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A Gift Without Measures.
Every special person who touches our life, Leaves their own unique mark on our heart. A mark which can never be chizzled away, Even if the years eventually pull us apart. We can take on their expressions and such, The more we share of ourselves together. It's those little things about another person, Which can remain a part in us forever. People who we have met throughout our life, Become a part of the person who we are today. We learn and we grow from the relationships; Each one touching us, in it's own special way. We laugh about spending too much time together, When we think we have become like each other. But it just shows how much we've been touched, By the relationship we have found with another. Those special people who can touch our lives, Are like precious jewels amongst life's treasures. They shine on us and leave a lasting impression; An unique mark on our heart; A gift without measures.

The Dash
The Dash I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning...to the end. He noted that first came her date of birth And spoke the following date with tears, But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years. (1934 - 1998) For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth... And now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not, how much we own; The cars...the house...the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard... Are there things you'd like to change? For you never know how much time is left, That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what's true and real, And always try to understand The way other people feel. And be less quick to anger, And show appreciation more And love the people in our lives Like w

I'm Just Like You
I'm Just Like You I have been where you fear to be; I have seen what you fear to see; I have done what you fear to do; All these things I have done for you. I am the one you lean upon, The one you cast your scorn upon, The one you bring your troubles to, All these things I have been for you. The one you ask to stand apart, The one you feel should have no heart, The one you call the "man in blue"; But I am a person, just like you. And through the years, I have come to see That I am not what you ask of me. So take this badge, take this gun; Will you take it? - Will anyone? And when you watch a person die And hear a battered baby cry, Then do you think that you can be All these things you ask of me?

Believe
Believe in your heart that something wonderful is about to happen. Love your life. Believe in your own power, and in your own potential, and your own innate goodness. Wake every morning with the awe of just being alive. Discover each day the magnificent, awesome beauty in the world. Explore and embrace life in yourself and in everyone you see each day. Reach within to find your own specialness. Amaze yourself and rouse those around you to the potential of each new day. Don't be afraid to admit your less than perfect; this is the essence of our humanity. Let those who love you help you. Trust enough to be able to take. Look with hope to the horizon of today for today is all we truly have. Live this day well. Let a little sun out as well as in. Create your own rainbows. Be open to all your possibilities, all possibilities and miracles. Always believe in miracles.

When You Call
WHEN YOU CALL I risk my life for you and you don't even know me… You call me day or night. You call when you are frightened or alone. You call when things go bump in the night. You call me when you are sick or lost. You call me just to talk. And you call me after others have run away in fear. And EACH time I answer. And I sacrifice that which no other would for you. Some curse me and hate me. But still, each time I COME…

Just My Ramblings
I grew up in a lot of places, since my Dad was in the Navy, and well in that time things were changing quite a bit. Back then, women wanted to "bust up" the "boy clubs" and make their mark, which I can respect. However, I think things have gone too far. First, they were wearing our suits, and now they are stealing our pants at the Gap! In case you haven't seen the commercial for it, the girlfriend is saying anything he can wear she can wear better, which is a scary thought, because of the flipside to that, where he'd be in a bra and panties. So anyway, she can wear anything better, so she wears his slacks, and now they have pants for women called "the boyfriend slacks" or something like that. So now women want our jobs, they want our pay, and they want our pants! This isn't so bad, except now it really is like 1983 again for men. Back then, guys would wear all the glam make up and tight "girl" pants to get all the girls. These days, it's gone to a new level, with men wearing eye lin

Tribute To A Police Officer
TRIBUTE TO A POLICE OFFICER " A policeofficer is many things. He's a son, a brother, a father, an uncle, and sometimes even a grandfather. He is protector in time of need and a comforter in time of sorrow. His job calls for him to be a diplomat, a psychologist, a lawyer, a friend, and an inspiration. He suffers from an overdose of publicity about brutality and dishonesty. He suffers far more from the notoriety produced by unfounded charges. Too often acts of heroism go unnoticed and the truth is buried under all the criticism. The fact is that less than one-half of one per cent of our police officer ever discredit their uniform. That's a better average than you'll find among clergymen." "A police officer is an ordinary guy who is called upon for extraordinary bravery--for us! His job may sometimes seem routine, but the interruptions can be moments of stark terror. He's the man who faces a half-crazed gunman, who rescues a lo

The Perfect Cop
The Perfect Cop To a Police Chief, the perfect cop is someone who looks sharp, works hard and doesn't expect overtime pay, makes good arrests without offending anyone, writes detailed reports and keeps a neat, readable activity log. He is also always available when extra help is needed, accepts work assignments willingly and comes up with fast, favorable results. In short, a perfect cop is someone who makes the Chief look good. To a Prosecuting Attorney, a perfect cop is a meticulous investigator who gathers and documents evidence, obtains confessions to all crimes and outlines each case in order to make the prosecutor's job easy. He doesn't object when a case is plea bargained so the attorneys can go golfing on Friday afternoon, and doesn't mind if an offender gets probation or a suspended sentence because it is more convenient to make a deal than go to trial. To a Defense Attorney, a perfect cop is a bungling idiot who makes mistakes and someone the defense attorney

In Memory Of All Police Dogs
In Memory of all Police Dogs ---------------------------- John Quealy They handled themselves with beauty & grace and who could ever forget that beautiful face Weather at work; or at home; whatever the test they always worked hard; and did their best They were real champions; at work or at play but their lives were cut short; suddenly one day While working on the job with their partner one day they put themselves out on a limb; out into harms way They gave the ultimate sacrifice; any dog can give they gave up their life; so someone could live The best of their breed; as his partner and anyone would say many hearts are now broken; that he had to prove it this way Now as the trees are blowing in the gentle breeze the sun is shining; thru the leaves on the trees The meadows are green; and the grass grows tall off in the distance they can see a waterfall As they look over the falls; down through the creek the water flows gently; as a rabbit sneaks a peek Far

Judgment Day For A Police Officer
Judgment Day for a Police Officer The policeman stood and faced his God, Which must always come to pass. He hoped his shoes were shining. Just as brightly as his brass. "Step forward now, Policeman. How shall I deal with you? Have you always turned the other cheek? To my Church have you been true?" The policeman squared his shoulders and said, "No, Lord I guess I ain't, Because those of us who carry badges Can't always be a Saint. I've had to work most Sundays, And at times my work was rough, and sometimes I've been violent, Because the streets are awfully tough. But I never took a penny, That wasn't mine to keep, I worked a lot of overtime When the bills just got too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, Though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place among the people here. They never wanted me around Except to calm their fear. If you've a place for me here, L

My Job
My Job When squad called my unit I would respond. Whether it was a stabbing, a shooting, or another dead john. 10-4 I would say I am enroute. Not knowing the situation or what the call was about. It was my duty to serve and to protect. A mentor, a counselor, all I asked for was some respect. At times I was nervous, even a bit scared. My adrenaline pumping when our sirens blared. So many killings to them it's a game. Kids caught in the middle, a bullet knows no name. So young, so innocent they had so much left to do. So forgive me if I cry, because I am human too. Never once did I take something that was not mine Not a ten, a twenty, not even a dime. Always tried to show some respect and kindness. Because I was proud to be one of Chicago's Finest. Never did I think when I got this call. That this would be my last job, my last 5-Paul. When the shots rang out I didn't feel the round. Until I heard my partner say "Officer Down". Now as I lay here trying

"broken Blue Line"
"Broken Blue Line" We didnt know you, but we feel the loss The ultimate price, you paid the cost Once again our blue line is broken Words of condolence will soon be spoken We feel the distrubance in the line Praying its for the last time That an Officers life is taken away Dear God, no more, please not today The spouse and children left to live alone Knowing daddy will never come home Mothers and Fathers feeling their grief All of us questioning our own belief No more families torn apart in pain No more Officers should die in vain For a public to seems too quick to forget You did your job, without regret Brothers and Sisters, we make a stand To be a family hand in hand And you, young warrior, now is your time To take our hands, and join our Thin Blue Line By Gail Orth-Aikmus Copyright © 1998

A Love In The Storms (to My Love)
we are ships apon the ocean sailing side by side we shine forth apon the waves then the waves grew stronger and pushed us out far apon the oceans we seemed to be lost but the waves of serenity and love rejoined us apon the sea , may our love keep us together i love you!!!!

Exposed
Writing letters I never intend to send. Picking up the pieces... to a lost sense of self worth. Why should I? When they say I could go on. Feel so empty... crying out as loud as I can, in the only language I understand. And no one reaches me. Can't you tell how much I want you? Can't you tell... how often I think about you? I think you know. And that's what makes you all the more irresistable. The crooked blade of your tongue twisting in my heart. And I love every minute of it. Good god girl, you own me so completely. And you revel in every moment. My question is... are you my salvation? Aren't you the least bit intrigued by my advances? Just how much time are we wasting playing coy... When we could be enjoying so much more. My impudent little corruption. I love you because you destroy me. Like a tongue tickling my lobes... as red hot iron slips into my skin. I'd like it if at some point I could get my heart back. Retrieve it from that

F**k That S**t!
(rant) you know what fuck that shit i'm tired of all these winey ass bitches in the world asking why don't u do this or do that. right now i'm sittin here typing this and dj'in on a internet radio show.... yes playin MY MUSIC not shit ppl are requesting if u don't like my fuckin shows don't fuckin tune in cause god knows i RARELY tune in to half the other shows simply because i don't wanna hear their music. and ppl who think they can sound sexy and cant need to keep their mouths shut. fuckin skanks don't know what the fuck they doin i swear to all that is holy i will fuckin go insane SOON! (/rant)

Today
Today Never fear what might or may happen Or dwell on what has gone by. Live each moment in the present Or you’ll forever be asking why. Yesterday has come and has left us Tomorrow may not ever be. Live life for each second you have it And remember you’ll always have me. Forget the past with its heartaches And the dreams of what may be ahead. Those things are controlled by the Almighty Think of our life and our love instead. I will not lead you down this road of life Nor will I follow behind in your step. But take my hand and travel beside me To where the secretes of love are kept. I wont promise the road will be easy Danger could be anywhere. Together we can face any obstacle Because of our love we need never fear.

I Promise
I promise to be yours and yours alone I promise to be your foundation The foudation of love and happiness I promise that you will be my one and only The only love of your life I promise to say the vows With love and honor to the only one for me This was also written for me

"if"
"If" If I could have just one more day, To spend my time with you. I'd love to sit and talk awhile, Instead of feeling blue. It's just so hard when we're apart, The days just seem so long. For my longing and your touch, It leaps off the page of a song. If I could turn up the hands of time, I'd be standing in front of you. I'd reach out to feel your touch, I know you'd love that too. If you see me in your dreams, You know that I am there. To show you all my love from me, And show how much I care. So if you're sitting there wondering, Of what it is I do. I'm wrapping my love up in a box, And sending it off to you.

Dreams Can Come True
Dreams Can Come True Our friendship can never be broken But you mean so very much more Of all the girls I've ever met You're the one I truly adore But believe it or not your happiness Is fore most on my mind I know what you were looking for When you planned a trip of this kind And as the Lord and you both know My love for you won't change And if it were in my powers The desired ending you want I'd arrange I wish you all the happiness This world can offer you The Lord knows you deserve it With all the wonders you do And if things happen to go your way I pray they will last forever And if asked if my feelings have changed My answer will be simple - never I vowed I'd wait a life time And I swear that's what I'll do And the reason is even easier Cause my darling I'm in love with you I can't and won't ever change You'll forever be in my heart I pray to God you get all you want Maybe this is a brand new start Just keep looking for the rainbow At the end is the b

Unrequited Love
Unrequited Love I am, in your absence, incomplete... Each day too empty, each night too long, Following shadows down an empty street Thinking, each corner I turn will be the one Where you’ll be waiting for me. Alone in a crowd, I seem to see you just ahead, But as I push my way to go where you seem to go, I do not find you...someone else instead Bears the form that made my heart lurch so! Sometimes I hear your voice across the street, Or someone smiles the same way you smile, And just for a moment, you are here with me And I with you for just a little while. Always the quest, the seeking and yearning, Waking in the night, saying your name Then restless slumber, the constant dreaming Only to find in the light of morning... After all...everything’s still the same.

How Dare You Be So Wonderful?
How dare you be so wonderful? The very mention of your name Sends shivers down my spine, A thousand times colder Than the winter chill. Your smile caresses my soul, Pulling the strings of my heart Sending the cold away And filling me with an amazing glow. I sift through the photo albums In my mind Filling the long hours of the day I spend without you. Recapturing the moments When I was alive. I retire to my empty bed, And as blissful sleep carries me away I let my mind dream of your face. Through the day I think of you, Through the night I dream of you, How dare you be so wonderful?

For A Moment Like This
For A Moment Like This Your love Your touch Your loving kiss A moment like this I don't want to miss. Some people wait a lifetime Some people search forever For a moment like this With you, I've found happiness I've never known You're more than I ever knew existed. More than I ever dreamed of Every breath that I take Every moment I'm awake, I think of you It's all I want to do. This world can be so hard but, With your love I know things can change And no longer will I feel the sadness Nor loneliness and the pain Feeling your embrace, my heart begins to race. With you, I found what I was looking for Behind me, I shut the door Knowing deep inside I have to search no more For you, my love is everlasting forevermore.

Never Really Knew You
Never Really Knew You I never really knew you You were just another friend But when I got to know you I let my heart unbend I couldn't help past memories that would only make me cry I had to forget my first love and give love another try So I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go I love you more than anyone I had to let you know And if you ever wonder why I don't know what I'll say But I'll never stop loving you each and every day My feelings for you will never change Just know my feelings are true Just remember one thing I love you!

Things Unsaid
Things Unsaid I am writing you this poem because There are so many things that I haven’t said I just don’t know how to tell you But the words keep floating through my head. My whole life is a mess right now All I can think about is you I don’t sleep, I don’t eat anymore And I discovered feelings that are so new. I want to hear your voice Every minute of the day I just don’t have the guts to call you Afraid of what you might say. Maybe you don’t feel the same Or maybe you do I am just scared to tell my feelings Even if it is to you. I wish I knew how to tell you I really want to say: I love you with all of my heart Forever and a day.

Will
will you take my hand and walk with me Will you wipe away my tears Will you let me be in your life Will you let me be your freind Will you be my lover Will you be my strentgh when im weak Will you sit by side when im sick Will you fight my battle with me Will you make me happy whenIm sad Will you stand by my side when im poor Will you love me and not others Will you love me with all your heart Will you love me like no one else can Will you take my heaqrt and not hurt me Will you take my hand and walk with me I will do all this for you This was written by a freind for me

Inside Out
Inside Out I had never loved from the inside out, always seen the outer shell. I didn't care to see what it was all about, never caring what their soul could tell. Once I looked upon the face of a young man, and fell in love with his handsome smile. And watched it leave like a handful of sand, that washes away with the tide across the miles. Always wondered how the blind could love, never seeing the one they touched. It was me that was blind of a love sent from above, A love felt from the soul, I had never loved that much. Then I found you, a man I have never met or seen, had never touched like most lovers do. A love felt from the heart and soul as in a dream, A love that has touched me like none other before you. Now I know just how the blind see, I understand now what it is all about. And I know now what its like to be... loved from the inside out.

Matt Serra Wins Ufc Welterweight Title
Serra scored a shocking first-round knockout win over a heavily-favored Georges St. Pierre in the main event of UFC 69 Saturday in Houston. "Joe, I'm really hungry, man," Serra said to UFC interviewer Joe Rogan after the win. "I was wondering if you and Dana had some humble pie in the back?" Serra, considered a major underdog, was reportedly disappointed with Rogan and UFC president Dana White portraying Serra as having little chance of beating St. Pierre. With a flurry of fists, Serra erased all doubt, and followed through on the title shot he earned by winning the fourth season of The Ultimate Fighter reality series. The former champion was gracious in defeat, calling Serra the better fighter and making no excuses for his loss. "I'm very sad right now, but I'm gonna have to come back, you know, stronger next time," St. Pierre told the Houston crowd. The two stood for the entire fight, before Serra caught St. Pierre with a right hook that put him off balance. Serra

Unborn Child
THIS WOMEN THINKS IT CUTE TO BASH AN UNBORN CHILD. SHE CALLED ME AN UNFIT MOTHER AND SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW ME. AFTER A NICE LITTLE FIGHT IN MY SHOUTBOX SHE BLOCKED ME. JUST SO ALL THE PARENTS OUT THERE KNOW WHO SHE IS HER NAME IS FIRE. Who in the hell would ever bash an unborn child has to be sick in the head.

Naked Soul
I stood before you Naked soul Heart pounding, throat constricting Trembling Unchaste in flesh, but virginal in exposing my Self Sweet lips kissed internal tears Tender fingers caressed my bruised heart Flaws embraced, beauty praised, wounds healed My essence, penetrated and made love to for the first time I stood before you Naked soul and you loved me

Happy Easter Everyone!
How's it going? Just wishing everyone a happy easter! I went to my uncle's house which he lives an hour and a half away and traffic was horrible =(. Food was good..except for the lamb...yuck! anyways hope everyone had a happy easter!!

When Hopes & Dreams Die!
When Hopes & Dreams Die! Current mood: contemplative Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes ..>..> ..> ..>..> ..> When Hopes & Dreams Die! I am at the preverbial crossroads of my life! It sometimes seems the prospects for my own happiness are as dark as the night scenes in the bootleg dvd I recently saw,(or didn't see), of the Zodiac! I can remember that I once had grand dreams. But due to circumstances mostly by my own doing i've flushed them down the toilet long ago. I can't seem to remember today as well as yesterday. Maybe because my yesterdays provided a chance of true hope to realize my ultimate desires,wants,hopes & dreams. These days r about letting go! It sucks to have to let go all be it neccassary to move on! Even when u know things r beyond salvaging & just no good anymore. Its a scary thing to start over. To reinvent yourself. To find new hopes & dreams. It really sucks when ur alone holding the bag of a life unsalvagable. I am not a good loser. Its hard to los

Your Little Chuckle For The Day
Your chuckle for the day: Defense Attorney: Will you please state your age? Little Old Lady: I am 86 years old. Defense Attorney: Will you tell us, in your own words, what happened the night of April 1st? Little Old Lady: There I was, sitting there in my swing on my front porch on a warm spring evening, when a young man comes creeping up on the porch and sat down beside me. Defense Attorney: Did you know him? Little Old Lady: No, but he sure was friendly. Defense Attorney: What happened after he sat down? Little Old Lady: He started to rub my thigh. Defense Attorney: Did you stop him? Little Old Lady: No, I didn't stop him. Defense Attorney: Why not? Little Old Lady: It felt good. Nobody had done that since my Albert died some 30 years ago. Defense Attorney: What happened next? Little Old Lady: He began to rub my brea

Take Flight
TAKE FLIGHT Fly with me way up high Lose our worries in the cloudy sky No baggage allowed on this special flight Take my hand as we soar into the night The ground has never really been good to us With feet on soil we are both too jealous On bumpy roads we ride our cars called doubt and fear Confiding in my life navigator, but you never really hear Afternoon drives in the country to clear the air Muddy terrain halts our tires piling on more despair We bury seeds of love to help our feelings last Yet the earth digs them up just as fast Fly with me way up high Lose our worries in the cloudy sky Escape is our boarding pass on this special flight Take my hand as we soar into the night Open waters never let us float together Our problems left us sailing in hazardous weather Choppy waters accompanied every trip Our love never strong enough to right our ship The voyage tossed us up and down like the ocean's waves Marooned miles from

Iowan Zach Johnson Wins Masters
AUGUSTA, Ga. - It all seemed surreal to Zach Johnson. Three clutch birdies on the back nine at the Masters. His name atop the leaderboard. Toppling Tiger Woods. Slipping on the green jacket. "I'm from Cedar Rapids, Iowa," he said when asked to describe himself. "That's about it. I'm a normal guy." Not anymore. Normal guys don't beat Woods in the final round of a major, especially when Woods is in the lead. Normal guys aren't unfazed by the ground-shaking cheers of Woods making an eagle to mount a charge. Jack Fleck was a normal guy from Iowa, too, and he took down the great Ben Hogan in the 1955 U.S. Open. Maybe everyone should have seen this one coming. A strange week at Augusta National saved the biggest surprise for the very end - Johnson as the Masters champion, and beating Woods to get there. "As they say, a giant has got to fall at some point," he said. Johnson pulled away from Woods and the rest of the pack with three birdies in a pivotal four-hole stretc

Up Above
UP ABOVE I wanna get lost in the heavens above I'd do anything to escape this lingering love You said it was over without shedding a tear Assuming words would quench every worry or fear The problem remains that I was truly in love So now I'm flying to be lost in the great up above The great up above is full of suspense The perfect vacation from a world too intense It conceals the sun's beauty and cloaks the night's stars A place to lick your wounds from the real world's scars. Love to you was never giving in You even ended arguments with an emphatic "I win" Always absent when my chips were down Yet expected me to disarm your every worry and frown Still I loved you unregrettably journeying into the heavens is my only chance to break free The great up above is mired in mystery Giving the misunderstood the perfect spot to free Love is not taking all that you can Ruined is my life so I escape in search of a new plan As bad as it was never having your full

You Are So Blessed
If you woke up this morning with more health than illness, you are more blessed than the million who won't survive the week. If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation, you are ahead of 20 million people around the world. If you attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death, you are more blessed than almost three billion people in the world. If you have food in your refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a place to sleep, you are richer than 75% of this world. If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy. If your parents are still married and alive, you are very rare, especially in the United States. If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful, you are blessed because the majority can,

Good Weekend
We had a good Easter. Spent the whole day with family. Played games and just had a lot of fun. Love those kinds of weekends! Saturday we got ready for today. While we were outside, I saw a butterfly land, so I ran inside to get my camera. I got 2 awesome photos of it! I'm holding off on posting any of my photog photos until I level up again though. Anyway, that's all for now.

Pain
Pain Pain, Just seems, To like to find a home inside of me. I look up to clouds and wonder how this could be. Look up, Wishing for the knowledge I will never keep. I seek the reasons, look for blame. Look for the one that threw out my name. Shall I cradle, and hold, This pain that seems born into me? It's in my abdomen, In my skin. Consumes my shoulder and it hurts to grin. So shall I crumble? Just cave and give in? I can drown so easily. Shall I cave? So easy to drown, Getting harder to swim. Harder to bring life back within 4/4/07

Weird Easter Picture
Happy easter and all that good shit. I didn't do much today. I laid around until aroudn 3 or 4, and then called people. Then I cooked some chicken, since it didn't sound like there awas any free food available easily at ny parents or anyone having an easter lunch or anything. Maybe I should have called my dad or something and saw what he was upto.. If he was doing something and wanted me around, then he should have just called me or something though. whatever. Yah, I did this myslef. No one says happy easter like me!!! lol

A Friend Most True
I need to know if you’re my true friend, will you be by my side until the end? Can I tell you my secrets deep, and trust them in your heart you’ll keep? We are neither of us without our flaws, can you accept mine as I will yours? I’ll be a shoulder to cry on when you’re blue, will you be there for me when I need you? No matter how busy I will make time for you, if you are busy will you make time for me too? I will take your hand and comfort your tears, will you hold me and soothe my fears? I will give you joy and many warm smiles, can we share that even across many miles? I will not forget what’s important to you, will you remember what’s important to me too? With you my most favourite things I’ll share, If only I know do you truly care? If you can accept me as I do you, then I will know you are a friend most true.

