it needs improvement. Please tell me what you think, but be gentle. Juanita

I Wrote This... Let Me Know What You Think.
There was a time not long ago when i thought the stars could get any brighter nor the grass any greener. Today i look apon the same things and yearn for the brightness that once was. i yearn for the magical touch of you hand that makes my life complete.The soft feathering touch of your lips on mine. You brought the color back into my life and for that i have no regrets. i wish you love and happieness in all you do.Remember as life takes us on our paths that i will always love you.

Wolfs Call For True Love
where is all the romance is love in vain, no passion in sight things seem all the same. nothing seems to satisfy and love to me is so unreal, this world is driving me insane i think i forgot how to feel. i don't need your pity for the shape I'm in, i need to start over and its time to begin. somethings in my visions something deep inside, iv been lost and found and turned around were is my pride. I'm looking for love and passion but their seems to be none, looking for love is harder than it seems "its not fun". please god help me i need true love please, send a blessing from above to fill all my dreams and needs. i have to find balance and focus all my power, because right now seems to be my darkest hour. my love are you out their can you feel my very soul, ineed you in my life with you i will be whole. this wolf is really sad now i think I'm in distress, its been so long since iv found true love, please god send me my angle from above. > send me please my soul mate to m

The Boundary
The hills continue to call my name The breeze carries the message Of my people through time and space To my weary form deep within This corrupted city The whispers keep me awake Echoing in my mind-over and over My soul-more and more restless To be home again-to be whole again The pain becomes more pronounced The burn, the ache to smell the pine The fresh mountain air surrounding me To see the blue smoke across the ridge Just knowing it's still a part of me To feel the cleansing water Of the Oconaluftee across my feet Offering peace and renewed healing As I stand tall in the Boundary Weary-no more To walk hand in hand with My husband and our children Seeing its wonders through their eyes A magical place full of heritage, family, And love---forever our home Never taken for granted Even as the years pass us by Lara Johnson (c) 2007

Naughty Behavior = Naughty Rewards
Whats that you say MISTRESS BETHIE?!??!?!? You are looking for naughty boys and girls to punish?!!?!?!? If We vote for yo uin the Betti Page look~a~like contesr we will get what wedeserve!! Where do We sighn up???? CLICK THIS PIC TO VOTE FOR BETHIE PAGE! WOW!!! You really do look like Bettie MISTRESS BETHIE!!! WE"RE NOT WORTHY!!!!! Brought to yo uby the letter "P", the number "26" and MISS REDNECK!!!! redneck7705*PLEASE FAN ME BEFORE YOU ADD ME!!!!!!!!*@ CherryTAP Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

My Poetry
I have searched and I have tried, All the while I slowly died, Inside my heart was crying out, But no one even heard when I would shout. All you people turn your backs, And now the old me is back, Raven touched my heart and soul, He IS my soul and has control. You all wanted me to be cold, Now its time I finally told, All the people who think of me, As nothing but a monster that what I'll be. You all who hurt me turned away, Were all nothing but fake, Up to this day, You all aimed for my heart to break. Now it has you've all won, This is what you all wanted done, For me to turn to hate and rage, Only thing is you forgot my cage. You all screwed up in making me hurt, For now my heart lies in the dirt, I will become all that you fear, I no longer hold ANY one dear. None of you thought about how I felt, You only wanted another heart under your belt, Here is the deal when it came to my heart, Only one person held enough to break it all apart. I lea

Free Your Body And Soul
Free your body and soul Unfold your powerful wings Climb up the highest mountains Kick your feet up in the air You may now live forever Or return to this earth Unless you feel good where you are! unknown

