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Broken Heart
at first i lost someone sweet and kind, and my life was filled with sorrows and mysterys i could not find i was cooped up in my room all day my heart spilling out with every tear when i went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror I saw a sad and lonely person,i couldnt bear then i got to see the sweet girl i missed entirely i was so happy to see her pretty smile since i havent seen her in a while now we are friends forever and we will never be broken apart,not ever done by christine

Why Does Love Have To Hurt????
Love the most beautiful feeling,yet can bring you pain ,heartache and depression When your heart skips a beat when that special someone is around or when your heart forgets to beat when that someone leaves town The desire to love, but not being loved back goes without saying is it really worth the numbness in your body, the sweats,the excitment when u wake up and eat, breath ,and sleep about the one u believe that got away Why does love have to hurt? done by christine

I Stole This From Someone On Yahoo... But Put My Answers To It
1. Do you say "Hi" to people you don't know? most of the time 2. What is the name of the first person you had sex with? david 3. Do you still talk to this person? nope.... 4. Recite a line from 2 movies: ummm i dont know... lol 5. What movies were they from? 6. Do you play by the rules? Of course i do. hehehe 7. Name another word for penis: cock.... 8. Do you complain a lot? yes 9. Have you ever been to Canada? nope but i would love to go 10. Do you have an addictive personality? Yeah 11. What size would you say your nose is? med 12. What is someones name, that begins with the letter B? beth ... foster sister.. 13. Name someone whose plastic surgery turned out poorly. michael jackson 14. Have you ever performed CPR, on anyone? yes 15. Name something that falls from the sky: rain snow sleet ..i hate them all 16. Are you polite? most of the time 17. Name a TV show or movie, that impacted soci

So Much To Think About
I haven't heard from my man in a week and a half and that worries me. Since he is sitting there in Jail Waiting on bedspace for restitution camp. This is dead time! he wants to get on with his life he wants to be a father to his son and he wants to continue our relationship and let it grow. I'm worried because i know he borrowed in there and anyone knows u have to pay back double. ALL i have been able to send him was 15 bucks and im wonderin' if he got his butt in another fight if something serious happened. I called the jail to make sure he was still there and not at the restituation camp. He is still there waiting on bedspace at the restitution camp! He only has to pay like 410 bucks and then he is fancy free...I have thought about saving my money but first i gotta have a few visits and make sure he stilll feels as deeply as i do for him. I want everything to work between us but I am not stupid nor neive and I know im not being used but before i put out that kinda dough (which would

Ugly And Unpopular
damn i have been on here 2 months i must be the ugliest and most unpopular guy on here i cant even get one cherry blast lmao oh well i'll just keep my friends and fans they are what matters most anyway

The Winners Are ( I Love Country Music)
Carrie Underwood "Before He Cheats" Rascal Flatts "What Hurts the Most" Kenny Chesney "You Save Me" Jack Ingram "Love You" Johnny Cash Award Kris Kristofferson Carrie Underwood "Before He Cheats" Roman White "Before He Cheats" Sugarland "Want To" Taylor Swift "Tim McGraw"

April 13~weekend
Friday~i went to the races to work got 49 dollors for satfey fund.after the races went back to my aunts house. Saturday~went to the races again n worked but half way through the race it got canceled cuz of rain. so thn i called my mom n told her to come get me so thn i came home. talked to my bf on the phone for like a hour n thn talked to him on the net for like 3 hours. didnt go to bed until 6 in the morning. Sunday~i sleep until my bf called me at like 1 30. so thn i talked to him for alil while n thn talked to him on the net. Monday~i didnt do much i just talked to my bf for alil while

Written 4 Sweetpoison-------
Who is it? She replied as she heard a knock at her door. I knew she would know it was me from the sound of my voice, So my only reply was, It is me. From outside I could hear her Unlocking the door. Slowly she opened the door. “Hey You”, She has always greeted me like that. In some way I suppose it’s one of those little pet things we have for each other. I look at her and her beauty takes my breath. “Babe you’re more beautiful Each time I see you”. I tell her. With a twist of her head she says “why thank you sweetie”. I set my bags down and grab her up in my arms and squeeze Her tightly and give her a hello kiss. “Damn, I’m so glad to see You again! I’ve missed you terribly MySweet”. Come in, go put your suitcase in the bedroom. I’ll fix us a drink and we can sit on the couch and talk awhile. I know you must tired after your long drive. I take my suitcase to the bedroom and return to the couch. Here is your drink, just like you like it, lots of Jack with a splash of co

The Things We Said Today
This was originally the idea of a friend of mine from Xanga. List 10 things you would like to say to someone, but know you never will.... Do not reveal to whom you would say these words. They can be real life or online people (living or dead). You can only say one thing to each person. No repeats.(Leave them in my comment section and feel free to repost elsewhere.) These are mine: 1. While I always knew how much you pushed me to grow as a person, I never fully realized just how much you held things together around us all. Now you're gone and things are truly a mess. I'm sure you're somewhere shaking your head and wondering if you taught us nothing. 2. For someone as smart as you are, I can't understand how you haven't figured out that love is blindness in the last 21 years. 3. Life can be a funny thing sometimes. It gives us people to enjoy and learn from and then takes them away with no notice and little compassion for the pain it causes us. There was so much more tha

Brightened Up My Day
To Love someone with all your heart Is the only way it should be And to have them love you just as much Would mean the world to me But if they can't, then that's ok It just wasn't meant to be But because I loved them as I did It brightened up my day Robert M. Hall © 2007

Finals This Past Weekend
Well I turned in my psyche final Friday but haven't heard about my grade yet. The instructor has until Sunday but I'm not worried that she won't get it done in time. My other class, business law, has already been graded. I aced my final bringing my final grade to a B! Sunday was my last day of class until July which is when I will start on my Bachelor in Business Administration. I graduate from Western International University on July 6th in Phoenix so it's going to be one hell of a good time. It has taken me too long to decide on a career and then to finally get this far! I'm on cloud nine right now even if I feel shitty from this damn sinus infection lol!

Monday Night
Whoever was it that sang Friday night is alright for fighting? I think it should be more like, Monday's at work are alright. I have this total skeez where I work. Everything I say, she has to try and go one better. For example, My husband works at Wal-Mart. You would think that I know the policies that he deals with everyday, right? So when a fellow coworker (whose husband also works at Wal-Mart) and I were discussing a policy in which Wal-Mart employees aren't allowed to help customers off the clock, she butts in with-"I used to work there and that's so not true!" Basically she called me a liar. It was nice when the other coworker of mine backed me up. I get so tired of people that think they know everything. Besides, it's not like they do. Only I know everything! LOL!

Wednesday Is Pay Day!!
buy!! usually a quarter or ounce or sometimes a .25 of flame and a O of middies. then!! 25 push-ups four times. pull-ups 25 of them. dips 36 of those. then i go relax in the jaquzzi and get lit ( i know my life is rough but sometimes you just gotta put the pipe down and lift something heavy like yourself)

Can't Help It
Can’t Help it She shouldn’t like him But she can’t help it She’s not supposed to like him But she can’t help it He shouldn’t make her laugh But she can’t help it She shouldn’t look forward to talking to him But she can’t help it She shouldn’t smile when she hears his voice But she can’t help it She shouldn’t think about him But she can’t help it

Lol
So, for the most part...I blend in with the people I supervise and so...sometimes...things happen in front of me that shouldn't... Like...just now...I was outside with my friend (another administrator here) and this kid walks up to the back of the building and just starts peeing on the wall. So, I'm like uhhhh....you've got to be kidding.... He was humiliated. I told him he needed to stop and get his ID and my friend made him sanitize his hands before letting him hand the ID to me... Sometimes...my job...is just absurd...by the way, in case you're interested...the sanction for this "crime" is going to be washing the exterior of the building and scrubbing the steps...oh, and writing an apology letter to the people who live above the window he peed under. Some shit makes me laugh...

Say A Pray
Say a prayer for the Virginia Tech students and their families. UNITED WE STAND. Divided . . . Say a prayer: For our families, our children, our employers, and our great nation. In the aftermath of this horrible sickening tragedy, expect an outcry for more "gun control" laws. Just please keep in mind that is not the solution. Christian MySpace Graphics

Female Ejaculation
Most of you know I"m a squirter. And we're not talking a little bit lol..I'm talking I can cum so hard I can squirt my juices in my own mouth or over my head lol..its been recorded ;) For those of you that don't now how to squirt or don't know how to make your partner squirt. Here is a great article I found that helps explain a lot. I know Iv'e posted stuff like this before...but everytime I find something with a little more info in it to help ya'll get to squirting I figure it can't hurt to post something else. MY BIGGEST PERSONAL TIP IS..to always go pee before your going to try to squirt otherwise its just too damn uncomfortable. Few men know about it, more women do but most either do not know what to do with it or feel ashamed about it: female ejaculation. Not all women can do it and the way they do and (and the amount of fluid they produce) may be very different. The amount of fluid may vary from just a few drops to a mug full. You need a little technique to get it done, but fi

President Bush
Most of you know I love Bill Maher. I too share his views of our fuckwad of a president. Here is something he had said in a closing statement on one of his shows that I liked and felt like posting. Bill Maher's closing--presented as an open message to George Bush in deep tones of mock-serious. Here it is: "Mr. President, this job can't be fun for you any more. There's no more money to spend--you used up all of that. You can't start another war because you used up the army. And now, darn the luck, the rest of your term has become the Bush family nightmare: helping poor people. Listen to your Mom. The cupboard's bare, the credit cards maxed out. No one's speaking to you. Mission accomplished. Now it's time to do what you've always done best: lose interest and walk away. Like you did with your military service and the oil company and the baseball team. It's time. Time to move on and try the next fantasy job. How about cowboy or space man? Now I know what you'r

Im Spilling It All
well i find its bull shit when someone says they love me so much an miss me so much but when they are out shoppeing or what ever with a "friend" all of a sudden its time to ignor me wll now im tired of being ignored so here it goes for all the females hes talking to right now tht i drive nuts i guess well hes useing ur dumbass an if u cant see that then u have some probs an as for me driveing u nuts hahahahahahaha im ognna be here for ever an im gonna keep doin wht i do an wht u want him to stop doin he wont an i can promise u this hes doin it with more then one female thats how he is an u will see it an if u dont then haha on u an u probaly deserve it then but im out peace

Hmmmmm
You moved a few more feet to get a clear view of my cabin. A smile crossed your face and you let out a sigh as you saw movement beyond the glass of the cabin. Some twenty feet ahead you found the gravel driveway that provided access to the cabin. You stopped at the edge of the driveway and looked down at the two story cabin. As you started walking down you wondered if a two wheel drive could make it out if there had been snow. You slipped and nearly fell twice in the loose gravels, but managed to keep your feet. The driveway stopped at the right side of the cabin near the main door. The cabin hung over a large drop off that one could easily consider it a cliff. You imagined that it must be an incredible view in the daylight. You climbed the steps that led to the porch and walked towards the door. There were two large windows on each side of the door, and as you approached the first you saw that the blinds were open. You didn’t plan on looking in but the movement caught your eye. As y

Family First
Family First Friends may come and friends may go Family is first and this I know Putting friends first is a mistake And not one that you should make Family’s forever and this I know Friends enter your life and then they go Making friends is fun trust me with this But not something you would miss Love your family while they are here Keep their love very near Family can leave the world at any time So don’t make yourself feel like slime Family is here to comfort you I know your friends do this too Without your family you would be lost Hold on to them no matter the cost That is why I consider All of my friends, Family

Start With An Old One
ok this isn't a song, but a piece I wrote 4 years ago......................... Least I dream for a minute of a troubled past of which I knew A time in a mirror of the face I thought would never leave my side An Image of you in a fantasy distraught by the subtleness of never happening If I believed for a minute any part of you could be mine; I am a fool A time ago would changed the position of now, no one would’ve seen it Still yet, lost in that time of change, nothing would change as I am a fool I have yet to find what in myself that is still real, my skin or eyes or my thoughts All that has made me alive was a shear hope in a world I had made up These places are not real, those thoughts never existed, nor had your touch ever been felt Though I always had felt you were always there Call it a perception of the truth as it would lead to my inevitable downfall A tragic beginning to an end I always knew would happen, though change it I would not Th

Jimmy's Letter
Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?" The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy

Family Comes Together................
Family Comes Together Family comes together For always and forever In sickness and in health In poverty or in wealth Family comes together For always and forever Without any reason Anytime or any season Family comes together For always and forever In death or in life In happiness or in strife Family comes together For always and forever In anger or in kindness Whether all seeing or in blindness Family comes together For always and forever Whether for work or for play They somehow find a way For family to come together Because families are forever

The River
THE RIVER She has a swift flowing current, Mirrored pools, and wild rapids alond the way. She has a depth that may scare you, If you knew where the river bed lay. Her waters run drk but inviting, Her spirit pulsates passion and thrill. But don't think she will just deliver, For she will give to you only at will. For many worriers have come to her riverbanks, Unwilling to take her on, They where wise to leave if they don't understand her, She is for neither the weak or the strong. Some men have arrived at her waters, And seen reflected, an empty place in their soul. The foolish thought if they could but posses her, It somehow would make them whole. Many thought they could out smart her, And came to selfishly drink their own fill. But her waters will find their way back to her, Yet their blindness deceives them still!. If you want to experience all she can give you. Don't come to dabble your toes. For the only thing you will discover, Is how fast her wat

Seeking The Cause!!
Seeking The Cause by Miguel Pinero He was Dead He never Lived Died, Died He died seekin’ a Cause Seekin’ the Cause Because He said He never saw the cause But he heard The cause Heard the cryin’ of hungry ghetto children Heard the warnin’ from Malcolm Heard the tractors pave new routes to new prisons Died seekin’ the Cause, Seekin’ a Cause He was dead on arrival He never really Lived Uptown…downtown…crosstown Body was round all over town Seekin’ the Cause Thinkin’ the Cause was 75 dollars & gator shoes Thinkin’ the Cause was sellin’ the white lady to black Children Thinkin’ the cause is to be found in gypsy rose or j.b. Or dealin’ wacky weed And singin’ du-wops in the park after some chi- chiba He died seekin’ the Cause Died seekin’ a Cause And the Cause was dyin’ seekin’ him And the Cause was dyin’ seekin’ him And the Cause was dyin’ seekin’ him He wanted a color t.v. Wanted a silk on silk suit He wanted the Cause to c

---------- Cookies Crumbles------------
WHEN IT SEEMS THE COOKIES CRUMBLES AND ALL THING AROUND YOU FALL TO BE DON'T HANG YOU HEAD DOWN DESPAIR BUT JUST LOOK UP IN TO A FACE BEAMING OF ONE THAT CARES SO MUCH FOR YOU WHEN THE LOAD OF LIFE BECOME TO MUCH FOR YOUR DAILY TASK TO BEAR ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT I AM HERE TO TAKE YOUR HAND AND GENTLY LEAD YOU THOUGH ALL YOUR VALLEYS OF HARD TIMES SO AS FOR YOUR NOT TO WORRY FOR ALLOW ME TO HOLD YOUR HEART TO NOT ALLOW IT TO FRET OR WORRY BUT JUST TO KNOW THAT I AM HERE FOR YOU TO SAFELY GUIDE YOUR HEART AND THAT I WILL SEE YOU THROUGH ALL OF THOSE ROUGH VALLEY, FOR YOU WILL SEE THE SUNSHINE AGAIN ON A DAY THAT YOU LEAST EXPECT IT FOR I BELIEVE IN YOU!

My Sisters'....................
My Sisters' My Sisters' mean everything to me They made me realize who i wanted to be We were and still are always distant But we'll have each other's back in a minute We hella tight and that's with a capitol 'T' I only Fuck with the Best so You Know There's no other Rolling with a Grown Woman On her Grown Things Raising my Beautiful Neices' and Rocking Top Notch Things We Hella Tight That's all We can Be Brother and Sisters' From Another Mother But We Fuck With None Lower Beneath Our Classy, and Our Flashiness You're The Best Sisters' Even though We Haven't Seen Each Other In a Few Years And When You See Me... Your Lil,Big Bro' Going to Be On a Runway Rocking Prada and Chanel 'I Get it from My Sisters' Yep I'm always stunting like them So when I get dat fame I'm going to give a Big shoutout to all of you Tha Best SiSters' In Da World.... HustlN 2 Deep I lOve All of You 4Ever Dan! ! ! ! ! !

More Whining On My Part....
I've learned something very important today. Listening to sad music... SOOOOOO doesn't do ANY fucking good when you're sad... so why the fuck does everyone do it?!?!?!?!? Just to put this one out there, it's a bad idea... don't do it... School is sooo going to suck, as is work... i want to just stay in bed... and lay there... i can't sleep... which totally bites... i dislike not being able to sleep... and I keep crying, so my fucking head hurts, and my nose is running, and my eyes look puffy.... I feel sicker than shit.... I'm sad, i'm whiny, this is just not a good day for me... and i have class until fucking 8... this is sooo going to suck on SOOO many levels... And stupid playlists playing sad songs, cuz i didn't change the stupid play list.... how's this one for making you cry~ "Listen To Your Heart" I know there's something in the wake of your smile. I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea. You've built a love but that love falls apart. Your little piece of

Jitterbug Jesus
Jitterbug Jesus by Miguel Pinero Tiempos is longin' lookin' for third world laughter to break out like a pimple on the face of a pimp of youthful latino eyes that chase el ritmo del güiro en lo vagones del tren on school mornin' shoutin' broken spanish dream — si tü cocina como tu mamá como hasta el pegao jitterbuggin' in wrinkled worn out jeans bailando new found pride in bein' nuyoricano . . . on their piss stained streets where teens meet in head on collision claimin' colors on concrete cemetary slums slums that vomit screamin' rumblin' tongues ramblin' for a crust of welfare cheese . . . here in this aroma of arroz y habichuela-tostones-pasteles . . . two triple culture lovers meet/embrace & tremblin' hands lift pleated shirt — break an elastic band. in this cocaine drenched hallway that has passed broken wine bottles & broken bulbs & broken homes & broken souls & the two lovers meet/reach out for each other under the view of a million cucarachas t

Life, Liberty, And The Pursuit Of My Happiness
Well~ class was fun tonight. I got my paper turned into my english teacher, and i was to BS w/ my Juv. Procedures teacher. Always Always fun. She's awesome. I would truly consider her to be one of the wisest adults I have ever met in my life. This Wednesday my ENTIRE police dept is due... that icluding the entire structure, schedules, ranking, etc. The whole thing.... I haven't done as much as I have needed to. Been distracted with MY LIFE.... stupid life stuff. But I'm going to work on it a lot tonight at work... and tomorrow some, when I'm not sleeping. Plus I get out of class early tomorrow night, All i have is some retarded test I have to take, and then I'm done for the evening. So, that basically means that i'm free.... and I'm taking advantage of that time to hang out w/ the girls some, and then before work, I'm going to get started on my PD... do the Finishing touches... so to speak.... Although, I still have A LOT to do... It's not as easy as it sounds to try and "run" a police

A Sad Day
This morning I was notified that my uncle was taken off the ventilator he had been on for the last few days. They said he may not make it through the night so Im upset. He was my dad's oldest brother and best friend. When my dad died from cancer my uncle was there the whole time. He called my dad every day to check on him and just to talk. I' hoping if he does pass on he will just fall asleep and go peacefully. He was diagnosed last fall with colon cancer. He had so many problems that the last two months they could not do his chemo and then he got sicker and it just got worse. I won't be going home to the wake or funeral due to since him being in the hospital a lot of my dad's time has been brought up and my family is doing a lot of comparing notes on his past few days along with my dad's last few days. The freaky part is that the room my dad died in the hospital is the room that my uncle has been in. Its like losing my dad all over again. Hopefully he will be strong and make it throug

Change Is The Constant
One thing in life that is always a constant is change. I know change is painful..and most times helps us grow...maybe I am afraid of the unknown..the changes in front of me. I know this change will end up being good. I know my entire living situation, income, lifestyle will change for the better but OMG the place I am in right now is so turbulent..unsettled..and i find myself trying to be the best I can with wanting to just sob. I moved from the place I was at for 4 years suddenly. April 15th we had to be out. My 12 year old and I are alone in Jersey. She does have her father..him and I are not friends.I drew upon people who love me unconditionally. I had about 20 people help me move the entire house to the trash and storage. After 40 years of living I am reduced to a 10x15 storage unit. I realized it is all just "stuff". A friend and her husband said we could stay with them until the other place opens up in May. Right now I am writing this from a friends basement. I have been here a

Out Of Control
So I've been having a hard time recently with truth. I've been having strange dreams that don't translate so well and I wonder if they mean what I think they mean. I've been having random things coming to mind that scare me because I just don't know what to do about them. It's hard when you don't know how to control something, or how to use it properly. How do you help someone without telling them their future? How to you control what you see when the vision makes your head hurt so much that you cry out in pain without even realizing it? I'm so confused and lost about what's been going on and I just want to crawl up somewhere and hide because of what I see. Yet at the same time I want to surround myself with people so assure myself it's not real . . . . Then there is the question, what visions are true and what ones aren't? I kind of hope that they aren't. All of them. But I know a few will happen. But what scares me most is what happens after that?

Can I... Wrote For Me Thank You
when you close your eyes do you see me when you hear the rain do you imagine my whispers when the future is what you seek am i there do i hold that spot deep within your heart or is it shared with others my love flows in and yet i feel you walking out am i wrong this time can i give you all of me release all i can be inside without facing your rejection can i tell you I love you............ Outlaw Angel wrote for my two best friends..i have been there from day one and i love you both so damn much! Listen to your hearts and you will find the answers you need................

