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Going Back To Cali
[Verse One: Notorious B.I.G.] When the lala hits ya lyrics just splits ya Head so hard, that ya hat can't fit ya Either I'm witcha or against ya Format venture, back through that maze I sent ya Talkin to the rap inventor Nigga wit the game tight, Bic that flame right Spell my name right, B-I, Double-G, I-E Iced out lights out, me and Ceasar Leo Gettin head from some chick he know See it's all about the cheddar, nobody do it better Going back to Cali, strictly for the weather Women, and the weed -- sticky green No seeds bitch please, Poppa ain't soft Dead up in the Hood, ain't no love lost Got me mixed up, you drunk them licks up Mad cause I got my dick sucked and my balls licked, forfeit, the game is mine I'ma spell my name one more time, check it Its the, N-O, T-O, R-I, O U-S, you just, lay down, slow Recognize a real Don when you see Juan/one Sippin on booze in the House of Blues [Chorus: repeat 4X] I'm going going, back back, to Cali Cali [Verse Two: Not

Sacred Past
Dark thoughts spring forth unbidden, lightly kissed by the iridescent moonlight. Like light shrouded in darkness, I come to you. In your instinctual reverie you know me like the night knows the dawn, the child it births each morn. Dusk descends, you shiver, your body responding to the inner stirrings of awareness. My eyes meet yours as they have done so sweetly many times before. Locked, you gaze deep beneath my silvery-blue irises, seeing lifetimes and archaic civilizations rush by as you unearth the bitter familiarity. Souls intermingle. Fiery passion seizes your body like lightning immersed in a rapturous tempest. With a past that winds like chains around your heart, a solitary tear traces a river of pain down the gentle sloping of your cheek. You hear the rhythmic susurration of my heartbeat…deafening, consuming, terrifying in its divine monstrosity. Seized by rapture and fear, understanding and naïveté, you utter the raspy entrails of the ancient pass

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Damned
Blood red rose petals waft gingerly to the rain-soaked ground, buoyed by the mournful wail of prisoners of Lucifer, their cries drenching the earth with moist regret. Against the black sky, the green grass luminescent, a silhouette of everlasting memories and misplaced destinies. Black-brown ripples pierce the heavens, the cry of the predator travels the unbounded emptiness. Here the rabbit flees. But here is not everywhere. -VT

California Love
[1]-California...knows how to party California...knows how to party In the citaaay of L.A. In the citaaay of good ol' Watts In the citaaay, the city of Compton We keep it rockin! We keep it rockin! [Verse One: Dr. Dre] Now let me welcome everybody to the wild, wild west A state that's untouchable like Elliot Ness The track hits ya eardrum like a slug to ya chest Pack a vest for your Jimmy in the city of sex We in that sunshine state with a bomb ass hemp beat the state where ya never find a dance floor empty And pimps be on a mission for them greens lean mean money-makin-machines servin fiends I been in the game for ten years makin rap tunes ever since honeys was wearin sassoon Now it's '95 and they clock me and watch me Diamonds shinin lookin like I robbed Liberace It's all good, from Diego to tha Bay Your city is tha bomb if your city makin pay Throw up a finger if ya feel the same way Dre puttin it down for Californ-i-a [repeat 1] [2]-Shake it shake it

Heartbreak Station
Waiting at the station Tears filling up my eyes Sometimes the pain you hide Burns like a fire inside Look out my window Sometimes its hard to see The things you want in life Come and go so easily She took the last train out of my heart ooo, ooo She took the last train And now I think Ill make a brand new start She took the last train out of my heart Watching the days go by Thinking bout the plans we made The days turn into years Funny how they fade away Sometimes I think of those days Sometimes I just hide away Waiting on that 9:20 train Waiting on a memory She took the last train out of my heart ooo, ooo She took the last train And now I think Ill make a brand new start She took the last train out of my heart My ladys on the fly and shes never coming back My love is like a steam train rolling down the tracks yea, yea She took the last train out of my heart ooo, ooo She took the last train And now I think Ill make a brand new start She took the la

Kick Ass And Free....wow! Worth Reading!
So....this is the deal.... I am about to give u links to 3 programs....They are FREE...and i know that sounds stupid, but i absolutely swear by these programs for keeping my computers safe..Seriously......By 'safe' I mean....all of ur pics, ur music, ur files, important papers, creations of any type, anything u can think of that is on ur PC....ALL of that will b protected by u downloading these 3 programs.... Like I said they r FREE (they do accept donations)...and u r my friends so I feel compelled to tell u this bcuz it will help us all in the long run... .... U can only use the home versions (the FREE ones) for personal usage laptops/desktops, but any business or company would certainly benefit from purchasing the business versions of these 3 programs, as well....They r user friendly and they kick some serious ass.... and I don't say that about just anything...lol..... This Is important and I hope all of u really are reading this...and u take my advice...It will take very little t

With No End
everybody rushing the streets, overcrowded feet rushing and dragging another day closing in through space and time, a penny from heaven to my astonishment nobody notices i walk along the beaten bath wondering what i have seen a sign without a border or an end to a reason as i watch the people conforming to the norm i wonder what my life will be the penny lays there, no side is certain i try to pick it up from the street where it lays with no end in sight

Anthemic Surfacing
From the abyssal depths I ascend. Seized with a primal urge for self-preservation. Indignation propels me further towards salvation, Beyond crippling insecurity and heartache. The surface tension gives way to my fortitude. That first sputtering breath of hope is long overdue. On the horizon, a future of indeterminable definition. It lays before me, prostrate and ready for the seizing. -VT

The Midnight Express
The sheer diversity of life is astounding, radiant, upsetting. Its the little things, though, like the broken girl with no roots, collecting pennies in a nest of warm trash, that tears at you like suddenly appreciating all that you have. Your lucky to find that you can still feel, when you realize, her eyes just ran away with your heart like a never ending ride on the midnight express

Car Crash Nightmare
Wandering through my own desolation, Seeking a window out of this darkness. This soul has become my cold prison, The dogma of love has left me faithless. Like an empty smile there is something missing, From the lewd remarks and vile requests. Should I be on my knees confessing? It seems that my life is one big morality test. But please, tell me, who are you to judge me? I know all those dirty secrets that you hide. The crown bears heavily on the mighty. Only a fool hides behind a mask of pride. Some unconditional love predicated on condition. How easily I was duped into believing your lies. You will never be forgiven for this sedition. Your treacherous ways my explanation defies. My heart sings a final requiem for our love. I am resigned to the failure of my dreams. And from this mangled wreckage I will rise above. This car crash nightmare will end sooner than it seems. -VT

Stimulus? For Whom?
So, President Obama signed into law the "Newest" in a string of government spending spree's today. $700+ BILLION more thrown at the economy in an effort to pull us out of the so called "recession". Folks, where is all this money coming from? How the hell are we going to pay for this, regardless of whether it actually works or not? Never mind that the general public didn't want President Bush's plan to pass (but it did anyway. Talk about not listening to your constituancy). Never mind that the only people that actually READ the 1000+ page legislation before it was voted on and signed into law today were the lawyers that actually WROTE it. I ask again, how are we going to PAY for all of this? Has ANYONE thought about this at all? I have no sympathy for people who got themselves into bad mortgages. I have no sympathy for people who made a decision to live outside of their means. I have no sympathy for people who believe that the world owe's them a hand-out. MOST of what I s

Yeah. . .
Oh, my, god. Becky, look at her butt. It is so big. *scoff* She looks like, one of those rap guys' girlfriends. But, you know, who understands those rap guys? *scoff* They only talk to her, because, she looks like a total prostitute, 'kay? I mean, her butt, is just so big. I can't believe it's just so round, it's like, out there, I mean - gross. Look! She's just so ... black! [Sir Mix-a-Lot] I like big butts and I can not lie You other brothers can't deny That when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist And a round thing in your face You get sprung, wanna pull out your tough 'Cause you notice that butt was stuffed Deep in the jeans she's wearing I'm hooked and I can't stop staring Oh baby, I wanna get with you And take your picture My homeboys tried to warn me But that butt you got makes me so horny Ooh, Rump-o'-smooth-skin You say you wanna get in my Benz? Well, use me, use me 'Cause you ain't that average groupie I've seen them dancin' To hell with rom

Abandon Your Fear
Lovely and humorous you are indeed. Though guarded you keep yourself; confined, isolated, and denied. One may never see sorrow dampen your eyes. Lovelorn poetry may never drip from your lips. The truth only uttered as an inadequate skeleton of itself, transparent and thinly guised. And though you hide your jewels jealously from the world, I know that you want to share your treasure. And when you are ready, I can keep a secret. -VT

Silvergun Superman
find you in the dark read you like a cheap surprise without shame sell me out, and frame your name I can hear when the pig whispers sweetly jealousy is the weapon you kill me keep a dime for a truth you might tell you toed the line, and I know it was mine couldn't hide, write a wave, ride a lie let me know, can I friend ask you why? rolling back the days with my friend I love to play the "little one" superman with silver gun I can hear when the pig whispers sweetly jealousy is the weapon you kill me keep a dime for a truth you might tell wait for me, take a dive take a piece of my life (leave me numb) wait for me, tell a lie, try to take my life (leave me numb) wait for me, take a dive take a piece of my life (leave me numb) close to me, and I'll leave you numb

No Reservations. No Apologies. No Excuses.
--I wrote this in 2005 and after finding it again, I think it still applies today.-- I’m tired. I’m tired of doing the dance. You know the dance. You do it too. Maybe not everyday, but you do it. It’s that peacock strut, that censored voice from your mouth, and that filtered mirror image of yourself. Truth, it seems, is a scarce commodity nowadays. Society has diluted individuality and the media has weakened self-identity. Can anyone, in such a place, genuinely know themselves? Sadly, I think not. There are too many voices…too many images…too many demands. Obviously, like drones, whether consciously or not, we flock to conform in the hope that in our conformity to society’s “perfection” (This is a word to describe an unattainable concept. There is NO SUCH THING. Never let anyone tell you any differently.) we will be accepted; we will be loved. And there it is, like a smack in the face, that word: love. No longer are we just animals striving for the favor of a mate to reprod

The Shadow
"The Shadow" written by Larry Weaver (thats me) 2/17/2009 Perhaps only in my mind, will I get to see her soon, I look around for comfort, My only solace the light of the moon, For in it I see her face, hypnotized by its sight, Her eyes so piercing, it takes away any fright, In the day I hear her voice, as the leaves dance in the breeze, Her soft voice rings in my ears, calmness overtakes me, In the sun I feel her touch as it warms against my skin, Her embrace once comforted me..way back when, She does not see me, in the same light, I am her shadow, she casts upon the ground, And although im not in her thoughts at night, She closes her eyes and feels me all around, I long for the day that I may rise, Be more than just a falling star in the sky, In her tears you will find me, caressing her cheek, Falling to the floor, I lay at her feet, At times I am at the forefront, she sees me as I am, Knows my heart, flirts with the thought of me

Still Remains- For Jennifer Colbert Rip My Love
our bed we live, our bed we sleep making love and I become you flesh is warm with naked feet stabbing thorns and you become me oh, I'd beg for you. Oh, you know I'll beg for you. she holds my hand we share a laugh, slipping orange blossom breezes love is still and sweat remains a cherished gift unselfish feeling... oh, I'd beg for you. Oh, you know I'll beg for you. she tells me things, I listen well drink the wine and save the water skin is smooth, I steal a glance dragon flies "er" gliding over... oh, I'll beg for you. Oh, you know I'll beg for you. pick a song and sing a yellow nectarine take a bath, I'll drink the water that you leave if you should die before me ask if you can bring a friend pick a flower, hold your breath and drift away...

Weird Things To Think About
Only in America ......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front. Only in America.....do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke. Only in America.....do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters. Only in America.....do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage. Only in America......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight. Only in America.....do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering. EVER WONDER ... Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin? Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed? Why don't you ever see the headline 'Psychic Wins Lottery'? Why is 'abbreviated' such a long word? Why is it that doctors call what they do'practice'? Why is lemon ju

Oil Changes
i cant believe people are willing to pay 16.99 for an oil change and not get a great service for a little more money no more perssure no more sales guys tring to get their comission i mean it drives me nuts to meet people whoi are willing to pay less money for less quailty i swear i dont understand it

Its Ur Choice
I'M SICK OF SO MANY PERVS ON THIS SITE SO I'M MAKEING MY PROFILE PRIVITE FOR FAMILY ONLY IF U WANT TO BE IN MY FAMILY SHOUTBOX ME SO I CAN ADD U BUT I ONLY IF I KNOW U I HAVE ALOT OF GREAT FRIENDS HERE BUT I CAN'T TAKE ANOTHER SICK PERV LIKE I SAID SEND ME A PM OR SHOUTBOX ME IF U WANT ME TO ADD U TO MY FAM THANK YOU BTW I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT I NEED TO BE ADDED IN UR FAMILY ALSO

The Facts
So yesterday something happened that annoyed me. Someone made a comment joking around and then you get other people that can't grasp that it's a joke and they turn it into something serious. I'm talking about the whole "race to level". So here's some facts for those that wanna go..."ohhh he beat you". But let me point out something...I've got nothing against either person that this involved. I think both are pretty awesome guys, but there are times when your friends do something stupid that ya gotta tell them so. And oh the do something stupid is aimed at the people who took a joke comment as serious. First...it's not a race when one person starts with about 5.1 million to level and the other person has about 2.5-2.6 million to level. That's like telling someone you want to run a lap against them but you want a 20 minute head start of them so that by the time they start you're almost crossing the finish line. More facts... The supposed person who got beat dropped over 3 m

I Will Follow You Into The Dark
DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE LYRICS I Will Follow You Into The Dark Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black And I held my toungue as she told me "Son fear is the heart of love" So I never went back If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark You and me have seen everything to see From Bangkok to Calgary And the soles of your shoes are all worn down The time for sleep is now I

Trust
=======EFINITION======== Trust is both and emotional and logical act. Emotionally, it is where you expose your vulnerabilities to people, but believing they will not take advantage of your openness. Logically, it is where you have assessed the probabilities of gain and loss, calculating expected utility based on hard performance data, and concluded that the person in question will behave in a predictable manner. In practice, trust is a bit of both. I trust you because I have experienced your trustworthiness and because I have faith in human nature. We feel trust. Emotions associated with trust include companionship, friendship, love, agreement, relaxation, comfort. MY PERSONAL ADAPTATION===== In light of recent events in my life, some people have asked me whether or not I can still trust my boyfriend. Several people have told me that they would leave without question and kick his ass in the process. DO I STILL TRUST MY BOYFRIEND? YES!!! THIS IS WHY... My bf has

Stop And Say You Love Me
Artist: Evans Blue Album: The Melody And The Energetic Nature Of Volume Title: Stop And Say You Love Me Hey listen, because I'll only say this once do you think that you could lose yourself in me? I could say I want to die by your side one day but I could never speak the words because they haven't wrote the words that mean enough to me so together we can burn this way stop and say you love me, always, I'll say the same to you I found a loop hole for us now it's called redemption of my history do you think you could look past my fears tell me now my love because I will lose it in your eyes, I see firelight in your eyes I know that things will be better when you are by my side stop and say you love me, always, I'll say the same to you stop and say you love me, always, I'll say the same to you I'm guarded, I'm fragile, but if anyone could ever save me now, you can stop and say you love me, always, I'll say the same to you stop and s

Brilliant Hilarity
Hell explained by a chemistry student The following is an actual question given on a Washington State University chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well: Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)? Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following: First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the wor

Shiver
Shiver by Coldplay So I look in your direction But you pay me no attention, do you? I know you don't listen to me 'Cos you say you see straight through me, don't you? And on and on From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care Ohâ�¦ Did you want me to change? Well I changed for good And I want you to know that you'll always get your way I wanted to sayâ�¦ Don't you shiver Shiver Sing it loud and clear I'll always be waiting for you So you know how much I need ya But you never even see me, do you? And is this my final chance of getting you And on and on From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care Ohâ�¦ Did you want me to change? Well I changed for good And I want you to know that you'll always get your way I wanted to sayâ&#

The News I'm Making Good
“As much as we complain about being busy, the typical American has more free time than ever – more than five hours per day, according to time surveys by the U.S. Census Bureau and researchers at the University of Maryland and Penn State. That’s a gain of nearly an hour since 1965 and a gain of about four hours since the 19th century. In Victorian England, when life expectancy was only about 50, workers put in 60-hour weeks, from age ten until they died. If you feel too busy, it’s probably only because you’re doing so many other things than work. Over the course of a lifetime, you typically spend no more than 20 percent of your waking hours on the job, and experts say there’ll be even more free time in the future as life expectancy keeps increasing and work hours keep shrinking. By 2050 in the industrialized world, others project, the average workweek will be just 27 hours.” I need some good news. Outside of the Word of God, at least for me, there isn’t a lot of it. So when

Effingham Radio Station Interview About Flora Show This Weekend
for those of you in the area I will be interviewed on 104.3 THE PARTY and 98.9 JACK FM in effingham about the show this saturday at the BEER BUCKET in Flora, IL. I"ll be doing the commercial spot for the bar as well as snippitz of the interview played friday and saturday...if you're in the area I hope you get the chance to hear it! Tim

How To Rate Others!!
I have not been on fubar very long but i have noticed there are alot of people saying come rate me so i can get closer to level.Then every once in a while you go to rate someone they have everything marked "PRIVATE" i just dont get it.Then the ones that are saying "RATE ME" and are marked "PRIVATE" are the ones yelling that "NO ONE LOVES ME" because they are not getting rates....The whole thing just dont make any sense to me.If someone does read this can you explain it to me!!!

You Dont See Me
Pussycat Dolls You Don't See Me Lyrics Songwriters: N/A This is the place where I sit This is the part where I love you too much This is as hard as it gets 'Cause I'm getting tired or pretending I'm tough I'm here if you want me I'm yours you can hold me I'm empty and taking and tumbling and braking [Chorus] : 'Cause you don't see me And you don't need me And you don't love me The way I wish you would The way I know you could I dream a world where you understand That I dream a million sleepless nights But I dream a fire when you're touching my hand But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights I'm speechless and faded It's too complicated Is this how the book ends? Nothing but good friends [Chorus] This is the place in my heart This is the place where I'm falling apart Isn't this just where we met? And is this the last chance that I'll ever get? I wish I was lonely Instead of just only Crystal and see through an

First Things First
OK so lets get a few things straight now I am back Unlike before I am not here to level up, help others level up or be a fake friend - any one that has purely added me for that reason GTFA. I have come back purely cos I am still a cripple and any comments you wanna make about that - bring it on I seriously dont give a FEK what you say about me, the way I look at it, while you are stabbing me in the back you are leaving others alone. I aint gonna be on here as often as I was, cos I have other sites and also other things to do in life than sit on pc all day Ok if you are sure you understand all this - crack on and let the party begin.

A Letter To Hayden
I'm thinking back on the past, how beautiful you would be if you were here in my arms. I'm sorry mommy couldn't hold on longer, i'd give anything to hold you, even just once. Your in heaven, where you will be safe. I wish things were different, and i wish your daddy wasn't such a jerk, otherwise you would be here. You helped me grow as a person, and i know Daniel, and your great grandparents are looking after you. Your my angel, looking after mommy everyday, keeping me holding onto life, and reality. My beautiful guardian angel, i imagine your smile, It's been over a year since i lost you, but i know your always in my heart, you know, you would be 7 months old this month. You will never be forgotten. Hayden Skylar (11/23/06-1/12/07)

My Life-part Vii: Being Political
Throughout my life I have always been interested and involved in politics. At age 10, I really cut my politically teeth by working on the 1980 presidential campaign of then-Gov. Ronald Reagan (R-CA). I told me teachers everyday up until the November election to vote for RR. I was back in action in 1984 and 1988 with my parents and sister. Once I started community college, I got more envolved by joining student government to represent my biology club. When I went to Marshall University to earn my BA Ed., I got even more involved by joining College Republicans and getting appointed to MU's student government. I worked on the 1996 presidential campaign of Fmr. US Sen. Robert Dole (R-KS) and the WV governors campaign of now Fmr. Gov. Cecil Underwood (R-WV). In Tucson, I advised the Univ. of Arizona College Republicans. It allowed me to goto the 2000 GOP candidates debate in Tempe, AZ. I didn't do much politically until 2008 other than getting my wife to join the GOP. In Octo

Attitude Is Everything
5 simple rules... Attitude is EVERYTHING: Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. It's a decision I make every morning when I wake up. Each day is a gift. And all the happy memories I've stored away ... Old age is like a bank account ... You withdraw from what you've put in. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories. Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank. I am still depositing. Remember the five simple rules to be happy: 1. Free your heart from hatred. 2. Free your mind from worries. 3. Live simply. 4. Give more. 5. Expect less.

