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Yhoo Hoo!
YAY! Current mood: happy So we've been doing this weight loss thing at work, who can loose the most by July first. We weighed in two weeks ago. I started out at 215. and when I started weight watchers today I was down to 212... I've lost three pounds in two weeks. YAY! :) Ok all done.!

My Poem
To find a true love is so hard to do. It takes so much time and energy to put into. With the love from another your world can come true. Just trust in yourself and they will come to you. You sit there and wonder if you will ever find one, just to find out that the person is wrong. they can lie, and decieve you, or love and be faithfull to you. So no matter what comes your way just remember to be careful and watch every move they make as well as you. For sooner or later your one true love will appear right before your eyes and you wont even know it. But if you feel like your legs grow weak, and your heart skips a beat, and your hands get all clammy, and you cant speak, you have more than likely found your mate. Take the time to get to know him and take it real slow, for your sure to find that special someone in him and will last a life time. For this will make your love for each other grow, and grow!!!!!

My Weekend Sucks
Yeah so I've been throwing up all freakin day. Just the word Vodka makes me want to throw up. And I dont understand it that Megan drank more than me. I havent been that drunk in a lonnnggggg freakin time. So I've pretty much been miserable and alone all day. Brads been treating me like shit because I'm sick. Him Megan and Jordan are at fuckin IHOP. I've never been there, wanted to go there, but I knew I couldnt make it all that way without throwing up. So I hope hes having some fucking fun while I sit here all alone miserable. I guess I'm just saying even if he drank too much and was sick all the next day, I'd be wanting to take care of him and I wouldnt fucking just leave and go to IHOP which is almost 2hrs away. I'm just really really pissed off and sick of throwing everything up. Its not like lastnight I sat there and was like 'hmm I think I'll drink thiiiiiiiis much so I get sick all day and ruin my own weekend' like wtf I'm sick of drinking vodka *gag* Nice to know t

I'm So Tiered
I'm so tiered of seeing what you see. I'm so tiered of being what you need me to be. I'm so tiered of whating on my dreams. I'm so tiered of you seeing right through me I'm so tiered of alway's being here for you. I'm so tiered of living in this house with you. I'm so tiered of feeling this way. I'm so tiered so please just go away.

Not Hurt...
I'm not hurt, I promise. Stop asking if I'm sure. I said I wasn't hurt, didn't I? What more do you want from me? Do you want me to tell you How much you've made me hate you? Do you? Do you really? Do you want me to claw your eyes out Until you can't f**king see anymore? Because that's what I want to do to you. You led me on, You f**king deceived me. I deserve better than that. I deserve to be held, To be cherished, To be told how much I am cared for By the one person I have given my entire F**king life to. But no, That's not what you wanted Me to have. You wanted a f**k toy, Nothing more. You didn't care if you hurt me. So why do you keep asking? I'm not going to tell you That you hurt me. I don't want to give that to you. I don't want you to have That little satisfaction. I'm fine. I have to be. I can move on, I'll do things with my life. But perhaps you'll die knowing That you couldn't conquer me. Not comp

Wat U Think?.thats My Resent Pic
dont wake me..shake me..just take me.. punish me..blindfold me..Spank Me..ravage me..handcuff me..whip me..paddle me..chain me.. Oh Baby! I SHALL SEEK AND FIND YOU…. I SHALL TAKE YOU TO BED AND HAVE MY WAY WITH YOU… I WILL MAKE YOU ACHE, SHAKE AND SWEAT UNTIL YOU MOAN AND GROAN. with ice and whipped cream and chocolate.as we deep kiss ill suck the whipped cream and the chocolate from ur hot mouth as well as ur saliva..mmmmmmm tastey. licks it off of u takin my time..eveery inch curve hidden spots..suckin it all out of u..lickin it all off u..suckin it from ur mouth..ur wet lips and deep inside..non stop..makin u cumm soo i can suck the creamy sweet chocolate cum..out of u..than would stick my hardness in chocolate and whipped cream and fks u non stop till ur filled with chocolate/whipped sticky cum cream.. AS WE BOTH CUM SAME TIME IN TOTAL EXTASY I WILL MAKE YOU BEG FOR MERCY…BEG FOR ME TO STOP. I WILL EXHAUST YOU TO THE POINT THAT YOU WILL BE RELIEVED WHEN I'M FINIS

Why Do I?
I cry myself to sleep, something I have learned how to do well, I have let myself down, Let you into my heart and mind knowing you'd make it all come crashing down. Why do I torment myself so, Knowing all the consiquences? Yet I cant help myself, You come into my life so abruptly each time disturbing my balance. I fall asleep on a tear soaked pillow, I know it will not be the last night, For you always come back, Why do you hurt me so after all that we have shared? Why do I allow myself, To let you play games with my emotions? Toying with my true heart felt plans, How can you live with knowing you have hurt the person you claim to care for, time and time again? What I really want to know is why do you hurt the person who cares for you the most?

Taking Back Control
Well, even with all the overwhelming events and information this past few weeks, I've managed to survive. The other night I finally stood up for myself. Most people would not be able to call me a quiet, submissive person that takes crap from people because most of the time, I'm not like that at all. There are, however, these certain people that have known me for quite some time that have been able to get to me. They dig down deep into my heart, soul, thoughts, memories, dreams, and past. They know things about me that I do not even know myself and they know just what to use against me to get me to do whatever they please. The other day I finally realized how to get out of all this and I actually did something for myself. It feels good to not only be getting out of this but to also know I did on my own. Life is looking up again and for now I am quite happy. Good day, all.

Catholic Mass, I'll Pass Dad
So my dad is catholic and my mother was raised Wiccian, though she hasn't practiced four years. My dad hasn't been to chirch in like 20 years, all of a sudden he wants to get involved in the church again. I just spent the last 4 hours dicussing religion and my beliefs with him and I'm irritated and pissed off. I'm stuck here for the weekend and that sucks also. I could be having so much more fun ANYWHERE else. Now to my Favorite two people of Cherry tap....I can't wait until I can finally come/ cum over and be your little sub!!! Until then, Love you guys!! Jenn

I Love You
One day a woman's husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of Their bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there Isn't anymore. No more hugs, no more special moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more "just one minute." Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used up and goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye, say "I love you." So while we have it, it's best we love it, care for it, fix it when it's broken and heal it when it's sick. This is true for marriage ... And old cars .. And children with bad report cards, and dogs with bad hips, and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it. Some things we keep -- like a best friend who moved away or a classmate we grew up with. There are just some things that make us happy, no matter what. Life is important, like people we know who are special. And so, We keep them close!

My Saviour
My Saviour When I think of what a saviour means, Jesus comes to mind. It is He who rescued me from sin, And our love entwined. I know He's coming back one day He promised that He would, And when He does I hope that I, Have lived the life I should. I will strive to be a witness, To those that know Him not. So they may know how, On a cross our sins were bought. He was tortured and crucified, On a cross at calvary. So we might have eternal life, As a gift for you and me. I hope none I love is left behind, As I will be waiting for YOU. My heart rejoices to know you'll be there, When our souls will be renewed.

I Hope
I hope today finds you living To the fullest of your ability... With a smile on your face, And laughter in your heart, And not a single trace, Of sadness or harm. I hope you find the time, To take a moment just for you, To relax and unwind, Doing things you like to do. Have A Wonderful night!

Happy Easter
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An Introduction Of Myself To You
Hi there. This mini blog entry is one way for me to tell you of myself. I am from Alberta Canada and have lived here most of my life. My life being almost 39 years now. I am the mother of one child who is 16. I love the brat very much, yet don't we all love our children this way. I love all animals bur perfer cats and am the proud owner of a sliver tabby named Kisses, my lil lover kitty. I am currently working with a major hotel chain as a housekeeper, my first real job in 20 years. I seperated from my childs father 2 years ago and there was no need for me to work at that time. I enjoy my job quite a bit, yet struggle with the lack of self pride in my co-workers. I love to write poetry and I am now trying to write short stories, yet I tend to procrastnate a bit ( a lot )doing so. Not sure what else to write right now, so I will end this mini entry right here.

Unconditional Love
Unconditional Love To describe what love is its something words can't grasp actions speaking louder telling if its forever almost always its never forever is almost never seen its unrecognizable in these times crisis deters us from whats dear we don't know what we have til we don't have it no more you may love me you may say you do but do you truely do even when the clearest skies turn black when nothing is right but what we have? does it have to be sexual can it not just be love can i not depend on my friends is it wrong to have someone to rely on is it hard to beg for something just to get smacked back I'll never know what love is cause i can't seem to find it but if I ever do get it will i even know i have it? ~Timmy~

Merry Easter...jew!
Cathlic, prodestant, anglican, MUSLISM, etc. etc. ALL JEWISH! Thats right happy campers, if you're christian, be it any sect, you worship a jewish god! Have a little think about that, and what it means. And remember, muslism are christians too, so it makes no sense to have a "holy war" with people who worship the same freak'in god!Whilst you're dwelling on all that religious thought, spare another thought for the fact easter actually comes from the paegen festival Estros. So it doesn't even have anything to do with your christian beliefs :D Remember that whilst you're shoving chocolate in your gob :D

Happy Easter!!!!
Happy Easter to you! May God's blessings be upon you! This day I pray... That His graces will be with you, too! This very day... We remember the greatest mystery... Christ is risen! As it was told throughout all history. May Christ keep you This day and bless you forever! He's paid our price So we can gain the greatest treasure! Let's remember... Through His death, we shall always live! Through His rising, There is true hope, He'll always give! (own poem)

Sacred Rose
The person who did this was Jack Benny.... You have to read this it is absolutely beautiful...... Each year he sent her roses, And the note would always say, I love you even more this year, Than last year on this day. My love for you will always grow, With every passing year." She knew this was the last time That the roses would appear. She thought, he ordered roses In advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, That he would pass away. He always liked to do things early, Way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, Everything would work out fine. She trimmed the stems and Placed them in a very special vase. Then, sat the vase beside The portrait of his smiling face. She would sit for hours, In her husband's favorite chair. While staring at his picture, And the roses sitting there. A year went by, and it was To live without her mate. With loneliness and soli

I Did Good Most Of The Day
Hubby was home today, but was sick. So I banned him to the downstairs. I cannot afford to have the kids or myself get sick. The kids and I had a great day. We played on the computer alot, did many loads of laundry, dishes, cooked dinner, and played some more. They didn't fight (much) and I hardly yelled. I was trying to keep myself busy so I would not think about how I felt like a single mom today. Once the thought that if I had to, I could do this on my own, came into my head. I guess it is good to know that we'd be ok if something were to ever happen. I am trying to stay positive tonight, but the overwhelming feelings of being alone all day is kinda catching up. Weird to be alone, while he was just downstairs.

Easter Dinner
wow today i had my easter dinner.cause i work easter .i had my brother ken his wife and daughter over my sister . my two aunts daisey and beacky and allan over it was a good dinner we all had fun enjoyed ourselfs played games. it was really nice hope you all have a nice easter too.

Good The Bad And The Uglee
i guess if i put this in here that in some small way ill get some clossier .ive seen some prity grafick stuff in my time cut up bodies to sixteen year old girls that ive pulled out of the water after 36 hours . just in case your thinking how , i used to be in a search and resceu called tri county, here in new brunswick. even when i was in the army ive been shot at and shot at poeple and have hit some .but my point is they always try to get you to talk about what happend . but you never forget those images that are in your minds eye.as i said there are some things id rather just forget but cant and never will i guess . but i have come to gripps with them ,i havent forgiven my self for some but i can live with them . i guess thats why i have such a great respect for men and women that risk all to save some . it is the werst job in the world when you just found some ones lost child dead in the woods ,you just wish you could bring them back to life but you cant .well this beers for all tho

Numbers...
Tell me the truth...but only what I wanna hear... Read my mind like it was nothing... Your eyes hide the world...while mine bare it all...(damn them!) Defense goes up...yet security shot down... It scares me like nothing else...too late I'm hooked...thus now terrified... And where the hell to run when its impossible to hide...? Not again...no no...never again... What keeps happening to my master plan...y'know...the one that involves the very opposite of this...? Story of my life...

Angels Among Us
This song has some very special meaning to me as I remember that when this song first aired back in 1997 I was living in New Hampshire and at the time this song had hit the airwaves we had just experienced a wave of tragedies when two New Hampshire State Police troopers and a judge were murdered by a lone gunman who later was killed by police in Vermont after a shootout and the following week another police officer was killed in the town of Epsom NH by someone who had just gotten out of prison on parole. The irony with that one was that the young officer in question had just come back from the funeral for the two troopers. Alabama Videos | Movie Clips | Columbus Lofts

Nickelback If Everyone Cared Lyrics
From underneath the trees, we watch the sky confusing stars with satellites I never dreamed that you'd be mine But here we are, we're here tonight Singing Amen, I, I'm alive (I'm alive) Singing Amen, I, I'm alive [Chorus:] If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and swallowed their pride Then we'd see the day, when nobody died And I'm singing A, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive And in the air the fireflies Our only light in paradise would show the world they were wrong And teach them all to sing along Singing Amen, I, I'm alive (I'm alive) Singing A, Amen, I, I'm alive [Chorus x2] If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and swallowed their pride Then we'd see the day, when nobody died [ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ] If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and

Firefighters Tears
firefighters tears The alarm rang, as it had so many times before. He was the first of the fireman up and out, Awakened from his bed at the station By the clanging of the bell. Engine 3 pulled out of the bay, Dispatch paged another station. And all the firemen aboard the truck Were tensed with anticipation "It's gonna be a nice 'un, boys," He said as he donned his gear. And the young bucks smiled at him As they drew ever near. They turned onto his own street And he could see the fire's work He hoped their mother woke his kids To see their dad at work. His heart sank as he saw the home That he so dearly loved Going up in Smoke and flames As he donned his gloves. Agressively he hit the fire And searched the rooms above. And with a flare of personal vengeance He saved what remained of his home. As he left the world of flaming hell He saw his little girl He ran quickly to her side and said "Honey, Daddy's here." He would never forget what next she said As he held her clos

You're Right Here (rip Ryan)
I close my eyes, Oh Lord I try, To make sense, Of half of this. I know you have your reason, Won’t you tell me what it is, These tears fall like the rain, Softly I pray… For a little sunshine To help me on my way, I’m so close, But I’m so far, From knowing, Just who you are, But my heart tells me, You’re right here, My heart tells me, you’re right here. I reach for you, Won’t you Reach For me, I need you, Can’t you see, Can’t you see,,,, I’m so cold, I’m so scared… So I send to you, These prayers… I’m so close, Bet I’m so far, From knowing, Just who you are, But my heart tells me, You’re right here, My heart tells you’re right here. Then through the darkness, I hear you call, Say’n I’m here my son, I never left at all, Run to me, It’ll be okay, Know in your heart, I’m here always… X2 I’m so close, But I'm so far, And now I know, Just who you are, I know in my heart, You’re right here, In know in my heart, you’re right here….

Happy First Saturday In April!
Just checking in... I'm visibly healed from my accident, but my emotions are fully enmeshed in regret and longing for a replacement 4Runner for my hubby. It was his daily driver... I got a call from my best bud today, Sherm, he's moving to a new house, YEA for him and his honey! I don't want that moving part though! Sorry too far away to be enlisted in the moving party.. I need to clean up my storage unit as it is! I severely need energy, resources and assistance! I have a large unit I want to empty, and sell off a lot of stuff.. but it's overwhelming. We have no space in our 1 bdrm rental.. and I need to get organized after paring down the clothing issue... A friend is coming to town soon that specializes in that now as a career, if you seek organization in your home, office or where ever, check with Sandy to see if she can help you: http://www.organizedbysandy.com/ She will be in the San Diego area June 28-July 8th as scheduled at this time, and she lives in the Northern Dal

Conflicted
Life slips through your fingers like sand through the hourglass, Tell yourself it don't matter, these things never last, Least not like they use to, So you reach for the bottle that sits on the table, You Tell yourself it don't matter, As you peal off the label, No, not anymore, (chorus) It all seems so useless, No reason to move on, You fight for all your worth, To find the memory's too strong, (2nd chorus: the hold is too strong) You want to give up, But still you hold on, You give all you've got, Wonder'n were you went wrong, street to Walkin down a dark heartache and main, To a bar on the corner, That don't have a name, Oddly it use to, She's there smokin a long cigerette, Just like the moment, You try so hard to forget, But it won't go away, Chorus Now it's alone in the cold rain, A little too cliche, Hallmark needs a card for this kind on thing, and the tears roll down, One more night alone in your bed, As the alcohol sinks you, And

Danvers State Hospital Fire
well at 1:50 am today the grounds of the old danvers state hospital and several buildings caught fire, the old building which little remains was untouched but the new and shitty condo buildings burnt up like a lumber yard. all i have to say is...... and sucks to be avalon bay

Moving On. Phase 1: Commence.
Last night was great. I hung out with Jess and saw Grindhouse with all my friends. I had a great time with Jess just like before when we were just friends. I didn’t feel attached or lost from her anymore. If I was lost from her…how come she is still around? I just enjoy the time I have with her. It was nice to not care about it around her, and just enjoy her company. We all love you Jess! (Justin, Tierney, and me..) It was good seeing you.

I Do Believe
Places we’ve been, Things we’ve seen, Times we had it all, Times we didn’t have a thing, When dreams were all we had, To get us through the night, Lying all alone, Dying to hold someone tight, When tears were our comfort, When a smile was the pain, No matter how bright the rainbow, We could only feel the rain, Well I know the reason, For every tear to fill my eye, I’ve found hope in the darkness, The moment you showed me the light, Use to think Heaven was too far away, It just wasn’t meant for me, But every time I look in your Angel Eyes, Baby, I do belive….. MWAH!

Home
When it all comes to end, When it all comes to pass, When the hours is upon us, When the last grain falls in the hourglass, Will time forget us, Will time be our friend, Will you still be wrapped up in me, Will be beat the end, Is this what love feels like, Is this what the prophets profes, Is this what we spent our lives wishing for, Is it to always be like this, What would i do without you, What would I say, What would I do to keep you, What can I do to cheat forever of one more day. I know I found home, I know its with you, I know that I would wait forever over, I will always find my way back to you.

Taken From Slirp - Information On Downraters
There is a site similar to the 'I'm Bored' feature here on Cherry that enables ANY person (even non Cherry members) to rate your picture to scroll to the next one. So, maybe the person downrating your picture isn't even ON Cherrytap and are on this site that allows anyone outside of Cherry to rate your pictures. Makes you stop and think, hmm honesty eh? lol Now stop moaning and groaning. The site is called http://www.cherryphotos.com/ See for yourself.

Keep The Comments A Cummin... Especially In The Lips Contest Pleaseeee.. It Ends Tomorrow Afternoon
THE LIPS CONTEST IS ONLY FOR THE WEEKEND AND THE OTHER ONE I FELL BEHIND IN BEING SICK ALL WEEK :-( IM IN THE SEXY LIPS CONTEST AND ALSO WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST.. HERE ARE THE LINKS IF YOU GET AROUND TO HELPING OUT THAT WOULD BE GREAT ;-).. SEXIEST LIPS CONTEST WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST THANKS FOR YOUR HELP IN ADVANCE MICHELLE AKA HOOVERGIRL COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED SO COMMENT TILL YOUR FINGERS HURT ;-)!!

Things I Love About You
I love the softness in your eyes, How it opens the window to your heart, I feel so safe with you, And letting down my guard, I love the way your smile lights my life, Even the days I just wish would end, I see your smile, And I can find the strength again, I love your touch so tender, The way you feel next t o me, How it feels so good to surrender, And gain everything, I love your soft lips, And caressing them with mine, No matter how many times I kiss you, it always feels like the first time, I love your love for the lord, How you're not afraid to show your faith, One of the most beautiful things about you, Is seeing Heaven in your shining face, I love hearing you say my name, How it sends chills through me, And in a millions words, I couldn't say what you do to me. I love your love for life, How you pick yourself up when life holds you down, You always take the worst in things, And find a way to turn it around, I love your compassionate heart

Hey Yall
Hey Just a quick thing to let yall know that I am around just having fun with my family! I wanted to just say hey and that I will be back and commenting probably Tuesday after things settle down some lol. Hope you all have a GREAT Easter!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE!!! I love ya!!!

What The Hell?
This is amazing... MSNBC has reported that while immigrants are flooding major metropolitan areas, native-born americans are fleeing these areas for better living conditions and lower cost of living. So what does this tell you? Better living conditions?!? Are the immigrants really making it that bad to live in the metro areas? Isn't it about time that "bring me your tired, your poor, your homeless" comes to an end? Case in point... I was APPROVED for a Federal Pell Grant to go back to school at the University of Denver, but I received a letter from the Department of Education that stated although I was approved, there's no more funds left to transfer the funds to me. GODDAMN! I bet if my name were Habib Muhammad I would get approved in a damn heartbeat!! What do YOU think? Here's the link.... Immigrants Flooding Major Metropolitan Areas DemonStorm

Miss You
Can't count the days, Since the last time I held you, I can't count the ways, I've tried to live without you, I still feel like time changed nothing, It's distance that separates, i still dream about you, So real I wake up calling your name, i still think about you, Lately it's driving me insane, None of this makes sense, It just doesn't fit the frame, I miss you baby, more than words could ever say, I miss you baby, And this crazy life just ain’t the same, I need you, I want you, Won't you come back to stay, I miss you baby, And this pain wont go away, Drive down this highway, Another 800 miles today, I drive down this highway, To the same town I gave my life away, It alls seems different, though nothings really changed, Another sleepless night, empty friends to pass the time, Another sleepless night, A hotel TV and a cheap bottle of wine, This fame and fortune, Sure does eat your mind, every day I pray, You made it out okay, everyday I Pra

Cherrytap Members, Know About This
I found this article online while reading a blog that had a link to it and wanted to share it will all members here, regarding your pics and photos on CherryTap that can be taken off this site and place on another site without your knowledge and permission. I think it is very important that such things be made aware to all that are members here with receiving updated news and info as to what they do here and how our material is being distributed off this site. Especially since now there are program installed here that can give you time out and auto delete your profile for rating and whatnot, yet it is our stuff that i am sure many here weren't aware can be used elsewhere without us knowing. Here is the name of the other 2 sites that takes your photos that are in your folder and placed onto these websites. The link to these affilated site owned by CherryTap that uses YOUR photos and stash off this community based site without your knowledge and awareness is known as CherryPhoto and

Love And Tears
I gave you my heart, On broken wings, You healed me, mended me, Held me in a dream, Now you stair at me lifeless, You’re loves dead and gone, I did all I could, Tell what went wrong, You swear nothins wrong, But this can’t be right, I gave you my love, I gave you my life, Now where do I go, Cause I can’t stay here, The perfect contradiction, Of love and tears, I strike up conversation, Not a word you say, I fire questions like lightning, And they just fall away, Act like you don’t hear me, When I’m scream’n your name, Pretend you don’t notice, Hell nothin’s changed. You swear nothins wrong, But this can’t be right, I gave you my love, I gave you my life, Now where do I go, Cause I can’t stay here, The perfect contradiction, Of love and tears,

Health
Ok it has been no secert that I have been sick alot this year and I suppose some of you are being to wonder WTF. So here ya go First have asthma which I have had for some 24 years now for awhile it masked itself and the need for medications were not needed. But this year is different, perhaps it is the abnormal winter we had but I have had pneumonia twice... the last time being the worst. I have also been battle with anemia and a pretty severe b-12 deficency for which now I take large doses of iron and biweekly b-12 shots. I have been extremely tired do to both I am sure then and the stress here and poof! instant illness-- might I add they cant figure out why I just didnt want people to think they have been abannoned... I am here but sometimes require extra rest. Now the good part is other than this I am extremely healthy! ~LOL even my blood pressure is good. Ok health update done-

Attacking People On The Internet... Aka Trolling At Anyone, Although This Is Family Specific....
So, I have heard people have been targeting my friends on CT because they are family members, although of a ultra-weird branch which loves the dude from that Aaliyah vampire movie... and acts like he's of importance... But without further adieu, my point... Just because someone says something you dont like, is afiliated with someone you dont like or is a family member... Doesnt give you any right to attack them. Thank you.