Wicoe
WICOE (Women In Charge Of Everything) ~~is proud to announce the opening of its~~ ~EVENING CLASSES FOR MEN! ALL ARE WELCOME~ Note: due to the complexity and level of difficulty, each course will accepta maximum of eight participants The course covers two days, and topics covered in this course include: DAY ONE: HOW TO FILL ICE CUBE TRAYS Step by step guide with slide presentation TOILET ROLLS- DO THEY GROW ON THE HOLDERS? Roundtable discussion DIFFERENCES BETWEEN LAUNDRY BASKET & FLOOR Practicing with hamper (Pictures and graphics) DISHES - DO THEY LEVITATE/FLY TO KITCHEN SINK OR DISHWASHER BY THEMSELVES? Debate among a panel of experts REMOTE CONTROL Losing the remote control - Help line and support groups LEARNING HOW TO FIND THINGS Starting with looking in the right place instead of turning the house upside down while screaming - Open forum DAY TWO: EMPTY MILK CARTONS- DO THEY BELONG IN THE

Guns
On the news this evening was the story of yet another tragic mass murder committed in a school in the US. It is hard for me to understand why Americans are allowed to buy handguns, in Iceland where i live ownership of guns is strictly regulated, handgun ownership is only allowed when the guns are kept at gun clubs, they are never allowed outside the premises of such places. In Iceland shotguns and rifles are sold to hunters but first they have to get a licence to buy a gun, to do this they need to take a course in gun safety among other things, guns are not sold to people with criminal records. What civillian needs an Uzi or a Magnum? The answer should be nobody, Who should be allowed to buy or sell that kind of weapon? Nobody. I can understand hunters being allowed to buy shotguns or rifles but nobody would use an Uzi or a Magnum to hunt deer or birds, that would be pretty damm stupid. The constitutional right to bear arms is a load of crap, gun ownership should be carefully regu

Mothers Day Contest
Hey all my friends out there! Im entering my first contest! Now I understand all of you out there that think comment bombing is redundant. But plz come atleast give your opinion. Not like Im going to win anyways....with ppl already having 4000 comments lol But Id appreciate everyones support =] Thanks ahead of time guys *MuaH* Theres the link

Because His Wife Hates Me
DevouR_: And to once again clarify. No, this is not a sick game that me and Christy and I are playing. She hates your guts, I don't, but when you continually go against my wishes...... DevouR_: You make it impossible to maintain a normal friendship. That is all this could have been, but you wouldn't do it my way, and now this can go on no longer. DevouR_: Goodbye Cassandra. It was fun knowing you. I hope someone is able to give to you what I couldn't. Please, do not contact me anymore. (Things he just sent me in my shouthox) Christopher.. aka SatansLefthand and DevouR... just told me just because his wife doesn't like me he can't be my friend anymore.. and because I did't follow HIS orders.. He was playing me and his wife..and when it blew up in his face.. he blamed me for it.. I am not the one that is married and playing around with women here.. HE IS. Anyways.. Christopher O'Dell enjoy your miserable marriage ( his words )!!!

Crazy Little Thing
Some weird sights we have seen. From tall trees to bean poles that are lean. Seeing towering buildings to small ant hills. We all have our own little thrills. From rivers that swell up and wash away. The things we each see from day to day. Cars that crash, balls that bounce. All is taken with salt by the ounce. For some it goes all or just a bling. No matter its all a crazy little thing

How Much Do I Love You?
How much do i love you? This much. . . . count the raindrops as they fall. . . count the shoppers at the mall. . . count the fishes in the sea. . . count the reruns on TV. . . count the bears in yellowstone. . . count the diets that are blown. . . count the words in windy speeches. . . count the seashells on the beaches. . . count the paintings at the met. . . count the rivets on a jet. . . count the joneses, smiths and greens. . . count the easter jelly beans. . . count the snowflakes as they fall. . . count the stars from here to mars. . . add it up and when your through. . . youll know how much. . . I LOVE YOU!!! love ya babe!

To Our Troops
Thank you for the freedom you gave me. I know its home once again you wish to see. I wish you well and take care. I know it must be hard the visions you bare. Friends and family nieghbors alike. Once again come home to ride a bike. Though it all looks rough. I know you all are touch. So this agin I say to thee. Wishes well and come home to be free

To All My Sister's On My List...........
I love my sister's so dear to my heart, I love my sister's even if we are apart. They do not feel my love for them, even though it is so apparent. they are like darling angels, fluttering their graceful wings. I hope they see my love one day, my sisters are so dear to me.

Once Upon A
Once aupon a Midnight sky. The stars twinkled to catch my eye. Once upon a time I thought I'd shine. But some where a the long way I fell from line. once upon a rock in the ground. I had thought I seen what I found. Once upon a time I had a dream. When it crashed I wanted to scream. So once again I walk this road alone. Sometimes the chill goes through the bone.

In Wake Of The Va. Shootings
The call for Gun Control is back, to which I have a response. "To ban guns because criminals use them is to tell the innocent and law-abiding that their rights and liberties depend not on their own conduct, but on the conduct of the guilty and the lawless, and that the law will permit them to have only such rights and liberties as the lawless will allow... For society does not control crime, ever, by forcing the law-abiding to accommodate themselves to the expected behavior of criminals. Society controls crime by forcing the criminals to accommodate themselves to the expected behavior of the law-abiding." - Jeff Snyder

My Love
I thought I would never love again Then you came into my life The brother of my best friend You say its easier not to care You say you don’t know what you want anymore I understand I really do I try to stop these feelings I have for you But my heart says otherwise So I hide my thoughts and feelings from you They will never see the light of day They will never pass through these lips I will take what you have to offer And give all that I can give My love I love you But you can never know For I don’t want to lose what I have now So I wont say a word My love for you will never show The love I have will only grow Each time I see you So I will not say a word And I will continue being with you Even if it’s not what I seek I love you Yes I do But you will never know You will never see I love you Joe Update about this poem- Joe and I have been together for almost 3 years now and soon we will be engaged!!!!

Ok So This Is What I Have Came Up With
I figure that I would like to have a lounge for my friends, family and fans to actually come in and have fun in there. But I am still new to this site and have no clue as to how I want to do it and how to actually do it. We'll see what I can come up with. I am open to any suggestions as to how it should look and what to do with it though. Your all welcome to help in the planning of the room. Then we finally got a little more good news today from my mother. What you all don't know is that in the past couple of years I have had to handle my mother's heart issues (stents, angiograms, angioplastis etc) and on top of that she is a diabetic. Well my father is also a diabetic and just recently had suffered a heart attack earlier last month and they found out he had one blockage. Now, I have my own medical issues (neurological and cardiovascular) but that doesn't stop me from living a happy, healthy normal life. You have to realize that even though I have a neurological disorder I have no

A Wolf Can Be A Friend Too
If you scratch my belly do I not shake my leg? And if you scratch my ears do I not lean against you? When you feed me do I not wag my tail? And when you sleep do I not watch over you the entire night through? Dogs are mans best friend this I know. But they are of my kanine brotheren. They have fur and a voice just as I do, Thought our voice maybe be different. So to is those of the human races, Why can I not be there to share what is ment? I hunger for love and affection, I dont need to be thrown away and my kindsman be lost. For there will be a time all will be back together. But what will be the cost?

Hello
here I am to say my first hellos on CherryTap. Odd place, but it's growing on me. I am not your typical man. I mean for the mostpart I am. I'm straight, married, have 5 wonderful children, and just a normal guy in that sense. But I have these talents and emotions that seperate me from other men. I'm an artist, sculptor, poet and general comdeian. Along with wit, genius, and general idea of people and their behaviors, I have set myself apart from the rest of the world. I work on computers for my real job, and design logos, web sites, and other stuff for many clients in my own business. "A man is defined by his actions of the words he speaks!"

Sister Can You Know...........
Sister can you know love touch life with the charm of soul love as star shines as the rain falls love smiles thinking about love wondering if she love is strong in brother heart she said sweet talking man you mister sweet talking man yet the truth must be heard watch out love coming surrender try one love close to find what brings the sister to accepted the brother walk talk love feel the blessing of the eyes of love on life it about the sister with brown eyes smiles that warm the heart it about sister with the braids about skin kiss by YAH love just right the shade darkness it a dream come to life in sister of soul

Now They Are Charging To Repost .....please
I see now they at CT are charging you 10 Cherry dollars to repost what a piece of shit that is its not enough they charge if you wanna become a VIC but posting a bulletin going to far CT Get it together. Another rant by Me

Well
So I have a new outlet. I do a lot of writing, so since none of yall know me, I can just post my shit on here n yall can give an honest opinion of shit. :) And I mean Honest people.. So read it if ya will, tear it apart n let me know what you think

Spoke
The white has been drawn The weight has been dropped The black has drowned And the red’s been caught I’ll paint stars in the back of your thought Can you smell the medium at the end of my touch? Burst out the shoulder Stomp on the gas Put chisel to boulder And beat out a castle Raid, raze, rob, pillage and rape, I like to play in the messes I’ve created No spoils, no prisoners, no survivors, everything gets laid to waste I really shouldn’t have nice things Because I really fucking like to break them My toy chest is a sight to see All the eyes are torn out and I can’t replace them I’ll grab one limb you grab three And we’ll see who winds up with the bigger piece I sucked on air and cut my teeth I clutched my throat and realized I was breathing

Difficult Not To Feel A Little Bit Disappointed
No matter what happens in life, one thing is certain... people are bound to disappoint me. I can put my faith in very few... and when someone says they'll do something, then refuses and rubs it in my face, I take it to heart. That is what trust is... the belief a person will keep to their word. Liars... I have no use for in my life. I've steadily been getting better about lying with every breath. The other night I made a mix CD specifically because people have been steadily letting me down lately, and I know I've let some down myself. I cannot be sorry for it. I am a greedy person in many ways. I will NOT sacrifice who and what I am, as well as who and what I want to become. Those who ask me to will recieve nothing from a friendship or relationship with me. I don't ask people to change unless they want to change. If you come to me and say you wish to change a part of you, I'll do everything in my power to help you. I, however, cannot save you. The power to change m

What A Friend Means To Me...........
A Friend A friend can be a sister, A friend can be a foe. My friend is like my sister, I will never let her go. A sister may not always be a friend, But a friend should always, no matter what, be a sister. And I will always love my Siter's. Love Dan

~victoria Vitaline Virginia~
April 17th. 1997 You would be 10 years old, how I miss you so. To the Child of my Heart O precious, tiny, sweet little one, you will always be to me So perfect, pure and innocent just as you were meant to be. We dreamed of you and your life and all that it would be We waited and longed for you to come and join our family. We never had the chance to play, to laugh, to rock, to wiggle. We long to hold you, touch you now and listen to you giggle. I'll always be your mommy, he'll always be your dad. You'll always be our child the child that we had. But now you're gone....and yet you're here we sense you everywhere. You are our sorrow and our joy there's love in every tear. Just know our love goes deep and strong We'll forget you never. The child that we had, but never had and yet will have forever. -author unknown- I will always love you my angel..my girl... Your Mommy XoXoXo

To A Lost Friend
lost little girl you gone astray do you really know where you plan to go do you realize you left your path and travel a way that seems so dark and cold lost litlle girl where will you turn can you see the shadow closing in on you taking you down this road tantalizing you with its lies and games lost little girl hear our cry do you see those that call you home do you feel the hole you've left and the emptiness of a broken heart lost little girl an empty shell is there anything left of what you once where where is the laughter and glee that is but a faint and distant echo in the wind lost little girl, open up to me do you know you arent the only one hurting do you realize i miss you though nothing will ever be the same

From The Hospital Bed
It's April 16, or so the marker board in my room states.... it also states the name of my current nurse, the physical therapist's name and extention, and what I'm allowed to eat: Ice chips. It's the first thing that I see when I wake up cold, in the middle of the night, in my narrow, all too firm hospital bed. Why do they always paint hospitals a bland color? Is it supposed to be comforting? If I'm to be stuck somehwere for weeks on end, I'd like it to be colorful... I'd prefer a bright blue room, one that matches my hair color. My hair color seems to be a good conversation starter. Last night, while walking slowly around the third floor (this is almost cause for celebration- any escape from my cold room is) I met Ira. She was hobbling, hunched over, pushing her I.V. machine in front of her, as was I. She commented on my hair and a friendship was born....not a soul mate type pf friendship, but more like commodery. Like a roommate in jail.... She joked with me that she could beat me, w

Always Alone
why do i feel like i am so alone? i feel like i have pushed so many people out of my life.. so maybe people that i cared about, and that meant something special to me. i sit here while my son is sound a sleep, and think about my life.. he is all i have, and i dont know what i would do if he ever got taken from me. he is the reason i stand up in the morning, the reason i go to work, the reason i come home. he is all i have. without him i would have nothing what so ever. most days i feel like a bad mom because i want a break from him, or because i dont know how to interact with him. i feel alone because i have no one to turn to, no one to hug me and tell me that everything will be okay. no one to share my day with. i will never have someone who will want to stay with me, never get married, never have the family that i secretly dream about. i am alone again, like always and it hurts more than my words or tears could explain.

Torture Chamber Now Open
HEY ARE U TIRED OF SURFING CT? ARE U TIRED OF THE SAME OLD LOUNGES? WELL HEE GIVE US TEN MIN OF UR TIME AND IF UR NOT HAPPY WITH THE SERVICE AND OR FUN WE WILL REFUND YOUR BOREDOM IT IS REAL EASY JUST CLICK THE PIC BELOW AND IT WILL BRING U TO THE BEST SPOT IN CT LAND thank you in advance for coming into our lounge and checking it out COME JOIN US IN THE TORTURE CHAMBER!!! WHERE YOU CAN HAVE A DEVILISH TIME, AND ROCK OUT WITH THE KICK ASS DJ'S AND ROCKING STAFF!!! WE WOULD LOVE YOU TO COME IN AT ANY TIME,

Fuck
i jus got kicked and punched in the head by my :girlfriend" cause she didnt want to get ONE leg hair plucked. shitty eh... its fuckin crazy. now shes sittin next to me askin why im mad... i wonder... hm... MAYBE CAUSE YOU DID THAT TO ME!!!! anyways... i wasnt gonna do it it was jus funny watchin you get all jumpy when i got about 10 feet from your leg. LOVE ya NATALIE

Thanks For The Love...
Thanks to all the people that came and spanked the monkey for me durring my Blast...There were alot of you...tomany to thank individually, so here I am dedicateing this small space in my blog to all of you. If there was anyone that I missed please drop by and post a comment and I will be happy to return the favor. Thanks Bunches of Bananas, Ambrosia

Another Place
Peel and strip until the smoke is bare Beneath the tear there is a glare Piston shove plush cries Constrict the conscript from behind Compound carvings, once, twice, thrice slice Line up the wounds and allow the blood to homogenize I’ve got an altar built for two and a sacrifice with my name on it I can shift what constitutes as truth if you want to lie on it The pedestal may make you tall but it is there for praying on And for me to prey on the praying as they’re locked in holly song When you’re upside down blood doesn’t fall It rises above as if to answer a call Cleanse in desecration Breath easy in suffocation Feed the starving medication The blood is sedated but not inebriated The Mac truck is speeding out of control Road blocks are useless I’m in severe need of a wall

Lmao
Most of this is true, but I NEVER have to reverse! I'm an expert! haha Body: MALE VS. FEMALE AT THE ATM MACHINE A new sign in the Bank Lobby reads: Please note that this Bank is installing new Drive-through ATM machines enabling customers to withdraw cash without leaving their vehicles. Customers using this new facility are requested to use the procedures outlined below when accessing their accounts. After months of careful research, MALE & FEMALE Procedures have been developed. Please follow the Appropriate steps for your gender." MALE PROCEDURE: 1. Drive up to the cash machine. 2. Put down your car window. 3. Insert card into machine and enter PIN. 4. Enter amount of cash required and withdraw. 5. Retrieve card, cash and receipt. 6. Put window up. 7. Drive off. ******************************* FEMALE PROCEDURE: Unfortunately, most of this part is the Truth.!!!! 1. Drive up to cash machine. 2. Reverse and back up the required amount to align

At Work
When at work today i was doing something for one of my LPN's and she said Miss. LaDonna how do you feel about the internet! Now it took me back for a second and i ask her to give me 5 minute's. So i whent online to a poem site and seen this and i shared it with her. Friend's to be honest i dont know much about this but i will say friendship come's in real and online and asfar for me i can say i have a few friend's now i would never had before so let me share what i found SMOOCH LaDonna. The weave of romance, friendship and love Always alive, moving with the two Their hopes and sharing The strength and warmth Each can give Each can be free And then the play unfolds When each can Live for the other Nurturing and inspiring Only the problems unforgiven Could end . . . The rainbows and real fun The times outdoor and flush With each other and breezes The light fills both lives A beach is the edge of their one heart The sky the cover of the naked Excitement and delig

My Fucked Up Girlfriend
WELL SHE CALLED TO BREAK UP WITH ME SO I'M PRETTY PISSED SHE DOSEN'T LIKE THE FACT I KEEP DRIVING TO SEE HERE AND SHE CAN'T GET UP HERE SO IT'S FUCKING OVER SO I'M HEART BROKEN AND LONELY SHE WAS NOT LIKING THAT I WOULD NOT MAKE OUT IN HERE VAN EITHER BUT IF YOU SEEN IT YOU WOULD NO WHY SO DON'T GIVE ME SHIT ABOUT THAT AND IF SHE WHANT'S TO MAKE OUT ALL THE TIME IN HERE VAN FUCK HERE.

After 2 Years, Raven's Eggs & Kegs Show Finally Have A Site!
After starting my show 2 years ago, I am happy to announce that the domain name: eggsandkegsradio.com was registered today and the site will be dedicated about Raven's Eggs & Kegs Show. From the start of the show to the progress here on World Rock Radio. This will be the ONLY site to read anything and everything about Raven and his shows, updates, blogs, where you can meet, Appearances and more. It will also touch on the biography of Raven. The site should be ready in a few weeks or so. I'll keep ya posted. -Raven Raven's Eggs & Kegs Show was launched by the non profit in the state of Illinois Eye Of The Storm, Inc. All rights reserved.

I-o Static
I’m gonna go blind, it’s gonna be great I’m not gonna see all the shit in my face Just have to do something about the stench on my name It’s time to kick up some blood to wash away the disgrace I’ve encased this place in a particular taste Don’t even get a residual vapor trail today I’ve left a paper trail that chants my faith I have heard the worshipped beg to be erased A hand of loyalty that has no place I’ve lost as always; because I won’t run the race They say ignorance is bliss but I know some idiots who never smile Aim has been taken the co-ordinates dialed Your shit is in my sights but I’ve lowered my rifle Turns out I still have a few arteries that aren’t filled with bile When the hammer drops the coffin is shut tight The storm hits and I’ve been wiped out of sight Fly a plight if you like The wind is right But it won’t change the angle of the shine I’m fucking scarred by absent bites ALL THE FUCKING STARS ARE SATELLITES I disposed of a half-dozen

I Got To Say This Before I Explode
Notice the name change?Of course this is over the one guy I love michael.He has been living with me in my parents house for 6 months now.All he does basically is stay on the computer and if I want it I have to beg him to use it.He doesnt really help out and Im not just talking money wise.My parents are struggling badly right now and I am still catching up from what my ex fiancee left me in.Michael wont buy groceries or pay a bill or anything and if I ask he gets this big ass attitude about it.I am not certain of our future anymore cause this is not someone I can rely on if we were living by ourself.I am starting to seriously think of breakingup with him even though my heart would break in a million pieces.

Love Me Easy Patrick Henry
TURN THE LIGHTS DOWN LOW, BABY LET'S TAKE IT SLOW AND LOVE ME EASY,LOVE ME EASY. I'M GONNA TURN THE RADIO ON, WE'LL LISTEN TO SOME SWEET LOVE SONGS, AND LOVE ME EASY, COME ON AND LOVE ME. NOW I'M DOWN FOR SWEET ROMANCE, CANDLELITE AND SLOW DANCE, AND LOVE ME EASY, LOVE ME EASY. I'M NOT GONNA TAKE MY CLOTHES OFF, I WANT YOU TO UNDRESS ME SLOW, AND LOVE ME EASY, LOVE ME EASY, COME ON AND OOOHH LOVE ME EASY. LET'S TAKE OUR TIME, HAVE SOME CHAMPAGNE OR WINE,CUZ BOY IT WON'T BE LONG TILL WE'LL BE MAKING LOVE ALL NIGHT LONG. LOVE ME EASY COME ON AND LOVE ME EASY OH BABY. I'M GONNA TURN THE RADIO ON WE'LL LISTEN TO SOME SWEET LOVE SONGS AND LOVE ME EASY. I LIKE FOR YOU TO TAKE OFF MY CLOTHES, AND IF THAT AIN'T ENOUGH, YOU CAN UNWRAP ME JUST LIKE YOU UNWRAP YOUR PRESENT. I WANT YOU TO TAKE YOUR TIME UNBUTTON MY SHIRT, REAL SLOW AND LOVE ME EASY

Paula Al Fresco
It had been almost an hour since I’d dropped Paula off and my adrenaline was still coursing through my body. It had been a really wild afternoon, more so than I had expected when I’d picked her up earlier that morning. It was probably one of if not the wildest first meetings I had ever had with a woman. And what a woman she was. I first met Paula online in an AOL chat room. She had a great sense of humor and was cutting some young kid that tried to come onto her up for the room’s entertainment. So I decide that I’d check out her profile and see what her deal was. It turned out that she lived about 40 minutes from me. I sent her and IM and we started chatting. It was very comfortable and there was chemistry there right from the jump. After a couple of chats she sent me some nude pics of herself and well DAMN. I kid you not she had 36 G tits and her nipples when hard were easily the size of the tip of my thumb. We continued to chat for the next week or so and it progressed to ph

No Moving Out Party
nothing works out for me in the end....some drama has taken place and i am no longer moving out with JR. i'm still stuck at home where i apparently belong becuz i can't seem to get out of here....yeah so the story rolls on....sad but true..don't matter much, i'll get out of here soon...i can see myself leaving town all together, i'm thinking Hilton Head Island...wooooo, yes i'm go live with my Homie...*winkwink* much love to everyone who was going to help out and all that, you guys are great, but things just didn't happen the way i planned...sad but true!

If U Can't Get Help.....guess U Gotta Do It Urself!!
STILL ASKIN 4 HELP IN THE CONTEST..BUT IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE NE ONE IS HEARING ME, SO AGAIN IF U WUD PLEASE SHO ME SUM LUV BY LEAVING COMMENTS ON THIS PIC!! IF NOT,HEY I GUESS I GOTTA PICK UP THE SLACK...CUZ WHO LUVS U BETTA THAN U RIGHT?