Better Off
Doug Stone I'd be Better off in a Pine box Lyrics: I said the night you left me, Nothin' worse could ever happen, But seeing you with someone else proved that I was wrong. And when your eyes met mine, I knew that you were gone forever, Along with all the reasons , I had for hanging on. I'd be better off in a pine box, On a slow train back to Georgia, Or in the grey walls of a prison doing time. I think I'd rather die, And go to hell and face the devil, Than to lie here with you and him together on my mind. I always thought that someday, We might get back together. I just thought you needed time to [ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/M4U ] spread your wings and fly. But when I saw the lovin' way, You held onto each other, It was all that I could do, not to break right down and cry. I'd be better off in a pine box, On a slow train back to Georgia, Or in the grey walls of a prison doing time. I think I'd rather die, And go to hell and face the devil,

Madison
3:07 AM 2/17 12:02 AM 2/17 Madison, age 8,(*NOT MY DAUGHTER MADISON*) passed away just a few days ago We've been asked to pass this on. Doctors told her family that there have been quite a few children Madison's age that have died recently the same way that she died. The only common link between them was that they were given Motrin (ibuprofen) and Robitussin together, this caused a heart attack. They believe this is what happened to them. They told her to alert everyone to this. Do not give children both of these medicines together. You can give them one or the other but not both. When Madison collapsed she suffered a heart attack and died. this was sent to me and i hope all parents take heed to the warning

Another Auto 11's Contest
Auto 11's Contest! RATES ONLY! It's gonna be a SHOOTOUT! Meaning you will only go head to head with someone until we are down to the last two! So, there will be multiple folders with 2 entries in each folder. You only need to get more rates than one other at a time to move on to the next head to head round. The last two standing will compete for the Auto 11 Bling. 1st Prize...Auto 11 Bling 2nd Prize...1 Million Fubucks 3rd Prize...$500,000 Fubucks No entry fee and everyone will receive a lil' something for playing along! Your Hostess: PebblesinAZ-Kisses to My Fu Valentine Shaun the Scotish Lad-"Member of Princess Leia's crew&@ fubar THE CONTEST IS UNDERWAY! The first round will last 24 hours. Folders opened 2/19 @ 7pm Fu Time and will close Friday, 2/20 @ 7pm Fu Time. No comments necessary. Only rates will count. The person in each folder with the most rates will move on to Round 2. I would love if you would encourage your friends to F/A/

Is America As Free As We Say We Are?
Is America as free as we say we are? I was watching some news coverage on the homeless in L.A. and was completely appalled at the cost of the shocking solution. Because of the amount of daily homeless and the shelters maxed out they came up with a new invention as a solution to the problem they hope to get rid of. The solution was mobile camp carts that doubled as a cart by day and by night it becomes a camper. This invention is supposed to put a roof over the heads of the homeless unable to go to the shelters because of overcrowding. To manufacture this mobile camp cart (which is nothing more than a oversized shopping cart fitted with a camping tent around it in a way it could fold down by day and be set back up at night) it cost $500 each! Why would there even be a price on something for the penniless or homeless? I could go into my back yard and gather thrown away materials and craft a better more sturdier mobile camp cart for no price at all. Maybe it cost to have the people to

Why Do Women Fear Men?
Why are women afraid of men in the least? I came across a discovery that is well known to women that deep down in side they have a fear of men, stranger or friend. Upon this discovery I began to ask why. I got answers but still remain confused of the whole idea. Because of the many cases involving rape, murder, abduction, and abuse of women they say these are the reasons. But those reasons don’t stop women from dressing inappropriate in public or exposing themselves on the web cams or being attracted to drug dealers. If you ask me, women should fear themselves more than they fear us men. Men wouldn’t rape, murder, abduct, or abuse women if they weren’t so promiscuous. I’m not saying these are valid reasons to do so. I’m just saying women should smarten up. I for one am afraid to even try to rape a women for the fear I might get kicked in the nads. That’s the weakest point on any man unless he has had them removed. I have no reason to abuse any woman nor abduct or murder one. But t

Something For My True Friends To Read
last night i was bored so i sat and kinda chilled and i started thinking about all the fu-drama that is around me over the past 2 years and 3 diff accounts.. well yeah i have made tons of poor choices and i dont always think before i speak but i would get upset and sad and hurt and have such envy at the ppl that got so much fu-love (blings blasts ect.) and i thought that they were all stuck up ppl. well i came to relize last night that 90% of the problem is me... i do do and say things that bring most of the drama on myself and i and i alone am to blame... (save for the crap that fat sonny and FTW pull) so i guess to my TRUE friends i have this to say.... i love all of you very much... and i am aware that most times i am a hard person to stay friends with....but now that i see its mostly me.. i am gonna work overtime to fix the stuff i need to.... in short....THANK YOU, AZ

Mmmm
Well sweet melting mercy, you all know how to make a MarshaMallow feel welcome. There is so much to see, I can't can't keep up!! LOL I will figure it out eventually so please bear with me. Till then drink up, and get the campfire burning, cause this Mallow is about to get get Toasted!!Cheers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No Longer Want To Dream
No Longer Want to Dream No longer do I want to dream Many misunderstand what I mean I always believe in many things Shining like a diamond ring I wish I could help everyone but sometimes I do like to have a bit of fun I hold onto deep memories Knowing this will drop me to my knees My focus has been blocked This for many isn't a shock I'm losing myself into many things keeping away from my dreams I once met someone who gave me hope I began to learn how to cope Then one day it all went away Washing away along the lonely bay

Open Letter To Kellogs Re: Michael Phelps....freakin' Hilarious!
An open letter to Kellog's re: Michael Phelps Dear, Kellogg’s. I’m writing this letter to express my disappointment in your company in firing Michael Phelps as a spokesperson for your products because he was photographed while enjoying some marijuana. I respectfully would like to communicate my opinion on this matter because I think it’s of great public interest. First of all, although it is true that Mr. Phelps broke the law, I think any reasonably intelligent person would admit that it’s one of the most fucked up and corrupt laws that we have today in this country. Marijuana is relatively harmless and certainly far less dangerous than a host of other things that are not only legal but also readily available, like alcohol and prescription drugs. The only reason it remains illegal to this day is because it’s a plant and you can’t patent it and control it’s sale, and because if it were legal it would greatly affect the demand for a host of prescription drugs that rake in

Auto 11 Auction
Oh, the coveted Auto 11.... If you would like one, I am holding an auction for an auto 11 bling. Opening bid is 3 million fubucs.... Click on the pic to come place your bid... Auction ends Saturday, 2/21 at 9:00 PM PST.

Love
when 2 people meet they dont really know each other and can loose track of each other. but some meet again and fall in love. they can loose each other again and meet again the love for each other grows even stronger it becomes an eternity

See If U Can Do Better
1B- Albert Pujols 2B- Dustin Pedroia SS- Hanley Ramirez 3B- Alex Rodriguez LF- Manny Ramirez CF- Josh Hamilton RF- Vladimir Guererro C- Ivan Rodriguez SP- Tim Lincecum SP- C.C Sabathia SP- Johan Santana SP- Jake Peavy SP- Carlos Zambrano RP- Carlos Marmol CL- Jonathan Papelbon DH- David Ortiz Bench- Lance Berkman Bench- Chase Utley Bench- Jimmy Rollins Bench- Evan Longoria Bench- Ryan Bruan Bench- Carlos Beltran Bench- Ken Griffey Jr Bench- Victor Martinez

All About Me
ok i get it . i may not be the best lookin guy around but u know what im fine with that. unlike alot of people i dont need to put on an act or be someone im not to impress any one. what u see is what u get and how i act is how i am personally and if none of you can accept that then u know where to go. i do nothing but respect everyone and treat them the way everyone should be treated and then the women claim that want me or wanna be around me. but when u people get a look at me on my cam what do u know its a whole diff story. u know what like i said, i dont give a crap what i look like. oh and just for u people who think i put on an act just to get in ur pants, u can kiss my ass. you can go around and ask anyone thats the last thing i wanna do. i have a shit load of women that r friends and r single that i have known fo ra while and have yet tried to get in their pants. see unlike 90% of guys here i do something called respecting a women boundries. so if ur not comfy in the way i run

Mistress Help Her To God Mommy
DON’T MISS OUT ON ONE OF THE HOTTEST LADYS ON FUBAR ~MISTRESS~ LETS HELP HER TO GOD MOMMY COME HELP THIS LADY OUT SHE IS ONE SWEET LADY !! CLICK BELOW AND RATE THIS HOTTIE SPANK HER HARD SHE LIKES IT !! This bully is brought to you by DJ BADBOY (¯`¤ÐJßãÐßØ¥¤´¯)ÖWñÈR @†HÈßLÚÈMÖÖñ/ÖWñÈR @§ÖÚ†ÈRñ HÌÐÈWÄ¥@ fubar

I'm Sick
I've got a bad case of bronchitis. I've coughed so hard I've pulled muslces in my back and stomach. Autumn is doing great now. She's off oxygen, her IV, and just about everything in general. I however am now on an inhaler and antibotics and vicodin for the pain. I'm going to head butt the doctor today till he lets us go home. Autumn is perfectly normal again, so there is no reason why we shouldn't. Jeff is being really sweet. Hes helping me feel better. Just another couple days and I finally get to see him. I can't wait. We're going to go to hibatchi. Somehow we have more stuff then we did when we got here. I don't know how that works in the hospital, but it always seems that way.

Please Help Djbadboy Godfather Ty Brother Kiddrock For The Bully
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Lamb Of God - Descending
It's all about one set of lyrics in this song, just greatness. "This God that I worship, This demon I blame, Conspire as one, exactly the same" The river I'm bound to be found in, A rope chosen bound for the hang. When I'm blind and I think I see everything, Convincing myself again. This God that I worship (a faded reflection). This demon I blame (a flickering flame). Conspire as one, exactly the same. It's exactly the same. Descending, To never recover the pieces to all that we've lost. Recover the pieces lost. The pieces to all we've lost. I shudder to think of the consequence, It's blasphemy simple and true. The tragic protagonist torments, Convincing myself again. This God that I worship (a faded reflection). This demon I blame (a flickering flame). Conspire as one, exactly the same. It's exactly the same. Descending, To never recover the pieces to all that we've lost. Descending, To never recover the pieces to all that we've lost.

My Pictures! Please Read!!!
OK...I'm VERY HAPPY with JDHUNT. I left it up to him on what I do with my pictures...he and I decided to close my NSFW. I don't care if that pisses you off! If you get me a VIP, 7 Day Blast or bling pack you can see them still, but otherwise they're set to ONLY ME and JD. I DO still have some sexy pics in the me folder and more of me. ALSO! Don't expect me to cam for you. Don't even ask. I will get on cam but you won't see anything. From now on I will ONLY DO SFW salutes too! If I have made you a NSFW salute in the past they're still on my page just set to only me. I know a lot of you will be mad about this but oh well! I'm NOT A PIECE OF MEAT!!!! XOXO

Jdhunt And Vamp Morticia Are Together!
JDHunt and Vamp Morticia are a RL couple and Fu-married. Love ya baby! XOXO jdhunt~Vamp Morticia's husband 4 life ~My Baby Owns me too!~VMV i will die with my wife vamp(ta@ fubar VAMP MORTICIA~JDHUNT'S WIFE~PuckerZ wifey~Sultry's Mistress~@ fubar

A Real Man!
Friends without Faces We sit and we type And we stare at our screens... We all have to wonder What this possibly means With our mouse we roam Through the rooms in a maze Looking for something or someone As we sit in a daze We chat with each other We type all our woes... Small groups we do form And gang up on our foes We wait for somebody To type out our name... We want recognition But it's always the same We give kisses and hugs And sometimes flirt... In IM's we chat deeply and Reveal why we hurt We do form friendships But why we don't know... But some of these friendships Will flourish and grow Why is it on screen We can be so bold Telling our secrets that Have never been told Why is it we share? The thoughts in our mind With those we can't see As though we were blind The answer is simple It is as clear as a bell We all have our problems And need someone to tell We can't tell real people, But tell someone we mus

.gotta Get It Out.
First off, fuck your bitch And the click you claim West side when we ride Come equipped with game You claim to be a playa But, I fucked your wife We bust on bad boys Niggas fuck for life Plus puffy tryin to see me weak Hearts I rip Biggie smalls and junior mafia Some mark ass bitches We keep on coming While we running for yah jewels Steady gunning Keep on busting at them fools You know the rules Little ceasar go ask you homie How Ill leave yah Cut your young ass up See yah in pieces Now be deceased Little kim, Dont fuck with real ass gs Quick to snatch your ugly ass, off the streets So fuck peace Ill let them niggas know Its on for life Dont let the west side Ride the night *Stupid Tupac laugh* Bad boys murdered on wax and kill Fuck with me And get your caps peeled You know, see Sorry had a Tupac moment there for a second.

Aenima
Some say the end is near. Some say we'll see armageddon soon. I certainly hope we will. I sure could use a vacation from this bull-shit three ring cirrrrcus siiiideshow of Freaks here in this, hopeless fucking, hole we call LA. The only way to fix it is to flush it all away. Any fucking time. Any fucking day. Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay. Fret for your figure and Fret for your latte and Fret for your lawsuit and Fret for your hairpiece and Fret for your prozac and Fret for your pilot and Fret for your contract and Fret for your car. It's a bull-shit three ring cirrrrrcuus siiideshow of freaks here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA. The only way to fix it is to flush it all away. Any fucking time. Any fucking day. Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay. Some say a comet will fall from the sky. Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves. Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still. Followed by millions of dumbfounded dips

Stinkfist
Something has to change. Undeniable dilemma. Boredom's not a burden anyone should bear. Constant over stimulation numbs me But I would not want you any other way. Just not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I said, I don't want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive. Finger deep within the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Relax, turn around and take my. I can help you change tired moments into pleasure. Say the word and we'll be well upon our waaay. Blend and balance pain and comfort deep within you till you will not want me any other way. But it's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I said, I don't want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive. Knuckle deep inside the borderline. This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to. Relax. Slip awaaaaaaaay. Chupa minha pica pichu Chupa minha pica pinto Something kinda sad about, the way that

Soldier Dedication Show 2/15/09
I would like to welcome everyone to the first edition of Soldier Sunday, a block of 4 hours where I will be dedicating each hour to a specific soldier or group of soldiers. First off, I would like to take a moment of silence to remember those that will never come home….. We must never forget those people who give all they have so others can share in our freedoms. On September 11, 2001 the United States of America was attacked by terrorist. Nearly 3000 people lost their lives that day because of terrorist, 1966 at the twin towers, 125 at the pentagon, 87 people on AMERICAN AIRLINES FLIGHT 11, 64 people on AMERICAN AIRLINES FLIGHT 77, 60 people on UNITED AIRLINES FLIGHT 175, 40 people on UNITED AIRLINES FLIGHT 93. These figures Do Not include the 5244 U.S. military deaths in Iraq and Afghanistan since the war began or the terrorist. What follows is a list of 10 of our fallen heroes.. Sgt. James M. Dorsey, 23, of Beardstown, Ill. Spc. Christopher P. Sweet, 28, of Kahului, H

This One Pretty Much Says It All !!!
I will bid farewell Sever the ties Is this all i am? Is this all thats left? Turn from deceit, the love of self is death Deliverance is given to you I will bid farewell Sever the ties (Sever the ties) Now your heart beats black with deception You have been forsaken Leave behind (I will) All reminders of you of you I will bid farewell to all lies I will bid farewell sever the ties Searching always searching, hoping for a change I will never be satisfied, I will never be I will (I will) Never(Never) be satisfied I will now bid farewell I will bid farewell to all lies I will bid farewell sever the ties A Bid Farewell Killswitch Engage

Only In America....
….No wonder the rest of the world thinks we're nuts Best lawyer/insurance story of the year, decade, and possibly the century. This took place in Charlotte North Carolina. A lawyer purchased a box of very rare and expensive cigars, then insured them against, among other things, fire. Within a month, having smoked his entire stockpile of these great cigars, the lawyer filed a claim against the insurance company. In his claim, the lawyer stated the cigars were lost 'in a series of small fires.' The insurance company refused to pay, citing the obvious reason, that the man had consumed the cigars in the normal fashion. The lawyer sued and WON! Delivering the ruling, the judge agreed with the insurance company that the claim was frivolous. The judge stated nevertheless, that the lawyer held a policy from the company, in which it had warranted that the cigars were insurable and also guaranteed that it would insure them against fire, without defining what i

Tuesday, Feb. 17
Hello to all you listeners out there! I know what you are thinking, I am reading this, not listening. But that little voice in your head, you're listening to it! I win. Totally made up news: California will be closing it's doors. The state, plagued with a budget crisis will be going out of business. California Governor Schwarzenegger announced that the state will be dissolving assets and selling to foreign investors. Interested parties are Canada, who has claimed they are looking for a winter home. Today in history: In 1876 Julius Wolff was credited for being the first to can sardines. That can is still available for sale today, as nobody really wants those nasty things. In 1933 Blondie Boopadoop married Dagwood Bumstead three years after Chic Young’s popular strip first debuted. The marriage brought hope to lazy people all over the world, it is true, you can sleep all day and bag a hottie. In 1996 the world chess champion Garry Kasparov beat the IBM supercomputer "De

Short And Sweet
Short and sweet is what I am, but not talking about me here. This blog is short, but not so sure about the sweet part. Anyway, to the point... Am not liking the length people go to in order to become popular. The lies and such just irk the hell out of me. But it's your game and all the best to you, however, don't try and feed me your line of bullshit 'nough said

I've Returned...again
Well I have not been on this site for a very long time. I think it was still Lost Cherry when I checked things out last. Lets see if I can do a rundown of major events. 1) Dallas and I moved into our own house. We rent so we don't own it, but its a huge house. We love it. 2) Soon after moving we got married. We got married Oct. 31st 2007. We are very very happy. I love him so much it still bugs me to be away from him while I'm at work all day. I know...its sickening. 3) We've been through some bad times where we were jobless and then got new jobs that didn't work out, then jobless again...I finally found the perfect job working for a University. I get benefits and time off and all that good stuff. Its heaven and I get a long with all my co-workers. I think I've found my place. 4) Dallas is doing his own thing by running a mobile mechanic business. Its starting to do pretty well. If you need some work done to your vehicle and you're within a reasonable driving

The Hole In My Head
1986:My sister had a couple of friends over and we had our four-wheeler and the dirt bike out. My neighbor Mike had his 250r 3-wheeler out and my other neighbor Byron and I got on it. Neither of us was wearing helmets at the time and I take off hauling ass down the dirt road. We pass Tam (my sister's friend) on the dirt road and I sent the 3-wheeler into a slide and turned around. I was coming up on her very fast at about 70 m.p.h right in front of our house and I was going to show off and pass her on the left. At the last second Tam not realizing I was coming turned and hit the back wheel of the three wheeler sending it into a slide right into the ditch. Byron and I were both catapulted from the 3-wheeler. Byron cleared the mailbox and landed about 50 feet away in the grass breaking a couple of fingers. I on the other hand was sent head first into our mail box post and was knocked un conscious and sent into a flip where I landed sliding face down the dirt road. Bryon parent s

A Dangerous Campaign
I heard a commercial on the radio this morning for an Ad Council campaign called That's Not Cool. At the website you can get clever little graphics such as: Is this the type of behavior we should be supporting with our tax dollars? Inducing bulimia just to avoid showing boobies? I tell you it must be stopped. Though I was thinking of giving this graphic to the boss:

You Envy Me
people sing in friend requests now? KIPSTER ~ RATE ... Online (Trying to work) 2009-02-17 07:12:16 GONNA SADDLE UP MY HORSE AND RIDE INTO YOUR CITY , GONNA MAKE ALOT OF NOIZE CAUSE YOU ARE SO PRETTY! SINGING FOR AN ADD BABY DOLL ! HELP ME OUT !

Vendor Problem
In a software design meeting, we were using typical technical jargon to discuss a data exchange interface with a vendor. One co-worker said the programming we had ordered was delayed because the vendor was suffering from a "severe nonlinear waterfowl issue." Curious, the team leader raised his eyebrows and asked, "What exactly is that?" The programmer replied, "They don't have all their ducks in a row."

My New Favorite Pass Time...
The History of Bellydance Bellydance, also known as the dance of the people, reflects the basic life experiences common to all. Born to celebrate Mother Earth, Bellydance, with a long and colorful history, originated as a fertility ritual dance. 2300 years after Enheduanna wrote about the patriarchal religions developing and conquering the matriarch based religions, Bellydance and sexuality were no longer considered sacred or spiritual, but evil. As the Ottoman Empire reigned, female gypsy dancers were hired to entertain the women living in the harems – this continued the original legacy of women dancing exclusively for women. At the end of Ottoman Empire, Turkey became a republic, religious limitations were lifted and women were allowed to once again entertain and dance for men. The European painters discovered Middle-Eastern dance in the 18th Century, introducing it to the West, and giving it its name Bellydance because of their fascination with the exposed belly. Bel

Omfg!!
YA KNOW WHAT....IM REALLY TIRED OF PPL HAVING THE GUTS TO COME ON MY PAGE RATE MY STUFF ALL 10'S OR 11'S THEN HAVE THE NERVE TO REPORT MY PIC AS "NSFW" IF UR GONNA RATE MY SHYT HAVE ENOUGH RESPECT TO NOT REPORT PICS...AND IF U HAVE KIDS SITTING BY YOU WHEN UR RATING PICS TELL EM TO GO AWAY...I HAVE PICS THAT HAVE BEEN REPORTED AS NSFW AND THEY ARENT AND IT PISSES ME OFF....IF UR KIDS ARE ROUND U STAY THE FUCK OFF FUBAR!@! ITS A FUCKING ADULT SITE....AND IF U CANT TRUST UR KIDS ONLINE THEN PUT A FKING LOCK ON CERTAIN SITES...DONT RATE MY SHIT THEN REPORT IT...DAMN PPL!!

White Pride
read all the way to the end....................................... This e-mail does contain wording that is meant to express an open opinion to a major problem in the USA , and other countries throughout the world, It is estimated that only 11% of those receiving this e-mail will read it all the way to the end. In addition, it is estimated that only 1% of non-white color will read this past this point and 99% will blow it away because of the title. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "WHITE " Pride" This is great. I have been wondering about why Whites are racists, and no other race is..... Proud to be White Michael Richards makes his point.............. Michael Richards better known as Kramer from TVs Seinfeld does make a good point. This was his defense speech in court after making racial comments in his comedy act. He makes some very interesting points... Someone finally said it.

Oh Yeah
soo...I was perusing craigslist in search of hookers, and... I found an ad that said that some dude would pay someone to watch him jerk off. Me: "holy cow! I get the moneys for watchin some dude pull his sausage?! sweet!" I email him, he emails me back. Turns out it was a prank, and he is an ass. I reply with something witty, he likes it and says I'm funny. We talk back and forth a bunch, and I turn the things around and tell him I would pay HIM to watch him. He totally buys it, and asks me if I'm serious. I say yes. To make the story short, I am thinking of posting his address and the same ad (changed up a lil, with an emphasis on gayness) on CL for gay dudes to come over and watch him. Touche!

Friendship Is A Precious Gift
Friendship is a precious gift That can't be bought or sold. But its value is much greater Than a mountain made of Gold. For gold is cold and lifeless It can neither see nor hear. And in the time of trouble It is powerless to cheer. It has no ears to listen And no heart to understand. It cannot bring you comfort Or reach out a helping hand. So when you ask God for a Gift Be thankful if He sends Not diamonds, pearls or riches But the love of real, true friends!