Sugar-coated Lovehandles!
((Its in French for a reason!)) L'ok, ainsi moi fais ce blog entier en français. Si vous pouvez le comprendre, grand. Si pas, bien, il l'appartient vous pour traduire mon Babel incohérent. Quant au reste de vous qui deviennent a frustré avec le fait que vous ne comprenez pas le concept d'une autre langue - vous sont simplement sur vos propres. Si tout va bien vous haut sage et vous rendez compte que le monde est un grand endroit complètement de beaucoup de personnes intéressantes. Il est étonnant comme les personnes fermer-occupées peuvent être. Comment pouvons-nous juste marcher par la vie et ne pas embrasser chaque aspect de ce monde ? Pour trop long nous reposons suffisant sur les lignes de touche ; en s'attendant à ce que notre chemin nous dirige dans la direction nos pieds devez aller. Je crois que nous faisons nos propres chemins. Nous mettons un pied avant l'autre et par la suite nous transformons l'herbe en routes de saleté. Et si nous voyageons dans les deux sens entre u

A Choir Of Trumpets?
You are in your car driving home. Thoughts wander to the game you want to see or meal you want to eat, when suddenly a sound unlike any you've ever heard fills the air. The sound is high above you. A trumpet? A choir? A choir of trumpets? You don't know, but you want to know. So you pull over, get out of your car, and look up. As you do, you see you aren't the only curious one. The roadside has become a parking lot. Car doors are open, and people are staring at the sky. Shoppers are racing out of the grocery store. The Little League baseball game across the street has come to a halt. Players and parents are searching the clouds. And what they see, and what you see, has never before been seen. As if the sky were a curtain, the drapes of the atmosphere part. A brilliant light spills onto the earth. There are no shadows. None. From whence came the light begins to tumble a river of color spiking crystals of every hue ever seen and a million more never seen. Riding on the flow is

Poem That My Mother Wrote For Those In Uniform Right After 9/11
IN MEMORY OF ~~~~Here's to the men that went to war ask them again and they'll give some more. ~ ~~~~~Life and limbs and eyes were lost. but they fought on - to hell the cost. ~ ~~~~~~When bells ring with freedoms call brave men march _ tho some may fall ~ ~~~~~~~With waters red they forged the beach the brave marched on thru evils reach written by Gloria Armstrong 2001

A Blast Giveaway...,friends/family Only
I am offering to friends an opportunity to get a 3 day blast....i will offer 3, so first in best dressed........deal is ,you nominate a pic ,i rip it and once you tally up 3,000 comments you will earn a blast....just give me a yell and its on, you won't get a better offer as i have seen 5,000+ comments required minimum for these 3 day blasts......hope some friends are interested...... Cheers from the Assassin,Ian

Im Thinking About Opening My Private Gallery If I Can Get Votes And Win This....
vote for me in this cherry tap pin up girl contest...every comment counts as one vot...you can vote all you like ...show me sum luv...keep me happy and ill be updating soon...

Massive Bewilderment But Mild Amusement
I was almost entertained today by a young girl on cherry. Her "name" was "why don't people take the time to rate me when i rate them"...i thought ok,i will check to see as she claims at the injustice she is receiving (hahaha) and whether she is full of crap or not.......i rate her page, fan her,rate her 3 stash items and 21 pics....low and behold...you would never guess...she comes by rates me an 8 and leaves,rofpmsl....some people are such turds,rofpmsl Another saga of bollocks from : The Aussie Assassin,... CHEERS ,BEERS,N GOOD SEX Ian

Melanie C › The Moment You Believe
Time To Face What You Are Hiding From Don't Have To Do This On Your Own Together We Are Strong We Don't Need Anyone No Matter What They Say The Time Has Come I'm Ready Now To Start A New Beginning With All Our Hopes And All Our Dreams And I Know The Stars Will Shine For You And For Me From The Moment You Believe I Know They Think That I'm No Good For You But We Both Know That They're Wrong Together We Can Fight Show Everyone We're Right I Don't Care What They Say Our Time Has Come I'm Ready Now To Start A New Beginning... When You Believe There's Nothing You Can't Overcome When You Believe The Earth Is Brighter Than The Sun I Believe I'm Ready Now To Start A New Beginning...

Metallica Baby News (may '07 Edition):
METALLICA BABY NEWS (MAY '07 EDITION): 5/24/2007 Lars Ulrich and Connie Nielsen became the proud parents of a boy, Bryce Thadeus Ulrich-Nielsen on Monday May 21st in San Francisco. Mother's doing well, Dad's in awe, and brothers Layne, Myles, and Sebastian are psyched!