Heart
HELLO, FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT KNOW ME WELL, IM KATRINA. IM A MOM OF SIX KIDS. FIVE BOYS AND ONE GIRL.. IM ALSO A MOM OF TWO SONS WHO SUFFER FROM AUTISM... BUT IM NOT ALONE... THERE ARE MANY FAMOUS PEOPLE OUT THERE JUST LIKE ME. FOR EXAMPLE JUST EARLIER THIS YEAR TONI BRAXTON HAD A CHILD DIAGNOSED. THERE IS ALSO SYLVESTER STALLONE WHO HAS A SON WITH IT, DOUG FLUTTIE AND MANY OTHERS. SO NOW YOUR ASKING WHY IS THIS CRAZY BITCH TELLING US THIS... WELL LET ME TELL YA. IF YOU HAVE ANY HEART IM GONNA TELL YOU HOW YOU CAN HELP US AS PARENTS AND CAREGIVERS AS WELL AS HOW TO HELP THESE KIDS.... BUT FIRST LET ME TELL YOU A FEW FACTS YOU PROB. DONT KNOW... *** 1 IN 166 KIDS IS DAGNOSED WITH AUTISM *** 1 IN 104 BOYS IS ON A AUTISM SPECTRUM *** 67 CHILDREN ARE DIAGNOSED EACH DAY *** A NEW CASE IS DIAGNOSED EVERY 20 MINT. *** MORE KIDS WILL BE DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM THIS YR. THAN WITH AIDS,DIABETES AND CANCER COMBINED *** AUTISM IS THE FASTEST-GROWING SERIOUS DEVELOPMENTAL DISABIL

Apples And Wine
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. Now Men...Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with. Share this with all the good apples you know!

Sagitarius
SAGITTARIUS November 23 - December 22 Ruling Planet: JUPITER, God of money, luck and good times between the sheets. Sagos are playful, laid back and oh-so fun to party with. They are wild, and may be the BADDEST party people you ever meet! One thing to be wary of is that Sagos like to talk SHIT! Sagos probably make better friends than lovers, but if you happen to score a one-nighter with them,be prepared to do stuff you've NEVER done before!Sagos are spontaneous and adventurous and most have probably been caught doing it somewhere public.When they find the right lover, they will give it 100s long as the commitment is returned. FAVE POSITION: They are up for anything. Quality AND Quantity. BEST SEX TOY: Handwrite a sexual fantasy of yours and leave it on their pillow. You'll be surprised at what happens next! SAGITTARIAN FEMALE IN BED The Sago woman is a handful! She changes her mind more often than not, is blunt, and oversensitive. But can u handle her open-minded se

Last Chance
Can i count on you if i bow my head and pray can i trust the words you send and make it threw the day i need your guidence to piont the way because the path is not yet clear i NEED YOU to piont the way because of all my fear I was lost and all alone until i saw the light but i was saved by love alone because it shined so brite thank you lord for hearing my heart when it needed you the most NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE OR YOUR DREAMS

The Wise Man
6. The Wise Man The wise man tells you Where you have fallen And where you yet may fall - Invaluable secrets! Follow him, follow the way. Let him chasten and teach you and keep you from mischief. The world may hate him. But good men love him. Do not look for bad company Or live with men who do not care. Find friends who love the truth. Drink deeply. Live in serenity and joy. The wise man delights in the truth And follows the law of the awakened. The farmer channels water to his land. The fletcher whittles his arrows. And the carpenter turns his wood. So the wise man directs his mind. The wind cannot shake a mountain. Neither praise nor blame moves the wise man. He is clarity. Hearing the truth, He is like a lake, Pure and tranquil and deep. Want nothing. Where there is desire, Say nothing. Happiness or sorrow - Whatever befalls you, Walk on Untouched, unattached. Do not ask for family or power or wealth, Either for yourself or for another. Can a wi

Saturday 4/7/07 #2
Just an update on my online sister that I forgot to post on my other entry. I talked to my online dad today finally, and he said that Lisa is doing ok for now, but is going downhill everyday. She is now bedbound and has a caregiver coming twice a week to wash her hair and give her a bed bath and paint her nails and do whatever Lisa would like her to do for her since her mom's health isn't good enough to do all of it for Lisa. She now has a colostomy as well and a catheter in her bladder and some sort of tube in her stomach that goes to a bag that catches the food she eats rather than her vomiting it back up like she was doing before her surgery last month. My online dad said she has pretty much stopped talking and joking around like she used to unless she is spoken to and pretty much just wants to sleep all the time. When she had surgery last month they said there wasn't anything they could do to get rid of the cancer as it was all inside her abdomen and blocking her lar

What I'm Going Through...
It started to sink in the other day... about the severaty of the accident. until then I had been very upbeat about the future. I knew that muscle was removed, I knew my hand wouldn't be the same. I tried to not let it get to me. It did, I finally cracked. I broke down. The more I stare at my hand the worse it gets. 8 pins, 26 sutures, 1 metal plate. Thats what is holding me together. Everybody has been supportive of me, and I'm thankful for that. Right now an investagation is taking place, to see if really was faulty machinery. Until then my hands are tied. (literally) Yet everyone keeps bringing up lawyers. I've already thought everything through. I'm very independent, I pride myself on it. But it seems I keep getting pushed into the same decision. I snapped back at my mom today. I'm sorry for that. The fact that I can't leave the house isn't helping either. I try not to get like this. I got very emotional. I'm sorry if I pushed you away, or if I do i

The Fool
5. The Fool How long the night to the watchman, How long the road to the weary traveler, How long the wandering of many lives To the fool who misses the way. If the traveler cannot find Master or friend to go with him, Let him travel alone Rather than with a fool for company. "My children, my wealth!" So the fool troubles himself. But how has he children or wealth? He is not even his own master. The fool who knows he is a fool Is that much wiser. The fool who thinks he is wise Is a fool indeed. Does the spoon taste the soup? A fool may live all his life In the company of a master And still miss the way. The tongue tastes the soup. If you are awake in the presence of a master One moment will show you the way. The fool is his own enemy. The mischief is his undoing. How bitterly he suffers! Why do what you will regret? Why bring tears upon yourself? Do only what you do not regret, And fill yourself with joy. For a while the fool's mischief Tastes sweet, s

Flowers
4. Flowers Who shall conquer this world And the world of death with all its gods? Who shall discover The shining way of dharma? You shall, even as the man Who seeks flowers Finds the most beautiful, The rarest. Understand that the body Is merely the foam of a wave, The shadow of a shadow. Snap the flower arrows of desire And then, unseen, Escape the king of death. And travel on. Death overtakes the man Who gathers flowers When with distracted mind and thirsty senses He searches vainly for happiness In the pleasures of the world. Death fetches him away As a flood carries off a sleeping village. Death overcomes him When with distracted mind and thirsty senses He gathers flowers. He will never have his fill Of the pleasures of the world. The bee gathers nectar from the flower Without marring its beauty or perfume. So let the master settle, and wander. Look to your own faults, What you have done or left undone. Overlook the faults of others. Like a lov

Mind
3. Mind As the fletcher whittles And makes straight his arrows, So the master directs His straying thoughts. Like a fish out of water, Stranded on the shore, Thoughts thrash and quiver, For how can they shake off desire? They tremble, they are unsteady, They wander at their own will. It is good to control them, And to master them brings happiness. But how subtle they are, How elusive! The task is to quieten them, And by ruling them to find happiness. With single-mindedness The master quells his thoughts. He ends their wandering. Seated in the cave of the heart, He finds freedom. How can a troubled mind Understand the way? If a man is disturbed He will never be filled with knowledge. An untroubled mind, No longer seeking to consider What is right and what is wrong, A mind beyond judgments, Watches and understands. Know that the body is a fragile jar, And make a castle of your mind. In every trial Let understanding fight for you To defend what you hav

Wakefulness
2. Wakefulness Wakefulness is the way to life. The fool sleeps As if he were already dead, But the master is awake And he lives forever. He watches. He is clear. How happy he is! For he sees that wakefulness is life. How happy he is, Following the path of the awakened. With great perseverance He meditates, seeking Freedom and happiness. So awake, reflect, watch. Work with care and attention. Live in the way And the light will grow in you. By watching and working The master makes for himself an island Which the flood cannot overwhelm. The fool is careless. But the master guards his watching. It is his most precious treasure. He never gives in to desire. He meditates. And in the strength of his resolve He discovers true happiness. He overcomes desire - And from the tower of his wisdom He looks down with dispassion Upon the sorrowing crowd. From the mountain top He looks down at those Who live close to the ground. Mindful among the mindless, Awake wh

Choices
1. Choices We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the world. Speak or act with an impure mind And trouble will follow you As the wheel follows the ox that draws the cart. We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the world. Speak or act with a pure mind And happiness will follow you As your shadow, unshakable. "Look how he abused me and hurt me, How he threw me down and robbed me." Live with such thoughts and you live in hate. "Look how he abused me and hurt me, How he threw me down and robbed me." Abandon such thoughts, and live in love. In this world Hate never yet dispelled hate. Only love dispels hate. This is the law, Ancient and inexhaustible. You too shall pass away. Knowing this, how can you quarrel? How easily the wind overturns a frail tree. Seek happiness in the senses, Indulge in food and sleep, And you too will be uprooted. The wind cannot over

Buddhist Literature
The Dhammapada Translated by Thomas Byrom The Dhammapada, an anthology of 423 verses, has long been recognized as one of the masterpieces of early Buddhist literature. From ancient times to the present, the Dhammapada has been regarded as the most succinct expression of the Buddha's teaching found in the Theravada Pali Canon of scriptures known as the Khuddaka Nikaya ("Minor Collection") of the Sutta Pitaka. Dhammpada text on a pal leaf This Dhammapada palm leaf manuscript (44.5 * 6.5 cm) in Sinhalese characters, of which the first and last pages are shown, is believed to be the oldest extant copy of the scripture. Photo: Courtesy of K. D. Paranavitana, Assistant Archivist, Department of National Archives, Colombo, Sri Lanka. Buddhist tradition has it that shortly after the passing away of the Buddha his disciples met in council at Rajagaha for the purpose of recalling to mind the truths they had received from their beloved Teacher during the forty-five years of his ministry.

The Noble Eightfold Path
1. Right View Wisdom 2. Right Intention 3. Right Speech Ethical Conduct 4. Right Action 5. Right Livelihood 6. Right Effort Mental Development 7. Right Mindfulness 8. Right Concentration The Noble Eightfold Path describes the way to the end of suffering, as it was laid out by Siddhartha Gautama. It is a practical guideline to ethical and mental development with the goal of freeing the individual from attachments and delusions; and it finally leads to understanding the truth about all things. Together with the Four Noble Truths it constitutes the gist of Buddhism. Great emphasis is put on the practical aspect, because it is only through practice that one can attain a higher level of existence and finally reach Nirvana. The eight aspects of the path are not to be understood as a sequence of single steps, instead they are highly interdependent principles that have to be seen in relationship with each other. 1. Right View Right view is the beginning and the end o

Meditation Instructions In The Thai Theravada Tradition
Meditation is a centerpiece of Buddhist practice. It is a method to develop the mind. The emphasis is on concentration, focus, clarity, calmness, and insight. There are different techniques; most of them are easy to learn and very useful in daily life. The following is an introduction to samatha-vipassana meditation in the Thai Theravada tradition (adapted with minor amendments from the Bung Wai Forest Monastery, Thailand). Introduction to Insight Meditation The purpose of Insight Meditation is not to create a system of beliefs, but rather to give guidance on how to see clearly into the nature of the mind. In this way one gains first-hand understanding of the way things are, without reliance on opinions or theories - a direct experience, which has its own vitality. It also gives rise to the sense of deep calm that comes from knowing something for oneself beyond any doubt. The term Insight Meditation (samatha-vipassana) refers to practices for the mind that develop calm (samath

To Be Beautiful
To Be Beautiful is to be yourself Show your true colors Shine like the sun Glowing from the rays Knowing you are like no other Not Better than anybody but better than hoping to be To be beautiful is to be bold Inside and Out!

Karma And Rebirth
The wheel of life, or "samsara", is an ancient symbol that has the same meaning in Buddhism and Hinduism. It is symbolizes the cycle of birth, life, and death. When one revolution of the wheel is completed, life begins again with rebirth. What is karma? Karma is a Sanskrit word that literally means "action". The word is used to refer to volitional acts as well as the forces that arise from these acts. The idea of karma had existed in ancient Indian philosophy before the time of Siddhartha Gautama, and it became an important element of Buddhist philosophy. The Hindu and Buddhist concepts of karma are quite similar, although Hinduism makes a further distinction between different types of karma, such as present karma, latent karma, and future karma. In the understanding of both thought systems, the law of karma describes the connection between actions and the resulting forces, as follows: wholesome actions lead to wholesome states while unwholesome actions lead to unwholesome sta

Who.was.your.last
L A S T . P E R S O N. 1. You said I love you to? Daniel 2. Rode in a car with chelsea n' lacey 3.Went to the movies with? mutha n' brother 4. Went to the mall with? daniel, mutha, brother, mutha'z friend 5. Made you laugh? Daniel 7. Last person that told you they Loved you? ??hym?? W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R. 1. Pierce your nose or tongue? have the nose want the tongue 2. Be serious or be funny?: depends on the situation... 3. Drink whole or skim milk?: milk makez me sick 4. Die in a fire or get shot?: get shot!! 5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? iz there a difference? A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y. 1. Do you like anyone?: yeah i du!! A lOt! 2. Sun or moon?: Moon! 3. Winter or Fall? fall 4. left or right?: riiiight 5. 10 acquaintances or two best friends?: 2 BeStFrIeNdZ 6. Sunny or rain? rain when he'z here, stuck inside all day! A B O U T . Y O U 1. Middle Name?: Nicole 2. First N

The Four Noble Truths Of Buddhism
1. Life means suffering. To live means to suffer, because the human nature is not perfect and neither is the world we live in. During our lifetime, we inevitably have to endure physical suffering such as pain, sickness, injury, tiredness, old age, and eventually death; and we have to endure psychological suffering like sadness, fear, frustration, disappointment, and depression. Although there are different degrees of suffering and there are also positive experiences in life that we perceive as the opposite of suffering, such as ease, comfort and happiness, life in its totality is imperfect and incomplete, because our world is subject to impermanence. This means we are never able to keep permanently what we strive for, and just as happy moments pass by, we ourselves and our loved ones will pass away one day, too. 2. The origin of suffering is attachment. The origin of suffering is attachment to transient things and the ignorance thereof. Transient things do not only include the phy

I Am Coming Home - A Wonderful Tribute To Our Troops
This video nearly brought a tear to my eyes. Please watch it and take it all in. Neal ''I Am Coming Home'' Inspires the Hearts of Patriotic HeroesAdd to My Profile | More Videos

Game:: First Reaction!!
Okay this is called FIRST REACTION ... type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 40 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it! Repost it for all of your friends... 1. Cigarettes: pointless 2. Sex: itz gurr-ate, but riiight now, itz the one thing that i hate due tu an outkum! 3. Relationships: are so komplikating...why doez it have tu be thyz way? 4. Your Last Ex: omg...i miss hym more than anything! He'z alwayz on my mind...i love hym tu death....Why doez it have tu be lyke thiz babe? 5. Michigan Football: um, .....i don't know 6. Crack: um, dude pull up ur pantz! 7. Food: itz there.... 8. The President: HAHAHA 9. War: don't get me started! 10. Car: i need one! 11. Gas Prices: thank god my feet still work! 12. Halloween: LUV it.....letz have two .....n' skip christmas!! 13. Bon Jovi: um, i guezz ok!! .... a lil' over-rated! 14. Religion: i don't know..... 15. MySpace: i'm addikted.

Alone Again
Four o'clock in the morning Afraid to open my eyes Another day of grief, A day of fear. All alone I feel. I try to justify all the pain, All of this guilt before my eyes. Another day of confusion, A day of wondering. Is it ever just going to go away? All this pain that I feel, And all this anger, is it going to stay? Ten o'clock in the evening, Afraid of the nightmares. Again my breathing stops. All I can do is stare into the night. What is it that causes this feeling? Another night of crying, A night of hiding, Alone once again. My heart feels empty, And I can't cry another tear. Another day wasted on insecurity, A day of wonder. Is this ever going to end?

About Buddhism
The greatest achievement is selflessness. The greatest worth is self-mastery. The greatest quality is seeking to serve others. The greatest precept is continual awareness. The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything. The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways. The greatest magic is transmuting the passions. The greatest generosity is non-attachment. The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind. The greatest patience is humility. The greatest effort is not concerned with results. The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go. The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances. Atisha (11th century Tibetan Buddhist master)

Tu The One That Let Me Go!
Before i begin, i would just lyke tu tell hym something...."I fuckin' love you with all my heart god damnit n' i ain't lettin' go....you kan be an ass....treat me lyke shyt.....tell me stupid liez (u know u lie).....i don't give a fuck...i'm here tu stay...u know why? well i'll tell ya....ur my bestfriend....my everything....i may not have you az my man, but i'm not luzin' you az a friend....kk, so, don't you get it babe..?....u hurt me once, then twice, then three tymez.....where am i?.....wow, i'm styll standin' here waitin' for the day you realize that we r so perfekt tugether...hmm....doesn't that just sound so um....annoying....well deal with it kuz i know you want me just az bad but either way you were gonna hurt someone....u knew the whole tyme that if you chose her...i'd styll be here in the end....n' you know it...n' i know it......n' well, here i am...here tu stay!! Again, i love you" Ok, so u used the lyne "your only seventeen" HA ha Ha...i laugh...bekuz i'm not ur averag

*whatever*
&& i just keep um a kumin...here'z another i wrote! n' yez, i wuz really feelin' the drama when i wrote thyz...lol!!! *Whatever* Call me a slut, call me a ho, say what ever you want, you're fuckin low, call me fat, call me stupid, get out of my way, you're not cupid, you thynk ur perfekt, some sexy babe, come on, du you really thynk that way? , i kry for myself, but i should kry for you, i du what i want, you du what ur friends du, So, say what you want, waste ur breath, i don't fuckin' kare, it ain't kausin' my death!!

Through My Eyes
Like tyrants assembled with tears Trembling like a tomb And singing like a statue I am as empty as the ocean. My blind eyes scream in silence So this eternal echo will be known. Given to the foils of time, And shattered like plate glass- You freeze within the fire. Darkness now lives at daylight, And shadows turn to the ghosts. With all that shined is hollow You imagine unconsciously. And pretending to sleep you realize, Nothing is what it seems.

Contest Starting 4/9/2007
I think it's about time for me to hold a contest... "Sexiest Cherry" Males and females. Rates worth 2 comments, and comments worth one. Bombing allowed. Self commenting NOT allowed. You will need to rely on your friends for this one. 1st place will receive a Porsche. 2nd place will receive a Tropical Vacation. 3rd place will receive a Ring (man's or woman's) and a Platinum Cherry. 4th and 5th place will receive a Platinum Cherry. All other places will receive a Trophy. So Private message me with the link to the picture you would like to use. All pictures MUST BE Safe for work!!! Any questionable pictures will not be used. I would like to start this contest April 9th, and run it thru midnight April 15th. Please repost this for me. There may be people that are not in my friends list that would like to be in this contest..

Then She Kame Along!
Thiz iz a poem i wrote...yeah, itz kinda um...well, itz not the best..but i wuz upset n' wrote it fast! Woot WoO!!! hehe! I f-in el oh ve ee all my poetry!! Then She Came Along!!! I love him, and he loved me, then she came along, and ruined it for me I like how it used tu be, he'd hold me close, make me feel warm and secure, then she came along, take a look in the mirror He'd kiss my lips, and tell me he loved me, then she came along, this is all so wrong He'd call me everyday, just tu hear my voice, then she came along and took him from me He used tu cuddle with me, he made me feel so free, then she came along, and ruined it for me!!!

Smart Bulletin That Needs To Be Read... Please Enjoy.
I Log on to read some email and comments and maybe a message in my shoutbox but never stay long. I also choose not to pay money for VIC or to make sticky bulletins or even a shout out. The reasons for this are simple. The OWNERS, MIKE AND RYAN, believe they are working hard at making this better for others but truthfully this is mainly about filling their pockets. It is business. I glanced at the bulletins and read one put up by stewie. It intrigued me because of the CHERRYphotos and the CHERRYstash links that were shown. For every link you click, For every thing you buy, for every time you log in thru a link THE SITE EARNS MONEY. Also all the email you click that is sent, YES I MEAN THE SPAM MAIL, they also get money. The site is run by accumulating information and sharing or selling it to other companies who wish to purchase this information. I am sure there are others who are reaping some of the benefits from this but it mainly goes to those who OWN the company. I myself was

Easter Thoughts
I have a friend who does not color Easter eggs. I think because she does not condone the Christian implication. I on the other hand feel weird if I don't color eggs. It is something we did when I was a child, and, yes it did at that time have Christian overtones. We went to church (Sunrise and regular) and sang "Halleluiah" at the top of our lungs. I had a child. She and I have awesome memories of coloring eggs and easter even w/out the whole church "thing." It is her favorite holiday. Stolen from the pagan rituals easter symbolizes birth, harmony and renewal. Peace everyone!!