Does This Remind You Of Anyone - Faceless Friends
Friends without Faces We sit and we type And we stare at our screens... We all have to wonder What this possibly means With our mouse we roam Through the rooms in a maze Looking for something or someone As we sit in a daze We chat with each other We type all our woes... Small groups we do form And gang up on our foes We wait for somebody To type out our name... We want recognition But it's always the same We give kisses and hugs And sometimes flirt... In IM's we chat deeply and Reveal why we hurt We do form friendships But why we don't know... But some of these friendships Will flourish and grow Why is it on screen We can be so bold Telling our secrets that Have never been told Why is it we share? The thoughts in our mind With those we can't see As though we were blind The answer is simple It is as clear as a bell We all have our problems And need someone to tell We can't tell real people, But tell someone we mus

The Truth...
On a mission started by my own admission I will leave you all behind By direction I'll create my own protection The real me you'll never find Aspirations turn to fear and desperation Nothing's ever good enough for you Burn in sorrow 'cause I see there's no tomorrow You'll only see what I want you to Never gonna find me Never gonna find me Way down deep inside there is a real me I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll see Never gonna find me Never gonna find me Way down deep inside they haven't found me yet I'm always gonna hide and this is who you'll get On a mission to establish my attrition You may think that you have won Your rejection has brought on my introspection I'll escape I'll only run Accusations may destroy my motivation I can feel it when you're pushing me Burn in sorrow 'cause I see there's no tomorrow Only I know which me you'll see Never gonna find me Never gonna find me Way down deep inside there is a real me I'm always gonna h

Is It Really Out There?
I am really starting to wonder if there is such a thing as true love! At least for me. In the past few months I have seen what true love is and want that for myself, but does it even exist anymore? I just watched my mom take care of my dad for 2 months until he passed 2 weeks ago. They were married 44 years. Even with his last breath my mom was proclaiming her love and devotion to him and up until the last week of his life he was proclaiming his for her. I've read some mumms about nice guys vs rude guys, questions about what men look for in a woman, about men being romantic or liking romance, but do you men really vote the way they feel or do they just vote the way they think women want to hear? And it's not just men, us women do it too! What do people have to do now to find that kind of love? With everyone having sex on the brain how do you really build a strong lasting relationship on true feelings not lust! Do we all just need to slow down, as the old saying goes "take time t

Can't Always Talk
It seems that life screws up for me. I think just about every time I think about whats going on in my life and when some people don't get talked to they get pissed off. I am the type of person that always second guesses things. I may be the horrible person people make me out to be but I think they do that cause they are pissed that I don't give them every moment of my life. If they wanted it they should learn to give me the time and space that I was trying to take before they got pissed. I guess guys should just be used as a damn sex toy now cause a relationship with them seems almost impossible. I guess it isn't my loss. Its theirs.

Auto 11 Auction - Ends 02.20.09
I have one auto 11 up for grabs. Bidding begins now and ends 02.20.09 at 6pm FuTime. I will send the auto during a HH, so you will also receive double the points. To get to the pic and bid, click this picture.... Good Luck! I hope everyone has an amazing rest of the week! Michele :) DON'T FORGET THE RATE THIS BLOG! THANKS SO MUCH!

Just About Me
I know I haven’t been a big blogger on here I tend to keep my thoughts to myself I have over the last year to year and half been battling severe back pain. Well over the last year I have had to shut down my business of helping handicapped people to get jobs and train them how to do them. I have had to quit volunteering with handicapped people teaching how to ride horses. I have now become a client with the same group. I get by with help from friends and family. Now why would I tell you these things well first of all I don’t make a whole of money like” mostly zero” although I have qualified for disability just recently. I have qualified for some help. What this means to you is I cannot pay for much but will help with your help and understanding to do as much as I can. I m not asking for you to be a sugar momma but expect you to understand that I will probably spoil you as rotten as I can if I know you don’t expect it. I want to do this in the form of massages, hand and feet massages.

4 The Lifetime Soldiers
As i see it, my brother & sister soldiers, heres how it is: Wherever a man takes his stand, whether in accord with his own best judgment or in obediance to a commanders orders...THAT is where he needs to plant his feet and face EVERY adversity thrown his way...careless of death and ALL else...but dishonor.

Wow....
Friend requests get weirder everyday.....From Date Message ACCEPT DENY Mister Tilt Online (says - For President's Day - Free Beak Rides !) 2009-02-17 04:34:40 So I'm sittin' here roamin' the fu . . . swirlin' my martini wonderin' apple slice or olive and come across you. Y'know I was smitten and had to compose myself so as not to stutter the question on everyone's lips . . . Wanna be friends? PT

No Wonder She Never Called!!
The following ad was in The Atlanta Journal: SINGLE BLACK FEMALE seeks male companionship, ethnicity unimportant. I’m a very good looking girl who LOVES to play. I love long walks in the woods, riding in your pickup truck, hunting, camping, and fishing trips, cozy winter nights lying by the fire. Candlelight dinners will have me eating out of your hand. Rub me the right way and watch me respond. I’ll be at the front door when you get home from work, wearing only what nature gave me. Kiss me and I’m yours. Call xxx-xxxx and ask for Daisy. Over 15,000 men found themselves talking to the local Humane Society about an 8-week-old Labrador Retriever.

Good Parent, Bad Parent?
Good Morning. How does one determine good parenting over bad? I mean think about it. There are tons of parenting books, magazines, television shows, self help talk shows and even instructions manuals. Oh yeah! The instruction manual is called and are you ready for this? THE TOTAL TRANSFORMATION PROGRAM, by James Lehman a behavioral therapist. Well isn’t that a fine how do you do? A manual to help raise children into fine people. I need to send Mr. Lehman a Thank you Card. Oh no, I did not require his services however seeing all the rat bastard children that turn into serial killers and I am not talking about someone who polishes off a box of cheerio’s either! I am referring to the sniper over looking the highway that has wounded or killed numerous innocent individuals. I am talking about the John Wayne Gaceys of the world. The Reverend Jim Jones who wiped out hundreds. The list goes on pick your own murderer I mean there are thousands upon thousands, however my story is not about Mr

Welfare Is Back!!
Change you can believe in!! Welfare is back!! You have to love the Democratic party… Now tell me how the “Stimulus” bill, that restores WELFARE and ENCOURAGES states to increase welfare rolls helps the economy?? Let’s encourage MORE people to get on welfare and depend on the government and now we have more voting Democrats!! Great… This economy is going to surely recover now…

My History
i dont normaly talk about my child hood but it explains alot about me and who i am and why im the way i am. this will be a bit hard for me but i guese take a deep breathe and get it over w and i swear to god none of you better feel sorry for me. i was born in californis my mom was in the airforce and so i was always at a baby sitters. all my babysitters were physicaly abusive according to my mom the only thing i remember from that early inmy life is when i was four i was at a babysitters and she was curling my hair. she took a knife out and told me that if i didnt gfet in my moms room shed kill me. so i ran but my mom had locked her door. she took me by the hair and sat down and said well your going to well you guys can get the picture i was forced to give her oral. my mom says she took me to therapy and they said i was to young id never remember well i did. my mom was pghysicaly and emotionaly as well as verbally abusive pretty much my whole life as well as her partners. ive h

You're So Close
it feels like the end when you're not here. you waited for me. i can feel you next to me. it doesn't matter what i do. i end up with you. voices in my head tells me where you are. I'm so close to you i can feel you breathing. you gave me so much than i can ask for. you gave me life. i hope this last forever. with you, only you i have a reason to live. i make bad decisions but you are always here to help me. i never wanted to be found but you chase me down. you made me believe love exist. how could this last forever? this only exist in a movie. you chased me down and made me feel whole. i can feel you breathing. when i feel like its the end. you came and make feel its the beginning. having a new life with you. you are the only one i could ever ask for. with you i could never lose. you are so close i could feel you breathing. i never want this to end.

Adult Site? I Think Not!
When I 1st joined this site a little over 1 full year ago it was promoted as "The MySpace for ADULTS"!! Why then is it that the adults here are forced to hide their N.S.F.W pics in private albums? Sure, it is fine for those who have certain pics they only want to share with their fu friends and fu family. Or for the gold diggers who want to make a buck or 3 off their pics by charging REAL $ before they grant access. Which is fine their page, their pics, their choice as much as it is my choice to move along to another profile without rating adding or even fanning those members. Anyway. I think the answer can be found by looking at the limp wrist pansy assed self appointed "moral policemen" that are allowed to remain on this site after they REPEATEDLY flag pics as NSFW EVEN after those same pics have been approved by the bouncers over and over and OVER again!! Solution? Take the anonymity out of the equation. Make it where if I flag someones pic(s) as NSFW or someone flags mi

Goodbye Fubar
ok I used to love this web site but alot haz changed sence then now everytime i get on here its nothin but druma and cheatin shit i dont like bein treated like a dumb ass and like i dont kno what the fuck is goin on behind my back. i mean really if you get cought doin something then just fess up about it, you dont have to be a lil lieing bitch about things (this is not to any one person) but long druma story short im gone for a whill if you want to hit me up im on yahoo most of the time. im goin to get rid of the lounge inless someone wants to take over it but if so let me kno today becouse it will be the last im on here for a very long time. i just cant take all of this shit it seems that every time i get on here i see something that i shouldent and i keep getting told that it aint nothing hahahaha im not fuckin dumb i kno whats goin on so im not even goin to draw this out any longer then it already is so goodbye and to those close friends MMFWACL DUCES

The Wise Words Of A Willful Man
I'm still learning. Once upon a time, I had a lover who taught me how to be an adult about being single. She taught me that you don't have to marry everyone you date. You might not even marry everyone you love. You may not always have sex with the people you're sleeping with right now, although some of them should become your friends. If you can't be friends with anyone that you're having sex with, you may be having sex with the wrong people. being friends after being lovers can be awkward at first, but it is possible. We're adults here, so we should be able to handle it. The person you're sleeping with regularly may or may not be monogamous with you, and it's really none of your business unless you've defined your relationship that way. If you don't trust that person to protect themselves (and you) then you shouldn't be in bed with them in the first place. If someone you've been sleeping with gives you an STD, that's a perfectly good reason to never speak to that person again, to put

These Chains Unwind
It isn't often that love finds me. ...and can break through these chains, I have set to bind me. Ive Found, Ive wound myself so tightly.... ....I now bare bruises so unsightly. If I was to, these chains-unwind. I'd follow love, it'd lead me blind. It'd lead me down the darkest road. I'd bask in the sun from which it shown. I am romantic, hopelessly. For love I'd swim the deepest sea. ....and let the oceans swallow me. Underneath the undulating waves... and deep inside it's darkened caves... From myself, I'd let love save me. Even let it pluck, the wings it gave me. I am my own worst enemy. I let the love of love, take over me. Hence why ive chose this armory. So I wrap myself in chains, of steel. To keep myself from what I feel.

Petrified Remains
It is your voice that speaks through me between my timbered lips. Giving motion to my unhinged limbs and lifeless fingertips. As you control my every move from stand, to sit, to lay. You take me out to show me off and then put me away. Trapped inside this box you've made when you'd like me unseen I strain to hear the words, you speak that don't orate from me. Time has come again and I do "the dance" as taught. Though I seem to tangle in the twine ....along with me-you wrought. Friction heats my surface I feel the embers burn within The twine has left its branding upon my ashen skin. You look at me in realization as my hand falls to the floor your act has now gone solo. im not your puppet anymore.

Can I Get Some Help Plz ....
PLEASE STOP BY & SHOW LOTS OF LUV . A11S ONLY ON FOR LESS THAN 4 HOURS MORE . PM ME IF YOU NEED A FAVOR DONE IN RETURN ! TY ALL ! R.F.A.B. HAPPY 11s !!! -- Kro -- Fu-Engaged to ~AngelEyes~@ fubar

Thinkin Of You
Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one I still got the seed You said move on Where do I go I guess second best Is all I will know Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyes You're like an Indian summer In the middle of winter Like a hard candy With a surprise center How do I get better Once I've had the best You said there's Tons of fish in the water So the waters I will test He kissed my lips I taste your mouth He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into... You're the best And yes I do regret How I could let myself Let you go Now the lesson's learned I touche

Life Stink...!!!!!!
What a day?? Life just stink sometimes..even you know that.. is allways suprise you. Ok..i dont want to walk happy hills all the time but pls even sometimes would be nice. How many times you have to desepoint to people? AND ALLWAYS FIND NEW KNIFE IN YOUR BACK..ARG!!! ...this is just those days..and nice to complane anyway....weheeeeeeeeeee!!!

In You
IN YOU Confine me in your mind Deliver me with your soul Feel my ache and whine It disappears now letting go As you run in through my brain The feeling is pure, so weak I stay The kind of feel Without a shield We both lie When real is real Hear your thoughts within the waves Touching souls by day Insane With passion burning My world is dazed Amazed With you by EliG

Wake Up And Live
One, two, three, four! Wake up and live, y'all, Wake up and live! Wake up and live now! Wake up and live! Life is one big road with lots of signs, So when you riding through the ruts, don't you complicate your mind: Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy! Don't bury your thoughts; put your vision to reality, yeah! All together now: Wake up and live (wake up and live, y'all), Wake up and live (wake up and live), wake up and wake up and live, yeah! (wake up and live now), Wake up and (wake up and live) - wake up and live! Rise ye mighty people, ye-ah! There's work to be done, So let's do it-a little by little: Rise from your sleepless slumber! Yes, yeah! Yes, yeah! We're more than sand on the seashore, We're more than numbers. All together now: Wake up and live now, y'all! (Wake up and live) Wake up and live! Wake up and live, y'all! (Wake up and live) Wake up and live now! You see, one - one cocoa full a basket, Whey they use you live big today: tomorrow y

This Bike Is A Pipe Bomb
(CNN) -- A bicycle with a sticker advertising a Florida punk-folk band forced the evacuation of a Memphis, Tennessee, airport terminal late Monday afternoon, authorities said. A pilot alerted airport police when he saw a bike with a sticker that read "this bike is a pipe bomb" parked near the passenger ramps of Terminal C at Memphis International Airport, according to the Memphis-Shelby County Airport Authority. "Terminal C ticketing and baggage claim at the airport were cleared out," said airport spokesman John Greaud. "A K-9 unit responded and found no explosive materials at the scene." "This Bike is a Pipe Bomb" is the name of a band based in Pensacola, Florida, and this is not the first time in the band's 12-year history the name has caused a commotion. Bikes sporting similar stickers at college campuses in Ohio and Philadelphia led to building closures, arrests and the bikes' destruction by bomb squads acting on the assumption the sticker was announcing a real threat.

Last Time
so i told him that i love him and that we can't see each other anymore i told him it's tearing me apart and i can't do it i can't be an "at arm's length" girl i can't wait around for him to be ready hell we're not even talking about marriage we've already tried that i can't pretend to "just be friends" with someone i'm in love with i can't "just hang out" with someone i used to spend my life with not when i still match them all everyone i'm with to him i can't wait for him to clear his head when it tears me up inside each time he walks away i'll be okay though i lowered my standards i don't try to be happy anymore i just try to stop being miserable. ~sinamynlee

3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone
There's another world inside of me That you may never see There's secrets in this life That I can't hide Somewhere in this darkness There's a light that I can't find Maybe it's too far away... Maybe I'm just blind... Maybe I'm just blind... [chorus] So hold me when I'm here Love me when I'm wrong Hold me when I'm scared And love me when I'm gone Everything I am And everything you need I'll also be the one You wanted me to be I'll never let you down Even if I could I'd give up everything If only for your good So hold me when I'm here Love me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared You won't always be there So love me when I'm gone [end chorus] Love me when I'm gone... When your education x-ray Can not see under my skin I won't tell you a damn thing That I could not tell my friends Roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone Part of me is fighting this But part of me is gone [chorus] Maybe I'm just blind... [chorus]

Shores Of Life
A blank stare gazing nowhere watching nothing. Adrift in the sea of things past. Hoping, dreaming of the shores of things to come. Not to know what will come to pass, but rather which wave to ride in. Realizing that my pockets are full of the sand from shores long left behind. Wanting to not lose the memories, but to carry them with me always. Now knowing that the culmination of an old life is upon the tips of these waves that are carrying me to a new understanding, a new chance at happiness. A last chance at life! Emptying the sand from my pockets, watching each grain as they form a new shore for me to set anchor upon. Undrestanding now that my happiness should not be sought in the things to come, but rather from the grains of memories that now form the shore underneath my feet and heart.

Last Night
I rolled over and pulled your frail little form Closer to my body. I whispered in your ear "I Love You". You rolled over to face me and before another word was spoken we embraced in a passionate kiss that only true deep love can have. We spend most of the night in passionate embrace lilke never before could be compared. Heaven came down and touched us as we loved one another. It was as if we were created just for that night. Whimpering were the two of us, not for sadness, but for happiness from knowing that we were meant to be together. That is what god created us for. That was the very last night I spent with my lover, my friend, my wife. For God did come down and touch us, but he did let go of my sweet Angela. I Love You Angela and I will forever love you. I will never say "Good Bye". My heart just awaits the time that we are with each other again, for all eternity

For Clubmystic
maybe u can answer this,if ur wanting to level should u rate the ppl that level u?i` have less time than any of u and i NOW make the effort.my computer sucks ass.i go to school 2 nights a week.and work 32 hrs a week.i work sometimes till 3 am.AND I MAKE AND EFFORT.to all those who don`t.I GOT 2 WORDS FOR U,JUST LIKE 2 DROPS IN A BUCKET FUCK IT.i`m not rating any of u,ur not wasting ur time. why should I.and i have less TIME than any of u.and any one got any smart ass comments i`m here waiting for u..i`m off all day.

Love Vs Love
Love! What does it mean? If I tell a woman I love her it could be taken as if I wanted her between the sheets, but if I tell my mother I love he it means nothing of the same. I love the colo Hunter Green. This does not mean I want to eat the colo hunter green, but when I say I love cheescake it truly does mean that I want to eat it. I love my pocket knife and I love the ocean, but they won't both fit in my pocket. Silly me, why is love so complicated and yet it is just a simple four letter word? I just wish people wouldn't make such a big deal when I say to someone that I love them. I do truly love everybody. I may not like someone, but I can still love them. I just include pity for the por souls. Ok, I am not stupid! I do know the differences. I am just trying to make a point here. When I say I love you then you can rest assured that I mean it and if you are a man it does not mean anything gay. I have passion, heart and knowledge in such a plentifull supply that

Flawless
Flawless....(contemplating)..... Are we flawless? No, but we know that. Am I flawless? No, God knows I am full of flaws. This is a part of what makes us human. Does that mean life other than human is flawless? No, all life is has flaws, even when lifes processes run smooth. We live in a society that relies on the human flaws. We call our flaws entertaining. We make laws against our flaws, but we continue to live our lives not realizing how much faith we have in the flaws of todays society. For instance: We climb aboard a jet airliner beleiving that we will take off, fly and land flawlessly and safely. Is that belief, or self persuasion to believe? It is faith Dummies!!! Now think of all the flaws in life that you experience every day. Now think of the flaws you don't know about or realize have even happened. Take those thoughts and remember them when you step into that plane, or car, or boat. Is your belief that that vehicle is flawless really going to help

Compassion
Compassion: a feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering. Where is the compassion in todays society? I live every day searching for others that demonstrate compasion and empathy in everyday living. To my surprise I have found others who demonstrate these in the way they live thier lives. Not only for friends and family, but for others beyond the ones loved and known, but the surprise for me is where these people are found and what types of situations bring out the good in others. All I can say is life is to short and beautiful to live with closed eyes and closed emotions. Live for yourself and die lonely, live for others and live forever. If this makes sense to you then you have what it takes to live a full and happy life regardless of your physical status. Open your eyes Damn It! in anothers eyes you are no more than "Other People"! Society forms the ground for what we see and do.

Unknown Sight Or Parapsychosis
The silence gives way to a low roar quickly moving closer until the heavens above open up and the depths of hell breaks the barrier. The violent rumble shakes my body violently as I awake from my sleep and open my eyes to see with a shattering deafness as my home is horrifically ripped open to the fires from hell. As I scramble to avoid the terrible heat from the endless flames that engulf everything in sight. My skin melting from the enormous heat that ensues. I stumble out of my broken home feeling definition of death. I can only see debris and flames as I notice the house next to me is gone. Understanding death was at my feet but sighing at the life that still remained in me I opened my mouth to scream in pain and horror but instead of sound I spewed sickness from within myself onto the ground before me…… I awoke from this dream sweating and shaking with fear. This was approximately 2 weeks ago. I have continued to have extremely similar dreams almost every night since. Last nigh

Halo Lyrics!!!
Halo lyrics Remember those walls I built Well, baby they're tumbling down And they didn't even put up a fight They didn't even make up a sound I found a way to let you in But I never really had a doubt Standing in the light of your halo I got my angel now It's like I've been awakened Every rule I had you breakin' It's the risk that I'm takin' I ain't never gonna shut you out Everywhere I'm looking now I'm surrounded by your embrace Baby I can see your halo You know you're my saving grace You're everything I need and more It's written all over your face Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won't fade away I can feel your halo halo halo I can see your halo halo halo I can feel your halo halo halo I can see your halo halo halo Hit me like a ray of sun Burning through my darkest night You're the only one that I want Think I'm addicted to your light I swore I'd never fall again But this don't even feel like falling Gravity can't forget To pull me

Move On
The time comes to move on, but how? How does one move on? Hiding behind this computer gives me such security, Such safety. But, what am I feeling so safe from? Others or myself? What does it mean to move on? Do I put the past aside? Maybe I realize that the past lays path for the future. Does that even make any sense? I am who I am today because of my past. What does that make me? You decide! I am just going to keep moving into my future one second at a time. Maybe I need a push! Maybe I need to push myself. But if I only knew how. It all still makes no sense to me at times. One second, two seconds, three seconds, time to move on........