Rules - Dominants
Some Rules - Dominants Mystre [it's mutual] 1. Be patient! Until you enter into a contract with a submissive, you have no more right to order him/her around than does anyone else. Give your bottom time to get to know you and what you are like. Finesse and subtlety are major elements of dominance. Similarly, strength and gentleness go hand in hand. The sensitivity and awareness (or lack thereof) that you show in the real world is likely to be repeated in the playroom. 2. Be humble. You may be God's/Goddess' gift to the world, but no one needs to hear it or wants to hear it. You will have ample opportunities to show how good you are - and plenty of opportunities to make a fool of yourself. No matter what you claim, the "real you" will show through in a scene. Don't set yourself up for a failure by developing expectations that you know you can never reach. 3. Be open. Although the Dom{me} is classically considered to be the teacher in SM, you can always learn from your subbi

Happy Monday
Hey my sexy friends ... what is up? will nm here just settin here watching my csi..mami.. one of my favorite shows.. so how is every ones day so far? will me it went good for a monday... finally lol... Still waiting on my friends to freakin call me back.. Aka.. play partner... friends with benfits. lol.. i want more but he want to take things slow. :( And will i better let u all go.. feel friend to stop by and look at my pics.. i will be putting more up.. sometime this week

Complaining
Every time you complain about something, whether silently to yourself or out loud to others, you tie yourself more firmly to it. Complaints direct your energy toward perpetuating the very things about which you're complaining. There is a far more effective approach, and that is to propose a positive alternative, and to set about putting it into practice. While a complaint merely reinforces what is wrong, a positive alternative sets about to actually change the situation for the better. Complaints, because of their negative nature, are usually met with some degree of defensiveness. Positive alternatives, on the other hand, tend to more naturally be met with cooperation and appreciation. The next time you have the urge to complain, stop and ask yourself what it is you really want. Do you simply want to complain or do you want to do something that's going to improve the situation? Most complaints stem from a genuine desire to improve the situation, but usually the complaint

I Miss
My Freinds back home terrible two decided to suprise me and come see me today best present ever IAHH i forget how much i really am home sick sometimes... I for get how diffrent it is here.... things like this always help me rember who my true friends are the people who love me for who i am and not what i look like the people who have been there for me no matter what the people I cherish the most.. people who forgive my stupid mistakes and will give me a hug when i need it the most. people who cheer me up by just showing up... mmk sounding a little emo but hey it's true they just left and i miss them SO BAD already!! Gahh

Stupid Fucking Lounges
GOT BANNED FROM A LOUNGE FOR NO REASON BY CT MANAGMENT THEY WOULD NOT SAY WHY I WAS BANNED EITHER AND I'M BANNED FOR LIFE FUCKING CHERRYTAP CAN SUCK AT TIMES BUT I GOT OVER IT WHEN I REACH A 10 I'M STARTING MY OWN LOUNGE FOR SURE THEN LETS SE THEM BAN.

I Will..........
i will.......always submit to You, Master i will.......always serve You to my best, Master i will.......always be honest with You, Master i will.......come to You with my concerns or questions i will.......always keep my mind open to new things i will.......always love You with my entire heart, soul & body.

I Got Something To Say
u know i been on ct for some time now anyone who knows me know if some need there pic rated i do it if they needed to be bomb i did if u was nice to me i was nice i never ask anything in return . now i found that poeple want to clam that i said something that i was mean. if i was what the hell u did to piss me off then. but do u come to me and tell me no u go to orther poeple and bitch and cry grow up and come to me i started djing because i wanted to have fun thats what ct is for . yet its seem all poeple want is drama and its getting old. and i am getting tried of it u know who you are as for my true frinds and family ty for the fake ass friends can go to hell and u know who u are. for noow on its a new knightwing like him or not i donot care

Thinking...
What do you see when you look at me? I often wonder how much my eyes reveal. Do you know what I'm thinking? Without a whisper of a spoken word, can you tell? Look closer, can you see the hell my eyes have witnessed? Do they express the love I have to offer, or the knowledge I have gained through my life experiences. Would you see as much if I closed them...? I wonder...

Wow
You scored as A Slave To BDSM. Admit it, you like being tied up and being told you've been very naughty. You like teasing your partner and making them squirm, and not letting them be able to do anything about it. Some people think what you do is sick and disgusting, but you know it's all in good fun.A Slave To BDSM93%Sex God85%A Romantic50%Virgin28%How are you in bedcreated with QuizFarm.com

"biker Trash'
I thought it was time I go ahead with my blogs about my family. :) I'm starting with Jeff a.k.a. "Biker Trash" since thanks to him, I was brought into the Happy Tappin world of CherryTap. Jeff and I have known one another for many years now. We first met through Yahoo. Not long after, we met in person and the rest is history. He is one of my best friends to this day. All of my friends here love him and think he's great! He might look a little rough around the edges but my dear friends, not to make him look like a total softie but looks CAN be deceiving! Trust me here! :) Even though he has a number of tattoos (some cool ones too) and piercings, he is just Jeff. :) Ummm...don't get me wrong here. If he needs to be Mr. Bad A$$, he can be when needed. :D He is a wonderful friend and I can depend on him for absolutely anything! I won't tell all of his secrets *giggles* but he is very smart and talented. He can work on anything with a motor, can cook anything (we're talking mouth

2007 Puerto Rican Parade Queen Pageant
My niece didnt make Queen of the pagaent but shes FIRST RUNNER UP........I am still proud of her for representing our heritage & culture.... BORICUA HASTA LA MUERTE!!!!!!!!!!

Here's The Thing...
Everyone else thinks they are just as wonderful as you think you are. With all the billions of people on the planet, there are bound to be people who - when compared to you - are complete morons. There are also billions of people who - when compared to you - are freaking brilliant. Try not to be such an ass.

Hmmm
You scored as Bondage. Your turn on is bondage... all out. You don't have a specific part of kinky sex that turns you on more than any other... everything working together turns you on. And why shouldn't it? Sex isn't sex without all the trimmings.Bondage83%Biting75%Whips67%Blood58%Chains/Handcuffs58%Blind Folds42%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

What About Fags?
what about them but this one is my brother he is in my family and he goes by homo1. he is my brother so if you would everyone make friends with him and show him lots of love. and no one hate on him please unless you are man/woman enough to say who you are this is my brother and he is dear to my heart so show the love sweetys and gentelmen.

Fucking Girlfriend
I'M SO PISSED ON A MONDAY IT'S NOT FUUNY MY GIRL MINDY WORKS ALL WEEKAND HAS COLLEGE AND WOUNT MAKE TO TO SEE ME BUT I MAKE TIME AND SEE HERE HOW FUCKED UP IT THAT I TAKE TIME OUT OF MY DAY BUT ANYWAYS WE ARENT GETTING ALONG SO I'M FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW SHE WHANT'S TO TALK BUT I'M TEMTED TO SAY FUCK IT AND GIVE UP BUT IF SHE CALLS I MIGHT TALK AND WAYS MY DAY HAS BEEN FUCKED UP SO PLEASE HELP ME OUT IF YOU CAN TY.

Wow, I Feel The Love
Actually, I don't and I'm pretty sure that I'm not gonna enter another contest ever cause it is pretty much a waste of my time. Posting bulletin after bulletin asking for a few votes and comments and only two people have given me a rate and/or comment. So psh, whatever. So yeah, to those who comment me telling me that they'd like to see "my sexy bod", forget it. I'm not putting up more pics of myself in little clothing just for you when you can't take five seconds out of your day to make me smile. Fuck you. So from here on out, I'm gonna say what I want to say, do what I want to do, and put up whatever fucking pics I want to put up. Seriously, even if the new pics don't get a huge amount of ratings. . .I DON'T CARE. I don't care if this blog makes you hate me or stop being my friend. I don't care about being popular on a fucking website. FUCK YOU

My Muse Has
My muse has made me too happy My muse has given me nothing to write about My muse what are you doing to me? Am I really getting this comfortable Did I just hear myself say your name again? Is that you running through my brain? You were so good to me, well you still are. Have I lost my lack to write? Have I lost the desire to express myself? How could this happen overnight? How could I go from writing multiple things a night to nothing? You my muse are beautiful You are an amazing person You are kind, and sweet. You are all that I lack I am all that you lack. So maybe I just need a break from writing until you inspire me again?

Please Say A Prayer For The People In Va
This morning was the worst Massacre in the US history. 33 dead and rising. Please say a prayer for these people and their families who have lost loved ones. I have 2 grown children myself in college, so I can only imagine what these families are going through. To think your Children are safe going to school to better educate themselves and than some crazy flipped out nut takes it all away.

Answers To Question You Might Want To Know About Me
Are you or have you been married? divorced Do you have kids? two girls youngest 16 & my oldest is 17, they do not live with me Do you want kids? no Do you have siblings? one brother who is older Do you do any kind of drugs? no Do you smoke? yes Do you drink? no Have you ever been arrested? no What is your longest relationship? 9 years Do you like pets? love pets Do you go to Church? no Do you have your own place? no live with my cousin If no, have you lived on your own? yes What do you like to do for fun? watch live music, movies or go out to eat. Cuddling on the couch is my favorite. What is your ideal soul mate? someone who is loyal, honest and respectful What color are your eyes? blue gray What is good about your heart? very loving & caring Is family important too you? extremely What are you dislikes in a man? liers & cheats Do you have a temper? not at all Do you have pierces' and/or tattoos'? tattoos Do you m

20 Questions With Trace Adkins
1. Do any of your daughters have an interest in music? With five daughters, one would think that at least one of them would be blessed with a beautiful voice. The ones that I've heard sing -- they can sing. They have pitch, but none of them have shown any interest in pursuing it beyond just singing in the car. So, so far so good. ... I've been in this business long enough. It's hard for a guy, but I think it's harder for a female, so I wouldn't wish it on anybody. 2. With all the focus on the women in your videos, and being the father of five daughters, do you feel that society puts too much pressure on women to be perfect? Well, yeah. Society puts pressure on us all to be as perfect as we can be and to always strive to a goal that is unrealistic -- in all aspects of our life. You know, how successful we are, how we look. ... I don't think we should worry about it too much. 3. How does your wife, Rhonda, handle your videos with all the beautiful women all over you? And what

My Son
Just to let you know my son did go and talk to someone they put him on antidepressants and he talked out some of what was bothing him,I talked to him earlier and although hes not well he did sound more himself and that makes me a very happy camper. We both know it will take awhile for him to get everything straightened out and back on track but at least hes heading in the right direction and thats what matters.Thanks Dave and bad grizz

Kgr#61 - Tragedy At Virgina Tech
Houston brings you breaking news about the Shootings a Virgina Tech today(4/16/07). 33 dead and estimated 29 wounded. Vote for Knicks Game Reviews on PodcastAlley.com Rate us on Pod-Planet.com Digg us on Digg.com. Email comments(audio or text)to knickssitelinks@yahoo.com and it will probably make it onto the show!! Join the forum and make some noise http://knickssitelinks.jconserv.net/ http://www.garageband.com/mp3/KGR61__Tragedy_at_Virgina_Tech.mp3

20 Questions With Blake Shelton
1. Was “The Baby” based on your life story? “The Baby” is based on the true story of Michael White and the relationship he had with his mother. He wrote the song [with Harley Allen]. As far as my life is concerned, it is true up until the part where the mother passes away. I am the baby of the family, and I moved away when I was 17, and I was away from home when I turned 21, and up until now it has paralleled my life. But the one thing that it teaches me, and hopefully everyone who hears the song, is not to take your family for granted, and try to at least stay in touch with them. 2. How do you get through “The Baby” without just tearing up? I do not know if you can get through it without tearing up, but I feel a responsibility when I sing that song, or any song, to deliver it in a way that’s believable and emotional to people. You kind of have to step out of the song a little bit and sing it, I guess. I don’t know how to explain it. It is j

I Came To Realize...
I came to realize that love does not exist in me but only for family and close friends. All I ever needed was my family, friends, music, and alcohol. That's all I ever wanted was to be that cool, loving, rocker, partying kind of type of guy. It just sort of hit me that as of this moment love does not exist. So anyways... I got that out of my system. I've been having a great time lately. I mean, I party every night, no matter what time or where it's at. Friday night was a blast for me though. I had three special guest for my dj'ing show. There was Alex (oldest neice, 12), Sammi (second oldest, 8), and then there was Maddog (best friends for 13 years now, 18). And then at 9pm, we all decided to leave. Saturday night I went to the bar and partied with everyone that was there. And on my way out the door, I get to my car and my car decides to not work. So I just walked home and it was a LONG walk. It was cool, and once I got home, drank some booze, talked for a little bit for fun, a

Kgr#60- Don Imus Debate Part 2 Of 3
Part 2 of 3 of the Hoannity & Colmes Show debate on Don Imus feat. Marc Lamont Hill, comedian Patrice O'Neal, and Armstrong Williams. Along with Houston's intake on it. Vote for Knicks Game Reviews on PodcastAlley.com Rate us on Pod-Planet.com Digg us on Digg.com. Email comments(audio or text)to knickssitelinks@yahoo.com and it will probably make it onto the show!! Join the forum and make some noise http://knickssitelinks.jconserv.net/ http://www.garageband.com/mp3/KGR60part2.mp3

This Shit
been a long fucking day that seemed to last agonizing minutes... such is my life. this year started off like a kamikaze mission and trust me, i've been ready to die for weeks, but there's something in me that drives me that will never let me give up. been a hell of a ride and i have to thank my baby, lisa for the turbulence to make me stronger... HELLTHEFUCKNOWILLIEVERGIVEUPONMYPLACEINMYDAUGHTERSLIFE!!!!!! so i tried harder... lots of pain, lots of corners to be backed into, lots of opportunities to fight my lanky ass out... i didn't come out stronger, i came out with more of a heart... as long as i have my kids, i can never give up and i don't give a fuck how much i'd want to in that time of crisis... FUCK IT... seen enough shit, been through enough shit, smelled enough shit, felt WORSE THAN FUCKING SHIT... when is it my turn? surprise grands in my account? unimportant people dying to make my life just fine? shit, that's bullshit, too... but i'll take it.... be dumb not to... after

Im Sorry Im A Terrible Person
So I sit here and I keep wondering , why am I such a terrible person? I try to please everyone but myself .It kills me to see my friends and the people I care about sad ,or hurting , yet sometimes , its I that caused them that pain.the last thing in the world I ever wanted to do was hurt or mislead anyone, but it seems Im doing a bit of that these days. Why is it always the most unstable one in the bunch has be the thread that pulls it together , or feels the most compeled to try and fix every one and everything. Alice , I love you with all my heart , you were my first real friend on CT , you are my best friend.I am so sorry I let you down , Im sorry I upset you , and Im sorry I failed you as friend. To those that hold on to a hope , I am sorry I have mislead you in any way . I value our friendship , though I see you hope for more , I can not offer any more then friendship. I am NOT looking for anything outside of that relm . Im sorry , for making you think I wanted mo

A Poem Written By My Friend
I thought of you today, But that is nothing new. I thought of you yesterday And the day before that too. For everyday no matter where In my heart you will always be there Today tomorrow my whole life through Ill never ever stop loving you Far across the universe Upon a restless sea Where ever you are my love Thats where I want to be So take this love I have to offer Store it with your own Keep it safe forever more Then you'll never be alone

Vt
hey all.... i know we all have pretty hectic schedules, but i need to ask you all a favor... my cousin Laura is in her first year at Virginia Tech. although she escaped this morning's massacre unscathed, she's pretty shaken up... that heartless bastard took the lives of 32 people today, and i'm just asking you all to aim a quick prayer to whatever deity you choose, for the souls of the fallen, and the survivors who have to somehow come to terms with this awful tragedy. please guys, all thoughts and prayers will help, ok? thank you ~Rio

Elegy For The Man I Called John
Elegy For The Man I Called John I buried my friend this morning The air so cold that the tears fell Frozen at my feet when the heavens cried The chill of the ground beneath my feet Pervaded my body, I felt frozen but still My heart bled like the soul of my friend A soul that died, long before he died And that died by his own hand (Or so he said) John used to tell me That he could find no forgiveness for himself “I deserve no peace from what I’ve done” I learned from my friend this morning That we are short on gratitude For the men that we send to do unspeakable things I wonder how many Silver Stars shine over The Potters Fields in this country How many of them are left alone, abandoned By their families, friends, or their sanity Remembered only to a few people, People who took a moment to care To offer a hand to someone in pain (Though it never seemed enough) I buried my friend this morning And when I stepped from the grave I trod over only the foo

A Master's Creed
A Master's Creed (Author Unknown) For people who wonder about a D/s relationship and often feel it is "degrading" to a woman, this should clear it up. True D/s involves much love, respect, and trust. Here is what one Master wrote and I agreed with it completely. To me it epitomizes everything that should be in every D/s relationship. As it is often important and often even necessary for one human being to have certainty and a clear understanding of the intentions, desires, motivations, and needs of another, I offer this testimony in trust and sincerity. ----------------------------------------------------------- I am a dominant man. I am just that. I am not dominant because of any superiority on my part. Not because I feel more intelligent or wiser. I am not dominant because of the strength or the mass of my body. I am not, nor would I want to be dominant with all women. Yet, to you I am Master. I am your Master only after earning your trust and I embrace your

Hello And Goodbye - A Poem
Hello and goodbye Hello my darling love I am here today Tomorrow is seems so far away It’s hard to say goodbye when we part The sadness fills my heart Yet as days go by without a word Doubt and suspicion are all that is heard Yesterday’s past infringes on today’s joy Silence is all this heart knows Since parting with our goodbyes Time flows on and distances increase between us Talk is few and far between Have we parted without saying goodbye? It seems to be that way my darling love. From me to you I scribe these words I loved you as much as I could Our time was not to be and yet I am not sad at leaving you I am glad we meet and had our fun Till we meet again my darling love - Goodbye.

I Don't Know How Many More Blows I Can Take . . .
As if losing my friend Zeb as horrifically as he died last month wasn't tragic enough, I got a phone call last night from my friend Amy telling me that another friend of mine, Chayla, decided to blow her brains out over the weekend. She was 26 years old. How many friends is one person supposed to lose tragically in ones' lifetime? This is the 9th friend I have lost over the past 10 years to tragic, less-than-natural circumstances, and the 2nd in one month and one day. I really don't know how to feel right now. I am SO F*#&ING ANGRY, in addition to the hurt, and I am pretty much numb. She had so much going for her - just got engaged back in February, a wonderful man, a great new career . . . all gone . . . Forgive me if I just don't feel like talking to anyone right now . . . but I am just struggling real hard to try and understand the cards that life deals us right now . . .

Howdy
Just saying hi to those that read blogs. I'm fixing to go and watch wrestling, yes I watch wrestling!! LOL Watched the Nascar race yesterday and got pissed at Montoya for wrecking Tony Stewart! so I believe Smoke finished 25th. sucks. So today is going well except all the sudden I am breaking out in hives! I hate it when I do this. I've had to go to the ER before because they got soooo bad. I'm hoping they don't this time. wonderful! ok, I'm off, cya'll later! xoxo

By The Way (from The Letter I Never Sent You)
By The Way (From The Letter I Never Sent You) It’s 3 AM again And once more I’m searching the Cracks in the ceiling for your face Sometimes I can almost find it Through the traces of my tears Outside the wind moans through The tree branches I even think I hear Mr. Hooker moan “I’m sittin’ in my dark room cryin, dark room cryin’” I wonder how he can see into my world tonight I guess it’s plain even to a dead man I’m Lonely again. My mind wanders some far off street Looking for a soft hand to hold Hoping against hope for your gentle touch To wipe the tears from my cheeks But that might as well have been One hundred years ago. I’d trade all that I have for a chance to Hold you again I wonder what it would be like to see into Your world tonight. A long quiet moment Sometimes it is almost too much to bear My recollections of holding you in the soothing Silences just before the dawn The thought of you warm against me Bathed in the purple light of the q

Private Pics
It kinda pisses me off when some pics are blocked even though you are a fan of someone. You might be a fan just cause of their body. Cause lets be real...we're all checkin' each other out. Just my gripe of the day! Tom

The Train Has Stopped...for The Moment
howdy yall!! hope everyone is doing well! have you ever had one of those days where you just decided to make the train stop? i have. today was that day for me. ive been working almost 24/7 for the last 4 months and today i had decided im not going to let work drive the train. im glad i made that decision. when i made that decision the rest of the day was easy. when i got home i made dinner, i made myself a drink and for the moment all is right in the world. maybe its just a case of spring pms (parked motorcycle syndrome). i dont know. whatever it is i think my decision to stop this runaway train is probably a good one. now that there will be more days of sunshine and good weather for riding im sure that my temperment and mood will greatly improve! and on that i will close this musing :) keep the shiny side up! rock on!

My Lovely Husband....grrrrrr
Ok...Here's how it goes...I split from my husband about 6 months ago...When we split we came to a agreement that we would have the kids every other week...this was his idea just so he wouldn't have to pay me anything...I went with it...anywayzzz...now (since my wreck) I've been off work so I have them all the time...From 7 am to 8 pm...He won't bring them food or even give me anything for groceries...I have no problem taking care of my kids, but I feel like if he can take his girlfriend out 4 times a week that he can spare a little bit to feed his kids...I am stuck here without a car...he has 2 at the house (which he kept that too)...All he worries about is having to pay me child support...I could so take him for all he has, but I'm not that kind of person...I want it to be equal, but I'm getting shit on and I'm tired of it...