Words Are Not Enough
The words "I miss you" can not display The depths of how I care. The words "I want you" do not betray The extent of what I dare. The words "I need you" can not convey The extent of my prayer. The words "I love you" do not portray The heights of my err.

Dreams
Dream, dream, dream, When ever I want you all I have to do is dream ... well there are needs that dreams just don't fill ! LOL Deepest desires burn without end Caring not of who they may offend Desires to hold and taste your kiss Desires to feel you and the bliss Two sharing loves sweet dance divine Being one knowing your love is mine Giving myself without worry and care Vowing from the soul to always be there To share all life is and love through tears To grow old with you through passing years To never loose the passion in loves act To always feel it for your soul and mine attract And love like that is always to be When two are one for all eternity By R. Thomas Dinsmore A true Love never dies it only grows A true heart never quits for all it knows Life is filled with challenge to be overcome And to throw away true love is beyond dumb The greatest sin that any may commit to interfere With lessons of growth that come from year to year Lessons teach us ho

~bubbles~
Bubbles in the tub, All arond where I sit, No need to scrub, Relax and soak a bit. They envelope stress, Feel it just vanish, My skin they caress, Worries slowly diminish. Lean back, Close my eyes, Feel the tension melt away, Deep cleansing sigh, The end of the day. Bubbles in the tub, All around where I sit, No need to scrub, Relax and soak a bit.

Groooannn....another Blonde Joke
groooannn....another blonde joke The other day my neighbor, who is blonde, came running up to me in the driveway just jumping for joy! I didn't know why she was jumping for joy but I thought, what the heck, and I starting jumping up and down along with her. She said, " I have some really great news!" I said, "Great. Tell me why you're so happy." She stopped jumping and, breathing heavily from all the jumping up and down,told me that she was pregnant! I knew that she had been trying for a while so I told her, "That's great! I couldn't be happier for you!" Then she said, "There's more." I asked, "What do you mean 'more'?" She said, "Well, we are not having just one baby. We are going to have TWINS!" Amazed at how she could know so soon after getting pregnant, I asked her how she knew. She said...."Well, that was the easy part. I went to Wal-Mart and they actually had a home pregnancy kit in a twin-pack. Both tests came ou

~hurt~
Pain is all I feel, Mixed with confusion, A constant moving wheel, Smiles only an illusion. Hide the pain always, Behind doors so tall, Thru this huge maze, The long narrow halls. Never let the walls down, Or let someone in, I would surely drown, From somewhere deep within. Keep 'em locked away, These secrets I keep, Can't be led astray, Or I'll be in a heap.

I Love You, My Friend
Shall I run or hide And die inside Or pretend That I never knew you, even as a friend? Can I go back in time, Before your hand was in mine, Or erase the kiss, That I will forever miss, Or forget your eyes That seem to hypnotize? Can my mind erase The feel of your embrace? How can I forget all of this And pretend it doesn't exist? I want you to know one thing that will never end - my love for you. I love you, my friend

Stir Of Echoes !
Just giving all the people that visited my profile a shout out. Hopefully, if I scream their praises to the wind then maybe they will hear what I have said and remember that they have a friend out there. I realy appreciate the visits and don't be shy to add, rate, or show me some love. I haven't been a member for very long, but the experience is sure different than any other sites of its caliber. It's one that I hope will be enhanced in the future by making new friends and maybe a few fans. I will continue to keep an optimistic view on the prospect of meeting different people and try to further enjoy the "tappa, tappa, tappa". - Where would we all be without the "Tappa, Tappa, Tappa"?

Heart Thoughts
Sitting here remembering when I saw the beauty rush out like a might wind I never saw it before or bothered to notice But now I see it and on it I am focused. The gentleness of your voice The way you make me feel when I see your lovely smile. The way you laugh and care for others Even go beyond the extra mile. I am focused on that whether you believe me or not My heart aches for you And my stomach is in knots. Now I had to declare, The thoughts of my heart. In hopes that you'd give me, A place in your heart

4.09.07
Your Mistake when the pain is something i can't ignore and wondering why as i fall to the floor when you cut or burn it out and bring back the nightmares and crushing doubt when the child dies inside who will you call when it's time to hide? when you fall and cry for relief will you remember my faithful belief? and when you hear the word goodbye will you know why it still made me cry?

I Shouldnt Be Feeling Empty
i shouldn't be feeling empty yet my heart yearns not to ache i shouldn't be feeling guilty yet i make so many mistakes i dont know how to fix it but put up the temporary facades that convince even myself that at times im okay i dont know what im supposed to being doing i'm not even sure if i really know who i am but i keep pushing and growing in what i know to be there knowing eventually it will all slide out from me again its easier for me to focus on others issues than to look at or face my own i just want things to be okay and to not run and hide from all my guilt and fear i'm so angry that they think it can just be prayed away and that it will just make it better and take all the guilt away i know life isnt meant to be easy nor robots are we wanting to be but i struggle with the rollercoast that never seems to stop the treck that never seems to go anywhere but a few steps forward than slides right back i feel out of place, i feel out of wack i just

The True Meaning Of Easter
THE TRUE MEANING OF EASTER by Pastor Greg Wilson As a Bible-believing Christian, I stake my all upon the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Without it I would be, as the apostle notes: "of all men most miserable" (1 Cor. 15:19). I cannot understand why some make claim to Christianity, and yet deny the very cornerstone of the Christian faith; i.e., the literal, bodily resurrection of Jesus Christ. For Christ and His resurrection I have everything, and to it, I owe everything. But for the pagan festival of Easter, I have nothing but contempt! One need not be a scholar or spend countless hours in research to ascertain that this holiday is a thoroughly pagan ritual. It has no connection to Biblical Christianity. A true child of God ought not observe it in any positive way. Until this century, no Baptist, and many protestants would have nothing to do with it. Baptists, and some protestants were persecuted for their refusal to join in its festivities. Under the definition for Ea

Beautiful
He is beautiful, so very beautiful Just like a winter's shining landscape, As delicate as the petals of a daisy, And as freely as the eagle soaring against the blue His eyes are as mysterious as the calm sea Everything about him is so very precious, More precious than all the gems in the world His soul is the essence of the sky and earth, His feelings are a volcano that is yet to explode His smile is the smile of lost innocence. Pain vibrates deep inside of his gentle heart. A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of his mind, A mind with as many roads as the world has. I look at him and I see a pure truth, Like looking at a clear night sky, Millions of stars twinkle within him. He is beauty as I defined it, He is perfect, his imperfections make him so. He is my best friend, and I love him, I love him although, not because. And I would give up all the things which I think are pretty If only I can hold his beauty within me, For he is everything in this world

Harley Davidson
The inventor of the Harley-Davidson motorcycle, Arthur Davidson, died and went to heaven. At the pearly gates, St. Peter told Arthur. "Since you've been such a good man and your motorcycles have changed the world, your reward is, you can hang out with anyone you want to in heaven." Arthur thought about it for a minute and then said, "I want to hang out with God." St. Peter took Arthur to the Throne Room, and introduced him to God. God recognized Arthur and commented, "Okay, so you were the one who invented the Harley-Davidson motorcycle?" Arthur said, "Yeah, that's me...." God commented: "Well, what's the big deal in inventing something that's pretty unstable, makes noise and pollution and can't run without a road?" Arthur was apparently embarrassed, but finally spoke, "Excuse me, but aren't you the inventor of woman?" God said, " Ah, yes." "Well ," said Arthur, "professional to professional, you have some major design flaws In

Can You See It In My Eyes?
You don't know how I'm feeling. I have yet to vocalize Desire deep inside me. Can you see it in my eyes? I tremble when I'm near you Heat travels up my thighs and I want you with an urgency That I just can't describe. Dare I reach out to touch you? Do you think you'd realize How much I want and need you? Can you see it in my eyes? I long to say, "I love you," But am scared of your reply. Terrified like a child I've become paralyzed. The camouflaged emotions Lead to pain and silent cries. And yet I just can't tell you. Don't you see it in my eyes? Confessing through this poem My dilemma summarized. The feeling's quite cathartic, But will lead to my demise.

My Gift To You
I live through my dark existence only to bask in your beauty your eyes that shine like sapphires your smile that brightens even my sad existence I envy the wind that runs through your hair that touches your lips I long to touch you to hold you in my arms but I cannot for your heart belongs to another so, I can only love you from afar your friendship means more to me than anything this world provides but like an angel you touched my heart in a way that I've never felt before cause I've never known what love is until this day I know that we are only friends but my heart wishes it to be more so I will still hope and dream that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine to hold you in my arms and say, "I love you"

As The Internet Grows
As the Internet grows and becomes a part of our lives, it brings with it a unique opportunity to meet people we likely would never have met in any other way. And very often, those people we meet on line will become friends. Sometimes, very close friends.

Something To Ponder
It never ceases to amaze me how certain things that seem so perfect can bring your life to a total halt. Think of that amazing bike ride on the trail when all the sudden a large stick gets stuck between your spokes causing you to fly off face first into the mud... but you get up and brush yourself off, curse a little and get back on for your ride home (I had a similar incident as a child when my shoelace got caught in the stupid chain... what a catastrophe!!). But back to the point, some people spend their entire lives in search of "THE ONE"... and often when they find that person it's like some higher power has to interfere (say throw a stick in the spokes) a little to test the strength, support system, communication and love of all involved. Be it a pregnancy scare, a death in the family, a conflict of religion, the first huge argument over the bills, an ex who you thought was "the one", or whatever. Some people seem to miss the test entirely and lose out on their soul mate due t

Just A Little More Of Myself Exposed
Well what I posted last night was just a brief discription of myself, there is so much more to me than that..I love people yet have little tolerance for bullys. I find myself to be a protector of the underdogs, I was going to say the weaker ones but found that would be too harsh to say about them , would they be weaker if someone was not taking their strength from them by force or would they be strong if they knew who strong they could actually be with someone there backing them? I think we are all strong and weak at certain moments of our lives, in our developments of ourselves.But now I am sounding like I know everything , but I do not know enough. Like when someone hurts you, or breaks your heart, and they say they are sorry. Does that make it easier for them or for yourself? does it help in the healing processes of your broken heart? How often does one accept this word " sorry " before it because a habit for the one saying it? As you can read I have many questions inside that I fin

A Means To An End
A Means To An End I have seen an Angel, Yet never have my eyes lain upon her She speaks with me often Yet I have never heard her voice We have never made contact Yet she touches me in a way no one else ever could She claims that I am hers Yet my heart has never possessed her soul We kiss only in our minds eye Yet I can almost feel the pressing of her lips upon my own The silhouette of a Goddess remains at my bedside, Where every night I have held her in effigy I am both blessed and cursed, A hallowed trip to heaven and hell revisited When shall thou release me from my cage of uncertainty? My ears hear echoes of being the chosen one Yet you grant me not the gift of tryst Your eyes are open but your valor keeps us from our destiny Apt consent is so vital to the birth of the rest of my existence How can I dismiss the importance of your feelings? My intension is not the end in itself but only a means to an end Is there no way you can surrender to the spirit

To All 101st Airbourners
ANY SOLDIERS AND PILOTS FROM THE 101ST PLEASE MESSAGE ME I LOVE YOU GUYS I LIVED NEAR FT. CAMPBELL ONCE I WAS RIGHT ON THE FLIGHT PATH AND NAME ALL THE COPTERS BY SOUND I LOVED IT I EVEN RODE IN A BLACKHAWK AT AGE 16 IT WAS AWESOME AND EVEN GOT A KIOWA WARRIOR TO HOVER OVER MY HOUSE ONCE SO ANY SCREAMING EAGLES MESSAGE ME. GO SCREAMING EAGLES

My Lost Content
something left me wanting waking hell is destiny? Weary and defiled lost and violated not a broken man just short of shattered everything ... my past like it ever fucking mattered wait for me I'll love some day maybe without goading rain falling soothes me and blood flows so easily when youre crying sky is always dark sun doesnt seen to shine life has been taken from you and days last like pain is the divine no one cares for those who need whos the one whom you should need broken but not all apart your pain life always seems to feed nothing takes the stench of life its stuck like bones in graves stretch the skin and grip the knife follow the line and take the pain you crave D-BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

A Very Interesting Request...lets See Who Has The Guts To Do This
I DID SO ALL U WOMEN CAN DO THIS TOO COME ON ladies i am in a contest with a friend of mine and i need a female to write "tha Verdict Rocks" on their totally exposed boobies and send me a pic. no face necessary i just need the bare boobies (with nipples showing) that say "Tha Verdict Rocks" thank you in advance, tha verdict p.s. please repostTha Verdict {SUPER FLIRT}{CTAF SQUAD 2 #17}@ CherryTAP

Gah, Boys Are Like Brick Walls.
I am sooo tired of men thinking they know what I want. You don't know me, You have no idea how things work in my head. You have no idea what I think about love. Dont tell me I just want to be loved,or I need to be loved. Yes, I want to be loved, have my dark prince charming sweep me off my feet and be everything I could hope for...Id also like to grow some faerie wings or have a pet unicorn, but the chances of that are about as slim as my prince charming. Realisticly he doesnt exist, no man will ever be who I want. Im so tired of being upfront, that im not interested in a relationshop and yet Im still told I apparently am. The last two men I officially dated... both bugged the shit out of me untill I was tired of it and just agreed. Why do I have to be like a normal girl? Why do I have to want the boyfriend and the family and vomit. Why is it so fucking hard for you guys to comprend. Why do you have to frustrtate me so much. Bah, its like talking to a brick wall half the time, a bri

Lady Of The Shadows - A Poem
I'm not good at writing poetry, but wrote this one about myself... Night It calls to me Beckons with its ebony caress I answer night's call Needing to be enveloped within its deepest and darkest secrets. Only within the shadows I exist Within its velvety folds I await. For what am I that dwells within the darkness? Here I belong Here I stay The Lady of the shadows.

Friends
they are there for you sickness and love friends are there no matter what and they except us. they make us who we are and we are nothing with them. they can be enemies and apart of them family but know this that there your friend for life the get drunk with you they carry you and they pick you up after falling on your ass and embarrassing yourself but there real and don't judge you for being stupid they love you for being yourself. for every friend i have they love me for me and i love them unconditionally . friends are sisters and brothers and they feel like family cus they are always around but we love them friends make us feel better bout ourselfs. thanks friends.

Nothingness
wtf ever so you've escaped the vessel? wasted essence...like afterbirth discarded should have died just then when are you to be freed? what do you need? Fuck this life and godless strife there is no shangri la come along and pain with me you want only more fuck you and your delusion nothing is forever nothing such as pure this disgusting air we breathe just to live for seconds more why so we can be more whore? skinless and somnolent cobwebs in your happiness confess your sins there is no such thing punish you for laid to rest its all just fucking pointlessness wait for life to turn around it wont but still you stand hands bound fuck this death bed I wont pray take my wake as blessing escape from hell and live only better lat me die alone...need no guilt fuck you my life to take makie no mistake not selfish to be just who you are alone you are and scarred you are so whos to tell just what y

Ok This Has Gone On Long Enough
EVERYTIME I TURN AROUND PEOPLE SEEM TO WANT TO PICK OUT A CERTAIN GROUP OF INDIVIDUALS TO HATE ON JUST BECAUSE OF WHAT WE LISTEN TO OR WHATEVER AND FRANKLY IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT. I RESPECT ANYONES CHOICE OF MUSIC AND I DONT CARE IF ANYONE AGREES OR DISAGREES WITH IT BUT THIS HAS GONE ON LONG ENOUGH. THESE IDIOTS WHO CALL US OUT AND THEN PROCEED TO RATE US LOW OR RIP OUR PICTURES AND THEN HAVE THE LACK OF TESTICULAR FORTITUDE TO BLOCK US ARENT DOING ANYTHING BUT PULLING BITCH ASS TATICS REMINESCENT OF 12 YEAR OLDS(AND I WONDER WHY WE GET CALLED CHILDISH?).. AND PERSONALLY I SAY RATE ME LOW RIP MY PICS W/E MAKES YOUR DICK HARD BUT AS FAR AS IM CONCERNED AS LONG AS PEOPLE MISUNDERSTAND THE MESSAGE THAT THE INSANE CLOWN POSSE CARRIES IN THEIR MUSIC PEOPLE WILL CONTINUE TO HATE AND I REALLY DONT CARE ANYMORE BUT THEN AGAIN AS FAR BACK AS HISTORY GOES PEOPLE FEAR WHAT THEY DONT UNDERSTAND AND IF THEY ARENT OPEN-MINDED ABOUT IT THEN THEY WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO AS WELL...MMFWCL

Its Happy Hour-want Double The Pts?
YES ITS HAPPY HOUR. DO YOU YOU WANT DOUBLE THE CHERRY PTS? WELL I HAVE PLENTY OF PICS YOU CAN RATE, AND ALSO A LARGE STASH. SO COME ON OVER AND SHOW ADOPT A SODIER SOME LOVE AND I WILL RETURN THE FAVOR. Adopt a soldier. AKA **DJ ADAMS**@ CherryTAP

Battle Of Vimy Ridge April 9–12, 1917 Canada Remembers
The following was taken from a bulletin from Achilles, but its definately worth reposting in as many places as possible: The German army fortified it with tunnels, three rows of trenches behind barbed wire, massive amounts of artillery, and numerous machine gun nests. The French and British had suffered thousands of casualties in previous attempts to take it; the French alone lost 150,000 men in 1915.[citation needed] The Allied commanders decided to launch another assault in 1917. The duty was given to the still relatively fresh, but previously successful, Canadians. For the first time, all four divisions of the Canadian Corps were brought together. They were joined by the British 5th Infantry Division. The Canadian Corps' commanders were determined to learn from the mistakes of the French and British and spent months planning their attack. They built a replica of the ridge behind their lines, and trained using platoon-level tactics, including issuing detailed maps to ordi

Romance
is spent with somone you love by candlelight you hold her close to your heart so she can feel your heart beat next to hers she is so intrigued so she asks to feel the warmth of your body and you both share body heat for hours on end love is so senual and beautiful and is supposed to be shared by two loving people that love each other. you share and love and your cry that is the romance in a relationship. your supposed to be made special and beautiful your not supposed to be called ugly stick your head up and realize your in love

Single Once Again
Well i am single once again.. my bf broke up with me but i understand why he did it.. we are going to remain friends which what we should have started off as first before jumping into a relationship.. He doesn't want to put me through him being gone all the time cuz he joined the navy but i was going to stand beside him through it all.. Cuz from what i have learned thats what a relationship is all about standing by ur partner through the good times n bad times.. the bad thing is he wouldn't tell me when he was here.. he told me over the phone that he just wanted to be friends n everything.. thats what made it worse.. he said not to sound like an ass but im not going to cry.. i have alot going on n i think it would be best if we just were friends.. so who knows what will happen..oh well either way i will be fine..

My Fun Weekend
well, we went to the city this weekend. Dennis and I got along fairly well, and the girls had a blast hunting eggs and such. they looked so cute in their new little dresses. It was so much fun!!! They hunted for eggs, and got a TON of candy... it was much much fun!!! They had a BLAST with grammy lynda and aunt sarah!! other than that, things are goin pretty good~ stressed out~ this time of year always screws with me... my mom died 14 years ago on the 28th... it still screws with me... at least i have my friends :) anyways~ yeah, doin good, just been busy... sorry i haven't blogged too often! much love to you all!!

Thank You Thank You Thank You
THANK TO ALL THAT BOMBED ME IN THE MORPH CONTEST,IT WAS GREATLY APPRECIATED !! ** I WON WITH 16,430 RATES/COMMENTS ** SPEICAL THANKS TO "MORBID PRINCESS" FOR RUNNING A GREAT CONTEST. ALSO VERY SPECIAL THANK YOU BORICUA DADDY AND BLAZE ESPECIALLY.. YOU TWO BOMBED ME THE MOST !! MAD LUV A XOXOXOO

Joke #2
A lonely lady, aged 60ish, decided that is was time to get in a relationship again. She put an ad in the local newspaper that read: HUSBAND WANTED: MUST BE IN MY AGE GROUP (60's-70ish), MUST NOT BEAT ME, MUST NOT RUN AROUND ON ME, AND MUST STILL BE GOOD IN BED! ALL APPLICANTS PLEASE APPLY IN PERSON. On the second day she heard the doorbell. Much to her dismay, she opened the door to see a gray-haired gentleman sitting in a wheel chair. He had no arms or legs. "You're not really asking me to consider you, are you?" the woman said. "Just look at you! You have no legs!" The old gentleman smiled, "Therefore, I cannot run around on you!" "You don't have any arms either!" she snorted. Again, the old man smiled, "Therefore, I can never beat you!" She raised an eyebrow and asked intently, "Are you still good in bed??" The old man leaned back, beamed a big smile and said, "I rang the door bell, didn't I?" The wedding is scheduled for Saturday...

Pointless
I decided most holidays are pointless to me except for the following: Halloween Actually thats the only one that really matters to me...odd eh? I am becoming more anti holiday more and more each year Christmas and Easter are pointless to me because they are both religious holidays and seen as how I am not religious in any sort it is pointless to me. I am not some child anymore so there is no suprise with Christmas and nor so I care about Easter and getting candy and all that other shit. And generally that whole "spending time with family" thing comes up but not everyone has family they can see. In fact...is it just me or are holidays depressing?

An Appropriate Sunday Joke
A Priest, a Pentecostal Preacher and a Rabbi all served as chaplains to the students of Northern Michigan University in Marquette. They would get together two or three times a week for coffee and to talk shop. One day, someone made the comment that preaching to people isn't really all that hard. A real challenge would be to preach to a bear. One thing led to another and they decided to do an experiment. They would all go out into the woods, find a bear, preach to it, and attempt to convert it. Seven days later, they're all together to discuss the experience. Father Flannery, who has his arm in a sling, is on crutches, and has various bandages, goes first. "Well," he says, "I went into the woods to find me a bear. And when I found him I began to read to him from the Catechism. Well, that bear wanted nothing to do with me and began to slap me around. So I quickly grabbed my holy water, sprinkled him and, Holy Mary Mother of God, he became as gentle a la

Fly........
The night I met you in words only on a screen I knew I had to have you not only in my dreams! The words that we have shared have caused my heart to care At first I was a little frightened to share myself with you but you showed me ways to make my nights brighten You loved my body over and over again you took me to heaven and made me live again! I have come to want to devour you not just on this place but I want to touch your body and feel you near I want to hold you tightly not just in words but face to face: I want to pleasure you in all the ways we shared, I want to do things to you that others would only dare: I want to make our fantasies all come true for, babe, I want to fly with you

Please Read
my niece was killed in a car wreck saturday morning please keep us in your hearts and prayers she was only six years old and such a fun little girl to be around and she will be missed so much. i hope you will prayfor our family . her pick is in my pic under new if you would like to see her thanks for your love

Useless Part Ii
Sooooooo there I was minding my own biz getting ready for another fun filled evening with the boys ....... meaning preactice for them slow in the head people out there.. Haaaaaaaa. Anywho... I guess I shoudl rewind a bit and tell anoother story before this one... It was a cool day yesterday... but none the less there was a function we all said we would attend.. Javi's BBQ...... beer, Carne Asada.... and I'm talk the real shit... not the shit them Lions on TV have been pushin for TB.... Anywho ALL of us were to go.. but it seems that one of our Family has been trying to trun on us for some time......ironicly enough the same person to say I get pissed off all the time..... well none the less this person didnt show up to Javi's GT....... sad too.... we had alot of fun. Well this is where my story starts back up again. So if you are working for someone friend of not you try to do your best and be there on time and not take days off right? welll thats what I thought or maybe its just me

Don't Wanna Look
This dream bother Doug when I told him about it since I was still pregante at the time. I am laying in a room loungeing on a bed, when my eyes open. I watch Doug walk up to me, in his eyes I see a tears shinning thru his dead eyes. In his hands he is carrying a small black box with golden swirling designs on it. My hands tremble, my head shakes in a silent plea of no. Slowly he lowers the box and inside, i see the edge of a snow white blanket and a small limp hand clutching it. I wake up....