Just Thoughts
I can write better than anybody who can write faster, and I can write faster than anybody who can write better,Something attempted, something done, Has earned a nights repose.The mind has exactly the same power as the hands: not merely to grasp the world, but to change it. If the human mind was simple enough to understand, we'd be too simple to understand it.The big majority of Americans, who are comparatively well off, have developed an ability to have enclaves of people living in the greatest misery without almost noticing them.And He feels so incredibly weak when he has ferociously quarreled against them since his genuine years and has lost. His hopes for a better understanding dissipate as he grows older, and his mind grows less eager to reach a verdict. Having no sense of direction, he roams here, looking above, asking futile questions, even though the answers may be feared. Good by nature, he has learned his survival skills, which will lead him into the real world, and will somed

I Will Always And Forever Love You...
My Love, it has been more than a year now since I last touched your face and told you I Love You. I will never forget our last days together as we said our goodbyes. I thought we had more time, but you knew it was time. You tried to tell me, but I would not listen. I would not accept the loss of my best friend, my wife, my Soul Mate. We had a strong love that held us together when times were hard, and lifted us to the heavens when times were good. I miss you. Rest in Peace my Angel, my Angela. I will Always and Forever Love You with all of my Heart and Soul. Happy Valentines Day

Searching For...
i'm searching for my friend kouboi ive been in jail for the last 12 months and can't remeber the password to my old account if you see him tell him that ladylucifer is back and really needs his help cause i had to start this new one and plus i just really truely miss him

Why Do I Even Bother???
So I'm kinda on the fence with the whole relationship thing....It seems I keep hooking up with these guys who either can't commit themselves fully or can't commit becuz they have trust issues!! HELLO!!! DON'T WE ALL HAVE TRUST ISSUES?? DO THEY REALLY THINK THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO HAVE BEEN FUCKED OFF BY SOME ONE THEY THOUGHT LOVED THEM AND WANTED TO SPEND THE REST OF THEIR LIVES WITH?? I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVED THAT LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT AND LIFE IS ALL ABOUT TAKING CHANCES!! AM I FUCKING WRONG?? I MEAN AM I THINKING THIS WHOLE THING COMPLETELY WRONG?? I DON'T THINK I ASK FOR MUCH....I WANT TO BE LOVED FOR WHO I AM....NOT FOR WHAT THEY EXPECT ME TO BE FOR THEM TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES....I DON'T THINK IT'S TO MUCH TO ASK FOR A LITTLE RESPECT!! OK SO MAYBE I'M WAY OFF BASE WITH THIS ONE...AND ALL MEN SUCK!?!?!?! NICE TO KNOW THEY CAN BE INTO YOU ONE MINUTE AND THEN THE NEXT THEY DON'T EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR EXISTENCE!! I FUCKING GIVE UP!! ****OK SO I FAILED TO SAY WOMEN ARE JU

1 Year Ago
On February 22nd 2008 (my 23rd birthday)... I was on vacation visiting my love and my wheelchair tipped over a step. Due to my fragile bone disorder, the impact broke my legs and injured my spine. Because the hospital was unfamiliar with my condition, the doctors gave me some heavy pain narcotics that my body could not handle. The drugs put me in a state where my lungs almost stopped working and I was experiencing respiratory acidosis. That means that my lungs were not getting rid of the carbon dioxide. I had to be intubated and put on a ventilator and eventually the doctors had to perform a tracheotomy. I was in the hospital a little over 3 weeks and had the trach almost a month. I almost died and the doctors said I would have to live with the trach in the rest of my life. THEN Today almost a year later, I am trach free and feel honored and blessed to be alive. That was a scary, scary time for me and I thank my family, friends and girl friend for

My Good Friend Anna...best Laugh Ever...lol...had To Share!
~laughin is liven~ A to the Double N A...Bless Her! Just in case...lol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PUmgQB7t6xE&eurl=http://www.facebook.com/home.php?&feature=player_embedded

Remembrance
Even now as I enjoy clarity (see previous entry) and a newfound measure of peace, I find myself having a period of remembrance. I close my eyes and think back to the time of how it felt to know love. Not love of oneself, but the love of another. I remember the slightest touch, a gentle caress, even just a gaze that spoke so many words without any words ever being spoken. The warm feeling interlaced with all of those, that told me I was wanted, needed, craved...loved. I embraced that feeling during the periods of time that I had it, reveling in it, and enjoying each perfect moment as it washed over me and comforted me. I long to meet the stranger again one day that is the indescribable love of another.

She Pissed Me Off Lol
Why cant anything just go right?So Jess is doing her home injections and I got a little worried about some side effects.They are the same side effects I brought to their attention when she went through the initial 30day IV phase.Her eyes were bothering her and she was getting headaches.As I read the insert in the box of her injection it sayd prior to taking the interfuron the patient should have an eye exam and if any eye problems occur during treatment to seek advice immediatly.So I called and wanted an appointment asap.Keep in mind that we told them bout eye problems before and they said it wa normal.So we go in to the doctor on 2-2-09 and of course the doctor doesnt even see her,he sends his assistant who I dont like anyway.She is the type that when you are talking she talks over you and has a way to make you feel 2 feet tall.Well she says she is worried and want Jess to STOP her interfuron until she sees an opthomologist and gets an MRI.So she goes and gets a card and had a dr's na

Screwup 1-12-09
Ok so Jess finally finished her first 30 days of treatment.This consisted of treatment everyday infused through her PICC line.Once the first 30 days were up they remove the PICC line and she takes he treatment via a pen shot on Mon,Wed,and Fridays. Soooo,we go in today for the treatment center to teach us about the home injections and to have her PICC line removed and as the IV team is removing it she says "well no wonder that was so easy,it's only a mid-line and not a PICC".I askd her what she meant and she said that a mid-line is not nearly as long as a PICC.When I told her Jess was to have a PICC she seemed concerned and was asking what Jess was having infused.Now I know sometimes I can overreact especially when it comes to my children,but I also know that I saw something by the expression on that womans face. Then her Dr and the treatment team came in with a cake and a certificate congradulating Jess on her first month being done(which I thought was very sweet).When her dr asked

Treatments Started 12-15-08
Well we started treatments last Monday.They told me Monday's will be the long days because they do the blood work every Monday to keep track and see how well the Interfuron is working.They told me this first month would be the hardest since she gets the Interfuron 5 days a week.Mainly the side effects are high fever,shakes,fatigue.Well out of the main side effects,Jess only had the fatigue and really bad headaches.Never did she get a temp above 100 and the doctors thought I was lying because the guarenteed me she would have the fever lol.I am thinking things are looking way better than expected.Til today! Today they did the lab work to compare it to last weeks base line.I can't type it all out but the results showed her white blood cells and platelets and about 5 other tests are wayyyyy below level.Now her immune system isn't working anywhere near what it should.When the nurse saw the results she said she was gonna have the doctor come and talk to us and that they would probably pos

Interfuron
So we went to Hillman Cancer Center today and the doctors say Jess will need to be on interfuron,a different type of chemo,for a year. With the interfuron there are less side effects.She wont lose her hair but she will have flu-like symptoms for a year.The symptoms will be at there worst for the first month. They will be surgically inserting a port sometime this week so they can start treaments on monday the 8th.I then have to take her to Hillman mon-fri to have the interfuron injected through the port. However after 30 days of this they remove the port and she will be able to have the injections 3 times a week at home for the next 11 months.This is actually the best way to go and Hillman is the best from what I have heard! Her doctor did also say that so far she is already 60% cured and that the interfuron will take that up to 85% cured Thanks again to all my friends who have kept her in their thoughts and prayers!!

My Three Wishes
My Three Wishes If I happened upon a lamp With a Genie hidden away inside As soon as the Genie was released I would speak my wishes for the Genie to abide My First wish would be for My Heart For I long for her touch once again To have her blood course though me Two become one heart and begin My Second Wish would be for My Angel That I could be her wings in flight As we fly in the Warm sun by day And land gently in each others arm at night My Third Wish would be for My Love That we would be always hand in hand That I would be her smile always That side by side we would stand Yes all three wishes are for one woman She is My Heart My Angel My Love She is the smile on my lips She is the woman I am always dreaming of I know some men would wish For fortune or fame or to rule as a King To live forever or have some kind of power Wasted wishes on material things I would rather have My One Special Gift The One who truly owns my heart She is most important and preciou

Qoutes To Think About
Women speak two languages - one of which is verbal. ~saying about meaningful friendship by William Shakespeare I have no special talents. I am only passionately curious. ~quote about Attitude by Albert Einstein Decide what you want, decide what you are willing to exchange for it. Establish your priorities and go to work. ~quotes on Self Improvement by H. L. Hunt

Vindicated.
A little known fun-fact about me is that I am one of six straight males in the Midwest who have impeccable, if not exquisite, taste in women's shoes. Today, an Italian professor put some science behind my near fetish. So a big thank you Dr. Curruto and to the world's best, not the finest, news source for providing some science behind my lust and for publicizing that science. http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/7225828.stm

My Shadow
My Shadow Left here formless and void To watch you live without me The torment of a love lost My death was unusually slow When I was finally released I thought so would the pain be Instead I carry it through eternity now Watching you love another My shapeless hands try to reach But they pass through Just as they did when I was alive Before I shed my mortal coil I thought I held to hope Once my light as extinguished I came to the grave discovery I was only holding a shadow Now I see the truth Watching you run to another You pass through me As I try to stand in front But into his arms you fall Watching your lips meet My heart enters a void That shadow you see In the corner of your eye The one that escapes view When you try to turn That is me my love The faint sounds of wailing Of a heartbreaking Of tears striking the ground That is me every moment It happened when I was alive But you turned a blind eye Now I am dead But still in my pain My Shadow W

Loving You In Silence
Loving You In Silence The day you told me you might leave I knew you were definitely gone I kept hanging on to a dream Holding out for the new dawn But like a shadow I cannot take hold The dream leaked through my fingers Mixed with my tears and blood But your scent still lingers As my heart freezes inside my chest My fantasy of you dries and withers As my spirit turns to stone again My life falls into to tiny slivers Have I smiled my last smile? Have I received my last touch from you? Have I lost the kiss I desperately need? Have I nothing left to prove? You have held all the power Keeping me as a future reliance Now all I can do is sit here Loving You In Silence

Too Funny
*laughs until she hurts* OKAY. My friend, who is slightly of kilter much like me, just asked me a very interesting question. Please, if you have an answer, leave it in a comment. If a pair of Siamese twins is making out, is it incest or self-gratification?

In A Box (palindrome)
In a Box In a Box There is me There is You Trapped inside Sharing our pain Living in our darkness Our history written in blood Our present written in loneliness Our future written in uncertainty Our present written in loneliness Our history written in blood Living in our darkness Sharing our pain Trapped inside There is You There is me In a Box

I'm Just Dying
I’m Just Dying Not that it will matter at all I’m Just Dying From your heart an endless fall I’m Just Dying As my voice grows even more quiet I’m Just Dying Loneliness is now my steady diet I’m Just Dying As I loose myself into pain I’m Just Dying Feeling like I’ve gone insane I’m Just Dying Your silence is not golden I’m Just Dying To an empty heart I am holding I’m Just Dying Watching my hope slip away I’m Just Dying Into the darkness of the day I’m Just Dying I wish that I was still living I’m Just Dying So many things I want to be giving I’m Just Dying But It’s not worth your acceptance I’m Just Dying And now on the other side of your fence I’m Just Dying

That All I Want.
I want someone to hold me when i'm feeling down. I want someone to protect me when I'm weak. I want someone to wipe my tears away and say i love you. I want someone to hold my hand and to kiss me under the stars. I want someone who will hold me when i'm scared. I want someone who is a hopeless romantic that will take me to pic-nic on the beach. I want someone who's smile makes me happy even though i'm broken. I want someone who will love me for me

If I Could
If I Could Watching the last bits die now Right before my eyes As my water losses it’s flow And the river of my life dries I thought I knew Love I can’t remember what it is to smile I have lost the taste sweetness Now everything tastes like bile What I would give up For one touch of your hand Just one last time My Love Before all the beauty becomes bland If a heart dies alone How long before another notices? If the body just walks the earth With a shattered soul in pieces What’s to stop it from fading to black If the will is lost in despair If what little strength is drained And a feeble mind no longer cares Then what’s to stop my death? Since I have cut off the world So into my darkened corner I dissolve Into a little ball I am curled Stuffing all the pain down Since there is nothing left that is good I know I should release myself I don’t know If I Could

I Can't Even Scream
I Can’t Even Scream!! Look at me now held down again by you On my knees which are on rough ground My eyes tormented face the dark sky As your hatred keeps me bound My mouth is gagged I thirst for water But poison from your cup is all I drink Your cruelty revealed once again My eyes so dry but I can not blink The cold steel blade that scrapes my throat May offer some sweet release from this In an instant my blood could flow Released into the spirit with death’s kiss But you will never let me go of my chains You think me your little toy of pleasure and pain I can not break free from your cold dead hand So I loose my soul to your Dark Reign What did I do to deserve this ungodly fate? This nightmare my waking dream I don’t know how I became ensnared I’ve lost my voice I can’t even Scream!!

The Hardest Road
The Hardest Road I can barely see the road ahead of me Rain pours down as I figured it would be Thunder and lightening strike all around I feel the hardness on my feet from this ground Many long hills to climb up and down The darkness of the clouds causing this long frown When the winds and rains are not pounding my skin The glaring sun like a desert seems to burn deep within I know this journey is all in my mind My hope is the end of this road true love I will find I see your face ahead of me your eyes are closed Your soft lips tightly together no emotions exposed I want to bring you home my one true love Right now though there is darkness below and above I want to protect you and keep you safe and warm I want to hold you close shelter you from the storm I will continue to dredge along carrying this heavy load For the greatest destination is reached on the hardest road

Why Men Don't Write Advice Columns
Why men don't write advice columns: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dear Walter, I hope you can help me here. The other day, I set off for work leaving my husband in the house watching the TV as usual. I hadn't driven more than a mile down the road when the engine conked out and the car shuddered to a halt. I walked back home to get my husband's help. When I got home I couldn't believe my eyes. He was in our bedroom with the neighbors' daughter. I'm 32, my husband is 34, and the neighbors' daughter is 22. We have been married for ten years. When I confronted him, he broke down and admitted that they had been having an affair for the past six months. I told him to stop or I'd leave him. He was let go from his job six months ago and he says he has been feeling increasingly depressed and worthless. I love him very much, but ever since I gave him the ultimatum he has become increasingly distant. He won't go to counseling and I'

I Call It Frat Trap.
Living in a college town I have to come up with new and inventive ways to destroy the popped collar, spoiled frat boys that tend to roam the streets looking for whatever good times can be had. My latest invention: The Frat Trap. The premise is simple. I drive a somewhat nice car. With a very loud engine. It sounds mean, it is mean. They drive similar cars that their daddies bought them. However, time has taught me a lesson about driving my car. Speeding tickets are bad, being considered a "super speeder" is even worse. Drag racing, well that's just a no no. The goals and objective of the Frat Trap. 1. Identify preppy frat boy who wants to impress someone, show off, or just be a douche. 2. Identify they are in fact driving a car they think can race mine. 3. Rev my engine to 8.5 RPM's while stopped next to said frat boy at stop light. 4. Race him until the speed limit is reached. 5. Laugh as you throttle back, he zooms past you, and straight into the waiting arms of the two po

From My Grave
From My Grave The blood dries now Mixed with the earth My fingers cracked Another shovel of dirt Being swallowed Here in my grave Reaching my hand I am deaths slave You sit up on high Watching me rot My tongue burned and dry Covered in little black spots Each black spot A scar from trying to love Trying to reach you but You kept yourself high above The demons laugh They torment my soul Another piece rots away I have lost all control Still you sit and watch As my body shakes Violently torn to shreds Broken heart in the wake Being with you Would have been my Heaven Being without now my Hell From your sight I am driven

Filling This Book
Filling This Book I tuck my thoughts in its pages Almost locking them in cages Pouring out my heart for you Leaving a simple trail of clues Desperate to lead your heart to mine Then binding tight this books spine Embracing your body forever Chasing this lovers endeavor Wings of My Gorgeous Angel spread Across the night sky we sped Resting in our castle on mountain high Wanting to catch every tear from your eye Holding your love precious and near Protecting your soul casting out the fear Like honey so sweet your taste is The mysteries of passion hidden in your kiss Your ware’s a gift I wish to receive My heart I will wear upon my sleeve Each pen stroke brings more thoughts The holes in my heart you filled the spots I pray your eyes grace these words Leave me a sign that I rest assured Someday your pen’s ink mixed with mine Live according to nature’s design

Come With Me
Come With Me My Angel I beg you Please come with me I have a place set aside Where our hearts roam free The trees sing to us The wind carries our soul The grass is soft and lush I want to make you whole I will try to paint the image That you may see and know In this wide open space We have freedom to grow I lay myself bare Lay my whole being at your feet Nothing do I hide from you Beside you I take my seat I wish to be the man in your eyes I wish to be the song in your spirit I wish to be the strength in your stride I wish to be the words when your ears hear it My Angel are my words lost? Do they not reach you anymore? Are they drowned out? Or have you finally closed the door?

Vicks Vaporub
Vicks Vapor Rub(not just for your chest anymore!) During winter colds and coughs when we had a lecture on Essential Oils, they told us how the foot soles can absorb oils. Some of us have used Vicks Vaporub for years but had never heard of this. It is supposed to work 100% of the time although the scientists at the Canada Research council (who discovered it) aren't sure why. To stop night time coughing in a child or adult, put Vicks Vaporub generously on the bottom of the feet at bedtime, then cover with socks. Even persistent, heavy, deep coughing will stop in about 5 minutes and stay stopped for many, many hours of relief. Works 100% of the time and is more effective in children than even very strong prescription cough medicines. In addition it is extremely soothing and comforting and they will sleep soundly. I heard the head of the Canada Research Council describe these findings on the part of their scientists when they were investigating the effectiveness and usag

As I Lay Me Down To Sleep
As I lay Me Down to Sleep I think of the prayer my mother used to recite Whenever I was scared in the still of the night She would comfort me with words O’ so kind Praying for protection for body soul and mind But now I am cast out into the darkness For I followed the call of sin that harkens Transformed forever into something hideous Ensnared by deceit O’ so insidious I have lost the beauty of my youth All because I foolishly strayed from truth Now I have no-one to comfort me in the dark Now my souls fire is loosing it’s spark

Ahhh, To Be Six Again....
To Be 6 Again... A man was sitting on the edge of the bed, observing his wife, looking at herself in the mirror. Since her birthday was not far off he asked what she'd like to have for her Birthday. 'I'd like to be six again', she replied, still looking in the mirror. On the morning of her Birthday, he arose early, made her a nice big bowl of Lucky Charms, and then took her to Six Flags theme park. What a day! He put her on every ride in the park; the Death Slide, the Wall of Fear, the Screaming Monster Roller Coaster, everything there was. Five hours later they staggered out of the theme park. Her head was reeling and her stomach felt upside down. He then took her to a McDonald's where he ordered her a Happy Meal with extra fries and a chocolate shake. Then it was off to a movie, popcorn, a soda pop, and her favorite candy, M&M's. What a fabulous adventure! Finally she wobbled home with her husband and collapsed into bed exhausted. He leaned over his wife with a big smile and

Always The One
Always The One Always the one who has to let go Always the one who is pushed away Always the one who is rejected Always the one who is in last place Always the one who is just an option Always the one who is cut in the heart Always the one who is loosing his soul Always the one who is loosing his love Always the one who is loosing his heart Always the one who is sent to the corner Always the one who is winding up Alone

Signs Lol
Sign over a Gynecologist's Office: 'Dr. Jones, at your cervix.' ************************** In a Podiatrist's office: 'Time wounds all heels.' ************************** On a Septic Tank Truck: Yesterday's Meals on Wheels ************************** On a Plumber's truck: 'We repair what your husband fixed.' ************************** On another Plumber's truck: 'Don't sleep with a drip. Call your plumber.' ************************** On a Church's Bill board: '7 days without God makes one weak.' ************************** At a Tire Store 'Invite us to your next blowout.' ************************** On an Electrician's truck: 'Let us remove your shorts.' ************************** In a Non-smoking Area: 'If we see smoke, we will assume you are on fire and take appropriate action.' ************************** On a Maternity Room door: 'Push. Push. Push.' ************************** At an Optometrist's Office: 'If you don't see

Another Poem Called ~*memories*~
Memories by Maria Byrne Weakness, A feeling experienced, Again and again, No running away, But to chase, And Follow the heart, Because that's where, The weakness lies, From broken hearts, That have not yet healed, And visible scars, Portray the patterns, That once were, And from the heart, Seep to the mind, Which seek pictures, Visual feelings, Emotions, More than just a picture, But of the memories, Long since gone, Only in the hearts, Will those memories stay, And I know, I will never forget, Memories are all that's left.

Slow Dance
Slow Dance This is a poem written by a teenager with cancer. She wants to see how many people get her poem. It is quite the poem. Please pass it on. This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital It was sent by a medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement AFTER THE POEM. SLOW DANCE Have you ever watched kids On a merry-go-round? Or listened to the rain Slapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight? Or gazed at the sun into the fading night? You better slow down. Don't dance so fast. Time is short.. The music won't last. Do you run through each day On the fly? When you ask How are you? Do you hear the reply? When the day is done Do you lie in your bed With the next hundred chores Running

Slip, Slipping
Slip, slipping into consciousness lying in bed Wondering, wondering… Understanding not, for the night has passed. Left tired from a toss and turn not knowing. What is it that differs from other days passed? What is it that dominates my feelings, My thoughts, My inner being, my mind? I lift up from bed to enter my day, walking, Floating, my feet 12 inches off the floor. Warmth, kindness, passion and joy Fill my being with comfort. Still feeling, still seeing, still experiencing The touch, the softness, the taste, the scent. My body screaming and my mind at calm. What is it that dominates my mind today? These feelings are new… No, no, These feelings are old, familiar, Coming from a time long forgotten. A time and feelings thought lost. Anxious to learn, eager for more. I am ready to experience what has overcome, Overtaken, consumed my body, my mind. A night passed, a choice made. Respect and Honor still in place, still in waiting. Something done right, someth

My Health
"Why am I in the hospital?" I started to get really sick in August of 2007. After many tests, I was diagnosed with Sarcoidosis. The tests also showed indicated a brain tumor. Over the next several months, I underwent many more tests and my health continued to decline. After Krissy found me blacked out, I was admitted into the hospital in mid-August of 2008. Since my admission to the hospital, I have been undergoing radiation therapy. These treatments have caused a number of side effects. The radiation treatments crashed my immune system resulting in meningitis and pneumonia. Additionally, I have lost my hair, my good eye sight, some of my hearing, and my voice. One of the worse parts is the never ending pain I have inside my torso! It seems that the pain is so bad that I can barely breath or think. I also feel like I have the flu but 1000% times worse than I have ever had. I have to have dialysis due to kidney issues from the meningitis. I started to have major respirat

Words Flow
Words usually so easy to flow, but today not so much so. Thoughts racing, memories chasing, feelings on hold. What is this that plagues my way? Keeping me from being able to Write what I want to say. Many lives lived, many hats worn. Why do I sit here feeling so torn? Confusion? Not most likely so. Disillusioned? Never that path Again will I go. Changes are coming as is written before. Never did I expect to be so hungry for more. So much has been seen, so much to share, But never to you would I ever compare Realizing again, today will soon be tomorrow. Time not to sit and look back in sorrow. Life is my text book which is always open. The world is the classroom where I set my Mind to always be open to things that I see And others that can be hard to perceive. Things to be seen, experienced and learned. So much to share, so much I have worked for So much I have eagerly earned. When I open myself and share my words, Don’t be afraid of me, but experience my Though

Princess Leia Bully
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This Old Body
Creaking and popping, having trouble walking, This old friend broken and tattered with pieces scattered. Abused and pushed, and a few times crushed. Many times taken for granted. This old body. May times taken to it’s limits, Then reaching inside and finding more From within it Tired and times almost dead, Yet still today able to climb out of bed. Moaning and groaning, dealing with the pain. What was I thinking, was I truly insane? Abused and drugged, wanting to be hugged Tired of living so hard, every day painfully bugged. This old body. I have come upon a choice, call it my inner voice. Hoping it is not too late, how many years left Two, three maybe eight. I’ve decided on surgery to help this old friend. My gift to you is to be easier to bend. No more medications to fakely gain. No more smiling and hiding the pain. Sorry my friend for being so relentless. Some day soon to be able to move With a smile and a little more effortless. This old body

Tested By Fire
Am I to be tested by fire? Tempered, as steel, to forge the keener blade Can I possibly survive? Emerge from the flame Purified Purged Is such searing necessary? Must all that I am (or thought I was) Be melted to the core And poured out Liquefied Molten Am I to be totally recast? Refashioned at the anvil by heavy handed blows So unyielding that I require This violent a process Hammered Pounded I would choose a milder makeover The gentler touch Of potter to the clay The subtle training Of gardener to the vine Is the smithy to be my only master? If this is the form of refashioning I truly require Then I shall try to endure Hopefully Gratefully Shall I be made more worthy? I ask only that the process leave me bettered By whatever bellows and blows Keener blade Finer mettle Stronger Truer Brighter Tested by the Fire

Waiting For The Sun To Rise
Dark stale night, Waiting for the sun to rise. Sleep is just a dream, Awake for my Nightmare. Ready for another day, Waiting for the sun to rise. Another day begins as I remember the day past. What is it all for? What reason do I endure? I walk with wonder From day to day, Thinking too much, Trying to belong. Waiting for the sun to rise. Come on this day For me to embrace. Don't look back into the darkness, But, embrace the new day as I would a loved one. Waiting for the sun to rise. This is my gift. This is my nightmare. This is my life. Embrace it!