Taled From My Window Pt. 1
Tales From My Window (pt. 1) “Another Birthday For Martin” It’s black coffee and cigarettes again This morning I stare out the window and do my best to Ignore the drama unfolding outside Broken glass, blood and spent shells Litter the fresh fallen snow Policemen rush hither and yon’ Much like me they seem to feel nothing Nothing for the empty shell that used to, Used to be someone’s father Used to be someone’s lover Used to be someone’s son Now just a husk, with a toe tag It reads “Jon Doe 22561” No wallet, no friends and nothing But a hole where the back of his head Once was From my seat at my lonely table I feel the city smile to itself Somewhere in a far off secret place The city gloats Smiles the sick smile, that means IT just kicked the teeth down some Other hapless soul’s throat My fingers explore the scratches in The Formica tabletop and I wonder I wonder if it’s always been this way Always been heartless Always been soulless Always been withou

Open Your Eyes
Open your eyes Questions you ask of me what does your heart choose to see open your eyes beyond the sights release your heart from the pain it feels desire at costs unknown to such sin from within, who to trust searching the world in which you live answers you find, untrue again you have seem to forgotten where to look, where to see open your hearts to the mind close your thoughts from which you find all your told in past forget let the gods open you up with answers true bliss John V. Kiger Copyright ©2007 John V. Kiger

One Dreams Of Past
Ones Dreams Of Past The blood still runs dreams haunting life unforgiving my sanity fading how can one man live taught to be a machine I lust for the fight wanting the blood to run wanting the fields to burn yet still my sanity fading my dreams still haunting life still unforgiving Once a proud soldier persecuted in my own land hated, despised by my own beliefs disgusted with my self what have I become what have I done how can I forgive myself there will be rest, no more John V. Kiger Copyright ©2007 John V. Kiger

Why Do You Lie?
So many people do it. But why? Sugar coating the truth, or lying outright. What is the point to it? Sure you think you're saving someones feelings, but in reality you aren't. What you're really doing is hurting them more, because now not only is the original thing going to hurt them, but its going to get bigger. The fact that they now can't trust you because you just betrayed their belief in you is going to cut pretty deep too.What is it about people now days that makes them so unwilling to deal with reality? A million times a day we ask people, even strangers, "how are you?" without even caring for the answer. And a million times a day, we suck up our real feelings and answer back "Good" or "ok" or what not...but why? What would actually happen if you told the truth? Would that be so bad? Perhaps then people who really actually gave a shit would be the only ones asking how you are. Perhaps if we didn't sugar coat things or hide things from those we know and care about, we mig

My Past
My Past Thoughts provoking life detaining pain remaining fear the night quickly take flight hide my sight one world unknown one mission blown one soldier alone thoughts provoking pain still remaining one country detaining John V. Kiger Copyright ©2007 John V. Kiger

Virginia Tech
Some of you have heard some of you haven't.... 33 people are now confirmed dead after a gun man shot up a dorm room and then shot up a class room! Sad part is... The cmapus never made a public announcement until an hour later through an email just before the gunman shot up the classroom. Now if I knew there was a gun man on campus and it was my call to make, I would've done things a little diffrent. But that not my thoughts here. My thoughts and prayers go to the friends and family of those who were involved and even those who may have been wounded and lost friends or are dealing with the traumatic stress. I can only imagine the thoughts going through peoples heads down there at this point. Take a minute and think about that and say a lil and feel free to post up a message with your thoughts.

Meant To Be
Meant to Be I sit her upon this time listening to words pass in a slow realization that nothing seems to exist moving like rats in a race words we mention fall, lose grace once I didnt believe yet in my falsehood I fell I too started to live the lie to believe to trust and now I realize my weakness I fell once again I strive to be strong not fall or lose my stand rather die.. alone.. to never again suffer loves fate.... John V. Kiger

If You Wanna Get Drunk With Me This Friday...
Back to Monsoons with you! I just found out today that one of my coworkers is gonna cover my shift Friday night so I can go party it up with Caddle again, so I'm all kindsa hyped up. Come on out, show them some love and have a shot with me! xo♥ Kristin

Dreams
Can you hear the dreams screaming in the night air listen to my thoughs creeping without a care deadly visions of long ago mad rages blood flows thoughts provoking my inner hate no way out no escape past experiences haunt my thought is this the life, my soul my gods have brought disease and famine haunt this place this earth this sorrowful human race I added to all this horroful fate Heavens close your mournful gate look not down upon this man end my search, forgive my clan John V. Kiger Copyright ©2007 John V. Kiger

I've Been Pierced
Well I finally did it. Saturday I made some major changes in my life. I included a new cut and color and had my nose and some other things pierced. Didn't have a chance though to get any ink. My guy left me after I did these things, but he was an ass, so his departure was long overdue. He hasn't done anything for me anyway. He'd rather go off with his friends than to stay home and play with me. ; }

Shame
Through endless times and pain I have listened to you complain heard every word you said while I watched our soldiers fall dead so how may I ask can you dare complain from the comfort of a chair while the blood flows your mouth just goes and behold what you have told with words so true and bold complains and moans with annoying little groans you utter them with no shame and yet Bush is the one you blame so how may I ask can you dare complain from your chair and yes I know it is your right but I would much rather sleep safely at night so yell and complain, "ohh it is so unfair" with what you say why should I care John V. Kiger Copyright ©2007 John V. Kiger

Fuck Bush!!!!
Fuck George Bush and his cabinet of assholes. They have cut aid to people with disabilities. Type 1 Diabetes is no longer a disabiling disease and you cannot get a medical card when you need assistance. He has Type 2 mixed up with Type 1. Type 2 is caused as adult onset or just plain fat and fucking lazy which he has cut off completely. What about people like me with Type 1 who need insulin to survive? It isn't my fault genetics has stricken me with this disease. I had almost died last year and 17 months prior because most of the stuff I need I cannot afford and most insurance does not cover. What about when people like me are down on their luck and have no resources to get the needed medications? Does he not know how to have one cut and the other OK for the people who can die from lack of medications? Is he that fucking ignorant to give that same health care to people who don't even live in this country but screw the people who do? he needs to get a good kick to his fucking skull. Typ

You Still Do That To Me By Chris Cagle
This is another one I love and can't find a darn video for, so here go the lyrics again...lol..enjoy ya'll Chris Cagle - You Still Do That to Me Lyrics You Still Do That To Me I never thought that I was good enough to have the love Of a woman like you But you showed me I was man enough with just a touch In a way that only you could do That’s when my whole world started over you loved the fool right outta me And honey, would you believe You still do that to me Chorus: ‘Cause I still hold you in my arms when I dream at night and girl I don’t wake in the morning ‘til ya’ let me go And in case I never told ya’ you were my whole world Honey, I wrote this song jut so you would know Do you remember Jacksonville, ‘cause I always will No matter how hard I try to forget I said a lot of hateful things that I didn’t mean And have a lifetime left of regret That’s when my whole world came crashin’ down Like a fool I went and let you leave And it knocked me to my

Rated Too Many Pics???
It's only 7:30 p.m and I was trying to rate someones pics and recieved this message.... Error: you've reached the daily photo rating limit for your user level. Is this something new? If so it sucks!! I have never seen this before and I'm usually on this site more than I have been today!!! Please repost if you have ran into this problem!!

Maria By Chris Cagle
This is one of my favorite Chris Cagle (my future ex-husband...lol) songs...I can't find it on video anywhere, so this will have to do... Oh, to have a man feel like this about ya... Chris Cagle - Maria Lyrics I’m exhausted, trying to catch my breath the morning’ after I hold my coffee with shaking hands and my world in disarray Lost by the softness and the strength that’s in her hands I see her face and I can barely stand But oh the sweet redemption every time she mentions that she wants me Oh, that she needs me Chorus: Oh Maria your kisses knock me over Make me drunk then leave me sober They let me know that I’m a man Maria, your touch it almost kills me Then it turns around and heals me I get lost and found again In the arms of a woman that a mother gave the name, Maria Tender power The gift she gives me gets me through the day Midnight hour I reach across the bed where she lay Then I look up and see the moon dance on her skin My heart starts poun

Monday 4/16/07
Well, today started out good and was just another ordinary day where I just chatted and listened to Crush FM all day, but earlier this afternoon my online dad IMed me and told me that my online sister died this morning at 5:25 A.M. so I've been kinda down the rest of the day. He and my online mom and Lisa's sister are all having a really hard time dealing with it, my online dad couldn't even stay online to talk to me for very long because he was so upset. Anyway, the funeral will be on Wednesday sometime and she will be buried near her mom's family. Thankyou Cracker for the tribute to her that you did on your show today, that was awesome and very much appreciated. Well, not much more to write about, so I guess I will end this entry here. Have a great night all.

Fire
~~Fire~~ The flames. The heart Feel the burn Roasting marshmellows Start one in the woods. Cause deverstation It passed the world by Water can sometimes put it out It causes mass problems It burns It keeps you warm You can life stuff with it Men and women fight them You can have them anywhere. They can cause mass dammage to a forest. Can use for good uses. You use them to keep nice and warm. Fire is extreamly powerful

Frustrated
Hello all that may read this i have joined Cherry Tap to meet people. Beside themmeting i dont wantto spend countless hours of only rateing pics and adding people . Justto have done only that i have only gotten to know a few people on here because so many people has seem to forgotten why they even came here in the first place!!! the game of tag is over im not chaseing after no one on here ever so if you really find me attractive or you wanto be my friend then asdd me or comment on my stuff but if your just here fo rthe point collecting stay away i have seen alot of nice looking people but looks r not every thing if you dont have any thing to back it up . i really have my owen drama and i have yetto have any on here but in teh same since i have yet to get back hardly any responces to some of the things ask of me to rate or fill out form peeps . Am i alone in feeling this way on this program.......... well i guess i dont have good grramer so if this is a run on thing an dyour do

Hurt
Well, I think Carla's been playing me all along. She changed her mind about the engagemet almost 2 weeks ago. I was OK and just wanted to be with her. Anyway, she was ignoring me again - sometimes I don't hear from her for 2 or 3 weeks. Was so in love I didn't really think of it. I finally was - noticed she could be on a social networking site every fucking day but couldn't say one damn word to me. Finally messaged her "Fuck you bitch!" Now the ball's in her court. Not going to beg her to talk anymore. If she wants to she can contact me. Anyway until she does I consider myself single again. Still feel so fucking hurt.

Love Is A Verb
Just thought I'd mention that 'loving people' means "to love"....To love means just that. Who said you can love people and not love all living things? If you can stomp a cat or beat a dog, that's not love and the worst of it is that you could do the exact same thing to a person. Love comes from your heart and you either let yourself be 'the love' that we all are, or you freeze your heart and don't allow any real love. Don't be surprised that your mate eventually realizes that you're just using him/her to fit into society and your heart is cold. Show your love for life through all living things - and it will come through wonderfully clear to those close to you. Best of all, you'll really LOVE yourself.

King Of The Witches Ends Reign
NEW BEDFORD — Shawn Poirier talked to the dead for a living. Now he is among them. Death was Mr. Poirier's spiritual haunt and his livelihood. Witches mourn their 'King' "The specter of death is one of your most ardent lovers who stalk you steadfastly," the 40-year-old wrote on his MySpace Web page. "Hidden at every turn throughout your entire life, he waits until the moment is perfect. Death will finally strike catching you only to give you his fatal kiss while enfolding you in bone arms forever." Mr. Poirier got embraced by a heart attack in bed on Sunday. The sun cast its paling light and the horizon darkened while his black-caped coven gathered around Mr. Poirier's bier in a West End funeral home late yesterday to sing incantations to the man they called the King of the Witches. "Everything around him was magical," said Leanne Marrama of Salem in the afternoon in an unused parlor in Saunders-Dwyer Home for Funerals. "He touched a person and changed their life." A

¢¾speed¢¾ Yeah, It's One Of Those Nights....
YOU HAVE 300 SECONDS TO REPOST WITH THE DRUG THAT MOST EXPLAINS WHERE YOUR AT IN A RELATIONSHIP OR NOT,OR THE DEVIL WILL HAUNT YOU AT EXACTLY 3:00 TONIGHT¢¾ ¢¾SHROOMS¢¾ -Your confused and waiting for someone u really like ¢¾WEED¢¾-your single but you have someone stuck in your head that you can't get out and they make you depressed and super happy at the same time. YOU HAVE 300 SECONDS TO REPOST WITH THE DRUG THAT MOST EXPLAINS WHERE YOUR AT IN A RELATIONSHIP OR NOT,OR THE DEVIL WILL HAUNT YOU AT EXACTLY 3:00 TONIGHT¢¾ ¢¾SHROOMS¢¾ -Your confused and waiting for someone u really like ¢¾WEED¢¾-your single but you have someone stuck in your head that you can't get out and they make you depressed and super happy at the same time. ¢¾CRYSTAL METH¢¾- taken by the sweetest person ever that you really care about and would give your life for ¢¾COCAINE¢¾- Just single and you like someone, but you kind of dont care it's w/e ¢¾CRACK¢¾- You like someone and you know t

My Hair Is Tangled....
My hair is tangled with in the wind The little shivers escape and run A mischievious path down my spine Your touch excites me, with a need as Arousing as the breeze on my bare back Your fingers trace something deep inside This feeling, this feeling My lips are swollen, yet not kissed Not at all kissed by this gentle breeze Holding me captive, in the arms of his warmth My eyes are shining with love It's about to burst within my breast A tingling feeling starts from my toes To the roots of my hairs. I shimmy as I groove to the music of Little gasps and moans of ecstasy. Your small murmurs of pleasures Keep me moving at the increasing speed, And you move with me. What a dance we have created, With our echoing voices as the singers And the pounding of our flesh, our rhythmn. Small kisses are the rests from this music. We block out the world - only you and I Can dance to the music of this haven Together.

I Wrote This Poem For My One True Love
i wrote this for my baby to tell her how i felt please be honest tell me if its to corny my love, my love for you is a plant growing in the sunlight, my love is the ocean constantly washing over your shores, my love is an endless desert and you are the water i thrive for, my love for you is the rythm to my heart, and my heart melts when i hold you in my arms for you are my one and only true love, I Love You Baby Jason

My Thoughts For The Day
Break ups and broken hearts are just a part of lifeand the trials that we have to go through . But I'm a survivor. I've done it before so I can do it again . Do I still want him back? The answer to that question is yes, No matter how many others come and go throughout the months and over the years. I will always want him. Will we get back together ? Or am I doomed forever to be only a friend ? When at one point in time I was his everything . How can I be thinking about starting new with someone else when I'm not even over him? But then again, will I ever be truely over him ? It makes me wonder if true love really exists . You know, the kind that lasts forever . The kind you read about in all those romance books . Because in my experience forever only lasts until the find someone else . Everyone tells me that I'm young and have my whole life ahead of me to find a love like that. But what they don't see is I had it once and I want it back . Then they say if you love someone set them

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I'm walking away, I'm walking alone in this land of sand like a massive dune. I keep walking but I can't see where I've been, I don't see where I'm going and I wonder why. I could collapse and my actions can speak louder then words, I thought we all learned from it all, but instead maybe its not so bad to take that dive and fall. If I came as I was, would I still hear the call? Maybe its my time to go, maybe I should've died years ago, but for now what more can I do then keep on going. For now I guess thats the way it goes.

Inner Peace From Dr Phil (lol)
I am passing this on to you because it definitely works, and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple advice heard on the Dr. Phil show you too can find inner peace. Dr. Phil proclaimed, "The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you've started and never finished." So I looked around my house to find all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before I left the house this morning I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of Bailey's Irish Cream, a bottle of Kahlua, a package of Oreos, the remainder of my old Prozac prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos, and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freaking good I feel!!!!

Go For A Jog Fatty
Just a quicky, I was reading the letter to the editor section of a local community paper and this chick wrote in bitching that "skinny" people should stop teasing fat people because fat people have enough "body issues" without anyone teasing them about their weight.Well to all the fat people who agree with this I have this to say...if you go for a jog everytime you start to feel body conscious, you won't be a fat lump of lard anymore... :D

Cia's Visit
A INTERNET FRIEND OF MINE THAT I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO FOR YEARS FINALLY GOT TO COME FOR A VISIT...WOOHOO....AFTER A 16 HOUR FLIGHT FROM SCOTLAND SHE GOT HER FIRST CIGARETTE....AS YOU CAN TELL....OUT OF 300 PLUS PICTURES THESE ARE THE ONES I PICK FOR A MONTAGE OF HER VISIT...SHE STARTED AT A FRIENDS IN NORTH CAROLINA, THEN TO MY HOME IN HOUSTNE WHERE SHE WAS MET WITH A TEXAS STYKE BAR-B-QUE AND YELLOW ROSE OF TEXAS AND THE NEST DAY WAS SITESEEING...THEN OUT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH A STRIPPER WITH MY BOYS....THEN TO EAST TEXAS TO VISIT TO GENIE, MIKEY, AND CANDICE'S WHERE SHE HAD ALOT OF FIRST...I THINK THIS WHOLE TRIP IS THE BEGINNING OF ALOT OF FIRST'S....I LOVE YOU CIA AND MISS YOU ALREADY....

Untitled
I don't know how its going to sound, but as time passes I'm still workin away on this new disc, slowly, and slowly polishing it. It might be done in a day, a week or a month, I don't know when though. All I can do is put my best out on this next set and hope it flies. I don't expect to blow up, but it would be nice if I could sell more then I did when I started out. If anyone is reading this and they've heard my stuff, if you like what you've heard then please let me know. It would be nice if you bought some of my digitals, from either me directly or from a website. Also be advised that I'll be pulling a promo draw, and give away soon so let me have your names and contact info. Well, time to go back to my note pad. ~ Silver Demonix

Another Downrater
NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE DOING A BLOG ON THIS BUT I MADE A FOLDER JUST FOR THEM ANYBODY WHO KNOWS ME KNOWS THAT I'M NOT ONE TO DOWN RATE PPL I ONLY GIVE 10S OR 11S SO WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE TO BE RATED A 1 JUST THOUGHT EVERYONE WOULD LIKE TO KNOW WE HAVE ANOTHER DOWNRATER I AM GLAD THAT WE CAN NOW TELL WHO IS RATING US ONES THAT A PLUS AND I GIVE KUDOS TO BABY J FOR THAT ANYWAY NO I DIDN'T GO RETURN THE FAVOR LOL BUT I WILL SINGLE HER OUT FOR ALL TO KNOW sweetbaby_1983@ CherryTAP

Free Meales
It was many years ago since the embarrassing day when a young woman, with a baby in her arms, entered his butcher shop and confronted him with the news that the baby was his and asked what was he going to do about it? Finally he offered to provide her with free meat until the boy was 16. She agreed. He had been counting the years off on his calendar, and one day the teenager, who had been collecting the meat each week, came into the shop and said, "I'll be 16 tomorrow." "I know," said the butcher with a smile, "I've been counting too, tell your mother, when you take this parcel of meat home, that it is the last free meat she'll get, and watch the expression on her face." When the boy arrived home he told his mother. The woman nodded and said, "Son, go back to the butcher and tell him I have also had free bread, free milk, and free groceries for the last 16 years and watch the expression on his face!"

Promoting My Brother In Law E3
Peace Y'all! Please check out a new tune with Myself and Mic Boogie called 'My Lil' Crocodile'. It's Hot! Also, don't forget to cop Red's new album 'Red Gone Wild'! Seriously one of the best albums I've heard in a long time. And I can't forget to shamelessly plug my album "One Soul". Please check it out:

Adult Mad Libs! Haha
WARNING: VERY! Explicit content below. If you are easily offended by derogatory remarks, read NO further. And My apoliges ahead of time. But, for the record, I was just the writer, not the word giver =p These are a few actual quotes from our mad lib games this weekend. If you dont know the game of mad libs you wont get it lol *Jack and Jill went up the swampthing to fuck a pail of semen. Jack fell down and broke his vaggine and Jill came swallowing after. *Open your windows and fill your McNasties with fresh Semen depository and then, exhale rapingly. *Ultimately, they invented the great timeskeeping devices of today such as the grandfather truck full of faggots, the pocket 50 Bob Sagets, the alarm French made baggets, and, of course, the sack full of semen watch. *Condratulations abusive mothers and child molesting fathers. You are about to give birth to a pedophile. Remember, a happy child comes from a happy beating stick. *When you board the bus, do

Im Only A Cat
I'm Only a Cat I'm only a cat, and I stay in my place... Up there on your chair, on your bed or your face! I'm only a cat, and I don't finick much... I'm happy with cream and anchovies and such! I'm only a cat, and we'll get along fine... As long as you know I'm not yours... you're all mine!

Morning Uhhhh Is It Morning
MY ONLY TRUE LOVE MY DEAR Bring on the love MY DEAR SHED YOUR THOUGHTS YOUR FEARS I'll hold it near WITHOUT ONE SINGLE FEAR We grasp it we feed its desires. Bring on the love dear There is no other place my love has found its home roaming a world with a hearts DESTINATION FEELS RIGHT. exploring new depths, new angles. Bring on the love dear. I have just as much as you can hold. Never once will you yearn for a feeling I can not give you most of all I will do my best that you will never have to ask. Bring on the love dear. Here is mine for you to hold meant for you longed for you dream t of you. Bring on the love dear. There is no other way till we reach our last breath and find our dying day. Bring on the love dear. I will reach you with all my power beyond the test of time you are mine and I am yours. Bring on the love dear. It is here it is here MY ONLY TRUE LOVE MY DEAR DAWN MARIE APRIL 16 2007

Stormy In Va.
Well I thought the wind and rain,would be the new's of the day here,In reality that was nothing,I am thinking of the victim's and their families at Virginia Tech,as I pray for their comfort,I realise how truly blessed I am.

Untitled 4
Kill me now... Forever I am doomed... There is no faith upon thee. Images of death... Surrounding my head... Wanting to feel my heart's beat stop! Laying on the floor... MOTIONLESS Being kicked and tormented from all angels... Curling into a ball... Lying in the pool of red liquid. The moonlight peers through the dampen forest.

Learn A Lil Bit More About Me!!
Get to Know Me...About You...Eye ColorDK BR0WNHair ColorBLACKHeight5'7Favorite ColorBLACK, PiNK, GR3Y nd R3DScreen NameQU33NESHA4LIF3 nd ESHADABOSS06Favorite MovieF3ARFavorite TV ShowLAW nd 0RD3R: SVUYour Car'96 F0RD WiNSTARYour HometownBUFFAL0 (DAT *7-1-6*)Your Present TownRUFF BUFFYour Grade--Your StyleGiRLY BUT H00D nd H00D BUT S3XY...Have You Ever...Sat on your rooftopYKissed someone in the rainYDanced in a public placeY (i D0 THAT SHiT ALL DA TiM3)Smiled for no reasonYLaughed so hard you criedYPeed your pants after age 8NWritten a songY (AS A J0K3 TH0)Sang to someone for no reasonYPerformed on a stageYTalked to someone you don't knowY (STRANG3RS HAV3 G00D C0NV3RSATi0N)Made out in a theaterYGone roller skating since 8th gradeNBeen in loveY (i AM N0W R3GARDL3SS 0F DA SiTUATi0N)...Can You...Write with both handsN (TRi3D TH0)WhistleYBlow a bubbleYRoll your tongueNCross your eyesYTouch your tongue to your noseNDanceYSpeak a different languageYImpersonate someoneYCook anythingY...Finish

Untitled 3
To have you gone from my life brings utter saddness I can't bare the thought of the dying heart It feels like only yesterday you held me for the first time But as you are slowly slipping away, your shadow fades Running after the fast-paced train down the tracks of heartache You suddenly disappear from my vision Remembering thodr chocolate glazed eyes staring back at me Feeling that warm rush of anxiety flowing through my body Your gentle touch caresses my soft skin with every stroke Goosebumps grow as a cold chill hovers over me Longing to have you right here beside me Aches more and more as the days go by Your gentle kiss glides over every crevice Since being with you, my heart has grown ten times its size But i forget what it was like to be loved.