Poem
Dreaming I used to dream of eyes so blue And loving arms to hold me. I used to dream of heroic knights And how gracious they would be. I used to dream of how I wouldn't settle For anything less than best. I used to dream of how he would majestically Lay all fears to rest. I used to dream of fairy tales, How wondrous would they be I used to dream of story books All patterned after me. I used to dream of a lot of things, But the moment I met you, I immediately stopped dreaming, Because all of my dreams came true. ©Kelly M

Last One Standing
Queen of the night Life of the party It's all an illusion You can't hide that big of heartache So stop the delusion Waitin' for someone's rescue My arms are right here for you (Chorus:) Through the wind and the rain Through the laughter and pain Count on me And when life isn't fair And there's nobody there, I will be In a world of pretenders I am your defender (I'll never surrender) And when it all comes down (Yeah, when it all comes down) I'll be the last one standing This is for life Don't ever doubt it I've already fallin' Love is alive So stand up and shout it Cause destiny's calling The others who stand behind me They don't look nothing like me (Chorus) Waitin' for someone's rescue My arms are right here for you (Chorus)

Salute Pics!!!(for My Bombers)
I got about 10 pics up and my Digital Camera Died.. its Charging now..LOLSo if you're not listed below, I didnt forget you. Yours will be in the second wave once my Camera recharges.:DMy Current standing last time I looked was second place. Contest ends Sunday night if you would like to continue to help me out, it would be much appreciated. HUGS ALLMy Contest LinkMy Bombers(in no general order)Just Plain JohnSexxy MommaPaulLauriaKennethfryguyDocElizBriBekkaFor those just tuning in...If you want your very own Salute, pic click the link for my contest and comment bomb me.And dont forget to send me a Cmail letting me know you bombed so I can get you on my Salute list!!Thank you ALL♥ brat ♥

Moments
I was coming to the end of a long long walk When a man crawled out of a cardboard box Under the E. Street Bridge Followed me on to it I went out halfway across With that homeless shadow tagging along So I dug for some change Wouldn't need it anyway He took it lookin' just a bit ashamed He said, You know, I haven't always been this way I've had my moments, days in the sun Moments I was second to none Moments when I knew I did what I thought I couldn't do Like that plane ride coming home from the war That summer my son was born And memories like a coat so warm A cold wind can't get through Lookin' at me now you might not know it But I've had my moments I stood there tryin' to find my nerve Wondering if a single soul on Earth Would care at all Miss me when I'm gone That old man just kept hanging around Lookin' at me, lookin' down I think he recognized That look in my eyes Standing with him there I felt ashamed I said, You know, I haven't always been this wa

Stricken
I was struck before the hour Of a love so sudden and sweet. Your face shone like a shining star And made my own heart beat. My face turned as pale as ever, My legs refused to walk away Yet when you looked at me What could I possibly say? My life had suddenly seemed To all just melt away. Then my blood rushed to my face And took my sight away. It seemed like it was midnight When it was only mid- day I could not see a single thing, Words from my eyes did start, They spoke as a chord does from a string And a sweeter melody it did play. You seemed to hear my silent voice And love's appeal to dream I never saw such a sweet face As the one that stood before me.

November
She was sittin' on a park bench Feedin' pigeons on Beacon Hill I was takin' my dog Jack out for a run We had a little time to kill I still don't know if it was Jack or me That somehow caught her eye But the next thing I knew we were sittin' there talkin' Laughin' into the night And from that moment on She never left my side Those autumn nights were long She was the first love of my life (Chorus:) I still can feel the softness of her hair Fallin' on my face My arms all around her There's always somethin' 'bout this time of year That takes me to that place And I remember (Yes, I remember) November Oh yeah She was workin' her way through school Waitin' tables at the Hungry Eye I was playin' a club down on the waterfront Afterward she'd come by Around 3 AM we'd grab some takeout In the heart of Chinatown And we'd hang out and stay up all night long Just talkin' and messin' around I never would have dreamed We'd ever s