Aeropostale
OK so I do this not entirely with anger and thru firey red eyes but also with the mind set of understanding that some people suffer from ignorance. A few weeks ago a very good friend of mine, who happens to be the assistant manager of AEROPOSTALE, told me that her store was looking for a new head of purchasing and merchandising and told me to apply. So I did. I had my interview and it went well, infact the manager Allison and I were joking by the end of it, good sign right?????? WRONG, today I received the phone call from Allison and it didn't go the way I was expecting, instead of being told I had the job and I needed to come in and fill out my tax papers, I was told the position had been filled. I kept my cool in an never ending quest to better my interview skills I asked why I had been over-looked for the position. What she said to me thru me for a loop and hurt, she said to me that "I didn't meet the physical outward appearance that AERO wanted for their store"... In other words sh

Saturday 4/7/07
Not much to report today, I only went out of the house for an MRI and lunch lol. I thought they'd never find a vein to put the contrast in for my MRI lol I got stuck at least 5 or 6 times by an MRI tech and 2 IV therapists lol, so needless to say my right arm is killing me right about now. Anyway, that's pretty much all I did today since I didnt get home til late this afternoon. We had a little bit of snow today which is kinda weird for April I think, but it's all melted off now but still cold out. Well, I think I'm gonna end this here and go to bed shortly, I'm really tired tonight for some rason. Have a great night all.

Too All My Friends...happy Easter!!!
Since there are so many of you to keep up with I thought I would take the simple way out and just wish every one at once a great and Happy Easter....***Hugzzzz and Kissses*** Make your Comments HEARD using COMMENTYOU.com

My Muse.
Shadows like fingers reaching along the floor. Tipped with claws. Snaking across the sheets. Dripping with venom. Filled with an ache, a pain that cannot be denied. I reach for you. Through air heated by prurience. Across a distance that spans a thousand lifetimes, in only the matter of a few feet. Skin pulled taut over muscle. Soft with hair and slick with sweat. Meets my waiting fingers. Electrifies my soul. Waves of hair brushing my cheek as you turn. Eyes blurred with sleep meeting mine. You reach back. Feeding my hunger...feeding my need. Give to me what my spirit craves. Fill me with you.

Finally
Well, I think I finally hit my mid-life crisis. Went out and bought my Suzuki DL650 V-Strom last night. First bike I've ever owned, and now I can't ride it until my foot heals. I broke it after I got the bike back to the base, so I can't put enough weight on it to hold the bike steady at stops. Go figure. My luck never has been any good with stuff like this. I actually had my friend ride it from the dealership since I didn't want my first ride to be on a busy highway, so the only time I've been on it was getting it from his truck into his garage.

I Am The Guy!
I'm the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning and every single night to tell you sweet dreams. I'M THE GUY WHO DOESNT MESS WITH OTHER GIRLS CUZ I KNOW I HAVE YOU!! I'm the guy who will text you and tell you "i love you and you make me smile" just because. I'm the guy who will blindfold you and take you to the beach, let you run your toes through the sand and then make you guess where we are. I'm the guy who will show up at your games (or competitions or meets) without you knowing just to surprise you. I'm the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears. I'm the guy who won't pressure you to do things you dont want to. I'm the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no makeup on, wearing sweats and a big t-shirt. I'm the guy who kisses you on the forehead. I'm the guy who doesn't kiss and tell. I'm the guy who won't lie to you about where he's going or where he's been or who he's been with. I'm the

Just Me
Hello to All My Friends, Just wanted to write something as there was something that had came to my Attention. I wanted to let everyone know the real me for a change. I am one who will turn your frown into a smile no matter what it takes. I think everyone is special in thier own way. If you are a true friend of mine you know this already. To me I call all my friends sweetie , babe, hun, ect thats just my personality. If you don't like it well then don't waste your time speaking to me. I am not on here to find a man. There is a man already that has my heart and soul, I am just waiting for the day to be in his arms where my heart lies. He knows who he is. As far as the internet well my personal life does not and willnot be on here. I love all my friends on here they mean alot to me through there love as a friend to me most here don't know how much they make me smile and cause tears of joy. Thank you to all my Trued friends. But to also let you know I hide the true me for many years bec

Frustration
Why does everybody keep telling me to get a hold of an attorney? I've already thought about it. But right now I have to wait until workers comp does their investagation before I can do anything. I don't even know fully how my hand will be functioning. I know everybody is trying to help, but right now my hands are tied. So please, stop. The word lawyer is not even in the top 100 thoughts I have right now.

Who Wants To Buy My Sexy Used Underwear
I started selling stuff on eBay I can't believe half of the stuff people put on their....I'm going to do an experiment and see if anybody would buy my used underwear...lol....soon as I get it going I will put the link in so you guys can look....LOL...any buyers? :)

My Probation Officer
IT WAS HOT ONE SUMMER DAY IN AUGUST,I WAS GOING TO SEE MY PROBATION OFFICER I WAS DRUNK AND DIDN'T CARE, I WAS GOING TO SEE HER ANYWAYS I KNOW SHE WAS GOING TO THROW ME IN JAIL BUT WHEN I GOT THERE IT WAS A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY,AS I WALKED IN,SHE SAT BEHIND HER DESK LOOKING AS HOT AS USUAL SHE SAID COME SIT DOWN,SHE SEEMED REALLY HAPPY ABOUT SOMETHING,LIKE SHE FINALLY GOT LAID,LIKE I TOLD HER ONE TIME,SHE NEEDED TO GET LAID,AND TO QUIT BEING SUCH A BITCH,AND YEAH,I SPENT ONE WEEK IN JAIL FOR THAT PROBATION VIOLATION.SHE ASKED ME HOW I WAS DOING,I SMARTED OFF AND SAID HORNY LIKE THE LAST TIME I WAS HERE.SHE STOOD UP FROM HER CHAIR,SHE WAS WEARING NOTHING DOWN BELOW BUT HER HIGH HEELS,AND SAID WOULD YOU LIKE SOME OF THIS?I THOUGHT AT FIRST THIS WAS SOME KIND OF TRICK THAT SHIT,SHE'S GOTTA BE TEASING ME.AND THEN SHE STARTED RUBBING HER PUSSY AND PEELING UP HER SHIRT,WITH HER OTHER HAND.I HAD AN INSTANT HARD-ON THE SHE SAT DOWN IN HER CHAIR,PUT A LEG OVER EACH ARM REST AND SHE SAID COME O

Not Too Late
Not Too Late 4-7-07 What if I were older than you What if you were older than I What would either of us do Would we just say good-bye If you were only eighteen I would hope you had a cherry to pop If you were only twenty-eight I would hope you had a bush to crop If you were only thirty-eight I would hope you had something to teach me If you were only forty-eight I would hope you had something for three If you were only fifty-eight I would hope you gave me a chance to keep up If you were only sixty-eight I would hope you would stay up No matter what or when the eight My heart can only hope I am not too late

Day 8
Well it is officially day eight since I last heard anything from Teddy. I miss him more and more each day and this is proving to be easier than I thought it would be. We are so connected and everything that I know that he knows I miss him. Work was busy as usual and I\'m glad that I got everything done and over with until Monday. After this coming weekend, I should be eligible for a weekend off which would be nice. It\'s getting closer to him coming down for a week in the summer but I might talk him into two weeks that way we can get him registered for college and other good stuff and figure out what he\'s going to do about a job and a car and more... I\'m rather excited though. And even if he has to live with me until he can get his own apartment that is fine. We\'re wanting to do the Wiccan tradition of waiting a year and a day before we live together but he might not have a choice. : Rose said he fell off a ladder Thursday and my back has been hurting ever since. We can

~~hillary Clinton Fuks Rosy O'donnel~~
Breaking News New Hillary Software Lets Voters Customize Her Positions Hillary 8.0 Could Spell Victory in ’08 Crisscrossing the nation in her quest for the 2008 Democratic nomination, Senator Hillary Clinton (D-NY) today unveiled new state-of-the-art software that will enable voters to customize her positions on a host of issues. Dubbed “Hillary 8.0,” the software will be handed out for free at all of Sen. Clinton’s campaign rallies and could provide the technological advantage she needs to sew up her party’s nod. At a rally in Chicago, campaign workers handed out the software disks to supporters while Sen. Clinton told the crowd, “Hillary 8.0 means victory for Hillary in ’08.” The New York senator told her supporters that the new software “will make me the very best Hillary you want me to be, whatever that happens to be.” The software, compatible for both Mac and PC users, allows potential Hillary voters to configure their very own version of Sen. Clinton, choosi

Which Are You??
Which Disney Princess Are You? ArielAs Ariel, you are truely a dreamer. You have high hopes, big dreams, and a dozen wishes. You seek love, understanding, and a life of your own. You are independant and you never let anyone let you think that you don\'t deserve what you really want. Overall, you\'re strong willed with a big heart. How awesome are you?! Take this test

Ugh!!!
Why can't anyone understand that I don't eat beef (except the occasional hamburger), or any pork products?!!? My mom's boyfriend had the nerve to ask me if I wanted a philly steak and cheese sandwich knowing fully well that I DON'T eat beef!!!! UGH! What is wrong with people!?!

Just A Little Update :)
Hey Friends :) i havent talked to the most of you lately, because im really, really busy. I will get back at all your messages when i have the time, promise :) I just came back from MIA. I had a blast there. Exxxotica was awesome. I finally met my Number One Idol/Hero/Inspiration Jenna Jameson there and she was super kind and signed all my stuff.. anyways i will keep this short... Right now im working almost 15h every day.. and to be honest i have no idea how i do this.. haha.. as the most of you might now im working on my own cosmetic line and right now i put all my energy and all my power into this project.. my website will be released in a few weeks, (www.ashley-b-cosmetics.com, stay tuned) oh so excited for that :) i finally found the right ppl to work with. i have awesome ppl behind me, people who share my visions and ppl who are ready to give 100 per cent for me. I love em. (Alex Paul you will probably never ever read this, but you are my fucking hero. Thank you for EVERYTHIN

If I Told You, What Would You Do?
I rarely say, "I love you." But, if I did… IF I were the type Inclined to such emotional eruptions And vocal expression. . . What would I say to you? Would you be mad at me? Would anything change? I would probably say It’s been a long time since I’ve been in love Or since I even thought I loved. So long, in fact, I’m not sure I know what love is, anymore - Or if I ever really knew. But, if I even thought I loved someone, I think it would be you. I may not say it and you may not want to hear it, but I prefer showing and sharing with you. No expectations or regret, just your company and time with you is more than I've ever asked for. I just wanted to say thanks.

Venting 101 Rating Pics
Alright don't worry this isn't what the subject sounds like, but I do have to vent on one little thing...Ok so here I am I am bored and on cherrytap so I think I will check out some new pics that were posted from friends, before I could even see the photo I hear some shitty r&b music that in my opinion sucks, I am forced to leave quick or mute my speakers and since I like listening to my music guess which on I decided to do? I don't want to hear some some dude that tries to look tough for the photo then is harmonically crying and wining for his woman to come back or whatever the shit is....eh. OK OK I am done.

About Me... Truthful Q&a's
A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y 1. Do you like anyone?: YUP 2. Do they know it? No *blushes* 3. Simple or complicated? complicated IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U 4. Had sex: no 5. Bought something: no 6. Gotten sick?: no 7. Been hugged?: yes 8. Felt stupid?: lol 9. Talked to an ex: all the time 10. Missed someone: Yes 11. Failed a test: No 13. Danced: No 14. Gotten your hair cut?: If I cut my hair my family will kill me so Nope! 15. Lied: Nope U N I Q U E 16. Nervous habits?: Biting my nails n shaking my leg up n down 17. Are you double jointed?: Very 18. Can you roll your tongue?: Im hispanic what do u think? LOL 19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yes 20. Can you cross your eyes?: yes 21. Do you make your bed daily?: Nope 22. Do you think you are unique?: Who isnt? H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S 23. Said "I Love you": Yes 24. Given money to a homeless person: Yes 25. Smoked?: weed N cigarettes, quit them both! 26. Waited all

Getting To Know Me.
What is your full name? Deborah Lynn Brooks When is your Birthday? June 28 1965 What is your e-mail address? indiana_sweetheart1965@cherrytap.com Do you smoke? yes but trying to quit How many sexual partners have you had? around 9 i think..give or take Are you bi? yes very much so Can you cook? yes but don't like admitting it.. What talent do you wish you had? some kind of musical talent G-strings or thongs? thong or french cut What was the last book you read? reading Stephen Kings Buick 8 now What zodiac sign are u? Cancer Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Both Worst Habit? Smoking and Procrastination...really bad...and OCD What is your favorite sport? Nascar Do you have any pets? A Male Dwarf Rabbit What is your favorite flower? Rose What color eyes do you have? Brown What is your favorite drink? Coca Cola Do you believe in ghosts? Yes Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Being on the net Do you swear a

You Know You're Too Drunk When
YOU KNOW YOU'RE TOO DRUNK WHEN 1) Your job interferes with your drinking. 2) Your doctor finds traces of blood in your alcohol stream. 3) Career won't progress beyond Senator. 4) The back of your head keeps getting hit by the toilet seat. 5) Sincerely believe alcohol to be the elusive 5th food group. 6) Two hands and just one mouth... - now THAT'S a drinking problem! 7) You can focus better with one eye closed. 8) The parking lot seems to have moved while you were in the bar. 9) Your twin sons are named Barley and Hops. 10) Hey, 5 beers has just as many calories as a burger, forget dinner! 11) You lose arguments with inanimate objects. 12) You have to hold onto the lawn to keep from falling off the earth. 13) Mosquitoes catch a buzz after attacking you. 14) At AA meetings you begin: "Hi, my name is... uh..."

I Got The Job
Ok so last night I went out for my cousin's birthday and gut really drunk haha Then I slept till about 1130 and the only reason I even got up was because I got called in for an interview... I told em I could be there in 3hrs (enough time for me to sober up haha)... I show up a lil bit later then I wanted to because my cousin whom I've never met was at my grandma's and Iw anted to meet her... so I was down there... well she works at the place I had the job interview at... lol... so my brother's gf took me down to the interview and the hired me on the spot! I AM SOOOOO EXCITED! I start at 6am on monday though... aweful morning but its only 5 hrs and I am sooooooo happy I finally found a job!!!!! So everyone be happy for me!!! =P I cant wait, this will be so much fun!!! =)

Happy Easter!
Hello Friends, Fans, and Family - I just wanted to wish you all a wonderful Easter Sunday for tomorrow. I hope you all have a nice day. For those of you who don't celebate Easter well thats fine, I still I hope you have a nice day for what ever you do tomorrow. :D I am going over to my Aunt and Uncle home to have a nice dinner and spend time with all of my family here. I am so looking forward to it. I only wish I could see my parents and sister tomorrow, but I will see them in a month so I am not worried. :) I also wanted to thank all the new wonderful people who added me as your friend, and fan. I just love meeting new friends. :) Well, that's it for now... Happy Easter and have a good night. Take care all. *hugs* Beckie

Agloco-make Sure You Don't Get Left Behind...
http://mylot.com/aglocoincome http://www.mylot.com/?ref=aglocoincome I started Mylot for a few days witm my Agloco Downlinie Builder -UltimateRep . I come there to find a new friends and business expiriens. Just what have i see? I started ern too.As I login everyday, I notice that its members is growing fast. I know that now mylot has gain its popularity for posibility to find new friends, business contacts and too for money. early, you can earn there! Mylot has over 80.000 members from around the world. I guest it's because people find mylot as online community where you can get fun and make extra money at the same time. It is easy to earn money there, if you know how. Join my myLot Network! If you are a member of mylot now and want to increase your earning, here's some tip: Quality post is money. I don't know for sure how mylot determine to measure quality of each post. It is impossible to do it manually, so there's mu

Shout Box Conversion?
Yea..... Keeping my fingers crossed for a smooth conversion process... See Mike's message: 2007-04-07 16:49:40 i'm going to be making some tweaks to the shoutbox to improve it's performance/reliability over the next 5-10 minutes. don't say anything too important in it cause it'll be lost... i'll remove this once i'm done. let me know if you see any problems with it later on... cheers! -mike

Finding A Coven Or Mentor
Whilst it is possible to learn the Craft alone, using books, it is often easier and more pleasent to work with others, or at least to have someone to talk to. However, finding the right person or group is not always easy; they need to be reputable, to practise the form of the Craft you seek, and you should be willing to meet their requirements. The best way to locate the guidance you seek is to work a spell and ask the Goddess. Ensure your aims are clear. Do you desire a Coven, meeting regularly and practiceing formal Rituals, or simply a contact for guidence? Are you prepared to travel, or content with letters, email and the phone? Would you prefer a simple herbal "Hedgewitch" magic, or are you after somthing more complex? When you are ready, cast your Circle witha large white candle in the centre.Raise energyby dancing, chanting, clapping,and as you do so visualize building a cone of energy over the Circle. When you feel this cone is ready, light the candle and call upon the Goddes

Regards, The Over 30 Crowd
When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their long-winded stories about how hard things were when they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning ... uphill BOTH ways .. yeah, yeah, yeah. And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalog!! There was no email ! We had to actually write somebody a letter ...

Weekend Stuff
Hope everyone is having a great weekend and that you have a great holiday with family. David is here so trying not to be on much, but while he is playing.. and with me avoiding cleaning off the desk I will write a bit. We went to see Meet the Robinsons today. Wasn't too bad. David loved it. I think I was too tired to enjoy it. Made chocolate chip waffles this morning.. he isn't spoiled..lol. My butt is dragging. Thursday night a friend needed to talk so I was up till 2 AM. Last night was also a late night, and the phone rang before 6 AM this morning with someone needing some advice. I've always been one people talk to because I am a good listener.. but if its 6 AM be prepared for answers that don't make sense. Tommorrow is church and then lunch with the family. :) David will be here until Monday night, so I have lots of time with him. Gave him his Easter basket Thursday night so he could eat the candy ather than leave it here for me to eat. I really need to ge

Answer Truthfully!!!!
A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y 1. Do you like anyone?: BOY OH BOY DO I 2. Do they know it? YESSSIRRRR!!! 3. Simple or complicated? complicated IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U 4. Had sex: yes 5. Bought something: yes 6. Gotten sick?: Yes, allergy issues 7. Been hugged?: yes, by my kids and virtually ~wink~ 8. Felt stupid?: never 9. Talked to an ex: 1 time 10. Missed someone: yes, EVERYDAY!! 11. Failed a test: no 13. Danced: yes, me and my kids cut up everyday 14. Gotten your hair cut?: I'm bald so I do everyday 15. Lied: I plead the 5th U N I Q U E 16. Nervous habits?: Stuttering 17. Are you double jointed?: no 18. Can you roll your tongue?: I guess, never tried 19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yes 20. Can you cross your eyes?: yes 21. Do you make your bed daily?: I try 22. Do you think you are unique?: very, DO YOU?!?! H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S 23. Said "I Love you": yes of course, TO MY KIDS EVERYDAY 24. Given money to a

My Journey
Everyday I wake up I continue on my journey. A new place, a new face everyday. I've stumbled many a time and fell a few,too. But each time I get on my feet and try harder. Many along the way help, others try to deceive me. They tell me of shortcuts that only led to falls. Instead I'll push on with each new encounter. Trying my hardest and never stopping til the journey is complete.

How Bout That!
J: People adore me!! E: I'm great in bed...;) F: I'm dead sexy...yeah baby!! R: Fuckin Crazy.(in a fun way) Y: best boy/girl friend any one can ask for. A: you like to drink. B : You like people. C : You are really silly. D : one in a million. E : Great in bed F : You are dead sexy G : You never let people tell you what to do. H : You have a very good personality,looks and a very good kisser I : Great in bed. J : People Adore you K : You're wild and crazy. L : Unbelievably great in bed. M : best kisser ever. N: You like to drink A LOT. O: awesome kisser. P : You are popular with all types of people. Q : You are a hypocrite. R : Fuckin Crazy.(in a fun way) S : Easy to fall in love with T : You're loyal to those you love U : You are really silly. V : You are not judgemental. W : You are very broad minded. X : You never let people tell you what to do. Y : best boy/girl friend any one can ask for. Z : Always ready....... Delete the other person's name and

Life's Cup (rip Chris)
is life's cup half full or half empty, thats what i wonder today, i know we lost a good one, when your news came my way, sometimes life pours us sweetness, sometimes life pours us pain, sometimes life tastes like wine, sometimes life tastes like rain, chorus, but this time my friend, its a hard one to swollow, because where you went, is a hard road to follow, I'll take another sip, from life's bitter sweet cup, until one day, God calls me up, and i hope when i get there, its your smiling face i see, standing there at the gates of heaven, waiting for me, chorus, but this time my friend, its a hard one to swollow, because where you went, is a hard road to follow, when we walk in, together again, i know you'll say, "i was always there my friend" I wouldn't ever leave you, you know that my friend, when the road was too long, that was me holding your hand, chorus, but this time my friend, its a hard one to swollow, because where you went,

"firemans Tears" Bulliten
The alarm rang, as it had so many times before. He was the first of the fireman up and out, awakened from his bed at the station by the clanging of the bell. Engine 3 pulled out of the bay, dispatch paged another station. And all the firemen aboard the truck were tensed with anticipation "It's gonna be a nice 'un, boys," He said as he donned his gear. And the young bucks smiled at him as they drew ever near. They turned onto his own street and he could see the fire's work He hoped their mother woke his kids to see their dad at work. His heart sank as he saw the home that he so dearly loved going up in smoke and flames as he donned his gloves. Agressively he hit the fire and searched the rooms above. And with a flare of personal vengeance he saved what remained of his home. As he left the world of flaming hell he saw his little girl He ran quickly to her side and said "Honey, Daddy's here." He would never forget what next she said As he held her close, "I love you, Dad

The Justice System
Someone is convicted of a crime, sent to prison for an amount of time, made to go through counseling, testing, hoops and hurdles and are supervised in most cases after their release. Prison is 'a rehabilitation program'. So why is it that when a person is released they are under certain stipulations that prevent them from having a normal life? Why is it that drug dealers get less time in prison than someone who beat the crap out of someone else in self-defense? Why is it if someone is charged with murder they can be placed in a mental institution and then released into society after just a few years but if I were to shoot someone to protect my family I get life or worse? I'm sorry if this offends anyone. Just mad over this crap!