I Just Dont Understand Life Anymore.
I have spent so many countless hours do things for others. Yet in the end it seems like it was all in one respect or another for no reason. It goes absolutely un apprecitated. With a cold hearted turning of the knife in the back. I get blamed for being a reason one way or another. How is it? I am getting blamed when there is no way I could have done the wrong? With no remorse more than person has left me in the cold. WQhen I have cared so much for them. I do everything I can humanly do. Yet they project themselve like it didnt mean a single thing. What the fuck did I do so wrong? Why have I walked this earth doing all I can for others and then get shitted on for doing so? All I want is to lead a good simple happy life. I want to get married. Have a decent job. Have some children of my own and just be happy. Is that so Hard to ask? Is that so much to want? Cause I no longer Know. I do know that half my ct family has just recently dissappeared without any goodbyes or reason. Just left. Y

Hi
love can be said in different ways love is so wonderful in all types of ways love sometimes can be a waterful of tears love can be scary just like being in love tears are real and so is my heart beating for you you make me feel so wonderful inside and out i can't help but think of your lips on mine your lips are so senual and so sinful i think your just so beautiful when i cry you wipe my tears from my cheek you say i love you and we walk along the waterfront and make love

My Week With Hubby
Well the week started good, the weather was nice, and we really had some good days to get alot accomplished, then after a few days it turned cold, and couldn't finish what we wanted to. Hubby worked on my car and got the back shocks, transmission boot, and the front disc brakes done. The only things he has to work on now is my water pump, radiator, and head. He also got his new truck!!! We had that towed to our house and he got the part it needed, which was the control arm that hooks to the I-Beam and the tire. That took one whole day to get done, taking the old one off was the hardest cause it was bent really bad, but putting the new one on was easy! We had a good week together, got a lot of the things done that needed to be done, still have so much more. He had to call in on Friday to see when he was leaving and where he was going, unfortunately he had to leave Easter Sunday at 5 am :( ! Last night we had a date, something we haven't done in awhile, hehe. It was fun, we ate a good di

Changed My Isp
last week I changed my ISP and signed into a 12 month contract which I Cab Not break with out a huge penality cost ,,,The reason for this was my previous provider I was Limited in the amount Of down load allowed =15 gig this was continually beingused up by what I was continaULLY logged into " CHERRYTAP" yeah we all say so what its is adictive hey ..well this new ISP some how connects to the net differently and Now all i see is THOSE DREADED RED X"S in place of photos .wow some are so AWESOMS LOL SO ALL friends and any one commentting to me PLEASE FOR GIVE me that i can not view now photos no coment tags nothing here just read text ,the ISPhas investigated and emailed Cherrytap with a suggestion on ways to remedy /fix the problem ,,,,I JUST have to wait to see if they will fix ,,,,,,,,,,I KNOW i am not the only aussiethat has this problem and could be many others AROUND the world that has SAME problem using CT just i happened to be determined to get something do

Bubbles
I am in a giant white room that softly glows & pluses like it has a life of it's own. As I look around in wonder I see that the entire room is fill with thousand of thousands of bubbles. Some how I instinctivly know that in the reflection of each bubble lays a snap shot of a memory that it contains. If I were to think of a memory the bubble would float to me and I could replay it right there in front of me. Somethign catches my attention.....a shadow learking. I can not follow it but I try. As I think of a memory the shadow appears and the bubble burts. I stand there shocked, what was the memory? A single tear falls from my eye, as that tear hits the floor all around me the thousands of other bubbles suddenly burts and rain blood down upon me.

Another Update
well today wasnt that bad of a day. went up to annies parents house and had easter diner, then went to my families. first time my family actually got along...cant believe it. got some new pics of bubba up. they are all the same pic but i did some different stuff to them. he looks totally differnt thats for sure. rob came down and spend easter with me and my family then left tonight with the baby. im letting him have her for a week. figured it was only fair to let him have her a lil while. but besides that aint much else going on

I'm Bout To Take A Fuckin Trip Off This Hell Hole...
IM ABOUT TO PACK MY FUCKIN SHIT AND GO MAN AND ILL LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND ON HERE ...THIS SHIT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE IM SO SICK OF SEEING PPL SAY SHIT ABOUT OTHERS JUST BECAUSE THERE DIFFERENT...SO IM DIFFERENT IM A BDSM SLAVE,IM GOTHIC,IM A LETTE,AND IM WICCAN SO THE FUCK WHAT I WOULD WRATHER BE DIFFERENT AND HAVE PPL LOVE ME FOR THAT THEN TO LOVE ME JUST BECAUSE IM LIKE EVERYBODY FUCKING ELSE...THE WHOLE WORLD WOULD BE BOREING IF EVERYBODY WAS THE SAME ALL THE DAMNED TIME...WORE THE SAME THINGS ACTED THE SAME WAY ETC...AND TO PUT OTHERS DOWN JUST BECAUSE THERE NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IS JUST WRONG...GET A FUCKING LIFE DUDE INSTEAD OF PUTTNG OTHERS DOWN BECAUSE OF THERE DIFFERENCES EVERYBODIES GOT FLAWS SO DEAL WITH IT...I NEED OPINIONS OR SOMETHING ON THIS OR SOMETHIN SO PLZ COMMENT AND READ THANX ~ICE~

Strangeish Funny Dream
Ok. This was a strange dream that I had, sad part is tho it is fesable in a far out way. For those who don't know me I will let you know before hand whom is whom in the dream. Josh- Friend who is a tattoo artist Virgina- Josh's wife Doug's sister. Doug- Boyfriend & brother to Virgina We are in a giant basment, 3 men are chained up to a wall. There is a giant void like there were to be a 4th on the wall. Josh has the 4th person strapped in what looks like a old-fashion electric chair. Josh is tattooing a barcode on this mans inner forearm, the man is screaming. Doug is standing next to one of the men on the way, in his hands is a wicked looking cattle prod. I myself an sitting off to the side just watching all that is going on. Virgina walks in asking us if we wanted any tea & that dinner would be ready in 20 mins. Josh & Doug look at her & at the same time they say "We won't be done yet!" They complain. Virgina gives them the death stare. "I don't give a fuck, din

Dunno How
know i should walk away say goodbye, but damm he has my heart...and its breakin. so much to say to him but dunno how. i wanna stay but i wanna go how stuffed is that, his in my thoughts, my dreams, my world. How do i do it walk away say goodbye from somthing that meant so much. Tears fall often i sit alone trying to dry them wiping them away and they just fall more..... damm why did i ever start this yrs ago. Y did i let him have my heart and not just my head. im screamin out let me go but its not happening... i keep goin back lookin at his smile, feeling his lips, watching him day in day out.... where can i find the strength to say goodbye to a life i know that isnt good for me and start afresh. Its too damm hard so damm hard.... tears fall again he is so close yet so far so much to say and i just cant do it. im lost and dunno how

Sane? Insane? Moot Point!
I WAS POSED WITH THIS TOPIC, QUESTION, WHATEVER: If a woman suffering from a severe psychological disorder loses touch with reality and commits a crime, shoul she b punished? Present an argument for and against punishment. What if a chemical imbalance in a man's brain is linked to his aggresive behavior, which id later results in a homicde? Should that man be held accountable for his actions? What should happen to these people, and who should decide their fate? A jury? A judge? A clincal psychologist? Provie arguements supporting each of these three as the appropriate decision maker" FORGIVE TYPOGRAPHICAL ERRORS, AS IT IS JUST COPIED AND PASTED, HOWEVER.... this is my response. -ahem- Should a woman, or any person be treated differently merely because a lawyer "proves" them to be suffering a severe psychological disorder? Not in the slightest, killing is killing, whether done for duty, profit, or fun. If someone takes a life, a life is expected to be taken in return. However, ‘an

Wat Happend 2day
i found out what happened to my shoes & my clothes and other things, my uncle sonny took it and gave it to salvation army. well when i asked him about it, i said.. uncle sonny in my old house did you see a box of shoes, he said yeah i did i took it all and gave it to salvation army and i even cleaned out your room, and the basement. its like 1/4 cleaned now. im thinkin WAT DA FUCK! HOW DA HELL R U GONNA ASSUME, I DONT WANT MY THINGS ANYMORE, any pls he could of ask my thos r my things, n HOW DA HELL IS SOME1 JES GONNA TAKE UR THINGS AND GIVE IT AWAY N NOT EVEN TELL U ABOUT IT, WAT DA HELL IS DAT. its crazy, my day has been crazy. now i kno how it feels to be robbed. n u kno wat he didnt even say sorry, all he sed was oh i didnt kno u still needed that.

Moving Out Party !!!
ATTENTION ALL MY FRIENDS WITH TRUCKS, BIG CARS, BIG MUSCLES: I GOT AN APARTMENT ON POWERS DRIVE IN NEW KENSINGTON THAT IS NEAR MARTIN SCHOOL ON THE HILL UP FROM VALLEY HIGH SCHOOL....NOW I HAVE TONS OF THINGS THAT I NEED TO MOVE INTO THE APARTMENT AND WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE ANYONE WHOM OWNS A TRUCK, HAS ACCESS TO A TRUCK, WOULD LIKE TO HELP ME MOVE IN OR JUST WANTS TO BE A PART OF MY MOVING PARTY TO LET ME KNOW IF YOU CAN HELP ME OUT ! NOW WE ARE TENTATIVELY SET TO START MOVING BY THE 19TH OF APRIL, HOWEVER THIS MAY BE CARRIED OVER UNTIL MAY 1ST, IF YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW CAN HELP ME OUT, I WILL NOT ONLY GREATLY APPRECIATE IT, BUT I WILL ALSO BE FEEDING ANYONE PARTICIPATING WITH THIS MOVE! SO IF YOU GUYS AND GIRLS REALLY LOVE ME...PLEASE COME HELP ME AND MONTE OUT !!! THANKS ALL, MUCH LOVE !!!!

New Lounge
ok ya'll I made a new lounge feel free to come in and have an open mind talk about anything that teaks your mind bitch and complian and in genral rasie hell but be nice to other users the topic of discussion will not be limited to one subject

College
so yea anyways dont know how this fucking happnd im a vrgn in college taht shits just fucked up. anyone that know any college chciks that help me with my prob it be apriceated reply back to this or message me if u could peace thanks

This Is One Hatin Ass Little Shit Headed Fuck Nut
THIS MOTHER FUCKER IS BEIN A BITCH TO PPL AND DOWN RATING THEM BECAUSE THEY'RE LO'S OR LETTE'S SO THE FUCK WHAT I AM...AND I GOT NO SHAME IN IT SOMEONE NEEDS TO TELL THIS FUCKER OFF...HERES THE LINK PLEASE COMMENT =/ Who are you? Oh thats right youre nothing to me@ CherryTAP

Wrecked Muh Truck....
Looking at the photo's of my wrecked Blazer, I still cannot come to grips with how I managed to be alive, and with no serious injuries. How do you flip twice, and still be here? Of course, I am a hurting unit..thats not to say I didnt suffer any inuries........My seatbelt was on.. but I dont think thats the only reason why. Just who was in the truck with me? I had no passengers, at least not that I knew of. HE was with me. I didn't know it at the time, though. I wonder what is in store for me? HE must of saved me for something more in my life. There has to be more.... Was it just karma for good deeds in my past?, and did I use it up that night? Am I going to have something great in my life come to me? How was I picked out of so many that night that were in similar accidents?....Why was I chosen? Do you think I think too much about it? I should just let it go, and be THANKFULL to HIM.

Adopted
Been thinking lately about the shock I felt when I found out I was adopted. Kinda hard on the system, when you live to be my age, and find out. I found out after both my adopted parents had passed away. My brother knew and had made a promise to my father that he wouldnt say anything until both of them were gone. I wonder why? Did they think I was that fragile, that I couldnt handle it? Yes.... they were right... But, I think I could have handled it better if I was told when I was a child, and not an adult, who now has no life history. I mean, who am I know? I am not the person that I thought I was/am??...Un-nerving to say the very least. I love my adopted parents for wanting to love me and take care of me/us (** my brother..who is also adopted-from a different biological mother). We both were adopted as newborns, if that makes a difference.?? Mom was a great photographer and a shutterbug, so I have tons of photos of both my brother and I as teeny tiny babies and us b

Balance
Balance Between the man I am and the man I want to be. There is a thin line I must ride like a rail. For the results you see are not just mine alone. People are watching, of that fact I am well aware. Some are friends with fingers crossed saying prayers for me. While others watch with bated breath waiting for me to fail. To them I say , I fear you not for I am not your silly clone. I choose fatherhood and friendship my heart is to big not to care. I AM provider, teacher, brother, and friend. I LONG to be giver, taker, sharer, and even lover to some special woman. I see a magic foundation one with four strong corners. With such a foundation of stone would I then dare to leap at a chance. Will there be a day I don’t live in fear my heart will rend? Will there be a lady at the center accepting me as her man? And what of those pushing me to fail, must I always defend my boarders? Like a shining knight ready to fight with my armor and my la

Video Killed The Radio Star
I heard you on the wireless back in Fifty Two Lying awake intent at tuning in on you. If I was young it didn't stop you coming through. Oh-a oh They took the credit for your second symphony. Rewritten by machine and new technology, and now I understand the problems you can see. Oh-a oh I met your children Oh-a oh What did you tell them? Video killed the radio star. Video killed the radio star. Pictures came and broke your heart. Oh-a-a-a oh And now we meet in an abandoned studio. We hear the playback and it seems so long ago. And you remember the jingles used to go. Oh-a oh You were the first one. Oh-a oh You were the last one. Video killed the radio star. Video killed the radio star. In my mind and in my car, we can't rewind we've gone to far Oh-a-aho oh, Oh-a-aho oh Video killed the radio star. Video killed the radio star. In my mind and in my car, we can't rewind we've gone to far. Pictures came and broke

Ugh
i haven't been around the tap that much lately 'cause this past week i went from working 40 hours to 72 so to all my friends...sorry if i haven't talked to you recently. send me a message...i'll try to get back to you y'all take care

Ha. Damned Winamp.
This song is depressing me. *nodnod* Innocent When You Dream Lyrics » Tom Waits The bats are in the belfry the dew is on the moor where are the arms that held me and pledged her love before and pledged her love before It's such a sad old feeling the fields are soft and green it's memories that I'm stealing but you're innocent when you dream when you dream you're innocent when you dream running through the graveyard we laughed my friends and I we swore we'd be together until the day we died until the day we died It's such a sad old feeling the fields are soft and green it's memories that I'm stealing but you're innocent when you dream when you dream you're innocent when you dream I made a golden promise that we would never part I gave my love a locket and then I broke her heart and then I broke her heart It's such a sad old feeling the fields are soft and green it's memories that I'm stealing but you're innocent when you dream when you d

Happy Easter !!!!!
HOPE EVERYONE HAD A HAPPY EASTER.I SURE DID WE GOT TO CELEBRATE ONE MORE BIRTHDAY WITH MY GRANDMOTHER SHE TURNED 90,BUT SHES IN THE LAST AND FINAL STAGES OF CANCER.BUT EVEN THROUGH THIS SHE IS STILL HAPPY AND THE BEST GRANDMOTHER ANYONE COULD HAVE.WE HAD HER PARTY YESTERDAY,AND A BIG FAMILY DINNER TODAY AND ALL THE LITTLE ONES HUNTED EGGS AFTERWARDS,IT WAS ALOT OF FUN AND IF WE DONT HAVE ANOTHER EASTER WITH HER WE HAD A GREAT ONE WITH HER THIS YEAR.

Love Will Not Die In My Heart, No Not Mine
She was the promise of love in a familar place. My fingers full of longing, fire, and desire. Close my eyes so happy with my wonderous find. Open my eyes there it is her lovely face. I reach for her to find nothing but mist, an empty pyre. Love will not die in my heart, no not mine. -Shawn

Come Show Your Support For All These Bad Ass Women Who Are Battleing Breast Cancer!!
MY SIS-IN-LAW AND VERY GOOD FRIEND HAS BEGUN HER FIGHT WITH BREAST CANCER!! THERE IS GOING TO BE A BENAFIT SHOW FOR HER AND ALL THESE BAD ASS WOMEN WHO LIVE AND FIGHT THIS CANCER.COME SHOW YOUR SUPPORT APRIL 28TH AT THE LONESTAR COUNTRY CLUB IN COPPELL.SHOW YOUR SUPPORT AND SEE SOME BAD ASS LOCAL METAL BANDS!! FOR MORE INFO LET ME KNOW OR YOU CAN CHECK OUT WWW.MYSPACE.COM/DONNAPALOZZA ~KRIS~

Another Day Has Dawned
Another Day Has Dawned Current mood: awake Another Day Has Dawned by Timothy Bostick Amidst our chaos and confusion; Amidst our anguish and despair; Amidst our never-ending questions and blame; … Lies a world of lessons. Through our tears and astonishment; Through our hopelessness and depression; Through our anxiety and grief; … Lies a world of shame. For it is our world that is responsible; It is our world that allowed this sadness; It is our world that has lost its youth; … And it is our world that needs to change. It is a warning for those who would isolate it; It is a warning for those who would bury it; It is a warning for those who think it will not touch them; … It is we, who need to address it. For this is the birth of our own generation; This is the birth of our own problems; This is the birth of our own past mistakes; … It is we, who needed to watch over them. A new generation who have hopes an

Hunger
There is a darker side to me that I must Tether. I must keep him locked in the darkness to howl. He has a hunger to run wild but he must not. Suddenly SHE appears, like a siren with so much feminine power. A true vision of womanly beauty wrapped in soft leather. He is awake that dark beast full of rage he crashes against the cage with a growl. He asks why do you keep me, your LOVE and LUST locked in this cell to rot? With a husky voice he continues if we may be so bold..... And she accepts would the moon not turn to gold? Would not her soft touch, longing kiss, and love be worth every ounce? NOW LET ME OUT OF THIS CAGE SO I MAY RUN AND POUNCE. With a sad shake of my head, my LOVE and LUST again you forget denial. For one so new to us, our heart SHE is already so near. A friend, a companion, a voice guiding us from the dark. Do you not fear the loss of yet another so very dear. No my LOVE, my LUST, and I stay in the cell with our hunger so

Alone
A star hits and fades As love soon does in my heart Another then another I toss them aside They go back to their computers and video games I find that I'm always second to a machine They buzz and whiz and swirl They don't give the love that I do or can I am still alone with that urge to kill the machine Let it stop and have time for them to know me And me know them I am still here All alone No one to love No one to love me the way that I love in return Spend a lifetime to compete with a machine Spend a lifetime with ones who don't love me I think that I'd rather just be alone

First Kiss...
As our lips get closer, my eyes begin to close This moment... so long I have waited Then my heart stops, breath cease,and knees start to fold And the kiss, in one word... greatness... It last for seconds, but feels somewhat endless While we're locked in temporary bliss Like the key to the lock that secures our freindship Is what is felt when I picture this kiss... And as our lips grow distant, I awake from this dream Our eyes both filled with amazement To experience a kiss... so pure and so clean That you have no way to explain it.... Nemesis of Nazerath

Fraile
The mind is a fragile yet beautiful part of life, As well is the heart exceptionally more fragile, therefor no one should toy with another persons heart nor mind because in a functional basis neither one is any good, nor can they funtion without the others presence. In conclusion I recieved some news today that put me back in a spot that I thought id be done with. I have heard that me heart is being tooken from me again. So I am feeling like I can't funtion properly, I again have to figure out a way to heal again, the trials just keep coming, and I am running out of ideas. So what to do I have no idea..... Im Lost!!!!

13 Questions...
If I asked you out, tell me would you say yes? Would my charm win you over? If we got intimate, could I help you undress? Would you let me kiss on you shoulder? If I touched you soft, would that make you shiver? Would goosebumps grow deep from your bones? Or if I bit your lip, would your legs start to quiver? Would you moan once I reached your zone? Tell me ...could I take your breath, in ways that you've never seen? And if for some reason I was your best, would you tell me the truth indeed? Would you tell me when you've reached your peak? There's a couple more questions to ask... If I asked these questions, would you speak? Or would you show me the cold hard facts? Nemesis of Nazerath www.myspace.com/nemesis1979

Drama
I can say that drama is something many participate in others seem to think its fun. Fun is hanging with friends chatting listening to tunes working on postives laughing but for me drama hos can pack it a sack and carry their happy azzes away from me. Id rather help someone clean their pc up from an infection or be with my honey than to sit and listen to or be part of drama!! I used to be ornery to "Drama LLamas" bores me to death now. It was fun to talk smack to them now Blah!! Pe@ce OUT

Hey!!!!!! Look For Me
My husband bought me a blast that is suppose to be active now. If you happen to see it, let me know ok. I just want to make sure it is actually out there and that somebody sees it. I may not end up seeing it. Thanks!