I Wanna C Wat U Think Of Me!!!
what would you do if I? 1. I made a move on u: 2. I kissed you: 3. I lived next door to you: 4. I started smoking: 5. I asked you on a date: 6. I was hospitalized: 7. I ran away from home: 8. I asked u Make Love? 9. I asked u out? ::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:: 9. Personality: 10. Eyes: 11. Hair: 12. Body: ::WOULD YOU:: 13. Be my friend? 14. Keep a secret if I told you one? 15. Hold my hand? 16. Go on a date with me? 17. Keep in touch? 18. Try and solve my problems? 19. Love me? 20. Date me? ::HAVE YOU EVER:: 21. Lied to make me feel better? 22. Wanted to kiss me? 23. Wanted to kill me? 24. Broke my heart? 25. Kept something important from me? 26. Wanted to make love to me? ::AND MORE:: 27. Who are you? 28. Are we friends? 29. When and how did we meet? 30. Describe me in one word: 31. What was your first impression? 32. Do you still think that way about me now? 33. What r

Untitled Song 2
I'm lost in my own mind This world won't let me unbind Myself from the painful heartaches My skin is on fire its baked I blink one you're there I blink again you're scarce Fighting with the demons All I'm doing is screaming Reaching for the one helpful kind But miss and fall far from the sky Just one more shot, all I need is one more prick I close my eyes, your face is what sticks Clawing at my neck, gasping for air All I notice is that I don't care I don't care about you, I don't care about my I don't care about these eyes to help me see See what I've done As I grab ahold of this gun Pointing at her, pointing at him Pointing at me just hoping I"ll slip Redp pours out like the fountain of youth I hope by now you're getting the scoop I don't care about you, I don't care about me I don't care about these eyes to help me see Tearing of the flesh I stab again Wish I knew how and where this all be

Untitled Song
I never thought hat I would lose my mind That I could control this I would bring down the moon and sun To show how much I care Don't want to lose you now I know we can win this Don't want to lose you now No, no, no or ever again! I've got this feeling you're not going to stay It's burning within me The fear of losing Of slipping away It just keeps getting closer Your face just never wants to go away Don't want to lose to loneliness I know we can win Don't want to lose to emptiness Never again!

Untitled 2
glaring deep into black eyes the soul of this helpless person disappears... the same cheery woman becomes evil and bitter she doesn't show it revenge is planning building up inside the hatred enters closely to the surface black rays grow murky non-transparent tightly squeezing her lips together squinting to see their weakness she dispurses of them...

Untitled 1
Sometimes I feel as if I'm the only one in the room even though there are thousands around.... Sometimes I feel as if I'm the only one alive... Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs to let people know that I'm alive... Sometimes I want to curl up into a ball and bury myself into a big hole... Sometimes I want to lock myself in a room and never come out... Sometimes I want to cut open my chest and give you the only thing that is pure... Sometimes I want to become invisible to see if you would even miss me.... Sometimes I just want to die!

Our Thoughts And Prayers For Virginia Tech
This morning the students, faculty and family of Virginia Tech were the victims of the worst shooting incident in U.S. History. Since all of the details are still coming I won't begin to mention them. Instead I ask everyone to send their thoughts and prayers for the lives lost in this senseless tragedy, to the families and friends that have a long road of recovery to go, and to the hope that nothing like this ever happens to anyone we know, much less again.

Let All Know You
i like to be a friend for all people around the world , may u not like me as all but that not mean i am bad it is mean we missed somthing btween so , let us know bye the way u accept me to u be ur favorite friend ( sorry my english is biggner as my blog , i will be beter with your friendship so plz accept me cuz i will accept u with all ur ways thinking )

Stab Wounds
A friend of mine, Thad, used to bartend part time. It's a rough bar but he made good money. Last Wed. he was trying to break up a fight and one dude pulled a knife and Thad received a good slice to the arm. Severed 4 tendons, partially severed #5. He had surgery today to reattach said tendons. I just got done talking to him on the phone and this is his woman's story but I thought it was funny. When he woke up from the anesthetic I guess he wasn't 'with it' yet. He woke up demanding a Jeager Bomb, no, not JUST a Jeager Bomb... a Fucking Jeager Bomb. I guess the nurses, whom he described as preppy, were trying to shush him up because there were other patients around but he would have no part of it. And then he made it be known he had to take a 'piss' so his woman helped him to the bathroom. She was standing behind him to steady him and he says "ya know, it feels really good you standing behind me but unless you're gonna hold my cock, back off." He doesn't remember saying a

Bulletins
Just to let everyone know ..I have turned my bulletins off I will no longer see any of them .. it is to hard to keep up with everyone on there because lots of ppl post A LOT of them in one day. So if anyone wants me to know about something send it to me in a message. if you post a blog you want read or whatever ill read it I try to get to everyones pages as much as I can. hope you all have a great day :)

We've Got Ourselves A Convoy!!!
Breaker One-Nine Breaker One-Nine, you got yer ears on? It was a dark night, and the weather was just as dark, save the occasional flash of lightning or the lights of an oncoming rig. Our hero's visibility was limited to a rapid glimpse of the road as the wipers tried in vain to disperse the waters that fell from the heavens in a torrential downpour. By this time our hero had been traveling for hours, road fatigue quickly setting in. The roads were like a slippery serpent winding through the black night of the North Carolina mountainsides. It appeared that Our hero rode alone for the most part, and on occasion the blink of an eye found him nodding off, only to snap to and correct his direction. Within hours what had been a routine drive through the mountains had taken a turn for the worse. The car slid every few moments, large semis barreled past in both directions, turbo diesels revving up and down, jake braking when necessary. The road narrowed to two lanes due to const

Weight Watchers & The First Step To Weight Loss
well I went to My first weightwatchers meeting. My weigh in was 266.8 lbs Initial goal is 10% thats a 27 lbs loss to reach 240 lbs Once I reach this goal I will get a reward of a keychain for every 5 lbs lost you get a star or reward sticker to mark off your progress. Next Monday at 6pm is my next meeting i need to take with me :::::::: Notebook and pen $12 for meeting fee $25 for starter kit $30 for water cup, snacks or shakes or one of each total $ to take 70ish i am also starting that monday going to start a walking goal up my steps by 100 steps/day WELL there ya have it

Deploying Real Soon
Well my deployment is getting closer and closer. I got back from leave on Friday and luckily had today off, but sadly have to go back tomorrow. Honestly, I aint feelin anything. i guess I am thinking of it like when I was in Korea. Of course, my thinking will change either once it deploy or when I get to Iraq. I really hope and pray that nothing happends to me or any other soldier. I would like to see all of us come back. "Group, Attention" "Fallout"

It Takes Big Things To Stir The Thoughts
I wrote this song today ... as all things like poetry and good story telling they come out of our experiances and feelings about what happend .. I wrote it yes but I am not feeling that pain right now and every time I write about it it becomes far less... Any way I hope it does not bum anyone out ! LOL I’ve had one too many heartaches don’t ya know To me your colder than the coldest night out in the snow I’ve overstayed my welcome and its time that I did go I’ve had one too many heartaches don’t ya know I’m guilty of thinking of you way too much you see Of wanting you more than you could ever care for me The pain of my stupidity is surely there to show I’ve had one too many heart aches don’t ya know A fool who stands with his heart out free to find love Looking for that blue eyed angel sent from heaven above Now a broken mess again with My torn soul in tow I’ve had one too many heartaches don’t ya know Is it the man who loved and lost that has truly lived Is i

6 Questions
YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. __________________________________________________ No matter how random, revealing, rude, or pointless __________________________________________________ I promise to answer them 100% truthfully __________________________________________________ All questions are COMPLETELY confidential __________________________________________________ [[[Repost this to see what others ask you...]]] as "6 questions?" __________________________________________________ IF YOU DON'T THEN YOU'RE SCARED OF WHAT PEOPLE MAY ASK (repost of original by 'tonz1404...snot bowl' on '2007-04-16 13:27:35') (repost of original by 'Just Lil Me' on '2007-04-16 13:46:53') (repost of original by 'dcowboysfan1978' on '2007-04-16 15:33:17')

Attacked
A tear my fear caused by you what should I do? You can't see the hurt you treat me like dirt my open scar you think you're a czar Loving was my sin your heart is like tin as you plan another attack I knew you would be back To bring me more pain and drive me insane neither friend or foe please let me go But you won't let me be I refuse to flee I am not scared I know you never cared So go on your way have your fun and play you are just a spoiled boy I am no longer your toy You can't hurt me anymore you cut me to the core as I blindy ran into the arms of a real man I now know it's true I've seen the loser in you I laugh at you my dear cause now you will live in fear

Lavender
They say the scent of lavender soothes a troubled soul to sleep the aroma permeates and fills with calming peace. I say that laughter is like lavender a gentle trill over coffee or unguarded thoughts at lunch. Some people are lavender listening with quiet interest a balm of joining two minds in a moment into one however brief or fleeting the sweet settles into our fabric for a time, or times again. To change, forever the path we’re on. They say the sent of lavender…

Hello Everyone
Well, I think I am going to be changing my blog over here. I've been realizing that I have too many people I know in real life friended on my My Space page and end up not posting when I need to because I'm afraid of upsetting one friend or another. I don't know how often ill be posting but should be at least once in a while. Anyway, thanks for coming by.

No More
No more do i want to feel No more tears to cry No more feeling this way Because it isnt fair to me You promised you'd never hurt me i guess that was a lie too.... I know i am not the greatest its not like like i didnt know Didnt need to remind me that i'm not there to hold you in that way that i wanted to.... So no more Cause i cant do it anymore And more importantly... I wont

Missing You
here i sit and think of you and wishing to i could have your arms around me thinking of the times when we are together and how happy we make one another even when we are close it seems like we are far apart i know that i love you and that nothing can change that just missing you seems to be the most i can do for right now you make me smile and laugh you make me live and love all in one you are a good part in my life so here i sit missing you and waiting till the tme comes when we can see each other

Just Say No.. Reflections Of Criminal
So yesterday I smoked some pot.... and today I feel like I'm still just struggling to get my head together, ya know? out for a walk or for something.. I should go... perhaps i should have just said no? Well I don't know.. I usually try to.. well not live in the straight and narrow so much as.. live according to certain priorities to which this seems some how incongruent... and I feel so sleepy and... stuff like...

Work
Ever feel so small that no one sees you. Or that no matter how much you do people around you only see the things you don't do. I work in a hardware store and I do everything from placing and checking in orders to mixing paint and cutting keys. Yet all others can see is when I stop to breath for a minute that I am not pricing an order or helping with house accounts. What they didn't see was I just helped a customer with a $300 sale. It pisses me off that people judge yet they don't do or know half of what I do and they been working there twice as long as I am.

Verginia Tech Shooting
April 16, 2007— A tranquil college campus in Virgina became a killing field Monday morning. At least 33 people are dead in the worst mass shooting in modern American history. Police at Virginia Tech, in Blacksburg, Va., said that the shootings happened at a dormitory and then at a classroom on opposite sides of the university campus. It is unknown at this time if the guns had standard or extended clips, which can fire as many as 30 shots before the gun has to be reloaded. No identification was found on the gunman's body, police said. Eyewitnesses described him as an asian male about six feet tall. He apparently shot himself in the head after the killings; part of his face was missing when his body was found. "Today the university was struck with a tragedy that we consider of monumental proportions," said Virginia Tech's Steger. Two Shootings Virginia Tech Police Chief Wendell Flinchum said the first shooting took place just after 7 a.m. at West Ambler Johnston H

20 Questions Carrie Underwood
1. What gave you the courage to stick with your country roots? It had to take courage when competing on American Idol. I was a little worried in the beginning about maybe possibly singing country music to people who might not really understand it. I thought it may be a little detrimental to me, but I knew that that's the kind of record deal I wanted afterwards, whether I won or not. I figured it would be silly to stray because then I'd end up with possibly nothing. 2. I know it is important for you to be in Nashville to further your career. Are you going to live there? I am an Oklahoman, and we are hoping you'll keep your ties here. My parents do still live in Oklahoma, so if I ever have a couple of days off, I'm definitely going to Oklahoma. It really makes sense for me to have a house here in Nashville just because everything and everybody I work with is here in Nashville. It just makes sense, instead of me living in a hotel, like I'm doing right now, to get a house. Hopeful

My Wall
My wall I am all alone with in my self. No way to break free and no way out. Need to be held and need to be loved. Can’t you see im with in my self? My sole has taken over me. You can’t get close to me. I have tried to break down this wall of mine. I sit here and scream please let me out. For all I want is to be loved and to love back. But my wall is so high and thick no sole can come in. So for that I am lost with in. Bye Toni Written 4/16/07

Fallin Apart And Growing Together
these past couple of weeks i feel like things in my life have fallin apart and some new things are growing closer freindships have started to crumble and lose closeness and i miss this but the outcome has been i have gained someone that is wounderfull for once i feel happy when im with this person although i know many will not like this but they will just have to get over it becuase as i have said since i became single i will be happy and nothing will stand in my way and if they cant deal with that than they can get out the way and shut there mouths and just deal with it or they can grow a pair and voice it eather way im gonna be happy. now as to the freindships that are drifting apart this is particaly my fault becuase i have been working so much and i havnet had the the time or energy to talk as much but i do hope those ppl know that they are still in my heart and my mind and that i miss them very much i was thinking about this last night as i was closing up at work all by my self a

Someone I Like
I decided to post this blog because there's someone I have grown to like over the past few months. Actually, there are two women. I really don't know if I have much of a chance with either but I have been interacting much more with both. Went to a concert with one last Monday and it was a great time. We saw Poison The Well. It's one of her favorite bands. I haven't been to a concert in so long and I wasn't used to it. We also hung out last Friday but since she hurt her ankle, there wasn't much we could do for fun except watch a movie. The other one I have known for 2-3 years now online. We recently met face to face for the first time when we both ended up in the same class at college. We're both college seniors. LOL. She's a nice girl, a bit neurotic sometimes but then again, who isn't? She's still playing the shy game with me and I keep trying to get her to go out for a coffee or something. I think the major problem that I have with both is their obsession over "bad bo

Maiden Voyage
So I finally got bored enough to write in the blog here. This place is pretty interesting, so many people from way out in left field. It's awesome. I love the randomness of this site. I dunno what to accomplish by being on here except maybe meeting new people. I'm not really shy at all. I love talking and getting to know new people.

Passing
I’ve drawn from you your bits The fragrant pieces of your kaleidoscopic soul, pieces of you that glitter a hovering aura that licks the spirit from the mold. A delicate memoir of all the pasts you’ve been and a savor of what you shall become. The scent of your emotions clinging to your hair. I’ve felt your weight in my skin, when you stand beside me yet, I’ve not met you we’re passing through a crowd, or watching for a table; driving on some highway on a still, lonely night. I feel you drawing some of me through the windows upward, dispersing as you inhale your next breath.

Random Acts Of Random.
1. What is your name? BILL 2. How old are you? 26 3. What are you doing right now? WATCHING NINJA WARRIOR BIOTCH!!! 4. What is to your right? THE MURPHY. 5. Do you hold the door open for the person behind you? SOMETIMES. 6. Where were you an hour ago? SHOWERING. 7. Where will you be a year from now? IN YOUR FACE!! 8.How many bedrooms in your house? 6 9. Ever built anything with your hands? DO JENGA TOWERS COUNT?? 10. What kind of car do you own? 1996 FORD EXPLORER CURRENTLY. 11. Where is your favorite place to go? I LIKE TO DIVE INTO THE GYPSY. 12.What's the deal with your haircut? HIGH AND TIGHT, WITH WICKED SIDEBURNS. 13. What is to your left? FIRE PLACE SHIT. 14. Who was your last text message from? THE SMACK MADAME. 15. Are you in school? SCHOOL OF LIFE.....LAME I KNOW. 16. loudest thing you hear right now? NINJA WARRIOR!!!!!! 17. last road you were on? WETHERILL, NOT WEATHER HILL!!!! 18. On any medication? INSULI

Letter To My Love....
My Dearest Love, Cant make rhyme or reason for the way I feel inside. So much time has gone by, and i have had u by my side. Yet you choose not to beleive in a love so deep for you. Listening to lies and all those words untrue. I know that you love me just come back.. give me a sign. No matter what you think out of sight does not mean out of mind. Unless we're talking crazy, then YES i am out of my mind for you. You made me the happiest I have ever been with everything that you do. Come back to me my sweet love be with me until the end. You're the only one one I need. You're my lover, my only best friend. So with these words I've written, I have said a prayer as i do everyday. that you'll come back and love me and never go away. That you'll trust and beleive in my love for you and that my heart is real. This is what I ask my God.. Everyday when i kneel. So now i close this little note with I love you forever and a day. I pray that your lo

This Is So Retarded
I was getting my son out of the car today and he was asleep he weighs like 40 lbs about to turn 3 yrs old,I tried to close the door and the wind was so strong it swung open hit my arm and fractured it next tomy elbow thank god it didnt hit my son or knock us into the ditch next to my side,anyways I got him inside and laid him down he is fine I on the other hand am now stuck with abum arm for awhile

Jeff Bates 20 Questions
1. What was the inspiration for writing "Long Slow Kisses"? It was a relationship I was in at the time. I was headed for a songwriting meeting in Nashville. I was living in Little Rock, Ark., at the time. The last thing she told me before I walked out the door was, "I just don't feel like I'm the most important thing in your life anymore." And I said, "Baby, I've got to go do this. I'm sorry. Just know that I love you." I walked out, and I got about 40 miles out of town and felt so guilty. And I realized that she was telling the truth that I didn't make her feel that way anymore. So I turned around and went back home. 2. I have been to several of your concerts in the last year and a-half. Your dancing has become sexier than before. Do you practice at home in front of the mirror, or do you just do what comes naturally? I just do what I feel on any given night. I'm not a dancer. I have two left feet. However I'm feeling the music that night and how the crowd's responding to it d

Good Start To The Week...
Hello..Had a great weekend...Meet with Phil everynight this weekend ...We hit it off great...We can talk about everything we are both Virgo's ...Never had a friend the same sign has I am...Claire toke up with him the fisrt minute she meet him...Sarah and Jeremy think his the bomb...Josh like him too...We all had dinner toghter last night and sit around and talked until 2 this morning...Then I had to go to work...He works for Tyson driving a truck at night....So I was the one draging this morning to work ....But I enjoyed every minute of it...sarah has another baby doctor appt Friday Ill let everyone how things go....Well need to clean the house..TTYL..Bye and have a great week....

Him
HIM Being a teacher, I periodically had to spent evenings at the library to study up for my next class. Tonight, I was in no mood to be at the library but I needed a little extra material for my next day’s lecture. As I entered the library, I found it was fairly empty. That meant I would be able to find a quiet area all to myself. I hated having to share, especially with the high school students. After grabbing the books I needed, I found a quiet area near the back of the library. No one else was around, and I figured I’d be able to get my research done quickly. As I opened one of my books, I casually looked up and around me. As my eyes scanned the library, I noticed in the far corner a woman sitting alone. She was very pretty but that wasn’ what caught my attention. Her hand was rubbing her breast through her shirt. Trying not to draw attention to myself, I sat back and watched this woman rub her breast and nipple with her hand. Her finger skimmed across the nipple,

What Is Love?
This poem was dedicated to me and I wanted to share with everyone. Sometimes when you love someone very much, you have to go through every tear, every heartache, every pain. Cause in the end, its not how much you suffered but how you loved. Youll learn to love someone when you find out what makes her laugh but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes her cry. The greatest mistakes we make are the risks we dont take. If you think something will make you happy, go for it so that you wont live your life asking, "What if?" and telling yourself, "If only." Never say goodbye when you still want to try. Never give up when you feel you can still take it. Never say you dont love that person anymore when you cant let go. Sometimes people choose to hold back and watch love walk away not because no love is there but because they are just so afraid of the risk of loving and losing again. Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow, fall in order to know, los

Virginia Tech Massacre
From the deepest depths of my heart do I grieve for those who were lost. Many of you may have lost family or friends. To that know God is there with them, guiding them on a journey that is beyond this Earth. I do not know why people do such things. I suppose it is human nature to destroy. I wish it was not so, yet we are animals like any other and we must accept that. My prayer to God is with all those who were lost that they have a safe travel through the gates. They are not in pain, they are no longer lost in what we call bodily life. Our mortal body is just a trial to something more significant and we will meet our loved ones again with open arms. A moment of silence for every person lost over the many years. We should not forget a single one from any event that took someone dear from us. I dedicate this song to them all...and wish them safe passage. I promise we will all meet again. Enya - May It Be.... May it be an evening star Shines down upon you May it be wh

Back From France (part 2)
I didn't finish the first part, but for dinner, we had an interesting do-it-yourself dinner with meats, eggs and cheeses. There were 3 cookers and each of us got 2 little trays to cook whatever we wanted, however we wanted. Our routine was something like this. Breakfast was served every morning around 8:00. It was always very tasty but was most noteworthy was the coffee. What they have is this funny looking cylindrical shaped glass container where you just put in a lot of expresso ground coffee. I don't know exactly how much. You then put in very hot water and let it sit for about 10 minutes or so. Then you push the plunger down which is a fine screen pushing all the coffee grounds to the bottom. It was very strong, but good. Fresh fruit, breads, cereals, muffins and other goodies. About 9:00 we piled into the van to drive to the work site. This was pretty much north and slightly west. Since it was early spring, not much was growing yet. We had to drive over a mou

Leaving Me
I want to leave myself and where will I find you? Through the lull of tides or in the shimmering wood Can I leave myself behind? Through the grave undertow in the depths that press upon me the water will bring comfort; wash away the sundry sparks leaving polished stone to linger. Let the moon play out her cycles; let the sun lay down her rays; in this, will I see myself? The throat of the bird will tremble with her joy or with unrest, a sigh along the banks of the river or through the arch of the blue, blue sky. At evening, all the world will lie for the hands of darkness send me Will I lay me down more quietly and there in dreams find myself?