Angel Eyes
She sees, What no one else sees. From her bright green eyes, She knows, What no one else knows, All she does is look inside, Oh….my…..angel eyes. She hears, What no one else hears, Cause she listens with her heart, She’s here, Always right here, Though we’re worlds apart, Oh…..my…..angel eyes, She says, What I need her to say, And she doesn’t even know, She feels, All that I feel, And I’ll never let her go, Oh…..my….angel eyes, I see heaven, When I look inside, Those, angel eyes, All I dreamed. Is Starin back at me…. Inside those, Angel eyes,

Oh Yea Baby
What kind of a LOVER are YOU? You are a PASSIONATE LOVER!When it comes to sex and relationships you put 100% into both. You like to have fun and try new things but you pay alot of attention to the PASSION that lives in side of each kiss, touch or meaningful word. You contain the whole package and any man would be would be very lucky to have a women like you! Take this test

Golden Band....
There is not way to describe the way I feel for you. Not enough words in out vocabulary to say what i need to. The only way I think you could ever understand, will be the day we say "I DO" and I give you your golden band. Everlasting cirle of gold. Makes you mine forever to hold With love always till the end of time. This golden band stands with our hearts intertwind. I will give you this band as a sign of our love as God and the angels smile from above. Sending down blessings of love so divine, as I become yours and you become mine. And when or if darkness falls upon us one day, know that our love will light the way. Through the shadows of night when the moon is bland, remember we r always connected with and by this golden band... Courtesy of MsTags.com

Eat Em Up, Beat Em Up
"Eat 'Em Up, Beat 'Em Up" I... I.... [Chorus] You say you got a man at home But he dont dig deep in ya guts And he aint freaky enough, But me I eat um up, beat um up then switch sides I eat um up, beat um up then switch sides I pour a little drank We smokin on a sac You like it from the front But you love it from the back I eat um up, beat um up, then switch sides I eat um up, beat um up, then switch sides [Verse 1 - Shawn J] I wanna put ya lips below ya navel Up against the lips above my chin To kiss ya low as if ya gential's below a mistletoe And let ya saddle up on me and sit you on top And lick you low like a midgets blow pop You got mo ass than a cattle of donkeys Im grippin yo hips as I flip ya diggin into ya twat You so bad Ill raw ya, yep wit no rubber Dimepiece, I'll drink yo bath water Im the best, I wont hurt ya I'll eat it up and have ya moanin Like you in a Herbal Essence commerical Babygirl Im the better man Didnt you say he dont e

Woman's Prayer
WOMAN'S PRAYER: Before I lay me down to sleep, I pray for a man, who's not a creep, One who's handsome, smart and strong. One who loves to listen long, One who thinks before he speaks, One who'll call, not wait for weeks. I pray he's gainfully employed, When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed. Pulls out my chair and opens my door, Massages my back and begs to do more. Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind, Knows what to answer to "how big is my behind?" I pray that this man will love me to no end, And always be my very best friend.

A Day In The So Called Life...
Fuck i just want to hang myself but it wouldnt end it soon enough.They took my guns so i cant shoot myself.Id cut myself but id like it too much.I just want to call it a life and go on.......

Long Beach,ca Then Houston,tx
I WILL BE GONE FOR A COUPLE WEEKS TO HELP OUT THE RACE TEAM. Sunday, April 15, 2007 Toyota Grand Prix of Long Beach Long Beach,CA Sunday, April 22, 2007 Grand Prix of Houston Reliant Park - Houston,TX

Oh How Boring Can It Get!
I am home, its cold again, I am bored (well wasnt bored for about 5 minutes, but that is another story) and I Cant think what to do. I have had my fill of movies and cant sleep anymore! So I guess if anyone who reads this has any ideas, let me know. Damn, this is some good fuckin tea!

Lucky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so lucky. I have a wonderful man, a beautiful child. I've been blessed with wonderful suroundings. We never realize what we have until there's nomore. I've learned to appreciate all the wonderful gifts that were givin to me. I hope that others can find this too.

Cherrytap Is Getting To Be Too Much Drama
Ok, well we got those who mark your pics as NSFW when its just pics like puppies, things like that. Then we got the people who downrate us. Come on, why can't we all just get along. Life is too short and too filled with drama already. I thought this was a place to get away from real life. And then we got the people who bash others in the mumms. I thought these were for opinions, well some of these people are being down right cruel. Well, I do have a myspace account and lately I haven't had the problems I have had on here. I am sure this blog will get bashed but I wanted to speak what's on my mind a little. Now that I have, I feel better. Some of you might think I am a whiner but you don't know me and I have to remember that. Have a wonderful day and may your life be filled with joy and happiness!

Too Late
Well my last blog is becoming more like the buildup than the problem. I've done some insanely stupid things, I've sacrificed almost my entire inner circle of friends to satiate my hatred driven need to cause someone pain, and to top it off that was purely because he was something I despised and forced my tide of hatred against him. I probably only did so because I saw something of myself in him. So I went and did some utterly idiotic things to hurt him and now those of my friends who I didn't hurt are simply ashamed to know me, I've become the incarnation of overkill vengeance. To all those who believe they know me well, sorry but you do not, I concealed a lot of my darkside because you'd have been ashamed of me too, but now it matters little because I nolonger have my group of friends to protect me, they admit it themselves they won't do any more for me, it's my grave and I've gotta admit they have a point. So this guy is after me and I'll just have to face the music and hope I live

I Hate You
"I Hate You" [Talking] I would like to welcome everybody today First, before I get into my speech...because I do have a speech The sounds you are listening to are provided by Kid Joe ah yea...I'm Shawn Jay and I want to make a special announcement for all the baby mamas I see you bitch [laughing] You too bitch Baby, baby, baby you know I love you Baby, baby, baby you know I love you SHUT UP I hate you so much right now [8X] [Shawn Jay] Lemme calm down I think I need to smoke one Ya messin with my nerves I gotta get away .... from you Battle of sexes, more beef then summer jam both blamin each other, pointin fingers like Uncle Sam I be chillin man ... she just flip on some ol' shit Woman hold a grudges like piss on a road trip she be answerin my phone like she stay in my crib worryin' about who's callin like she payin my bills complain complainen every day and I feel you gon' have to be happy with callin' me baby daddy no mo' ridin and kickin' it... bl

People
don't u just hate it when people talk about u behind ur back and they won't came up to u and say anything to ur face. because they r afaird that u r going to kick there ass. i have someone like that and they r really pissing me and my family off because they have nothing better to go with there life but to act like a 5 year. well all know who i am talking about and the funny thing about it is that they had to write it on the cherry tap page.

My Daughter
Ariana who turns 11 on easter, should i choose another day to celebrate her bday, it being easter its not really her day. i never ran into this problem before lol. i got her a cake and presents.mmm i dont know, maybe ill let her rent a movie or game and next weekend have her friends over, even tho shes on spring break i still have to work hehehe maybe ill let her stay up later and bug her sister for the night. lol im just rambling now , anyways thanks for reading and if you have any ideas let me know!!!

Happy Easter Everyone
hello to all my friends happy easter!!! i hope everyone has a wonderful day today i totally forgot time over here goes by and after awhile you have know idea what day it is christmas this past year came and went for me it was not till after the new year that i realized that i missed it....lol boy i was a phone ccall fool for couple of days aftwr that but anyhow everyone have fun and to all my old and new friends hope to chat with you all again soon

Making A Vow
In times of great stress the power one can hold is greater then anything. Given the need to use it, this is one of those cases where power is cried out for and the cries are answered as such. You dare to come after my brother? You dare to try that? If i were you i'd stay away from him , yes that would be the smartest thing to do if you and your little reches were smart. If ANYONE comes within 100 feet of my brother and i vow to you that the next thing you see will be my blade. Stay away from him i mean it, Dont think i would make it down to my brother and defend him? Think again it wouldnt take me more then 30 minutes if it was an emergincy. Dont go near my brother, Not if you are smart. If you want to be stupid and pathetic then be my guest and try. You'll meet your fate at the end of Kintosi so i wouldnt try it not unless you want to meet your maker faster then you already will then be my guest, Tis not my fate i will be sealing but yours. This I Vow

The Touching You, Touching Me Test
Midnight StrokerHappy Spanking! You stroked 56! Good for you. It seems you're "in touch" with yourself. You like to spank the monkey every now and then. Once or twice a week with just the standard procedures is enough to get you through the dry spells. Maybe updating your limited collection of porn will enhance your alone time. Practice makes perfect! How else you going to tell a woman what you like? This test tracked 1 variable. How the score compared to the other people's: Higher than 85% on skinpointsLink: The Touching You, Touching Me Test written by NOGAS on Ok Cupid

The Mutilation Test
18% destructiveness Well, this is basic percent of how self destructive you are. Let's just pretend that maybe the higher the score, the more destructive you are. Because you know what, thats how it works. I could in theory give you a grand introduction to basic psychology, but I don't think you care, and if you do, you've probably already taken the class. If your sick, get better. If your sad, get happier. If you need sex/drugs, well fucking get your own. If uour just fine, you probably shouldn't contact me as chances are you really won't like me. This test tracked 1 variable. How the score compared to the other people's: Higher than 44% on destructivenessLink: The Mutilation Test written by azraeyl on Ok Cupid

Thank You
Everyone who responded to my blogs, you guys are awesome, and fuckin' hilarious! I just needed to vent a little, but thanks for taking the time to respond anyway, it was really quite kind. For all those who took the time to give me advice and good words, know you have someone to come to as well, as some already have. Thanks again. -Anna

Grindhouse Is A-ok With Me!!!
After sitting through three hours of car crashes, car chases, explosions, blood, guts, gore, slime, knife fights, sex scenes, fake trailers and more action than I’ve seen all year, I can pretty much say that it lived up to the hype. Go see grindhouse.

Sorry,. Gotta Vent And Rant!!!!
I hate assholes and their slut girlfriends! I wish my room mate would tell me before he brought this bitch in!! I had plans to have friends over tonight, and had to cancell them because slut bitch is over without me knowing, and she brought her kid!! Damn, and I wanted to party at my own damned house tonight!!! He is going to get an earful on this one! Why can't I have my own fuck buddy come over every now and then on the weekend!! He needs to get a job, and he needs to get a real girlfriend, looking at fugly makes me violently ill. I want him to understand that I live here!! Damn! I need to get laid, and I don't want interference from these two assinine people!!! What an ass! Raven

Updated Pimp List
THIS IS MY CURRENT LIST OF PEOPLE THAT I HAVE TOLD I WOULD HELP. I HAVE BEEN A LITTLE LAX IN HELPING THEM AND I AM GETTING ON IT, MAYBE YOU CAN HELP ME OUT BY HELPING THEM. 1 MONTH BLAST, NEEDS 25,000 COMMENTS.

Out In The Garden
Whilst out in the garden I thought of you today The day was calm and serene Not a single word did I say Wishing for you to have been here and seen The wind it blows my hair gently Reminding me of younger days I can still hear your words oh so softly Wishing you weren’t so stuck in your ways The smell of rain over powers my nose And the stronger winds become cold I walk away carrying my lone rose Looking back, wishing for you to see the wonders I hold. By: Biker REDS 2007

The Easter Story
The Easter Story From the garden of Gethsemane Where Jesus knelt to pray To the betrayal done by Judas On that grim and fatal day. From the mighty hands of Pilate Who wished to let Him be To the noble priests and leaders Who refused to set Him free. From the crown of thorns upon His head And lash marks from a strap To the weight of such a heavy cross Placed there upon His back. From the thief who hung beside Him Crying, “Lord, remember me” To the gentle words of Jesus “Today, you’ll be with me.” From the darkness of the noon time As He died upon the cross To the earth that shook and trembled In response to such a loss. From the cheering cries of soldiers As they took His body down To the caring hands of Joseph A follower new in town. From the tomb where He was laid to rest In linen cloth of white To the guards who had to stand close by Throughout both d

Wow That Was Easy
You have a sexual IQ of 133 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Male Beauty Products
Subject: FW: Male beauty product Do women call you Fatty? Do women call you Baldy? Do women call you Ugly? Do you have bad breath? Do women call you Shortie? Do your ears have more hair than your head? Do women call you Stupid? Do women call you Loser? Are you over 60, 70 or even 80? Worst of all, have the women completely lost interest in you? Do not despair. Now there is a new "Male Beauty Product" on the market that will change all of that! *

Locked The Door
now what was i supposed to do I was just livin life as best i can just tryin to get through and where were you? sittin all by yourself buildin the walls back up again to hide your face you put it on a shelf when you lock the door you left everything we had layin on the bed spread out on the floor and where are you now? doing the same old stuff as before itll never change and sometimes when i wish upon a star i see the days gone by theyre not so far but my heart has room to bleed in time i think youll see im the man im supposed to be

Leave Imus Alone...
Yes, what he said was "offensive". No, I wasn't offended. I listen to 98 Rock with Mickey and Amelia who make fun of everybody no matter what race or gender category they fall in. Also I listen to Steve Harvey and Tom Joyner and Michael Baisden; black men who use "white(people, man, woman)" as something that is not cool or intelligent or moral. Not unlike Imus or Stern or even Limbaugh. And it's not the first or fifth time Imus has created racial controversy. Big Al needs a hug from a white person and a mayonaise sandwich. I don't expect any race's approval of my existence, nor do I care what they think of me(nor should other people). Just don't fuck with me or you will get fucked with back. Don't steal or try to take away what I've earned, or I will act like anyone else. But what a person says doesn't make me feel any different when I wake up in the morning to do my job or live my life. In other words black "leaders", get over it.

To Leeann Gordon
look at me look without eyes used your soul as eyes it is there buried near your heart search for ie take it out patch it's worn parts don't worry use will strengthen its weak parts and u may start now look at me a man who love u look to my soul to see the real me some say the eyes are windows of the soul i say they just show a refection a hazy copy to see a soul without an ideal image ruler we can share what we see don't be afraid we are talking equal rist it is our soulsthat will live on making the gift we share everlastey

Im A Sex Goddess Hehe
You have a sexual IQ of 122 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

No B.s. . .
Everyone needs to see "Grindhouse" today. I went into this movie with very high expectations; I left the movie with my expectations exceeded. It was a thrill and laugh a minute. Empty your bladder before it starts, grab a huge tub of the popped kernels, or your favorite movie time snack and settle in for a ride you will never want to get off. "Grindhouse" is the best mindless fun you will have all year, see it now, it doesn't miss!

More Post Secret
I bought a post secret book today and I read it all in about an hour.... I wonder why it was in the self help section of borders... It didn't help me... I made me feel even more alone than I already do... I think I will send them my post secret... I bought plenty of stamps and some things to mail today anyway... God do I have so many confessions to make..

Women And Head Games
heres to all the women who play head games with men. you play head games and you play them well. ill give you credit for that. but you all dont know what you all got coming when you do. see im the one that dont get mad i get even. so the one that played head games with me take note. i will get even trust me.

My Life At The Moment In A Song....
Ok, so sure Jesse McCartney is pretty lame, but I heard this song, and totally love it. It sums up something I'm feeling right now (not being over something I know I should be) It just hit me close to home... JUST SO YOU KNOW by Jesse McCartney I shouldn't love you, but I want to I just can't turn away I shouldn't see you, but I can't move I can't look away I shouldn't love you, but I want to I just can't turn away I shouldn't see you, but I can't move I can't look away And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not 'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop Just so you know This feeling's takin' control Of me and I can't help it I won't sit around I can't let 'em win now Thought you should know I've tried my best to let go Of you but I don't want to I just gotta say it all before I go Just so you know It's gettin' hard to Be around you Theres so much I can't say Do you want me to hide the feelings And look the other way And I don't know h

My Eyes
i can shed my skin to hide myself again i can live among them all I can take another drink sit around and think or I can get ready for the fall another day another pill you know the drill another wasted day or night I cant seem to break through forever torn in two and i just cant seem to get it right but ill shed my skin to hide myself again ill keep everything from sight you can try and see the things inside of me but you'll never see my eyes

Easter Humor
Signs The Easter Bunny Is Trying To Kill You : Can't shake that "some bunny is watching me" feeling Eggs dyed with Polonium 210 instead of food coloring You find beheaded chocolate molds of yourself scattered around the house Instead of hiding your Easter eggs, he's hidden your heart medication He sneaks into your home and paints skull and crossbones on all your Easter eggs Colored eggs look very similar to hand grenades Shows up at your place wearing a bunny-size space diaper Your brake lines have been gnawed through You wake up and find a chocolate horse's head in your bed He says he can't wait to snort your ashes Well on that note...Everyone have a great holiday... xoxo cammy

Thank God For Friends!!!
I sit here with a pounding head and all I can think about is the two greatest women that have yet to come into my life. Blondierox and Cricket. You two ladies amaze me with your strength and courage, and have helped me through some pretty tough times over the last couple months. From advice on losing my brain dead doctor, to when to get checked out, you two really give me an idea what friendship is all about! The two of you know more about me than anyone else online at the present time, even though I do share a lot of my life with my friends, you girls know a bit more personal stuff than the others. I don't know how many times I have thought about picking up the phone and calling one of ya, but I don't want to become a bother or a pain in the butt and bug you and make you dislike me. (I tend to be paranoid about that sort of thing lol) I know you guys have your own problems, and I don't wanna add my problems to your problems as well, but when I do talk to ya, you guys always l

Saturday
When: Thursday Apr 12, 2007 at 7:00 PM Where: The House of Crave 391 Neil Ave Columbus, OH 43085 United States Cost:FREE This will be a busy week for the band! In between recording & rehearsals we have a radio interview plus a interview/photoshot for a magazine on tuesday. Then on thursday we will be performing live on WNCI(www.wnci.com if you want to listen live) morning show. And that same night we will be playing our 1st all ages columbus, ohio show. So come to the show, call the radio station to talk to us live and please, please,p-p-please keep requesting the band at radio!!!!!!!!!!! For those of you how live outside of the U.S. we will be coming your way soon. But for now if you want to help the band you can vote for us on Alternative Addictions top 20 countdown. www.alternativeaddiction.com Also look for a small feature on that site soon. All done for today. More gym, more working on some writing I've been doing recently. peace, david

A Sister In Submission.... Sparrow[mm]
To give a little bit more backround.. and just because I love her so darn much I am writing this blog on my sparrow[MM] sis. Most D/s relationships consist of a Master and one girl. In my case I share my Master. I think there is a security of oneself and her relationship she has with her Master to be able to serve him with another submissive/slave. It's interesting to me.. under my previous Masters I wouldn't be so sure I could share them.. Well except perhaps when I was a gorean kajira. I get asked by other girls how I can share my Master.. Get asked how I cannot get jealous about it. I won't lie.. there have been times of jealousy or feeling like she is the better submissive/slave than I am. Though I know my Master takes pride in both of us.. and holds a deep love for both of us. That I will never doubt... and perhaps in that it is the key. I take in what I learn from her as much as I watch and hold her as an example to myself in the areas I know I could be better in.

Uoy Ccuf
IIGHT I GOT ALOT TO FUCCIN' SAY... FIRST WOT THE HELL IS UP WITH PEOPLE I SWEAR TO FUCCIN PICCLE JUICE LOOSIN' THE FUCC UP PEOPLE YOUR ALL INSANE!!! RATE ME, FAN ME, LOVE, WTF IS THAT... AND THEN WHEN YOU DO WOT DO YOU GET... NOTHING BACC... YEAH YOU MIGHT GET THE SAME THING BACC AS YOU DID FOR THEM BUT WHO CARES WERE HERE TO MEET FRIENDS GET TO KNOW PEOPLE BUT PEOPLE ARE SO WOUND UP IN GETTING TO THE LEVEL BABY JESUS IS AT THAT THEIR LIVES ARE MUCH MORE MISERABLE THEN IT STARTED OUT TO BE... WITH ME ITS NOT A POPULARITY CONTEST... IF IT WAS I WOULDN'T BE MAKING IT ON CT... AM I RIGHT? NO LIVES NO ONE HAS ANY LIVES... I SIT HERE ALL DAY AND HELP PEOPLE OUT WITH THEIR PROBLEMS AND WHEN I GOT PROBLEMS WHOS THERE? WAITING.... WAITING.... NOT A FUCCIN SOLE!!! I'M THINKING MAYBE IF I STOP CARRING AND STOP HELPING AND JUST BE STRAIGHT UP EVIL YOU WILL ALL RATE ME AND COMMENT ME TO... CAUSE IM PRETTY MUCH THE SWEETEST PERSON YOU WILL EVER MEET... ID DO ANYTHING FOR ANYONE AND HAVE... AND STIL

Imagination
I see a leaf up in a tree but when i look heres what i see i see a star of many colors the reds the yellows and all the others then i hear the laughter loud people shoutting out things in clouds but by the time i see the trees the breeze alone can change the scenes the sun comes out and shines so bright the leaves change colores to my delight so when you look upon a tree close your eyes and think of me.

Dare You To Fill This Out!
If you feel like filling this one out, send it to me in a PM, or copy and paste it for someone you want to get to know! Got it From Jackie, AWESOME woman! Check her out: http://www.cherrytap.com/images.php?u=540448 Do you dare fill it in? It is so direct, Im sure many of you think I would love to fill it out but then think to your selves...my god it hits every personal thought about the person I would send it to.... For those it offends.....toss it For those who are fearless....fill it out For those who are shy....give it a try Gettin to Know You... Body: y = Yes n = No m=Maybe Would you? Will you? [_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _ [_] kiss me? [_] let me kiss you? [_] watch a porn movie with me? [_] take me out to dinner? [_] let me drive you somewhere? [_] take a shower with me? [_] buy me a drink? [_] take me home for the night? [_] let me sleep in your bed? [_] Sing car karaoke w/ me? [_] re-post this for me t

Whataburger
As some of you know, today I had a Herold and Kumar thing going on with WHATABURGER (Pronounced more like waterburger than what-a-burger). I am happy to report that I FINALLY fulfilled my craving and it was WONDERFUL! If you've never eaten there you wouldn't understand. Anyways, thanks to all that were suportive in my efforts to find and dine at this fine establishment. Doug

Not Doing Well
SORRY I HAVEN'T KEPT IN TOUCH WITH YOU ALL. MY MS IS GETTING THE BEST OF ME AGIAN. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT EVEN THOUGH I CAN'T REPLY BACK I AM ABLE TO SEE WHAT YOU'VE SENT. THANK YOU SO MUCH! XOXOXO-VERONICA

First Attempt At Creating A Comic
I found a new toy to explore on the net. You can take your photos and create comics. There is way more to this than what I have created to explore. You will probably see me create some more in time. I will have to take more photos in the future in knowing that I can now have the ability to do this. LOL...Another distraction to fuel my procrastination. :D LOL....