Who Monitors These Ppl?
->æ_SHADYJ_æ: thank you for writing in public forum that you intend to mark all my pics....i will be moving up the chain at this point ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: theres no face must be a pervert shot ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: hmm, i even see one for you right now æ_SHADYJ_æ: thats fine i will mark them all lol ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: my body isn't showing either....its a pic of my shirt and neck ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: fine.....i'm going on a marking spree cuz there are millions of pics with shots and no one marks them.....i'm fully clothed....this is rediculas æ_SHADYJ_æ: if it shows their body and doesnt have their face in the pic then yes its NSFW ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: so your telling me all pics that do not show a persons face are NSFW? æ_SHADYJ_æ: the rule for body shots is no face=NSFW clothes or not sorry ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: what does that have to do with not being safe for work? æ_SHADYJ_æ: ur face isnt in the pic i cant unmark it ->æ_SHADYJ_æ: if thats an NSFWpic then so are both of my last 2 salutes cuz i am wea

Read This....help Find This Little Girl
----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: In Memory of The Victims of Child Abuse Date: May 24, 2007 6:40 AM From: a site for madeleine Date: May 24, 2007 3:29 AM do you care about this little girl ??? Portugese police are declining help for the worlds best sniffer dogs to go in and find Madeleine. The offer was given within days of her abduction. These dogs are amazing and will without doubt uncover clues as to where Madelleine is and what has happened to her. These dogs can only sniff out clues within a 28 day period. We have only a few days left! We must help to get these dogs in NOW! Please please sign below lets get a petition going we may be able to demand this happens in some way if we can get enough support towards this. OFFICIAL PETITION LINK http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/findmadeleinenow/ please forward to all your contacts cheers Darren from http://www.myspace.com/189714824 we need a lot lot mo

45 Reasons To Re-enlist. Ahaha Its Funny
1. Yesterday sucked, today sucked, tomorrow is going to suck, and this seems to be a pretty solid forecast for the rest of my enlistment. 2. Spending 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year training for something that there is a 99.9% chance that we will never do. 3. WWWDWOA? (what would we do without acronyms?) 4. Taking simple daily tasks and breaking them down into nuclear physics before doing them. 5. Having to attend a brief prior to carrying out any task more complicated than picking my nose. 6. Being a personal servant (that's basically all I am) to any one of the 300 thousand people in the military who out-rank me. 7. Being an adult and having somebody inspect me everyday to make sure I put my clothes on properly, and put my shoes on the right feet. 8. Having to wear a "cover," or hat, every time I want to go outside. 9. I love cleaning the same places over and over and over until either the paint comes off or my hands are bleeding. 10. Wit

Bring Back The Glory Days
It sickens me to see how many white people have stopped caring about their people and their heritage, just to appear as what Jewish society deems as normal these days. What ever happened to the men and women who would stand up and speak out when such atrocities are being committed against our people, what happened to the leaders we once had, men of character and honor? We are now living in a time where our very own leaders are themselves draft dodgers, Jewish puppets or desk jockeys. We no longer are able to look to our leaders for guidance, we are no longer able to do what is right for our people and we are no longer able to keep our borders safe and secure without a group set up for the civil rights of people who have no right to be in this country as it is. It is far past due that we elect a leader who has the balls to stand up and break up the media, it is time we no longer sit back and allow the Kikes the rule they have rightfully stolen from our people, it is time we take a st

I Was Trippin Hard Tonight
ME UH....PEDRO THAT'S RIGHT WAS TRIPPIN FUKEN HARD TONIGHT MAN AND I UH PIMP OUT MY PROFILE CUM SHOW ME SOME.......... UH..........SOME LOVE...UH THAT'S RIGHT. UH.... OH YA TELL ALL YOUS STONER BUDS TOO AMIGO........COMPRENDE BTW GEORGE WAS HERE HE SAID "HIGH" Say High! with Weedcomments.com