Broken Again....
I cant believe i'm posting this.... I never thought i would feel like this..... I fell for someone i never thought i could have then feel like i could only to have that taken away in a matter of 48 hours... I just give up, not meant to be happy so why the fuck do i try? see i told everyone i wasnt meant to be. So why do i bother... better off fucking alone... live alone.. die alone.. fitting for a soldier

Gift Game
OMG, You are SOOO HOTTT Wanna Know How HOTTT You Are?? 1. Cute----yellow rose 2. Sexy---red rose 3. HOTTT---dozen roses 4. I'd Do Ya---any spicy gift 5. We could Party---any liquid refreshment 6. Friends Only---toy kitten

Feelings...
I AM IN AN AWFUL MESS BUT OH WELL I DESERVE IT I GUESS FOR EVERYTHING THAT I PUT U THROUGH. I AM LOVING YOU, YOU THINK THAT I AM HOLDING HIM. I TELL YOU HE IS JUST A FRIEND ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED WAS YOU. BUT YOU CHOOSE TO TAKE THE LYING WORDS AND THEN YOU REALLY HAVE THE NERVE TO TELL ME THAT I SHOULD MARRY WITH HIM. I TEL YOU I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN LAY WITH HIM NIGHT AFTER NIGHT KNOWING THAT I LOVE U, YOU WERE WHERE MY LIFE BEGAN....

Quest For Making Money Online And Living Well
Learn from me, at my expense, on my quest to discover how to really make money online. Here's the better sites I have uncovered so far.... (And if you have great sites you've found, by all means, please share.) XanGo...the MangoSteen Fruit http://www.JuiceTeamGlobal.com Own Your Online Travel Agency and Get All The Perks. http://www.Travel-Info-Express.com The Berry Tree/ Nutronix Powerline - Easy Income. Get in Now. http://www.BusyBerryBiz.com The Secret Science of Getting Rich (SGR) Program http://www.ReadyToReceive.TheSGRProgram.com Passport To Wealth http://simonks1.GrowRichSystems.com/go4 Work From Home Opportunities http://www.KnowUltimateWealth.com Affiliate Marketing - PayDotCom.com http://paydotcom.net/?affilite=106181 Get Paid Cash For What You Think http://paydotcom.com/r/11804/simonks1/511670/ So that's what I have so far...with many more biz ops to follow. Sincerely, KS1

The Country Life
Too many city lights, Not enough stars in the sky, I hear the cars and trucks go by, Not the sounds of crickets chirping and birds in flight, This country girl is feeling lost amongst the buildings and the sidewalks, I need to see the animals in the forest, the birds and the bees, I long for the wind blowing through the trees, The fresh smell of earth amongst the leaves, Lord how I long for the simple things The sight of an owl in flight, The look of the moon, the endless stars at night, The sound of a trickling brook, The sparkle of the sun in a rainfilled pond, through the rustle of the wind blown leaves. OH LORD, how I miss the country life.

The Garden
The Garden The light that once was gone only the dark remains accept for one drop of blood a drop that stains like a single tear in this desolate place sorrowful rose of red now blackened in dispair not a single thorn it weilds just the death of its lost and to what cost I remember the light in all its grandure yet the present is what I shall see and its future shall be me whatever it may be my heat beats no more yet my awareness is unchallenged and my soul no longer haunts just the thirst I live bye such thirst never to die only to weep like the rose John V Kiger Copyright ©2007 John V. Kiger

Small Towns And Bigger Problems...
Have you ever had that feeling like you were someplace you didn't belong? That perhaps you had stopped someplace you weren't welcome? Well that's how our hero felt. With a quick, uneasy glance around, he made his way into the dilapidated station to get something to drink and empty his bladder. The theme music to Deliverance began to play in the background as a few of the locals glanced at our hero, sizing him up. Now for those of you who have never been to a small town in the Bible Belt, I will break down the way things are... Segregation is still very much alive. Perhaps it's not as openly shown but it is very much there. Of course I'm not talking about the segregation that is already so prevalent in our lives under the cloaks of oh I don't know.... Say BET? How about CMT? Si' TV? Anyone who tells you segregation is gone from our lives is either stupid,or blind, or both. Our hero smiled and nodded to an elderly black woman who was working at the counter. This did not pleas

Betrayel
I feel I have been betrayed by love been taken again for a fool. HOw could I have been so stupid? to think that i could have a love so true? Games have been played al lines have been drawn too much drama for me I htink its time to move on I am sick to death of this madness wish i could just disappear but I know in my memory u will still linger there. Forever and always till the day that I die Everyday a new lesson Everyday new tears I cry.

The World And Life
The World and Life I often wonder as I go along what thoughts lurk in the wind in such a rush I see the world and wonder where it all began Is this what we have instore for this so called human race a wasteland of hatred and mistrust does love have no more place Families are no longer true as they once were held in high Love is just word without a meaning mentioned on the lips of many This world in which I live begone within a whisper I know I will not be missed I go alone without a true kiss John Kiger Copyright ©2007 John V. Kiger

Ways To Stay Sane....like I Know
Ways To Maintain A Healthy Level of Sanity Body: on a serious note, there are two on this list that i do on a regular basis one of them you can guess just by reading this note, any of my blogs or previous notes/comments to you the next one on this list that i reglarly do is the one immediately following the one you can probably guess blessings & keep smiling & sharing the smiles! :-D thanks, Debbie Date: Apr 15, 2007 7:42 PM 1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down. 2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice. 3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with that. 4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In." 5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks . Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso. 6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write " For Smuggling Diamonds" 7. Finish

Seeking For An Girlfriend.
i seek that girl that can be my friend and my lover at the same time. the one that you can take home to met the parents and hang out with the boys. but she has top have an lady like way to her also. i want someone that is honest,caring,funny,smart and down to earth is that to much to ask for? looks dont really matter to me. looks fade but true beauty last forever.

What Kind Of Flirt Am I?
You Are a Natural Flirt Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt. And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting. Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt. And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive! What Kind of Flirt Are You?

Omg People It Wasnt About You.......
jeeezeee ok look the last blog was not aboout any of you it was about my own persoal real life involving some one in my house. where i live get it damn it i got my shot box my immer and my email blown up by 30 people yelling at me not to assume they lied to me wow wtf is all i can say aside from what i told them if u didnt have summin to feel guilty about you would had jumped the gun n down my throut. back off and chill out if it was about you id a told you in privete chill peoples

Chelseas Date
Chelsea's Date Body: Chelsea Clinton returns from a date,and Hillary asks her if she had a good time, etc. Chelsea says she had a wonderful time and says she thinks she's in love. Hillary says, "You didn't have sex, did you, dear?" Chelsea says, "Not according to Dad."

Got 2 Love The Irish
Gotta Love The Irish Body: At a U2 concert in Ireland , Bono (the lead singer) asks the audience for some quiet. Then he starts to slowly clap his hands. Holding the audience in total silence, he says into the microphone.... "I want you to think about something. Every time I clap my hands, a child in Africa dies." A voice from the front of the audience yells out...."Then fookin stop clapping, ya arsehole!" You Got To Love the Irish

Has It Ended?
Is it really over Is it done Is it through It cant be won Torn between Love And my heart Torn between you Comlpetely torn apart I asked if you loved me You once said you do I thought we'd always be I guess that wasnt true I'll ask you once more Do you love me the way I do you Is it just as you told me before Or is what you told me not true Now all I have to say to you Is Im sorry things went so wrong According to you now we're through Im sorry we didnt last that long I wish we werent over I wish we wenrent through Im sorry for what we went through I wish you were the one

The Moonlit Iris
With goddess touch, unknown exotic delight quakes and shivers from soft gentle motions overcome from within a single exhale bye palets of extravagent aromas as if exhaulted from twinkling fingertips of this glowing twilight pristine from the lips of sensuality with silk ladden pedals of aromatic extacy swaying amid deep penetrable unforgiving wind mindless unto all in which it takes surrounding Solitarily abed with gentle pedals spread awaiting knowing that soon the rain shall fall

Popping My Own Cherry!
Hi everyone! This is my first blog and well all first blogs are always so lame "yada yada I'm new here..blahblah". Not this time. We'll skip all of that. I'm trying to get myself a blast. Maybe someone should buy me one! If I could I would bat my eyelashes! Haha. But on the serious note, I'm looking to meet new cool people. Also some help on what the hell I'm doing sometimes. This place can be a little confusing but I'm so I'll get the hang of it soon. Well I'm being lame and have no idea what to put here so hit me up! I love photo comments and try to update as often as possible. xoxo, Classy Cunt

Ummm...eek...
I'm not complaining...I'm just ummm....a bit un nerved about something that just happened in my alerts.... I just had someone send someone(else) one of my photos...I saw the link with the photos, but never thought much about it...guess it's about like ripping... NavyTiger just sent your photo to someone! Thing is...I couldn't ask him because damn near everything is set to fans/friends etc...pisses me off that I couldn't...at least ask...where he sent it...

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A constant battle between heart and mind, I’m doubting where I stand… a thin fine line between right or wrong… A choice. A matter of what I want and what I need. Have I become the person I despise? Who am I kidding? Will I feel or will I freeze? Will I be exposed or will I leave?

Departure 2004
A long time ago, in a land not very far from here, our hero sat pensively, trying to decide what to do. Funds expended due to waiting for Petey boy to get off the death bed (having a portion of his intestines removed)left ol' Cotton in quite the predicament. But Petey boy did get better, so with a fond farewell to friends our hero mounted his steed and set off for Virginia. It was a warm day, the South Florida sun shining down on our hero as he drove off towards the strange land. Most of the trip was uneventful. A major accident with multiple fatalities did cause the course to alter, but our hero was not to be dissuaded. Once fate sets the path of destiny before someone, there is little that can alter it. There are many strange things one sees when on such a journey. Take for instance that if you get gas at one gas station, and drive 10 minutes north the gas is almost always cheaper. The difference between Florida gas and Georgia gas was unbelievable. Our hero made a note to

Back From France (part 1)
Actually, I got back the day before Easter, but it's taken a lot of time to get over the jet lag. We all met at one of our houses and piled into a van. Three of the wives rode with us to the airport in Richmond. We checked in and waited for our jet. Pretty much no problems, but the oldest of us was much more thoroughly screened. I guess he was looked upon as a potential threat. Age, 78. Then at Philadelphia we had to wait for several hours for our overnight flight to Paris. Some of us had a beer and lunch while others just waited, reading, calling their wives and getting in one last conversation. The flight to Paris was smooth, with 6 of us together while for some reason, I was put in the back. One good thing is that I got a lot of leg room, but eventually a couple with a toddler sat next to me. The kid did a really good job with the flight, fussed a little, but ok. The next morning we arrived at Charles de Gaulle airport and got through customs no problem. We then

How Sad List Of The Deadlist School Shootings
A list of some fatal shootings that took place at U.S. colleges or universities in recent years. Monday's campus shooting at Virginia Tech was the deadliest in U.S. history. ___ _April 16, 2007: A gunman kills 21 people in a dorm and a classroom at Virginia Tech in Blacksburg, Va. _Sept. 2, 2006: Douglas W. Pennington, 49, kills himself and his two sons, Logan P. Pennington, 26, and Benjamin M. Pennington, 24, during a visit to the campus of Shepherd University in Shepherdstown, W.Va. _Oct. 28, 2002: Failing University of Arizona Nursing College student and Gulf War veteran Robert Flores, 40, walks into an instructor's office and fatally shoots her. A few minutes later, armed with five guns, he enters one of his nursing classrooms and kills two more of his instructors before fatally shooting himself. _Jan. 16, 2002: Graduate student Peter Odighizuwa, 42, recently dismissed from Virginia's Appalachian School of Law, returns to campus and kills the dean, a pro

Sick
hey every one hopw you are all doing better then me i feel sick from head to toe i want to sleep in some ones arms i hate being sick i feel like my head is going to pop off some one help me plz some one come over and take care of me

Tramp Stamps
OK...not sure how this all works but just thought I'd try this out. I Think Tramp stamps are sexy as hell. Girls with ink are sexy as hell if it's in good taste. If any girls read this... just wondering if you find the term "tramp stamp" offensive? Incase you never heard the term "Tramp Stamp", it is the tattoo that girls have over their azz. This is my first attemp at this and still figureing this site out. Let me know what you think. Thanks, Greg Edited*** Please do not take offense to this post. I am not calling anyone a tramp. Just calling a tattoo that for lack of better terminology.

Getting The Last Laugh!!
A married couple was in a terrible accident where the woman's face was severely burned. The doctor told the husband that they couldn't graft any skin from her body because she was too skinny. So the husband offered to donate some of his own skin. However, the only skin on his body that the doctor felt was suitable would have to come from his buttocks. The husband and wife agreed that they would tell no one about where the skin came from, and requested that the doctor also honor their secret After all, this was a very delicate matter. After the surgery was completed, everyone was astounded at the woman's new beauty. She looked more beautiful than she ever had before! All her friends and relatives just went on and on about her youthful beauty! One day, she was alone with her husband, and she was overcome with emotion at his sacrifice. She said, "Dear, I just want to thank you for everything you did for me. There is no way I could ever repay you." "My darling," he replied,

A Firefighter Poem
HE STARES IN THE FACE OF DEATH WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT TO SAVE THAT ONE SPECIAL LIFE THAT HE SO BRAVELY SOUGHT HE HAS WALKED AS CLOSE TO "HELL ON EARTH" AS ANY MAN COULD DO AND HE'S SO PROUD OF THE JOB HE DID FOR PEOPLE HE NEVER KNEW HE PUTS HIS LIFE ON THE LINE EVERYTIME DUTY CALLS ALWAYS DOING WHAT NEEDS TO DONE WITHOUT EVEN A PAUSE HE IS A FIREMAN WITH OVERWHELMING PRIDE NEVER AFRAID TO TAKE A CHANCE WHEN SAVING SOMEONES LIFE OFTEN HE SAYS "IT'S MY JOB" BUT WE REALLY KNOW THAT HE IS VERY SPECIAL AND ALWAYS READY TO GO SO WHEN YOU HEAR THE SIRENS WAIL OR SEE THE FLASHING LIGHTS STAND ASIDE AND LOOK WITH PRIDE HE'S GOING TO SAVE A LIFE.

Workin Hard.......
What a fuckin day......at work typing in ALOT of shit.......just checkin it out and I hope you all have had such a wonderful day as I!!! What is everyone up to today and does your day suck.....This reporter would like to know...(lol not a reporter BTW)

Nsfw: A Little Christmas Music
(Originally posted on December 14, 2006)Before we go any further in this posting, realize I'm not your mama. I am not your kiddies' mama either. This post contains stuff that they won't need to hear. You have been warned.Now that that is out of the way, time for a little holiday sing-along with Mr. Hankey's "The Most Offensive Song Ever", found here.mpeg>tag: music, south park, christmas, offensive, nsfw-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

The Shooting Is Jsut So Aweful
it is so easy to forget this is the only moment we will ever have ... that the ones we love may never see us again ... that at a moment we could have our lives turn upside down and nothing will ever be the same .... I have no answers for life and what happens ... I only know that now is what matters and love is precious ... never forget to show that you love. Ron Hold close the ones we love Remember that they are a gift from above Never forget to show you care For you never know how long they will be there Moments wasted will never return Lost opportunities will leave us to yearn Life and love a treasured above all The saddest thing is to loose them so fast We need to keep them first in our thoughts and not last For none of us know on what day we will see them never again Our days light should shine bright not be shrouded in pain This is your chance to begin the moment new Show all who you love that they mean the world to you By R. Thomas Dinsmore NO ANSWERS

Oh, What A Tangled Web We Weave
(Originally posted on December 11, 2006)Before I start getting into the meat of this blog, I need to explain something.I grew up as a military brat. That means that I had to leave all the friends that didn't leave me first. That's what moving around does to you.There were three people who were a constant in my life: my parents and my sister (now ex-sister; she disowned me).Truthfully, I've never been that close to my family. If they weren't related, I doubt if we would ever have met. That doesn't mean that I dislike or hate them. It means that we have nothing in common.Anyway, one thing my mom gets mad about is that my wife and I don't tell them much about what's going on in our lives. That boils down to these three reasons:1) Anything we tell my mom can and will be told to complete strangers at any given time when my mom needs a conversation starter.2) Anything we tell my mom can and will be used against us at a later time.3) Sometimes I don't tell my mom things because I do

In Memory Of The 32 Students Killed Today At Va Tech
BLACKSBURG, Va. - A gunman opened fire in a Virginia Tech dorm and then, two hours later, shot up a classroom across campus Monday, killing 32 people in the deadliest shooting rampage in U.S. history. The gunman committed suicide, bringing the death toll to 33. Students complained that there were no public-address announcements or other warnings on campus after the first burst of gunfire. They said the first word they received from the university was an e-mail more than two hours into the rampage — around the time the gunman struck again. Virginia Tech President Charles Steger said authorities believed that the shooting at the dorm was a domestic dispute and mistakenly thought the gunman had fled the campus. "We had no reason to suspect any other incident was going to occur," he said. He defended the university's handling of the tragedy, saying: "We can only make decisions based on the information you had on the time. You don't have hours to reflect on it." Investi

~ Rest In Peace - British Forces In Iraq Remembered ~
Emotional Video,One life is to many. But you have to believe in your heart that these people will hurt you if given the chance, Their version of Islam is a religion of Hate and Death. Not the one of Peace and Understanding. I pray for and Honor our Hero Friends.

More To Come
Hi Peeps.. Well as soon as I level again ..I will put the rest of the few pics I have of my tattoo's up .. I also would like to say that Im glad to be back .. Yup that is right ..I was here back in Aug up until a few months back when CT lost my email in there system..Not sure how that happen but that is alright bc I'm back once again ..with a better name and awesome profile..and more pics ..Will add more pics as I lvl..U know the rules.. Well until we meet again ..catch ya on the flip side.. Oh yah btw ..if u would like to feel free to add me as a fan or friend ..Or do both if u would like too..

Drop Spot Update
(Originally posted on December 8, 2006)Today I went to the drop spot I created and found somebody had left a Nerf rocket. I brought it back and found a note inside with an email address. I sent the person an email and wrote my email address on the note as well. I returned the rocket to the drop spot for others to find.(Fortunately, it still fit even with the other stuff I put in the hole.) :-)tag: drop spot, fun, geocaching-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

I'm Bored
and I don't want to look at & rate more pictures. I'm so over that. I'm stuck at home. No, I'm not really stuck, I just can't drive right now and it's driving me nuts!!! Guess I'll check this place out a bit and see who's around.

As The World Turns
Life is ah but a wonder,We have a storm and we hear the thunder.Looking at the stars on a clear night, to see them is a wonderful sight. Spring is here and so are the flowers and grass,and yet the year goes by us so fast.Then in comes the summer with the heat, walking in the sand in our bare feet. Feeling the cool ocean brezz,oh it is just there to please.Soon fall is here and the leaves come off the trees,childern play in them up to there knees.Well now winter will bring in the snow, and it will make a mess and makes us drive slow. Another year has past us by, It all happens with in a twinkle of your eyes.

Phone (my) Home! (if You Desire)
(Originally posted on December 8, 2006)I have a PrivatePhone number where people can call and just leave messages. Again, it's not connected to my real phone number, name, etc in any way, shape or form.If you want to call, you can:Holler at me...Get your own PrivatePhone number(Realize: If you do, I can easily post whatever you say to my blog.) }>:->tag: phone, voicemail-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

Graduating Life
Give or take 20 days, I will be free from assignments. I can't believe this is happening to me. I went through so much to get this piece of paper. And it never felt better. I understood the true concept of appreciation when I first set foot in my university. I was nervous. Quite and timid. I had no one to talk to. But I persevered. I knew that if I wanted to make it big I had to do something about it. I had to reclaim my destiny after losing it to battling all sorts of addictions and abusive relationships. Drugs, sex, alcohol..U name it.. Been there and done that. There's nothing much like being in pursuit of knowledge. If I could change anything through out these years of experience, I wouldn't change a single thing. The friends that I have made, the lecturers that were there to be in continuous support. I loved them all. Even my haters. And I was aware I had some. I evolved into a butterfly. University changed me, life changed me. I was kissed by an angel. I

Betty Bowers Presents: The War On Christmas
(Originally posted on November 28, 2006)Betty Bowers, America's Best Christian, has an update on the War Against Christmas. Good read!(Personally, I agree with Ruth Marcus who said, "If the anti-Christmas forces are winning, then the war in Iraq is nothing short of total victory.")tag: War On Christmas, christianity, atheism, humor, Betty Bowers-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-a href="http://world4.monstersgame.co.uk/?ac=vid&vid=47133057">Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

Ya !!!
You have a sexual IQ of 157 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

The Ward (by Me)
The Ward --- Lights flicker in the distance, I hear an old man laugh His voice echoes and reverbs Splitting my skull in half The pain writhes, settles in A paranoia agent devours As a faint smell of death Lingers and blooms like flowers My eyes are always spinning Pounding back off the wall, Concealed in darkness My mind begins to fall But who is to blame For my eternal presence here? But what is the cause For me to run in pure fear? I know it was not her, Cause she never knew My love for her Shall remain forver true Even as the jacket tightens And my madness sets in I can never forget her After all, she is my favorite sin

Some Questions I Stole From Fulcrum
1. Hi, my name is... Lindy, and I'm an alcoholic. 2. Never in my life have I.... had a sex change operation 3. The one person who can drive me nuts is.. my freaking brother 4. High school... was the greatest years of my life...hahahahahahahahha high school sucked ass, but my boyfriend jr/sr year was hawt as hell. and the sex was awesome 5. When I'm nervous.... my stomach hurts 6. The last time I cried was? when my dad died. 7. If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor.. this is a ghey question, im never getting married. 8. My hair is... streaked with blond and in a french braid 9. When I was 5... I got a tonka dump truck for my birthday, and i thought that shawn cassidy was the finest man on the planet 10. Last Christmas... i brought my dad to my mom's house for the festivties. 11. I never want to be... a cowboys fan 12. When I look down I see... me in my work uniform, with a fat ass gut. 13. The happiest recent event

What Is My Celtic Horoscope?
You Are A Cypress Tree You are strong, adaptable, and striving to be content. You're good at taking what life has to give - even if you don't like it. A passionate lover who can't be satisfied, you are quick tempered at times. You hate loneliness, want love and affection, and need to be needed. A bit of a live wire, you love to gain knowledge any cost... and you can be careless at times. What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

A Week Of Life
(Originally posted on November 28, 2006)Well, so what's happened since last week?1) Our dogs (well, my wife's dogs) were picked up by animal control last Wednesday. (They were playing with a good-looking other dog they found who lived farther away.) My father-in-law bailed them out yesterday. If he didn't, we wouldn't have been able to do so until this upcoming Friday.2) Putz Boy has left! He got a job with some other company, hopefully where he will go crazy or something.3) Speaking of crazy, The Loon sent an email in today saying simple, "I quit. Have a nice day." While his parents are worried that he is still crazy, I have some relief in that I don't think he'll knife me when my back is turned. Not too sure, though, if he won't come back and shoot the place up. His parents state that he won't get help or take meds, so they're in for trouble.4) I've switched to Linux which, although it is a bit difficult to get used to, is a lot safer than Windows.I guess that's about that

Fingers Shaped Like A L On The Forehead
How can a man really expect a woman to wait around for him? Knowing very well that the woman has feelings for him that are strong and unwavering. He says that he loves her and misses her only to tell his previous ex the same thing. OK so here's the story: I dated this guy for over 2 years. HE lied to his friends and family about our relationship because he was afraid of commitment and was afraid of his feeling s for me.... well that is what he says... However he has done this with all his ex's I was just the worst case. His parents think I am addicted to Meth and other drugs.... which I am not. His friends are under the impression that I was physically and mentally abusive during the relationship and caused him to become depressed and reserved. He was depressed when I met him and he continued to be that way. No matter what I did to try to help it just got worse. He would just snap at me and treat me like I was a huge pain in the ass. I tried to talk to him, I tried to talk to his f

What Guys Like About Me?
Guys Like That You're Fun You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you What Do Guys Like About You?