Obsession... Part 2
Just when you thought our sexcapade was finished And you took time to catch your breath We kissed, hugged, and cuddled, until our strength was replinished Then engaged in round two of sex... I lay you down softly, and the kissing continues As sensations rush to your brain With passion, I place my ten inches in you And the sheer pleasure drives you insane... There's no better feeling than flesh on flesh Our temperatures rise by the second In and out, as you moan to me...yes And you reach your peek...no question... I remain in your body as my climax is reached My love muscle explodes like a volcanoe Then we smile as that feeling we searched for is breeched When your obsessed, baby how can you say no... Nemesis of Nazerath

Do It Or I'll Bite Ya
PLEASE COME AND HELP MY FRIEND OUT SHE IS STILL MAKIN FRIENDS HERE ON CT AND HAS ENTERED INTO HER FIRST CONTEST!!! LETS GET HER THE WIN!! It is beginning THE BIGGEST SMART AZZ ON CT Meet the contestants. Innocent Brat Contest Rules This is a comment bomb contest. Contestants can bomb their own entry. Down-rating is not permitted. This contest will end at 9:30PM Eastern Sunday April 15th. (repost of original by 'Wild Horse ~DJ Jousters Court~' on '2007-04-08 18:33:45') (repost of original by 'Innocent-Brat~~CLUB FANTASIA GREETER~~' on '2007-04-08 18:37:56') (repost of original by 'Wild Horse ~DJ Jousters Court~' on '2007-04-08 19:10:26') (repost of original by 'Innocent-Brat~~CLUB FANTASIA GREETER~~' on '2007-04-08 19:16:27')

All Family/friends/fans
Hi Everyone, I've entered a Sexy Lady Contest that will run until April 12th, to try and win a Cherry Blast. I could really use alot of help, and I would really APPRECIATE anyone's help with comment bombing. If you can't bomb me, then can you please at least repost this bulletin for me? I would REALLY APPRECIATE any help I can get. Here is my link below. Please click on that and it will bring you straight to the contest. Thank you so much. Hope you all have a wonderful Easter. Hugs {***AngelEyes***} of ~~~AngelFamily~~~

"is This What Life Is All About?"
As I lay here in my dark, and lonely room, filled with sadness , and with gloom. I listen for your breathing, but it's not there. I reach to touch you, but touch only air. In my heart is a loneliness that I alone must bare. I feel all around me there is no one who really cares. So, forgive me if I must cry out "Is This What Life Is All About?" to feel so empty, and cast out. Where are the ones who said they cared! Where are the ones who said they would always be there! So, as I lay here in my dark, and lonely room , filled with sadness, and with gloom. Forgive me if I must cry out, "Is This What Life Is All About?"

Death Is Real
When I look around, All I see is blackness. Bleakness, nothingness. Is anything real? Is anything real but this Pain that I feel? Death. Death is real. Cold morbid death, A release from the pain. A release from earthbound torments That wrack this body endlessly. Merciful death. If only I could catch you up, And snuggle cozily in your warm embrace. Death is real. Death and pain, And of the two I choose death. A ceasing of being in this forsaken barrenness That we call life. Death is real to me. Maybe too real it might seem. (c.)(2007) By KC Z.

Is This An Adult Site?
What I think are reasonable claims for less and more stringent "interpretation" of NSFW rules in particular cases etc. (were I a bouncer which I am not. Etc. sigh. ...) could be made but I have seen an argument made in favor of dropping the whole kit and kaboodle, as I recall- "this is an adult site". Erm. One has to claim that one is 18 or older to have an account here, and therefore to see tagged images, blogs, etc. (Tagged blogs are visible to people not on one's list, I found, but not to people who've chosen in their profile preferences not to view NSFW material, and not to people who aren't logged in to their account!) One does not have to be logged in to an account to simply type in www.cherrytap.com and see any material in public areas of the site, and that's an argument for keeping that material restricted to unrestricted viewing- to what would be willing to see viewable by the public. True "adult sites" under law at least require one to certify that one is 18 or ol

My Broken Heart
This touched me when I read it Current mood: calm More like it made me weak in the heart, I HAVE HAD MY HEART BROKE.... My eyes are dry, no more tears to shed. as I lie here tonight, in my lonely bed. I close my eyes, and I start to dream. your warmth beside me, or so it would seem. my body shivers, it remembers much. the feel of your lips, the warmth of your touch. the look in your eyes, that set me aflame. the passionate way, you whispered my name. the warmth in your eyes, that never deceive. the love in your touch, I came to believe. the feel of your body, pressing to mine. the surge of need, as our bodies entwine. your sweet gentle words, your hands on my skin. the need growing stronger, as you touched me again. my eyes slowly open, as the tears start to fall. I awake from the dream, you've left after all.

Anything
I just wanted you to know, That you can have me again. Just tell me where to go, And you can have me again. Whisper my name into my ear, And you can have me again. Tell me what I want to hear, And you can have me again. I am wrapped around your finger, So you can have me again. All you need to do is linger, And you can have me again. Spank my ass and pull me close, And you can have me again. Hand to me a sweet, sweet rose, And you can have me again. I know you never loved me, But you can have me again. You always treat me ugly, And you can have me again. You call me your little whore, And you can have me again. You know I'll come back for more, And you can have me again. Slap my face and pull my nipples, You know you'll have me again. Give me that look that gives me chills, And you can have me again. Call me a whore and spit upon me, And you can have me again. Lie and cheat and beat up on me, And you can have me again.

Commissioned Poem
Hope for a new life 6/17/02 An actual poem I was commissioned to write for a friend’s theater class where she had to create and perform a play. The play was about a girl who after being the target of harrassment by fellow students takes her own life. Oh cruelest fate which put me here, A land of pain and mocking jeers. A place which destroys all hopes and dreams, Takes away all pleasant things. Three Divas tear away my soul, Kill any chance to take control And now I have no other choice. This is the only way the world will hear my voice. Oh gentlest death: come comfort me, Bring an end to such cruelty! For you are the only one who knows How hurtful are their jeering echoes. With this blade I bid this world good bye, And maybe find a better world in the sun bright sky.

That's It, I'm Moving
alright, i just received a text from someone who i thought wanted to date me and shit, but you know what. She text me(forget fucking calling me)to tell me we should be friends. I hate ths sorry state(sorry to those of you whole like texas). I"m gonna sell my shit, and I'm moving back to florida. I'm tired of dating, trying to get out of debt and everything else. I'm just gonna stick with alcohol, music and that's it. Hell, I couldn't get laid if i wanted to. I'm better off alone and.......I don't know. I'm out, laterz Redneck

Stonehenge Amulets Worn By Elite
Stonehenge Amulets Worn by Elite Jennifer Viegas, Discovery News April 6, 2007 — Forget dressing for success: Clothing ornaments thought to confer supernatural power were all the rage among chiefs and other important people in England 4,000 years ago, say scholars. A recent find indicates some of these fashion trends might have originally been designed by Stonehenge leaders. While working two months ago in South Lowestoft, Suffolk, British archaeologist Clare Good excavated a four-sided object made of the mineral jet. It closely matches a geometrically designed gold object found far away at a burial site called Bush Barrow near Stonehenge in Wiltshire. The match is so close that experts believe the black artifact is a skeuomorph, or a copy in a different material. Good, who is with the Suffolk County Archeology Service, told Discovery News that she made the discovery while investigating the remains of a probable funeral pyre dating to 1900-1700 B.C. The funeral pyre,

Thunderbolt Storm Chasers
THUNDERBOLTSTORM CHASERS Needing your help to keep us going strong this year!!! As the gas prices go up we have yet a harder time getting to were the servere storms are!!! We are there if we can be and want to be so that you know whats going on!!!! Weather plays a big roll in our daily life and it could destroy everything we have and know of!!! This year is predicted for more tornados and huricaisne that normal!!!! This means that there is a realy big chance that it could happen to you and your family!!! Storms that hit link this and realy detroy everything you have can realy cause death and we know how you dont want to loose the ones you love because of this!!! So the help you give will do alot of good!!! Go to the home website shown bellow and look for the donation button!!!! There is no set dallar amount and you can give anything you can and wish to!!! That means even a dollar if thats all you can help out with!! Your help will be more than welcomed and

Im Alone
this is my blog for the day the first one on cherry tap... im thinking of giving up on love ive tried and tried to find it. i either keep screwing it up, finding someone that uses me, even finding someone way far away from where im at, and even finding women that are married, than i have these women that dont know what they want. its crazy.. when is it my turn will it ever happen? i know alot of people say this shit but i really dont think it will happen. i dont know what i do wrong or what is wrong with me but it seems like i cant do it. so whatever its life and life sucks most of the time and this must be the time it sucks cause right at the moment i hate life. i just cant deal with this shit anymore. i spend my holidays mainly by myself besides my family.. have a good day

Friends???
To everyone of my friends I thank you for adding me on cherrytap.... I try to speak with all of you no matter how big or small my list is.... However I do appologize for not being on too much beause I am going through alot and well planing my grandfathers 70th birthday party... I am going to be starting a new job come tommarow and I am going to be beat at least for the first week or two so please have more patience with me....thank you and again I am greatful to be friends with each of you!!!!Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

This Is Why
This is why I’m hot. I’m hot cause I’m fly. I do it the Cali way. They like the way I dress. I keep it so clean the way you see me lean. Chicks around the way they call me cream of the crop. They say I’m the bomb. They love the way I charm.

Naughty
1. Your Name:? 2. Age:? 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Have sex on the first date? 15. Would you kiss me during sex? 16. Do you think I would be good in bed? 17. Three sum? 18. How many times would you like to cum? 19. Would you use me as a booty call? 20. Do you like fore play? 21. What is fore play to you? 22. Can we take pictures of the act?

My Birthday Wish: I Wanna Be A Rock Star!
for my birthday.... If only I could reach the status of being a Rock Star by then. My birthday is on April 13th. Can you help me make my goal???? During last week, I reached the Ninja Cherry status. That created the hurdle of obtaining over 74,000 cherry points. Tonight, I am at only a little over 55,000 cherry points to go. Do you think that my friends can help me get to a Cherry Rock Star by Friday. Six days, less than 10,000 points a day. Shouldn't be too hard. What do you think???? LOL... It may be the closest I ever come to being a rock star!!! :D Thanks, in advance, to anyone that helps me to be a Rock Star for my Birthday by the 13th of April!! Devine TxRose@ CherryTAP aka Kat

I Guess Im Country
some time ago some one put a bulletin up about being country . well no were on it did i see the werd out house . when i was little we had to shoval our way to the out house in the winter we didnt have running water . you had an old hand pump in the sink .you had to boil the water to take a bath , no tubsit was a wash bassen .you heated your home by fire wood , i meen i know i lived out in the hills of havlock but noon of this was in ther description of country . does that meen im a hill billy .lol.

Sex Servey Tell Me What You Want !
1. Your Name:? 2. Age:? 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Have sex on the first date? 15. Would you kiss me during sex? 16. Do you think I would be good in bed? 17. Three sum? 18. How many times would you like to cum? 19. Would you use me as a booty call? 20. Do you like fore play? 21. What is fore play to you? 22. Can we take pictures of the act?

Sunday Morning Ramblings
Thinking back a couple of years ago when I lived in town I would always sit under the carport late at night in the summertime. We lived on a little cut off street that ran into main street and late at night I would watch the STREET WALKERS doing their thing..lol..Oh yea! even in a small town we have them to.There was a Pentecostal church that was one house up from me,which at the time a friend of mine was the pastor ,his name is George,,,{George rides a harley he is pretty cool},, he is also a retired MIL. Chaplin and he had this thing about underlineing verses in the bible for me to read about the HINDI beliefs.He never could understand why I took so much interest in learning about it..Heck Sometimes I wonder myself..One thing I loved messing with his head..lol.George liked to freaked oneday when he asked why I did not go to church and my words were...Well George I can go 4 different ways in my life right now and from right here ..{1.}I was raised Southern Bapist,{2}I live next door t

A Single Standard
The poetry that I am blogging is from a book of my Grandmother's work that I published in her memory. Any and all the royalties that come in from the sales of this book are being donated to the American Cancer Society and to the research into the cause and cure of Alzheimer's and Dementia. http://www.lulu.com/tisdaled A Single Standard Why not a single standard A right for one and all I won’t be placed upon a stand To break, perchance to fall. Thus cries youth in anger Love creeps in and then We hear a single standard Asked by youth again. Love grows strong, life goes on The single standard too Baby comes, we wonder if The standard will ring true. The standard holds, babies arms entwine Around the heart of youth Time goes on, in life and love Youth is learning truth. The answer youth is learning Is an answer to us all There can be no single standard Where there is a babies call.

Help Please
Im running a contest, well trying to actually. But everytime the enteries friends try to vote its marked private. I dont know how to get it off of private. Anyone that can help please do. It isnt right for the men in the contest to not have their friends be able to vote.

Hmmm,,we All Conform To The Template Of, "i Am Me
I Do Unusual Things So I MUST Be Looking For Attention.. Well Damn, is that what it is?... All this time, I've been looking for attention... Hell, I just thought I put the eek!, in freak... lol Conform to nonconformity... Eric Hoffer:: Nonconformists travel as a rule in bunches. You rarely find a nonconformist who goes it alone. And woe to him inside a nonconformist clique who does not conform with nonconformity. Bill Vaughan::: My thoughts must conform to the rest of my nonconformist self; if not, they refuse to conform to nonconformity, thus conforming to conformity!

To A Wanderer
The poetry that I am blogging is from a book of my Grandmother's work that I published in her memory. Any and all the royalties that come in from the sales of this book are being donated to the American Cancer Society and to the research into the cause and cure of Alzheimer's and Dementia. http://www.lulu.com/tisdaled To A Wanderer Home is the spot where our heart is A palace of gold or a tumbledown shack Tho we’ve wandered afar on the road of life When we’re weary, we’ll always drift back To the streets where we played in our childhood To the pals that we used to know And we’ll wander again down the lane Where as sweethearts, we used to roam. Tho the scenes have all changed, and the people too For our pals have all drifted away But they, like us, will all come back To the home of their childhood some day For no one has wandered too far down the road To heed not the call of home And once he returns to familiar scenes He never again will roam.

Oh Shyt,,soapbox Time
Big Daddy Bush is huffing and puffing because he is not getting his way,and for once I hope congress will show him that he is not the God he thinks he is.. We, as the people of the united states need to take a stand for once instead of doing our little bytching among ourselves where it dosen't do shyt,,I mean for once get off our dead asses and do something,,Anything!!.. We sit back and moan and groan about our Husbands,Sons,Brothers,Sisters,Wives,Daughters,Dads, get sent over to Iraq.{I know that feeling very well because my husband spent a year in Taji,Iraq}..We watch the fear and hurt in our childrens eyes as they watch their mom/dad leave.Now to sit here and listen to Bushes threat of if he does not get the money he needs, then our troops will not get the training they need...SO WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??? Does it mean that he is willing to risk the lifes of the ones we love anyway??..Sounds like that to me... When are we going to say enough is enough??We have a voice ,,damn we nee

I Want
The poetry that I am blogging is from a book of my Grandmother's work that I published in her memory. Any and all the royalties that come in from the sales of this book are being donated to the American Cancer Society and to the research into the cause and cure of Alzheimer's and Dementia. http://www.lulu.com/tisdaled I Want I want to live a life sincere I want someone to love me dear I want some fun, a bit of sorrow I want a dream, to live tomorrow. I want to laugh, I want to sing I want the joy a tear can bring Only these, I ask, and trust That God won’t feel, I ask too much.

Angel Prayers
ANGEL PRAYERS The little Angel knelt and prayed for all the trees and flowers she prayed for all God's creatures for sunny days and showers. But most of all she prayed for us to share our love and faith to try and make a difference among the human race She prayed for truth and wisdom For mankind everywhere to choose wisely with their hearts and show the world they care She prayed for understanding between natio

Clubbing :)
ok just got back from clubbing the night away as is 3am here and god was it a good night thanks to the twins whi where ALOT of fun the their friend and to the crazy lady who wanted me to tease her and anoy her boyfriend or someone well it worked and alot of fun was had by all and of course thanks to kdog ben glennda and sandy for having a great night and to next weekend hope you all are having fun too and stop by to say hi if you want btw ive have a few too many drinks so it might be a very random chat if you do any way have fun :) tp xxx

Looks
ya no when i was younger i ran after women like candy .allways some thing sweeter comeing up . but now im just a little older and well i see things diferently . dont get me wrong i still love a sexy women but that dosent always mean her looks .some times its the way they make you feel or the way they treat you . all women to me are beautiful in ther own way , so dont just rate them on looks alone . but if they want you to be just a little nasty hay funs fun right .

Giving
The poetry that I am blogging is from a book of my Grandmother's work that I published in her memory. http://www.lulu.com/tisdaled Giving A crust of bread to a tiny bird Will never be missed by mankind And the songs that they sing For that crust of bread Will bring tears to eyes, to blind. Blind, to the joy of giving If but to a tiny bird Whose heart almost bursts As he sings his thanks In this troubled and weary world. If we, like the birds Could learn to sing And learn the art of giving This world would be a better place And life would be worth the living.

Look Twice
I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves. But, you didn't see me, and my brothers donate our old coats and glov

Why
The poetry that I am blogging is from a book of my Grandmother's work that I published in her memory. http://www.lulu.com/tisdaled Why Loving you was madness It did things to my heart Turning blues to gladness We lived a world apart. Losing you was sadness My heart keeps asking, why Love so sweet as yours and mine Could fade so quick and die. You may hurt me, you may spurn me Yet, you’ll always be a part Of a dream I’ll live forever In the secret of my heart.

Story Time Part 2
As he licked and nibbled on her hot wet core she could feel the little storm coming. He could tell as well so he grabbed a hold of her hips and licked faster and harder. When the storm broke she lifted her hips up and just shivered and he took all of her juices. Then as the last of the after shivers stopped, he turn his lips and tongue to her nipples and she found herself moaning once again. Then when her nipples were nice and hard he flip her over on her tummy. As he did he slipped member into her hot wet core. As he did she moan and let out a soft husky sigh. As he slipped in and out of her wet core she could feel herself getting hotter with each thrust he made. As his thrust picked up she could feel another storm on it's way. He could tell that another storm was on the way and he could tell also that she was fighting to keep a hold on it. So he bit her om the back of her neck and pinched her hard nipple. She could tell by his bite that he wasn't going to let her hold on to

Rectum Inspector
THE RECTUM STRETCHER: While she was "flying" down the road yesterday (10 miles over the limit), a woman passed over a bridge only to find a cop with a radar gun on the other side lying in wait. The cop pulled her over, walked up to the car, and with that classic patronizing smirk we all know and love, asked, "What's your hurry?" To which she replied, "I'm late for work." "Oh yeah," said the cop, "what do you do?" "I'm a rectum stretcher," she responded. The cop stammered, "A what? A rectum stretcher? And just what does a rectum stretcher do?" "Well," she said, "I start by inserting one finger, then I work my way up to two fingers, then three, then four, then with my whole hand in. I work from side to side until I can get both hands in, and then I slowly but surely stretch, until it's about 6 feet wide." "And just what the hell do you do with a 6 foot asshole?" he asked. "You give him a radar gun and park him behind a bridge..." Traffic Ticket: $95.00 Court Costs: $45.00

Poetry
Alone this time around, Push me around push me up and push me down, Laying in a bed as empty as my heart, Trying to get my feelings out but I dont know where to start, No calls to see if I'm okay or even alive, I've lost everything my strength and my stride, No strength to go on living this way, Tears falling from my eyes like rain every day, If theres a cure for this disease please let me know, But until then i'll stay facedown in my pillow, What did I do to get a death penalty such as this?, Is there some road to happiness that I missed?, My lifes like a rainy day, But the rain never goes away, Filled with clouds dripping depression and blocking the sunlight, Staying awake sleepless and cold during the night, Im living a lie trying to be happy but I'm breaking on the inside, Every day only gets worse like a small piece of me dies, Could you help me get better maybe be my medecine?, Nevermind I realized being wi

Another One Of Them Nights
I'm tired of when I"m out, getting pushed around and all. If shit keeps up, I'm gonna move. This state I live is is a sorry excuse for the south. That and it's not home. I don't get along with the women here(or so that's how is seems). I've already started to down size. I've sold 2 of my cars. I only got one car and a pickup now (the car is for sell $1700 obo). I just wanted to get that off my chest, maybe I'll actually be able to sleep. I might need the help of the beer cooler. Ya'll take care. Redneck

Love
love is more then a word sometimes never herad love is more then glence or a smile that will enhance love is more then a feeling that sends the senses reeling love is more then a mere kiss that onces planted you always miss love is more then a need that time will only feed love is more thena wanting that keeps the emotions flaunting love is more then life a feeling that cuts deeper then a knife and healed by a caress or a touch of tenderness for love is you and me

Family
family - mommy, daddy, children - & white picked fence. thats the way god meant it to be. when we fuck that up - there is nothin but pain and suffering for ALL members involved. how does one deal with the guilt - of being the ONE that fucked it up? ?

Keep The Comment Bombs Cummin Got 2 Girls On My Tail Still In The Lead Though By Only A Couple Hundred ;-)
THE LIPS CONTEST IS ONLY FOR THE WEEKEND AND THE OTHER ONE I FELL BEHIND IN BEING SICK ALL WEEK :-( IM IN THE SEXY LIPS CONTEST AND ALSO WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST.. HERE ARE THE LINKS IF YOU GET AROUND TO HELPING OUT THAT WOULD BE GREAT ;-).. SEXIEST LIPS CONTEST WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST THANKS FOR YOUR HELP IN ADVANCE MICHELLE AKA HOOVERGIRL COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED SO COMMENT TILL YOUR FINGERS HURT ;-)!!

Liz Phair...flower Lyrics
LIZ PHAIR | Flower Lyrics Every time I see your face I get all wet between my legs Every time you pass me by I heave a sigh of pain Every time I see your face I think of things unpure unchaste I want to fuck you like a dog Ill take you home and make you like it Everything you ever wanted Everything you ever thought of is Everything Ill do to you Ill fuck you and your minions too Your face reminds me of a flower Kind of like youre underwater Hairs too long and in your eyes Your lips- a perfect suck me size You act like youre fourteen years old Everything you say is so Obnoxious, funny, rude and mean I want to be your blowjob queen Youre probably shy and introspective Thats not part of my objective I just want your fresh young jimmy Jamming slamming ramming in me Every time I see your face I think of things unpure unchaste I want to fuck you like a dog Ill take you home and make you like it Everything you ever wanted Everything you ever thought

I Have The Coast In My Eyes!
Sittin alone I slowly get stoned Jus passin time Until I'm at home I have the coast in my eyes I have the coast in my eyes. Take me away I look up and pray Wishin it done Not a thing left to say I have the coast in my eyes I have the coast in my eyes. Sun on my face feels your embrace Be with me now Hearts all ablaze I have the coast in my eyes I have the coast in my eyes. Mmmmkay!! This was totally off the cuff. I get wierd like that sometimes. hehe You know, ever have a little ditty runnin around in your head ya can't seem to get rid of?! This was my ditty! Hope ya liked it! hehe

~april 4, 2007~
THE DAY SEEMS TO BE LONG AND THE NIGHTS ARE EVEN LONGER I MISS THE DAYS THAT WERE FILLED WITH THE LAUGHTER OF A HAPPY FAMILY THE CHILDREN PLAYING OUT BACK WITH THEIR PET DOG AND CAT ME IN THE KITCHEN FIXING OUR EVENING DINNER AND YOU IN YOUR ARM CHAIR WATCHING THE NEWS OF THE DAYS EVENTS OUR LIFE TOGETHER WAS NOT ALWAYS THE HAPPIEST OF TIMES BUT I KNOW I MUST HAVE LOVED YOU VERY MUCH I WOULD PRAY FOR THE DAY WHEN YOU WOULD FEEL LIKE THE MAN I ONCE KNEW THE ONE THAT LONGED TO HAVE A FAMILY OF HIS OWN I KNOW LIFE CAN DEAL YOU TOUGH TIMES JUST REMEMBER THAT WE ARE NEVER ALONE EVEN IN OUR DARKEST HOURS I KNOW I CAN COUNT ON A LOVE FROM ABOVE THAT IS WHAT WILL SEE ME THROUGH THE CHILDREN ARE ALL GROWN NOW AND MY LIFE IS SOMEHOW ALL DIFFERENT I LIVE A LIFE WITH NO PARTNER OF LOVE BUT THIS IS NOTHING THAT I CANNOT BEAR A DAY WILL COME WHEN THE WORRIES AND LONLINESS FADE INTO MY DISTANT MEMORIES A LIFE FULL AND COMPLETE I WOULD HAVE HAD IT NO OTHER WAY

"something's Missing"
I'm not alone, I wish I was. Cause then I'd know, I was down because I couldn't find, a friend around To love me like, they do right now. They do right now. I'm dizzy from the shopping malls I searched for joy, but I bought it all It doesn't help the hunger pains and a thirst I'd have to drown first to ever satiate Something's missing And I don't know how to fix it something's missing And I don't know what it is At all When autumn comes, it doesnt ask. It just walks in, where it left you last. And you never know, when it starts Until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart: Something's missing And I don't know how to fix it something's missing And I don't know what it is At all I can't be sure that this state of mind, is not of my own design I wish there was an over the counter test, for loneliness. For loneliness like this. Something's missing And I don't know how to fix it Something's missing And I don't know what it is No I don

Woot, It's Fucking Easter! Who's Got The Hammer And The Nails?
As a point of ethics, I do not celebrate Easter. Christmas. Thanksgiving. Or really, any other holiday, come to mention it. Mostly out of ethics, but also because I simply don't find any of these days more special than the next, or the last. They simply are. But, my point of ethics is; I am not a hypocrite. Easter and Xmas are Xian holidays (as well we know), and as I am a nihilist, or an out and out athiest for those who cannot process nihilism, it would be inappropriate for me to celebrate these holidays in any context. It would be h y p o c r i t i c a l for me to celebrate them, and I do my best to not be a hypocrite. Also, I have a minute speck of respect for these religious blokes, and I'm not going to hinder their fun, I'm going to sit off to the side, smoking cigarettes and watching Captain Kangaroo. Nonetheless, I can feel quite festive, and this is one of those moments, so here are some Easter tidings from Bill Hicks and Eddie Izzard. -ahem- But, not in that order.