Wizard's First Rules
1.Believe:if you true believe that something is,It is. 2.If you truely believe something isn't it isn't. 3.True magic is in the eye of the beholder. 4.True magic is neither black or white. 5.True magic should never be used to hurt other people. 6.True magic should never mess with free will. 7.True magic should never go against the morals of another. 8.True magic should never be relied on to take care of everything so all will go your way. 9.True magic comes from the heart. 10.True magic if used properly should never scare you. 11.True magic is okay as long as you know the code of 3times3. 12.True magic is not to doubt your abilities. 13.True magic is never selfish to only benefit yourself and not at the expense of others. 14.True magic is loving. 15.True magic does not hold grudges against another. 16.True magic does not exsist of only one deity. 17.True magic even understands the homeless man/woman. 18.True magic does not let love blind him. 19.True magic does not di

A Fond Farewell To Sip
When comic book creators enter the industry, I think it’s safe to say that they all hope to leave some kind of mark behind – either through an entire book or possibly just through a single character. Can you imagine how it would feel to have given the comics world “Superman” or “X-Men”? For small-press publishers, the challenge of leaving a lasting mark is even greater, but a few do manage to do it. Thanks to some very determined creators, we will always have “Cerebus,” “The Tick,” and “Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles” to enjoy. But what about lasting comics without sorcery, superpowers, or talking animals? The odds appear to be even more against you, but one creator has managed to leave a mark in the industry that won’t disappear anytime soon – Terry Moore. In 1993, Moore created a book called Strangers in Paradise (known as SiP to its fans), which he wrote and drew himself. Since that time, the book has not only won awards from several literary organizations, but has also been th

Untitled 2
UNTITLED 2 I DON’T NEED NO PRAYING HANDS OR JESUS’ IMAGE AS A MAN I DON’T NEED NO CROSS FASHIONED IN GOLD I DON’T NEED GOD’S NAME IN HEBREW WORDS I DON’T NEED NO HAJJ AROUND THE WORLD OR KNEEL BEFORE METEOR STONES I DON’T NEED NOTHING TO NOT FORGET I WEAR GOD IN MY STEP MY SIGHT, MY TOUCH, MY TASTE AND FEEL I KEEP GOD IN MY EAR EZ10

Me
To whom i do not know what to do, i am a rock just a plain old rock.just sitting here wondering what happen to my life, you can throw me in the water and i will sink no matter what i try to do to get out. I will be on the bottom, hoping for someone to pull me out.Someone new or someone old.

Untitled Poem
UNTITLED 1 SOMETIMES THINGS ARE LOST ON ME LIKE WHY THE ANGEL’S BLOOD STAINS THE STREET??? OR WHY THE FLOOD MUST BE SO DEEP??? SOME THINGS I’LL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW DOES THE DEAF CHILD KNOW HOW LOUD TO WAIL??? THE BURIED SOLDIER DIED FOR LAND??? OR DID THE DEVIL FALL OR FAIL???

Daddy's Poem
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees; a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching,

Morning Sex
She was in the kitchen preparing to boil eggs for breakfast. He walked in. She turned and said,"You've got to make love to me this very moment." His eyes lit up and he thought, "This is my lucky day." Not wanting to lose the moment, he embraced her and then gave it his all, right there on the kitchen table. Afterwards she said,"Thanks," and returned to the stove. More than a little puzzled, he asked,"What was that all about?" She explained,"The egg timer's broken."

Oh.......shit!!!!
MOST FUNCTIONAL ENGLISH WORD > Well, it's shit... that's right, shit! Shit may just be the most functional word in the English language. > Consider: You can get shit-faced, Be shit-out-of-luck, Or have shit for brains. > With a little effort, you can get your shit together, find a place for your shit, or be asked to shit or get off the pot. > You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, forget shit, and tell others to eat shit. > Some people know their shit, while others can't tell the difference bet ween shit and shineola. > There are lucky shits, dumb shits, and crazy shits. There is bull shit, horse shit, and chicken shit. > You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit, shoot the shit, or duck when the shit hits the fan. > You can give a shit or serve shit on a shingle. > You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit. > Some days are colder than shit, some days are hotter than shit, and some days are just plain shitty. >

So Here's The Scoop.
this past week has been nothing short of terrible. my mom went into the hospital tuesday morning. i've been a wreck since then, now knowing things could possibly get worse with her condition. i'm glad i've had the support of my friends who in fact, are my family as well. they've made it so much easier to handle all the craziness. especially someone I would have never expected to come back into my life at the right time. lucky me eh? luck never comes my way, so I don't see it that way, but i'm very grateful. hopefully things will get better over the weekend, but all i can do right now is pray. so to whoever may read this, keep me in your prayers too, i need it more than you'll ever know.