Lover, You Should Have Come Over..
Looking out the door I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water Maybe I'm too young to keep good love from going wrong But tonight you're on my mind so you never know I'm broken down and hungry for your love with no way to feed it Where are you tonight, you know how much I need it Too young to hold on and too old to break free and run Fun And he's much too blind to see the damage he's done Cause sometimes a man must awake to find that really he has no one So I'll wait for you and I'll burn Will I ever see your sweet return Oh will I ever learn Oh lover, you should've come over 'Cause it's not too late Lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in Burning in the corner is the only one who dreams he had you with him My body turns and yearns for a sleep that will never come Fun And he's much too blind to see the damage he's done Cause sometimes a man must awake

The Professor And The Mad
I was cleaning out my mailbox yesterday (wow, how ubiquitous the Internet has become; you didn't even have to ask whether I was referring to my literal mailbox at my apartment or the one I have online) and came across a letter from my alma mater, Stetson University (www.stetson.edu). It was a memorial notice about Michael Raymond, an English professor there who'd died (I hate the euphemism "passed away") this past Wednesday from complications due to his Type I diabetes. I had taken his English 101 class my first semester there in the fall of 1990, and I remember Dr. Raymond as a congenial, enjoyable person you could imagine fitting in anywhere. Trust me, there were professors I had at Stetson I couldn't imagine doing anything in the "real world". What scares me -- and it's part of the reason I never pursued graduate study after receiving my bachelor of arts in May 1994 -- is that I could have easily been one of the latter, a denizen of the ivory tower. I still remember English 101

Common Sense
Common Sense Died Today Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as knowing when to come in out of the rain, why the early bird gets the worm, life isn't always fair, and maybe it was my fault. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you earn) and reliable parenting strategies (adults, not children, are in charge). His health began to deteriorate rapidly when wel l intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Rep orts of a six-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouth wash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. Common Sense lost ground wh

Circle Of Stones
As we grow up throughout our lives we all take steps our first steps are magical our toddler steps are to learn our teenage steps are for makeing mistakes so when we leave home we have a better understanding about life but the funny thing about growing old is that in time we all revet back to those first steps when we needed help the most in our lives we go back to where we flet safe felt love we go home.

Roses Are Filled With Poison
I hate roses. Red, pink, white. . .It doesn't matter. I hate them all. Give me something different. Don't be a fucking cliche. No roses. No candlelight dinners. No sweet poems. No saying I love you if you don't mean it. You did all these things when what you should have done is said, "I don't love you," and then walked away.

Still A Bit Underslept-feeling
though not as bad as was. Today has gone very well, so far. Hrm, personal CT e-mail. That's been in development or something for awhile (I gather it existed before I signed up, may be more accurate.) Going to take a nap and return to Doing Things... And CT, too, has my age right at last. Hee.

Another Poem From My Ct Wife
Dance With Me My heart is soaring upon your touch. Come my love. Dance with me upon the clouds of eternal love. Let me be all. See my love as yours. My soul stirs with desire. Come feel my love. Dance with me within the shining light of love. Let go of all. Allow my love to be the gentle wind that brushes away all of your past pain. Come to a heart and soul belonging only to you. Be mine now and forever, like I am too you. Dance with me forever upon dreams coming true for us. Let us be one. Never fear what is meant to be for us. Dance with our song of love. Dance within my love for you. Can you let my love show you the way to dance within light of forever. Dance with me…. For only you can fill these awaiting arms of love. Love me like I love you. Dare to feel and know this love I have for you. Come to a heart and soul daring forever with you only. Dance a endless dance of love with me. Let me be the one to hold you forever as we dance upon the winds o

Does Anybody Understand
nobody seems to understand i know we have been broke up for over a year but i spent alot of my life with him and i just find out he is already getting remarried i don't understand did i mean nothing i know it is stupid to feel this way and everyone gets mad at me and tells me not to be upset but why shouldn't i be i guess i am just not feeling to good about anything anymore i want to but it is hard please someone out there tell me they understand what i am going though so i know i am not alone in this sorry i know i am babling

Yes!!..even Angels Are Sexy!
Yes!!..Even angels are Sexy! Send this to all ur sexii friends. Including person who sent it to u ....?SeXy?..?SeXy? ...?SeXy?...?SeXy? .?SeXy?.......?SeXy? ...?SeXy.?.....?SeXy? ......?SeXy? ...........?SeXy? ?SeXy?......?SeXy? .?SeXy?.......?SeXy? ...?SeXy?...?SeXy? .........?SeXy? ?SeXy??SeXy??SeXy? ?SeXy??SeXy??SeXy? ?SeXy? ?SeXy? ?SeXy??SeXy? ?SeXy??SeXy? ?SeXy? ?SeXy? ?SeXy??SeXy??SeXy? ?SeXy??SeXy??SeXy? ?SeXy?.......?SeXy? .?SeXy?.....?SeXy? ..?SeXy?...?SeXy? ...?SeXy?.?SeXy? ....?SeXy??SeXy? ....?SeXy??SeXy? ...?SeXy?.?SeXy? ..?SeXy?...?SeXy? .?SeXy?.....?SeXy? ?SeXy?.......?SeXy? ?SeXy?......?SeXy? ?SeXy?......?SeXy? ?SeXy?.....?SeXy? .?SeXy?...?SeXy? ..S?eXy?.?SeXy? ...?SeXy?SeXy?? .......?SeXy? ......?SeXy? ......?SeXy? IF YOU GET THIS BACK: 1 UR NOT THAT SEXY 2-3 UR SO SEXY 4-6 OMG TOTAL SEXY BABE 7-10 UR SO SEXY ITS UNBELIEVEABLE

~ Us Troops Rescue Kidnapped Iraqi Man ~
Yes you won't see this on the fuckin new, them bitches in the media just want us to lose, i'd love to kick there ass for ever BS story they run!!! clipped from hotair.comVideo: U.S. troops rescue kidnapped Iraqi man

From My Ct Wife
Song of Echoing Love Upon the winds Echoing His song of love for me. Sweet gentle embrace upon my heart and soul Of His love coming to remind me of …… The Song we should dance forever too. I once held him close to my heart as we Dance upon Clouds of paradise. The fluttering of my heart to His sweet song Of Love like wings of freedom. Hearing his sweet call Like Twisting reality that I will also belong to him, Even though He is gone from reach. Upon the winds His song Echoes of love that is always mine. Upon the winds I soar To the hidden Song That is always sung from me only. How and when…. My heart and soul knows, The day we will be together again, Is within his Song Echoing upon the winds Of His love for me. I dance alone to the song, But Within my mind. I know he dances with me. Sing me that song Forever my love. For echoing of winds is the song Of love That is mine. Dance within me and about me. Always remind me of Love. Wi

For You Are The One
For you I would climb The highest mountain peak Swim the deepest ocean Your love I do seek. For you I would cross The rivers most wide Walk the hottest desert sand To have you by my side. For you are the one Who makes me whole You've captured my heart And touched my soul. For you are the one That stepped out of my dreams Gave me new hope Showed me what love means. For you alone Are my reason to live For the compassion you show And the care that you give. You came into my life And made me complete Each time I see you My heart skips a beat. For you define beauty In both body and mind Your soft, gentle face More beauty I'll ne'er find. For you are the one God sent from above The angel I needed For whom I do love.

Am I Ur Guy
I'm the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning and every single night to tell you sweet dreams. I'M THE GUY WHO DOESNT MESS WITH OTHER GIRLS CUZ I KNOW I HAVE YOU!! I'm the guy who will text you and tell you "i love you and you make me smile" just because. I'm the guy who will blindfold you and take you to the beach, let you run your toes through the sand and then make you guess where we are. I'm the guy who will show up at your games (or competitions or meets) without you knowing just to surprise you. I'm the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears. I'm the guy who won't pressure you to do things you dont want to. I'm the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no makeup on, wearing sweats and a big t-shirt. I'm the guy who kisses you on the forehead. I'm the guy who doesn't kiss and tell. I'm the guy who won't lie to you about where he's going or where he's been or who he's been with. I'm the

Why Are Rabbits Associated With Easter? * I
Easter is the Christian perversion of Ostara, the Pagan holiday that celebrates fertitily and new life. Ostara coincides with the Vernal Equinox, which hails the coming of Spring...another reason for the celebration of fertility and new life. The rabbit is significant because it symbolizes fertility. Ever heard the term "fucking like rabbits"? *Note from Karoline* I'm in love with Morrigan for giving this as a reply to the question why are rabbits associated with Easter..

Stuck Up Women!!! Suck
What's up with u women who r soooo hot and can't find the real image in the mirror that you look at every morning and when ever you do your mirror thing???? Just because you r hot DON'T let it run your life and make your persona UGLY... I am just 1 man who want's to be loved and will give love, so quit being so fucking MEAN to me and show me your luv. tomtommy.

Farmers Releff
As you all know about this Snow Storm That Hit Colorado. Alot of Ranchers Are having to sale almost all their Cattle Cause they Can Not feed Them. They are asking For Help from Every One. This was their Livley hood and as we all know if it was not for the farmers we all would not have what we Have on our tables today. Please Every One Please lets all Help them. Most of their Cattle Died in that storm and the ones that did not they are sending to the sale. Their Crops are All Deing . They Are not going to have any hay to put up this year. It is all really Crazy Here in Colorado. Please Copy this and send to Every One you know. If you can send 50 Cents Write your name on a Paper and send it if you can What ever You can Aford Just to Help these Farmers. They will Write you back and thank every one of you that helped. Send to My Address and i will Make sure they get every Bit of money sent Lloyd Harsha 909 Grinde Dr. Apt A-2 Fountain, Colorado 80817

Having A Monday On Saturday..:(
I'VE BEEN HAVING A MONDAY AND FRIDAY THE 13TH ALL ROLLED UP IN ONE DAY..ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU JUST WANT TO GO BURY YOURSELF SOMEWHERE.. HAS ANYONE EVER HAD ONE OF THOSE DAMMED DAYS THAT NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO NOTHING FREAKIN TURNS OUT RIGHT? WELL MY DAY HAS JUST BEEN LOVELY SO FAR..NOT ONLY HAS IT BEEN SNOWING AND APPARENTLY ODESSA CLOSES DOWN FOR THIS WEATHER,BUT HEY I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT..SOME THESE IDIOTS AROUND HERE CAN'T DRIVE IN NICE WEATHER MUCH LESS BAD WEATHER...BUT MY INTERNET CONNECTION ISN'T WANTING TO WORK..I KEEP GETTING KICKED OFF..PEOPLE TELL ME ONE THING..THEN THEY TURN AROUND AND SAY THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE CRAP..SO FAR I HAVE TALKED TO 4 DIFFERENT DELIVERY SERVICES HERE 2 OF WHICH SAID THAT YES THEY WOULD DELIVER..THEN AFTER I SIT ON HOLD FOR OVER A HOUR AND GIVE THEM MY ORDER THEY CALL ME BACK AND SAY SORRY WE CAN'T DELIVER TODAY..NOW WOULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN A WHOLE LOT SIMPLER JUST TO SAY THAT TO BEGIN WITH? THEN AS IF THAT ISN'T ENOUGH TRYING TO KEEP PEACE BET

Brevity
If you could stop time, would you? If you had the power to grab onto the very essence of life and bend it to your will, would you do it? Would you immortalize yourself and those you care about, if it meant you never had to feel the pain of loss? I dont like how life is. How uncertain it is. How brief it is. How pointless it seems. But there isnt anything I can do, but keep on breathing and keep on questioning. As soon as you lose curiosity, you lose the part of yourself that is undeniably human. And that is why we write stories and make movies and paint pictures. The entire existence of the human race has been a quest to explain the unexplainable...to draw answers from a void of nothingness, to carve deep impressions into an earth that may or may not forget us. A person much more wise than myself once told me: "A question ends with an answer. When you have the answer, the question no longer exists. That is why life is all questions and no answers...if we had the answers, life wouldnt e

Lead Me Home
Use to think you couldn't hear me - When things didn't go my way, Too selfish to live my life for you - So I threw it all away, Wasn't long ago - My only escape from the pain, Was a needle in my arm - and drugs in my vein, I wasn't strong enough - I wasn't strong enough i wasn't strong enough - to surrender to you its so easy to point a finger - so no one see's its me, But lord you know how guilty I am - I pray you can forgive me, They say the highway to hell - Is paved with the best intentions Well, I've so many - I'm too scared to mention, I wasn't strong enough - I wasn't strong enough I wasn't strong enough - To be like you, But now my world is crashing - and it's become so clear, Through the dust and rubble - There'd be no me if you weren't here, The pains got me thinking - Of just how selfish I am, Lord I pray you fill my empty soul - Make me more than I am, Lord my tears are falling - My heart is breaking for you, Shine your light down upon me

More Updates
Hey everyone. Just another update for those that care. My sister is still in the hospital. She's still on the feeding tube but they have been giving her liquids. She's adjusting slowly. they are hoping to give her solids soon. SIGH. They say with the surgery she had that it will take at least 2 weeks minimum for her stomach to start acting normal. We shall see. It's been a week since her surgery so keep the prayers going please. I love you all huggles Bren

Aquarius
The Water Carrier January 21 to February 19 Traditional Aquarian Traits Friendly and humanitarian Honest and loyal Original and inventive Independent and intellectual On the dark side.... Intractable and contrary Perverse and unpredictable Unemotional and detached Aquarius About Your Sign... Aquarians basically possess strong and attractive personalities. They fall into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient; the other exuberant, lively and exhibitionist, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of their character under a cloak of frivolity. Both types are strong willed and forceful in their different ways and have strong convictions, though as they seek truth above all things, they are usually honest enough to change their opinions, however firmly held, if evidence comes to light which persuades them that they have been mistaken. They have a breadth of vision that brings diverse factors into a whole, and can see both sides of an argument w

Sadness Of My Heart
My heart is heavy and my soul is filled with sadness. I am tired of it all and no this is not a suicide note don't be so dramatic. I am always the person that carries a smile and says how wonderful everything is. Sometimes its just hard to hide how you feel and at this moment I just feel sad.

In Response To All The Bs In The Last Few Days On Cherry Tap.....
and in case that is not clear enough for you.... Cherry tap gives me the chance to be myself, and make friends and be who I am deep inside....That will never change....And If I could afford it, I would love to be a VIC...... If I had the money right this minute, I would buy a happy hour for everyone.....Hell one for every hour one saturday...how cool would that be...lol but as it is Cherry tap is for having fun...so enough with the BS and drama.....and lets remember, so to finish, Blessings, Amy

~for U~
Just when you start to give up... Something or someone completely amazing comes along.... And changes everything.... For so long i have felt a bit lost.... A bit sad... Although, you would never know.... I tend to hide it well... But wow!!! There are actually people out there... That are amazing.... That dont judge you.... That can even love you... Just the way you are!!! Though my faith in people hasnt been the best lately..... I want you to know, things are certainly looking up!!! And to the one who has restored my faith~ You are so amazing~Kisses~Hugs~And all my love~ ~Patrice~

Wicca
What Is Wicca Contrary to what those who choose to persecute or lie about us wish to believe, Wicca is a very peaceful, harmonious and balanced way of thinking and life which promotes oneness with the divine and all which exists. Wicca is a deep appreciation and awe in watching the sunrise or sunset, the forest in the light of a glowing moon, a meadow enchanted by the first light of day. It is the morning dew on the petals of a beautiful flower, the gentle caress of a warm summer breeze upon your skin, or the warmth of the summer sun on your face. Wicca is the fall of colorful autumn leaves, and the softness of winter snow. It is light, and shadow and all that lies in between. It is the song of the birds and other creatures of the wild. It is being in the presence of Mother Earths nature and being humbled in reverence. When we are in the temple of the Lord and Lady, we are not prone to the arrogance of human technology as they touch our souls. To be a Witch is to be a

Consuming
Sadness consuming like madness. Mind racing, what do I do? It's over, we are through. I have this mask to hide this sadness, I fake my smile to disguise my madness. Will I survive this? Can I forget his kiss? I won't be alone, someone is always near, It helps me to forget this foolish fear. This hard to control emotional distress, Inside I am a complete mess. But always this sadness is consuming like madness, So I will mask it with plenty of false gladness. Domenique Nicole Marsico Copyright ©2007 Domenique Nicole Marsico

Women, Power & Choices
"Women. They have the power of generations. Women have the power to have children and not to have children." --Cecilia Mitchell, MOHAWK Now this just speaks volumes about no matter what your circumstances, ethnicity or preferences ... That as women we always have a choice.

There Has To Be An Easier Way To Delete Friends
why is it that CT can't update the friends deleting option? seems they can make changes to everything else, even the things that don't need to be changed. I was in the middle of cleaning my list but it got so tiring having to delete everyone and confirm them ONE AT A TIME!!! I know it's not that hard to update and make it so you can delete more than one per page at a time....... Stop changing what's fine and work on the things that need work!!!! As for the ones who will say... well the site is free so either go join the VIC or stop complaining. Well if you haven't noticed CT does make money off the average person who doesn't want to join the VIC..... CT has sponsors and they get more money from the sponsors for the more memembers the site has. That's why they keep coming up on your page asking you to invite more and more people. I have well over 20 people that have joined under my name (plus the ones they jipped me out of the points for) so I think I have earned them enough mo

Rain Cloud
Standing in the rain It falls all around me I am drowning in this pain It does not seem to cleanse me. As the rain drips down my face I stop and wonder what's brought me to this place Was it my own mistaken emotions? Was it my foolish devotions? I can't seem to break free from my self I can't seem to leave these feelings on that old shelf. I used to be good at hiding these feelings I used to deny all those dealings Now as I let this rain wash over me I can't help but see All the pain and suffering I feel Will never really ever heal Domenique Nicole Marsico Copyright ©2007 Domenique Nicole Marsico

Blackness Calling
Fear sadness self loathing Cutting deeper the crimson flow Sweet metalic life leaving my body Mind racing tears falling Cutting deeper this bloody mess Watching in a trance The blood seeping above my white skin Imagining ripping this flesh apart Imagining the searing pain of a real cut Cutting a little deeper Wanting to feel Wanting relief Unsurmountable pain in my head, in my heart, in my soul Punish me cut deeper I watch as the blood flows so freely Til blackness overcomes my eyes and my mind Domenique Nicole Marsico Copyright ©2007 Domenique Nicole Marsico

Clear Thoughts From An Unclear Mind
They say we don't fall in love, it rises through us. Yeah, like vomit rises through us. That's what love is, this vile fluid ripping your insides out. Makes your world spin out of control. Maybe love is this gross event. Sometimes it hurts, other times it hurts beyond belief. Your heart is pounding, you can't breathe, you can't think. It always happens when you least need or want it to. When it hits you it is scary and hard to control. Even when you expect it, you are never really ready. Afterwards you feel sick and yet relieved. Still spinning, not sure what is coming next. Domenique Nicole Marsico Copyright ©2007 Domenique Nicole Marsico

Writings
What would I do without you? I woulden't be the man I am today. The dreams I have woulden't exist. The pain and anger I felt in the past would still be there. My heart woulden't beat as strong as it does. You woulden't see the smile on my face like you do. What Would I Do Without You? I coulden't Love and feel Love the way I do....Without You. I'm just a simple man..... Without you I'm nothing.......

R.i.p. John Winter
Today is my birthday and I'm really depressed...I have no clue why ... guess it's just birthday depression. Also a man I knew died a couple days ago and I just found out late last night. He was a meteorologist for a local news station and apparently he shot himself in the head. My heart goes out to his wife and family. R.I.P. John Winter

Eternal Rest
As I look down at the silver blade My memmories begin to fade Thoughts start to cross my mind My misty eyes are going blind Will anyone remember who I was My mind is slipping into a state of fuzz I start to remember all the times I had the good and expecially the bad My time is drawing near All of the sudden my heart flows with fear I pick up the knife All I can think about is taking my life Blood flows form my wrists like a river My body begins to quiver I realize this is for the best I am now happy in eternal rest

New Kind Of Family On Ct!
~~ANGEL FAMILY~~ Come on over and join a new kind of family The Angel Family! We are a group of people that help each other out and keep in tounch with each other! Close knit family! We have our own: * Family Page.... Angel Family@ CherryTAP * Family Lounge...... http://www.cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=5731 Owners Of the Angel Family Are...... ~*~ SeXxY * MaMa~*~~*~ Soon To Be CT Wife Of VOODOO~*~Owner of A.F.H.~*~And ~*~ArchAngel~*~ Of Angel Family~*~@ CherryTAP And.... drew " archangel of the family"@ CherryTAP

Still Here
im still on vacation, ill be back monday... i got a new tattoo!!!!! ill be posting a picture of it soon today... one thing i do feel i got to say, its funny how some people on cherrytap will tell u how much of a friend they are or ect, and stab u in the back while youre gone... note to people... i dont need the drama, if your going to be fake like that, just leave me be... i got enough friends, i dont need fake ones... with that said, ill be back soon, and miss yall!!!

Sex Survey...........im Rough
You scored as Violent. You are violent. To you there is nothing better than a good spank. You like scratching and biting 'cause that's what people are for.Violent81%Hot81%Wet75%Exciting69%Awkward31%Soft31%Sweet25%Shy0%What is your sexual style?created with QuizFarm.com

Poetrt
I'm happiest when most away I can bear my soul from its home of clay On a windy night when the moon is bright And the eye can wander thru worlds of light When I am not and none beside Nor earth nor sea nor cloudless sky But only spirit wandering wide Thru infinite immensity. Untitled By Emily Bronte

~~our Politicians Need To Get A Backbone~~
Let's hear it for Australia Muslims who want to live under Islamic Sharia law were told on Wednesday to get out of Australia , as the government targeted radicals in a bid to head off potential terror attacks. A day after a group of mainstream Muslim leaders pledged loyalty toAustralia and her Queen at a specia l meeting with Prime Minister John Howard, he and his Ministers made it cl ear that extremists would face a crackdown. Treasurer P eter Costello, seen as heir apparent to Howard, hinted that some radical clerics could be asked to leave the country if they did not accept thatAustralia was a secular state, and its laws were made by parliament. "If those are not your values, if you want a country which has Sharia law or a theocratic state, then Australia is not for you", he said on national television.