My Unoffical Lifes Rules And Laws By Me
Its scary how religion can be such a gap in people and how people can insult my religion as being nothing but a heiracy so heres some of the rules and laws i live by. Live to honesty for honesty is the best virtues in personal life and others around you will respect you for it. Respect and show honor to all that show it forth for this will show you are the stronger person streangth comes from the humble. Honor and respect your ancestors for they are what brings you your wisdom good or bad we all learn from all actions that have been taken so honor and learn much. Learn to forgive for anger and hatred will only lead you to being broken and filled with weakness for those whom hold hate are weak at heart. Learn to help all around you for in the sharing streangth is born from those whom show care, honesty and humilty. learn to accept we as people are not the same and learn to accept all for we are all people and we all want the same, to live as we want and worship as we w

Anyone That Can Help Me?????
FOR SOME REASON I CAN LEAVE COMMENTS ON PROFILE BUT CANT ON MY CONTEST ALL IT KEEPS TELLING ME IS THIS Error: you've reached the daily photo comments limit for your user level. AND I'M BEHIND ALOT IF YOU COULD PLEASE STOP BY AND RATE ME AND BOMB ME I WOULD BE VERY GREATFUL MJBLETTE FAILED TO TELL ME THIS CONTEST ENDS TOMORROW AT 5 PM EST WHICH I JUST GOT INTO NOT KNOWNING ITS ONLY A WEEKEND CONTEST LMFAO YES I BLAME IT ALL ON HIM SO ANYONE BORED WITH NOTHING TO DO LMAO PLEASE COME HELP ME OUT..I KNOW ITS EASTER AND I WOULD UNDERSTAND TOOO... http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=39861&albumid=301542&i=1417039013 MAKE SURE YOU YELL AT HIM NOT ME LMMFAO LOVE SWEEET DESTINY

So Touching
Subject: So touching When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a small hospital near Tampa , Florida , it was believed that he had nothing left of any value. Later, when the nurses were going through his meager possessions, They found this poem. Its quality and content so impressed the staff that Copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital. One nurse took her copy to Missouri . The old man's sole bequest to Posterity has since appeared in the Christmas edition of the News Magazine of the St. Louis Association for Mental Health. A slide Presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, Poem. And this little old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is Now the author of this "anonymous" poem winging across the Internet. Crabby Old Man What do you see nurses? .What do you see? What are you thinking......when you're looking at me? A crabby old man, .not very wise, Uncertain of habit .with faraway eyes?

"it Can't Get Much Worse" Vs. "no One Should Ever Feel Like..."
So uncomfortble in my own skin. Can I barrow yours for a while and see if it feels like home? No.. I thought not. Its been broken for too long. Bind myself back together with bent nails and rusty staples. Im out of bandaids and superglue. Its futile to put the peices back together, when its too fragile to exist. Is this my face or just another mask? Another lie? Another fake? Another recreation of me? How can you tell when your real? Alive? Breathing? Synthetic is simple, your awareness of such is gone. Where is the line between you and them? Rip yourself appart Peice by peice Time and time again.

The Breathing Sound
I'm in my bed. There's nothing wrong. Everything's fine. I'm safe here. It's just my mind playing tricks on me. Have you ever heard the sound of someone breathing? Well try imagining it for a second. Okay. Now imagine that your really, really small. Now imagine that your in a small box. And not only that, but it's also dark. Really, really dark. Now imagine the sound of breathing in the box and it's loud. Really, really loud. Got it? Good. Cause guess what? Surprise! You're not in a box, you're in your room! And surprise again! The breathing's so loud because it's coming from under your bed! Woo hoo! Now, repeat after me. "I'm in my bed. There's nothing wrong. Everything's fine. I'm safe here. It's just my mind playing tricks on me." Hey ... Surprise... You're NOT safe. Nope not at all. That thing that you "think" you're imagining? It's really there! *nod nod nod* So have you got a good idea of this in your head now? Good. Because this is exactly what I went through for wee

The Revised Daily Fagalo List
By all means stop by each and rate them a 1 be sure to block them afterward. seems the fagalo gang dont like straight men that laugh at them. *warning dont rate 1 if you dont intend on blocking all of them* http://cherrytap.com/user/674554 http://cherrytap.com/user/410775 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/314581 http://cherrytap.com/user/747552 http://cherrytap.com/user/413595 http://cherrytap.com/user/442915 http://cherrytap.com/user/49358 http://cherrytap.com/user/291503 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/757838 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/671036 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/756210 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/758486 http://cherrytap.com/user/690015 http://cherrytap.com/user/658773 http://cherrytap.com/user/663198 http://cherrytap.com/user/160709 http://cherrytap.com/user/766375 http://cherrytap.com/user/651933 http://cherrytap.com/user/225251 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/786604 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/235069 http://www.cherrytap.com/user/247757 http:/

Men Vs Women
When everybody on earth was dead and waiting to enter paradise, God appeared and said, "I want the men to make two lines, one line for the men who were true heads of their household and the other line for the men who were dominated by their women. I want all the women to report to St. Peter." Soon, the women were gone, and there were two lines of men. The line of the men who were dominated by their wives was 100 miles long, And in the line of men who truly were heads of their household there was only one man. God said, "You men should be ashamed of yourselves, I created you to be the head of your household! You have been disobedient and have not fulfilled your purpose! Of all of you, only one obeyed. Learn from him."God turned to the one man, "How did you manage to be the only one in this Line?"The man replied, "My wife told me to stand here

Adrift
its been a forgtnight since ive been set adrift at sea. tossed out here like bait for some great beast. oh and i can here it rummbling like a massive thud thud thud, churnin' up the water beneth me. a goliath levithen come to take whats due. me thinks it will take me whole. one mighty maw comming up from the darkness. i sit, light me pipe with the last match and wait.

Flowing
a destionation has been reached. a puzzeled look from my salty mates. Dive I say Dive! and deep we will go. gently though, least the shakes take ye all the way down. into the darkness we plunge feelin' the water go cold as the north water. there in darkness is a great hulking mass. one great mast stll pointing ye to the heavens. four others lay broken and disheveled from their natural mooring. a ship grand in it's day now sleeps in a dark watery tomb. adjustin' to er glowin' windows barely lit i take me crew for a closer inspection. just's out of reach of the crusted sides is observed the din of music and sound of merriment. faces of men, dirty, haggard but joyfull dancing, eating ,drinking, taking inventory of a job well done. and one man watchin all from a stately chair at the head of a greatly filled tabel, a familar face to place though. as me crew give way with more puzzeled looks i motion for them to follow. down and to the aft we go. stopping to view a massive hole, a gapping ma

Come
Now hear this... its time, my water lovin' friends, to cast away yer land lovin' legs. Time to head on down to the salty blue depths of the warm currents. Rum is being shipped and all else is in season. so move yer lard and make haste, least ye be left behind to bake dry in the hot summer sun. Ye all be fools to stay topside. acrid air and stale brezze will reap the life from thy bones and sow not a singel seed. all to be left is dust.all wood to crumble.All metal to rust. So I be implorin' ya, come with me. we'll swim and be free.

You Knnow What?
i see myself as your CT wifey and i cant help but think that, that's all i'll ever be. you say you love me. yet you push me away? i just don't understand you, and probably never will.. just know that i do love you, even though your playing games.. you say things, but i never know the truth. you dedicated a song to me, but now you pull away i'll just never understand your true feelings, i guess i never will..

~poetry~
POETRY ARE WORDS THAT COME FROM WITHIN THEY ARE PIECES THAT ONE WRITES TO REFLECT THE EMOTIONS THAT STIR IN THEIR SOUL EMOTIONS THAT ARE EXPRESSED THROUGHT PEN TO PAPER OR ANY OTHER MEANS THEY ARE OFTEN PUT IN BOOKS OR JOURNALS STUFFED IN A DRAWER WAITING TO BE DISCOVERED SOME WORDS ARE PUT TO MUSIC AND SOME ARE READ OR RECITED SOME ARE SHARED AND THEN THERE ARE THOSE THAT ARE NEVER READ

Help....
I do not feel much of a big brother at the moment... My parents are in bad enough shape. This responcability falls on me yet at the same time i am in no shape to help at the same time i feel the drive to ... what am i to do? how can i be of help when i am of no help to myself >.< i cant do this i am going to lose it , i am gunna crash i know i am but i cant too many need me too many depend on me and being okay... I'm so tired i just want to sleep, I cant fight my eyes and things are starting to get blurry.. Its getting harder to type now i cant really see the keyboard. I think i'll pass out before i end up with keyboard face... Athrun

Miss Me?
My computer puked, had to do a system restore therefore deleting all my saved passwords and I couldn't remember my password or screen name to log in with so I haven't been on and that's why, it's been a long month! For some reason I just kept guessing and remembered so I'm baaaaack :)

Lack Of Sleep Makes For Interesting Conversations
conversation #1: sinmora: hes making fun of my style cunt me: wu-tang cunt style? sinmora: lmao sinmora: what exactly is wu tang cunt style sinmora: fill me in me: its where your vagina is so big, the hole looks like the wu tang logo? sinmora: lmao sinmora: I hate u fucker me: hahaha me: stretched out and a droopy clit to match... so whenever someone with a wutang cunt walks all you hear is "WU WU WU" coming from their naughty bits me: or you see a method man bobble head coming out of the snatch sinmora: OMFG sinmora: Yeah u have issues sinmora: u scare me a tad me: why because i invisioned a method man smiling bobble head coming out of some girls vagina? me: when haven't I had vagina issues me: like i just told kel... me: "and I'll try to be nice as again I was pretty caustic that weekend and im usually not that obnoxious hahah :p... that is unless your thing has teeth and attachable/detachable tenticles... then I dont think we can be friends anymore... :p" me: mo

* World Soul Awake *
WORLDSOUL AWAKE ...is the existence of Terra on fire with Love -- Aion 131 I INVOKE THE WORLDSOUL THE ETERNAL EYE THAT SEES ALL THE MEMORY OF BILLIONS OF YEARS I INVOKE THE GROUPMIND THE UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS ONE HEART, ONE DESIRE, ONE MIND I ENFLAME THE GROUP UNCONSCIOUS TO CONSCIOUSNESS TOTAL SELF AWARENESS NOW! ONE BEING ONE CONSCIOUSNESS ONE THOUGHT NOW! I DEMAND JOY THROUGH THE UNITY OF MANDKIND I DEMAND PEACE FOR THE BEAUTY OF GROWING THROUGH THE BIRTH OF THE ONE MIND ONE! I DEMAND FREEDOM FOR ALL BEINGS TO DO THEIR WILL IN THE DANCE OF TAO INNER STILLNESS PLAYING IS THE BETWEEN PATH I AM PLAY I AM THE STAR WITHIN THE SYSTEM OF STARS I AM EARTHED-LINK IN INFINITE CHAIN-MEMORY OF CHROMOSOMAL INSTINCTS I AM NOW ONE IS NOW ONE ALL WAYS MUST AWAKE NOW! .MATAS.

Personality
i was born a loner brought into this world of light but raised in darkness shadowed by enemies of torture. darkness has blanket me for years of protection with unlimited fearless strength of imagniable that light can not touch when facing an enemy of both good and evil. i have been trained to know the darkside even though the ligth has always been my backdoor to shine my understanding of preservance. the light only has been my guide to see things at a great distanct and reach out with patient reflection while darkness has been my guide to see things upclose distance as in engaged weaponizer to evade any threat by all means necessary and hindsight of gift perfection with a flaw seen through blindless weather its good or evil. The light may be bright enough to blind the colors of life that create camoflogues but in darkness has always been invisblity of life destroying camoflogues. darkness has mistreated me in ways for my acceptace to become stronger in the light. in the light i am

Okay
I don't like this "new" you. It's probably the dumbest thing ever. "I'm fat and you're mean." I've told you ten thousand times my body is mine and who ever is willing to commit [sp?] to me, and you aren't willing... that doesn't make me mean... that makes me classy. yes, i had sex with someone... i hate that fact that i did. every day. every time he IMs me with his bullshit, or calls me when i'm not online to see if i'm "avoiding" him. i fucking hate what i did. and i fucking hate how you are. we're even. you like sending your nudes to people. i don't. i love my body. i respect my body. it's MINE. not yours. you could make it yours, but you won't. so fuck you.

Ok This Is My Contest Update
my contest ends on the 15th at 8p.m. and it began on the 4th so now i am really needing help to stay up, please stop by and show support thank you to everyone who already has. and thank you to everyone who is!!! much luv to ya "showin"

Cherry Tap Hates Me
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You See, It's Up To You!
One song can spark a moment, One flower can wake the dream. One tree can start a forest, One bird can herald spring. One smile begins a friendship, One handclasp lifts a soul. One star can guide a ship at sea, One word can frame the goal. One vote can change a nation, One sunbeam lights a room. One candle wipes out darkness, One laugh will conquer gloom. One step must start each journey, One word must start each prayer. One hope will raise our spirits, One touch can show you care. One voice can speak with wisdom, One heart can know what's true. One life can make the difference, You see, IT'S UP TO YOU!

Mere Words
I searched among the card displays, To see if I could find, A little something that would say Just what was on my mind. However there was not a one, That captured it just right, For no one else can understand Just what I'd like to write. I even find it difficult To try to write it down, For how do I portray to you, The love that I have known? I close my eyes and what I see, Is someone I adore; A person who is beautiful, Right down into their soul. Mere words cannot describe The many qualities you show, The love and caring nature that You share with those who know. Your kind and gentle temperament, Your sweet angelic smile, Your softly spoken sentiments, That reach across the miles. Your smile and laugh that sparkle with The softness of your sigh, The way your face lights up a room ... That twinkle in your eye. The loving gestures, That quickly come to mind, For always you've a gentle word To calm and soothe I find. I struggle and I search

How Horny
You scored as Very horny. You are very horny. You have a lot of desire. You get hard or wet very easily. Be careful to not let your sex drive go too far. Please rate and comment and tell me what quiz this is when you do!Very horny100%Super Horny75%Normal Horny50%A little horny25%Not horny0%How horny are you? (with pics)created with QuizFarm.com

The Double Sided Coin (stated Here In "lost Inlife")
Lost in Life Lost My Life is done My Life is through. you took my heart now its gone all i have is a kiss & hug to say goodbye. As I say goodbye through the clouds above you. Remember Ill always watch over you. You are here i am gone but in you heart i live on, Lost in limbo not knowig what to do. I turn and see a set of gates as they beckon me through. As i pass through remember me as i was when you met me. My darling im sorry for what ive done today is the last you will see of me. Ill be on high watching over you so plz dont cry for im in your heart baby.

Time And Time Again
Well my friends its Easter again. I time of the year were we celibrate the joious time of Hame and turkey and those little chocolate eggs. Happy Easter to you all, may you and your families and friends be safe and have a wonderful day.

The Night.
"No. Please," She cries as he ties her wrists to the bed post. "Please don't do this," her tears soaking the pillow on which her head rests. It's dark, except for one light in the corner, but it has something draped over it making it cast only a murking shadow. The man is dark. She can't see his face, he's just a shadow in the dark. Nothing but darkness is around her. She doesn't know where she is or how she got there. All she remembers is being grabbed from her car and breathing in something that smelled very bad before passing out. "Why is this happening to me?" She asks herself as the man in shadow breaths against her neck. "If you struggle things will only get worse," he whispers in her ear before he trails his knife across her tear stained cheek, nicking it slightly. "Please...why.....please don't" she sobs. Her cheek feels like it's on fire, but the sensation on her cheek is lost when she feels the knife at her throat. "What did I just say," she says inches from

Sad Times...
I have been thinking alot about Woody lattly, I was making a stash and most of the songs in there ended up being from his funeral. I dont know why this still bothers me so bad so many years latter, It seems like I should be over it by now but I guess I'm just not... It is always hard to loose someone you love but it's really hard when it's so unexpected, we all knew he had a brain tumor but he was so young we never would of thought he wouldn't even get to graduate. The day he died will be in my brain forever, playing on the school playground and he fell, I was younger then so I didn't understand at the time, they took him to the hospital and he was there for 2 days before he died, I will never understand why this happened to him. Most kids would go trick-or-treating for candy and he always went to earn money for the needy. He was so young yet so grown up. I will always love and miss you Woody!

Another Side Of Me
If only I could leave this awful place and find the tranquil waters of the sea to swim with your abandon and your grace and lead your life so simple and so free. But I must travel through life as a man, as restless and as angry as a storm. I seek out and I find peace where I can but, to my human nature, must conform. What must you think of me out here afloat just looking on, your captive as you play? Upon this large and slow and clumsy boat, if you could speak my words, what would you say? They say you dream of men, perhaps you do. But, in my fondest dreams, I dream of you.

"always Say A Prayer (a.s.a.p.)"
What a wonderful new meaning for ASAP. "Always Say A Prayer (A.S.A.P.)" There's work to do, Deadlines to meet, You've got no time to spare, But as you hurry and scurry, Always say a prayer. In the midst of family chaos, "quality time" is rare. Do your best; Let God do the rest: Always say a prayer. It may seem like your worries Are more than you can bear. Slow down and take a breather Always say a prayer. God knows how stressful life is; He wants to ease our cares, And He'll respond A.S.A.P.; Always Say A Prayer!

Just A Thought....
I heard something to day that made me kinda laugh! Someone told me that love was suppose to hurt. Well I was always taught that love was not suppose to hurt and if it did then maybe it wasn't meant to be!!! The last I knew love was supppose to make you feel like you were happy and floating on air and nothing in the world could ever come between that. I know that there are up and dopwns in all relationships but not to the point that you have to break up everytime it happens... So this is how I see it... The man or woman that is worth crying over will not make you cry!!!

Love X(
my love life is the worst in the world. the one guy i actually liked just completely tore me apart. i thought i had a chance, but then i was proven wrong and got stabbed in the heart. someone let me know i'm loved, cuz right now i feel so lonely and unwanted.

Destiny
I'm not here to follow crowds. To make waves. To follow pre-set trails. To blaze new ones. I'm here to live a life. Maybe pre-destined. Maybe new at each turn. Maybe a dream and maybe still just a moment being daydreamed soon to be ended by a hiccup. But either way... I'm merely one grain of lava-hardened sand staring morosely and longingly out into a brilliant sunset, wishing to join that grand painting that fades into a black canvas with the falling of one circle and the rising of another. Or... The wind dancing through pines. Conveying the secrets of earth and time and creation to a universe that will never listen. Mingled fluidly and without definition into the billions of things touched upon my journey. But always, always, always... Reality is a looking glass. We...the reflection. A crack, a divet, a little water, turning the glass this way or that...we control our realities. But we don't control the perception. Unless, perhaps... The perception...IS the reality.

~conversation With Alyssa~
~Conversation With Alyssa~ Current mood: peachy Category:Life Patrice~ok baby, look up Alyssa~ok Patrice~what do you see? Alyssa~lol...the sky mom Patrice~*smiles* exactly Patrice~It's huge Alyssa~well yeah Patrice~its like my love for you Alyssa~how? Patrice~its never ending sweetie Alyssa~*smiles* and hugs me! Patrice~ 'thinks' *this is heaven*

Rob
To Year of the Dragon and Razor, Good afternoon. I do hope you are having a great Easter. I, as you can see, have to work. I have read your blurb about avoiding being bounced from the mumms, and decided that you were just the critter I needed to speak to. I contacted 5 bouncers yesterday, all with the same message, which follows... Howdy, User http://cherrytap.com/user/681563 has taken my primary pic, adulterated it, and is using it as HIS primary pic...as an insult. Is that something I just need to deal with? He's been blocked for ages, but apparently can still rip photos. Thanks, Gene Only two of these 'bouncers', all of who were on line, bothered to reply at all. BOTH replies were to "block the offending user. We can't get involved in member disputes." So much for the theory that the bouncers DO read what is presented to them. In every posting window, this statement is posted... NOTE: If you post content that is offensive, adult, or NSFW (Not Safe

What We've To Believe In
In silence, we hear the stifled wails of dying children. Those delivered unto the hand of Death...infants, toddlers, those unborn. It's a cacophony of white static...a low roar like a distant ocean at high tide. In darkness, our eyes pick out the writhing bodies of tortured innocents. Young, mutilated, starved, depraved and maddened by the betrayal of those most trusted and those most believed. And we...we continue hoarding our defenses and crowding the lines. Masses. Throngs of eager, hungry, misanthropic zombies. Shoulder to shoulder. Awaiting the awakening. Eating the flesh of their flesh. Tearing greedily into whatever poor soul dares to come to close. Molesting, raping, pillaging the playgrounds and the ones who should have seen only the light. Their stone-deadened eyes a permanent black scar within their sunken faces. Green sun rising and setting on a chrome-and-silver land. Slick oil rain gently falling from the jagged, bitter skies. The screams and shouts of some unat

* Nexus Of Horus / Maat * Elevenstar Working *
* NEXUS OF HORUS/MAAT * ELEVENSTAR WORKING * * Elevate Your Soul * - There and Back, download near complete. NEXUS OF HORUS/MAAT RITUAL 131* 12/3/95 Needed: Feather, Crystal, Chalice, Red Candle, Wine 0. Banish: Silence. Cast a circle with feather counterclockwise with black flames that banish chanting: LUTIS NITRA........... 1. The Center: Light the candle with pure light manifesting, chanting: AUM......... HA! 2. The Circle: Pass the candle from hand-to-hand clockwise casting the red-flame circle, with each pass everyone chanting: ABRAHADABRA........ Candle back on altar. Pass the feather around, hand-to-hand, each peering at the flame through the feather, all chanting: IPSOS.......... 3. The Uniting: All touch the base of the chalice with their left hands, see it glowing with ultraviolet light, all chanting: AGAPE........ Without moving the left hands, all pick up the crystal together using their right hands, see it glowing with infra-red light, al

Fav Tattoo Contest
Hey everybody, I'm in a fav tattoo contest that runs until next Sunday. I need all the comments and rates possible. Thanks e who help, it is greatly appreciated. I will try to help all those who help me.