~*~pitiful Damnation~*~
~*~Pitiful Damnation~*~ The expiration of my destination, leaves a bitter taste on my tongue. Choking on your placebo pill, while postulating what is real. Your diabolic contagion, is execrably constraining. In this oblivion, I'm debating. Your obscurantism is getting old, I'm too mawkish for your mavern lies! You can dance with Hades and sell your soul, but with your insentience could never look me in the eye! A pitiful damnation in your approximation, when the stakes are too high and your love runs cold. The approbation of your friends, cynical enough I'm at my wits end! Written By: Kelly Lynn McAllister © 4/16/2007

Flogging Online Russian Translations
(Originally posted on November 21, 2006)The Internet is, of course, a worldwide phenomenon. I use a site that gets pictures from LiveJournal entries and shows them in a list of the forty newest ones.One of them, some sort of flogger, caught my eye.(What can I say; I am interested in BDSM.) It is linked to a LiveJournal page written in Russian.What's interesting, though, is the translation offered by WorldLingo. It makes the entire page seem existentilistic or something.tag: mature, Russian, LiveJournal, flogger, BDSM-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

Urine Test
This was sent to me by a friend, so I can't take credit, but definately thought it was worth passing on. Maybe some politicians will see it and it will get them thinking about how we'd really like to start having our money spent instead of thinking about their own pay raises. Like a lot of folks in this country, I have a job. I work, they pay me. I pay my taxes and the government distributes my taxes as they see fit. In order to get that paycheck, I am required to pass a random urine test, which I have no problem with. What I do have a problem with is the distribution of my taxes to people who don't have to pass a urine test. Shouldn't one have to pass a urine test to get a welfare check, because I have to pass one to earn it for them? Please understand, I have no problem with helping people get back on their feet. I do, on the other hand, have a problem with helping someone sit on their ass. Could you imagine how much money this country would save if people had to pass a

The New Colossians
"Give me your tired, your poor, Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free, The wretched refuse of your teeming shore. Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me, I lift my lamp beside the golden door!" The last part of Emma Lazarus' poem "The New Colossus" is most often associated with the Statue of Liberty, and it's a dictum the Christian church would do well to adopt. Hear me out; very often even those of us who attend church regularly don't feel like we're part of anything resembling a community. Every Sunday you will inevitably see persons (I've been guilty of this too) looking at their watch as though they're looking forward to getting out of there and not focusing at all on the moment. Why do we do this? Are we that bored on Sunday mornings or whatever our regular worship time is? Have we been going to church so long that it's gotten to where we're just going through the motions. Mark Twain once said that the reason most people don't go to church is because they've

Quite Ineresting
first off its amazing how if not who will lie to you and or omit things just to save themself a hassel or they think a hassel see its quite odd and i hear and see more and more of it every day. but i guesse they feel if you wait till the last minute theres nothing that can be done o well and i didnt have to hear it ha ha i win.... yes it works with most but some of the people out there are more respectful and understanding then that if anything surprizing it on them is worse then crushing them far beforhand. they feel lied to and betrayed. aside from that i learned a few thing today well hel this month. when you have somthing you have to do things will get harder and harder for you the closer the day in question becomes, such as murphys law, see my best friend is getting married and in the last 2 weeks .. seeing how theres only like 4 days to go....... i have been dicked on my money that i need, some one stole my mac card, the bank has yet to reissue it and i was forced to pay 20.0

Dropspot Fun
(Originally posted on November 17, 2006)Today I posted my first entry at DropSpots.org. It's a site that takes the GPS Cache craze and transforms it where people without GPS devices can play.I left some buttons at my site. Anybody wanna go find them?tag: dropspot, fun, geocache-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

A Hard Time In Our Community
A sad day. I am sitting in my dorm room watching the CNN report. It is amazing. I am flabbergasted. I am safe and so far my friends are too. I have not heard back from some of them yet. I am upset with Virginia Tech at the moment. Horrified. How was a man able to kill 32 people and injure 29 before anything. Why wasn't the campus closed and class cancel right after the first shooting I am upset at the gunman. How can someone can rip our safety, remove our life....what type of life problems are in his life that he thinks others should feel his pain. How selfish can one be. This creates a ripple in our whole community. These last few weeks should be a happy one because the seniors are graduating. Now because of one horrid horrid person we will have many gray clouds on our shining moment. I hope my friends are safe and my prayers to the families.

Religious Reich Whining Over Losses
(Originally posted on November 17, 2006)The Religious Reich is stating that the GOP losses of both the House and Senate because (get this) the Republicans are ignoring their religious constituents. Here's the thing though: The Right Wing Watch website states that half of the Representatives and five of the six Senators who lost received 100% on the joint Family Research Council Action/Focus on the Family Action voter guide or received an endorsement of the Campaign for Working Families. (Five of the losing GOP candidates received both.)One thing that the article didn't mention (but is shown by the numbers) is that only four of these jokers got less than 50% of the FRC/FOF thing.So, the important thing to realize is that the GOP members were kicked out, not because they weren't following the RR mandates, but maybe because they WERE...tag: religion, religious right, GOP, Republicans, Democrats-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

What City Do I Belong In?
You Belong in Rome You're a big city soul with a small town heart Which is why you're attracted to the romance of Rome Strolling down picture perfect streets, cappuccino in hand And gorgeous Italian people - could life get any better? What City Do You Belong In?

Omg What Did I Get Into
Renovations started today and now were trying to scramble to get the trailer ready to move in. INstead of starting with the roof like we were told they started with Elecrical and ripping the ceiling out of the bathroom. So my house is a disaster. Theres a bunch of stuff stacked in the kids room. As well as at the trailer. Theres piles upon piles of ceiling junk in my bathroom just in piles. I cant allow the kids to play in there room until I clean it i have to get the stuff to clean it from the trailer. Oh boy i can tell this is gonna be a fun fun time. Well i'm off for a busy night

What Is My Kissing Style?
You Are an Intense Kisser When you kiss, it's deep and powerful You don't take kissing lightly Your kisses always have meaning And they always make your head spin What's Your Kissing Style?

Workplace Horror Story
(Originally posted on November 17, 2006)Okay, I'm writing this in case I turn up dead in the next few months.There was a guy who used to work here. One week after I started here, he left to go to a new job.He was fired or quit due to stress at the new job.I think then he got a new job somewhere else, which he just stopped going to.He would call his parents, apologizing for things like killing a person when he was twelve, something his parents said he didn't do.His parents got worried, so they went to his apartment.The front door was open, there was trash everywhere.He was lying naked on his bed, staring at the ceiling with the tv on and tuned to static.After a few months in an asylum, he came back here.To the desk right next to mine.Now, I didn't know him that well. However, the people who did know him say that he isn't like he used to be.I wonder if he'll kill me or something.If he does, I leave everything to my wife.Here's hoping he won't...tag: insanity, work, career-*-*-*-*-*-

How Do Men See Me??
Men See You As Choosy Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait How Do Men See You?

4-14-07
Once again, another awesome concert that my good friend Willie took me too see! This time it was Type O Negative who I have heard little of. I was impressed! I love being next to the stage cuz it gives me the chance to watch them play! I'm not sure when the next concert is but I'll keep everyone posted! Have an awesome day!

Some Idiots Will Never Realize How Lucky They Are...
I don't know... when I look at it... I just see some people do nothing but complain about thier relationships. Why they do this? Why they do that? Do you even really care? and so on and so on.... even to the point where couples are doing thing behind each others back just because there's a trust issue or whatever it is... (Don't do that.... just talk about) but everyone has there own way of dealing with problems... Then finally some just go cheating on to the one that cares for them. Now let's just forget, for one second that at some time ago told me you couldn't be in a relationship with anyone, because for me, watching a relationship being sabotage from the outside can be just unbelievable. Honestly, the only thing that gives me comfort when people just go and forever mess things up is while I'm sitting at home staring at the ceiling just wishing that I had someone to talk to, is knowing that a lot of those idiots will never realize how lucky they are to know how precious the pers

It's Fun To Stay At The...
(Originally posted on November 17, 2006)I found this picture here and had to share it with everybody:tag: picture, religion, jesus, funny, humor-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Donate Virtual BloodAve Satanas!

What My Favorite Color Says About Me!
What Your Favorite Color Purple Says About You: Intuitive --- Seeking --- Creative Kind --- Self-Sacrificing --- Growth Oriented Strong --- Very Wise --- Rare What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

We Need Election Reforms
(Originally posted on November 14, 2006)It's time to take two of my posts and put them together:1) In "On Satanic Reds and Social Credit," I said that we are enslaved to corporations whether we want to be or not. If we want to be free, we have to change our financial landscape.2) In "Who Does The American Government Represent?," I linked to an article stating that corporations control our political landscape.We need to change the political landscape to change the financial landscape. But, the financial controllers of the political landscape wouldn't want the political or the financial landscape to change.Now, out of the two things to change first, the political landscape would be more possible. (Hey, bench-pressing twenty tons is more possible than bench-pressing forty tons.)So, who's up to helping with election reforms?tag: politics, finance, corporations, slavery, election reform-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Who Does The American Government Represent?
(Originally posted on November 13, 2006)Charles Sullivan wrote an article here about what's wrong with American politics today.Here's a little preview:Too many Americans harbor the illusion that we live in a democracy simply because we have the right to vote. But let us be clear about something: voting matters only where real choices are allowed. It is universally understood that special interest money runs the American political system and thus defines what the choices will be. So we are left to choose between candidates who are financed by special interest money, which any fool can see, is no choice at all.Thoughts?tag: politics, democracy-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

On Satanic Reds And Social Credit
(Originally posted on November 13, 2006)I found a site this weekend about Satanic Communists. The page is called Satanic Reds and can be found here:It brings back my thoughts to Social Credit. I really wouldn't mind trying it out, because I figured out how much time we're working as opposed to thuings we want to do.Think: The average work day is 9 hours long (since employers aren't usually paying for lunch anymore; the song "Nine To Five" no longer seems to apply) and it takes about one hour to prepare for work. On top of that, you have time spent going to and from work, say, 15-30 minutes each way. So let's say, for the sake of the argument, that it is 11 hours a day. The average person requires 8 hours of sleep. Adding that to the work time is 19 hours a day. That means there's five hours left, compared to the 11 hours working. So you will (on a work day) work twice as much as you will be off. In addition, there's the time needed to prepare food, clean house, etc.With Socia

My Fantasy
The rain had begun to pound hard against the roof as the thunder and lighting grew closer. He knew what I wanted as he gently grabbed my hand and led me to the balcony outside. As he pressed himself against me I could tell that the rage of the storm has only fueled his passion. He pressed his lips against me as he pushed me against the railing running his hand up the inside of my thigh under my skirt he knew that I would not refuse. The rain began to fall harder as the storm grew closer. I begged him please I need you with a smile he was more then willing to fill my need. the sensation of him throbbing inside of me with each thrust mixed with the hot smell of thunder only heightened my sence of pleasure. I dug my nails into his back as I climaxed over and over again. Pulling my hair back he kissed my neck with a passion as great as the storm, once again causing my body to shake in a massive uncontrollable orgasm. With each thrust I only hungered for more begging him not to stop. His ha

My Beliefs
.. You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already. In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth.Buddhism83%agnosticism83%Paganism75%Islam71%Hinduism67%Satanism63%Juda

Birds And The Bees Haha
ok so i have been "talking" to this guy...and we went on a few dates..hes really nice and not my type lmao...well ive ignored him all weekend and i talk to him today and he thinks im his girlfriend or something...crazy right? but i dont wanna be mean and say you annoy me go away what the hell? i have told him many times that i am unsure of what i want because ive been fuked over too many times..oh lord here we go again

Swinging Video
(Originally posted on November 11, 2006)Here's a link to a video about swinging. It's a comedy piece made like a 1950's educational film. Enjoy!tag: mature, adult, video, parody, swinging-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

In Hospital For A Couple Of Days
Hey all..i wont be around after tomorrow (tuesday)as im goin into hospital for a couple of days for tests.Im epileptic and my fits have got worse n they need to be sorted so have fun n try to behave..lol.Tc cherrytappers mwahhhh.

What The...?!?
(Originally posted on November 11, 2006)The other day when cleaning up, I found this on the coffee table:Notice it looks like the word "EXPLOSIVE" seems to have been on it. I have no idea what this came from.It is kind of worrying that we have an explosive something-or-other that we don't know about in our house...tag: explosive, found item-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

C A L L W A I T I N G
I'm laying in the darkness, I cannot fall asleep. I wonder where my husband is, I wish he'd call or beep. I saw him leave this morning, the black boots on his feet. He said he had to run now, and I know he's on the street. You'll know him when You see him, his truck is very loud. He has no time to stop now, he doesn't want a crowd. A caller said "Please hurry!" Come quickly if you will. A young man with a motorbike is laying very still. A mother calls in anguish, her child limp and blue. HURRY! Come, I need you! I don't know what to do. I hear his key turning, he's coming in the door. I hear him drop his boots, then footsteps on the floor. I hear him in the kitchen, I can tell from his walk, He'll soon come and wake me, and ask if we can talk. We'll sit out in the moonlight, and listen to the night. He talks about a shooting, a streetgang in a fight. A car crash, a drowning, a small child hurt at play. The things he needs to talk about, the things he did today. The ol

Love
who ever said its better to love and lost then to never have loved at all was a jackass who never loved and lost. i swear i will never open myself and my heart up to anyone else cause when i do they either move or die. Maybe i should wear a sign stay away if i love you then youll either leave and move way far away or youll die lol.i want the ones who stole my heart to know that ill always love them forever and im here if you wanna come home as this is home here with me!!!!

News Story: Discrimination In Lawn Care
(Originally posted on November 11, 2006)There's been a news story about a company called Garden Guy, a landscaping company in Houston, Texas.Basically, the company sent an email to a gay guy stating "I need to tell you that we cannot meet with you because we choose not to work for homosexuals."On top of that, they have a link on their site to a site that's trying to stop gay marriage.So, would you want to work for or hire a company that discriminates against anybody like that? I mean, what does homosexuality have to do with landscaping? (Other than bad jokes, of course...) They have paid the price, though. Their company has been inundated with emails stating that people don't like the way they discriminate.tag: homosexual, news, discrimination, business-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Moron Of The Week
Woman Gets Arrested�While In Jail (CBS) RIVERSIDE, Calif. A woman waiting to be processed at the Robert Presley Detention Center in Riverside, Calif. was caught smoking a joint in a restroom, then found with some methamphetamine and a pipe, authorities said today. Brooke Gentry, 33, who was being held on shoplifting charges, was additionally booked for drug-related crimes after a deputy detected the tale-tell scent of burning marijuana, sheriff's deputies said. Deputy Shannon Wheeler smelled the marijuana and found Gentry puffing away in a restroom, according to a sheriff's department statement. "Gentry's property was searched and some methamphetamine, glass pipes, packaging material, and additional marijuana was discovered," the statement said. "Gentry was also displaying symptoms indicative of someone who was under the influence of a controlled substance." Gentry would have been booked and released the same day if not for the drugs, deputies said. Gentry was bo

The Adventures Of Putz Boy: When Wishes Come True
(Originally posted on November 9, 2006)Putz Boy came in here after talking to Idiot Boss, said "Just shoot me now," and went back to work on his computer.I, being the nice guy I am, complied with his wish by shooting him with a rubber band.Careful what you wish for, huh?In other news, Putz Boy seems to have a new job somewhere else. He'll be turning in his resignation letter probably later today. That means that he won't be here to bother us anymore and, if he acts the same way there as he does here, might not be there too long to bother them either.tag: Putz Boy, Idiot Boss, work-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Livestrong Challenge 2007
A dear friend of mine is riding in the LiveStrong Challenge bike race in August. It is an event that raises money for the LiveStrong Foundation, which supports cancer research and also gives support to survivors. This year the goal is at least $3,000 which is very acceptable for the cause. Please leave anything that you can, I promise that this is not a scam or anything... I have lost friends and family to cancer and merely wish to see more people like my friend who has survived! It thrills my heart and soul to see someone come out from a 5% chance of survival to being here today and living strong. Even a few dollars will save someone's life, someone just like him or you or me. The link to help is below...God bless you. http://philly07.livestrong.org/macstrong215 Love ~TF

Boise Decides To Clean Up The Streets!
Laundry Mishap Spews Suds in Boise Apr 13, 5:59 PM (ET) BOISE, Idaho (AP) - It's probably not what city officials had in mind for keeping the streets clean and tidy. On Thursday, a commercial laundry mishap caused citrus-scented bubbles to spew out of manhole covers along a three-block stretch on the city's east side. City public works crews traced the problem to American Linen, which accidentally released detergent into the municipal sewer lines. The combination of gravity and churning water whipped the soap into a sudsy foam that erupted from the manholes like geysers. "We have never had a situation like this before," said Vince Trimboli, the public works spokesman. Officials say the company had a malfunction, caused by human error, in its automated detergent loading device, releasing 167 gallons of a harmless but concentrated detergent. Crews worked during the day to disperse the suds before they reached the treatment facility, then used soft-spray hoses and ya

Erotica: Seduction
Reaching into the small ice chest for another wine cooler, I glanced over towards my left and saw a blur of movement in the huge oak tree behind our house. Grinning to myself, I realized that Tim, my neighbor home for the summer following his first year of college, was once again spying on me as I lay out by our back-yard pool. For the past month or so, Tim had perched in his post almost daily and ogled me as I worked on my tan. Last summer he'd done the same. Almost every time I had lain out by the pool, I felt the sensation of being watched by my horny neighbor. The thought of the college freshman using me as jerk-off inspiration was very flattering and as I turned back onto my stomach I made sure to point the bronzed globes of my tight ass directly at him. The tiny pink and green thong bikini I was wearing displayed about 99% of my firm 27-year old ass and I had no problem showing it off. Flipping absently though the pages of the "Self" magazine I had brought out poolside, I

The Neocons Will Please Leave The Building. Like...now.
(Originally posted on November 9, 2006)Satan Whispers wrote a blog entry I like about the Democrats taking over Congress.(Well actually, her sister-in-law wrote in in LiveJournal. Satan Whispers just copied it.)The link to the entry is here. It's an interesting read. tag: politics, Republican, Democrats, blog-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

~*our Hearts*~
Our hearts fly as one through the sky with montions of love, pure, joy, happyness, peace and most of all trust. We fly like no other we work through things as they cross our path all because our hearts belong together. When i cry he cries with madness cause some hurt me. When he cries i cry with tears and tears of madness because someone has hurt him. It all works out as a fifty- fifty thing with all us we work togther as one as fly high with our love because our hearts are together as one ....I couldnt ask for a better man in my life to love me as he does me Fly high with one an other showing no fear can come over us and be there for each other With all the love i have for him and he has for me what better love cvan two people have for each other ~*Mandie*~

Christianity's And Satanism's Views On Animals
(Originally posted on November 8, 2006)I wish I remember more about this, but it happened when I was young and at home sick from school. One famous foreign lady (I think she was famous), at least) was on a talk show (Sally Jesse I think, but I could definitely be mistaken.) She was talking about how she, as a good Christian, knew that the animals were put on this planet for our use and abuse. She had a fur coat which she felt entitled to because the animals were here just for humans to use.Compare and contrast this with the position of Dev Samael Daval (a Satanist) who has a blog entry titled Veganism & Satanism. In it, he states that to join his Satanic church, you must be a vegan. Why? Because it isn't right to mistreat animals.So, which person's position is better? That's for you to decide...tag: religion, philosophy, satan, satanic, satanism, satanist, christian, christianity, animals, vegan, veganism-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Pray 4 Them!
Today alot of innocent people got killed or injured at VT in Blacksburg Va. I live 20min from their and have friends that still go there! If u could, please take a little time out of your day to remmber and pray 4 their familys! TY Love 'two'

News Story: Fbi Investigating Virginia Voter Calls
(Originally posted on November 7, 2006)Well, here's a happy little piece of election news about some group calling Virginians to try to mess up their voting. Wonder who it could be...Not only is it Virginians, but people in New Mexico as well. And the Athens County prosecutor in Ohio also issued a warning against this type of fraud.I'm tired of this kind of crap going on.tag: politics, republican, gop, fraud, crime-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Don Imus(warning: I Say Fuck, A Lot)
Ok... if I am not sick of hearing about this... Al Sharpton and his little fat friend need to step the fuck off. These hypocritical fucktards need to go meet a noose and an oak tree. Blah blah, we were slaves, we're always right... Blah blah blah GET IN MY BACKYARD AND PICK MY COTTON YOU NAPPY HEADED BITCH!! I am so sick of hearing about you... NO one fucking cares!!! It was said as a JOKE... It's called CRINGE HUMOUR you fucking twats! GET THE FUCK OVER IT The FCC does not protect people against being offended! These Rutgers girls didnt even know about it until someone said something to them about it. It did NOT hurt them and it DID NOT affect their lives... IT DID NOTHING TO THEM These fucking niggers are using Imus as a Scapegoat just to get white america in an up roar. Well look what you niggers are doing its gonna back lash! You're music will now be censored! Here goes our right of free speech.. Here goes our first amendment.. You fucking

Gettin' My Singing Goat Fix
(Originally posted on November 7, 2006)I found my favorite part of Hoodwinked on YouTube today. Like BluetoiletDuck states, "AH, nothing like a singing CGI Goat to make EVERYTHING better!!!"(So much for my big, bad Satanist image.) tag: Hoodwinked, movie, Japeth, goat, video-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Girly Survey!!
What color is your bra? UHH LiKE iM GONNA TELL YOU TAHT!!! THATS FOR MY HUBBY TO KNOW!!! Hair, up or down? UP! Do you straighten your hair? YEAH SOMETiMES! Do you worry about the size of your boobs? NOPE NOT AT ALL! MY HUBBY LOVES THEM SO YEAH!!! What's your favorite girly magazine? SHiT iDK! What's your Favorite mascara? MAYBELiNE! Small or large purse? MEDiUM! In your purse, what are your must haves? CELL PHONE AND MAKE UP!! Jeans or skirts? Jeans! Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable? NO.. LOL! Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? UHH NO!!! What's your favorite color(s)? BLACK AND BABY BLUE!! Do you consider yourself girly? NOT REALLY.. i MEAN SORTA!! Heel or Flats? FLiP FLOPS!! Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? SOMETiMES!! Would you leave the house without makeup on? YEAH! Wal*Mart or Target? WAL MART!! Do you consider making out "unladylike"? NO! On the scale o

Confidence
Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface Consuming/confusing This lack of self-control I fear is never ending Controlling/I can't seem To find myself again My walls are closing in (without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take) I've felt this way before So insecure Discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself upon me Distracting/reacting Against my will I stand beside my own reflection It's haunting how I can't seem...