~ Home Made Movie, A Different View ~
A home Video if 911 as it happened, i get sick and full of anger every time i see this. I think they should show it every night on TV ~Never Forget~Never Forgive~ clipped from video.google.com

What If Titanic Sank Today?
What If Titanic sank Today? Reaction from different countries: U.S.A: "A ship coming to Freedom was attacked by terrorists. We will not sit quiet and we will teach them a lesson. Bin Laden you can run but you cannot hide we will find you and destroy your Al-Qaeda network." (President Bush........ whoelse?) U.K: "I have spoken to the President of United States and we have both agreed that the sinking of Titanic is significant prove that Saddam Hussein is clearly behind this attack, Iraq is imposing a threat to the world and this has to be dealt with." (Prime Minister Blair) Iraq: "LOL!!!" (President Saddam Hussain) Israel: "These Hamas and other terrorist network is enough evidence to say that sinking of Titanic is not an accident but it was their suicide bombers who have commited such a crime.We will now impose curfew on the Palestinians, detain them, exile them, kill them, starve them, destroy their homes and refugee camps." (Ariel Sharon....

Pedantic Semantics
Do you think there is something inherently evil about being human? Is there a place within ourselves that's joyful and frightening at the same time? A beauty that lies in the ugliness of our moddled souls? Reincarnations of lives into something incredible and new. Fresh starts for the worst kind. The most terrible events known followed by the birth of the most wonderful thing on the planet. The destroyer of worlds as much a part of our transcendent beings as god. Crestfallen snow glowing orange in the flames of a phoenix. Standing on the cusp of some dark object greater in magnitude than any stone god could lift. Teetering on the edge, at the brink of humanity. Like a child's toy fallen fromly his freshly expired little fingers. The glow of half lit faces staring in obsession. The fear and sweat, sickly sweet on the lips of the walking damned. And but what for else? But love, the handle and chain to pull fear from its velvet depth. Holding on to the impenetrable strand o

I Am Told This Might Surprize Me
and the moon is made of cheese lol so if your bored, answer away lol Subject HOW BAD R U WANTED????? Body: Body: Post this and see how many messages u get....don't be scared!! It is really amazing to see what people really think about you...and I promise you are probably going to be shocked at some of the responses.... (1) just friends (2) gorgeous (3) cute as heck (4) hot (5) fine (6) sexy (7) amazingly sexy (8) we can be friends with benefits (9) id take u to my crib (10) i want 2 make u my gf/bf (11) i love u baby (12) call me.....(__)____-___

Sexxy Lady Contest Check These Ladies Out!
~~ SeXxY LaDy Contest ~~ I need 10 to 15 Ladys for my contest! First Place wins Blast from me! 2nd and 3rd places wins V.I.P. Gifts! 1st Lady is...... with 1 comments 2nd Lady is...... with 1 comments 3rd Lady is...... with 1 comments 4th Lady is...... with 1 comments 5th Lady is...... with 1 comments 6th Lady is...... with 1 comments 7th Lady is...... with 1 comments 8th Lady is...... with 1 comments 9th Lady is...... with 1 comments 10th Lady is...... with 1 comments 11th Lady is...... with 1 comments 12th Lady is...... with 1 comments 13th Lady is......

Not So Good Today
I went up to the hospital today to see steven and managed to see his doctor as well, The news wasnt good, the cancer has spread to his testicles, they might have caught it in time, but we have to be prepared that he may lose them as well. He is getting his hair done midweek as well, they reckon its better to get it shaved than it just falling out randomly through the chemo. Hes got a couple of weeks break from the chemo and getting transfered to a hospital closer to home.

Chic~ Passed Away
this is amanda, chic's daughter...she told me to make sure that i contacted her friends on cherrytap in the event that she died. i still have no clue how to do that, i tried posting a bulletin but no one read it, so i stumbled across the blog section. my mom dawn (chic~)died feb. 26 2007 of a heart attack. if you read this and were a friend of her's contact me if you want details. or maybe if someone read's this they could let me know how to contact her friends on here?? just trying to do what she asked of me

I'm Staying
I had decided to leave because of punishment. For something i don't think I deserve.And would of changed if i had been able too. But some of you showed me what life would just be with out you in it. Too all of you for the private messages, comments, shouts you are the reason im staying. Friendship means the most to me. If i go i wouldn't have you all. My true friends made me realize that life isnt always going to be my way. So ill work through the little things and be there for the ones that mean the most to me.Much love to you all. Hugs BooBoo

Are You Manic?
You Are 51% Manic You are definitely super charged, and your energy is infectious! Your mania is something to be proud of. You wouldn't be you without it. Just make sure not to give into that self destructive streak of yours. Are You Manic?

How I Feel About The Way Men Talk To Me Lately....
You know, most of you havent talked to me on the phone or in person, youve seen my photographs...you tell me im hot, im sexy, im gorgeous, im pretty, how you want to come over and do me yada, yada, yada. Im sick and tired of that, I want someone who wants to talk to me for me, not talk to me about sex......thats all any of my friends want to talk about anymore, I dont have one male friend short of the ones that are already taken like my unkie goth that dont want to talk about anything else except about all the things they can do to me and make me do in the middle of the night. Mabye Im sounding prudish or...mabye im sounding stupid to some of you guys.....but in alot of ways, Im looking for friendship, mabye Romance.....possibly, but definately friendship and sex has gotten me into nothing but trouble in the past.......I only have one person in mind right now that i want to consider ripping his clothes off because he talks to me and treats me like a lady and a friend.....and he lets

Msn Group
Well I just thought I would yap a bit about this great Msn Group that I am a member in. We have alot of laughs and alot of fun in it. The members are down to earth and just plain awesome people to get to know. If your interested in joining..the Group is listed under Msn Groups. Dunno if this link will work...but you can always try it. Tc n peace...Boo CLICK HERE FOR ALL IN FUN FLIRTS

Skinning
Well I'm a CT noob but I'm learning skinning to add to the features at my website: MyFknSpace I'm doing ok so far and hope to learn the whole system and make a mess of skins and generators for everyone to enjoy! Check me out! Johnny

"whenever You Remember" Carrie Underwood
When you look back on times we had I hope you smile And know that through the good and through the bad I was on your side when nobody could hold us down We claimed the brightest star And we, we came so far And no they won't forget [Chorus] Whenever you remember times gone by Remember how we held our heads so high When all this world was there for us And we believe that we could touch the sky Whenever you remember, I'll be there Remember how we reached that dream together Whenever you remember When you think back on all we've done I hope you're proud When you look back and see how far we've come It was our time to shine And nobody could hold us down They thought they'd see us fall But we, we stood so tall And no we won't forget Whenever you remember times gone by Remember how we held our heads so high When all this world was there for us And we believe that we could touch the sky Whenever you remember, I'll be there Remember h

Too Tell Ever One Thank You ....
TO you that read my blogs, im glad that you spend time too read them ,i thank you becase i write them to under stand my self an if i can help you along the way an save my soul..ive been though some hell these last few month an im getting ,better buy the day ,leaning its not my falt she went a way..becase im the one that loved whit all heart&soul... thank you my friends..and remmber life isnt nothing wht out your soul, an love will come back if its true. your friend,ANGER

Moving Things Around
Sometime between now and Monday night I am going to have to reorganise my living quarters. I think I will make my current room my sanctuary.... or shrine. I am also thinking of sometime in the future of getting a small fridge for wine and liquors. and maybe even meads.

Keep Commenting On The Lips Contest Mainly Please It Ends Tomorrow Night... One Girl Keeping Ahead Of Me On Comments ;-)... Thank You All Very Much
THE LIPS CONTEST IS ONLY FOR THE WEEKEND AND THE OTHER ONE I FELL BEHIND IN BEING SICK ALL WEEK :-( IM IN THE SEXY LIPS CONTEST AND ALSO WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST.. HERE ARE THE LINKS IF YOU GET AROUND TO HELPING OUT THAT WOULD BE GREAT ;-).. SEXIEST LIPS CONTEST WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST THANKS FOR YOUR HELP IN ADVANCE MICHELLE AKA HOOVERGIRL COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED SO COMMENT TILL YOUR FINGERS HURT ;-)!!

Man Laws - Rules To Live By~
We always hear the rules from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. Please note . . . these are all numbered "1" on purpose. 1. Breasts are for looking at and that is why we do it. Don't try to change that. 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. 1. Sunday = sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way. 1. Crying is blackmail. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: - Subtle hints do not work! - Strong hints do not work! - Obvious hints do not work! - JUST SAY IT! 1. "Yes" and "No" are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. 1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. 1. A headache that lasts

Got A New Job
well i got myself a new job.... yup....lol... i get to start the 15th, so i have 8days left till my 1st day... then ill be working at mcdonalds... you know at 1st i really didnt want to work with food cuz the smell makes me a lil sick... but i got to a point in my life where i dont really care n e more cuz its not like i have to work there forever.. i mean i would like to someday do bigger and better things with my life... but i guess we all have to start somewhere...

My Friend I Love You
I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers. I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain, nor the future with its untold stories. But I can be there now when you need me to care. I can't keep your feet from stumbling. I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall. Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine; Yet I can share in your laughter. Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge; I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you ask. I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me. I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you. I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you, But I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself. I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting, But I can cry with you a

Not Easy Being Green
I wrote a blog yesterday on going green -- ways to help conserve our natural resources. Because of that, I wanted to say a bit about where I'm coming from and why I wrote it. I am not here to quote a bunch of facts and figures. I think that you can find facts and figures to support just about any position you want. I try to be commonsense about my opinions. And that's all they are -- opinions. I honestly believe that we need to continue working to conserve our natural resources. I make no claims about when, exactly, those resources will be exhausted. But I think it's only common sense that they will run out sooner or later. Oil, for example, is an exhaustible resource. While I personally do not agree with ruining natural preserves to dig for oil so that some asshole can drive a Hummer, even if you do, how can you dispute that that oil will eventually be exhausted? Just ask the guys down in Texas who were rollin' in it in the 70's and 80's. Trees grow, and we can make mo

:(
my baby this my baby that some people think im on crak becasue i sit herer thinking abou tall day and weither it will work with us or not but one thing for sure is it is killing me inside and i dont think you know how much i want you in my arms but it seems you dont want me but ne thing for sure i will always be here if you need to talk but i dought you wil so good luck,,,,, take my breath away,take my life away,the silent death,the beutaful knife hands so swift it enters my heart i take one last gasp and then i die

Hey ...comment Dammit...lol
http://www.cherrytap.com/bulletins.php?b=803166770 that is the link to my bulliten, please read it and leave comments, and PLEASE make it a sticky...grrr when I get money I WOULD DO IT FOR YOU ...and um hello I'll have my settlement in soon so..uh um..yeah...you might want to start ass kissing now.....ok ok...at least tap my cherry...and give me some CT love..lol mmmm would a boobie flash get you to help out...ha ha here you go ( . ) ( . )

Can You Help Me?
Add my son Luke (Sky) to your friends. He is feeling really down, because he has recently split with his girlfriend of 8 months or more, He lived with her. He is still besotted with her and loves her very much, but dont like the way he's been treated by her. Please can you offer him words of encouragement. Thankyou my friends, you'll find his link in my special friends ;)

I Love You All
Friend A friend is a person to laugh and cry with, An inspiration, Someone who lends a helping hand, though friends may not be forever, And they may not end up together, the memories of a true friendship will last forever. A friend is not a shadow nor a servant But someone who hold a piece of a person in his heart. Someone who shares a smile, Someone who brightens up your day What makes a person a friend? Is by saying your Love will stay

Here I Am To Save The Day!!!
Okay so I'm here now. I'm so used to myspace so Cherry Tap seems to have so much more to it than myspace does. So far I haven't found any of my friends on here except my Natebugg. You are all I need though fella. Hope to meet some new friends!! Well that's about it for now.

I Saved A Man's Life On Thursday...
You know it alwasy seems to happen when I eat a Donut.. I had this beautiful Apple Fritter in my hand, and had just taken the first bite.... I was on my way to the Van Nuys Municipal Court to deal with a Fix It Ticket for Tinted Windows that turned into a court case.... I was enjoying my drive with the sunroof open and the warm California Sunshine on my shoulders... time for a second bite of my Fritter when I pass a small fender bender car accident at the corner of Kestner and Kittridge. I look to see if everyone is okay, but I notice something strange... I see this White-Grey-White-Grey blurr... I stop and look closer and it's two guys on the ground fighting... well since right there at a High School I figure its just some High School Kids fighting and not that big of a deal.... I honk my horn to get their attention and then I see this silver flash.... it was an aluminum baseball bat, and the guy on top was wailing on the guy on the bottom... he was going for head-shots... I

Why Me
Why me, why does he do this shit to me? I cant take it ne more. his damn family gave away all of my lil girls toys and my ex just keeps lieing to me. i cant take it. just when i think my life has gotten just a lil better something goes wrong. i look around and see everyone i know happy, and i'm sad.

Just Being Me
My sweet angel broken and afriad, Torn apart by love that has led her astray. Feeling nothing but a broken heart and pain. Knowing that only one cares upon this day. Holding tight to the hand of a friend. never letting on what truely lays within. Taken a walk along the water hand and hand. Chatting with eachother like noone else can. Her heart in pieces for the friend to mend. Her soul in shambles from the arrogance of some men. He takes a look into her eyes knowing in a moment what lays behind. Caring deeply and not letting go. He keeps her close to let her know she is loved. Loved for who she is and what she brings. Bring life to her tired eyes as he walks along singing her song and drying the tears from her eyes.

Rating's On Cherry Tap = Server Overload's
Good Day all: Ok here is the low down. Cherrytap constantly nales me with rating to fast, and recently has been blocking me for ten minutes each time, this makes me leave the site and go do something else. I think that this defeats the purpose! I am sales Manager/lead Sales/webmaster for the leading systems Integration company http://www.nortech.bc.ca , in Northern BC, Canada. I deal in server's storage and file server technology every day of my life, network's amongst other things are a big part of my life. this server overload ruling is bullshit, because I have a latest technology system, that is obviously faster and more capable than the cherry tap server's. My point why should we all be insulted by these stupid server overload messages, when the fault lies in the old crap technology that Cherrytap is obviously running. You want to stop having server overloads, spend some of the hard earned money that this sight generates for you, and do some adding or upgrading,

Writing Is My Obsession...
and today is no different. Can you imagine -- if I already have nearly 1000 blog postings just on CT, can you imagine how many more postings I have on my roughly 15 other blog sites that I have??? ;) I am also finding ways to write blog postings on my many blog sites and challenge myself with new adventure through other sites. CT was a challenge, which has now been surpassed by another site that I am putting together concerning spiritual growth, domestic violence and sexual assault, shopping, web building ideas and so much more. It is called "iWIM" (Worldly Inquiring Mind). Of course my absorption into this site aids in my procrastination of other things -- such as changing out the kitty litter box (but, who has this task listed as their favs to do. If it is, I want to talk to you to come out and change mine on a weekly basis!!!) lol.... My apartment complex is going up on my rent a whole $9 for the next 13 months when my current lease expires in June. Can't believe I ha

Hinder - Better Than Me
My favorite lyrics A simple dedication made me listen to these lyrics more closely. We always seem to think that it is up to us to make the decision for someone else, as these lyrics state "you deserve much better than me". When you are put on a pedestal, are carried on hands and receive compliment after compliment of course, it makes one glow; but when, in life, a decision like this is made for the better of the other person, without taking any of the possible consequences into consideration, then the fall off the pedestal is a deep and painful one. Maybe you are the right person, maybe you do fully own someone's heart; never think you have the right to make a choice on behalf of someone else, after all, life should be lived by the rightful owner, and not by someone else on their behalf. Everyone has the right to make their own mistakes, everyone is responsible for their own choices/actions, don't resume responsibility over someone else's. Okay, I'll kick my soapbox to th

"requirements"
Take my hand when my eyes weep. Hold me gently in your arms. Play in my hair, as I sleep. Dazzle me with all your charm. Provide me time and space. Listen closely when I speak. Secure in your life my place. Support me the times I'm weak. Cherish our time together. Dread any time we're apart. Mean when you say forever. Let my absence gnaw your heart. And let all my joys be yours. Let my sorrows be as well. And share relationship chores. Mind your ego, lest it swell. And I beg you never fight. Let us walk our time in peace. With a kiss for every night, Let our passions never cease. But above all these my dove, Swear always that you'll be true. For's not you I ask these of - They're my promises to you.

Dam Bevers
this is something that a friend emailed me years ago, i have had it sitting in my email for over four years, so i figure ill share it with all of you. A Dam Building Permit is Required This is an actual letter sent to a man named Ryan DeVries by the Michigan Department of Environmental Quality, State of Michigan. His response is hilarious, but read the State's letter before you get to the response letter. -------------------------------------------------- SUBJECT: DEQ File No.97-59-0023; T11N; R10W, Sec. 20; Montcalm County Dear Mr. DeVries: It has come to the attention of the Department of Environmental Quality that there has been recent unauthorized activity on the above referenced parcel of property. You have been certified as the legal landowner and/or contractor who did the following unauthorized activity: Construction and maintenance of two wood debris dams across the outlet stream of Spring Pond. A permit must be issued prior to the start of this t

Actually About Hair
Some time ago, I had to come to terms with the fact that I was going bald. Despite the reassurances of my family ("your hairline's always been there", "It comes from the female side of the family and you're Grandad had a full head of hair until the day he died") I knew that the gap between my hairline and my eyebrows was expanding. I don't have a problem with this. I shave it very short and women I barely now ask if they can rub my head. This is a good thing. As well losing hair, getting older also seems to involve GROWING hair. Primarily in places where it seems less than necessary. Nostrils for example. What happens later in life that means you need longer nasal hair? Part of the reason I grew a beard was so that if I was feeling lazy, I could let nose and upper lip merge (this is a joke). The beard is also a bit strange now. I've had it one for or another for 8 years, and it's A) getting curlier and B) going grey. Fantastic. All of these things I can cope with. The thing th

Reflections Of A Soldiers Hell !
as these walls are caving in i find it hard to breathe again vivid pictures in my mind another place, another time the visions that keep haunting me of the lives they took from me look for a reason to this rhyme to find the man i was inside send me out so young and bold although i feel scared and cold i sleep with my eyes open wide thinking i am next to die wake in the morning , lack of sleep to the slaughter, lambs we will be from behind , they ambush us my friends commended to the dust the war is over , going home things have changed since i've been gone for the life i've offered up in return i get no love the people shut their doors on me a wounded soldier , not a disease the dues i paid nearly killed me think of that as i sleep in this street! this is dedicated to the Veitnam War Veterans! ask one of these guys what this poem means, they will tell you! and our own country did this to them! shame on us! Jack Pardue 4/5/2007 copyright 20

Smiling On Outside Screaming On Inside!
it has been a while since ive been here and for good reason about 2-3 weeks ago my son was arrested here in mb for tresspassing,well i sent him to ny to visit his mom , he wasnt there 2 weeks and he got roughed up by the nys troopers and according to witness he did not get his miranda rights read to him , so ive been busy working andpuling hair and favors to get this kid home safely...what a nightmare this has been! so if any of you read this, i am soory i havent forgotten any of you , but its been craxy for me here, wishing you all a safe and happy easter....as always..rebel

I Love My Friends But...
The fake display pics thing has gotten out of hand. I don't recognize alot of yall anymore. Each one of you using some sexy hot person as a display pic is also beautiful in thier own right. I have like zero self esteem. I hate how I look and though its tempting,I can't do it. What is socially acceptable and pleasing to the eye is ingrained in our brains by the media. Yanno it is ok to be yourselves!! I understand the race to the top. I really do but can't you just be you? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I am not knocking anyone here. Some of you I am very close to. I just see more and more ppl using models and pr0n stars as thier main pics. What does that say about cherrytap? And what does that say about the men here? Think about it. Don't get mad at me...this is totally my opinion and not infleunced by anyone. Unlike many others, I think for myself here. And I just want you all to know that you are beautiful as yourselves and that points aren't anything. And to the men who go g

My Things R Gone
i just got back from my old house, to get my shoes ima wear for my nephew christening tommorow, but when i went there i didnt see no shoes anywhere, im thinkn where the hell is it. and then i went to my bedroom and my closet is empty only thing left os hangers in 1 long sleeve shirt on the hanger still. all the closets are empty, my coats and jackets are gone too. my dad things and moms things also. i dont kno about my brothers things i didnt go in his room, but dont you think thats weird how everything is gone? so now the only have the shoes i have in this house which is only 1 sneaker, 1 sandel, 1 monkey slipper. this sucks, i not jes lost my mom from da accident but my clothes and shoes and other things, its like i gotta start over. it jes thos things mean alot cuz my mom gave me alot of things i have or i mean had. n now dat thos things r gone n shes gone, i dnt really have anything left 2 hold on to now. i kno apart of moving on is to let go of the pass but somethings we want to h

Easter
Hey cherry friends!just sitting here sending mail back and forth to someone,Tomorrow is Easter and I hope everyone has a great day!Stay safe and don't eat too many eggs,or too much of anything else you might cum across,lol,catch ya later!

Vietnam & Ptsd
Date Apr 7, 2007 Comments: South Vietnam is beautiful--a quintessential paradise--without war, of course. I'm glad the war is over so that the Vietnamese can live in peace. They've been fighting for centuries. I loved Vietnam, and its people. I even loved my enemy. I prayed over each one. But I particularly fell in love with one Vietnamese child from one of the villages we protected. His name was Toa' and he was about 10 or 11 years old. Everyday he would find me no matter where we set up in our Day Haven Site. He would find me and get me what ever I needed from the closest village or town. We were like brothers or even father and son. I was sure he loved me too. At times, we would even take naps together in my hammock. I'd pay him a few dollars a week, assuming it went to the support of his very poor family. I guess this love was somewhat a replacement for the son I had left stateside. But I loved Toa'? with all of my heart. Two weeks after I rotated back to the World, one of

Haunting Memories
Time passes, slips away Till nothing more that a memory You awake with a startle Of a haunting memory You roll over and see a shape You smile Then your realize it’s not me I am just a haunting memory Of once was Of what can not be Years have passed Since we were And now all that remains Are haunting memories Haunting memories Of what we once had But you choose to Walk away from me Attempting to forget The lust you had of me And still have of me The haunting memories Tell you so The desire The need The lust you still have of me Will never pass you see I am in your blood And forever I will be

Daddy
As I waited for you thru the years Now and forever we will be together. As I am the child of God. I extend my hands to yours. So I can lead you down the path of righteousness So we can be with Jesus together. It's not hard to pray the sinner's prayer. Please kneel and hold my hand daddy. And close your eyes and pray with me. Now you have joined me on being a child of God. I praise you and thank you daddy For now we can be together for enternity. As I look up to the heavenly skies, I cry the tears of joy for you daddy.