He Speaks
He Speaks He speaks my head lowers my eyes lower my voice lowers my soul soars He approaches my pulse quickens my heart pounds my body trembles my nerves electrified He touches me my body shudders my sex swells my knees weaken my mind explodes He owns me my head is high my esteem rises my heart swells my joy complete ~dayna~

Happy Easter
Today was one of the best days...Got some TERRIFIC news...And my sister is finally home for good and happy at that news...AND..Everything is going my way so far in my past problems... Heading to a party tonight since its Brents 23rd bday and there is going to be lots of men there...Heck ya!! I miss you also Matthew...But i dont no if i am ready to jump right back into being how we were as best friends again...You know what i mean and i hope also that we can be friends again soon when i can forgive.... Jay..Im sorry

About The Real Me
THIS ONE IS A LITTLE DIFFERENT FROM ALL OF THE OTHERS THAT I HAVE DONE..THIS HAS BEEN A HARDER ONE TO DO THAN ANY OF THE OTHERS THAT I HAVE DONE..THEY ALL HAVE A PIECE OF ME IN THEM..BUT THIS ONE IS MORE ABOUT MY FEELINGS,AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT THINGS..IT IS A LONG ONE WITH A LOT OF MUSIC SET WITH IT..SO IF YOU'LL JUST BEAR WITH IT AND LISTEN THEN I THINK YOU WILL PROBABLY GET TO KNOW THE REAL ME..THATS WHY ITS BEEN SO HARD TO DO..ITS EASY WHEN YOU JUST PUT BITS AND PIECES OF YOU IN THINGS..BUT WHEN YOU TRY YO PUT THE WHOLE THING IN IT GETS HARDER..WHEN IT COMES TO FEELINGS ESPECIALLY..THE MEETING OF OLD FRIENDS AND NEW FRIENDS..THEY ALL HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART AND ALWAYS WILL HAVE..

Tainted Love
Sometimes I feel I've got to Run away I've got to Get away From the pain that you drive into the heart of me The love we share Seems to go nowhere And I've lost my light For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night (chorus) Once I ran to you (I ran) Now I'll run from you This tainted love you've given I give you all a boy could give you Take my tears and that's not nearly all Oh...tainted love Tainted love Now I know I've got to Run away I've got to Get away You don't really want IT any more from me To make things right You need someone to hold you tight And you'LL think love is to pray But I'm sorry I don't pray that way (chorus...) Don't touch me please I cannot stand the way you tease I love you though you hurt me so Now I'm going to pack my things and go Tainted love, tainted love (x2) Touch me baby, tainted love (x2) Tainted love (x3)

Stresses Relieved
So I no longer have a 23 yr old disabled mother of 3 all living with me anymore.. So now I can focus on myself, my baby and my baby daddy.. lol that really sounds funny!! Hoppy Easter!! Just been trying to relax and have fun! Enjoy being prego and enjoy not having a newborn just yet without taken care of other peoples kids.. We are still looking for ladies to model with cars.. If neone is interested please let me know!! Until next time.. I will add more pics of myself.. and my sonogram pics.. *always*

Bcuz Of U
I NEVER WANTED 2 LIVE 4EVER BEACUSE IN MY MIND LIVING DAY 2 DAY WAS BETTER, NOW HERE I AM LOCKED UP IN THIS HOUSE, AND THE ONLY THOUGHT THAT MAKES ME GRIN IS THE THOUGHT OF BEING BACK BY YOUR SIDE AGAIN.I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE IN LOVE BUT NOW I WISH I COULD JUST HAVE U HERE 2 KISS AND HUG ALL MY LIFE,THE THAT I AM NOW IS BEACUSE OF YOU BABY.I WOULD GIVE UP EVERYTHING IF THAT MENT THAT I HAFE YOU IN MY LIFE

Bananas
Bananas... This is very interesting. After Reading THIS, you'll NEVER look at a banana in the same way again - Bananas. Containing three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber, a banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy. Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout. No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes. But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet. Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana. This is because bananas contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body converts into serotonin, known to ma

Wats On Your Mind?? **thought Of The Day** Comment & Rate
The Gathering "The best defense is the best offense" wat good used of strength when u discover u have nothin left. u look deep inside ur soul and search the bowls of debris weakness that had strength crumbled. little pieces becomes a puzzle ready to be solve but instead becomes a profile of classfied emotion combine with control that will access a list of reaction from all points of directions. a unity is form. the depth of every great strength of loss regenerate into no hold bar pheneomon. its mindless it knows and understand pain but doesnt feel it, it has no communication barrier watsoever but to its own only bound by command and authority given, its only pasion heat signature build a cupid relationship to laughters with tears anxious with calm, creation with destruction, right with wrong, hot with cold, rage with joy, and love with hate. wat good is use when someone who sworn to faith depending on the expecting or unexpected when they forsake instinct trust knowing when they h

Death
Saying goodbye is never easy It's the hardest thing to do But what hurts even more Is not the chance to say it to you. Yesterday is just a memory Our laughter was sunny and bright Then clouds started to gather For you were no where in sight. You were my first real love And this I will never forget How you left without a warning No good-byes, my only regret. Wherever I may be now Always searching for another so true To place my world of emotion Handing my love to someone like you. If again I must go there And experience all the pain I would do it in a minute For all the good I would gain. No matter what my wrongs You offered only love Until the day you left me For your new home up above. I know you still are with me Your love is within my heart Though life is no longer present Our souls will never part. This is given to you in honor Of all that we did share I just wanted you to know, dear, How much I really did care.

* Identity Integration *higher Body Merger - Identity Embodiment - Frequency Accretion * Higherbodies * Family Tree Of Consciousness *
********************************************************************************************* Identity Integration ********************************************************************************************* (Higher Body Merger - Identity Embodiment - Frequency Accretion) ********************************************************************************************* The process of the higher body (Hova Bodies) merger and Identity Integration is the intrinsic process of human evolution through time. (see: Shields) If one can understand that the goal of At-One-Ment with our Source is achieved through merging the higher bodies and identity levels, the process of achieving At-One-Ment becomes clear and easily achieved. As the identity progressively merges, with the eight higher bodies (Family Tree of Consciousness), the identity creates a progressively expanding scalar grid as the levels of identity expand into integration. (The Tangible Structure of the Soul–

Poem 10 - The Joker
Black Smiling Lips Dead, Whit Skin Black Diamonds Around the Eyes There's Darkness Inside It's head Jingles With Rage A Smile That does So Decieve It Laughs In the Night He Brings Terror to Others Lives Amusement that Leads to Death A Power to Make You Forget All Misery That Likes Company He's Coming For You Watch Out for the Joker There's No Escaping His Rage!!!!

Poem 9 - The Darkness Within
The Darkness Within - There's a darkness within to which only some can see, A look in my eye's opens a gate to who I really am. Hiding what's inside has become all too easy, I'm seen as naturally a good person, But there is where they go wrong. The darkness feeds off of everything I hold inside, With the state i am in now, I can't let my feelings out. I'm an atrophy in myself which can never be cured, The darkness seeps in my veins, Making me what I am destined to be. Those that can see through me know how dangerous I am, I feel sympathy for them for they now know my madness. The secret that's held can make them go insane, Telling of it brings a fate that I cannot even say. The majority that can't see can go on with their lives, Living the life so many work to accomplish. What i know will nevercome to surface, Gradually I change so that no one will ever notice. Like a frog in a pot of water, It doesn't notice it getting it hot, It doesn't notice the chang

Poem 8 - My Dreams
My Dreams Dreams are what keep a man sane, They are the one of the only things that can't be taken away. When I sleep I am free, I enter a world that sometimes i wish I cannot leave. Dreams bring me peace and make me exstatic, They keep me in reality and true to myself. Some are good, but some can be horrific, But they are mine and no one elses. They can't be invaded and are of no one elses concern, Dreams are keys to gates unknown. They can take you anywhere you wnat to be, I'm completely in control of what goes on. They can make you the person you longed to be.

Poem 7 - Fear
To Fear is dead so I must not, It beaks a man down and creates a knot. It kills the soul and makes a man hide, Everywhere i go, fear will ride behind. It will follow me until the day i die, When the day comes my life will fly. Maybe someday I can break it down, Then it will leave and I will wear the crown. To conquer ones fear is a big challenge in life, To overcome it and stab it with a knife. It will gang up against me with all it's got, But i must stay stron and unravel it's plot. The ice I am walking on is running thin, The further I go fear is trying to get in. Someday I will look fear in the eye, I'll look so hard it will want to die. My fear has created so many things in my mind, My Rage it brought out and my Rage it did find. It created a weapon that will bring it's end, It's the only way I consider Anger as my friend. I leave now with a message to fear, Beware my Rage - Have i amde myself clear?!

Poem 6 - Loneliness
Loneliness Precious as life, hazardous is Love. I loved again, and the bomb dropped again. Too good to be true, she deserves more. What I gave wasn’t enough, and happy she was not. Fighting was all we did, little but too much. Innocence was taken, trust was never given. To love without trust, is to live without love. Blind to the truth, I am cursed to live life alone. Apologies can be said many ways, but it’s not enough to fix my faults. Take me back, take away this pain. I can be better, no fighting and more attention to give. Similarities we share, we are too much alike. The memories will remain, tearing through me like a knife. To Touch and to feel, to comfort and to hold. I fucked up again, the tears run again. I love her so much, only she can take away this pain. If there can’t be love, there’s no point to live. I hope the next person gives her more, she deserved more than me. hello and good bye, Soon I will burn, then I will fade away. Hello loneliness, I am

Poem 5 - What Do I Do?
What Do I Do? Pondering on the past which haunts me every day Old habits died off and I gained anew A friend I turned away from is callin me near My mind is full it's hard to hear My forgotten friend is drawing closer What do I do? This friend was close we got along well There was peace and my mind was at ease Not a care in the world we owned it true Something gave way and all was lost I opened my eyes and my friend was gone What is there to do? This friend I speak of is not like any other Always there for me, never turned away from me I can hear the calling in the distance but to go there I would have to leave this new life So confusing, what do I do? The time has come, but I need more I like it here now, I am almost complete But I feel my friend drawing even closer My Friend who is my loneliness What do I do? To go back means to be completely alone With no one but me and my friend No social life once again no people to help What Do I do?

Poem 4 - Addicted To My Disease
Addicted to My Disease Darkness is my home, but my life is just not whole, Something's missing, it's all a lie, watchthis place collide. Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll bethere, Vengence will be mine,I've got to take mylife back, The time has come for me to rise above myself, Create and destroy, build it up and break itdown, It's my time to dream, I'll close my eyes andleave myself behind, Watch myself slip away intonothingness, Meditation in my mind, Innerselfsuicide to take away the pain, I've lost all my feeling forthe time, I'm not affraid to fade away, For thismoment I am happy, I'm losing my soul and losing mymind, Wake the fuck up, Some things will neverchange, I'm a fiend for my rage, I'm addicted to myown disease, I plagued me, now I'm plagued forlife, I'll have to go on living this way, I wantthis all to end, But maybe I am bound by fate, Too much time has elapsed, The virus inside keeps me inrelapse, Adrenaline from my anger, It tastes sodevine, It tastes s

Poem 3 - Hiding The Anger
Hiding the Anger My Anger and Rage, It hides inside So many triggers and still itwill hide People try to find the red button todestruction, They try so hard and every button's adeduction The longer i hold it, the less it takes toburst, I'll stay strong as I can as a rule in thefirst. My Mind is a strong one, no doubt aboutthat, But the Anger continues to nibble like a hungry little rat There's tools I use to keep it at ease Tools that work wonders and make the Rage freeze A form ofmeditation that others find weird, As long as they work, fora time the rage will disappea Some day I'll find a cure tokill off my rage, Then life will go on with the turn of apage But maybe the anger gives me strength using little bits helps me go a far length, Sports are an outlet,it frees the anger It creates adrenaline and i fear no danger So many years, I've been able to control, So as long as I'm alive, in my mind it will sit.

Poem 2 - Fear Not Death
Fear Not Death I welcome death and fear it not, when it comes I will take it by the hand. Call me crazy, but I am not, life is good and I will live it to the end. But i will not worry when the time is near, I will look death in the eye and call it's bluff. With eyes that pierce the darknest night, it will bleed light brighter than the sun. Death is not the end of life however, it's the beginning of a journey untold. Life is but a walk in the park, to travel through it is only a short road. For the soul there is no dead end, when the body dies the soul lives forever. The body is but a shell, a cocoon for something more. When we are in womb we are caterpillars, when born we enter the cocoon stage. As we grow older the cocoon begins to break, when we die the butterfly then takes flight. We are like butterflies ready to come out, once broken free we are welcome where we want to roam. Therefore the greatest journey in life is death, I will welcome it with open arms

Poem 1 - Through The Eye's Of A Xulidimmu
Through The Eye's of a Xulidimmu My eye's are windows to the darkness and my soul, You venture into the blackness and fall into a pit of despair, Locked unto my gaze, now you wanna get away, Your soul gets pulled in, demons of the darkness gather from all around, Losing your sanity, energy draining from within, Corrupted by CHAOS, you've become a slave locked in chains, No way to get out, you are separating from the flesh, Once bathed in blood, you are becoming lost to the world, Lost to the World, Lost to the Flesh, Lost to yourself, Lost is your soul. You beg for my mercy, your pleading goes unheard, You tresspassed unto my domain, now you are darkness consumed, No sympathy, no warning, no emotion, no mercy for you, The fates have wrote it down, Destiny turned her back upon you, Live out what is left in this life, in the next you will be enslaved, Your soul cursed for eternity, begone from my site now, See you in the next life, when DEATH has come to get you.

The Therapist
ONE DAY THIS MAN JOE,WAS CHECKING HIS PHONE FOR ALL OF HIS APPOINTMENTS AND HE HAD BEEN SO BUSY AND STRESSED WITH WORK AND ALL HE ALMOST FORGOT HE HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITH HIS THERAPIST.SHE CALLED TO REMIND TO REMIND HIM AND TO MAKE IT AN EARLIER APPOINTMENT,SO JOE WENT,HE TRUSTED HIS THERAPIST,SHE WAS A BEAUTIFUL AN ACCOMPLISHED WOMAN COME ON IN JOE JOE'S THERAPIST NAMED CANDI SAID SO JOE SAT DOWN,AND CANDI WITH HER NOTEBOOK AND PEN ASKED HOW HE WAS DOING,AND AS JOE BEGAN TO SPILL OUT HIS PROBLEMS AND YET HE COULDN'T KEEP HIS EYES OFF HER THINKING LOOKING AT HER BREASTS THINKING BOOBS YUM,THIS IS THE TYPE OF THERAPY HE WOULD WANT.CANDI LOOKED ESPECAILLY FINE TODAY,WEARING A LOW-CUT SHIRT THAT HUGGED HER BREASTS TIGHTLY.WHICH IN FACT MADE THEM LOOK BIGGER,AND SHOWING OFF GREAT CLEAVAGE AND WORE A BLACK MINI-SKIRT SHE LOOKED SO HOT JOE NEVER SAW HER LOOK LIKE THIS BEFORE.CANDI LEANED OVER JOE AND SAID WELL,JOE TO MUCH WORK AND STRESS MAKES YOU THIS WAY,YOU'VE GOT TO FIND AN OUTLET FOR YO

What's Your Personality Cluster
Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Feeling You are: Tolerant, flexible, and open to new ideas. A stickler for integrity and authenticity. Passionate about causes, beliefs, or politics. Likely to have many "best friends" from many walks of lifeWhat's Your Personality Cluster?

What's Your Blogging Personality
Your Blogging Type is Kind and Harmonious You're an approachable blogger who tends to have many online friends. People new to your blogging circle know they can count on you for support. You tend to mediate fighting and drama. You set a cooperative tone. You have a great eye for design - and your blog tends to be the best looking on the block!What's Your Blogging Personality?

Why I Have Been Gone
I have not been on because so many things have been happening in my family and I feel like I am drowning. So many so called "Friends" have came and left my life, I have just been tired of it all and don't know what to do anymore, except try to enjoy my husband and 4 children. My brother-in-law who was in the car accident on January 12th finally came home after he died (his heart stopped) it was 2 months in the ICU and organs missing but he is home & alive. Of course, not the same man he used to be, but still here. I hope everyone is having a great life and I miss you.

How Open Minded Are You
You Are 76% Open Minded You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out! Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand. You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting. You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.How Open Minded Are You?

Saturday Before Easter At The Club
Since we're going to Cancun at the end of this month, we're trying to save money to spend on our trip. So last night was our last time at the swing club for this month. I thought it was memorable. This was going to be the closest club night to my friend Todd's birthday, so his wife Misty had told the owner about the birthday, and they planned something for him. I think he had an idea beforehand, because we'd told him about some of the birthday celebrations. On our way to the club we drove by their van and I fell in behind them, but then they got off the road about 10 miles before we got there, so we went on ahead. We went into the club, with me toting our bag of clothes and other bag of alcoholic beverages. I put the clothes in a locker -- since the rooms are open for play until 2 AM, we can't leave the bags in our assigned room. In the main room, with the seating area, the buffet, the dance floor and the small stage for the stripper pole, only one of the three long tables

What's Your Hidden Talent?
Your Hidden Talent You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.What's Your Hidden Talent?

* Dimensions * Frequency Band * Morphogenetic Fields * Harmonic Universes *
* Dimensions * Frequency Band * Morphogenetic Fields * Harmonic Universes * ********************************************************************************************* * Dimension * ********************************************************************************************* (Also called Frequency Band) Dimensions are fixed groupings of energy within a specific, geometrically arranged form, build upon crystallized, conscious units, of sound and light called Morphogenetic Fields (MF) or Manifestation Template. From each MF's of Dimensions are composed of stationary points of the vibration of sound and light which together form a fabric of tones, into which smaller MFs are woven From each fixed point of sound vibration, within each Dimension of MF, an electrical current of consciousness emerges. Cosmic morphogenetic structure is ordered into sets of systems, each one comprising 15 dimensions and referred to as a "15 dimensional matrices" grouped in sets of 3

My Mistake The Lips Contest Ends Tomorrow Night At 5 Est.... I Will Be Going To Work Tomorrow So Keep Me Ahead Cause Im Winning Whooohoo Thanks To You
THE LIPS CONTEST IS ONLY FOR THE WEEKEND AND THE OTHER ONE I FELL BEHIND IN BEING SICK ALL WEEK :-( IM IN THE SEXY LIPS CONTEST AND ALSO WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST.. HERE ARE THE LINKS IF YOU GET AROUND TO HELPING OUT THAT WOULD BE GREAT ;-).. SEXIEST LIPS CONTEST WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST THANKS FOR YOUR HELP IN ADVANCE MICHELLE AKA HOOVERGIRL COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED SO COMMENT TILL YOUR FINGERS HURT ;-)!!

This New Job....
Fucking sucks,i just started monday and already last night i had to train someone new, hello people im still suppose to be in training too!!! Fucking retards, then on top of that i had to work today and i was suppose to get out and 4 and this stupid kid that i trained last night decided not to show up until 5!! what the fuck is up with that? Then i look at the schedual and after telling my manager that on mon-wed i could not work past 4:30 because i had to be at my other job at 5:00 she freakin put me on the schedual to be there till 5, what a fucking whore, she told me it wasnt her problem and it is her fucking problem!!!!! ERRRR i dont think i am going to last there that long, its already getting on my nerves!! God damn!