Why Am I Still Single?
This blog will pin-point why I hate relationships and I think it is nothing more than a big source of un-needed drama. I am now 28, and I do own my own home. I pay my own bills and I try to be everything that I could be to everyone that I consider my friend. But the funny thing is that I simply cannot be anything more than friends with anyone. I am either too young, or I don't have a car,or any number of vast other reasons. I am always being told that I am a wonderful friend and that I am very special to someone. But it hurts to sit and watch EVERYONE ELSE getting into relationships and being able to hold someone close at night. To be able to see that my heart will always feel this empty no matter how hard I try. I have some of the worlds most wonderful friends and I will risk nothing to lose those friendships. All I am saying is that I want to simply have someone in my heart and in my life who will be just as special to me as I am to them in a romantic sence. I am not just about se

Alone
Lonliness, a thought, a feeling or an emotion? What is this that haunts me? No one here to laugh at my jokes. No one here to comfort my fears. Bodies all around me talking, stating thier coments. Bodies all around, but no one to hold my hand. What do I do, where do I go? What do I say to the feelings that rain upon? All that is familiar around me, but all that I don't understand. Why, What for, How come must I endure? Another day passes. Another day in my life gone by, all alone. How many days are left? I am right here! Please, make your way and I will be right here waiting for you.

Thoughts
The end is drawing near, You must start understanding. I'll clear you a path, In order to give you a clear landing. I got my mind out of the gutter, I gave my thoughts a cleansing. I give you all of my mind, yet still you aren't listening. Giving up is a good idea, But I don't want to go blank. For all of my morbid thoughts, I have you all to thank. You give me such an inspiration, I can't even begin to describe. If this was mid evil times, I think the only thing I'd be is a scribe. Do you love it of hate it, I don't think you believe in, What I have just stated, You are all going to burn for sin. Wether it is sins of the flesh, I don't know the answer yet. I don't think that I can, Start to forgive or regret. All of the things that I've done, I did it all in fun. But some things may get evil, Maybe, perhaps I am really the devil. The avid unbeliever, The true deceiver. Where as you are the receiver, I happen to be the dealer. Of th

Losing My Whole World
I met this amazing man and started to fall in love with him. Well once again ive been proven im unloveable. It looks like im losing him already. I dont want to he is my whole world. I just dont know what to do to keep him. Everytime I fall in love it ends badly. But this time I thought it was different. I felt something different with this man then I ever have with any other man before. We have so many things in common. Ive even stayed up late to talk to him. My body cant handle it like it use to be able to. But he is totally worth it I dont regret any lost sleep because it was spent getting to know him better. I would do anything to protect him and to show him how much he means to me. He is the sweetest most romantic man I've ever met. He makes me feel more special then any man ever has. I dont know what I will do if I lose this man. I really wish I knew what to do to keep him. I've been saying hes my whole world my heart. I meant it every single time. Ive never meant it more then I

St. Patrick's Day Auction
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More Words Of A Madman
I am sitting in my own blasphemes, Looking at all of my catastrophes. I don't want to keep on sinning, However I have to keep on living. You see to live is evil, And evil is people. People are sinners. Yet people are believers. I accept if I'm wrong I shall burn, I merely sit here and wait for my turn. I preach out my lesson, yet none of you learn. I have given up on you it seems. You can't give up your silly dreams. I'll murder your mind if you'd give me a chance. For talking to me may just be your final dance. I wish to give you all my mind. But the message none seem to find. Maybe it isn't them who are lost, Maybe my victory is Perice, at to great a cost? I have chosen my fate. it is all to late. I'm going to end this all. I have finally started to......FALL!

Different Than You, I Am Me
Different Than You, I Am Me Climbing out of bed, Rubbing my head. Different than you, I am me. No one to impress, I just get dressed. Different than you, I am me. Walking on the beach, Hearing the Sea Gulls screech. Different than you, I am me. Life in my perception No exception. Different than you, I am me. Watching others As they Walk by, Wondering what for And why. Different than you I am me Dreams and passion, No need for fashion. Different than you, I am me. Seeing something more Behind every door. Different than you, I am me. Accepting God, Being no fraud Different than you, I am me. Walking through the park, It is getting dark. Different than you, I am me. Wanting to be like you, No thanks, I like my shoe Different than you, I am me. Climbing into bed, Rubbing my head. Different than you, I am me. Perception, Deception, Hatred and Love. Obsession, Affliction, Push and Shove. Impressions, Relations, Accep

Pics
I think its a load of crap that people can have pictures of legs on here and not get marked NSFW yet I load a tasteful one with legs and some whino marks it NSFW. If you dont like the pics then don't look at them instead of running to fubar bouncers to report peoples photos

Welcome Back To Danger!!!
???????? ÐÁÑGÊR ??????M@ fubar COULD EVERYONE PLEASE KEEP DANGER'S PICS RE-RATED, SHE ONLY HAS 31 AT THIS TIME, PLEASE HELP HER LEVEL UP! HER ASSHAT EX DELETED HER ACCOUNT, SO SHE LOST IT ALL....

Super Bowl Seat
A Steeler fan had 50 yard line tickets for the Super Bowl. As he sits down, a man comes down and asked the man if anyone is sitting in the seat next to him. "No", he said, "the seat is empty". "This is incredible", said the man. "Who in their right mind would have a seat like this for the Super Bowl, the biggest sport event in the world, and not use it?" Somberly, the man says, "Well...the seat actually belongs to me. I was supposed to come here with my wife, but she passed away. This is the first Super Bowl we have not been together since we got married in 1967. " "Oh I'm sorry to hear that. That's terrible. But couldn't you find someone else - a friend or relative or even a neighbor to take the seat?" The man shakes his head, "No. They're all at the funeral. "

Again...i Don't Know
My heart's beating so fast I don't know if I'm going to last Running down this road of confusion Wondering how to rid of the delusion Of this life I lead Will I ever get a head o the stampede What am I supposed to see What am I missing Give me a clue A sign A brief moment of intelligence Clarity Is what I search for the hardest To get a hold of the emotions And to kick out the constant thoughts Of anxiety Can I How will I Ever survive Surrounded by nothing but lies No one wants to step up Or keep it real Never can we own up to how we really feel Afraid to hurt Afraid to scar Afraid to accept who we really are Find one Forget the rest Then it's all really put to the test Can you stay loyal While being happy Or do you end up disregarding All past memories For a future unknown

Divorce Vs.murder
A nice, calm and respectable lady went into the pharmacy, walked up to the pharmacist, looked straight into his eyes, and said, "I would like to buy some cyanide." The pharmacist asked, "Why in the world do you need cyanide?" The lady replied, "I need it to poison my husband." The pharmacist's eyes got big and he exclaimed, "Lord have mercy! I can't give you cyanide to kill your husband. That's against the law! I'll lose my license! They'll throw both of us in jail! All kinds of bad things will happen. Absolutely not! You CANNOT have any cyanide!" The lady reached into her purse and pulled out a picture of her husband in bed with the pharmacist's wife. The pharmacist looked at the picture and replied, "Well now, that's different. "You didn't tell me you had a prescription."

Example 1
I can't stand your lies I can't stand your life I'm sick of being fooled I'm sick of never knowing what's right You won't get inside now You won't know who I am I'll never help you now I'll never make it alright You've ruined everything now You've done the worst you could do I never saw it coming I never thought you were that kind of guy My heart is breaking now My head doesn't understand why But I'll take you back anyway But I'm sure you won't come running So goodbye quick romance So farewell to one great chance...

P.i.m. Poetry In Motion
Poetry in motion is where you have a list of words and you come up with a poem. This were done in 2005 but I loved the imagery in some so I figured I'd share. Uncle Willie 11-16-05 A rememberance of lost love: Uncle Willie in baggy tweed mindless eyes forgotten timeless ethics keys of steps fractured on rememberance of his love Ruth Natures Song 10-29-05 use your own imagery When a child blossoms The soft breathe of love Life's memories appear hopeful In Natures Song Tears Surface 10-27-05 Moments of unwanted tears surface come unnoticed as depths weaken Beyond live details happening still resurrected once reached Savoring Love 9-13-05 Feelings that can show through; Always embracing your tears Beyond the loneliness Your hearts desire unlocked a warm, soft touch of love I have almost a hole book of these but I don't want to bore ya :0) 3 of these P.I.M. won me money on poetry.com which at one time was a free sie, now you have to pay

Single Mother Needing Help!!!!!
Hello, I am a single parent with three children. My oldest son is 5years old and in kindergarten. My other son is two years old and my daughter is one year old.My two boys have been diagnosed with ADHD, but my oldest son had surgery on February 3,2009 on his right leg. This is his second surgery on his right leg. He wears a brace call an AFO with a pelvic strap that is connected to a wister cable that can be adjusted when need to be.He also wears a brace on his right hand. My son had a prenatal stroke before he was born. His father is in jail in Va. My other two children's father wants to throw myself and my children out in the street.He doesn't care if we have aplace to stay or anything to eat.He's mentally and emotionally abusive to me. I love my children with all my heart.I need help very badly in getting into an apartment or house.Any type of assistance would be very much appreciated; because right now the only income I have is my oldest son get a disability check on the first of

Where I Belong:
You belong to S.Korea You were just getting back to a normal cycle of eating when a group of people came up to you and said that you were too different than they were, so you could no longer visit the beach. You'll probably miss the beach, and you're still kind of hungry, but ironically you cook for lots of rich people in other places who think your food is excellent, but won't let you eat it yourself. You are revered in the Caribbean, though, which counts for something.

Take Me As I Am
Take me as i am the girl how has tear stanes on my checks The girl how has scears form a borken heart form so many men that have hurt me. The girl how has hide for all to all. Would you take me as i am are would you run like all the rest have?

Thank You Cynzdreams
LETS ALL GET THIS WONDERFUL MAN TO DISCIPLE HES A LITTLE OVER 500K AWAY AND HES RUNNING AUTO 11'S SHOW HIM SOME OF THE LOVE HE SHOWS ALL OF US ~Brian™~Owned by~ CynzDreams ~@ fubar MUCH LOVE TO YA "B" ~CynzDreams~Owned By SouthernOutlawBiker!@ fubar (repost of original by ' ~CynzDreams~Owned By SouthernOutlawBiker!' on '2009-02-16 19:39:04')

What Do I Do With This?
DEAR BLOG IM WRITING IN UR BULLSHIT PAGES BECAUSE MY FRIENDS ARE CRAZIER THAN I AM THEY THINK IF I CAN WRITE THIS DOWN THEN IT WILL HELP ME GET OVER IT. I MEET A GUY I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT LIVE OFER 2000 MILES AWAY AND YET COULD STILL HAVE THE POSSBILTY OF LOVE AND WHAT DO, I OF COURSE DO WHAT I AM GOOD AT FUCK IT UP LIKE I DO EVERY RELANTIONSHIP BUT I THINK THIS ONE MEANT SOMETHING DIFFRENT BECAUSE I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE OFER THE INTENET AND I DID SO NOW I HAVE TO FIND AWAY TO MOVE ON AND GET OVER IT WOW NOW THAT IS SO MUCH EASIER SAID THEN DONE ISNT IT GET OVER IT LOL IF IT WAS THAT SIMPLY I WOULDNT BE WRITING THIS IN HERE NOW WOULD I .I HAVE HONESTLY SAY THAT DRAMA CAN HAPPEN ANYWHERE U ARE.

It's Extreme!
Strolling down the street in Caye Caulker, Belize, J and I saw a sign for "EXTREME snorkeling!" How, pray tell, does one make snorkeling extreme? J suggested, "Well, they could pour cupfuls of blood onto the snorkelers." For the last several weeks, J has been sewing. What we call "extreme" sewing, as he is stitching leather by hand. He just finished his two pre-trip projects: a camera bag for his Nikon D-90 and a small messenger bag. Both are sewn from a wonderful, soft, thick black leather. Neither project resulted in much spilled blood. Today we went to the leather store (in the leather district) to purchase accoutrements for one of the bags. While there, I was checking out the sale-priced leather. I found an earthy green hide that I couldn't resist. Granted, I have no idea how to sew leather, but J has promised to teach me. I'm now the proud owner of an entire cow hide. Over 49 square feet of soft buttery fleshiness. I could clothe a small family in green leather

Annabelle Lee; Edgar Allen Poe
It was many and many a year ago, In a kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you may know By the name of Annabel Lee; And this maiden she lived with no other thought Than to love and be loved by me. I was a child and she was a child, In this kingdom by the sea; But we loved with a love that was more than love - I and my Annabel Lee; With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven Coveted her and me. And this was the reason that, long ago, In this kingdom by the sea, A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling My beautiful Annabel Lee; So that her highborn kinsman came And bore her away from me, To shut her up in a sepulcher In this kingdom by the sea. The angels, not half so happy in heaven, Went envying her and me Yes! that was the reason (as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea) That the wind came out of the cloud by night, Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee. But our love was stronger by far than the love Of those who were older than we Of many

The Box, By Abercrombie Lascelles
Once upon a time, in the land of Hush-A-Bye, Around about the wondrous days of yore, They came across a kind of box Bound up with chains and locked with locks And labeled "Kindly do not touch; it's war." A decree was issued round about, and all with a flourish and a shout And a gaily colored mascot tripping lightly on before. Don't fiddle with this deadly box,Or break the chains, or pick the locks. And please don't ever play about with war. The children understood. Children happen to be good And they were just as good around the time of yore. They didn't try to pick the locksOr break into that deadly box. They never tried to play about with war. Mommies didn't either; sisters, aunts, grannies neither 'Cause they were quiet, and sweet, and pretty In those wondrous days of yore. Well, very much the same as now, And not the ones to blame somehow For opening up that deadly box of war. But someone did. Someone battered in the lid And spilled the insides out across the fl

Caa #86
Another one close to home. A dear friend of mine lost his wife's grandmother on Friday. He is a good friend and coworker. Let's send all the angel prayers of love, healing and comfort to him and his family in this time of there need. Love, Doc

Auto 11's Running 2/16-2/17 -10k/100 Rates...read Blog Or Bully
I am running my auto 11 at 3pm fu time/5 CST/6 EST tonight, Monday. I will pay 10k/100 rates on the following folders... Please leave a comment on the last picture of the of the folders. Then PM me with the total amount of pictures you rated when you are done rating. Please feel free to rate as much as you want, but the above folders are all that I am payin on. Carebear@ fubar

Made By Jade Roes
CLICK ON HIS PICTURE BELOW TO SHOW HIM LUV- RATE ADD FAN BLING ETC......... VENGEFUL ANGEL IS THE DIRTY DIAMOND OF THE WEEK WANNA JOIN?,CLICK HERE!! (repost of original by ' Jade_Rose_Forever ~*MNGR OF BETRAYED SOULS LOUNGE*~' on '2009-02-16 18:59:23')

Nerve Damage
iam going to have SURGERY on Thursday the 19th on my elbow and left hand what i want to no if any one ever had it happen to them if so how did it turn out for them iam not scared i just never had it done before and would not want to lose the use of my left hand

Armstrong's Bike Stolen After Race
Quote: "LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) -- A one-of-a-kind bicycle belonging to U.S. cycling legend Lance Armstrong was stolen from a team truck in California just hours after he rode it Saturday on the first day of a nine-day race. Lance Armstrong's bike was stolen after he competed in the first day of the Amgen Tour of California. Cancer survivor and seven-time Tour de France champion Armstrong is racing in the Amgen Tour of California this week as he attempts another comeback after retiring..."

If You Are Good Enough For Kari !!!
Alot of you seem to want Kari. Just to let you know she loves me and I trust her 100% as she does me. So hear you go is your chance to find out. If maybe you are her type. Answer all questions send Chris a private message or leave a comment. 1. size? 2. how long can you last? 3. how long did it take you to find this? 4. What would your last girl you were with rate you 1 to 10? 5. DO you think Chris will say yes? 6. Are you respectful? 7. How many times can you cum in a setting? 8. Do you follow directions good? 9. How many times will she cum befor u? If you pass this test a 2nd will be sent to you.

My Sissy In Law
well seem the grim reaper has taken someone close to me yet again my best friend and my sis in law was ripped away from me she was my age we went to school together grew up together and when i found out she was marrying my step bro iwas so happy she died of a heart attack and left behind not only a loving hubby my bro matt but a sweet heart of a son noah who just turned 2 now looking back i wish i made the time to go see them spend time with them instead of us both saying yeah wouldnt it be great if we got together like the old days but we both had our lives to live it saddens me and breaks my heart to loose such a wounderfull friend as missy plz keep Matt & noah and her rents in your thought and prayers hug your loved one a lil longer and a lil tighter tonight cuz in a blink of an eye they could be gone R.I.P. Missy i love you girl and i hope you will be waiting for me at the gates

How I Expect My Wife To Be Treated:
You are to speak to her like you would a lady, Because she is one! Do not use her or think of her as your sexual object/ toy Kari is very open and honest- PLEASE be the same Please treat her like you would expect someone to treat your mom/sis/daughter If she is full of drinks- you can send her a gift she loves those and it doesn't bother me Don't get pissed off at her if she doesn't get back to you right away- Kari has things to do away from the computer- She has a life - But her friends are very important to her We will let you know if we want to Yahoo, IM, let you in our private pics etc.. If you want to be a Rude Ass come find me or just leave us alone THANK YOU CHRIS

Caa #85
Another close to home, a dear friend, angel and sister to me lost a close friend today. The friend was being a good Samaritan when they got the call home to God. Let us pray for all their friends and family in this time of their grief and send angel love, prayer and support to them. Love, Doc

Caa #85
This one is personal dear angels. Just got email from my mom and her brother-in-law, has had the lung cancer has come back with a vengeance. He is in hi second of three chemo's and hopefully it will put it into submission. He has had a good life, being able to serve as a police officer and sheriff and is now retired. Please send plenty of angel love, healing, support and prayer for him. God bless you Uncle Lenny, I admire you and respect you. Get well! Love, Doc

I Don't Feel Like I Fet In
I feel like am not welcome where i work some people say hi but when i talk everyone ignores me like not even there. Why do i feel like this?? I feel like am not gd enough be apart of that lounge, so weird everyone loved me was happy when came in there when wasent staff not that i am ive noticed everyone treats me different! I feel like there pushing me way, maybe this was bad idea after all...~sighs~

Sarge's Bad Girl Of The Week 2-16-09
Let Me Introduce You To Sarge's Bad Girl Of The Week For The Week Of 2-16-09 Dj_Lette Be Sure To Stop By Her Page & Show Her Some ♥ ..She Will Be Sure To Return All ♥ Here Is A Bit About Her ~ABOUT ME~ *Basics* Name/Nickname: Amanda/Dj_Lette Birthday: 05/18/84 Zodiac Sign: Taurus Hair Color: Brown Eye Color: Brown Tattoos: None at the moment Piercings: Yes *Favorites* Color: Hot Pink Season: Fall Day Of Week: Friday Animal: Eagle Flower: Lily of the Valley *Have You Ever* Danced In The Rain?: Yeppers Laughed So Hard You Cried?: Yeppers Smiled For No Reason?: Yeppers Sat On Your Rooftop?: Yeppers *This 0R That* Computer 0R T.V?: Computer Phone 0R IM?: IM McDonalds 0R Burger King?: Burger King Summer 0R Winter?: Summer CDs 0R IPoD/MP3?: IPoD XBox 0R PS2?: PS2 RANDOMS... Your Perfect Pizza?: Sausage,Mushroom,Onion,&Xtra Cheese Your Fears?: Losing the people I love most in my life Your Weakness?: Sexy Women/Men Do

New Tattoo.
yes, I got my third one on V-Day...and no, it wasn't the entry posted earlier. That one as a back piece would have run me about $4K...money i care not to spend right now, so I got this instead. Still a tribute to the book, but in a slightly different way. It reads as follows. "Ziiju nil riem yu. Ziiju nil fierria." translation: "Sleep well my angel. Sleep well tonight." Enjoy.

We've Got Some Celebrating To Do
WE'VE GOT SOME CELEBRATING TO DO......HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL OF YOU!! PLEASE DROP BY THEIR PAGES AND SHOW THEM SOME LUV!! R/A/F IF YA HAVEN'T ALREADY AND FRIEND REQUEST THEM, THEY'RE ALL GREAT PEOPLE TO KNOW FEBRUARY 18TH S/M/O/K/E/Y~T/H/E~B/E/A/R/...aka smokescreener@ fubar FEBRUARY 19TH DIAMOND{"GREETER@FORBIBBEN}@MEMBER OF THE DIRTY DIAMOND CREW}@ fubar FEBRUARY 19TH DJ Cali Bitch Staff @ Dollhouse@ fubar FEBRUARY 19TH GYPSYLORD@ fubar FEBRUARY 20TH Cbear (sign my guestbook plz)

Sbg; Your Cure To The Monday Blues; Feb. 16th Edition
Do You Have Monday Blues? Are your wondering what to do on a Monday? Do you want to rate but don't want to go through the BORED board? Are you tired of only rating only ezrate pics? Well, here is something different, fun, and exciting! SARGE'S BAD GIRLS The BEST bad girls you will ever meet! A listing at your fingertips of beautiful women with great pics. And of course the man that made it all possible. (He has folders of some of our best pics!) Give these bad girls a good old fashioned fu-spanking and don't forget to thank the man that made it all possible. Fan - Rate - Friend - Bling - Comment! You won't regret it! ***SBGs*** You Should Be Rating The SBG picture folders of Sarge and the Top Five SBGs (Up To 25 Mandatory) in this Bulletin/Blog. Next Monday These Top Five Will Be On The Bottom Of The List. All SBGs .. please comply! Sarge's Bad Girls

Broken Pieces
So yea being too nice and sweet just sux. Got my heart broken once again can't seem to get anything right not here and not in the real world. I'm so tired of all this crap I really don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm the one just standing on the outside watching everything happen for everyone else but me. I feel so alone in a sea of friends and family. I don't know how much more I can take anymore. This is why I stay single because thier just isn't anyone for me out there. If there was I think I would of found them by now. well thanks for reading to those who did and thanks to those who showed me love while I was feeling so sad.