God Defeated Satan
The enemy has fallen Onto the hard ground Where he will stay for enternity He has been defeated Halleluigh ha has been defeated We serve The Great An Awsome God! We put are arms around you Lord We stomp our feet on you Satan We sing Halleluigh to your name O Mighty God Where we keep the enemy under out feet We jump and praise for our Lord Satan, you can't ruin our lives no more We are going to live with our Heavenly Father As we look down to you evil one Laughing and rejoicing We are going home, we are going home to our fathers house. Thank you and we praise you Lord. As we lift you up on high with all of our hearts and souls.

Redneck Astrological Signs
Okra December 22 - January 20 Although you appear crude, you are actually very slick on the inside. Okra have tremendous influence. An older Okra can look back over his life and see the seeds of his influence everywhere. Stay away from Moon Pies. Chitlin January 21 - February 19 Chitlins often come from humble backgrounds. Many times they're uncomfortable talking about just where they came from. A chitlin, however, can make something of himself if he's motivated and has plenty of seasoning. When it comes to dealing with Chitlins, be very careful. Chitlins are best with Catfish and Okra. Remember that when marriage time rolls around. Boll Weevil February 20 - March 20 You have an overwhelming curiosity. You're unsatisfied with the surface of things, and you feel the need to bore deep into the interior of everything. Needless to say, you are very intense and driven as if you had some inner hunger. Nobody in their right mind is going to marry you, so don't worry about it. M

The Most Sanctified Evocation Of The Pizza Delivery Lad
Know ye, of brite eyes and rumbling tummy, that yon ritual hast been performéd by thine ancestors since first man yearnéd for munchies. Prepareth, hence, for thy ritual by cleansing thy Desk area to preserve a sacred space for thy pizza, which shalt shortly be deliveréd unto ye by the hallowed messenger. Relinquish, thee, all papers and such which doth undoubtedly clutter thy sacred Desk until the time of pizza doth occur. And set ye out upon thy keyboard a mighty set of napkins, for the art of pizza ingestion ist a faulty process fraught with grease stains. Upon this sacred preparation, annoint ye now thy lips with Cola of thy deity's significance and prepare to petition the spirits of thy local and most favoréd patron deity of pizza. Be it called upon by the name of Domino, Our Little Caesar, Howie the Hungry, or Great Father Romano...ye shalt call upon thy deity for spirited release from the hunger pangs of thy tummy. Begin ye now the ritual. Take up the divination of t

The Child Of God
My glorious savior My precious Lord As I kneel at your feet My wonderful tears are falling onto your feet I extend my hand to yours So you can lead me to your kingdom The beautiful skies The peaceful angels I pray onto you I sing in your praises Your my father, your my savior I am deeply devoted to you you lift me up to be a wonderful child I am yours my Lord forever and ever. Amen

R.i.p Jay Cajimat
Someone I knew just passed away from a shooting in Iraq on April 03rd. Jay Cajimat is only 20 when he died. In high school he dreamt about being in the Army and before he graduated he signed up for the Army. And now he has died with honor and a hero. REST IN PEACE JAY CAJIMAT! You will be missed truly.

I Am Yours My Lord!!!!!!!!!
I am small and weary child, But you have made me strong. You have cleansed my soul You filled my heart. As I stand at your gloryifed cross. I"m calling out to you As I am all alone underneath the weeping willow tree With beamof heavenly light shining done on me. I need you more as the endless days goes by. You have showed me the way to the pearly gates of heaven. As I walk on the clounds of heaven. I hear the angels sing When you lay me to rest beneath the willow tree I'll be yours for enternity.

No Snails?
Lost in jungle, hikers lived on frogs, spiders • Hikers Guilhem Nayral and Loic Pillois were found Thursday in French Guiana • The two left for a hike on February 14; families notify authorities later that month • Pillois tells reporters they ate beetles, frogs and tarantulas to survive • After reaching village by himself, Pillois got police to rescue Nayral by copter CAYENNE, French Guiana (AP) -- Two hikers lost in the dense jungle of French Guiana for weeks survived by eating the only things at hand: beetles and other insects, frogs and spiders. The French hikers, Guilhem Nayral and Loic Pillois, were found Thursday, French authorities said. They had left February 14 for a hike from the Grand Kanori rapids on the river Approuague to the tiny village of Saul. Their families alerted authorities on February 28, two days after they were scheduled to arrive. "After 12 days, we hadn't arrived in Saul. We thought that someone would come looking for us, so we stopped. We waited fo

Joke
Joke of the Day ~ Bernie was invited to his friend's home for dinner. Morris, the host, preceded every request to his wife by endearing terms, calling her Honey, My Love, Darling, Sweetheart, Pumpkin, etc. Bernie looked at Morris and remarked, "That is really nice, that after all these years that you have been married, you keep calling your wife those pet names." Morris hung his head and whispered," To tell the truth, I forgot her name three years ago

The Caffeinated Cross
THE CAFFEINATED CROSS Stand, facing east, holding your coffee cup, filled with the mystical brew, in your power hand, and assume a posture of wakeful alertness. Bring your coffee cup to your forehead and intone: "LATTE" Lower your coffee cup to the vicinity of your navel: "MOCHA" Bring your coffee cup to your left shoulder: "CAPPUCHINO" Bring it across to your right shoulder: "FRAPPUCHINO" Clasp your coffee cup in both hands over your heart chakra: "ARABICA, OH MAN!" Extend your arms to the sides, and intone: "BEFORE ME, MRS. OLSON" "BEHIND ME, JUAN VALDEZ" "AT MY RIGHT HAND, M J B" "AT MY LEFT HAND, THE BROTHERS HILLS" "FOR ABOUT ME SWIRLS THE COFFEE AROMA" "WITHIN ME SINGS THE CAFFEINE HIGH" Drink the coffee, in communion with the spirits of the Sacred Coffee Bean. This last step may be usefully repeated as long as you like

'dominatrix Mom' Arrested On Prostitution Charge
(CBS) BOSTON A mother of two who reportedly ran a dominatrix dungeon in her Gallows Hill, Boston basement is facing a prostitution charge after allegedly agreeing to perform a sex act on an undercover detective. Paula Webb, 42, was arrested Wednesday night in the basement of her house on Albion Street. Police said her husband and children were upstairs at the time. According to a report in the Salem News, the investigation began on March 16, when police responded to a call about a domestic incident at the house. According to the report, the Webbs had been arguing after Paula Webb complained that her husband hadn't cleared the snow off her car. According to the report, she told police she wanted to leave and departed while they were still at the house. After she was gone, a still ticked-off Stephen Webb, 54, told the officers he had something to show them and led them to the basement. There, the patrolmen got an eyeful - the room was set up as a dungeon, with eye hooks screwe

And I Digress.. (in 3 Parts)
"Any kind of honesty is rebellion" -Yevgeny Yevtushenko part 1. I made a mistake that time. I put into my head enough thoughts for both of us. the unknown is what I need what you think. literally. Like a jar that will not open no matter how many men you ask and how much pride you give up. take it back to when he sat next to her and listened for moments of disaster but all she could think was "he's sitting across from me and we are not in class!" We are agreeing. we sit. not worrying of time. but now, time is disasterous. avoiding each other at every step, every instance. When did i become the kind to feed the fire to beat the dead horse I must think he'll wake up. When we put ourselves in a room with the door closed, blinds closed, not more than a foot apart. Our chairs rolled, swiveled, back and forth. Her wanting to move closer to him found the only time he did not back away. But she knew she would ruin everything if that room had become a confessional boo

"the Last Letter To Be"
I exist now dreaming in reality, shades of deep reds and grays, Evolving at the speed of light As my third eye sees all, I bring my fingers to my lips and time stops I feel you. I ponder you and wallow in the memory of your scent and way. How you called me baby The way you made me laugh The way you touched my heart and made me believe Unable to stop, it seems too wonderful, but in the end there is not much but pain. I allow this for some time, then I awake and know that I am alive and the possibilities are endless. Wanting you to taste my soul and undeniably know that I am the one and we are one to conquer happiness together, unimaginably, the way you knew that we could and will if you say one word, Yes! Your fear. Your ego. Your pride. They protect and also hurt you, keeping you from what is rightfully yours, Love. If I had your heart again? Oh, the way I would touch it, nurture it and protect it My most sacred gift God wants what I want, he

Dominatrixes Making News
Dominatrix Arrested for Prostitution at Estate Leased From Rabbinical School Thursday , March 01, 2007 ADVERTISEMENT NEW YORK — A dominatrix was arrested on prostitution charges at a suburban estate that she leased from the rabbinical school next door, and school officials faced the unusual prospect of having to cleanse the building once the whips and chains are gone. "Once everything is out, there has to be a spiritual cleansing," said Rabbi Samuel of the Orthodox Khal Adas Kashau yeshiva. "We won't go close to that place until they move out. No, no, no — heaven forbid." Sandra Chemero, 46, was charged Wednesday with prostitution and criminal possession of a stun gun at what she called "The Sovereign Estate" — four acres in tony Bedford that she leased last year. "It's like a calamity," the rabbi said. "I've never heard such a thing, and I don't want to hear about it. It's terrible." The rabbi, who identified himself only as Rabbi Samuel, said yeshiva officials

The Science Of Religion
so, at this college there was an extra credit question: "Is hell endothermic or exothermic"? This is what one kid wrote: " First, we postulate that if souls exist, then they must have some mass. If they do, then a mole of souls can also have a mass. So, at what rate are souls moving into hell and at what rate are souls leaving? I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for souls entering hell, lets look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Some of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to hell. Since, there are more than one of these religions and people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all people and all souls go to hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change in volume in hell. Boyle's Law states that in

Sir Bob The Dark Knight Of Magical Dragon Blah Blah Aka Poison - Leader Of The Mystic Clan Family Fruit Loops
I've been amusing myself today looking at the names some of these people have given themselves.. not to mention the morphing photos that change their photo from a picture of them standing in front of their laminate mobile home cabinets.. into a vampire with howling wolves beside it. WTF people.. ? And ladies.. how many pictures do we need to see of your forehead.. top down from a 45 degree angle with your eyes looking up into the camera.. strategically positioned, so we can see your saggy 44D boobs hoisted up into a titty cage to achieve optimum cleavage.. while *NOT* showing your twin belly rolls that spill out over the button of your jeans...?? Don't get me wrong.. I like boobies, and thick women too for that matter.. (hell, I like all women).. but alot of this stuff is ridiculous in how "false" it is.. Oh wait.. maybe we aren't supposed to be real. Maybe we're supposed to misrepresent ourselves and see how many people think we're deserving of a "10".. :) ahhh.. the cove

I Hate Guys Like This
Girl: I was at my grandmothers helping her around the house Boy: Why didnt you ###### call me? Girl: Baby Im sorry i lost track of time Boy: Not as sorry as your going to be bitch (the boy grabs her by the hair and slams her to the ground) Girl: Please baby stop im sorry Boy: Kicks her in the face and then the ribs and says I called your ###### grandmothers house you were not ###### there you lying peice of #### Girl: Wait stop please let me... Boy: Steps on her throat and says Shut the #### up bitch. Get's over the top of her and starts to rape her. Girl: No baby please Stop please Boy: I said shut the #### up and he spit in her face. He then pins her down with her hands above her head, and he penatrates her Girl: Please stop your hurting me please. She starts to screem and tries to get away Boy: Bitch if you don't shut up i sware to god ill kill you after a few minutes he finishes and removes the rest of her clothes and pushes her out in the snow, sa

Run'n Like Hell
Oh I feel like hell, Tomorrows around the bend, Then its goodbye farewell, Not falling for your shit again, When tomorrow gets here, I’ll leave this all behind, I’ll be a free man, And you’ll be off my mind, chorus Oh, I am running like hell, No catchin me this time, No theres nothing you can say, To change my mind, Oh I’m running like hell, I’m not wasting my time, Oh girl, I’m moving down the line, You say you love me, Well weres the proof, Girl I gave you everything, Aint seen a damn thing from you, All I own in this paper bag, My black boots on my feet, Not even a note good bye, And I’m out there on that street, Chorus

Dream
Close your eyes, Tell me what you see, Tell me, What you dream, Is it everything I dream, I look at you-I see me, Every hope -Every dream, Everything I’ll ever need, Staring back at me, All I love-All I see, Every hope-Every dream, Everything I’ll ever need, Staring back at me, Close your eyes, Open them to see, I’m right here, My heart is yours, Is it everything you dream, I look at you-I see me, Every hope -Every dream, Everything I’ll ever need, Staring back at me, All I love-All I see, Every hope-Every dream, Everything I’ll ever need, Staring back at me, Close your eyes, Close them with me, Let me wrap you in my arms, Just like a dream, Its everything we dreamed.

The Dark Spirit
From the depths of twilight I stride Timeless beings at my side My footfalls make not a sound to the earth forever bound A mere mortal was bred at this crossroad life shed In my chest a heart once beat no more my soul complete God like in my form A raging thunderstorm Pure power I devour tasting ever so sour The electricity fills the air you will suffer my empty stare Calling my name you came A magical tryst life’s energy flowing from supple wrist Holding you dear no need to fear Eternally, you and I full moon in the sky

The Chinese Invasion
by Dr. William Pierce Hello! If you have listened often to my broadcasts, you probably have heard me say more than once that we must oppose the enemies of our people only by legal means at this time: that no matter how much we are tempted to ignore this warning, and no matter how morally justified violence or illegality may be, we must swallow our rage and restrain ourselves. And the reason we must not resort to illegality is simply that we cannot win an armed conflict against the government: the disparity in forces at this time is too great; we are too heavily outgunned. Sometimes, however, the temptation becomes almost overwhelming. Imagine this hypothetical situation: an enemy nation -- Red China, say -- launches a surprise attack on the United States. With precision nuclear missile strikes the enemy forces take out our centers of command and control all across the United States. At the same time Chinese immigrants in America execute a plan which has been carefu

Another Female $%*^$^
Another one who attempts to lure bf's... WhlchrCutie@ CherryTAP Despite being told he is happily taken this *ahem* person begs for a phone call and to be talked dirty to. Just letting you know. Jen

Poetry: Cry
PLEASE DO NOT COPY WITHOUT PERMISSION. MATERIAL IS COPYRIGHTED. THANK YOU. Cry We are the First People Sioux, Cheyenne, Cherokee We are the Original Mohawk, Huron, Cree We cared for the land Hunted only our need Gathered by hand For our people to feed Lived under clear sky Drank from clean water As seasons went by This land not alter Game hiding in the wood Buffalo moving on the plain Where ancestors once stood Our tears fall like rain Gone is the great tree The great herds are bone Now all that we see Paths made of false stone Cry for what has gone Cry for our children Cry as time goes along Cry for what might have been

The Case Of Hendrik Möbus
by Dr. William Pierce In our program last week we talked about the Jewish campaign to outlaw Politically Incorrect speech: so called "hate speech." Of course, as I mentioned last week, the Jews aren't the only ones trying to abolish the Bill of Rights. The Jews are the principal schemers and the prime movers, but the radical feminists are among their most zealous allies; so is the homosexual lobby. Every group in this screwed-up society of ours that has had special privileges bestowed on it by the government -- every member of the Clinton coalition -- wants to silence anyone who might be inclined to question his group's privileges. And then there are the bleeding-heart liberals, who really believe that the freedom not to be offended by what anyone else says or writes is more important than freedom of speech. But the Jews are the ones planning the campaign, and the mass media are their principal weapons against our freedom. Two weeks ago a 30-year-old White man, Eric Toews, died i

Poetry
I roam the earth on the edge of twilight my dreams of you woke me this night.... Our bodies entwined in this lovers embrace my soul ablaze, I touch your face The light sent of vanilla fills the air I run my fingers through your hair Your soft lips on mine our time so divine Gentle moans escaping your lips my hand swirling up the curves of your hip..... Wakening at a start feeling the beat of your heart Reaching to the darkness, I find your not here closing my eyes, you still feel so near It all felt so real, our dance I wonder if we will ever get our chance Rising from my bed I try to clear my head............ Visions of your beauty it seems will forever be lost in my dreams

Termites
by Dr. William Pierce A number of noteworthy things have happened during the past few days. For example, the situation on our southern border, on which I commented last week, has continued to worsen. The Clinton government continues to regard the problem there as a rancher problem rather than as an invasion by illegal immigrants. Privately the Clintonistas are irritated that White ranchers in Arizona have been interfering with the invasion, and that one of them, Roger Barnett, who owns a 22,000-acre cattle ranch near Douglas, Arizona, on the Mexican border, has arrested more than 3,000 illegal immigrants during the past two years and called attention to the government's willful failure to protect the border. The Clintonistas -- and by that term I mean all of those people, both inside the government and out, whose policies are supported by Bill Clinton and his government and who in turn approve of the government -- the Clintonistas want the invasion to continue, and they don't wan

You Make Me Smile
You place a smile on my face for being you the sweet and sexy person I know the person who will listen to me bitch about everything and nothing at all you put a smile on my face because you never judge me and you never take anything I say out of anger to heart because you know that deep down I will never do anything to hurt you. You put a smile on my face just by being you

Survival Essentials
by Dr. William Pierce Today let's back off a bit and take a look at the overall situation of our race. I believe that it's important to do that fairly often, so that we don't get lost in the details. So here's the situation: Very roughly, there are 100 million adult, heterosexual White men and women in the United States, and about as many White children and teenagers. There are roughly 80 million non-Whites of all ages, and I'm including among the latter the approximately six million Jews who live in the United States. Among the 100 million adult, non-Jewish Whites in the United States, there are two to three million who are potential listeners to this broadcast. I don't know how many are actual listeners now -- probably between 100 and 200 thousand, which is somewhere between three and ten per cent of the potential. And of course, many of the potential listeners would not respond positively even if they were listening now. I receive letters often from listeners who tell me that

On Another Note...
Most of my friends know I'm not a huge fan of the Humane Society, far from it. I detest the need to euthanize animals in good health simply because they've out-stayed their time in the shelters. However, today I'm singing a slightly different tune... The Humane Society saw my add in the PennySaver: Dogs must go, today!Several dogs need new homes, health issues prevent me from caring for them properly anymore. Call for details and personal visit.Much to my surprise, my mom (who was watching the kids) had a knock on the door, it was a represenative from the Humane Society who read my add and had come by to see how many dogs still needed homes. My mom paniced, I had just told her the day before that the last time I'd tried to surrender a dog to them they wanted $86 dollars for it. But Jamie (Representative's name) assured my mom that there would be no cost. Mom called me and had me talk to her about it. Jamie asked what she could do to help. I told her "Honestly, if you can take all b

Storm, Break Loose!
by Dr. William Pierce Let's talk more today about a question that listeners have raised repeatedly: What can I do for my people? What can I do to fight my people's enemies? If you've been listening to these American Dissident Voices programs for a while, you know that more than anything else I have urged people to stop being spectators and become participants in the historical process. If you don't like what's being done to our society, to our world, then get off the sidelines and get out on the field. Don't just sit there and complain quietly to your friends. Do something! The fact that not as many people as I would like have responded to this urging is not entirely due to cowardice or laziness. Most Americans are very much constrained by their need to earn a living. Relatively few have complete freedom of action. If they are to join the fight they need specific and practical suggestions about what they can do -- and still earn a living. So today I want to make one or two suc

Old Aunts And Marriages.....
An easy remedy for those who have problems with their old aunts... ...who come up to you at weddings, and poke you in the ribs, cackling, and tell you that you're next. They will stop if you do the same thing to them at funerals....