Fresh Meat Ladies
A LONG TIME FRIEND OF MINE JOINED AND NEEDS SOME LOVING FROM YOU LADIES SHOW IF YOU COULD PLEASE STOP BY AND SHOW HIM SOME CHERRY LOVE... I CANT PROMISE HE WONT BITE LMFAO SHOW HIM SOME EASTER LOVE AT LESS LMMFAO http://www.cherrytap.com/user/804122 THANK YOU SWEEET DESTINY

The Latest Update On Me
Well it’s been a while since my last entry and so much has come into play. My children and I have been doing more things together. They started going to church and enjoy it very much. They go with my niece Chantal. It is a good church and I really like the woman who picks the kids up. I have heard nothing but good things about her. I have been teaching them a bedtime prayer and trying to get them to say it every night. Lexis loves saying her night time prayer with me and her brother, Caleb only likes saying his when it is just me and him. I’m thinking of maybe going to church every Sunday. Maybe it will help me get through some of things I’ve been going through and thinking about. I am almost done with my job. I have until the second week of April to find another which is going to be hard considering jobs are few and far between in this area. Everyone whom matters knows that I have been thinking of moving to Henderson to be closer to my boyfriend whom is the GREATEST EVER!!! I L

Happy Easter To All My Friends And Fans
Since i have sooooo many friends and Fans, and Family its hard to post to each and everyone of you with leaving everyone off i just thought i do it this way: MySpace Graphic Codes HAVE A HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!Tim

"why A Man Gets 'scared Away'
"Why A Man Gets 'Scared Away' When You Try To Get Him To Commit For The Long-Term- And What To Do About It..." An Open Letter To A Woman Who Wants To ATTRACT And KEEP Mr. Right... Dear Friend, I'd like to ask you a few questions. Be open and honest with yourself as you answer them... Have you ever met a guy who seemed to be "Mr. Right", but after getting to know him better you could tell that he just didn't feel that same level of "connection" you felt? You were attracted to him, but he just wasn't into you the same way you were into him? In your mind, you could sense what a great guy he was, and that, somewhere deep inside, you both shared this strong "chemistry" that made you feel close and comfortable. But for some reason he didn't want to truly connect with you. Another one... Have you ever slept with a guy very quickly after meeting him, but as it started to happen you got that sinking feeling in your stomach? You knew it was a m

Self Reflection
I wear this mask of lies for your benefit To shield you from the real me My reflection in the mirror shows who I am Dark shadows dancing behind a grim smile Falsehoods become me I’m not the one you need Nor should you desire me Too long has the dark gripped its icy hands onto my soul Too long has he haunted my steps Walking in stride to my thoughts Wild and free as the wind on a full moon night Whispering the faintest of suggestions Could you see past the mask and love me? Know my darkest thoughts and not run away afraid? Show me a light worth running to Save me from myself…

Guesse What Happened On My Easter?
As you know today is Easter Sunday, A day for celebration, a day of remembrance, today holds different meanings for different peoples. In my family holidays are defined by good food and spending time with those we love……. However there’s also the “normal everyone has this” feeling of dread… there’s one family member in general who is pure evil and not evil like me she is evil in a bad way. And ruins every holiday with or with out being here. This has become the norm and dealt with accordingly. So today much like every other holiday I got up and cooked a feast for all dismissing my mothers cries of woe and loathing for the evil one and calmed her down but this time only to have the unimaginable happen…. On Friday my 3 yr old was given an Emo Mohawk.. Which looked so great, however when his father who is a hip guy and his grand father a stuffy Englishman came to get him grumpy grampy decided to violently flip out and screeched at me about it on my front lawn I was alone and gat no

Bite Me
yeah you heard me open wide accept take a chunk of bittersweet go on sink your teeth in work those jaws for real this time bite yes bite until all held heaven or hell bursts free to coat your lips with all that is me water nectar syrup spirit spit cum bourbon blood bile acid lava love I'm your apple in the garden of eden so bite baby bite become a part of me tonight

I Role Wit
i roll with nuthin but them real niggas hard to kill niggas quick to grab the steel niggas solider in the field niggas hard to find niggas out there on the grind niggas quick to put the 9 in the spin of them out of line niggas thug niggas a slugg to your mug niggas drug niggas ski mask and bloody gloves niggas triple beam niggas skimming for the green niggas them mean niggas them million dollar dream niggas made niggas them never be a slave niggas out there getting paid niggas craddle to the grave niggas drunk niggas fat blunts to skunk niggas quick to pop the trunk niggas ready for the funk niggas wild niggas crazy drunken style niggas loud niggas bail out 7 miles niggas crip and blood niggas clownin' in the club niggas show me love niggas five on the bud niggas deep in the game niggas out there slaggin caine niggas them Mane niggas them money ain't a thang niggas raw niggas ball til they fall niggas pull a pistol in the middle of a brall nigg

Pain
All the pain The pain in my life you can't see it but i can Its horrible and discusing I wish the pain wasn't in my life But it is and its killing me The pain is causing me to lose my friends, and people who I care about The pain is always there, in the car and at home pain follows me everywere I can also see if another persons in pain or upset Pain is everywere in this world its even following you and me right now But the best thing to do is fight the pain Im thinking it little bit, is to end up dead Pain is everywhere inside me, mostly in my heart Pain has broken my heart again Pain I just want you to end Pain I think that the end is near Pain I just want to go away and cry these lonely tears. Can anyone give me a Reason to stay, if you are my Friends? I am so depressed today, that Im thinking of ending it all!!! Sir George

Guns Vs. Women
Top Ten Reasons Men Prefer Guns Over Women 10. You can trade an old 44 for a new 22. 9. You can keep one gun at home and have another for when you're on the road. 8. If you admire a friend's gun and tell him so, he will probably let you try it out a few times. 7. Your primary gun doesn't mind if you keep another gun for a backup. 6. Your gun will stay with you even if you run out of ammo. 5. A gun doesn't take up a lot of closet space. 4. Guns function normally every day of the month. 3. A gun doesn't ask , "Do these new grips make me look fat?" 2. A gun doesn't mind if you go to sleep after you use it. And the number one reason a gun is favored over a woman.... 1. YOU CAN BUY A SILENCER FOR A GUN

Cum See My Easter Eggs ;0)
Hey Everyone! I know it's insane short notice..but I'll be doing members cam in 1 hour for all my www.aimeelynn.net members (or if you are a member of a girl that performs on Camz.com then you can see my show for free as well. Hope to see you there! XOXO, Aimeelynn

Kgr#58- Knicks @ Bucks
Houston makes his game review of the Knicks battling the Milwaukee Bucks on the Road in Milwaukee!!! -Highlights -Boxscore -Lineups/Player Stats -Shooting Percents/Team Stats -Injury update/Knicks Site Links news -Upcoming games Vote for Knicks Game Reviews on PodcastAlley.com Rate us on Pod-Planet.com Digg us on Digg.com. Email comments(audio or text)to knickssitelinks@yahoo.com and it will probably make it onto the show!! http://www.garageband.com/mp3/KGR_58__Knicks___Bucks.mp3

You Know You Want To Read This
The Ultimate SEX Survey by game_gurl69Do you like it rough or sensual?: Depends on my moodDo you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?: bothHow often do you like to have sex?: as often as possibleIs sex a top priority for you?: noDo you have sex face to face with your partner?: sometimesHow often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: once in a whileHow do you feel about one night stands?: alright,lolHow many one night stands have you had?: twoWhat's your favorite position?: doggyWhere's your favorite place to have sex?: anywhere and everywhereDo you prefer to make love or f*uck?: dependsHave you ever watched porn while having sex?: yesHow long do you usually fore-play b4 doing the deed?: not longDo you get off first or do they?: theyDo you like kissing during sex?: yesDo you moan? If so, are you loud or quite?: depends on how good you areDo you prefer your partner to be loud or quite?: loudDoes size matter (for gir

Looking Through The Glass
I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed Oh, god it feels like forever But no one ever tells you that forever Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head How do you feel? That is the question But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer When something like a soul becomes Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes You can't expect a bit of hope So while you're outside looking in Describing what you see Remember what you're staring at is me Cause I'm looking at you through the glass... Don't know how much time has passed All I know is that it feels like forever When no one ever tells you that forever Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head How much is real? So much to question An epidemic of the mannequins Contaminating everything When thought came from the heart It never did right from the start Just listen to the noises (No more sad voices) Before you tell yourself It's just a diffe

Half Naked Chicks, A Stage Show, And Babysitting A Drunkard
Well saturday was the fetish ball. It was fun after all the mess. Alot of people i knew came. There were several military buddies there too. One of them though decided to get overly drunk and then was left by his friends. Of course the caring natured person i was worked the show and took care of my friend as well in the process making others somewhat unhappy with me as I didn't really spend time with them. Then a solution came for my drunken friend. He was overly drunk so he went and slept in his truck. It worked. And so my night went better. I felt so happy because everyone was spending time with me. I was popular for a night in a world where I am usually ignored. I made new friends as well. My day was crazy and i am more than tired but all in all the night went way to fast. I will have pictures later. I hope to get in as part of the show at halloween as i truly loved every minute of working with the cast and crew.

All About Me
Hey everyone!! My model friend Bobbi Billard invited me to join in on "Cherry Tap"! I am Tiffany Holliday and was a former playmate and girlfriend of the infamous Hugh Hefer and am featured on the hit series on E! "The Girls Next Door". Visit me at my official website www.tiffanyholliday.com and my official myspace page that I am restarting all over again (thanks to the fakers and haters on myspace!) www.myspace.com/thereal_tiffanyholliday I'm just getting new to all this so bare with me everyone and thanks for all the love and support already! mwaa, Tiffany xoxo

The Very First Time
Well here goes my blog virginity. Spending Easter just hanging around the house and taking naps here and there. Pretty boring things. I think I need to spice up my CT page. Let me hear your suggestions and I will incorporate as many as I can. I would especially love to here from you ladies.

Happy Easter
Well I didnt know if I was going to be on here today or not so I sent out Easter wishes the other day, but I did make it and once again I am here to say HAPPY Easter to those of you that celebrate it. I'm going to sit here and snack on my mangoes, I think I may be part parrot, damn I love these things. I'm a vegatarian or a fruitaraian for the most part, I would rather sit down to nothing on my plate but that, unless well urmmmm "TUBE steak" is on the menu. Cant be just any tube steak either. I am very finiky. I do have standards. ANY ways enough of that. My fingers are sticky so I am going to end my ramblings here, I love each and every one of you like a fat kid loves cake. When i'm gone I'll miss you like a fat biotch misses pizza @ weight watchers convention muahhhhhhhh. YEAH I'M ONE CHUNKY CHIP AHOY

Hate Me Today
(If you're sleeping are you dreaming If your dreaming are you dreaming of me? I can't believe you actually picked me.) (”Hi bethi, this is paul, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you ware doing. You sounded really uptight last night. It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too. I just wanted to make sure you were really OK, And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication. You know I love you, and... Take care honey I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye bye”) I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say t

I*d*g*a*f
TO MY FRIENDS WHO UNDERSTAND THAT I HAVE A LIFE AND AM NOT ALWAYS ON HERE OR AM QUICK TO RESPOND THAT HAVE FUN WITH ME WHEN WE CHAT AND DONT GET ALL BUTT HURT WHEN WE DONT I LOVE YOU TO EVERYONE ELSE I*D*G*A*F BOTTOM LINE IS NOT INTO DRAMA OR BULLSHIT YOU CAN SAVE THAT I AM NOT THE ONE. MY REAL FRIENDS KNOW I LOVE THEM IF YOU ARE ONE OF THOSE WHO THINK I SHOULD STOP MY LIFE AND KISS THIER ASS THEN YOU NEED TO MOVE ON THIS GIRL HAS A LIFE. SO TO ALL MY FRIENDS LOVE ME OR HATE ME THIS IS WHAT IT IS. TO EVERYONE ELSE I DONT GIVE A FUCK! DELETE ME. DONT GET ME WRONG LOVE TALKING TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF U YOU KNOW I DONT CARE ABOUT POINTS OR COMMENTS BUT IF YOU START TO GET ALL PUSSY HURT THAT I DONT RATE OR AM NOT RESPONDING FAST ENOUGH TO YOUR NEEDS THEN MOVE ON DELETE ME I*D*G*A*F. TO ALL THAT LOVE ME I LOVE YA BACK MUAHHHS

Riddle
A Riddle for you... What gets longer when pulled................ Fits between boobs.............. Inserts neatly in a hole................. and works best when jerked? A SEAT BELT , Pervert! BUCKLE up and pass it on !

Pretty Close To Home
Your Birthdate: June 19 You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested. You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them. Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others. You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Longing For You
I'm sitting here wishing, That you were here too, Then I wouldn't be lonely, And I could hold you. I wish I knew your voice, Then you wouldn't seem so far away, I want you beside me, Not tomorrow, but today. You're the one I think about, When I close my eyes each night, I imagine you lying beside me, Holding me close, so tight. I think of that day in the future, When you'll be close enough to touch, When I can whisper "I love you" in your ear, I never thought I could love this much. I long for the day we can hold hands, When I can kiss each inch of your skin, Hold you so close to my body, I can't wait for those days to begin. For once I know I'm where I belong, This love is just meant to be, Baby girl, all I need is you, You're the only one who lets me be me. This love makes me believe in fate, I know we're meant to be as one, Who cares what others have to say, I know without you, I'd be gone. People can think it's wrong, That two girls coul

You Complete Me
I never really knew what love was till I found you, Until I met you the sky had never been so blue, No one has ever been as perfect as you, You are my one and only this is so true, You have given me a feeling I never knew, You are in my thoughts in everything I do, Because I know without a doubt the one I love is you, You have got me doing things I have never wanted to do, You give me a whole new outlook on life, I without a doubt want to make you my wife, You are the one that made me put away the knife, And begin to fill the empty places in my life, You have without a doubt made me complete, When I think about you I can't even eat, My love for you is set in concrete, Loving you is easy and so sweet, I want to give you the moon, Because in my head is playing a new tune, I know Ill be seeing you soon, Although I don't think I can wait till June, You are all over my screen, For you are my one and only queen, You are the most beautiful girl I have ever se

Naughty Poll
NaughtyPoll.com - take your own poll! 1. How old are you?18-20 2. What is your sexual orientation?Bisexual 3. Have you ever given somone oral sex?Sure I have 4. Have you ever received oral sex?Nope, never have 5. How many sexual partners have you had?10-15 6. What is your pubic hair style?Shaved bald, nice and clean 7. What is your choice of underwear style?Nothing At All 8. Have you ever had anal sex?Yes I have 9. What is your favorite position?Anything that gets me off 10. How often do you masturbate?Whenever I can 11. Have you ever kissed a girl?Yes, for sure 12. Have you ever had sex with a girl?Not that far, just kissing 13. Have you ever taken, or been in naked photos?Yes, been in them 14. Have you ever had multiple partners at once?Yes, a threesome 15. Have you watched porn?Nope, not my thing 16. Have you ever been to a nude beach or nudist area?Nope, I am modest 17. Have you ever watched others, or been watched having sex?No, neither 18. S

Deep In The Pit.....
~A gravestone stands solid, alone, on a grassy field, as the grass bends lightly in the breeze.~ Those images kept flashing in my head, which was bad news cause I was driving on the freeway. Not that my safety was in jeopardy, during rush hour, top speed was 10 mph. But flashbacks of graves weren't what I wanted on my mind at the moment. I was on my way to Tara and focus shouldn't have been a problem. Tara's interest in me began the day I started at CommNet as a technical support agent. She always told me she liked techy types. She worked in customer service, and both of us dealt a lot with customers, so both of us wore business suits at work. Thinking about her Aurburn hair up in a bun, or some do started to give me wood, which was good cause this evening we were gonna let our crushes grow into something further. All that thinking allowed me to finally get to the freeway exit. And a few minutes later, I was parked and looking at her apartment building entrance. It was a sm

Obsession.. Part 1
Let's dim the lights, and light the candles A little music to set the mood And for the next few hours, relax while I hand you All the extacsy that you can consume Running a feather up and down your body While kissing your every crevice Licking your sex so innocently, but naughty Producing a feeling you never expected I seductively place my shaft in your love In a gentle and erotic fashion At my deepest depth, we embraced in a hug While the room is filling with passion Hours upon hours of sex at its best With stopping totally out of the question Just thoughts of what we are going to do next Because your body is my obsession -Nemesis of Nazerath

Five Little Easter Eggs
Five Little Easter Eggs Five little Easter eggs, lovely colors wore; (hold up five fingers) Mother ate the blue one, then there were four. (bend down one finger) Four little Easter eggs, two and two, you see; Daddy ate the red one, then there were three. (bend down next finger) Three little Easter eggs, before I knew, Sister ate the yellow one, then there were two. (bend down next finger) Two little Easter eggs; oh, what fun, Brother ate the purple one, then there was one. (bend down next finger) One little Easter egg; see me run! I ate the very last one, and then there were none. (bend down last finger)

T'was The Day Before Easter
T'was The Day Before Easter Twas the day before Easter and all through the woods, The bunnies were busy packing their goods. The eggs were all colored so pretty and bright, All things were "go" for the big , special night. The baskets were waiting, all decorated with care, In hopes that the Bunny soon would be there. My little brother Sam was asleep in his bed, While visions of Easter eggs rolled round his head. And I in my pajamas with the cat on my lap, I had just settled down for a quick little nap. When outside the window I heard a great noise, I sprang from my chair and jumped over some toys. As quick as a flash to the window I flew, I pulled up the shade and , OH, what a view. The moon on the meadow cast a bright golden glow And the wind blew the flowers to and then fro. Then all of a sudden from out of nowhere, Came some lively bunnies, hopping here, hopping there! Leading the group with ears long and funny Was a plump all-white rabbit... That'

Easter Candy Jelly Beans
Easter Candy Jelly Beans The Jelly Bean Prayer Red is for the blood He gave Green is for the grass He made Yellow is for the sun so bright Orange is for the edge of night Black is for the sins we made White is for the grace He gave Purple is for His hour of sorrow Pink is for our new tomorrow A bag full of jelly beans colorful and sweet, Is a prayer, is a promise, is a special treat May the joy of Christ's resurrection Fill your heart and bless your life

Some Things U Didn't Know About Me
This one is a bit different from the rest. Four things about me that you may or may not have known in no particular order. A) Four jobs I have had in my life: 1. Library Aide 2. K-mart 3. Cashier for Boston Market 4. Kitchen Manager B) Four movies I would watch over and over: 1. Just Like Heaven 2. Speed 3. Charmed 4. Bambi C) Four places I have lived: 1. Camarillo ,CA 2. Sun Valley, CA 3. Oxnard, CA 4. N/A D) Four TV Shows that I watch 1. Charmed 2. Law and Order 3. Grey's Anatomy 4. Desperate Housewives E) Four places I have been on vacation: 1. San Diego, CA 2 Idaho 3. Canada 4. Mexico F) People who e-mail me (regularly) 1. Kevin 2. Jackie (mom) 3. My points 4. G) Four of my favorite foods: 1. Pizza 2. Chocolate 3. Boston Market 4. H) Four places I would rather be right now: 1. Sometimes anywhere but here 2. On a vacation from life 3. With My family 4. Vacation from Work

A Reflection On Staying Single.
Sometimes I wonder how it has come to be that with all of my friends dating each other and breaking up and dating other friends, how is it that I'm the only one who remains constantly single? I honestly can't figure it out. I don't know, maybe I'll go into seclusion and live off the land. That way, it seems like I chose to stay single, not the other way around. Until next time, remember kids: When you download mp3s, you're downloading communism...so download some more!

Figuring Things Out
So I'm just trying to work my way around here, everything is very new and I figured the best way to figure things out is to try it out. I'm having a serious problem exploring everything in here, mainly because everything is OVER simplified. I'm so used to havign to write my own HTML codes and such that this is confusing not having to do that. Well, heres to tackling blogs and a couple of pictures and one friend add... *CHEERS*

My Dream.. Your Nightmare..
Lake of Drowning Souls Journey into the darkest recesses of your mind Far off chants signal eternal doom You try to get away Swimming through a dark, poisonous substance Which seeps into your skin A million drowning souls claw at your body You desperately head for the shore And scramble out Onto an island you know not where Witches and goblins stare back at you With a hideous intensity in their eyes You are their prey A soul for the taking An inner awakening Onto a whole new world Of evil and torment Again you run The sky is dark And the shouts and screams are close at hand They are ready to pounce You must get away You wake up Safe for another day But when you sleep They will enter your dreams Oblivious to your screams One night they will take you away To their world And untold evil and torment Will be your daily toil “Sweet dreams!” Thank you Krimson

An Easter Miracle!!!!!! The True Meaning Of Easter
Ok guys this is kinda long... I will try to shorten it as much as possible. My son was born in 2000. I took him home and within a few days his face kept turning blue, his breathing was shallow, his lips kept turning white. Well obvioulsy this disturbed me enough to bring him to the Emergency room. They diagnosed my son with RSV. Okay I am thinkng no big deal... Boy was I wrong!! They decided to admit him into the pediatrics floor. There I stayed with him for 5 days. His oxygen sats kept continuously dropping and he was even more sick now. I am thinking boy this RSV is a kick in the asser. The floor Resident(Doctor) came in and said he was ok enough to be cared for at home. I said to hell he is' his 02 sats keeps dropping and hes fighting to breathe!! He continued to the nurses station and told the nurses to draw up discharge papers. I looked at my brother of whom was with me through this entire ordeal and said this ain't happening! I refuse to bring him home like this. I called my son'

If We Were To Have Sex???
IF WE WHERE TO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU WHISPER FREAKY SHIT IN MY EAR IF WE WERE TO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU GO DOWN ON ME IF WE WERE TO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU LET ME GO DOWN ON YOU IF WE WERE TO HAVE SEX HOW MANY ROUNDS WOULD WE GO IF WE WERE TO NVE SEX HOW MANY ROUNDS WOULD YOU GO IF WE WERE TO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU LET ME TAKE OFF YOUR CLOTHES IF WE WERE TO HAVE SEX WOULD I LET YOU TAKE OFF MY CLOTHES IF WE WERE TO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU LIKE FOREPLAY OR JUST GET DOWN WITH IT IF WE WERE TOO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU TAKE YOUR TIME IF WE WERE TOO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU GO FAST OR SLOW IF WE WERE TO HAVE SEX WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO DO IT AT IF WE WERE TOO HAVE SEX WOULD YOU BE ROUGH OR GENTLE WIT ME IF WE WERE TOO HAVE SEX WOULD WOULD YOU LICK, BITE, OR EAT ME ALL OVA IF WE WERE TOO HVE SEX WOULD YOU BE LOUD OR QUIET

Slut Quiz
Congratulations your ALMOST a Slut! Just a wild night away! Go out and rack up some points! Your Motto: "I'll Try Anything Once!" Your Sign: "Rest Area Ahead" Let's Park! * Don't forget to pratice SAFE SEX! Take The Slut Quiz Now!"Slut Quiz - Female" is available here***starXtest v2.0***

Birthday Shouts
I'm just writing a little note to say Happy birthday to my friend Daniel Roblee, He would of been 19 today but he passed away August 12, 2004..Still think about you everyday beautiful and I know you're still up there looking down at all of us, We Miss You Like Crazy Boy..Happy 19th Birthday Baby Boy Also its my friend Olivias birthday too, Happy Birthday Darlin =] ALSO..HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE hehe/div>

Happy Easter
Happy Easter everyone. It's just another day for me but I had fun with my son. We hid easter eggs in the house for Thomas to find. He got too much chocolate of course. I'm not doing too much today just relaxing before I go too work tomorrow morning. I'm still fairly new to Cherry Tap but I do like this site. It's much more fun than myspace or your typical chat sites. I'm hoping to meet lots of new people. Not much else just have a great day.

Who Is Senshi?
I do write for a living, but for that exact reason I often struggle to write anything about myself in depth. It always gets side tracked to some ulterior subject. So here's one of those lame Myspace quizzes. 100 Questions For Your Answering Pleasure!BasicsName::Dan Age::18 Height::6'1" Hair Color::Brownish black Eye Color::Blue School LifeWhat's your school's mascot?:Whatever i want it to be School color(s)?:Black and orange G.P.A.?:Probably around a 3.3, but im homeschooled Who is your favorite teacher?:Mr Love (grade seven) What do they teach?:He was a general teacher Is this your favorite class?:Not particularly. InternetDo you use any instant messengers?:Yep. If so, which ones?:MSN, Yahoo, AIM, Skype About how many hours a day do you spend online?:Too many ;p Do you have a digital camera?:Yep If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?:Tons MusicDo you play any instruments?:Yep If so, what one(s)?:Drums, and i sing 3 Favorite Genres Of Music::Ska, Punk, Rockabilly 3 Favorite

Something About You
So any things I want to say, Ironically I am at a loss for words, So many things I want to believe, So many things I’ve already heard, But there is something about you, That out weighs my fear, That uncovers my strength, Whenever you’re here, There is something about you, That breaks down these walls, I so carefully built, But to you- no trouble at all, There is so much in the surrender, So much more to gain, I let you take over, And you wash away my pain, So many lies before you, So many promises- gone to the wind, Yet, something about you is so reassuring, I find I’m slipping again, There’s something about you, I may never understand, Yet it all makes perfect sense, With each touch of your hand.

Quick Marriage Bulletin Done For Erebus
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Lost In You
All is still, As you look deep into me, I touch you so gently, Like falling to dream, Slowly you close your eyes, I take a deep breath and pull you in, The unforgettable moment our lips touch, And I crumble within, Softly, so sweetly, Your lips on mine, An intimate dance with an angel, Kept in perfect time, Like walking on air, The world disappears, Time stops for a moment, As do these fears, Your touch on my skin, Sends a flood of mixed emotion, The tide pulls - I rise, I’m lost in this ocean, Like a sweet intoxication, You flood my heart and mind, I’m so lost in you, The way out I pray I never find.