March '09
Join The Party! March 20th AND March 21st! Fu Party in Rowlett, Texas! You get TWO clubs for the price of one! Weekends for those wanting to rock the night away, AND The Crazy Horse Saloon for those who want to two-step! Price? There is NO cover charge! We had a blast the last two parties we had! Check out party pics below and on many of our pages. Let Blueroses or Tulsa's Angel know if you will be able to attend! Those Attending This Affair: Debbie ~Blueroses~ Barbara from Tulsa ღTulsa's Angelღ Amber Sexy Green Eyes ~ Shari ¢¾Brown Eyed Girl ¢¾ ¢â Beth From Ohio ♥ ÐJ ÇÚÐÐLÊ GØÐÐÊ§§ ♥ Bonnie from Oklahoma ÐJWîççâ Dale *Phantom*

Dragon Riderz Is Giveing Away An Auto 11 Bling
DRAGON RIDERZ IS HOLDING A CONTEST THE 500TH PERSON TO SUBSCRIBE AND THE PERSON WHO INVITED THEM WILL EACH RECIEVE AN AUTO 11 BLING.....WERE DRAWING VERY CLOSE TO THE END AND I WOULD LOVE TO WIN THIS SO COME STOP ON BY AND TEAM UP WITH ME AND LETS SEE IF WE CAN WIN THIS PLZ BE SURE TO TELL THEM MIZZ MURDER SENT YOU SO SHE GETS CREDIT FOR IT

Current Giveaways
20k comments for 3-month VIP Currently at 10,171 comments (+590) AUTO-11 BLING; LAST ONE TO BE AWARDED AT 50K COMMENTS! ALMOST THERE!!! Currently at 47,020 comments (+1,371) I am suggesting that the 2 ga's above be finished first.....bombing is such a pain, and such slow going right now that I really think it is too much trouble to bother with the 2 bling ga's unless you just want to bomb them...if we ever finish these two, we will finish the two small bling giveaways.

Poem
The Scene There was an emptiness inside me that burned Nothing could quench it no matter where I turned There had to be something out there to fill this void When I finally found You I was overjoyed Curious and eager, Timid and scared I reached out to You and with me You shared A lifestyle of which I had never dreamed Something far beyond me, or so it seemed Seeing the fear and need deep inside me You taught me how good it really can be To trust someone with my body and soul To know what it's like to finally be whole I knelt before You willingly submissive, naked and afraid The power, knowledge and patience of a Master were displayed You probed and touched and caressed and kissed Every inch of my body, not a spot You did miss You gave me a safeword and pushed me to use it Your teeth bit hard on my nipple but did not abuse it You proved to me that in You I could trust And in me grew a deep devotion and lust Bent over Your knees with my eyes shut tight Y

Fuck You Fuck You Fuck You Fuck You
NSFW NSFW i come back to 15 of my pictures marked at 2 of my FUCKING blogs FUCKING gone FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK im done with this piece of shit site and the idiots on it and in case you missed it FUCK

Men And Women (a Friend Wrote This)
Many people have questioned preference my in women. Wondering what is it that like, what catches my eye and what turns me on. Well although that sounds like a easy answer, its not. It is as perplex as understanding how the pyramids were constructed. I am attracted to several things depending on the woman. There is nothing more attractive than confidence, personality and intelligence. A woman with a strong mind is a great thing. And even greater than that is a woman with a strong mind and nice curves. Some people may say that looks is not everything and physical attraction is superficial. I say; maybe thats right for what motivates them. But as for me, I have to have a woman that is pleasing to my eye. I want to be attractive to that woman when she is sleep, when she is just waking up and on her worst day. Now that doesn't mean she has to be what america has deemed as being pretty but she has to be what I like. It's not just about the size of her backsi

My Pics
OK SEXY FRIENDS.. IM LETTING U KNOW I GOT ONE MORE FULL DAY... B4 I GO INTO KNEE SURGERY.. SO PICS WELL BE DELAYED FOR A BIT UNTIL I HEAL.. SO PLEASE BARE WITH ME.. AND STILL RATE ALL THE PICS I HAVE HERE NOW.. I LUV ALL OF MY SEX FRIENDS... MUAH.. AND KEEP ME IN UR PRAYERS.. PLZ

Iowa's~katelynn Stinnett National Memorial Ride
* *****Iowa's~Katelynn Stinnett National Memorial Ride** *Created By: njoyzridin* of Bikerornot.com Start Date: 6/13/2009* End Date: 6/13/2009* Start City/State/Zip: Cedar Rapids, IA 52401 **This ride is part of a National Child Abuse Awareness Ride that is being held on the same day in different states across the U.S. The goal is to have each state represented and if successful it will be the first time a ride like this has ever been done.The ride was started as a Memorial Ride in rememberance of Katelynn Stinnett. A 2 yr old little girl who was violently raped,sodomized and beaten. She had to have over 400 staples & stiches in her groin from the rapes, almost every bone in her body was broke and her skull was crushed. Little Katelynn passed away Dec 3, 2008 from her injuries. I have volunteered to co-ordinate the Memorial Ride here for Iowa.The mission for this national ride is to bring awareness to child abuse across our nation and help raise money for this cause. All monies raised

Club Mystic Member List
imikimi - Customize Your World! FAITH'S ACCOUNT APPEARS TO HAVE BEEN HACKED, THE ONLY THING SHE IS ABLE TO DO FROM HER ACCOUNT IS FU-MAIL... PLZ RATE ALL OF MERLYN'S PICS THIS WEEK, WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LEVEL HIM! PLZ PRIVATE MESSAGE ME WHEN YOU FINISH RATING HIS PAGE, I WILL LET YOU KNOW THE SITUATION ON FAITH...SHE MAY HAVE TO DELETE HER PAGE! I HAVE MOVED MEMBERS WHO ARE NOT BOMBING TO INACTIVE LIST....THERE ARE A COUPLE MORE THAT I PROBABLY SHOULD PUT THERE, BUT THESE TWO MEMBERS ARE THE FIRST TO RESPOND WHENEVER I ASK FOR HELP! BUT EVERYONE SHOULD TRY TO BOMB AT LEAST A LIL BIT EVERY DAY... I AM TRYING TO GET JOHNNY TO LET US RATE PICS INSTEAD OF BOMBING...WAITING TO HEAR BACK FROM HIM POINT INCREASES ARE FROM 2/10 - 2/16 PLEASE LET ME KNOW AT LEAST 24 HOURS BEFORE YOU PLAN TO ACTIVATE AN AUTO-11 SO THAT I CAN PIMP YOU OUT! PLEASE STAY AWARE OF HP AND MY STATUS MESSAGES, IT WILL HELP US ALL A LOT! THANKS! I AM STILL EXTREMELY ILL, AND NOT ONLINE A LOT, PM IS T

Goin To State Baby!!
tate bound! Israel Potoczny israel@lebanondailyrecord.com Feb 16, 2009 Missouri Class 4? No sweat. Wrestling in the state’s largest class for the first time, Lebanon placed fifth in the 13-team meet and will send its largest class of state qualifiers in 12 seasons to Columbia. Six Yellowjackets qualified for the state tournament at the District 3 meet on Saturday in Jefferson City. Justin Britt (285 pounds), Trevor Byrd (215), Zach Drinkall (189), Austin Brawner (145), Tyler Zimemrman (140) and Kyle Hansen (125) placed in the top four and will compete at the state meet on Thursday in Columbia. “We went to seed meetings thinking we would get three or four (state qualified),” Roark said. “We pulled off six, and we could have had a couple more.” Lebanon last sent as many as six wrestlers to state in 1996. The Yellowjackets had a total of 31 state qualifiers in a four-year span from 1992-1993 to 1995-1996, including nine in 1994, and eight in both 1995 and 1996. Justin

Come Own A Bala!!
Come bid on me and own Your very own bala for the month!! Here is what you would get! Fu bucks bids * Owned by added to my name (1 month* * rate all pics and stash during HH* * SFW Salute* * 2 tricked out photoshop pictures* * get you sh*tfaced once a week* Real money bids (VIP,blast,bling) * Yim ID* * Access to nsfw pics* * NSFW salute* * Photo shoot for my owner (no money shot)* * Added to top family for a month* Simple click the picture link and Your on Your way to own Your own bala its that easy!! [ fubar.com photo: 3420452438 ]

Hosting My First Auction
=== 'DRAGONATIC~DJ~DRAGONATIC ~' DRAGONATIC'S AUCTION IS ON!!!!!!!!! STARTING: MONDAY FEB.16 AT 8:00 PM EST. ENDING: TUESDAY MARCH 17 AT 8:00 PM EST. ID LIKE TO MAKE THIS A HUGE SUCESS!!!!!! SO COME BID ON YOUR FAVORITE THEY ARE OFFERING SOME GOOD THINGS!!!!!

John Bobbit's Dick
Lorraina Bobbit was really very upset at the actions of her husband so she cut off his penis. Below is the part of the story that you may not have heard yet.... After she cut his dick off, she left the house with his cock in hand. She got in her car and headed down the highway. Realizing what she had done, and realizing that she still had the swollen bloody cock of her husband in her hand, she tossed it out the window. The penis flew out and was taken by the wind. It hit the windshield of the truck that was behind her. Inside the truck, there were two rednecks that were in from a hunting trip. As the cock hit the window one turns to the other and says, "Hey Billy Ray..." "What Cletus?" "You see the size o' the dick on that bug?"

It's Because Of Her
It's because of her I am so full of hate. Waiting for the day I come home to get my revenge. No one knows how much pain I went through because of her. I gave you ALL of my heart! And I am not gunna remain silent about this anymore. It's because of her I can't live a normal life. It's because of her I am depressed. I am so over her, but not over the fact that she got away with what she did to me. My life is getting worse because of her. No one understands and tells me to let it go. I can't until I put my mind at ease. I am the most loving guy you'll ever meet but you brought out this side of me that I never knew I had. You are the worst kind of person. I hate you so much Cheating Ex Fiance: (www.myspace.com/ashleyavenger)

Venting
Y are we so blind as to see the problems today? We treat our education system poorly. Our elected officials are usally are as bad as can be found in the local jails. We will give to save the children of another country, but let the homeless of america go hungry. We are flawed. I too am included. I am just tired of the stupidity of everyday life. I just want to vent, and since the odds that some one will read this b4 they rate it are nill, i will vent here. fasten yer seatbelts and hang on, it'll be a hell of a ride. Kobra-

Catch & Release
Catch & Release The Pornstar COME ON LETS HELP HIM BACK FOR ALL HIS Love And Sexiness He Has Shown Us mmmmm Catch & Release Wifed & Owned by the Magnificent Sherrylicious@ fubarcenter> JUST CLICK ON THE LINK AND GET HIS ASS WAHOOOOOOOOO

The Gypsy Heart
all things in nature have a spirit We believe that when you hunt if you kill an animal you thank the animals spirit for giving its life so that you and your family can eat and live We thank mother nature for providing the animal and father sky for giving good weather for the hunt and both bury the parts that cannot be used in the earth as a sign of respect for the animal and in thanks to the animal, mother nature, and father sky they give back so that it will be reborn the animals are our friends the woods our sanctuary the streams and rivers our life blood the mountains our strength the sun is our warmth the moon is our guide the stars tell of our journey the stones tell us stories if we but take the time to listen the wind whispers to us as we move no creature is more in tune with our mother the earth than we of the clans no one understand the natural world better than the gypsy for we are wild as the world and free as the wind we are Our mothers children now and

For My Baby
too many ideas flowing therough the channels of the mind to dictate just one would never suffice, two or three seem better to me but then the words are theirs not mine. By theirs I mean the many muses that live in the vast reaches of the void. Their thoughts and desires seek out the word smith and bombard us until we have no choice but to surrender thought and perhaps even reason to the myriad of impulses flowing along the synapses making the fingers work to produce the words the muses wish to spew forth upon the page. I myself must admit that at times the words are not mine, and in fact sometimes I cannot even claim to know where they come from or who as the case may be. I sit and I write never really knowing what will come next, this is bot a joy and a curese. For to type without foreknoweledge is to sometimes put fporth things one would not normally say....And now on with the show yes? yes. I sat down to write tonight with the thought of but one person in my mind, My gorl Kat. A wom

Somethin Cool I Read Recently
A STORY OF TWO WOLVES An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life "A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego." He continued, "The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?" The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

Leveling Blog 397
Justfishing Fu-Hubby to NunyaB... Member of Carrie's Bad Azz Boys 4 Life@ fubar 496k to level Auto 11's on ~*NunyaB~Fu-wife to Justfishing~BadBitch~*The Pegasus Project*~*Fu-Angel~SBG~@ fubar 531k to level Auto 11's on This is a dual level just click on either link

A Vampires Tale
this is a tale that speaks of both truth and of myth....the truth is that a man named jesus christ was crucified upon a cross of Roman design and adopted by the christians as a symbol of faith.The myth is that christ was the first vampire....he was not nor will he ever be a vampire. He truly was the son of god in human form. Humans are sacred to the one called god. meaning that they are his children, christians drink the blood of christ at ceremonies held by various churches. they also eat the body of christ...yes I know they are but symbols. However using the teachings that life itself is sacred this would make the blood of christ was sacred, theirfore so is the blood of every human. Theirfore I say to you that the vampire is more of god than any priest as we drink the blood of humans to sustain our lives, yet a priest does it to mock the man who said the words drink of this it is my blood, eat of this it is my body. for if not a mockery they would actually partake of the real thing i

Im Getting Close..
Extra! Extra! Read all about it. Unnhibited_one is up on the auction block! So click on pic and Rate,and if you want to own me leave a bid aswell! Plus i am only 606k till i make it to insider so stop by and show some love! http://www.fubar.com/unnhibitedpleasure Quick, run and tell all your friends. Spread the word. a>

I Just Saw A News Report Of The Auto Makers Wanting Help.
I just saw a news report of the auto makers wanting help. Seems to me, I can't afford a new car. The last car I had...I didn't get any help in buying. They have been...well to put it in a nice way...screwing us since day one... Let them sell some of thier property to pay thier own way out of this mess they got themselves into.

Musings Perhaps?
I sit here this night looking at the keyboard as if it holds the mystery of that which I am about to put forth upon the cyber page, perhaps it does In truth I know not where my writings come from at times. Sometimes they are of my own creation and sometimes I just start typing and let whomever or whatever it is that atunes itself to the word smith to take control so to speak. Usually at that time my mind seems to go on a vacation of sorts and I hardly even realise what I have written until I look upon it after I have finished. I have often tried to discern just what or who it is that "takes over" , as of yet I have failed to ascertain that particular information. But then maybe that is the point, for maybe if I ever do figure it out the words will no longer flow and I will be left bereft and wanting for the voice in my head that drives me to type/write. Perhaps it is the journey after all that is the inspiration, I truly do not know. I do know that I am grateful for the words when they

A True Radio Dj
A TRUE RADIO DJ Ok everyone it has come to my attention that people are calling themselves dj’s but they are afraid to talk to the one force that drives them and keeps them in business. Their audiences you look at the world famous dj’s there have been likening the music that they play or not they all have one thing in common. Whether it is Dr. Demento, Wolfman Jack Casey Kasem, and Adrian Cronauer. Or an endless list of nationally and world famous dj’s they all had one thing in common no it was not playing music on the radio which they all did very well but they did one even more important thing they TALKED to their audience, they made their audience feel welcome, and made them feel like they were talking directly to them. Now any MONKEY can play music but a dj’s job is to keep the energy flowing convey feelings thoughts through no only their speech but also their music that they play. Many people have forgotten exactly how powerful a dj can be. Do you

"...collaring Kitten".......
The words and language of submission had run through her head for many years. The rhythmic cadence of them haunting her waking hours and invading her mind at night. The fantasies had been with her for so many years that they were a comforting old friend. Created from the darkest desires of her heart and from the vivid images from her online research and the endless stories she read. The words were important to her. The way they had connected with her soul and aroused her for so long made her long to belong to him body, mind and soul. She'd found him, the Master she'd dreamt of for so long. The one to whom she could belong and serve. She loved the sound of the diminutives from his lips, calling her his pet, his little one, his kitten. The words caressed her mind and provoked an intense physical reaction in her, raising goose flesh on her body and causing her to shake with desire. She closed her eyes and imagined the planes of his face and savored the emotions brought about by the bond

A Dog Named Faith
A BLOG WRITTEN BY: Curvaliciousbbw™ ஐ*ღDangerous Curvesღ*ஐ A Dog Named Faith This is a story about a dog who was born on Christmas Eve in 2002. He was born with 3 legs - 2 healthy hind legs and 1 abnormal front leg which needed to be amputated. He of course could not walk when he was born. Even his mother did not want him. He was rejected and scorned. By curvaliciousbbw at 2009-02-16 His first owner also did not think that he could survive. Therefore, he was thinking of putting him to sleep.. At this time, his present owner Jude Stringfellow came into his life and wanted to take care of him. She was determined to teach and train this dog to walk by himself. She thought, all we need is a little faith. In the beginning, she put Faith on a surf board to let him feel the movements of the water. Later she used peanut butter on a spoon as a lure and to reward him for standing up and jumping around. Even the other dogs at home helpe

My Children
My children are my life. My children are my world. My children are the light of my life. My children are far away. My children hear I love you everyday. My children are loved unconditionally. My children were raised up traditionally. My children have had a hard life. My children are the loves of my life.

Oh Plz Help Me Now Lol Ty Ty
Hello everyone plz help me win a vip.. I'm just about half way there now.. Thank you!!! THIS ONE I NEED 12.500 FOR AN AUTO 11'S SO YA I NEED A LOT OF HELP PLZ GUYS TY k guys you just have to click on one of the two pics here and leave a few comments on them.. as soon as I reach the amount Im suppose to get I'll get the item.. thanks all

You Are
As I sit here thinking of you wondering where you are. I think how lucky I am to have you in my life and who you are. You are my love. You are my life. You are my happiness. You are my sun. You are my light. You are my peace. You are my completion. You are my joy. You are my strength. You are all these things to me and more. I can't wait to see what our life has in store. I love you with all my heart and soul. I love you more than you will ever know. This is written to let you know , how special and irreplaceable to me you are.

How To Keep A Female Happy.
1. Give her everything she wants in life 2. Never fight with her when she wants something. 3. Take her to the bedroom when she ask for some fun time alone. 4. Dont take bullshit from her. 5. give her sweets

Panasonic
When the main Panasonic headquarters in Japan acquired the rights to Woody Woodpecker for their "Internet Guide" to the company's website, they came up with a slogan to bring attention to him. On the eve of the campaign launch, it was cancelled indefinately. The reason: on that night, an english speaking company member spoke up on the translation into english, which was, "Touch Woody, the Internet Pecker."

You
Your eyes, your lips Your gentle fingertips. Your smile your laugh The way you take up on my behalf. Your touch your scent. To me you're heaven sent. The way I feel Is so unreal. No words can say How you make me feel each day. You are a nlessing in disguise. Oh how you opened up my eyes. I have never be treated so sweetly Or understood so completely. You make me happier than I have ever been You make me laugh like I haven't since I don't know when. You

My Love For You
My love for you My love for you is true My love for you has made me blue. My love for you is never ending. My love for you is unbending. My love for you will never die. No matter how hard I try. My love for you will never end. Always know you have a friend. No one can come in between us. No matter how much we may fuss. I love you now and forever more. Like I have never loved anyone before. My love for you will see you through. My heart will forever belong to you. I know that we are through but that is not the case with my love for you.

I'm Sorry
I'm Sorry I'm sorry if I call too much I'm sorry if I miss your touch I'm sorry that I stare at your face because it takes me to a safe place I'm sorry if I cling too tight I'm sorry if I want to be in your arms every night I love you and want no one else I wonder if you wish we would have never met and you were with someone else I hope I am wrong I hope we last so long Please tel me how you feel and if this is real I hope you feel what I feel I love your lips your gentle finger tips your smile your laugh the way you take up on your friends behalf If I did something wrong I'm sorry but hope you can forgive me and love me

Respect On Fubar
I hate People that act as if they don't have the time to be polite to others yet insist on being treated well according to there own rules. Come on be real! I'm only 47 yrs. and there are people older than me on here but, I'm pretty sure most will agree respect is earned by giving others respect. That's just how it works, you can twist it anyway you like but, if you are dealing with humans that's just how it goes. Most adults know this! Taking the time to be polite shows that you respect others and that you want respect in turn. Fubar is suposed to be an adult site. There are many different attitudes about just what that means. I believe it means "Live And Let Live!" If you don't like someone for "ANY REASON" like anywhere else in these United States of America move on, you don't have to Add, Rate, or Fan them, just ignore them that's being an Adult! They aren't asking for you to make them into what you want them to be either. Adult site means acting as an Adult! A

A Christmas Present/poem
What Jay Mathews means to me... J- is for the joy you bring into my day. A- is for the amazing friend you are. Y- is for your friendship everlasting. M- is for the memories we share. A-is for the acceptance you give me. T- is for the times we share. H- is for your heart of purest gold. E- is for you eyes so blue. W- is for the warmth of your smile. S- is for the sexiest D.J. in the universe. This is what Jay Mathews means to me!!!