Shielding Evil
by Dr. William Pierce The horror in Rhodesia continues -- the ethnic cleansing, the murder and rape and dispossession of the Whites there by the Blacks -- and the media here continue to ignore what is happening there or to downplay it drastically, showing only happy mobs of Blacks chanting and dancing as they demand that more White farms be turned over to them. Certainly, I'll be talking about Rhodesia more in the future. Today, however, let's back off a little and look at some other things that are happening in our world that may not seem to have much to do with the genocide of our people in Rhodesia but that nevertheless can help us understand better why that genocide is happening and why the mass media here are ignoring it. Let's begin today with a law suit that recently ended in a British court in London. It was a libel suit that the noted British historian and writer David Irving had brought against a Jewess, Deborah Lipstadt, who had written a book calling Irving a "Holocau

Returning Fire
by Dr. William Pierce The question on the mind of every patriot, of every concerned American, is, "What should we do to oppose most effectively the enemies of our people? By what methods should we fight the media bosses, the politicians, the liberals, and the others who are destroying our society, our civilization, and our race?" I was on a Christian radio talk show a few days ago, and the consensus seemed to be that we should read our Bibles and pray. I really don't believe that's going to get the job done. When I talk with conservatives, most of what I hear is about voting: about electing the right politicians to the Congress and the White House. Some of them favor the Republicans, and some favor a third party. And I should tell you that I have about as much confidence in that approach as I do in praying. If we had a proportional representation system in this country, like they have in many European countries, so that we might hope to elect just a few responsible people to t

Reality Check
by Dr. William Pierce It's time for a reality check. One of the ways in which I try to keep up with what's going on in the world is watching a couple of televised news programs every day. For week after week I've been saturated with Elian Gonzales, as if the business of deciding whether or not the boy goes back to his father in Cuba or stays with other relatives in Miami is the most important thing happening in the world today. Now, I can understand that at least part of the reason for this saturation coverage of the Elian Gonzales situation is based on the mentality of the average television news viewer. The couch potatoes probably have nothing better to do than worry about where Elian ends up. They'd rather get the latest installment in the Elian soap opera than know what's really happening in the world. I hope, however, that you'll pardon me for suspecting that in addition to the strictly commercial desire on the part of CNN and other news presenters to cater to the feminin

Race Suicide
by Dr. William Pierce With the end of the year at hand this seems like a good time to sum things up. Before we sum up the past year, though, let's look at the past century. The salient feature of the 20th century was the collective suicide of the White race. In 1900 we ruled the world. We ruled politically, militarily, culturally, economically, scientifically, and in every other way. No other race even came close. We ruled India and Africa directly, and China was for all practical purposes an economic colony of Europe and America. The Chinese Emperor remained on his throne only so long as he let White men have their way in China. Japan was the only non-White nation of any significance that even had pretensions of autonomy. We had superior weapons, superior armed forces, superior communications, superior transportation, superior agriculture and industry, superior standards of health, superior organization, superiority in every facet of science and technology. We had the best unive

Our Task
by Dr. William Pierce Every week I tell you that America is in serious trouble, that our race is in serious trouble. And I'm sure that most of you who are regular listeners believe that and also understand why we're in trouble. But it's clear that many White Americans don't believe we're in trouble. How could anything be wrong when the shopping malls are full of things to buy and they haven't even reached the limit on their credit cards yet? With unemployment down, inflation down, even the government's crime statistics down, how could we be in trouble? It's clear that most of these Alfred E. Neuman types, these soccer-mom types, don't have a clue, but still sometimes they make me feel as if I'm deliberately trying to be a spoilsport, looking for problems where there are none, just so I'll have something to complain about. The fact is that most people are not able to see much beyond the ends of their noses -- or their television screens. If their television screens tell them over

Music Of Rebellion
by Dr. William Pierce Last year I got into the business of producing and distributing music. I had a couple of reasons for doing so. A general reason is that I want to continue to build my capability for communicating with the public through every medium that can be used effectively for that purpose, and music can be a very effective medium. A specific reason is that I wanted a medium for communicating with alienated young Americans who listen to a type of music known as "resistance music." These young Americans have grown up in multiculturalized America. They've been weaned on Jewish television programming. They've gone to racially mixed schools and been lied to by Politically Correct teachers about how everyone is "equal," about how we must all learn to get along with one another, that more and more "diversity" and multiculturalism are the irresistible wave of the future, and that no normal person should want to resist this wave anyway because it's good and, oh, so wonderful! The

Moral Aids
by Dr. William Pierce Last month a few of my fellow members of the National Alliance distributed some flyers on the campus of the University of Texas in Austin. The flyers warned White women about the AIDS dangers of sexual contact with non-Whites, pointing out in particular that heterosexual Black males are 14 times as likely to be infected with AIDS-causing HIV as heterosexual White males are. Well, the usual suspects really had a fit about our flyers. The Jews and the liberals and the feminists and Marxists and the rest organized a "rally against racism" on the campus, with the wholehearted support of the university administration. The student newspaper joined the chorus of those bewailing the fact that anyone would believe that Blacks are in any way different from Whites in the matter of sexually transmitted disease and that anyone would want to discourage sexual relations between White women and Black men. I mean, that's all terribly racist, isn't it, and there's just nothing w

I Want You All
WANT YOU, I WILL SEEK AND FIND YOU, I WILL TAKE YOU TO BED AND HAVE MY WAY WITH YOU, I WILL MAKE YOU ACHE AND SWET TILL YOU MOAN AND GROAN, I WILL MAKE YOU BEG FOR MERCY AND BEG FOR ME TO STOP, I WILL EXHAUST YOU TO THE POINT THAT YOU WILL BE RELIEVED WHEN IM FINISHED WITH YOU, YOU WILL BE WEAK FOR DAYS.......... ALL MY LOVE THE FLU XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

This One Is For Redheads...
A gorgeous young redhead goes into the doctor's office and said that her body hurts wherever she touched it. Impossible!" says the doctor. "Show me."' The redhead took her finger, pushed on her left shoulder and screamed, then she pushed her elbow and screamed even more. She pushed her knee and screamed; likewise she pushed her ankle and screamed. Everywhere she touched made her scream. The doctor said, "You're not really a redhead, are you? "Well, no" she said, "I'm actually a blonde." "I thought so," the doctor said. "Your finger is broken...

Lies And The History Channel
by Dr. William Pierce The biggest threat to our people -- the biggest obstacle to our survival and progress -- is the Jewish control of the mass media of news and entertainment. I've said that to you many times. Today I want to talk about some very specific examples of the way in which this threat works. Last month a special television documentary program began airing on the History Channel, which is a subsidiary of A&E Television Networks. The "A&E" stands for "Arts and Entertainment." The name of the program is "Nazi America: A Secret History." It purports to be a serious history of the growth of the Nazi movement in America, starting with the German-American Bund and its precursor organizations in the 1930s and taking us right up to the present I don't have the time to view many television programs except the national and international news each day, primarily to see what the party line is: that is, to see what "spin" the Jews are putting on the news. This History Channel docu

Three More Months
Well I'm down to about three more months. I've experienced a lot in my two tours over here. Maybe more than I would have ever wanted. I think I've had enough adventure for one lifetime. I've spent the past nine months escorting convoys to all corners of Iraq. I've spent countless hours in the gun turret of an up-armored humvee. Most of the time it has been pretty uneventful. It has been time I use to reflect on my life and the choices I've made. I wonder what it will be like to finally be home, and if it will be easy to adjust back to normal life after being away from home for the better part of two years. Only time will tell I guess. Though it has been uneventful most of the time, the times when shit did hit the fan will live with me forever. I've been lucky to spend so many months in this country and not have a scratch on me. It's going to be crucial that I stay on top of my game these next few months. One thing that stays on a soldier's mind more than anything i

Communicating By Not Talking
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Joe Lieberman And Judaism
by Dr. William Pierce As you know, we spoke about the Jews last week, and so I really didn't plan to talk with you about the Jews again this week, but so many listeners have written to me about Al Gore's Orthodox Jewish running mate, Joseph Isadore Lieberman, that I guess we're obliged to deal once more with this very unsavory subject. I should say first that I do not share the alarm expressed by most of the listeners who have asked me to speak about the Lieberman nomination. The Democratic Party has been so thoroughly in the hands of the Jews for decades now that I believe it's a good thing for them to be out front where they can be seen instead of continuing to pull the strings from backstage. It would be wonderful if George Bush, in his disgusting scramble to be inclusive, had chosen Elie Wiesel or some other high-profile Jew as a running mate too. How about Massachusetts Congressman Barney Frank? That would be really inclusive, someone who is both a Jew and an open homosexual

Images
by Dr. William Pierce I'm the chairman of the National Alliance. I'm trying to build the National Alliance into a strong enough organization so that we can have a major influence on a number of policies which are important to the future of our people. We want to change the government's policy on immigration, for example, which is flooding America with non-White immigrants, both legal and illegal. We want to regain control of our mass media of news and entertainment, so that we can put an end to the media propaganda which encourages racial mixing between Whites and non-Whites. We want to change our political system so that we never again have a person such as Bill Clinton in the White House or a person such as Madeleine Albright in our State Department. We want a better future for our people. We work toward our goal by educating the public and by recruiting from that portion of the public which responds positively to our educational effort. With the new members we gain we are able

Illusion And Leverage
by Dr. William Pierce Today I'll continue with the same general concept we talked about a few weeks ago: the house-of-cards concept. The Jews maintain their power only by maintaining an illusion, and that illusion is that most people are in agreement with their policies and programs, when in fact a very large number of people are not. The Jews have, of course, a substantial number of willing Gentile collaborators, who collaborate because they depend upon the Jews to help them maintain their own unearned advantages: the feminists, the homosexuals, the welfare rabble, the politicians, and a significant portion of the business and corporate elite. And I'm speaking of White collaborators only. I'm not even concerned about non-Whites. But all of these White collaborators could be swept away were it not for the majority of Whites who are being fooled by the illusion. After last week's broadcast a listener commented that the people who pretend to be shocked by Atlanta Braves pitcher Joh

I Need Your Support
by Dr. William Pierce How are we doing? How do we judge how we are doing? Most people, I believe, judge themselves by the reactions of those around them. Certainly, that's true of lemmings, who have no inner standards for judgment at all. They evaluate their own qualities, their own behavior, their own accomplishments entirely on the basis of the reactions of those around them. They are entirely social animals, herd animals. But really, all of us, not just the lemmings, do that to a greater or lesser degree. When the major Jewish organizations declared my organization, the National Alliance, to be the most dangerous organization in America, my response was, "Hey, wonderful! We must be doing something right." Every time I see a shrill newspaper headline reference to me, or read an editorial with some editor shrieking that I am a "hater," I know that I have earned the hatred of an enemy of my people, and I cannot help but feel a little twinge of pride because of it. Of course

Crowded Subway
The subway car was packed. It was rush hour, and many people were forced to stand. One particularly cramped woman turned to the man behind her and said, "Sir, if you don't stop poking me with your thing, I'm going to the cops!" "I don't know what you're talking about miss - that's just my pay check in my pocket." "Oh really," she spat. "Then you must have some job, because that's the fifth raise you've had in the last half hour!"

How To Bring Down The House
by Dr. William Pierce This first day of a new millennium is perhaps a good time for me to respond to a letter from a listener, Alfred D., who wrote to me last week to express his appreciation for American Dissident Voices. He especially appreciates the information about crimes committed against White people by non-Whites -- information that is suppressed by the controlled media because it doesn't fit their Politically Correct agenda: an agenda that requires keeping White people feeling guilty and apologetic. And he adds that such information leaves him, "feeling powerless to do anything but feel bad about all of it." Mr. D. then goes on to ask: "What can we ever do to rid our culture of the Jewish stranglehold on our media and the liberal hold on our institutions? It seems like we can't do much without wealthy and wise people at the top, like our founders two centuries ago, who will stand up and seize the reins of our Republic to restore order and decency to our communitie

Love Lost
You wake up Shivering Rubbing your hands along your arms Reaching over Finding me gone Thinking of once was Wishing I was not gone Your sense tells you That you smell my perfume You close your eyes Breath in deep Realizing your mind is Playing tricks on you You lick your lips Hoping to find me there But all you taste Is the wetness that is upon your lips The salt You reach over Grab a hold of what you wish was me Closing your eyes Curling up and breathe in Holding on tightly Wishing for a love that once was That is now gone

Horror In Rhodesia
by Dr. William Pierce Last week we talked about the plight of the farmers of Rhodesia, now known as "Zimbabwe." Last week I reported to you that more than 800 White farms had been invaded and illegally taken over by Black squatters, with the blessing of the government of Black dictator Robert Mugabe. This week the number of White farm families pushed off their land by Black gangs has risen to more than 1,100, and the violence of the farm seizures is growing. Before, the Blacks used knives and clubs. Now they're using firearms. I also reported to you last week that I had seen on CNN Headline News a one-minute news segment about the dispossession of Rhodesian farmers. That was on Tuesday of last week. Then on Tuesday and Wednesday of this week I saw additional one-minute segments. Brief news segments also have begun appearing on other channels -- but they're all brief and all low key, all understated and unemotional, conveying no sense of urgency or tragedy. I guess that the excuse

Feasting On The Sheep
by Dr. William Pierce Well, I knew it was coming -- in fact, I predicted it when I spoke with you more than a year ago about the Jewish extortion campaign against Switzerland. I told you that if the Jews succeeded in sucking the blood they were demanding out of the Swiss, eventually they would come for our blood too. And now they're here, demanding that Americans also pay them back for their losses during the so-called "Holocaust," just the way the Germans and the Swiss and the French and the Dutch and others have been forced to pay them. I made that prediction because I know the Jews. I know that they always will be looking for more victims until they have sucked all of the blood there is to be sucked from this planet, and then they will turn on each other and begin sucking their fellow Jews' blood. They cannot help it. It is their nature to be deceivers and destroyers and bloodsuckers. And there is some justice in their coming for our blood now. I could even call it poetic just

Fear Of The Smear
by Dr. William Pierce The enemies of America and of Europe -- the enemies of our people everywhere -- have two guiding principles, two imperatives. The first is to continue backing the racially destructive programs now in place while introducing newer and even more destructive programs through the media and through government legislation. The second imperative is to prevent or neutralize any effective opposition to their programs: that is, to make it impossible for our people to defend themselves. For example, just two of the racially destructive programs they already have in place are, one, keeping our borders open to immigrants from the non-White areas of the world and, two, doing everything they can to encourage miscegenation. Their immigration program, aimed at flooding White areas with non-Whites, is backed primarily through the government. Their miscegenation program, aimed at increasing the degree of racial mongrelization, is backed primarily by their mass media -- althoug

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Elites Vs. Masses
by Dr. William Pierce One of the most profoundly depressing experiences an American can subject himself to these days is watching the various presidential candidates campaigning on his television screen. My god, what a sorry spectacle! Bush and McCain, Gore and Bradley: these are the "leaders" approved for us by the media masters. These are the men they have said it's OK for us to vote for, the ones they have checked out and decided are safe. And every one of these approved candidates is a man who would be marched straight to the gallows and hanged on the first day of any general cleanup of America: every one of them. There is not an honest man or a patriot among them, not one who will stand up to the media bosses or even wants to stand up to them. In Austria, where one politician who has not been approved by the media bosses somehow slipped through a crack and ended up with enough votes to gain substantial influence in the Austrian government, the Jews are organizing huge demons

Down The Slippery Slope
by Dr. William Pierce I've had many comments on the program in which I told you about the breakup of a child-pornography ring in Moscow which kidnapped Russian children, raped and sexually tortured them in front of cameras, and then sold videos of the activity to wealthy perverts in the West. In some of the videos, children were raped and tortured to death. Many listeners who contacted me were frustrated because they were unable to locate the news sources on the Internet which I cited during my broadcast. I myself was surprised at the almost total blackout of this important story in the United States, especially in view of the fact that many of the customers of this child-pornography ring live in this country -- or perhaps that's why the blackout was so nearly complete here. But information is available to those who know how to look for it. In addition to the media sources I cited earlier, there were a couple of other reports, which I have become aware of since my broadcast. Ther

When A Girl / When A Guy
When a girl bumps into your arm while walking she wants you to hold her hand When she wants a hug she will just stand there When u break a girls heart, she still feels it when u run into each other 3 years later When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind. When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply. When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around. When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not at all fine. When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful. When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future. When a girl says, "I miss you, " no one in this world can miss you more than that When a girl is mean to you after a breakup she wants you back,

Proud To Be Your Friend
"Proud to be your Friend! Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence, and don't skip ahead. I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper. The close r it gets to the end, the faster it goes. I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for. I've learned...that money doesn't buy class. I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular. I've learned...that under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved. I've learned...that the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can? I've learned...that to ignore the facts does not change the facts. I've learned. I've learned...that the less time I have to work, the more things I get done.

It Takes A Minute To...
"It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, an entire life time to forget them. Send this to the people you will NEVER forget, including me. Its a short comment to let them know that you will never forget them. If you don¡¯t send this to anyone it means that you are in a hurry and that you've forgotten all your friends. If u get a dozen of them back, then you are TRULY loved!! ¢¾ " Take time to work - it is the price of success Take time to think - it is the source of power Take time to play - it is the secret of perpetual youth Take time to read - it is the fountain of wisdom Take time to be friendly - it is the road to happiness Take time to love and be loved - it is the nourishment of the soul Take time to share - it is too short a life to be selfish Take time to laugh - it is the music of the heart Take time to dream - it is hitching your wagon to a star."

Bonfires!
I went to Jay's last night at like 12:30 because he called me saying that he was having a bonfire and there was alcohol. So yeah, there in a heart beat. Jay is the BIGGEST redneck I have ever met, but I love him to death. He's gotta be one of the funniest, most awesome dudes ever. So yeah. I have to work tonight and tomorrow morning. Blah! Granted I don't have to be to work until 11 tomorrow, but still. I have to work.

About Me
Deep QuestionsWho are you?i havent figured that out yetWhat keeps you awake at night?stressing about billsIf you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?not going to collegeAre you happy with your life at the moment?no, i feel i am not independent enoughWhat do you like most about yourself?i always try to be there for my friendsDo you ever wish you were someone else?yes, i wish i was a rich person, life is harder worrying about moneyWhat's the worst thing anyone has ever done to you?slept with an ex of mine and then started dating themDo you have a dark secret that you have never told anyone?yes, and will remain that wayWhat do you like most about your friends?they are honest and true friendsHave you ever come close to dying?two times, once when i almost drowned when i was little, and the other when i tried to take my own lifeWhat one thing do you want most in this world?to have enough money, i dont have to worry about bills and shitHow do you want to be remem

Beautifully Stated....
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. "Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."

True Meaning Of Love And Romance.
The True Meaning Of Love And Romance Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose. And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows. The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door. The card said, “Be my Valentine,” like all the years before. Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say, “I love you even more this year, than last year on this day.” “My love for you will always grow, with every passing year.” She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear. She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away. He always liked to do things early, way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine. She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a special vase. Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face. She would sit for hours, in her husband’s favorite chair. While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there

Living On The Edge...
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, and well preserved body, But rather... to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming ~ "WOW! What A Ride!"

Corrupting Our Police
by Dr. William Pierce There's certainly much more that I could say about this sorry spectacle of a presidential election we've been experiencing than I said last week -- and later we will talk more about the significance of the election -- but today I want to return to a subject about which I've spoken on earlier programs, a subject of great urgency. That subject is the ongoing erosion of our civil liberties and the gradual conversion of the United States into a police state, so that multiculturalism and the New World Order can be rammed down our throats with less danger of our rebelling. Certainly, most of you who listen to my broadcasts already are concerned about the growing intrusion of the government into the lives of all of us and about the proliferation of so-called "hate crime" and "hate speech" laws, which penalize a person for what he thinks or what he says, or even what he reads or what sort of music he listens to, rather than for what he does. I believe that every dec

I'm With You (for My Brother)
I am with you... Think of the hope and promise of tomorrow Don't stress about where you find yourself today. You can't hold on to regret and sorrow. Because you will be home one day... The circumstances of a crime Have taken from us so much time Hold on, be strong, if in your heart I'll always be In a dark corner of that cell you'll find... me!! This sentence of imprisonment is as much yours as mine Life goes on, though incomplete - partially suspended in time There is a part of me that no one ever sees... My heart is caged within your cell, till you're set free Meet me in that dark corner whenever you feel alone I'll give you the courage, love and strenght to go on And where ever you go, I'll be sure to follow Because I'm with you today - and I'll meet you there tomorrow.

Conditioning For Death
by Dr. William Pierce Are people -- let's be more specific -- are White Americans less intelligent today than they were a century ago? An impartial observer -- someone from Mars, say -- might sample the sort of television entertainment that keeps most White Americans occupied in their leisure time these days and then compare that with the penny romances the masses read in 1900 for relaxation and conclude that the IQ level has indeed gone down a bit. He might take a look at the nonstop circus of the current presidential election, and he would be even more inclined to think that we aren't quite as smart as we used to be. The real clincher for the Martian observer, however, would be an examination of the way American public policy, as manifested in our laws and our public behavior, has changed. I mean, we did some stupid things and had some really dumb habits in the latter half of the 19th century, but they were nothing compared to the inexcusable foolishness which characterizes

What Is Hidden Beneath...
Do you know what hides beneath this smiling face? A pain deeply concealed, from another time and place. Do you know what's kept hidden and completely out of view? So much loneliness and suffering... Things I never wish for you. Can you tell if these eyes have ever shed a tear? There's been so many - they've become as countless as my fears. Can you see the broken heart that has yet to forget? Torn into a million pieces, leaving only sorrow and regret. Do you notice the mask, I use to conceal all my despair? Placed to show a happy face, hidden secrets and pain - all the things I can not share.

Capitalism And Equality
by Dr. William Pierce I was amused last week when America's top baseball commissars ordered that Atlanta Braves pitcher John Rocker undergo psychiatric testing because he said that he finds New York City a depressing place, filled with queers and non-Whites. What does that remind you of? What other country can you think of that, within recent memory, used to pack dissidents off to mental hospitals to silence them? What other regime claimed that anyone who deviated from the party line obviously must be crazy and needed treatment? I am sure that the commissars of big baseball didn't see the humor in their response to John Rocker's comments. All they saw was someone who was rocking their gravy train and needed to be slapped down before he caused some gravy to be spilled. After all, baseball is big business. It's show business, with its multimillion-dollar celebrity contracts, its glitzy advertising, and its total dependence on television for bringing its product to the couch pota

Marionette
You may have manipulated me day to day The time has come because with this puppet you'd no longer play That grip on the strings which you held on to so tight Was the only way to keep me moving and standing upright. You became a puppeteer - who never realized that within How love had touched deep and made me living Blinded by malice, never guessed deep inside A heart resided - faintly beating and becoming alive Blank glass eyes staring out - hiding all I knew Thoughts that were sparked and finally grew With you pulling the strings, I felt so weak I'd cut those stringsone day and my freedom seek Making me dance was fun for applause Never realizing the pain and tormnet it caused Under your power for so long, I became your toy - your pawn But with no strings attached anymore, I took my bow and now I'm so gone.

Black Is Good; White Is Bad
by Dr. William Pierce Today let's talk a little about the mass sexual assaults on White women by Blacks and Puerto Ricans that occurred in New York City a little less than two weeks ago. The assaults were on the Sunday before last: June 11, which in New York is officially Puerto Rican Day. And I should tell you that that fact alone dampens my sympathy for the victims right from the start. It's hard to feel sorry for anyone who would choose to live in a place that has an official Puerto Rican Day. I don't know what your image of Puerto Ricans is. I believe that for most Americans it's a smiling, brown face serving them some sort of iced beverage with rum while they are relaxing under a beach umbrella. That's the average soccer-mom's image, which she acquired from watching those television commercials for Caribbean cruises. Whites who live in New York and have to deal with Puerto Ricans on a continuing basis have a different image: they call them "cockroaches," "cucarachas." They a

Untitled Poem 2
Live every moment of life to the fullest each day Given that we're on borrowed itme, and not meant to stay Life is a source of experience to be lived to, not survived Experiencing all the ordinary moments that constantly arrive "Someday" and "One day" should be carefully thought Don't you think every event should be experienced and sought? Putting things off for another time are left up to chance Relax ans cherish everything around you - live it all, and not at a glance All things are worth the time - seeing, listening and doing it today Because tomorrow simply seems to be uncertain, it's so far away Don't say "One of these days" and leave it for another time Believing everything in life will constantly be fine Tell your family how much they are treasured and the love you feel Open your heart, laugh at a joke and always keep it real Remember not to leave for tomorrow all you meant to do Make everyday special, any and everythni