A Night For His Taking
He did not remove the blindfold until they were inside. She had no inkling of where they were, this city and this country were strange to her. Blinking she realised she was in a large room. Most of it was cast into shadow. Looking around she saw her lover checking the slip of paper in his hand and finding the controls. The lights rose, slowly at first and she saw something that was strangely familiar. Frowning she went closer and could not stop the gasp as she saw the distinctive spider symbol. A slither of delicious fear slid down her spine like an icy finger. He turned to look at her, smiling at her shocked but still eager expression. Kissing her softly as he came to her side. "You said you would let me do as I pleased to you if we ever came here," he said quietly, his smile growing wider as she nodded, biting her lower lip. Her eyes were wide and darker than usual. "I remember Master Darius," Jade whispered. "Was it an idle promise?" he asked, going very still as he waited

A Night To Remember....
One night we IM'd, and the chemistry between us was immediately obvious. I knew I had connected with someone who was deeply sexual, intelligent and…Masterful! All the qualities I most admire in a man. It wasn't long before we started talking on the phone. I like phone sex and have enjoyed several pleasant encounters this way. Until I started talking to you, that is. You would whisper to me, with your incredibly sexy voice, tease me, build me up, concentrate totally on my pleasure and then order me to cum, not just once or even twice, but over and over again, until I was completely sated, only then would you finally see to your own satisfaction. No one else I'd had phone sex with could match that, and I began to wonder what you would be like in real life! Six months later and here I was pulling up outside your house in a cab. My hands trembled as I knocked on the door. Last minute nerves and doubts set in. Would I be able to serve you as you wished? Please you, as y

Easter Bunny
lol my 11 yers old broke the news to my 9 yesr old that the easter bunny wasnt real. lol Ariana was like ur kidding right,she was like, u dont believe in the tooth fairy, santa , u know they are mom and dad, but u think the bunny is real. Salina was like really, so yeah now my daughters dont believe in anything and they know that mom and dad are all those things, lol gotta love kids

Insert Witty Title Here
I feel invisable today... Did I do something wrong to people that makes them not even want to acknowledge the fact that I am talking to them... Maybe I thought right... Maybe I am annoying and a nag and I complain to much... I quit. I think I might just sleep the rest of the day... Atleast I'm happy in my dreams... Most of the time anyway

So
yea im back leave me some good stuff i'll have a solute up soon! promise.. uhmm i guess i just couldnt stay away but i also go an email sayin they wantd me back.. lol... uh how ya'll doing.. i guess im doing good gettin over my ass hole ex n movin on kinda seeing someone who just got outta a relationship too not to long ago everything seems good!

God Knows
He placed diamonds in your eyes, That outshine the sun, Such a perfect splendor, He shows them to everyone, He threaded the finest silk, With ut-most care, Then he sat back and smiled, So proud of your flowing hair, He gave you hands of velvet, So soft and smooth, Meant for the most beautiful of angels, Which is why he gave them to you, He covered your lips with honey, The sweetest in the land, So impressed with his own work, He gave himself a hand, Your heart he made of the purest gold, A treasure like no one has seen, Hidden so deep at the bottom of the ocean, Then he burried it in a dream, He's so proud of you, He shows you off time and again, Cause even God knows, He'll never make and angel like you again...

Think On This ...
There is the necessity that the physical body be in as perfect accord with the Creative and Universal Forces as is possible, but "Thy will be done in me as Thou seest I have need of in the present. Let me bear in my body those conditions, circumstances, physical and mental, that will bring me wholly closer to an understanding of the purposes for which I came into being; without censure to anyone, without censure to myself, but use me as Thou seest fit!" Edgar Cayce Reading 5640-3

Her......
I was early comming home from work....all i could think about was does she know how much i love her. I pull into the drive way and quietly enter the house...she has her back towards me in the kitchen and she is on the phone. I take my jacket off and drop it on the floor...losining my tie as i walk quietly towards her. i gently place my hands on her bare shoulders and move my lips from her shoulder to her neck pulling her back to me...she drops the phone and pushes back against me....my hand runs through her hair and i grip onto it pulling her mouth to mine from behind not allowing her to turn to face me....kissing her like it was the very 1st time or maybe the very last time....she rubs her ass against me pressing against my hardness....my hands explore her body moving from her shoulders down her arms gently caressing her accross her stomach and up to her breasts......i turn her to face me as i kiss her deeply i push the straps of her teddy off her shoulders and let it fall to the fl

Sorry For My Dissapearance
I do gravely appoligise for my short dissapearance from cherrytap I have been extremly busy......But Iam back and will slowly hit up eacha nd every person in my listing with a comment of some sort........... The Punisher

Last Rights.....first Damnation (continued)
The night grew cold but his new senses didnt feel it he remebered being mortal and the pains it would bring, he looked to her his creator of his new being with a smirk. Knowing both this was a blessing and a curse knowing deep inside he was now part of the hunter and hunted , he looked forth apon the city from roof top it all seemed so new and differant all these people walking around no less then food,pray , cattle to sluaghter. His smile grew ever so demonicly evil his eyes shined deep red as his urges to feed came to life as he swooped down apon a female in an alleyway , his fangs deeply riping her throat open the blood making its way down his throat he felt the world around him grow. His mistress walked up jus in time to let the woman drop. You must not take all the blood this will kill you it will trap you in soul curse * He looked up to her* Thank you for letting me know this. He streached his body feeling the surges of life essence racing thru him as he heard the womans heart

Dinner For Who?......
Words can not begin to describe how beautiful you look this evening...the dim light, the candles sparkling in your eyes. This is your favortie resturant, its where we had our fist date and you love comming back here. You look beautiful....flower print dress v neck...heels absolutly stunning. During dinner we talk, exchange kisses and those looks of yours that tell me there is more than dinner on your mind. We share a bottle of wine with dinner and you slide close to me and whisper in my ear..."Do you know what you do to me"? I kiss you gently and say no hun i have no idea, why dont you tell me as i brush my lips across yours.... You take my hand, kissing my finger tips and rest my hand on your lap....Hmmmm i think to myself....what is she up to, and you say "how 'bout i show you?" as you slide my hand up your soft thighs and reach your sweet lips,..im surprised your not wearing any panites....my god you know how to get my attention....you part your legs and i slide my finger inside

Forecast For All Sign - Part Four
Venus Governs the Diplomatic and Peaceful Constellation Of Libra Lover of grace and harmony Seeking the balance of matrimony Though there are those that hold to opinions tight I will see it in all the different lights I am LIBRA, child of Venus. Characteristics For Those Born In October The month of October is ruled by the planet Venus and by the charming sign of Libra. You are strongly motivated by a desire for justice and you must create harmony in all areas of life. You are classified as the "Peacemaker" in Astro-Psychology. You will succeed in your career because of your gentle personality, your sense of diplomacy and your natural "savoir faire." You rarely learn by mistake, but you must avoid prolonged indecision. Those born in October must establish Libra's soul’s purpose of achieving balance, emotional, financial, and spiritual stability during the course of their lifetimes. You must stand for yourself and learn decision making by following not only your rational

Forecast For All Sign - Part Three
2007 — Forecast For Those Born in July On June 22nd, 2006, you received the impact of the Dragon's Head in Pisces affecting positively your 9th house of higher education, philosophy and religion. The Dragon’s Head will induce a great opportunity to establish a new mental process of looking positively at the world. After a serious study you may gain serious opportunities to improve your position in life, even recognition, if you decide to crystallize your thoughts, write and publish your work. Dealing with computers is a must, if you have any chance to enjoy this new Dragon’s blessing. These studies will help you to structure your thoughts and improve your creativity and prospects for success. The Dragon’s Head in Pisces will also seriously sharpen your intuition and improve your desire to travel, physically and mentally. In this new house your potential for a better or improved career will flourish, as long as you are willing to expand and accept the challenges with confidence. Matt

Forecast For All Sign - Part Two
Mars Governs the Aggressive - Warlike and Impatient Constellation Of Aries All will hear my views and voice Trial and error is my school of choice Like a dragon, dashing and daring I appear Fighting for those that I hold dear I am ARIES, child of Mars. Characteristics For Those Born In April Assertive Mars controls the month of April. In Greek Mythology, this planet is called “The Lord of War,” and rules the impatient sign of Aries. You were born a leader. However, because of your inborn impatience, you will learn by your mistakes. Your strong and impatient desire to succeed must be controlled and hasty decisions avoided. Others perceive you as a competitive and motivated person. More than any other sign of the zodiac, souls born in April must learn steadiness, organization and most of all, diplomacy. When confronted, grace and charm does not really belong to you. Martian souls possess strong leadership and engineering abilities and April men are attracted to dangerous s

Forecast For All Sign - Part One
Hello Readers: Here is your personal forecast for 2007 – Never forget the “Universal Code” is in charge of your destiny and much of this ancient wisdom was cast aside by politically and financially oriented churches with a myriad of religions that have killed more humans than all diseases, natural disasters and wars. The spirit of man sunk in ignorance and the fact is plain to see, NONE of the major religions or deities has proven to help mankind world but instead further mental decay and endless religious wars. No one is above the stars not even the Pope; he is trying very hard to save the last breath of Christianity but God has passed the Celestial order through his own star creation and its unfolding as predicted. There is NO end of this world, NO return of a Messiah and NO apocalypse ahead of you, just a new realization of the human spirit and its miraculous creative forces. “God did not put us on earth to end up in a doomed fashion” Free your spirit from fears and join

Just If You Were Wodering
YES i love peeps. YES i am a dorky Nerd. YES i like to drink. YES i like being naked. YES i am bisexual. YES i can do whatever the fuck i feel like doing. YES i am outgoing (thats y im posting this). YES I AM VERY RANDOM. YES i am fun. YES I AM SPONTANEOUS. NO you cant rape me without my permission. FUCK YES i feel awsome and powerful. YES i can kick your ass. YES i have 2 tats (in secret places). YES i like to have sex. NO i don't want ur body dead Anna Nichole Smith. YES sometimes i hear voices in my head (doesnt everybody??). YES im agnostic. NO you cant put that there. and YES my favorite words are penguin, onomotopia, FUCK, lerve, Suave, and Felipe (my imaginary Mexican boyfriend).

Let's Face It
Lets face it, there are a lot of dumb people out there. Sometimes you want to express how stupid they really are and here's how... An intellect rivaled only by garden tools. As smart as bait. Chimney's clogged. Doesn't have all his dogs on one leash. Doesn't know much, bot leads the league in nostril hair. Elevator doesn't go all the way to the top floor. Forgot to pay his brain bill. Her sewing machine's out of thread. His antenna doesn't pick up all the channels. His belt doesn't go through all the loops. If he had another brain, it would be lonely. Missing a few buttons on his remote control. No grain in the silo. Proof that evolution CAN go in reverse. Receiver is off the hook. He has less going on upstairs than a one story house. Several nuts short of a full pouch. Skylight leaks a little. Slinky's kinked. Surfing in Nebraska. Too much yardage between the goal posts. A few clowns short of a circus. A few fries sh

Jades Awakening......
Jades Master’s Home > > > > She searches for the oven mitts hoping the cookies wont burn before she finds them, meets her best friend for coffee, has a less than encouraging conversation with her mother on the phone, and watches a half hour of mindless chatter on television between her daily chores...It is a day like many others but she doesn't complain; she does all these things with a sense of pride and purpose that few would understand. She finds joy and contentment in keeping her home and preparing her mind and body in the service of her Master and His homecoming which draws closer as each hour passes. > > Four o'clock > > She opens the shower door and turns the water on and undresses; the steam rises and she steps inside. This is a ritual that is never rushed but thoroughly enjoyed. Lathering the cloth she cleans and polishes her skin with meticulous care and when finished, she notices her image in the full length mirror...she lingers there and wonders what must go th

Emoticons
We all know those cute little computer symbols called "emoticons," where: :) means a smile and :( is a frown. Well, how about some "ASS –I- CONS?" Here goes: (_!_) a regular ass (__!__) a fat ass (!) a tight ass (_*_) a sore ass {_!_} a swishy ass (_x_) kiss my ass (_X_) leave my ass alone (_zzz_) a tired ass (_E=mc2_) a smart ass (_$_) Money coming out of his ass (_?_) Dumb Ass

Left Behind
Ok...so why is it that the good girls usually finish last??? The good girl is the one that will listen to you complain about your ex and the guy that she is with and she will not say a word...just listen...She is also the one that will listen to you when you are drunk and don't even know what you are talking about but will never complain.....She will run up her phone bill just to talk to her guy, but will never complain when he puts her on hold to talk to others...But as soon as she makes a mistake or says the wrong thing she becomes a bitch...and that is it, he wants nothing else to do with her...Why does it work that way..Should we the good girls just be bitches to start out with, or should we always coward down and never say how we feel....Well I can tell you now that I will always speak my mind.... This goes for the Good Guys too...I know that the ones that still open doors, send flowers for no reason and do all the little things that really matter get shafted too.... I just

Open Your Eyes...........
You lie naked on the bed, your arms bound to the bedpost, wearing only your collar and an ankle bracelet that I ordered you to wear simply because I think it's so sexy. You squirm with excitement as I enter the room. You smile up at me and start to say, "hello Master Darius," but I gently put a finger to your lips. I move onto the bed, straddling you, my knees on either side of your waist. The whole time I stare lovingly into your eyes. You smile and occasionally giggle nervously at the intimate eye contact, but you've already gotten the message not to speak. I begin with a soft, gentle kiss. You sigh at the touch of my lips. Then I straighten up, looking down at you again, and begin slowly, lazily playing with your nipples. I trace my finger in light circles around the tips, watching them stiffen at my touch. The whole time, I keep staring into your eyes, as if daring you to look away. Occasionally you see a slight smile cross my lips. I begin pinching your nipples between my f

The Slave Waits......
I walk in this dimly lit bar....my eyes adjusting after the bright sunshine outside.....it's cool in here.....I look around, not many people in here. "Good" my thoughts desire privacy. I sit down in a booth....in a dark corner....A waitress comes and I ask her for some club soda....she brings it and leaves. I look at the glass....and my thoughts wander to this lovely man. I wonder where he is. He controls my every thought...my love for him is boundless. He knows I am here, but I don't see him. Then....I feel him...I feel his presence. I jump slightly..startled...and look up...there he is, right in front of me. He holds out his hand to me and I take it and get up....wordlessly following him to a room in the back. He leads me in and locks the door behind us. He pulls me in his arms and kisses me hard...and very passionately. "Now" he says....and I hold my breath...waiting. "You know better than this....don't you Jade...you told me you understood?" He looks at me intently, and I bow my he

Swinging In Dfw
Attractive Latino male, intelligent, very discreet, college educated, d/d free and very clean. Looking for females looking to have some great sex. I'm also a professional masseur and love giving erotic massages to women for fun. You will totally love them. I also give them to wives that want their husbands to watch. I also have a prince albert piercing and have recently upsized to a 0 gauge. The women love it. Contact me by email or messenger, dreamerg37@yahoo.com, Robert.

Full Moon Diares....
Jade was not at all what people thought. There were layers, myriads of layers that had yet to be uncovered. She had moods, numerous moods as changeable and fluid as quicksilver. Her kittenish smile could turn into a snarl in the blink of an eye. Friends and acquaintances joked about werewolves, and vampires, but she knew; knew there was just something about a full moon. Something that got the blood pumping and the senses heightened. She swore that sometimes, she could smell her Darius a mile away. She enjoyed men, enjoyed their differences. The broadness of their shoulders, the roughness of their stubble. There was always something that drew her. Sometimes it was their mind, sometimes a smile or just the way they moved. This time, it was his eyes. A whiskey colored gaze that seemed to see too much. Added to a flexible mind and nimble hands, it was a combination she was weak to resist. As she'd never been one for self-control, Jade had plotted and made a plan to get what she wa

Adam
ADAM YOU ARE THE MOST WONDERFUL MAN IN THE WORLD. YOU HAVE CHANGED MY LIFE IN SO MANY WAYS IN JUST A SHORT TIME. THE MEMORIES WE HAVE MADE WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART AND I KNOW WE HAVE MANY MORE TO MAKE. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINING OF THE REST OF OUR LIFE. TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION.... YES BABY I WILL MARRY YOU! I CANT WAIT TIL YOU ARE HOME FOR GOOD AND IN MY ARMS EVERY NIGHT. WAKING UP TO YOU MAKES MY DAY WORTH GETTING UP FOR AND SEEING YOU SMILE AGAIN MEANS EVER MORE TO ME. IM GLAD I AM ABLE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY AND KEEP YOU THAT WAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. I LOVE YOU TIL THE DAY I DIE AND AFTER. LOVE YOUR SHORTY AND SOON TO BE WIFE. JO

Big Pimpin Gift Giveaway
ok everyone. i would like to give some gifts away. Would you like to get a big pimping gift? well if so contact me for more information. What i need to know is what gift you would like to aim for, and i will let you know how many comments you will need to get. so please lets get some people going for the pig pimpin gifts give away. Adopt a soldier. AKA **DJ ADAMS**@ CherryTAP

Say It....damn It
I love you Christopher." She said breathing into his ear. The hot breath took his mind elsewhere. And the fact that she was nibbling on his ear lobe didn't help matters either. He began sliding his hand over her body instinctually. Her smooth skin took him further from reality. Guided only by his urges, he pressed her close to his body. A slight moan escaped her mouth before it was covered by his. Their lips danced together, fighting to take the lead. Each kiss signaled for another and yet another. Her mouth pulled away for a moment and then latched on to his bottom lip. A grunt formed in Christopher's throat as he took her by the wrists and pushed her into the nearest available wall. He took both of her wrists in one hand and used his other to cup the jaw of his lady. Christopher looked deeply into her eyes, as if to say something, but was cut short due to her lack of patience. Tara jumped on to Christopher, wrapping arm and leg alike around his body. She leaned down and began to

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When
when do you let someone into your life fully? show them your true messed up past or present? or how do you know that you can trust that person to really understand without being judgemental. im at a bridge and i dont know whether to cross it or go around again. i usually just avoid the bridge all together to be safe from falling in or worse, drowning. nobody knows everything and would they want to? true, life has changed but thats just it; its changed. i prefer to go forward instead of backwards, but they questions in their eyes are getting plentiful and more urgent. i need a lifeline..

Jades Story For Darius
Master Darius, I am here to serve you.... You walk up and kiss me, I return the kiss and smile at you nervously, you slip your hands up my thin white shirt and roughly pull up my black lacy bra – You start squeezing my tits, soft at first then you grab a bit harder, working your fingers into the smooth soft skin. I let a small moan escape as you start pinching my nipples, you squeeze my nipples hard and cup your hands around my rib cage joining your thumbs at my solaplex and slowly but firmly drag them down to my stomach. You crouch down and run both your hands up my smooth thighs until my small black skirt is lifted enough to reveal my wet pussy. You cup your hands around my firm ass and pull it roughly towards you forcing my cunt to your mouth. You nibble softly at my throbbing cunt and i notice my knees starting to involuntarily widen and tremble with pleasure. I finally loose the fight to keep silent and say ... “Oooo please Master I want you inside me. Please fuck your dirty slut

Jades Library Visitor
I searched the bottom shelf for a book on photographic darkroom techniques when a lovely blonde woman about twenty stood next to me. Our eyes met, she smiled and I eagerly returned one. The glow of her youth radiated from her face and her body displayed the curves that lust was made of. She wore short pink dress gathered at the waist. As she searched for a book, she took little fidgety steps causing her dress to swing fluidly. I found myself looking less for the book and more at her shapely legs that were enticingly bare. She bent over to grab a footstool sitting in the aisle. For a brief second, I swore she wasn't wearing panties. Surely, wishful thinking. After placing the stool in front of the book stack, she stepped onto it with her pink, three-inch high heels. The Goddess Art of Jonathon Earl Bowser "Be careful," I said. "Those high heals look great but they don't look very steady." "That's sweet of you to worry, but I'll be cautious." Her voice had a gentle

Kids Are Asked To Write About The Sea
Kids are asked to write about the sea 1) This is a picture of an octopus. It has eight testicles. (Kelly age 6) 2) Oysters' balls are called pearls. (James age 6) 3) If you are surrounded by sea you are an Island. If you don't have sea all round you, you are incontinent. (Wayne age 7) 4) Sharks are ugly and mean, and have big teeth, just like Emily Richardson. She's not my friend no more. (Kylie age 6) 5) A dolphin breaths through an asshole on the top of its head. (Billy age 8) 6) My uncle goes out in his boat with pots, and comes back with crabs.(Millie age 6) 7) When ships had sails, they used to use the trade winds to cross the ocean Sometimes, when the wind didn't blow, the sailors would whistle to make the wind come. My brother said they would have been better off eating beans. (William age 7) 8) I like mermaids. They are beautiful, and I like their shiny tails. And how on earth do mermaids get pregnant?

Easter & Ham - Correlation?
OK I've always found this kind of ironic... Millions of people worldwide celebrate Easter by eating sprial ham or some other type of ham product that people love so much... But here's the thing: Back in the time of Christ, pork was considered unclean and therefore was forbidden to eat... So don't you think it's just a BIT ironic that we celebrate the resurrection of christ by eating ham?!? Just a thought... What do you think? DemonStorm

Easter Is A Huge Commercial Lie
That's right, I said Easter is nothing but a big lie perpetuated by the media and retail industries to make money during the slow season. Jesus Christ died over 2000 years ago, and he didn't come back from the dead. Christians just perpetuate that lie to make their guilt-ridden beliefs more substantial. But honestly, you make a man who was a near-genius, the most influential man in the history of the world, immortal just to make your religion so unbelieveable that kids fall for it all the time. Yes, I believe in the teachings of Jesus Christ, but as countless people have told me, he NEVER CLAIMED TO BE THE SON OF GOD! He spoke in a lot of riddles that we, the stupid members of a gullible human race, took wrong and mistraslated over centuries. We wanted someone external to blame for our bullsh*t, so we CREATED a villain figure named Satan (AKA the Devil, which translated to its original definition means "divided") and made god into an invisible man to ask for guidance and save us

Will Rogers
1. Never slap a man who's chewing tobacco. 2. Never kick a cow chip on a hot day. 3. There are 2 theories to arguing with a woman...neither works. 4. Never miss a good chance to shut up. 5. Always drink upstream from the herd. 6. If you find yourself in a hole, stop digging. 7. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it and put it back in your pocket. 8. There are three kinds of men: The ones that learn by reading. The few who learn by observation. The rest of them have to pee on the electric fence and find out for themselves. 9. Good judgment comes from experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment. 10. If you're riding' ahead of the herd, take a look back every now and then to make sure it's still there. 11. Lettin' the cat outta the bag is a whole lot easier'n puttin' it back. 12. After eating an entire bull, a mountain lion felt so good he started roaring. He kept it up until a hunter

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