Another Soul Pinnacle
MY SPIRIT FLOATS AWAY FROM THE DAGGER THROUGH MY CHEST IM REALLY NEVER KNOWING IF WHAT IVE DONE IS BEST SHIVERING AND BROKEN I LAY MY SOUL TO REST ALL THIS PAIN AND SORROW IS TOO MUCH TO DIGEST GATHERING STRENGTH AND WILL THAT I ONCE POSSESED TIME TO STAND AND FIGHT CONQUER AND PROTEST I WILL NOT GO GENTLY WILL NOT LET THE PAIN PERSIST FOR I NOW KNOW ITS ALL A MENTAL TEST WITH HONOR AND COURAGE I SHALL ARREST THE DEMONS AND FEAR THAT I NOW DETEST REBURY THEM AGAIN AND PASS THIS FINAL TEST FREE MY BROKEN SOUL THAT THEY NOW CONGEST REVIVE MY SPIRIT NOW IS ALL I CAN SUGGEST BITTERED AND HARDENED IF I DO DIGRESS AGAIN I TURN AWAY FROM THE BLACKNESS I INFEST SLAYING THIS BRUTAL INCUBUS FROM WHICH I AM DISTRESSED

Another Poem
Unforgettable you I miss your touch I miss your scent I still feel so much Done so much I regret. How do I forget unforgettable you. Your eye, your smile, you kiss, your taste. I feel that I let a good thing go to waste. I'm sorry for the things I've said. But I wasn't thinking with my head. I try and try but can't forget , unforgettable you. I want to let go and go on with my life but no matter how hard I try. I can't forget unforgettable you. I remember the bitter and the sweet. Without you I feel so incomplete. Please forgive me and let me prove How deep my love is for Unforgettable you.

February
So it took a couple weeks to get over the "you make me wanna cry blues" boys are silly and I am sillier to let them bother me so! I am sick. Yucky, snotty girl...missing her daily quota of knottiness. haha! So I wanted to let you know I am alive. I am still primarily off the fu. I do miss you all so very much!! If any of you have written blogs that you think I should read please email me a link so I can go check them out when I check my mail That is the first thing I do when I sign in yanno! Ok...thats it. LOL Alana

Gayfag
->lorenzo63: You really don't read profiles, do you? I don't cam, I don't cyber, and I have a boyfriend that I love very much who satisfies me in every way, meaning I don't need to see your teeny weeny on cam. lorenzo63: kisses lorenzo63: if u want call me....i've cam.... lorenzo63: never mind..... ->lorenzo63: Umm... no... and why would that matter? lorenzo63: r u alone? ->lorenzo63: Thanks. I thought I was aging gracefully. lorenzo63: 86yo....look young!!! ->lorenzo63: Rating pics lorenzo63: what r u doing? ->lorenzo63: Thank you lorenzo63: mhh...u look very nice..... lorenzo63: hi babe.... lorenzo63@ fubar

One Bad Ass-kickin'
A couple from Montana were out riding on the range, he with his rifle and she (fortunately) with her camera. Their dogs always followed them, but on this occasion n a Mountain Lion decided that he wanted to stalk the dogs (you'll see the dogs in the background watching). Very, very bad decision. The hunter got off the mule with his rifle and decided to shoot in the air to scare away the lion, but before he could get off a shot the lion charged in and decided he wanted a piece of those dogs. With that, the mule took off and decided HE wanted a piece of that lion. That's when all hell broke loose for the lion. As the lion approached the dogs, the mule snatched him up by the tail and started whirling him around. Banging its head on the ground on every pass. Then he dropped it, stomped on it and held it to the ground by the throat. The mule then got down on his knees and bit the thing all over a couple of dozen times to make sure it was dead, then whipped it into the air again, walke

Come One Come All
My top 2 through 6 friends all have autos running. I cant say witch one to go rate cause they are all good woman. I've rated all of them before and they all returned the love I gave in the own ways. Just pick one and show some made love. Milk & Honey ☺♥ Fu Owned By Puddy ♥@ fubar ~ღ~kinky wild kat~ღ~ fan me please@ fubar ☆Serendipity☆ ~ღ Dangerღus Curves ღ~ Owned by The Looney Abraxas (:@ fubar ♦H◊®nY♦ÅnGe£♦© Proudly Sponsored By ~*Archaic Angel™*~@ fubar ~*Fan Me~*Tinkergirl101*~Owned By Dark Defender & Tony Proud~@ fubar

Motley Crue With Hinder And Theory Of A Deadman
This was one hell of a night. My friend Heather and her daughter came over and we took a cab to the Metro Centre. we got down there and those damn cabs are so small that i almost fell and didn't make it in my chair. We saw a bunch of picketers who were anti Motley Crue because of the Devil stuff that the band associates it songs with. We had to wait in line they opened the doors at 5:30 and we had to check our bags for weapons and other things. They would not allow cameras in there which sucked. So soon as we got there i saw my friend Shelly , who is in my SCI support group, up at the souvenir stand. I bought some motley crue pins and stickers and a awesome Saints of Los Angeles T-Shirt , it was 40 dollars but worth it, i was hoping to find a Theory of a Deadman T-Shirt but none i liked. So then Heather and her Daughter found me and then we headed to our seats. I stopped at Paninos got a mini pizza bread sandwich and a pop. We got to our seats as the first band "THE LAST VEGAS"

Wtf?
Peeps, Dont know if this is happening to all of you or not, but while i was rating today, my alert section (PICS AND STASH)was reset. I'm doing my best to rate everyone, but if i find out that its becauce i dont have a VIP , i will delete my account and baby jesus can shove it far up his ass. There's way too much drama on here and my primary family seems to be in a constant hold stage, so if ya dont here from be just look for my IM , been on one of the competetors sites anyways so except for a few close friends, this wont be a loss.

Inside Our Minds...
Bottom to top dear friends. ->Anonymous: If I have to live forever never getting off, then I guess I'd rather be buried in a ditch somewhere. Anonymous: only if you wanna be buried there...wait, THATS what ditches and random spots in the woods are for... ->Anonymous: That's what cemetaries and work breaks are for Anonymous: oh, fuck if you DONT, woman. Might not be able to get you off...but i CAN make your pleasure happen...or not ->Anonymous: Last I checked, I didn't need your permission to fuck other guys. Anonymous: thats what im sayin. You better appreciate what im doin for you! ->Anonymous: Well, then I guess I'd better make that ONE guy count. At least I'll get off for the first time in a year... Anonymous: you WISH. I get 10 other chicks for every guy YOU do. Ill even be nice and keep it at half that. You one guy, me...5 chicks ->Anonymous: For every five guys I fuck, you get one guy? Anonymous: you know my ratio rule ->Anonymous: FUCK YES! U

Key To My Heart
I had closed the door upon my heart, And wouldn't let anyone in! I had trusted and loved, only to be hurt, But that would never happen again. I had tossed the key to my locked away heart, As hard and as far as I could! Love would never enter again, My heart was closed for good. But then you came into my life, And made me change my mind. Just when i thought that tiny key, Was impossible to find. Just then you held out your hand, And proved that i was wrong. Inside your palm, was the key to my heart, You'd had it all along!

Services Pending
An important announcement on this day of Feb.16 2009 Whispers has lost her pc because of it's untimely death...due to hard drive failure...she flat-lined out this morning in her home at her desk at approx. time noted 10 A.M.C.S.T. Ms Dell was rushed AQAP (as quickly as possible) to the nearest closest puter shop where she was pronounced DOA...She'll be replaced as early as tomorrow afternoon...Services are pending... The Family(Whispers) is asking in lieu of the usual flowers plz send fubucks(via fupal) and or bling All gifts will be appreciated... So remember folks any time you hear clicks coming from your tower...just dont say to yourself...WTF was THAT noise...Act on it!! Before it's too late. Don't let this happen to YOUR PC!! Musical arrangements have been taken care by the Late Great King himself....Elvis P. Music chosen: Let There be peace in the Dell Valley

Surprised, Shocked And Completely Confused.
My bf and I are just about to reach our 1 year anniversary in March, and I have been happier with him than I have been with the 2 exes of mine COMBINED. He is my best friend. I know all the intimate details of his life, well most of them. And he knows everything I've been through too, at least all the major details. There have been a few major people/events in my life with a lot of little filler stuff in between. Many things I don't remember, except on occasion when I'm stoned or with old friends do I remember the fluffy little details of my past. It's probably better that most things in the past stay RIGHT there...in the past. I am going through trauma therapy right now to deal with those old demons so that my bf and I can move forward with a HEALTHY version of me. I'm also seeing doctors for my chronic pain issues and trying to better my physical well-being as well. After spending a wonderful Valentine's Day evening on the town with some drinks with friends and karaoke, and sleeping

Poetry
The Man I Love The man I love is coming back to me. The man I love is all I see. The man I love is far away. The man I love will come back some day. The man I love is sweet and true. Without the man I love I am so blue. The man I love is on my mind. I think about him all the time. The man I love makes me feel so right. His name is Bobby Joe Wright. The man I love is gone today. The man I love chases my gray skies away. The man I love is gentle and kind. The man I love is one of a kind. The man I love has eyes of blue. To the man I love I will never be untrue. The man I love is tender and waarm. The man I love will cause me no harm. The man I love is honest and giving. Without him I don't want to go on living. The man I love is out of sight. His name you ask, Bobby Joe Wright. TO you the man I love I apologize, for you the man I love have opened up my eyes. For the man I love my love grows stronger every day.

Zombies
When zombies attack you better have a plan. I just hope Ill be able to get to a samurai sword in time, because when you really think about it theyre pretty ideal. Lightweight, and designed through thousands of years of steel engineering to decapitate human heads. I guess some guy did this test where he made fake human necks in order to demonstrate how easy they could be cut through with a katana, and the dude like barely moved his wrist to get the job done. I find that very disturbing to know that somebody went through the trouble of designing a fake human neck..... Plus swords dont run out of bullets. But, just in case i get in some real trouble, a sawed off shotgun slung around my shoulder like kyle in The Terminator, and a fanny pack full of shells. Of course the fanny pack would need to be tricolor, of the flourescent sort. Now everybody knows that a key resource for surviving any zombie attack is some rope, but i think i would skip the rope since im already carrying a

Strange Sex Laws
In Florida, having sexual relations with a porcupine is illegal. In Tibet, many years ago, the law required all women prostitute themselves. This was seen as a way to gain sexual experience prior to marriage. "Female breasts," according to the Arizona Supreme Court, don't constitute "private parts" under state law. The Asiatic Huns punished convicted male rapists and adulterers with castration. Female adulterers were merely cut in two. The penalty for masturbation in Indonesia is decapitation. The T'ang Dynasty Empress Wu Hu passed a special law concerning oral sex. She felt that a woman pleasuring a man represented the supremacy of the male over the female. Therefore, she insisted all visiting male dignitaries show their respect by pleasuring her orally when meeting. The empress would throw open her robe and her guest would kneel before her and kiss her genitals. In London, it's illegal to have sex on a parked motorcycle. There is, in fact, an Illinois law that prohibits

No Cannonballs
i accidentally titled my blog what i meant just this subject to be, guess that's my blog's name now. no cannonballs My father told my sister and I what he wishes for his death arrangements. He wants to be "burned" and then his ashes sprinkled along the north side of snake hill bay on saratoga lake, where we live. After the the sprinkling is done (which must be done from our pontoon boat, all the participants in swimwear with beers in hand) we all have to do cannonballs into the ashy water. My sister agreed with this idea, and decided her fate should be the same. Except she doesnt want the cannonballs... however when she told me this i was a little confused, because i wasnt sure if the one difference between her plan and my dads was the cannonballs or the being cremated. This confusion immediately led to imagery of high tight cannonballs onto dead bodies floating in the water, which i found fucking histerical. All this morbid conversation at the breakfast table started wi

Inner Pain
I USE TO THINK I MATTERED I USE TO THINK I INSPIRED NOW MY SOUL IS SHATTERED WALLOWED IN THE MIRE I USE TO THINK I HAD MIGHT I USE TO THINK I HAD LOVE NOW ALL I FEEL IS SPITE OF HAVIN NONE OF THE ABOVE LIKE A PHOENIX AROSE FROM THE GRAVE I CONQUERED MY OWN PLIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE A SLAVE A SPIRIT THAT HAS NO RIGHT BROKEN DOWN AND BATTERED A SHELL WITH OUT A LIGHT MY WHOLE BEING TATTERED WILL I EVER WIN THE FIGHT CONSUMED BY GRIEF CONTROLLED BY FEAR ALONE AND EMPTY FILLED WITH DESPAIR I USE TO THINK I HAD HOPE I USE TO THINK I HAD GIFTS NOW MY SOUL IS SHATTERED AND I WATCH MY SPIRIT DRIFT I USE TO THINK I HAD JOY I USE TO THINK I HAD LOVE NOW ALL I HAD IS DESTROYED HAUNTED BY THE ECHOS FROM ABOVE

10 Questions For You
1.) What is my best feature that you are attracted to? 2.) Do you like girls who take care of their bodies or let themselves go? 3.) Where would you take me on our first date? 4.) Are you romantic? 5.) Do you enjoy a walk on the beach? 6.) Where is your favorite spot to kiss a girl? 7.) Could you make out with me and have nothing else happen? 8.) Would you work on our relationship and wait for sex or expect sex right off? 9.) What is your dream girl? 10.) What is your worst habbit?

Sex
Two deaf people get married and during the first week of marriage they find that they are unable to communicate in the bedroom with the lights out since they can't see each other signing, or reading lips. After several nights of fumbling around and many misunderstandings, the wife figures out a solution. She writes: "Honey, why don't we agree on some simple signals? For instance, at night, if you want to have sex with me, reach over and squeeze my left breast one time. If you don't want to have sex, reach over and squeeze my right breast two times." The husband thinks this is a great idea. He writes back to his wife if she wants to have sex with him, reach over and pull on his penis one time. If she doesn't want to have sex, pull on his penis two hundred and fifty times.

If You Rated Me/added Me 2/16
i may not have gotten around to returning some of the love... partially because holy hell there's alot of you lovely people and partially because my damn internet dropped out lol.... please feel free to comment here so i can go back and try to hit you guys up over the next couple days... and no if you post here i won't go "omg a rate whore" ... i'm asking for your help to repay your kindness /huggles sin

What Women Say Vs What We Mean
Thought this was cute! My best friend who happens to be a gay guy sent it to me (1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. (2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. (3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with "nothing" usually end in "fine". (4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! (5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing. ) (6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can mak

*be Yourself
So you think the things that I write are gay,but you're just jealous because I've got something intelligent to say. Yea,we all know your type..you talk alot of shit but it's all just hype. You're fighting for something,but you're not fighting for your right. And I'll wait for a response,if it takes all night. You hop on the bandwagon,a brand new trend..just patiently waiting for this one to end. Been hand fed lies since you were only three,but you won't ever change your ways,because who you are is all you'll ever be. You're searching for the truth but your eyes are closed,and when will this all end,no one knows. But you continue to tell yourself that it'll be okay,been given the chances but you throw them away. You're starving for something but you don't know what,keep believing the lies cuz you can't get enough. Something tells me that you're a little confused,the way you're looking around as if you have no clue. All the helping hands that you've turned down,now you're alone and you w

*you're Such A Joke
Once again someone believed your lies,and won't be long til they realize. That nothing you say ever holds any truth,but the longer you cry wolf,the more it's just no use. I'm tired of suffering for all the things that you've done,I want this to be over but I'm seeing it's just begun. You're only human,and I understand I suppose. But you've got legs and a mouth,I suggest you keep them closed. You may be supplied to fight this fight,but the ammo that you're using just ain't right. Because you insist on dragging people in who just have no clue,meanwhile everyone has become so disgusted in you. It amazes me how much people buy your shit,and the pain you've caused I'll never forget. You see,I thought we were done,grown up and moved on. But once again,your immaturity has proved me wrong. You insist on playing childlike games,and instead of taking credit you point me to blame. I tried to save some bridges,you know,the ones that you burned. But once again you've only proven to me that idiots w

*a Letter To The Opposing
If love is a fashion trend,then I am use to it going out of style with me. I thought I'd never say that,I was glad to see you leave. And if this is killing you as bad as it is me,then I hope you can give me a little of your sympathy. I hope you're crying over me because I'm laughing over you,and I wouldn't take you back if it was the last thing I'd do. You can call me whatever when I'm not there,but the truth of it is that you never cared. You say we're still friends,and all good things must end. But I hope you don't treat your friends as bad as you treat me,because in the end all you'll be is lonely. I tried to be nice about things and make you see,that the only person you're hurting isn't me. So with regards,and my deepest regrets..you haven't got to the best of me just yet. Wait around and maybe you'll see,I was the best thing you had but you never had me.

*as Good As Gone
I think I struck a nerve By the way It's bleeding I think I'm onto something Cuz history's repeating I feel it's hopeless And I know you agree I feel so useless But this isn't the last of me I'm screaming... How do you expect me To match up to your expectations How do you expect me When I get in these situations And I'm as good as gone I think I struck a chord By the way it's ringing I think I'm in the way Cuz of the way you're screaming I feel it's hopeless And I feel so alone This feels so useless Anyone can hold a microphone And I'm screaming... How do you expect me To match up to your expectations How do you expect me When I get in these situations And I'm as good as gone And I'm as good as gone I'll tell you this now Because you're the only one who sees You're only lying sor attention And some fucking sympathy

Who'll Stop The Rain
Someone told me long ago There's a calm before the storm, I know; It's been comin' for some time. When it's over, so they say, It'll rain a sunny day, I know; Shinin' down like water. CHORUS: I want to know, Have you ever seen the rain? I want to know, Have you ever seen the rain Comin' down on a sunny day? Yesterday, and days before, Sun is cold and rain is hard, I know; Been that way for all my time. 'Til forever, on it goes Through the circle, fast and slow, I know; It can't stop, I wonder.

*the Diagnosis Is Worse Than The Treatment
Have you ever laid down And closed your eyes Wishing you'd never wake up Wishing you'd die Because the pressures of life Were just too much The harder you tried The harder it was to stand up The more you refused The more you gave in Cracking and crumbling Until you can't get up again Have you ever lost hope Felt like everyone's against you The more you fought The harder you'd lose No matter the rights They always felt wrong Always risking it all Until everything is gone The harder you pushed The more you were pulled Until everything around you Lost all control Life is but a dream We're all the plot And you're just the scheme

*the Luckiest Guy
She's there for me When I have no friends Takes care of me when I'm sick And holds my hand She's there for me She makes me smile When I don't want to goto bed She stays for awhile She's there for me When I need a hug When I'm feeling down She smothers me with love She's there for me Even when I'm too much She sticks it out and calms me down With just one single touch She's there for me Even when I'm at my worst No matter how busy she is Her love for me comes first She's there for me When all else fails No matter what the situation Our love will prevail She's there for me And it's not hard to see why That I love her so very much And that makes me the luckiest guy! My love for her You'd have to measure in miles I'd go to the ends of this earth Just to see her smile My love for her Will never rust,tear,or fade No matter what we weather I'll love her til my dying day My love for her Is so pure and so true With one look she makes me me

*these Shivers
Here it goes I can feel it coming on again I'm starting to shake I'm begining to fade I don't know if I can Hold on much longer My knees grow weak My impulses grow stronger As my eyes dialate You try to help me But it's too late Someone help me out of this state I'm so tired Of waking up like this Never knowing where the end is These shiveers never go away Never go away I'm so tired The air in my lungs expire I need to find a way To make myself okay Can someone help these shivers go away? And this time I'm blacking out again I'm losing control Will someone please hold my hand? When will I shake this When will I make it better I'm tired of losing memory You think I'm strong but I'm not It takes everything that I've got To not give in again Someone help me.. I'm so tired Of waking up like this Never knowing where the end is These shiveers never go away Never go away I'm so tired The air in my lungs expire I need to find a way To make mysel

*complicated Verses
Away from home Away from everything That I've known Away from you Away from me Things aren't supposed to be.. Every single day I find it hard to say Keep looking but good news Never seems to come my way I search high Then I search low It only gets harder The more that I go I sit here and write Every line that I say Keepin my eyes peeled Til I find you one day But your presence to me Is more than I see I'm more comfortable now Than I can possibly be Everything fell apart But you were there To pick up my heart And now I stand More alive,with more to me Your love is so pure How could it be That a guy like me Finds a girl like you Your words are real Your heart is true I think it's kind of funny How we both fell into Each other's arms We never even knew But here I stand Proud and true I thank God every single day Thank him for you Away from home Thinks aren't so bad You give me love I've never even had You're the smile on my face The beat in my

Just When Your Not Looking...smack!
Ya know, sometimes, you have to just ride the waves in the ocean of life...and you can hang ten with some of the biggest waves it has to offer. Then, you start to ride the mother of all waves, your nervous as hell because you have ridden this kind before, then you ask yourself, how many times have you wiped out??? Your picking up speed as you slice through the curl of the wave, waiting for the crushing blows...so you hold your breath. Annnyyy minute now, your waiting for the nose dive into the unforgiving water. You close your eyes trying to feel your way on through, waiting for your entire world to become unbalanced again. When you open your eyes your leading the edge of the wave. You lean forward to feel the spray of the waves and sun against your face. Your world is in complete balance and for once you know this is the one your going to ride out.

*no One Cheers For Last Place
It still hurts to see your face Everywhere I go,every single place It hurts just to see you smile I'm doing all I can,just to make it for awhile I'm tired of feeling so without I'm trying hard to figure out Where did I go wrong? You were everything I wanted Everything I needed How did I get so lost? You were everything I worked for Everything I lost,but I moved on I'm just a memory,I won't forget your face But no one cheers for last place It's getting harder to hear your voice Every step I make,based on this choice It hurts just to see you smiling It's so hard to move on,but I'm trying I'm tired of feeling so without I'm tired of figuring out Where did I go wrong? You were everything I wanted Everything I needed How did I get so lost? You were everything I worked for Everything I lost,but I moved on I'm just a memory,I won't forget your face But no one cheers for last place

Why My Poems/songs Have *
So just some background into why my songs and stuff have an "*" at the start. A long time ago,I was on a poetry site,and some of my stuff got stolen..and rewritten as theirs. So,I started putting "*" at the beginning,and the copyrighting it. It was easy to pick mine out,mine had *. It's stuck ever since.