First Of The First
Alright this is my first attempt at a blog whatsoever. I'm sorry ahead of time if it seem's like I dodge around some subject matter that might seem interesting but since I'm in the military and a recruiter I have to be carefull on what i put in here so I don't compromise any of my recruits personall life. And let me tell you, us recruiters hear some stories. Boy do i have some stories to tell. But for now you dont geta hear any of them. Buahahaha

Blog Night
another blog but because i feel it wish i could find someone real that really wants me... and not just like a wish/dream that plays and hurts till then i'll keep living in that mountain that Björk mentions.... BJORK "Hyper Ballad" we live on a mountain right at the top there's a beautiful view from the top of the mountain every morning i walk towards the edge and throw little things off like: car-parts, bottles and cutlery or whatever i find lying around it's become a habit a way to start the day i go through this before you wake up so i can feel happier to be safe up here with you it's real early morning no-one is awake i'm back at my cliff still throwing things off i listen to the sounds they make on their way down i follow with my eyes 'til they crash imagine what my body would sound like slamming against those rocks and when it lands will my eyes be closed or open? i'll go through all this before you wake up so i can feel happier

Phenomenal Woman
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them, They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes, And the flash of my teeth, The swing in my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say, It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me.

Still I Rise
You may write me down in history With your bitter, twisted lies, You may trod me in the very dirt But still, like dust, I'll rise. Does my sassiness upset you? Why are you beset with gloom? 'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells Pumping in my living room. Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I'll rise. Did you want to see me broken? Bowed head and lowered eyes? Shoulders falling down like teardrops. Weakened by my soulful cries. Does my haughtiness offend you? Don't you take it awful hard 'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines Diggin' in my own back yard. You may shoot me with your words, You may cut me with your eyes, You may kill me with your hatefulness, But still, like air, I'll rise. Does my sexiness upset you? Does it come as a surprise That I dance like I've got diamonds At the meeting of my thighs? Out of the huts of history's shame I rise Up from a past that's rooted in pai

Twohearts 1 Love
TwoHearts 1 love.. I can’t get you out of my mind. I keep thinking about how much I enjoy talking with you, how great you look when you smile and how much I like your laugh. I day dream about you off and on all day. Replaying pieces of our conversation... Laughing again about funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way you look at me. It melts my heart every time I think about it. And I catch myself smiling when I imagine what will happen the next time we’re together. You must be something really special, because I can’t remember the last time I felt so strongly about someone. Even though neither of us knows what the future holds. I know one thing for sure, that you’re one of the very best thing that’s happened to me in a long time.

Trust And Hate, And Love
"Trust and hate, and love and fate, and I don't understand. Social grace, the human race, confuse me. These words I speak, bring forth a world of emotions. Emotions of dreams lost, dreams found, and dreams I'll never see. So it is written. So it shall come to pass. But the questions is, will I, or will I not be But Isn't that the same question, that I've been asked time and time again, since my childhood? Isn't the question really, is there any dreams, I'd like to sell?

Two Hearts Apart
Two Hearts Apart By fate we met, by chance we stayed, Two hearts conjoined in every way, One lonely dark soul shared by two, Everything I want I've found in you. But fate at times is quite unfair, For I am here and you are there, So close to each other and yet apart, But you alone hold the key to my heart. The empty void that once was is now filled by you, The darkness inside, has stopped hurting too, You’ve made my life worth living, our souls intertwined, You’re every breath I take; you’re always on my mind. Like two wolves in the mist passions burning like flames, My heart skips a beat when someone whispers your name, Forever I need you, forever I'll wait, Born for each other, my one true soul mate. Though people may hate us for what we do feel, I can’t change my feelings for they are so real Something brought us together to each others hearts, And every second without you is like an eternity apart. You can feel all my feelings, y

Isn't The Question You Ask
"Isn't the question you ask, the same question I always heard while growing up? Don't you want to fit in with them? If it is, the answer is no... I refuse to be a shallow sellout like those others. I am beyond that.