Instructions For Microsoft"s Tv Dinner
Instructions for Microsoft\'s TV dinner You must first remove the plastic cover. By doing so you agree to accept and honor Microsoft rights to all TV dinners. You may not give anyone else a bite of your dinner (which would constitute an infringement of Microsoft\'s rights). You may, however, let others smell and look at your dinner and are encouraged to tell them how good it is. If you have a PC microwave oven, insert the dinner into the oven. Set the oven using these keystrokes: mstv.dinn./ /08.5min@ @50%heat/ / Then enter: ms//start.cook_ dindin/yummy |/yum~yum: -)gohot#cookme. If you have a Mac oven, insert the dinner and press start. The oven will set itself and cook the dinner. If you have a Unix oven, insert the dinner, enter the ingredients of the dinner (found on the package label), the weight of the dinner, and the desired level of cooking and press start. The oven will calculate the time and heat and cook the dinner exactly to your specification. Be fore

All The Joy, All The Fun,
All the joy, all the fun, all the excitement, took place here. This is what every kid looked forward to: recess. Every kid could not wait to get here. Couldn't wait to get out here and get beaten up by the bullies. Couldn't wait to get out here and get teased and humiliated. Couldn't wait to get out here so they could be chosen last, for all the teams. This is where all the fun of childhood took place. The only thing I remember rivaling that, was one time, during my parents attempted reconciliation, they took me skiing. And as I stood atop the mountain, and looked across at another snow covered hill, I saw my reflection. And then a land slide brought it down. You see, scars are souvenirs you never loose, the past is never far. But what do you do? What do you do, when all your memories are razor blades? When everything you can possibly remember, hurts? What do you do?

Darwin Award: Power Of Satan
(Originally posted on November 7, 2006)Today it was kind of funny. I changed my 2002 Darwin Awards Page-A-Day calendar (I haven't had a desk job before last year since the end of 2001), and came to the following title: Power of Satan.I went to the website to find the same story on the calendar. A link can be found here.tag: Darwin Awards, Satan, funny, calendar-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Livestrong Challenge 2007
I am riding in the LiveStrong Challenge bike race in August. It is an event that raises money for the LiveStrong foundation, which supports cancer research and also gives support to survivors such as myself. Last year I raised $1,500 but I only had a month in which to fund raise. This year the goal is at least $3,000 which is very doable. Please leave anything that you can, I promise that this is not a scam or anything... It is just something that I believe very strongly in. I am a cancer survivor, I was diagnosed at 20 and I had a 5% chance of survival. Even a few dollars will save someone's life, someone just like me. If you read this and don't donate... save me the trouble of deleting you from my friends list. http://philly07.livestrong.org/macstrong215

The Firefighter's Prayer
When I am called to duty, God, wherever flames may rage, Give me the strength to save some life whatever be its age. Help me embrace a little child before it is too late, or save an older person from the horror of that fate. Enable me to be alert and hear the weakest shout, and quickly and efficiently to put the fire out. I want to fill my calling and to give the best in me, to guard my every neighbor and protect his property. And if according to my fate I am to lose my life this day, Please bless with your protecting hand my family this I pray.

Anguish, Fear, And Sorrow
"Anguish, fear, and sorrow, are emotions we all feel, but never more strongly than in our adolescence. When just having an acne-rabid skin, can mean a lifetime of loneliness. One's acceptance by others, is a barometer of one's popularity. If one is different, a misfit, maybe unattractive, unathletic, one is in for a lifetime of cruelty and suffering, that will traumatize permanently. You see scars are souvenirs you never loose. The past is never far. You can try to repress it. You can try to hold it back. You can try to deny it. But it will still continue to grow... stronger, and stronger. Like a malignant cancer, that can't be satiated. Each of us manifests our pain in different manners. Whether it's three in the morning in bed... tears in one's eye. Whether it's a need to destroy everything beautiful, or just simply shutting one's self off from society. My father never gave me what I needed, so I understand what it's like to do without. They should understand this. They should give w

Blond Car Accident
Blonde Car Accident One day, while a blonde was out driving her car, she ran into a truck. The truck's driver made her pull over into a parking lot and get out of the car. He took a piece of chalk and drew a circle on the pavement. He told her to stand in the middle and not leave the circle. Furious, he went over to her car and slashed the tires. The blonde started laughing. This made the man angrier so he smashed her windshield. This time the blonde laughed even harder. Livid, the man broke all her windows and keyed her car. The blonde is now laughing hysterically, so the truck driver asks her what's so funny. The blonde giggles and replies, "When you weren't looking, I stepped out of the circle three times!"

Today
I decided I need to start blogging more. I've been working every hard at my jewelry business as anyone who reads my bulletins can see. it is a bit discouraging that no one has bought anything but I am not giving up, at least not yet. I know it's going to take a long time to get to where I want it to be. But even just one sale would add some encouragement to an already faltering pride.

Neil Young
(Quote from Keep On Rocking in the Free World by Neil Young) 'There's a warning sign on the road ahead. There's a lot of people saying, we'd be better off dead. I don't feel like Satan, but I am to them. So I try to forget it, anyway I can.' And right then and there I realized, Justin, that you could never be me, because when they call you Satan it bothered you; When they called me Satan, I enjoyed it

To Those Of Va Tech Connections
I would like to extend my sympathy to those with connections to VA Tech for the events that came about April 16th. There are no amount of words that can express the saddness that i feel as a result of the violence and the loss of life. My prayers are with you.

~ Enduring The Pain, Soliders ~
I hope someone can see a loved one or a friend :) Our GREAT troops doing what they do best. There is a shooting in this video, and it is one that ya need to keep in mind, when the news says that the troops kill civilians, the guy who is shot in the street has a RPG in his hand, and wearing civilian clothes, yet you know when the main stream media gets there the RPG is not there so we are the bad guys, Fuckem I wish these Son of Bitches would quit taking the sides of those against us.

Life As You Like It
So here is where I stand, I've put alot into my online relationships and now my life itself is lacking human relationships. I guess at one point it was easier to trust online personalities than real ones and Look what happened to me. I have gone frome the socially elite to an anti-social homebody that had too much time on her hands. I had made a whole other life on line and I was ok with the fact that all of the people I was sharing my time with would never really be a human, real part of my life. I had people to confide in without looking them in the eye, people to love without having contact and people to share problems and solutions with that I would never have to meet. Everyone has been so sweet and so wonderful and so real but the time for me to become me again is here and I can't do that if my time and life revolve around the internet. Ineed people in my life to hold on to so I am again going to pull away from the life I know and try to get on with the life I once had. I'm not le

More (possible) Political Dirty Tricks
(Originally posted on November 6, 2006)(Now, I don't know if this is true or not, but it does seem like something either side would try to pull. Also, I didn't see anything on Snopes about it one way or the other.)Supposedly, the Republican party will use robocalls to piss off Democrats and swing voters. I've reposted the entire blog entry below. The original can be found here.Heads up! Republican trick to alianate Democratic voters with robocalls is in process:PoliticsSubmitted by Paul -V- on Mon, 11/06/2006 - 9:06am.Editor's note: I've been getting alerts from several sources about this. I'm re-posting one of them here to spread the wordKarl Rove has been bragging for weeks about his "72-hour program" to swing the elections, which predict a Democratic takeover of Congress.Now we know what it is: a dirty trick campaign using robocalls.The calls are made to Democrats and swing voters at all times of day or night to make them angry. And they pretend to be from the *Democrat*.For ex

Unsure....
Every time i am in relationship with another guy i think this relationship is different. but somehow jealous and what my family and my friends have to say get to me. Normally jealous doesnt get to me but there is one girl that is pushing me to the point where i say fine you can have him. or i am done. But if i end it with him i will be proving all my family and my friends right.

Lynn Gets Her's
It had been an incredible weekend. I was sore as hell, but certainly very relaxed. Sitting slumped down in the front seat of the van watching the trees go by as we hurtled down the Maine Turnpike back towards Boston, I couldn’t help but wonder I had never been whitewater rafting before. (There is something about it other than the obvious rush that makes it an extremely cathartic experience. I suspect that it’s the feeling that you have overcome a situation that could have killed you if you weren’t up to the task that makes you feel much better about yourself.) I was certain of one thing, this wouldn’t be the last trip for me. I began to doze off. I was quickly startled out of my light slumber by the shrill ring of my cell phone. I’d almost forgot that I had it with me, there was absolutely no signal whatsoever where we had been all weekend. I rummaged around quickly and managed to find it in my coat pocket. “Hello?” “Well, hello yourself baby. Where have you been all weekend?” I

Mathew
Mathew can conceal his pain no longer, because, from my vantage point, no matter how cleverly i may sneak upon a mirror, my reflection is always right there, to stare back at me. And do you know what i see? i see a troubled, tortured, tormented soul. But this is my destiny and no one feels my pain.

Viking Jailed Over Crack Problem (shocker)
So you are showing some crack. Well, no one wants to see that. In fact one nightclub in Minneapolis has a rule against it. I am not clear about their rules on nappy headed ho's though. "Minnesota Vikings cornerback Cedric Griffin was freed on $50 bail after being arrested early Sunday in downtown Minneapolis and charged with misdemeanor disorderly conduct, authorities said. Griffin, 24, was released from the Hennepin County jail at 4:45 a.m. Two witnesses told KSTP-TV that the Vikings cornerback was thrown out of the Spin nightclub for not pulling up his pants. The club has a dress code requiring that pants not sag below the waist. The witnesses said Griffin then had a dustup with bouncers and police before being taken away in handcuffs." Do yourself a favor, do not search for "ass crack" images. Just imagine 1000 words and then you have your picture. Hey, maybe there is a slot for him with Cincy next year.

Headbanger Ball In Sex N Candy On Pal
Reminder to everyone.........Don't miss out....This Saturday Night From 10 Till Midnight.....SNGLM36 And The_Tribal_Dragon Will Be Hosting The Headbanger's Ball.......All The Heavy Metal You Can Handle.......Tell Your Friends.........We Gonna Rock Da House.........

Ireland Calling....
Ok...many of you know I have had this trip to Ireland planned for a while, had to change it a few times...and now.. I MUST GO! not just MUST more like I HAVE to. So, if there is ANYONE who wants to go...pack your bags now and holla at me. xoxox Chrys

Haggard Haggard
(Originally posted on November 6, 2006)Haggard just isn't going to catch a break, is he. Now Mrs. Betty Bowers, America's Best Christian, is mocking him here.(And in case you're wondering (and you shouldn't be), yes, I am happy that he won't catch a break.)tag: Ted Haggard, Betty Bowers, news, gay, politics-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Gentlemen Quiz
Want to know if you're, or someone you know is a gentleman? 1. In the company of feminists, intercourse should be referred to as: a) Lovemaking b) Screwing c) The pigskin bus pulling into tuna town 2. You should make love to a woman for the first time only after you've both shared: a) Your views about what you expect from a sexual relationship b) Your blood-test results c) Five tequila slammers 3. You time your orgasm so that: a) Your partner climaxes first b) You both climax simultaneously c) You don't miss SportsCenter 4. Passionate, spontaneous sex on the kitchen floor is: a) Healthy, creative love-play b) Not the sort of thing your wife/girlfriend would ever agree to c) Not the sort of thing your wife/girlfriend need ever find out about 5. Spending the whole night cuddling a woman you've just had sex with is: a) The best part of the experience b) The second best part of the experience c) $100 extra 6. Your girlfriend says she's gained five pounds in

Gunman Kills 30 On Virginia Tech Campus
Gunman Kills 30 on Virginia Tech Campus BLACKSBURG, Va. (AP) - A gunman opened fire in a Virginia Tech dorm and then, two hours later, in a classroom across campus Monday, killing at least 30 people in the deadliest shooting rampage in U.S. history, government officials told The Associated Press. The gunman was killed, bringing the death toll to 31. Students complained that the university did not warn them about the first deadly burst of gunfire until hours later. "Today the university was struck with a tragedy that we consider of monumental proportions," said Virginia Tech president Charles Steger. "The university is shocked and indeed horrified." It was not immediately clear whether the gunman was shot by police or took his own life. Investigators offered no motive for the attack. The gunman's name was not immediately released, and it was not known if he was a student. The shootings spread panic and confusion on campus. Witness

Sorry Been Away For Sometime....
Sorry been away for sometime now, been unpacking, an figering things out, an few other things. I have missed U ALL! Hope to chat w/u all at somepoint. A few things have happend that i will blog about if anyone wants to listen to me rant/rave about. Love u all Bill

Candle Colors And Their Meanings
Red - Courage, health, sexual love, strength, vigor Pink - Honor, love, morality Orange - Adaptability, attraction, encouragement, stimulation Yellow(gold) - Attraction, charm, confidence, persuasion, protection White - Purity, sincerity, truth Greenish-Yellow - Anger, cowardice, discord, jealousy, sickness Green - Fertility, finance, healing, luck Brown - Hesitation, neutrality, uncertainty Light Blue - Health, patience, tranquility, understanding Dark Blue - Changeability, depression, impulsiveness Violet - Healing, peace, spirituality Purple - Ambition, business progress, power, tension Silver(gray) - Cancellation, neutrality, stalemate Black - Confusion, discord, evil, loss, banis and to remove negative energy if done right!

Andre Agassi Hits Wife With Tennis Racket
I bet he makes her tell her friends that she fell down the steps. He can't be looking bad in the public eye. Image is everything. "Steffi Graf required three stitches Sunday after husband Andre Agassi inadvertently hit her in the face with his racket during a fundraiser that followed the final of the U.S. Clay Court Championships. Graf and Agassi were holding hands -- her left to his right -- while rallying with a couple of youngsters when Agassi's follow-through struck his wife in the face." Right. Inadvertent. Ted Kennedy inadvertently drove into an ocean channel once, too.

Not Sure
You said you loved me Yet you where unsure of our love Its alright I will be fine Dont worry about my heart Take the your words and find your own way Leave me in peaces here all alone Someday someone will come to peace me together Dont concern yourself with this mess u left of me I am stronger when your gone but I love it when your here I need so much more then you could ever give me You could never have me...

My Insta-bitch Store
I just wanted to let everyone know that if you haven't already checked out The Official Insta-Bitch Store I highly reccommend doing so. Not just because it's my store but because the stuff that is for sale is nice quality. If you're wondering how I know I've actually ordered some of my own products mainly to make sure they are worth the price. The Insta-Bitch teddy bear is large, fuzzy and squishy. The magnets look great, the buttons are a hit and the thong is most awesome. Go on and check it out. If you have any ideas please let me know or if you have any specific requests let me know as well. I just designed a shirt for a coworker and she's quite happy with it. I do plan to offer a calendar for 2008 as well so go ahead and start hunting up or planning your best Before/After Insta-Bitch photos. If I have more than 12 people interested then I'll make it into a contest. :) Again, I'll be happy if you just stop by the store and check it out. Thanks! --Elf

My Internet Is Back!!!
I feel alive again... I feel connected to the world again! No longer must I actually venture forth into the world to converse with people! And my eczema is gone too! Yay me! - this was brought to you in part by half a bag of jolly ranchers and one very hyper Nita

The Social Credit Fable Revisited
(Originally posted on November 6, 2006)A while back, I posted a fable about people discovering Social Credit. (The link for that is here.)Today I found a better discourse on the subject here. I'd advise reading the fable first, though, to show that's what's happening in the second link.Because we have the system we have, it is impossible to ever get rid of poverty.tag: social credit, finance, poverty-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Best To Keep Things Unsaid
I'd like to Thank,Everyone,that Gifted me for my Birthday.It was all Wicked Awesome. I'd like to Welcome Rick The Webdude, to my Familly.If you've never checked out Ricks Photos,Images,+ Web Designs u should do so.He has Excellent Comments Tags,etc.He's another Great Morph Creator.He does CherryTap Marriage Licenses to name a few.Plus he's a Wicked Decent Dude.He will be a Welcomed Addition to my Familly. I'm a bit behind sending out Comments an Thank You's.Just bare with me,Hopefully I can get them done.

Happiness Is Not Equated By Money.
"Happiness is not equated by money. Sure, there are gonna be a lot of poor people who will say, ‘Fine give me the money and let me try it.’ I’m not gonna lie to you, it’s much better being rich than poor. But that doesn’t mean you’ll be happy. That doesn’t drive away the demons. When you finally go to sleep, nightmares overtake you, and there’s nothing but pain and razorblades. All you hope for is to wake up. Yet you can’t, because you’re in another nightmare that’s twice as bad. Money is fine, but that’s like putting a band-aid on something that needs a tourniquet. In the long run, it doesn’t make a damn difference. You’ll find in most people who are driven to be successful, especially among celebrities, that they are driven by some form of inner pain. That’s why their behavior is so anti-social, although I think my behavior would be like this regardless of what kind of pain I was in. But that’s neither here nor there. My life’s my life. It is what it is. And I resent the fact that yo

News Story:
(Originally posted on November 3, 2006)I love it when a religious zealot gets caught with his hand in the cookie jar. (Or in this case, the methamphetamine and gay sex jar.)Here's a clip of the news story:A leading evangelist and outspoken opponent of gay marriage has given up his post as president of the National Association of Evangelicals while a church panel investigates allegations he paid a man for sex.The rest of the story can be found here.tag: news, christian, christianity, sex, religion-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Seems Appropriate...especially Lately!
MOVED TO TEARS To let go All that i allowed to hurt my spirit Hurtful to have only hatered Holding me together As i enter into the void the ultimate surprize party with a trickster around every corner Hatred and fear only serve to shackle and crush Not to me! No more in this life! To hate and blame only dishonors the life i've been given i surrender Mother here's my sword... --1/3/05 scorpionfish 3:40 am

Family Death
In the wake of everything going on in Virginia, I find out that an Aunt of mine and Uncle have passed away. No, they were not involved in the tragedy in Va. They battled their own illnesses. It just really sucks. last week I had to deal with the death of a friend of mine, and now family! Whats scary and worries me, is that my Uncle had diabetes. Bad. His disease finally took his life. Friday, my step father went to the doctor over his diabetes. His sugar was OVER 900!!! For anyone that doesn't know anything about diabetes, that is BAD. Now he is on insulin because his body completely has shut down making it on its own. I know that half of you that read this don't know me, so for you, sorry. I just needed to get it off my chest.

Death
you are sweet gentle and kind the life force within me. you made my days filled with happiness,warmth, and laughter. you were the one who woke me each morning with a kiss the one to put me to sleep with your strong arms and gentle touch. the days are long now the nights even longer for you have gone and left me here alone in my cold cold world. no more warmth no more laughter hapiness is just a long forgotten thing.why did you leave me in this world alone?

Truth Or Dare! And I Double Dog Dare You!!!
Truth Or Dare and be honest. Fill this out and send it to my INBOX!! I dare you... to tell me the truth.. Four things you wonder about me 1. 2. 3. 4. Five things you like about me 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. Two things you don't like about me 1. 2. My best feature 1. Two things you want to know about me 1. 2. One word that describe me 1. One question for me 1.

A Shot In The Dark
Darkness enveloped the land around him as he crawled very very slowly, like a cold king snake, through the grass and bushes. Unseen by the keenest eyes. Hours passed into days as he quarried his prey. Finally he was in position. Now the game could begin. He watched his target come and go, sleep, awaken, take the dogs outside, eat, and go again. day passed into night again and again as he waited... concealed in plain view. On the seventh night the target stepped into the dimly lit yard... Now was the time... He lifted his optics to his steely eye and breathed out slowly until there was no air in his lungs. His heart pounded starving for oxygen. The target lit a cigarette and illuminated the entire face and shoulders. He slowly, dedliberately squeezed his trigger. There was only a brief rushing sound as the projectile left the muzzle and sped at 5 times the speed of sound toward the target. It was done... The lies stopped in an instant. The target never even heard