A Story Of Faith...a Must Read!
A Dog Named Faith This is a story about a dog who was born on Christmas Eve in 2002. He was born with 3 legs - 2 healthy hind legs and 1 abnormal front leg which needed to be amputated. He of course could not walk when he was born. Even his mother did not want him. He was rejected and scorned. By curvaliciousbbw at 2009-02-16 His first owner also did not think that he could survive. Therefore, he was thinking of putting him to sleep.. At this time, his present owner Jude Stringfellow came into his life and wanted to take care of him. She was determined to teach and train this dog to walk by himself. She thought, all we need is a little faith. In the beginning, she put Faith on a surf board to let him feel the movements of the water. Later she used peanut butter on a spoon as a lure and to reward him for standing up and jumping around. Even the other dogs at home helped to encourage him to walk. Amazingly, after only 6 months, like a miracle, Faith learned to bala

*mismatch Made In Heaven
Her hair is always so perfect Half the time his clothes don't even match Her eyes are always so focused He doesn't even know where he's at How do opposites attract? He's a punk She's a fake He likes sports She thinks that They're okay His tattoos Her short hair Deep inside They don't care What anyone has to say about them It's a mismatch made in heaven Her face is always so perfect His dream is to one day marry her Her smile always makes his brighter He patiently sits waiting for his turn How do live if you can't learn? He's a punk She's a fake He likes sports She thinks that They're okay His tattoos Her short hair Deep inside They don't care What anyone has to say about them It's a mismatch made in heaven

*oh Sh*t
If you have something to say,say it to my fucking face. Yea,I may seem angry,but only because you make me this way. You talk but I don't hear nothing,you'd think with all this yappin',you'd have something better to say. So far,I've heard no reason,no justification,no excuse in why. So if you insist on talking shit to me,just know you're going to get burned eventually. You keep talking,so I must be doin something right. But you'll just sit there,never calling me out to fight. In a battle of words,I'll always come out on top. So come on,shut up and give me all you got. I guess the phrase "Talk is cheap" holds true,because two cent words are all I ever hear from you. I'm curious to see what your comeback will be. Because you're words are always such a fuckin joke to me. So blabbity blah blah blah,I'll just pick out your flaws. So before you start something you can't win,think about who you're going up against.

As Promised .......
I wrote a blog about my photo's having to be cut because i'm not renewing my vip and as promised i have turned some of my favourites into a slideshow .... lol Some of my favourite creations, made by me! These are also in my stash under 'shows'. Enjoy! Hugs Linda xx

*i've Got More Wits Than You've Got Brains
Fuck pathetic You're about as lame as they come I'll fuckin write this til my hand goes numb This is repeatitive I feel like I've told you a thousand times You're making me lose my fuckin mind Fuck being nice,I tried to be friends But all I got was shit in the end You think you're clever,but you're just dumb Turns out I'm not the only one Who thinks you're fake Thinks you're shit But the truth you could never handle it I've held it in Kept it shut But now it's time to open up And let it out I've got words and you've got doubt Freedom of speech,ain't it a bitch? I hope this makes you sick Makes you itch This is for all the knives you put in my back For all the things you said I lacked Now I'm starting to finally see All the times you said the reason was me When all the time it was you But you couldn't take blame For the things you'd do Turns out that you told lies And I'm not fooled by your clever disguise And only truth is what I speak All you've got is t

*look Elsewhere Kid
So you say this was all just to better yourself. To kindly put love on hold,and put those feelings back on the shelf. Well I'm sorry to be the barer of bad news,but you got another thing coming if you think I'm waiting on you. You see I've got alot of thoughts going on in my brain,probably alot more than I could ever explain. You started something that you obviously can't finish,just up and go and leave me to deal with it. I understand your reasons,I honestly do. But it's kind of hard when you're only in this for you. I should've known something was up,and I'd end up alone because all of your plans,weren't set in stone. I'll always hold a love for you,deep inside. But the day you walked out,was the day it died. I hope that you're happy,in all that you do. I hate to point fingers,and I'd hate to assume..but it seems awkward to get pregnant,and walk out,too. Nothing makes sense,as hard as I try. Maybe one day,you'll realize..

Family Stuff
Ok folks, I need to take a fu break to help out my brother, some wierd sh*t happening at the moment so we are gonna try and get it sorted before things get out of control. Thanks and love to my fu family Lo Lo xx

*such A Bitter End To A New Beginning
So here I am again All alone again The lies have been said and Tears have been shed I never thought that you would say goodbye I believed the truth the truth that was in your eyes So now I've come to see You never really cared for me You never really cared at all Made me believe it was all my fault But you don't know what you had You made me a better man But you just threw me away With so much left to say But one day you'll wake up Wonder if I was enough And it'll be too late for you Cuz I'll be waking up with the girl The girl who already knew The pictures have all come down It's quiet with you not around The smell of your sweet perfume Still lingers in my room But don't worry about me anymore Leave me be and shut the door I don't wanna see your face But it's everywhere I go It's every place So now I've come to see You never really cared for me You never really cared at all Made me believe it was all my fault But you don't know what you had You

Stolen From Curviliciousbbw Bulletin! Must Read
A Dog Named Faith This is a story about a dog who was born on Christmas Eve in 2002. He was born with 3 legs - 2 healthy hind legs and 1 abnormal front leg which needed to be amputated. He of course could not walk when he was born. Even his mother did not want him. He was rejected and scorned. By curvaliciousbbw at 2009-02-16 His first owner also did not think that he could survive. Therefore, he was thinking of putting him to sleep.. At this time, his present owner Jude Stringfellow came into his life and wanted to take care of him. She was determined to teach and train this dog to walk by himself. She thought, all we need is a little faith. In the beginning, she put Faith on a surf board to let him feel the movements of the water. Later she used peanut butter on a spoon as a lure and to reward him for standing up and jumping around. Even the other dogs at home helped to encourage him to walk. Amazingly, after only 6 months, like a miracle, Faith learned to bala

*figuratively Speaking,i Don't Care
I'm having troubles with trying to get by. It sucks when I fucking wish I would die. Fuck the present,fuck the future. I'm living in the past,a life you can see through. I'm 26 and have amounted to shit. With all these failures I might as well quit. It's kind of pathetic,to not care about yourself. To treat your life as another book on the shelf. To treat yourself like a lost cause. It's better to just pack up,and move on. But I'm sure you've been here before. Shrug it all off and think nothing more. That's the difference between you and me. You always give up,I never let things be. My life is like a twenty car pile up. A car for each mistake. A smile you cannot fake. A ride you can't get off of. A drug you can't down. A habit you can't kick. Face it..my life is a train wreck. A circus. I'm the casualty..I'm the freak show. Just sit back,and enjoy.

What An Idiot
So I come back from an AMAZING parent/teacher conference to this....No Drama Q...: shut the fuck u p now No Drama Q...: i could care the fuck less about your profile ->No Drama Q...: and I have a question for you...do you know how to read profiles or do you just think you're above what it says? No Drama Q...: do u have yahoo messenger? ->No Drama Q...: .................what? No Drama Q...: i have a questionfor u ok?Now, I was the one blocked before he said "shut the fuck u p now". I really wanted to be the one to block him.

*a Clever Title
Ever feel like it only rains on you? You want to keep going,but the hill's just too steep You feel like the wind is always against you Take a look at your compass But it just points to nowhere Feeling more lost than found You yell for help but no one hears The more you try to do good The more it only gets worse You try to shed some light But it only turns to dark Taking the road less traveled But it always has the most traffic You see what you want Always out of reach The sun always shines But you feel so cold You make others happy But you're dissatisfied in yourself You make yourself happy Everyone is disappointed in you Make the best of the worst But the best makes it worse So many roads But which to follow So many voices Which to listen to Who to turn to Who to run to

Moving The Capitol
Ok, so I just recently moved to the East Coast for work and haven't been here long though this is something I have thought about for a bit. But what if the US capitol, meaning the president and his folks kinda rotated around the US. Say he has an office in like Kansas and another in California. I know they travel to these places but actually having to live there and being around that area does make a difference. Even as isolated as I am sure they are. It would definately screw the heads of all the professional politicians they reside here in the DC metro area.

Todays List 02/16/2009
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What The Fuck?
What the fuck is the deal on here lately? No one wants to talk or rate or anything anymore. I'm not even exaggerating, I can sit on here for hours and hours and rate, comment, fan, and admire hundreds of people and maybe one will even look at my profile, let alone rate me or anything. Blasts have also become useless and a complete waste of money. I posted a blast saturday morning, so far it has over 75,000 views, yet maybe 3 people have even checked me out. Like what the hell is the deal, i remember my first blast i had so many rates and comments i couldn't even keep up with them. Maybe i have progressively gotten more hideous and no one can stomach the thought of talking to or rating me... Is this site just dead or what? I have noticed though that this place has become a damn sausage fest, maybe that has something to do with it. Go look at the new members, 80% are horny single guys now, another 10% are fake profiles, with the fake pics of super hot girls, that try to take you to

Vengence
How can I be... So in love yet so consumed by anger? How can it be... That you are still in my head, still pissing me off? How can I... Forget how I loathe you? How can I... Forget how you promised me everything and gave me nothing? Who the FUCK were you... To lie to me, use me, make me your glorified whore? How could I... Have wasted it all on you? Every kiss, every tear, every cent What do I have to do... To make you go away? You played me for a fool I trusted your bullshit and bought your promises You told me I was it for you...the girl you never thought you'd find...the one...the best...the only...forever... I bled for you...I begged for you...I waited for you... You broke me...buried me...pissed on my grave You put me in a box....up on a shelf...and found another toy to play with She buys your lies...falls for your charms...believes your fake affection But one day...it will happen...she'll give it all...you'll take

Just A Biker ...if You Rip, Repost It Plz
JUST A BIKER I saw you hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But you didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant when you saw my bike parked out front. But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But you didn't see me riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children. But you didn't see me when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you stare at my long hair. But you didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you roll your eyes at our leather jackets and gloves. But you didn't see me and my brothers

Confeused.
I am new here and having a hell of a time. I have read all the decrition and nothing still does not work. tried to post my playlist cause I have to have music,(love music) can't figure out how to post a layout, guess some would call me a dumby maybe so. Please I need help...!!!!(

The Latest
Finally got my new apartment. they have free internet here for an hour a session until 4 pm CT. Life is finally settleing down and going in a positive direction. if you want to call me then shout me or mesg me and the next time im on i will give you my number. finally good to be back fubar!

Dj Schedule Monday 2/16/09 - Sunday 2/23/09
Thank you Devious, Pet and Bounty for all you do for Bada and for volunteering your time to make it an awesome place to be. I cant tell you how much I appreciate all you do for me, for Bada and for each other as a team. Love you guys! - Queeny Here is this weeks schedule, please let me or Ben know if you need a change. New Schedule will be posted here each Saturday. BADA BING DJ SCHEDULE 2/16/09 – 2/23/09 MONDAY Bounty 3pm – 6pm EST (2pm – 5pm CST) Devious 6pm – 9pm EST (5pm – 8pm CST) (80s 4play) Queeny 9pm – 3am EST (8pm - 2am CST) (80s show) (PET NO DJING) TUESDAY Queeny 3pm -8pm EST (2pm -7pm CST) Devious 8pm – 12amEST (7pm – 11CST) (megamix) Pet 12am – ?? EST (11pm - ?? CST) (BOUNTY NO DJING) WEDNESDAY Devious 3pm – 7pm EST (2pm-6pm CST) Bounty 7pm – 11pm EST (6pm -10pm CST) Humpday Queeny 11pm -3am EST (10pm – 2am CST) Humpday (Pet No Djing) THURSDAY PET 3pm – 7pm EST (2pm – 6pm CST) QUEENY 7pm – 10pm EST (6pm – 9pm CST) (maybe 70s)

Breaks The Chains *its Kinda Back To Front Sorry*
Away from the door stay of my porch Sometimes maybe just better off dead No more colour in this sonic mind The rest is gone in the blink off an eye In shades of Blue ascending over my head Watches the Silver glint off the moon Feeling & seething nothing off anything & hides in the dark gathering thoughts As I take a seat upon whats left There is no sound to gather this beat The smoke dissapears behind the clouds Of things & times p[ast upon this earth Breaks the glass behind the mirror shading & changing looking at the mess off the test watches my eyes turn rouge & cold laughs in the faces behind the orange when things turn sore & it bites to the core dont come back to my fucking door toasts a few condiments & spits them out as the ash tars my coat & I burn with the rest and the tail twitches to the beat the smoke slowly rises aboves my furry head as the flames rise higher than ever around my soul Pounces in the fire & dances on the ashes throws it in

This Is So True
I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don't look good... It hurts... because it's our fault, guys I mean. We make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, big boobs, round booty, long legs, sexy lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well... nobody can measure up to that... and its not fair... because nobody should have to. Girls prefer being called beautiful instead of hott or sexy. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was perfect the world would be so boring, variety is what makes life interesting. So guys, stop making girls have to live up to your, I'm sorry, our... deluded fantasy visions of perfection. Stop acting like boys and start being men... realize that women don't exist to fufill our sexual desires. Stop talking to them solely to get with them, be nice to them because you want to be their friend, not because you want to hook up with them. Say nice thin

Desiderata
desirederataGo placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and

The Waitress Who Became My Wife : (a Sequel To ‘the Tempting Waitress’)
Hi, this is Prakash. As I had told you, I married the waitress who worked in a local eatery on the way to my work. Now I am back with my honeymoon story. After marriage, we were planning for our honeymoon. My boss, who’s a really nice guy, gifted me an all-expenses paid honeymoon package to Ooty. We packed up our bags and went to Ooty to enjoy our honeymoon, little knowing the fact that my Boss had married the same day as I had and he too was going to Ooty with his new wife. I came to know it when he came knocking on our hotel room door as soon as we had reached our destination. My eyes fell out from my socket as I saw that it was my Boss and his wife. My…!! She is a bombshell. I let them both in and we introduced each other to each other’s wives. My Boss’s name is Rohit. His wife is Sneha. He is about 5’7” in height, a 34” waist and altogether a good looking guy. In contrast she was a live wire; 36-24-36 figure, fair complexion, height about that of Ritu’s, jet black hair that ran

Autos On Party And Level Here
LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED My auto 11s will be on 2/15/09 till 1:00pm on 2/16/09, so you can come party on my page today, and level! I will have auto 11's and a bunch of pics and stash for you to rate... Happy leveling!!! COME ON AND PARTY HARD ON MY PAGE, BRING YOUR FRIENDS ALONG!... Special Invitation to all fu's! LET'S ROLL! PLEASE SUPPORT ME AND MY BIRTHDAY AUTOS. I LOVE YOU ALL! Click below to party on my page Send 'Princess Leia's Birthday PARTY KICK OFF! Please Re-post Contests strikes again... Please come on down to my party! THE 1st 3 PEOPLE TO RATE FOLDERS 1-5 get a 3K bling... PRIVATE MESSAGE PRINCESS LEIA WHEN COMPLETE. ***The 1ST 200 PEOPLE RATE 200 PICS FROM FOLDERS #1 and #2, private message me for sparkling cider. Please tap Princess Leia's profile with a 11 or 10 while you are there. The little pic below takes you directly to my pictures

The Tempting Waitress
I am Prakash and work in a Multinational Consumer Durables company as a General Manager at their production facility in Mumbai. My workplace is far-offish from the main city and even I live a bit far from the town. I keep myself supplied at regular intervals from the city. I am 29 and a single. I am 5’9” in height and have an athletic build and a fair complexion. Often I have to work late at my office and have to eat out on those occasions at a local eatery on the way from my office to my home. I like its ambience, food and most of all its waitresses. They are cute and one of them is my favorite as she is quite young as they come and she goes all head over heels to please me when it comes to waiting at my table. She has quite a figure for her age. She has a 34-22-34 figure and is of 5’5” height. Most of all, she has a fair complexion, dark brown hair and hazel eyes that seemed to smile every time she looked up on you. It all happened when one night when I was leaving the restaurant,

Lady Client Pays Off Lawnman!
Yesterday,while doing my landscaping job at a lady client of mine,it turned into something great. Now she is a friend of mine,34yrs old recently divorced,with 2 kids. She stands about 5'6',140lbs,long brown hair,big titties(35c I think!),thick,sexy legs,and a great,round,curvy ass(my favorite!). I'm 47,6'0",175lbs,okay looking,but I have a nice 7.5"inch cock,which I jack off alot with. My marriage of 18yrs is normal,except for the lack of sex,which I crave so much. I jack off to pornos,internet,sex toys,whatever it takes,at least 5 times a week. I've never cheated, but have thought about it. I have jacked off many times,thinking of my lady client,and if she only knew!.We always give each other a tight hug when we see each other. And sometimes,I can just tell,that if I tried,I bet I could have fun with her,as she is friendly,not shy about rubbing against me,or showing off her ample tits. I casually flirt with her,seeing what she would do,and she seems to like it. After arriving at her h

Death Of Doughboy!!!
Please join me in remembering a great icon of the entertainment community. The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He was 71. Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of celebrities turned out to pay their respects, including Mrs. Butterworth, Hungry Jack, the California Raisins, Betty Crocker, the Hostess Twinkies, and Captain Crunch. The grave site was piled high with flours. Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded. Doughboy rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times, he still was a crusty old man and was considered a positive roll model for millions. Doughboy is survived by his wife Play Dough, three children: John Dough, Jane Dough and Dosey Dough,

John's Weird Dream...
So apparently John had a dream about me.... I decided to call him while I smoked. I'm thinking he is my "I need a friend to talk to while I smoke" friend, lol. Anyway, we start the conversation with how I managed to hurt myself getting off of the couch. Yes, I'm that much of a klutz. What happened was, I've been sitting on the couch for most of the day and I was sitting with my leg under me. When I got up and took a few steps, my knee popped really loud. That fuckin hurt! Next we started talking about doughnuts. I don't really know why. But just so you know, my favorite doughnut is the plain ones. Next is the cinnamon ones. Finally it's the ones with chocolate glaze on top. Just thought you all should know this, I don't know why..... He tells me that he had a weird dream last night. Right off the bat I knew it had something to do with me. And no...I didn't think it was perverted. I probably should have, lol. No, it wasn't though...hate to burst anyone's bubble, lol. In his

Stargate 1 Anubis
YOU ARE CORDIALLY INVITED TO JOIN ANUBIS'S OFFICIAL FUBAR STARGATE 1 CREW *************************************** First, you'll board the ship in the finest stargate galaxy ever. *************************************** Next, you have to watch out for Captian Anubis and Co-Pilot Princess Leia They might visit you and give out an exhilerating drink at any given moment.. (Don't worry, it won't harm you.) The other passengers might send you drinks, gift you, bling, or rate your things, you never know what's going to happen on this ship... Surprises await, including tags By Vollare Dave. 1.Anubis 2.'Princess Leia' Please Re-post *************************************** After you rate, fan, add, the crew, promotions team, and captain, just leave a blog comment for the co-pilot saying you have completed all the steps, she will add you to the Stargate 1 crew and on board the ship. Comments are encouraged. After the captain adds you to the crew and gives you your

Give The People Straw To Make Brick
“And afterward Moses and Aaron went in, and told Pharaoh, Thus saith the LORD God of Israel, Let my people go, that they may hold a feast unto me in the wilderness.” The fifth chapter of Exodus opens with Moses returned from self-imposed exile in Midian and his brother Aaron who met him on the way to Egypt appearing before Pharaoh. This was AFTER they had already appeared before the elders of Israel and then the people of Israel to establish their credentials as the ones the LORD would use to lead them out of Egypt where they and their ancestors had been slaves for centuries. Just as Pharaoh certainly could not have been ignorant of Moses before he appeared before him, so Moses it seems still knew enough of the ins and outs of the Egyptian court since he’d been raised as an Egyptian to get escorted before the throne of Egypt’s ruler and not cast there in chains. Moses and Aaron completed the first part of their commission by delivering their message in verse one. Verse two gives

My 1st Auto 11
Yeah You Read It Right... Starry Turned Me ON!!!!! Never In My Wildest Dreams Would I Have Considered Being Turned On By Another Woman! But She Asked... "Who Wants An Auto For Shits and Giggles?" And I Replied " Meeeeeeeeee" LOL According To Starry And Normally I Don't Devulge Such Private Things But She Mentioned It First In Her Status! "That This Was A Quickie For Her!" Sorry Starry I Got Too Excited! LOL Come Stop By My Page And Level Up On Me! This Will Be The First Time For Me & For You On Me! thank You Starry Loves ya girl!!!!! Jennifer, Member of Princess Leia's Crew@ fubar

Death Of Doughtboy
Please join me in remembering a great icon of the entertainment community. The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He was 71. Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of celebrities turned out to pay their respects, including Mrs. Butterworth, Hungry Jack, the California Raisins, Betty Crocker, the Hostess Twinkies, and Captain Crunch. The grave site was piled high with flours. Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded. Doughboy rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times, he still was a crusty old man and was considered a positive roll model for millions. Doughboy is survived by his wife Play Dough, three children: John Dough, Jane Dough and Dosey Dough,

Coughing Up Blood.
His fingers trembled as he reached for his smokes. He had to struggle to get his smoke lit, it was windy you see. As the window tore between the buildings, it made a high pitched whine that sounded like someone far away was screaming thier head off.

Song That Best Describes Me
Life and Love by Switchfoot You're a curious person, and you ask a lot of questions mostly about complicated things like life, death, God, and algebra... You try your best to always look on the bright side of things, but always spend a lot of time thinking over what happened and what caused it, etc.

Top 10 Reasons Why A Body Pillow Is Just As Good As A Man
10. A body pillow doesnt mind when you hog the blankets. 9. it doesnt mind when you hog the whole bed. 8. It doesnt shove you away if you snore. 7. You dont have to worry about offending it with your morning breath. 6. you dont have to worry about looking gorgeous when you wake up in the morning. 5. you never wake up in the mornings looking at it thinking "oh my god what the hell did I drink last night?" lmfao 4. You can wear sweat pants and a sweater to bed without it complaining. 3. Your friends wont discuss who you "sleep" with....(AMBER!!!!!! Leave me alone lmao) 2. You can go days without shaving ur legs and the number 1 reason........ 1. You dont have to worry about drooling all over it while ur asleep!!!! Lmao....ok so I was super bored and thought this would get a few laughs! How many of you can agree with any of these???

Death Of Coaster, Rise Of Nightmist
On July 14, 2008 Coaster was slain by his then vampire bride to be. Coaster was named after his demeaner, happy go lucky coasting thru life, well loved by many. Coaster endured lies treachery and deciet, then was starved to death for 2 weeks by the nurishment that only his vampire bride could of given. Prior to this all coasters protectors were driven from his side by the jealous vampire who didnt trust herself and took it out on coaster. Coasters last act bfore death was to slay his vampire bride as well. As he lay dying all the dogs and cur who were kept at bay by coasters protectors which were no longer there, came in droves to devour coasters flesh. One friend fought them off even using his powers to inflict insanity upon one of the cur, and dragged coasters body to a sacred hiding place. A deal was struck that the restless spirit of coaster could return to the world of man, but not in the same form. Thus Nightmist was born. Like the Crow, Nightmist is not the undead but a

Your Eyes
Your eyes As we said our goodbyes Can't get them out of my mind And I find I can't hide From your eyes The ones that took me by surprise The night you came into my life Where there's moonlight, I see your eyes How'd I let you slip away When I'm longing so to hold you Now I'd die for one more day 'Cause there's something I should have told you Yes there's something I should have told you When I looked into your eyes Why does distance make us wise? You were the song all along And before this song dies I should tell you I should tell you I have always loved you You can see it in my eyes