You're Never Alone
YOU'RE NEVER ALONE You're never alone, I'm always here, When your troubled, down or blue. All you have to do is call me, I'm always here for you. It doesn't matter where I'm at, It doesn't matter when. When you need someone to talk to, I'm here to be your friend. If you need someone to hold your hand, or a hug to say I care. If you need a shoulder to cry on, for you I will be there. So never think you are a burden, when the weight gets to be to much. You might find if look hard enough, a good friend could be the right touch. You're never alone, I'm always here, through the good times and the bad. I'm always here to be your mother and your friend

*crying*
I'm soo freaking depressed right now... I have been tearing up for a while... Trying soo hard not to cry... I have the right to cry... with everything else that I wrote about before... but also because my foot is really causing trouble now... When I broke it they said it was just cracked... That getting it ran over wasn't as bad as it could be... They told me to stay off it as much as possible, but that I could walk on it if I needed to... So I've been hobbling around on it for the past 10 days... Today I went into the doctor to get it rechecked (in addition to 3 other health concerns)... and they put me on crutches, and were upset at the other doctors for not putting me on them or doing x-rays... They are sending me tomorrow to get about 10 x-rays done... and are talking about a cast and possibly surgery... The crutches they gave me are for people taller than me (5'10" and up... I'm just over 5'5").. So it hurts my arms and shoulders to use them... and I d

Volume Xviii - Update
Today is 25th May. It's to be celebrated (?) as the 5th anniversary of mine and Tracey's marriage. It will also be the first day that my wife and I actually see each other for a somewhat meaningful time period. Our respective places of employment have been stepping up hours---mine because of the annual increase in workload through the summer; hers because the store is open an hour later. So, as she works nights, she returns home at 1am. Tomorrow night, energy permitting, we shall go out to eat, and maybe partake in a movie---like we did in our first date. We'll see what happens. In other news, my activities in my two musical projects---my band Wasted Divine and my solo effort, aeturnallrain---have been placed on a temporary hold, as I simply have no time, energy, and little money for these. Been focusing much of my time on my job. I have a mortgage. I need the money. My father purchased a piece of property---30 acres in Crawford County, GA---in which I plan to spend a great deal

Pretend That Life Is Like A Game Of Cards.
had my woman taken from me. But to put this in terms that I think you can understand better. Let's just pretend that life is like a game of cards. Except the cards you and I are delt are fine blown glass and as we build friendships and trust, the bond between me and you, the love between you and Someome, we turn over more and more cards but then someday something happens and the cards are swept off the table and shatter in a million pieces and all we want is for those cards to be in tact but wasn't the point in the first place just to play a game of cards?

Considering
adding a public rant soon (joy and rapture, I am sure) about- well, a favorite site acronym... Anyway, had a rather good day, right now preparing for sleep, early to work, an afternoon (regular every three weeks) appointment.

Hey Hey Fkrs
JUST WANTED TO PUT UP A RANDOM BLOG... I LOVE MY RANDOMNESS.... ITS ALL A PART OF MY CHARM.. RANDOM KARAOKE IN PARKING LOTS SUPERMARKETS AND RETAIL OUTLETS.. PPL THINK I'VE LOST MY MIND PERHAPS I HAVE WHO REALLY KNOWS FOR SURE. I'M ONE OF THOSE PPL THAT YOU HAVE TO KNOW I KEEP THINGS INTERESTING AND I LOVE THAT ABOUT ME YES I AM CONCIETED TO A POINT, I'M A SEXXAH FKN BISH OOOHHHHH YA. I LOVE MY UNDERGROUNG FAMILY AND I LOVE MY WP FAMILY YAY TO YOU ALL. MWAHZ LOVIES I GUESS THIS IS THE END OF THE RANDOMNESS AND WHEW IT WASN'T THAT SCARY NOW WASN'T IT.

Ciara-like A Boy
C-I-A-R-A Come on Pull up your pants (Just like him) Take out the trash (Just like him) Getting your cash like him, fast like him Girl, you wanna act like he did I'm talking 'bout Security codes on everything On vibrate so your phone don't ever ring A foreign account And another one he don't know about Wish we could switch up the roles and I could be that Tell you I love you, but when you call, I never get back Would you ask them questions like me, like, "Where you be at?" 'Cause I'm out four in the morning On the corner rolling, doing my own thing What if I had a thing on the side, made you cry Would the rules change up or would they still apply If I played you like a toy? Sometimes, I wish I did act like a boy Can't be getting mad, but you mad can't handle that Can't be getting mad, but you mad can't handle that Girl go ahead and be (Just like him) Go run the streets (Just like him) Go home missin sleep like 'em, creep like

If I Waited
If I waited, I would have missed my opportunities that I have gained. If I waited, I would be missing out on a new life If I waited, you wouldnt come to me when you're "ready." Youre timing has always been way off darling, we both know this. So I come to you, because time is not on our side this time, and I cant wait. If you waited until you were ready, I will be 1500 miles away, and nothing will get solved. If I waited for you, nothing would ever get said. If you waited until you were ready, I will be past the point of waiting for you, and wouldnt want anything to do with my life here, which includes you. If I waited to say the things I have to, they would never get said, because you're waiting. Waiting and time isnt on our side this time. There is no more future for you and I, we both know this, but we cant wait anymore to talk, and say what we have to, and what we feel. If we waited, youd be where I was last year, and I would be where you were the entire time we were t

Wondering About Life!!
Does anyone besides me ever wonder just how life works or how it's suppose to work? In a few months I'm going to be a first time grandma! I am both excited about it and scared about it all at the same time. I have wanted to be a grandma for a long time, but I sit and wonder if I will make the same mistakes with her as I did my own kids! I have good kids for the most part. I put them through a lot by staying with their dad when I should have got some guts and left him a long time ago. I didn't realize until later that I made so many mistakes. I guess I always wore those rose colored glasses. I put him first a lot of times to keep peace in my home and didn't realize how much I was hurting my kids. I guess it will be easier with my granddaughter because he is no longer around, but it still scares me to think maybe I will make some bad mistakes. God knows that I am far from perfect. I also wonder if I'm ever going to find that perfect guy for me. I think I scare the guys. I have trust issu

Laws
The Laws Law #1: If you leave the family take LDC off of your name and once you leave there is NO coming back. Law #2: From now on anyone that wants to join the family that is in another family will not be able to. If you're already a member of the LDC and are in another family you are fine because this is just being put in place. Law #3: All L.O.A (Leave of Absences) must be approved by a Creator and a Founder. Law #4: If you show inactivity by not reading or reposting the family bulletins and / or blogs for a months time then you will be notified and placed on probation, if it continues then you will be removed. Law #5: All members need to understand we are NOT a comment bombing family. Do not address comment bombing bulletins to the family. If we have time to comment then we will. Law #6: You must make an effort to repost all family bulletins that involve a new member or a family issue because we do not post much and the least you can do is repost them. Law #7:

9 Years, Tomorrow (may 25)
Well, Tomorrow (May 25) would mark my 8 year wedding anniversary. 9 years of being with the same man. Never once did I cheat, never once did I feel the need to even look. I was ok with what I had in life. Granted, times were not always happy. Times weren't always peaceful... "rough spots" were everywhere. But, I can look back and honestly say, I cannot regret any of it. Had I not met Marcus when I did, I wouldn't have my children. I can't regret that, because that would be regreting them... I can't regret staying with him for so long... because without that battle... I wouldn't be as strong as I am now, I wouldn't be able to stand up to a lot of things. Without knowing him, I wouldn't have gotten to know some awesome people. My best friend, Ambra... her husband, Troy.. they're kids. Got to love them! I never would have met Stevie, never would have gotten to know him like I have. I wouldn't have met Jarrod, Justin, Amanda, and Brandy. I adore marcus's family. I'